please help

EWB

Lots of fun, Lisa!!

honeygirl

Hello Beautifuls Sisters! Wow , I sure did miss alot. OK , Cathi , I have to say , excellent come back for "idiot-wrapped in a moron girl"! And BIG kudoos to you for calling her and handling this unpleasant situation with such class.She is what I call a "young soul". They seem to be ignorant to life lessons/situations. And they never think before they speak. I'm thinking BIL , maybe trying to "fix" her or teach her how she should react. OR , he is hopelessly in love with the rest of her , cause I'm quite sure its not her brain. Good luck with this. Did they come to your party last night?

Oh my , that pic of you and Margo!!!! You go girl! I agree with the others , you are quite the sexy mama! You do look great! I know you don't feel like your old self , with everything you have been through , and I wouldn't lie to you , you really do look beautiful. Are you recoperating from your party? Hope it was a great one!xxxx

Hi Nancy , I'm praying and thinking of you and your family , and especially your Dad. I'm glad you have some help from your siblings. This has got to be so physically and mentally exhausting for you. My Dad spent the last year of his life in a nursing home. I hated that. But was glad my mom  went there  everyday. Is he still on the feeding tube?  Hope he is resting comfortably.

Did I read that you are having some tests run? If so good luck to you. And as always , BIG ,big hugs to you.xxxx

Shirlann , it was so good to hear from you! Yes , the swine flu has everyone in an uproar. Two children were dx close to cleveland with it. Didn't we have a swine flu epidemic in the 1970's? I remember hearing of it years ago. If it is the same one , I was wondering if a person had it then , would they have some sort of immunity to it? Probably a different swine flu. Hope all is fine with you and Walt.xxxx

Lisa , (in a sing-songy tune) Lisa's got a date , Lisa's got a date!lol Hope you have some fun tonight. Aww , yes , it would be so nice if Alise could come to Matthew's special day. But if she can't , I'm sure he will be all bright eyes and smiles to see , Grandma Lisa there. Yes , fill us in tomorrow with all the juicy details of your date. Puppy hugs to Oliver. Hugs and kisses to you and Olivia. Oh , and may I say , that dress is fiercely hot! If I had Olivias beauty , thats exactly what I would wear!  Talk about making an entrance , all eyes will definately be on her! They should have a red carpet!!!

OK , I just remembered , someone elses daughter got a dress too. Nancy , was that your daughter? I'm sorry I can't remember who it was. But The dress is a knock out! So royal and sofisticated! I love royal blue. I never went to prom. So I absolutely love looking at all your daughters pics! Keep'em comin!

Hi to you Jane. Hope all is well on your end of the world. Are you having a lovely fall? I hope so.

We need a pic of blossom and a pumkin with colored leaves all around! Good luck with your drawings.xxxx

Jule! I should of known it was a man taking up your time! Wow , I remember when you first came here and told us about him. You two have been together for a while now. Good for you! I have a feeling , this ones a keeper! Hope you are very happy.xxxx

Makraz , Barbe , Shiela , Karen , Kaloni , Sue , AE , UB , Cheryl , Netts , Elaine , Debbie , Wren ,  hope you all are having a great moment , and anyone I forgot to mention , but think of you guys daily.xxxx

I hurt my back lifting this week , so I have to go sit in the recliner now. Talk to you all later.Mel

footprintsangel

Hi Ladies, I hope you all had a wonderful day, I am grateful for all the

love you show. I was taking to an old mayor whose wife has breast

cancer and they were out helping get glasses for the poor and I bought a

white cane. I thought that was wonderful, Fighting cancer and helping others.

 We are so lucky to have each other. Take care, need to rest and get ready

to fight with drs again. Take care,Debbie

portiasproudmom

Love and hugs to you, dear Debbie.  It shouldn't be so hard.....why should you have to fight with anyone?  If you ever want me to come with you, please let me know!  Okay? 

Love you,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Love you too, Mel!

Love to everyone!

Hugs,

Karen

NancyD

Hi everyone, I'm so happy to repoert that my father has improved mentally and physically. I saw him this afternoon and we were able to have a rational conversation. He's still tired, but didn't sleep constantly. Physically, he's still too weak to stand up or walk, but he's able to stay awake, which is a major improvement over a few days ago.

The feeding tube is doing it's job. He's only had it two days now, but they were able to give him all his meds and nourishment. I think that's making a big difference. Also, they've scrapped all the different meds he was on before and are adding them selectively as needed to make sure they aren't causing some of the craziness.

I had a conversation with him where I told him that he was so loopy that he told my sister that he was the President of the United States. To which he replied, "But I was!...In my dream."  So it's clear that a lot of his silly talk from a week ago came from being so tired he couldn't tell if he was awake or dreaming.

He'll be on the feeding tube for a while. Once he can demonstrate that he can chew and swallow, they'll add some feedings by mouth until he can eat a full meal.  It looks like we'll have to supplement his meals with the protein he gets from the tube for some time, even after he's eating regularly. He just doesn't have the stomach for a big meal, so he's also going to have to get used to smaller, more frequent eating.

Mel, I never went to my prom, either, so I'm getting vicarious pleasure out of the shopping for Emily's stuff. We had fun looking at fine jewelry the other day. It was very expensive stuff that we just looked at through the display case. I can only guess that the necklace was several thousand dollars. It had several large gemstones and many small diamonds. The earring/necklace set would have been lovely with her dress. But not even the 25% off coupon I had for Macy's would have made it affordable. I think we'll go with something simpler and fake, lol. 

Well, I'm off to do my hair.  Hugs to everyone!

barbe1958

Nancy, that's wonderful about your Dad! You must feel so much better...did your siblings come visit this weekend? It's good to hear that your Dad's spirit seems high, and he can kibbitz about the dreaming...

Footprint, I already told you if you need me to come down there and push you to the front of the line I will! I hope you get your new onc this week. You deserve only the best.

Mel, good to hear from you, I was wondering where you'd gone to. What did you lift? Yikes! Just what you need....sigh. I hope you heal quickly, there's good weather out there to enjoy.

Gentle hugs to all. 

Makratz

Nancy, great news about your  dad.  I'm happy for you all!

portiasproudmom

I'm so happy for you, Nancy!  They gave my dad meds that made him nuts too.  So glad they're carefully watching his reaction and are adding one med at a time.  Big hugs to you!

Karen

EWB

Great news that he's improving Nancy!! My FIL had lots of problems w/med interactiving...he was terrible with letting docs know what other meds he was on, never used the samp pharmacy....lots of wierd stuff started happening. I'm sure once that is all straightened out, and he is getting nutrition, proper meds, hydration...he will feel soooo much better.

livesstrong

Nancy - so glad to hear your father is improving.

For the record - I didn't go to my prom either - the guy I asked (I went to an all girls school) told me the day before he wasn't going!!!!!!  Nice, huh?

lvtwoqlt

Nancy I am glad they are getting your father's meds worked out.

I also didn't go to my SR prom. I went to my Jr prom but only because when I broke up with my boyfriend the year before he said that I wouldn't get a date to the prom. My dad was determined that I would have a date, so - - - he owned a small machine shop that the family spent a lot of time in and I knew the guys that was working for him. One guy, who was about the same age as my older brother (3 yrs), was asked if he would take me to the prom. Dad told him, he didn't need to rent a tux, he could wear a suit and my dad would buy the flowers and pictures. Jerome took off early, bought a new suit, picked me up in his camaro, we made an appearance at the prom, had our pictures taken, I think we spent about an hour there then went back to my house where we sat with the family and watched something on TV. I think Jerome took me out one other time after that. The guy that told me I wouldn't have a date, didn't have a date.

Sheila

NancyD

Back in my HS days, you had to have a date to go to the prom. They only sold tickets "per couple". And it was the '60s so girls asking boys wasn't really accepted (with the exception of all girls schools...or if it was a Sadie Hawkins dance, but those were never proms). 

I suppose there were more than few "couples" who really were just friends, but for the most part, you were considered to be romantically involved if you went together. I made the mistake of accepting a date to my junior ball with someone I didn't have any interest in and it was one of the worst dates of my life. I swore I would never do that again, so I really lobbied to get a guy I liked to ask me to the senior prom. In the usual fashion, I had a friend tell him I liked him and would go if he asked. It didn't work—he asked someone else, although I was told he did consider it for a while.

When my son went to his prom five years ago (wow, time flies) a bunch of them bought their own tickets, hired a limo and went as a group. Other than pairing off for the official photos and the guys buying the girls their flowers, they didn't couple up. I didn't even get to take a photo of them before they left for the dance.

So, this is the last one for me. I'm going to shoot a whole digi card full of photos (no more film, lol).

1Cathi

Nancy such good news about your dad. 

I can join into the NO PROM thing as well. But having daughters gave me my fix I guess.  This past Saturday was most school Proms here, we now have 3 high schools closed for the week because of Swine Flu

Hope everyone has a wonderful day - XOXOXOXOXOX

lvtwoqlt

I do get my prom fix every year helping my sister create one of a kind prom gowns for the young ladies at church and their friends. The three high schools in the county work together and have their proms 3 saturdays in a row, so there is no competition with prom night.

Sheila

my3girls

Wait...don't tell me I am the only one who went to prom???  I went with the only guy in my class that I was interested in going with. His name was Michael..(which I seem to find alot of Mike's these days..also my fav. guy name) and he and I went back as "friends' our freshman year (I had a crush, but didn't let it be known). Then he wanted to take me out, but I had a serious b/f. Anyhow..I did as Nancy said..told a friend...that the person I wanted to ask me was Michael..and he did. We had a great time..cause we were just friends!!! Lot's of fun! I think the same will happen for Olivia...since she is going with a friend rather than a b/f.  Speaking of which..Dru broke up the other day.  I dont' think it will be for good, but Olivia is very very sad! : (

Nancy!!! Such wonderful news of your father's recovery!! I am so happy to hear that you are having conversations and he is doing so well! Answer to prayers!

Mel...thanks sweetie for all the good wishes!! You are a doll! I love you!!!

The date went well!! Very fun...I really enjoy being with Mike...we always have plenty to talk about and enjoy each other's company.  The only thing is....I am NOT feeling the chemistry.  I think he does..but I don't.  I should be honest with him and tell him. I was just hoping the more I saw him, it would come.  We went to Cleveland..to a really cool area...that has lot's of GREAT restaurants and clubs!  It was a nice night..and we walked around outside (the street is closed off to cars) and stopped in diff. places. We had dinner in a wonderful Mexican restaurant..so GOOD!  Then we went to this place calle the "Corner Alley"...it has a restaurant... then pool tables..a really cool bar area...all very retro..and there are bowling alley's.  You would never know there was bowling..because it's not loud like that. In fact where the bowling is..you sit on little couches!! Fun..fun..we bowled...I was terrible..but we laughed and had a good time.  I didn't get home till 2am!! Late for me.  Still dealing with headaches and sinus crap...seeing my family doc on Thursday.

well...back to work sisters...I'll check in with all of you later!

I promise to put pics on of Olivia after this weekend. The dress is really beautiful!

Oh yeah..Alise is coming home on Thursday night..so she will be here for Matthew on Friday...I am so happy for her!!! She deserves to be recognized for Mother's day!!

bbl

xoxo

Lisa

sueps

(((( sisters))))

I come and read every day but have got it in my head... call it paranoia that if I post it will come back...and I feel like it is lurking anyway... the feeling has got worse now it is nearky a year since I finish tx... I CANT EXPLAIN WHY.. anyway tonight I am obsessing over what it does actually look like... and visualise shouting at it inside a glass bottle...what does this all mean... why am I going mad slowly ... do you feel the same... I am finding it hard to live with and still think time is running out....

well that is where Iam .... 100 steps forward yet a million back....

MAKES ME STEWIFIED !

love to everyone ... lots of love xxx 

Makratz

Lisa, I went to the prom to.  Actually I went to several proms because I went to private school.  I went to mine, the all boys HS, a coed private HS and the public HS of my home town.  I had a closet full of prom dresses!

Your date sounds like a great time.  I just wish you were feeling something!

Mel, I hope you back is feeling better.  We miss you!

Sueps, sounds like your having some dark days.  Hang in there.  Can you take any meds to help with anxiety?  I feel for you.  It just sucks to feel that way.  Hope you are feeling better soon.  HUGE HUGS TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!

sueps

awwww thanks ...I think I am a bit down in the dumps!!!

I am sorry .... I get so annoyed I come here every night and wish to post but I just cant.... I cant even bring myself to touch the keys .... as for posting tonight... I have gotten really angry with bootface .... I dont know .... maybe  I need help... I am taking meds so its not that ....

I used to love coming here... I still do.... I am going to try and get over it .... really try...cos I am just being selfish..xxx 

my3girls

((((((((((((((Sue))))))))))))))))))))...honey you are not being selfish!! We love you and MISS you...you know that..but if you feel you can't post..we definately understand.  This bootface is a horrible scary beast..we all know that. There are days it haunts me too.  I have to say...I do miss your rants to bootface..they always had me laughing!!   Try and get the thoughts out of your head...you are letting the thoughts control you.  You are much stronger than that Sue...I know it..you are the spunkiest little thing I know!! Try and stay ahead of those thoughts. When they come creeping in...just kick them in the a$$!!! Remember...no Worrying!!  Because..why???? WORRY IS FOR SHIT, MY DEAR...ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT!! Those were some of the first words I had with you one and a half years ago!!! Sue..you brought us all together..and for that I will be eternally greatful!! You come and rant or just lurk if that is all you want to do...but remember this...WE ALL LOVE YOU AND CARE ABOUT YOU...AND WE WILL ALWAYS, ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU!!!

Wow..makraz..(sorry...I forget..what is your first name?)  That's allot of prom dresses!  My middle daughter went to 3 proms. This is Olivia's 2nd prom. So, between the other HS formals and prom, we have a closet full of dresses.

Mel...I hope your back is feeling better.

Ok...ladies..my work day is coming to an end...talk to you all in a few days.  I fly to Atlanta early tomorrow morning!

xoxo

Lisa

barbe1958

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Makratz

HUGS again Sue!  You have every right to feel that way!  We miss you!!

sueps

OMG Lisa ...firstly your post brought a lump to my throat ...and my eyes sting tears... YOU HIT IT ...the thoughts are controlling me! I want to post but the thoughts make me paranoid... etc

I AM OVERWHELMED WITH THOUGHTS BAD THOUGHTS LATELY..I MEAN

wonder what day it will be that I no longer here...them kinda bad uns ...you get me !

hum..... how can I shake my mind out... I think its all to do with timing etc.... one year out of bleeding treatment dont help...cos I have thoughts bout tx too, and a sad thought of having to put my hand in hot water so they could get the ba t r d needle in etc...

POST TRAUMA!

get lost bootface I say in a quiet voice...an a shrug of my shoulders..

. "OR  I WILL WRENCH YA OUT THAT DIRTHOLE AND LAUNCH YA A MILLION   FIERY MILES TO THE SUN WHERE YOU WILL BURN YOUR SCUMMY ASSHOLE UNTIL YOU SCREAM YOURSELF ASSLESS AND FALL A THOUSAND AND NINE FOOT TO YOUR GRIM HELLISH SLOTHPIT ! 

barbe1958

Well that certainly wraps it up Sue! Sounds like the firey attitude is coming back....

I am on two antidepressants for other things and wonder if that is helping me deal with this all, of course it is! Have you considered chemical therapy? We have the technology and the pharmaceuticals to allow you to be your jolly old self again.... 

Makratz

You tell 'em Sue!  I'm sure it's healthier to yell, kick and scream at bootface than to hold it all in!  Keep ranting and I hope it makes you feel better!

barbe1958

It made ME feel better. Boy, I hope I never piss Sue off!

sueps

LOLOLOLOLOL

I am on ANTI DEESSSSS  SO MEDS IS TAKEN CARE OF.

I just feel I donno weary!

Hey I love ranting hehehehe ... PMSL

I wont rant ever again...

THATS RIGHT BOIL IN THE BAG BOOTFACE CAMELCACK... I WONT RANT ... I WILL JUST GO BALLISTIC WITH YOU , SO GET DOWN THERE WHERE YA BELONG UNDER MY SHOE WHILE I SQUIDGEY YOU WITH MY STILETOE UNTIL YOU'RE CUT TO SHREDS ...BLEEDING YOUR PUSS PROFUSELY ALL OVER YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CHOKE ON THE LUMPS OF YOUR OWN RANCID  SPEW! 

sueps

BTW I dont get the time to wear stiletoes , but I sure would find some lol

Makratz

I'm afraid now............just kidding!  You go girl!!

Shirlann

Oh Sue, now we all understand if you are freaked out by posting.  Not that unusual at all.  Sometimes it is good to let all the cancer talk and thoughts just drain away.  Whatever works for you precious girl, you are the important thing, and we can PM you anytime to check on you.  Remember, the magical September is coming, and you are almost there.  About 70% of recurrences are withing the FIRST YEAR and that is long gone.  So keep up your spirits, you are in the homeward stretch.

Love you honey, your cyber-mum, Shirlann