please help

EWB

Barbe, as always you said what I was thinking but could not express why. HNancy I love your lovely light curls. but I am partial to curls and short hair

sueps

Good Evening Sisters xxx

I love your hair Nancy ...  I really do... and you look so vibrant and beautiful !!!

I wish I looked like that... I was driving home tonight tired and looked in my rear view and realised I have crows feet if I squint!!!

Well I would like to apologise for my melt down last night..I just do not know where it came from??? My inner mind probably... or something... I am quite a deeeeeeeeeep one. So sorry  Please forgive my crumple.

I hope you are all OK . ... I think of you all ...each of you ...as I am typing as always I type here I have each of your faces popping up in my head ) Is that strange ... lol..

I had a letter from my genetic counsellor ... and a tube for my blood ..she said my resilliance amazed her... yes well she would say that ... cos I HATE BOOTFACE ... IT MADE ME STRONGER !!!

OK I am just drifting... been so busy @ work ... I am sure I just work to punish myself... I am in agony so I am off to put my feet in a bowl of water ... xxxxxx

sueps

Bangs here in reference to hair means bobbles ... bobbles for tying your hair up ... HAHAHAHA ... I was looking last night thinking where are Nancys' bobbles!! 

EWB

Sue- Never, Never, Never apologise for melt downs.Comes with the territory, we all have them. Just enjoy those crows feet

sueps

Thankyou ...   

sueps

Sisters I just want to relate something I found funny today...

Ok I am not a big fan of rollercoasters... appx ten years ago I was on a fair ground ride... with boys and it was going so fast I thought I would fall out ... I was nearly crying and boy was I screaming! Well the more I scream the faster they put it on... OMG it traumatised me for 10 years to this date today ... I was @ work and we were talking... and one of the younger girls told  me that thats what the fairground people shout when youre on the ride... "scream if ya wanna go faster " HAHAHAHA... no wonder I was so going fast and to this day I thought operator was EVIL... and now I feel bad... cos I see he was just trying to give me enjoyment.....ENJOYMENT ... i NEARLY WET MY KEKS !! lol xxx  

1Cathi

SUE - ALL MELTDOWNS ACCEPTABLE -  On the verge of one myself.

Anonymous

Cathi is on the verge....

Judie is over the verge...

Anonymous

Hugs to all anyway... I enjoyed catching up. You're all wonderful!

Judie

EWB

how cool- how did you do that?

cool with the change to picture, not cool that Cathi is close to melt down...just wanted to clarify that

my3girls

Sue..no wonder they were going so fast...you screamed..they turned up the speed! lol! Don't ever apologize for a meltdown! We can all relate..and we all experience them from time to time!

Nancy...I finally saw your pics...I have to agree with the no bangs. It sure has gotten long. I really need to upload some pics for you girls..but I don't know how....waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh. Olivia went to see her boyfriend in Tennessee this morning until Thursday night. But, I promise when she gets back, I will have her upload them.

EWB....thank you for your words of wisdom, and everyone else. I think shortly after I posted that....I got an email from Mr. Fantastic..lol..actually his name is Wayne (an odd name for an Italian man..I have to ask him about that..lol) and since he is aware, that I would be intersted in relocating for the RIGHT man...he really wants to meet. He just already felt something for me, and didn't know what we would do, if neither one of us was able to relocate if it came to that. I am flying there next Saturday the 11th...just for the day.  Keep me in your prayers for that meeting. I know that, it's all in God's hands..and I need to give it all up to him.. but, I really feel drawn to this man. I can't explain it. I have never ever felt so strongly about someone that I haven't even met yet! He has all the qualities that I am looking for...ALL of them..not one or two or 10..but all! He really wants to find someone. He was married for over 30 years to his junior high (about age 13) sweetheart. After all those years, she met someone and left him. Very sad..but he is not a bitter man, in fact..he talks to her, they still have a healthy friendship. He is 55, 3/4 Italian (my father would approve..lol) and 1/4 Spanish. He is very romantic..and loves a woman who enjoys being a woman...well that is ME! haha. He is loyal, giving and get this...loves to shop! Especially for the woman in his life! Anyhow...I could go on and on...but I will wait until I meet him, and see if all these magical feelings I have are just as strong when we meet. I hope so..but if not..it just means, there is someone else out there...right?

Next week...I will be asking you...wear my hair, down, up, straight, curly...lol..dress, skirt, jeans, or slacks....

Love you all!

I think I will go mow my grass before the rain falls.

xoxo

Lisa

sueps

Judie HAHAHAH ...... that picture is funny x

my3girls

JUDIE!!!! I forgot to mention how good it is to see you post!! I am sorry our sweet little Conner is moving so far away. Is this temporary? I am sure that is going to be tough on you. ((((Judie)))).

ewb...our Judie is a whiz on here..she can do just about anything! Unlike me! lol

Jane..thank you for your kind words. I think we all try to be good moms...sometimes I feel I really fall short there. It's always a learning process isn't it? We try our best..and that's all we can do..is do the BEST WE KNOW HOW! Thanks Jane..your words always comfort me so.

ok...now..I really need to mow...I need to burn off the carbs that I just ate! Still dealing with some left over pasta salad...etc..yum!

By the way ladies....I forgot that I had more beer than I would have ever needed for the party...I guess I am like my mom....have more, just in case. So...I am going to have to throw a party here...would you all like to come?? Free beer!!....and lot's of good company!

portiasproudmom

Hi everyone!!!!!  I finally have some time on Portia's computer.  She's over at her aunt's house babysitting her cousin.  Thank GOD!!!!  That girl is going to be the death of me someday!  She found out that she has to take summer school to make up credits (she failed 2nd semester of Biology).  We have the choice of doing it all online, or doing it in-class with an instructor, three days a week for four hours at a time.  I prefer the in-class option.  The bickering between her and Chase is driving me NUTS!!!!

I have a couple of comments after skimming through the posts:

Lisa, you go girl!!!  Wayne sounds like a great guy.  I hope he's all you expect and more once you meet him!  You deserve to meet someone special!

Nancy, I definitely prefer the bang/fringeless look!  I can't believe how fast your hair is growing.  You look great!

Judie, how are you doing?  You must be so sad that Connor is moving to China.  Big hugs!!!!

Love and hugs to all,

Karen

livesstrong

Lisa - I don't drink beer but I will definitely come for the company!!!!  I have to tell you I am a little nervous about you meeting this man alone. In this day and age you never know.  PLEASE be careful.

Sue- melt away my friend.  We all have been there - done that.  Can you believe we are actually going to meet in a little over 2 weeks???????  

Love the pictures - love you all.

 AE

EWB

Ok Lisa- now take a breathe and let the rest just happen. No big decisions need to be made, have fun and enjoy yourself. Be yourself, have fun being you. What will be will be. HAVE FUN!

1Cathi

Judie love what you did to the picture -how did you do that???

Karen so good to hear from you,  hoping things get better with the DD- Oh teenage girls - xoxoxoxoxox , I feel for you I really do.

Lisa,  hoping you have a good time on the 11th,  but I echo what AE said - be careful as well.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

my3girls

Thanks ladies for your concern...I will be careful. Things have changed a little bit. He called  shortly after my last post (ironic) and said, he is coming to Ohio (Cleveland) that same weekend. His son who lives here, is getting married in August, so he is coming in with some of the groomsmen to get fitted for their tux. This works out better, I don't have to go to a strange city to meet someone I never met. Does that make you all feel better? I will have the boys over the night before for a sleep over at Grandma's house..then Wayne and I will meet sometime later in the afternoon. We talk soooo easily. We see things the same way, especially about being picky and wanting that special person for the rest of our lives. He said he had a date recently...and all the woman wanted was sex! He said...I normally don't even give them a kiss goodnight...just because I am not feeling it with that person...so why lead them on. I told him...well...then I will be that first date girl that you kiss before saying goodbye! haha. He told me...I just may kiss you at hello!

Anyhow..this is working out much better for a first meeting. See...I prayed about it yesterday and today...and I feel God's hand is definately in this one...and for once I am listening!

Karen...reading your post about Portia...sweetie...gosh can I relate!! They really can make us crazy at times, cant they?

EWB...I will have fun!! I am always myself...what you see is what you get. He is all about being easy going and having fun...and just enjoying the company.

I am going to call it a day ladies...ttyt.

xoxo

Lisa

Makratz

Lisa...Have fun, kiss him back at hello!

Sue, this forum is for meltdowns too!  Just as long as you feel better, that's what's important.

Cathi, why are you having a meltdown?  Hoping you are OK.

Wheres Barb?

I miss all of you ladies.  I have been so busy now that the kids are out of school.  I have very little time for the computer.

I'll check in as often as I can.

Linda

barbe1958

Here I am. Middle of the night....sigh.

Lisa, wouldn't he have known that he had to get his tux fitted? Does that mean his son lives in Cleveland permanently as opposed to just school? I find it interesting he is coming in now that you have just told him you would go out there.... Oh, doubting Thomas that I am...sorrry!

Linda, I didn't see that Cathi is having a melt-down, what did I miss? Yikes!

geebung

I quite often get teary when I read all your posts! What a wonderful, wise, funny and loving lot you all are!

EWB, you have such a gift - the way you put things into writing. I find your words very moving.

Judie - love how you melted Cathi's picture!

Sue - they're not crow's feet - they're laughter lines or just plain character!

Lisa - my heart beat faster when I read about your proposed meeting with Wayne. I hope and pray that he is everything you need in a man. Did you mean that you are going to meet him in a neutral place - a cafe or somewhere? Best to be on the safe side, even though he's sure to be ok. I'll get off my big, bossy sister high horse now!

Karen - I so hope you can get your own laptop soon - it's impossibly hard to share one with a teen - or a 20-something for that matter! I can imagine how exhausting it is having to put up with Chase & Portia squabbling all the time. Some sibling personalities clash more than others - very hard to take!  You poor sweet thing.

Barbe, I hope you were able to get back to sleep - it's a horrible thing to wake up and not sleep.  xx

Linda - it's always good to see you post - even if it's short. I remember school holidays - very little time to myself!

My new little great niece was born in Burlington, Ontario yesterday (30th) after a 2 hour labour. She was more than 2 weeks overdue and weighed 9 lbs. Her big sister (15 months) wants to kiss her all the time! I wish I could see her. My sister is flying over in September.

Love & hugs to everyone

xoxox

1Cathi

Linda I was wondering where you were, but forgot the boys are out of school and life is surley much busier. 

Don't worry just on the VERGE of a MAELTDOWN.  I got approved for an X-Ray no MRI at this time,  insurance won't pay for that before X-Ray results, oh well no big deal,  not rushing off to do that either,  soooooooooooooo much going on and starting to feel a bit overwhelmed,  the 4TH is almost here and to much to do,  we do a pool B'bQ at Uncle Tom's & Aunt Sharons,  then a bunch of folks come over here about 7 or so (Dumbass will be here again) and we all go over to the beach for the fireworks,  I need some motivation,  not in themmod so far this year.

And then the DD in NY moving in a month as it stands now,  don't know how/if I can handle 3 extra bodies in the house until we get them settled somewhere.  Oh I guess I am just causing myself mental anguish. 

Lisa I'm glad Wayne is coming your way.  I know a Wayne (My friend Jo-ann's husband) great man  - great name.  I am sorry if I missed it but did you get your scan results???

XOXOXOXOXOXO - ME

Makratz

Cathi,

Yes, I am very busy.  Very little time for the computer.  Do you like the rain I sent your way?

Glad to hear you are only on the verge of a meltdown.  When you actually have it, you know where to go! 

The party sounds fun, with the execption of dumbass.  Be sure to let us know how it goes.  Maybe you could start looking for a place for your DD....yesterday. 

Geebung - Congrats on your grandneice!!

Barb....Mick??  All gone??  Get some rest!!

1Cathi

Oh Linda you can be sure we have started looking, I love my children,  I love my grandchildren,  but I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE WITH THEM (LOL) for extended periods of time,  and this DD has been known to have mood swings worse then anyone I know. And I can't stand the DH.  I wish I had 1/2 of Ed's positive attitude about it all, but then he gets to leave every day doesn't he -LOL. Perhaps I'll work from his office for awhile.

We sure are getting your rain today,  we need it,  but it's pretty bad this AM,  had some tornados in Tampa Tuesday and several warnings out this AM as well. 

The fireworks are spetacular on the beach,  you can see all the big displays from miles around,  and because we can walk - no long traffic mess for us.  But of coarse lots of company,  sometimes living here is not a blessing  -LOL.  I really love it all most of the time,  just feeling overwhelmed,  tired and hurting these days. 

Guess I'll take some cheese now with my WHINE.  

barbe1958

Ah Mak, Mick has been around for a couple of days, I'm trying to ignore him, but he is just so in-my-face! Yah know?

Cathi, if you're not living on the edge, you're taking up too much space! I agree with Linda, have an apartment hunt lined up for the first couple of days. (She wasn't living with her Dad in New York, so the inevitable comparisons won't be fair!)

1Cathi

Barbe  -sorry Mick is in your face,  but I know what you mean.  I am trying the same thing, with little success,  saying with my inner voice - "it doesn't hurt that bad,  "I FEEL GOOD"  Thats a bunch of CRAP - LOL.

Moving to Fl from out of state is a very expensive venture,  you have to pay deposits on everything,  so not sure how much $$$$$$$ they have saved up, I am expecting they will be here in my house a month at least.  Ed has  ajob lined up for the DH already,  he is a mechanic/auto body man,  so of coarse Ed has connections, my daughter will be able to find a job with no problem in an adult/nursing home, but then there is the babysitting issue for an almost 1 year old,  I can not at this point truly do it everyday,  I just can't,  so she will have to look into daycare or they will have to work opposite shifts so one is here all the time or most of the time.  

barbe1958

Oh Cathi...I see a load of guilt coming your way on the babysitting issue. Do NOT try to be a hero or a martyr. I hear what you're saying now about not being able to do it, but daughters have a way of sending you on a guilt trip....

Makratz

I'd check out daycares for your DD too. That way she will understand that you are not volunteering for the job!  You've got enought to do!!

Barb, sorry about Mick.  Wonder why you were having no pain last week? Good drugs?

1Cathi

I sound like a terrible mom talking this way - but Amanda is great at giving me guilt trips, every bad choice and decision she has made in her adult life has been my fault somehow,  especially right after I decided to leave my EX,  now she has been better this past year I will admit,  I really "F" up bad staying married to him so long,  he was so verbally abusive to Jaclyn that I guess Amanda always felt I was protecting and shielding Jaclyn and loved her more,  but the EX never treated Amanda like that - he never called her names or made fun of her(Jaclyn was always a bit chubby) he would always say he was just making jokes -  but it was far from funny.   Oh I am making myself nauseas thinking about all that crap.  Do you guys ever just get tired of life in general???

Makratz

Cathi, you do not sound like a terrible Mom, you are a GREAT mom!  I see all the stuff that you do for your family!  You are awesome!  Don't let the guilt settle in.  You know you made the right choice in the past regarding the Ex and protecting your dd.  You did what you had to do.  Now God had rewarding you with Ed.  Enjoy! 

Yes, I get sick of life in general.  Who doesn't!