please help

Makratz

Sue,

That's why I put peppercorns in the peppermill and GRIND THE CRAP OUT OF THEM!!!

I think you're rubbing off on me!

barbe1958

Mine was hard too! She is in my prayers...please keep us posted.

lvtwoqlt

That reminds me, I need to put pepper on my shopping list. I ran out this week!

The cysts that I have had in the past have all been hard and as small as peppercorns (the head of my quilting pins) and as big as a marble. The big ones the doctor aspirated in his office, the little ones they left alone.

My husband's aunt came to me Sunday saying that she had an abnormal mammo and was being sent to the surgeon's office for a biopsy. She is from Germany and she thought that they would be doing the biopsy today, without a consultation. She showed me the paperwork and it said for surgical consult/biopsy. I had to explain that most times they don't do the biopsy the day of the first appointment with the surgeon, he has to look over the films and review the information before they decide if it needs biopsied and what type of biopsy to do. She actually had to see another surgeon in the same office as the dr who did my surgeries, because he (my dr) left last summer and she didn't want to drive to Charlotte (1.5 hrs) to see him.

Sheila

EWB

HUGS to everyone.

1Cathi

Karen - sending prayers for Kristen.  Hope everyone has a great weekend & warm sunny weather - hope your breaks soon Linda.

I had the most wonderful day with Alexcis,  as she described it when we were smimming "This is the best day ever of my life" (her 5 whole years). I truly am hardly able to walk right now (pain pill here I come) but every ounce of pain is worth the fun I had today   Today for the first time she took her floaties off in the pool and was really swimming quite well,  even going underwater, she did so good,  she has already said she'e not wearing them tomorrow at the beach.

PA-PA bought her a new bike helmet ( she is OVER the princess one  -Hanna Montana Rules) so we went for a bike ride, stopped at the park,  rode to the ice cream store (ate the biggest cones we could) then rode somemore  - through  huge puddles in the drain ditches from lawn sprinklers  - and we were so lucky we found people watering who's sprinklers would soak us at we went by - it really was the best day ever.  Now I must take a pill  (might need 2)  and sleep,  the beach calls us Saturday.  I very well could be bed ridden by the time her mom gets here Saturday evening.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX -Cathi 

Hope everyone has the best Saturday - EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

Makratz

Cathi, I am envious of you.  What a great day!!  Tell us about tomorrow too!

sueps

Ohhh Cathi what a great day you had... I pictured it all !! Have a lovely time on the beach today I am soooooo jealous HAHA ....  

Have a good weekend sisters .... I will be thinking of you xxx 

barbe1958

I'll be thinking of y'all as I trudge back to work today...sigh. Bicylces, beaches, pools....

cloudhowe

Hello lovrly girls



Had a scare this week. I am due for surgery on Thursday 18th, dreading it and waiting with bated breath at one and the same time. Got call on Tuesday from the breast care nurse to come in immediately as my bloods were low at my pre-op assessment. LOW!!! They were 8.2! I started out at 15 Hg. No wonder I have been so tired, I was one point away from needing a transfusion - they give that at 7Hg here in the UK. Anyway they took some more blood, an armful. I think, and I got the call yesterday that they ere 10.9, so the cancelled procedure is now back on. so pray for me my dear brethern, and that the margins are clear.



My laptop need a new motherboard - I paid £800 ( about 1$1300) less than a year ago with a 4 year warrenty and then f%$&wit nephew spilled lemonade all over it. So now it's junk. And I am broke having plundered all of my saving to live on, so cannot afford a new one.



So won't be able to take my laptop to hosp. Oh happy days!!!



Enjoy the rest of the weekend. Will post as soon as I am able, so don't be concerned if I fall off the radar for a while.



Love and best wishes to your all



Nettie xxx

cloudhowe

Hi Again



Cheryl, for some reason, I can't return your PM, and your email address is unrecognised. If you could email me, that would be great.



annettewhyte2002@yahoo.co.uk



Thanx



Nette

barbe1958

Nettie, big hugs for next week sweetie! We'll be thinking of you. Keep us posted....

NancyD

Nettie, Hugs and best wishes for your surgery. Maybe they'll let you out sooner than you think (although, personally, I wouldn't pass up all the meals I wouldn't have to prepare for myself). When you're in a better financial state, look into one of the small notebooks they've come out with recently. They're great for email and quick surfing on the Internet, and they're only a few hundred $ which would be about half that in Pounds. I've seen them for as low as $200 in some store ads. Except that I just paid out over $1000 to fix the damage my daughter inflicted on my car a couple of months ago, I'd have one right now. But maybe in a couple of weeks I will break down and take some money from my savings and get one if I see a really good sale.

Cathi, your day with your granddaughter sounded truly wonderful. Yep, I think the pain was worth it.

I'm off with my sister to have lunch with my aunt, my father's sister. My aunt is 80, never married and lives alone in The Bronx. She's developed some health problems recently, and as her closest relatives (and I'm her goddaughter), we're going to start taking a closer interest in her affairs. She's been very fiercely independent up to now, but I think she's finally realizing that she needs to be taken care of in some ways. At the very least, she wants to show us where her important papers are and what bills need to be taken care of if she ends up in the hospital.

Later. 

Makratz

Nette,

Wow!!  So glad they caught the problem and fixed it!  I hope you are feeling better.  Best of luck with your surgery.  It will be here before you know it.  That stinks about your laptop.  As soon as you can log back on, let us know how everything went.  We will pray for  clear margins!

1Cathi

PRAYERS NETTIE

HAPPY SATURADY FROM FLORIDA.............

barbe1958

Cathi, so sorry you're having a tough day for the second day in a row!

1Cathi

NA-MA-NA-NA-BO-BO - LOL

So this is the street I live on,  this is actually headed back from the beach, it is directly across the road from the big palm tree,  a 5 minute walk BY WAGON.

 

EWB

sigh, I want to be able to spend time with and create these kinds of memories for my future grandchildren....

1Cathi

Elaine I keep looking at all the pictures,  and as happy as I am,  I am sitting here crying,  wondering to myself,  will they remember me.  Thats all I want from the rest of my life.  I love them all so much,  I am not letting this summer slip by,  I let those waves pound the crap out of me today  just listening to Alexcis laugh was so wonderful.  

EWB

They will remember. I promise. I pray that I will have the chance to do the same (mine are 18 & 21), I suppose that is my #1 goal these days...to hear grandchildren laughing. Put your feet up, take your pills and wrap yourself in the love of your family. It is truely a priceless gift.

barbe1958

That's why holding my grandchild in my arms is my only item on my bucket list.....

1Cathi

Sooooooooooooooooooo TRUE Elaine,  I pray we all get that #1 Bucket list accomplished. It's mine too.   The small glorious wonders of life. I am sorry if I made everyone sad.  Come on down I'll share mine for awhile.  They can run 10 adults ragged for sure.

EWB

No saddness Cathi, just so very happy that you are able to experience this! Always share the good and wonderful along with the sad and painful. Its life, our life. Hugs Cathi, give Ed a big hug for me, so glad you are happy and grounded with him as your rock. Makes all the rest easier and more special and doable.

livesstrong

Hello All,

Glad to see everyone still posting away!!

Cathi  - I am sooo jealous - it has done nothing but rain here for a week.

Nancy - good to see you.

Nettie - saying my prayers for you missy.

 Plans are in high gear for our trip to see our Sue. I am getting really excited.  UB is postponing his treatments until we get back. Onky said it was OK. but I still worry.

I might not post everday but I do read - love you all - keep the sisterhood alive.

AE

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honeygirl

Hello everyone. I have been reading posts , and am trying to keep up. Netts and Cheryl , keep on keeping on. You two are going through the tough times right now. My heart goes out to you both. When I was where you are now , I lived on potatoes and milkshakes! Thats what tasted good to me. And I still can have both. Never made me sick. One night , I craved tuna fish , I think now , I was probably deficient in protein , and I made some tuna salad. Boy was that a mistake. It told a long time before I could eat tuna again! Netts , you are over with chemo , right? Prayers for clean margins for you. And don't worry about sleeping to much. After what you have been through , your body needs lots of sleep. Its how our bodies regenerate. Power naps are good! Good luck ladies.

Hi Sue! So good to see you here. I know I read somewhere , that chemo takes away some years from our lives. Thats why the doc has to weight the facts of weather we really need it or if it will be worse for us. That being said , I know that has alot to do with my aches and pains. I think the arthritis that keeps showing up in my body would have been a few years later , if not for the chemo. And I think that is why I don't feel "normal" like before. Add that , tamoxifen , and the weight gain , yep , I feel pretty lousey! I don't feel pretty anymore. I don't have the motivation I used to have. I haven't felt "sexual" since I was diagnosed. And lately , alls I keep thinking about , is the things I regret. Things I have done , but mostly , things I haven't done. I just feel so sad. I don't know how to motivate myself anymore. You hang in there Sue. Soon , you get to meet AE and UB. An unforgetable experience that will be! love you , Mel

1Cathi

Oh Mel I couldn't sleep so I checked in and saw your post,  I wish I could give you a gig hug in person right now.   It is hard sometimes to feel up and motivated,  hot & sexy,  soooooooo very hard sometimes. "NORMAL" like before,  I know what you mean.  I wish Barbe was on right now for you -  she always has the best uplifting words,  least of all she can always make us laugh. 

Maybe you can't change some things,  maybe you can't do everything now that you always dreamed of,  but maybe you can make a new list of "to do's"  and live for those new things,  after all we are woman we have a right to change our minds.  I have alterd my "list" lately,  and it's working well.  

Mel your avatar smile is as big as a house so I know your heart is too. 

Love to you-  XOXOXOXOXOX

Makratz

Mel, You are beautiful!!!  A big hug to you!!  What a womderful person you are.  You have made me so happy on several occassions.  Depression sucks!!  We all go through it from time to time.  Things will get better for you.  Come back to these threads, bitch, moan, anything......just let us help you feel better!

We love you sistah!!  Hang in there.

honeygirl

Aww Cathi , Thanks so much for the words of wisdom. You are as beautiful on the inside , as you are on the outside. I wish I had 1/4 of your beauty! My problem is , I have a horrible fear of failure. Sorta like Charile Brown.lol And I have a hard time , not making a list , but doing the things on the list.

honeygirl

You know what Makraz , If we ment in person , I would of gavatated to you instantly! I would pick you as a friend , no doubt! xxxx

Makratz

Thanks Mel, I know I'd love to meet you too!  It would be fun!!  I really want you to feel better.  Know that you can always PM, email, facebook me anytime.  I know what it feels like to be sad, and it just plain sucks!!  Please know you have lots of friends here who really care about you!

barbe1958

Mel, Mel, Mel. If you were truly a failure, you wouldn't even be around to be posting on this thread. That's number one! By virtue of the fact that you are alive and have the inner fortitude to be able to express your emotions so well, tells me that you are a lot stronger than you believe. When you start to trust your own strength, you will allow your moments of depression to be acknowledged, and then put away.

As for not feeling pretty, that's a chick thing. Not a cancer thing. I have never felt more sexy than since I started going flat after my double mast! Go figure! But I have to tell you, my body gets a lot more attention now than it did with boobs! Everyone has boobs. Not every 51 year old doesn't!

As for normal! Point your finger right now at any one of us who are normal!!! We grow, we change. We have cancer. We grow, we change. We get arthritis. We grow......

If you need medical assistance for your depression do not hesitate to ask for help. What we have been through now leaves us with a Post Tramautic Stress Disorder. Some of us are medicated. Some of you aren't. Some of us...(you get it)

Now, do this exercise with me. Put your arms straight out in front of you as if you want to touch your computer monitor. Cross them over each other. Now bring them all the way back to your body to wrap around each shoulder. Now squeeze really, really tight! You have just give yourself a hug. Do it often!

Love Barbe