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'cmon you guys! Loewe's is more fun that just about anything! I could spend a lot of dough there on stuff I would never use.

Congrats on 1000, barbe, and on being lucky (in love, I assume?)

Sleep? I was awakened by a phone call from my credit card company checking that transactions from the night before were made by me and not fraudulent. GRRRRRRRR. Lots to do today. Devin arrives late tonight for the few days of spring break he will be home. 

portiasproudmom

Thanks Judie.  I was beginning to think I'm weird because I like Lowe's too! 

Gotta run.  I have my yearly gynecological appt today.  Fun times!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs,

Karen

barbe1958

At least Karen's getting some action...OOOPS, wrong thread!

sueps

yooo hoooo xxx

Sisters ... whence you get cystitis... what do you take that WORKS !!!

PRE DX I suffered a lot with this and conjunctivitis... they are both back... I hope its not sinister.... please relate bout cys blooming titis .... to me its driving me up the wall!!!

Nice to see you all and always lovely to read here... I am doin these marathon runs and can read but somtimes to post is hard.... xxxxx

I am so sad to hear AE about UB .... my thoughts are with you both as the decripid son of a moronic beast reers it ugly bulbous being again boiling in its own bag of spew.... URGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH BOOT FACE WE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE YOU!!! SCREAMING AT YA , YA EVIL SHRIVELLED DICK!!!!!!11 

sueps

Cathi Margo is like your weather beautiful xxxxx you're one lucky girl Cathi !!! xxx

Karen Vegas sounds wonderful.... look forward to it and enjoy... xxx

Shirlann sorry to hear of your hip , hope it gets better...thx for popping by ., we love you xxx

Hello to all you wonderful sisters xxxxxxxx 

Makratz

I guess I like Lowes if I need something there.  I do not like to look at table saws, mitre saws, etc for hours and hours.  I could look at clothing for hours and hours, or shoes!  Love shoes!!

Nana, hang in there, your son sounds like a godsend!!

Barbe - wrong thread, but I agree with you!

1Cathi

Well I like Lowes (plants, home furnishings etc), but not for tools or Wood, espically WOOD,  oh my gosh I still recall the first time it was just a 'wood" trip he was going to make something,  after about 20 minutes of being good watching  him to a WSE (Wood Self Exam) checking for "lumps & Bumps - that might throw off the project -  I went on my merry way, looking through the store,  came back a good 30 or more muinutes later he was still looking, touching and feeling -  now I know why they call it a "Woody" (LOL) ,  so now if he says he is going to Lowes - I always ask if it is just a "WOODY" trip.  Cause I ain't going.

geebung

Lol! Cathi! I know what you mean. Men just take forever in hardware stores. I quite like them if I can look at what I want to look at but then I get sick of waiting for my partner to make his choices.

Judie, I have to admit that I have gone through do-it-yourself phases and bought up big in hardware stores - they promise so much potential don't they? 

Sue, drink Cranberry Juice. It doesn't cure the cystitis (you usually need antibiotics for that) but if you drink it regularly it prevents bacteria from getting a foothold in the urinary tract. Not sure about the conjunctivitis - you may be ablee to get an over-the-counter medication. I wonder if regular eye baths would help to prevent it? You have to be careful not to dry your eyes out too much though. Hope you feel better soon. 

Love to all,

Jane xxx 

 

barbe1958

BWAAAAAAAAAA-HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-HAAAAAAAAAAAAA, Cathi, you made me laugh. Out loud. WSE.....hehehehehehehehehehhee 

portiasproudmom

Oooohhhhh, Barbe!  You're sooooo bad!!  That was NOT the type of action that I like!!!!  Ick!!

Cathi, you're killing me!!!!  Isn't it crazy how they're so infatuated with WOOD???   Haaaaaaa!!

Okay, I'm going to concentrate on DWTS now!!  VOTE FOR MELISSA!!  That dog Jason needs to pay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love and hugs,

Karen

1Cathi

Sue try a weak warm tea bag on your eyes, it works great, also yougurt, yogurt, yogurt for your digestive trac, it really does help, I eat it for weeks on end, and sometimes get a bit tired of it so skip a week and I really can tell the diffrence. 

sueps

Cathi ..thankyou..the teabag feels so nice...my eye is so sore..but feels good...xxxx

1Cathi

Your welcome Sue, warm tea bags on the eye is great, you still should see the DR. though.

portiasproudmom

My MIL swears by the tea bags as well.  Glad it's helping Sue!

Hugs,

Karen

1Cathi

Hey Karen,  I love that picture you are looking rather "chic" and 'flirty"  in it  - I see a hint of Julia Roberts when she went short with her hair.

sueps

I have an oncologist appt tmw ...urghh

I have not had cystitis or conjunctivitus since before I got dx... when I got a lot ... scarey thoughts xxx

shurrup bootface!

I love your pic Karen xxxxxxxxx

How is your new baby doing cathi xxxx 

portiasproudmom

I WISH I looked like Julia Roberts, Cathi.  Thank for the compliments girls, you guys are great for my ego.  I feel so fat and old lately.  Portia talked me into posing like that.  I'm really liking my hair.  I wish it would stay curly like this.

Sue, I have my onc appt on April 10.  We get back from vacation on the 4th. 

Love and hugs,

Karen

1Cathi

Margo is doing great Sue, but she is a pisser,  I can't keep make0up on with all the kisses and she loves to puppy wretle, sharp teeth though, but great fun.  She has been great with the potty training, no accidents in 2 days -YEAH,

She and the kitty are still not the best of friends though, but getting better daily.

sueps

Ohhhh Cathi... I bet youre totally love her.... you are so lucky and so is Margo.... oh my thats what life is all about....  and the pics are adorable and the weather is beautiful...where did i go wrong... and you got a hubby that likes a woody .... its just too much lol

 x x x x x x

I need changes! 

sueps

Karen you are prettier than that pretty woman Julia Roberts xxx

sueps

Cant stop thinking bout AE and UB.... they are truly wonderful and they are going and have gone thru so much...ands still show their love and support .... xxxx

We are thinking of you xxx 

dink

Karen, I love your new picture, I'm jealous of your vegas trip.  I have a chance to go to Nashville for work and I'm strongly considering it.  Not sure if I really want to go.  If we do, I'll take Connor and Donnie with me.  Donnie and I went for Vegas a few years back and we had the best time. 

I go to the Rhuematoid arthritis doctor, still pretty sore all over but that's the way it goes.  I should have all ove my results back tomorrow.  I had a bone density test last year but didn't show anything.  I also have to go to the GYN tomorrow. isn't that just lovely. HA!

Hugs to you,

Leesa

dink

Cathi, I'm glad the little margo is fitting in and giving you such great pleasure.  My DH loves the "woody" thing also.  He can't get enough at times so after Lowes he goes to Home Depot then back to Lowes before he can make a decision. LOL.  He talks about women and their shopping sprees.  He would stay in those stores for hours!.  He also loves electronics. 

Well, I;m sorry  but I have to brag, I'm currently getting the best massage from my little 2 y/o grandson.  H is using a stencil toy and his Hot wheels to "massage" my legs and feet.  He's a little rough with the Stencil but the wheels on the car feels really good. LOL!  He tells me, "I make choo better mamaw"  He's been in the hair to "make choo pretty" but I had to get him to stop that it was hurting a little.  He's now in my lap trying to typoe you ladies a note.LOL He's my little helper and my little hugger.

Connor came in last night and laid down with me "so I wouldn't get scared while Poppy had to go to work".  Then the questions started, "Why do people's heart get sick and why does Poppy have to help."  He loves to have us both home with just himself.  He worries when we're not here together.   He is so loving and caring but believe me he can be a little stinker. We read his books for 1 1/2 hours.  Kids make you smile even when you are so tired. 

My little Kayla, 1 y/o isn't feeling very well, I think she is really missing her mom.  KaLee and the other two little girls are at Disney World. and she is either calling or texting every hour.  Kayla and I went swimming in the Garden Tub - mainly her swimming. LOL.

Well, I'm throught talking about my babies.  Now I have Gabriel the 2 yo and Peaches fighting over who is getting in my lap.  Even the dog gets jealous and needs love.  They are barking at one another. LOL.

Hugs to all,

Leesa

cloudhowe

Hi Guys

My goodness but a couple of days away and so much to catch up on!!!!!

Got 2nd FEC on Friday and the fatigue has hit me badly this time - couldn't wake up today!!!!

So I am now really tired and unable to sleep!

My hair is all but gone and my scalp is really sore - like sunburn. Can't wait to haave it shaved on Friday - I think I look like something from a horror film about radiation. No end problems this time though! Thank god for Movical and Majool Dates!!!!!! Still clinging on to my lashes but expect them to go too. I have lashes that almost touch my brows (with the help of Max Factor) so I know that I am going to look really odd without them. I think the tumour has shrunk though. It is so surface and is attached to the skin in my cleavage so is quite accessable.

Finances have been a nightmare. I have a Welfare Rights Officer who contacted my bank for me to suspend my loan repayments and they refused because it it a Solvent Account!!!  I hve never even used my overdraft with them, so am taking out all of my reserves and putting it into my credit union account!!!!!

They know that my income is vitually nothing for the first 13 weeks of DX - I should be on much higher rate. like Sue, but in the meantime I am worrying more about money than this horrible disease. I actually told my sister today that I wish I was terminal, because then at least there would be some sort of support. I have found the MacMillan nurse to be patronising.  How dare they sit and take notes while telling you that they can do NOTHING practical to help. Actually I HATE the MacMillan CAB. They are totally useless. The social worker and the OT are also shocked because they have tries to see if there is anything they can do and there isn't.

Not even to get a shower installed (mine is on it's last legs ) or help in getting it installed if I buy one, which I will have to.

I kind of crashed today - this is the first time I have allowed myself to feel sorry for myself, so please forgive me.

Oh a wee bit of news. Simon my lovely wee Irish oncy had a verbal report that I am not Trip neg - I am HER2 +, does not have it in writing yet tho'!  The hospital care has been outstanding. I LOVE my GP, my darling Dr Shona and Mr Musa the sugreon is an angel of God. He holds your hand and says  "I will take very good care of you" Strangly, the surgery holds no fear for me. Is this normal? Or do you think it will crash in on me.  I don't know?

On your fabbie posts my dear friends. Portia you look quite lovely my dear, what a beautiful pic! How is your yummy mummy. It is so good to get good news and yours was the BEST.

Lisa, good luck with Michael, he sounds absolutly lovely.  I had my suspicions about the other guy with the 2 names. I think you had a lucky escape and it is great to hear the enthusiasm in your 'voice'. Yours is the voice of a survivor and I love it.

AE. we havent 'talked' but I love reading your posts and I am sending my warmest best wished to you and your dear husband. This bootface is like a biblical plague!!

Cathi, how is your daughter?? Your poor love. It IS easier to go through this that to watch someone you love face this.  My sweet brother told me that and I now know it to be true.  I miss him so much!!!!! God, I don't know where that came from!! Margot is a poppet, I love when my sis visits wih Tommy, her rescue cross collie. He smiles!!!!!!! And is sooooo goofy and lovable. He licks you twice and cuddles you. Oh and your granddaughter is soo very, very lovley. You must be so pround of her. She looks like she should be in magazines.

Nana, how are you faring sweetheart - going through the same thing as me, we need to support each other. The hair thing isn't trivial. It hurts and, of course, it was the first thing the Nazi did to the inhabitants of the camps because so much of our ID is in our hair and eyes. I am using scarves till I get my wig, but I finding it really hard because I have such restricted use of my right arm. I went out with my cousin's son on Saturday with my bandana and yes, I did get some looks from the neighbours. No-one quite knows what to say, do they? Which is way this thread has beeen such a life line.

Judie, I love, love, love your posts. You are an absolute wordsmith. Conner, too, is a doll!! What absolutly beautiful children you all have!!!  Your sweater is lovely too.  What a nice idea to knit.

I used to knit Icelandic sweaters for everyone on circular needles.  I worked for several years in Shetland where EVERYONE, even the chaps, knit. And my maternal grannie (Irish) always has 'things on the needles' She was a genius - no pattern required. When my sis and I were at primary school, (we are only 18 months apart in ages) we used to get taken round all the classes with her creations. So embarrassing! My mum was a seamstress too, so all of our clothes were handmade. I wanted to be dressed like everyone else from Wollies!!! So I will take that up again. But it is expensive, the last thing I knitted was a chenille jacket and - then - if cost me about £60 in wool!!

Jane, how are you girl, what's the weather like with you. We are getting more spring like weather now, but it came as a shock how cold my head was, even when I started to shed hair!! Please come back to Scotland. I also lived in Aviemore in the heart of the Cairmgorm mountains in the Spey Valley (breathtaking) and there wer so many Kiwi and Austalians there the villiage was called Aussiemore!  I love Antipodians, so laid back and I made many friends, In fact, I has a visa to live in Australia after Shetland, but my wee mum was ill and I couldn't bear to move so far away. Haste ye back pet, and I promise to show you Ireland. And The Highland and Islands. You have my word. I actually get free bus travel throughout Scotland for myself and a companion, so you can travel free!!!

Sweet Sue, you are superwoman!  I am a big girl - eat almost nothing, honestly it's true and I lost only about 5 pounds since Jan.  I was always active though - loved going up the hills, but the thought of RUNNING 5 miles post cancer is awesome. Would love to meet up, perhaps in Blackpool - I can get lots of freebies as my family live down there. Lots oof free funfair rides etc - you couldbring the kids!!!!

I feel weak and breathless just now. I know that's normal because one of the drugs I am on is cardiotoxic. Thank god I have only got 2 more sessions.  Does anybdy know why I am on only 4 sessions given the awful diagnosis - big tumour, attached to the skin, poorly diffentiated, high grade, spread to the lymph nodes ....... I just realised that my course is so short .... getting an hour of complimentary therapy on Friday when Isabel will shave my head.  Will be so much better being bald that with these pathetic wisps of hair!!!!!!! Might feel better when I get the wiggy if it is like my own style. Why are we ashamed of having cancer, or being obviously ill with it? Praying I don't lose my facial hair, Please god spare me that!!!!!!!!

How can I thank you girls for letting me get all of this off my chest. Strange how much this helps. I really love you all. Forgive me for rambling, Another sleepless night ahead.  I am a voracious reader, but find that I can't concentrate. reading the paper is about as much as I can do.

I am going for..... wait for it ..... a US Guided Marker Insertion Breast Left examination on Thursday 26th March. Please keep me in your prayers that the tumour will have shrunk. Doncha think it sounds like Star Wars?? 

Going for a bath and try to catch some zzzz s it#s now 3.18 am here in bonny Scotland.

With all my love

Nettie xxxxxxxx

geebung

Nettie, I do love your posts and never, never find them too long - they are a delight! I'm so sorry your head is sore. I didn't have chemo so I can only imagine how it must feel. The other women in my support group said how their heads hurt - shaving seemed to take the pain away. I hope and pray you get some satisfaction with your finances. It's wonderful that your doctors are so nice. I am sure that a good 'bedside manner' helps with the whole treatment and healing process. I will keep praying that stinking bootface shrinks away to zero.

 Leesa - I loved hearing about your darling grandkids. They sound so lovable! I want grandchildren! Can't see it happening any time soon though. Eldest son has a new girlfriend. Middle son is in love with a German girl who can't visit until September and youngest son has a sweet girl from Baton Rouge, Louisiana visiting him for 10 days during her spring break from university. He met her in London last year. She and I went to the art gallery today and had a great time. I wonder if things will develop there? She's talking about coming to live in Sydney when she finishes uni...? The trouble with all these overseas romances though is that, if it turns really serious, somebody has to leave their country and that's a pretty major thing.

 Sue, hugs and good thoughts to you for tomorrow's onc's visit. You will be fine of course but I'm sure you can think of a lot of other things you would prefer to do! Glad the teabags were soothing on your sore eyes.

I so agree with you about dear AE & UB - they are precious and wonderful people. 

Cathi - lol! Did you mean to say that Margot is a pisser or a kisser?! The little sweetheart! I would love to get a dog but I don't know how my cat would cope. Was reading an article today about introducing a new pet to a cat. It said to keep the new pet in a separate room and give each pet things to smell that the other has been using. Then, after a few days to let them see and maybe sniff each other through a narrowly opened door. Sounds like a lot of work! How is your daughter? Has she got any results back yet? 

Karen - I agree with the others - you DO look like Julia Roberts - only much better! You might feel fat but you certainly don't look it! Don't be so hard on yourself - you are gorgeous.

I always write too much and then I don't get to mention everybody. Thinking of you all anyway.

Love to everyone,

Jane xxx 

1Cathi

Good AM all, my daughters DR visit is this AM, praying hard. 

Nets your posts are a charm to read, HOPING EACH DAY GETS A BIT EASIER.

Leesa aren't grandchildren awesome, a true joy.

Jane I have a cat also(Roxie) it is quite a bit of work to get them "introduced"  I am doing it pretty much as you have read, they have touched noses,  The book I have says to walk the dog on a leash around the house for several days, allowing the cat to follow if she wants.  I sit on the floor and let Margo play between my legs as Roxie lays by and watches, we have a large closed in front porch, and Margo runs around there as Roxie watches her through the glass doors, I think in a week or so they will be best buddies,

Well ladies must get showered and ready for daughters DR visit, and Margo has a vet appointment this PM, quite a busy day.

XOXOXO- Cathi

Makratz

Cathi

Best of luck today with your daughter.  I wil be praying for her.

Good morning to all other!
Linda

geebung

Cathi - love and prayers for your daughter and you today.

xxx 

barbe1958

Cathi, thinking of you with your daughter today, you are both in my prayers!

I, too, think you meant Margo is a "kisser" not a '"pisser"! Cute about the introductions. Whenever I added a cat to my brood I just let them strut right in and be put in their place. After a day or two they'd be spooning with one or the other of them. I LOVE seeing animals interact, and how they deal socially with jealousy and all.

Nettie, it's logical, not crazy, to be calm about your surgery because procedures are in motion and plans are in place and things are being made right! 

Karen you look better than that Julia somebody....You have an inner glow that shows, and with just the right weight that you have, you look healthy even with your body fighting. I was glad for my extra weight as I was able to stay strong on the days I couldn't eat. I must post a new avatar as that one is only 2 weeks post-op and I'm still swollen up...

(Vanity, thy name is woman.) 

NancyD

Nettie, I agree with barbe...the thing that causes the most anxiety is the waiting for decisions, or test results. Once they are in hand you feel better because you have a "plan of action" and feel like you are activley fighting. I've always wondered how soldiers can go into battle...sure there's fear, but they have to believe in their plan of action and that gets them through. The stories I've heard from veterans always tell how the waiting BEFORE a battle is what rattles their nerves the most.

So starting the chemo is step one. Don't let the financial problems cause too much stress. Things have a way of working out. I didn't know where I was going to get the extra money I knew I would need last year, and then my company bonus ended up being more than I thought it would be. Sure, I would have loved to have spent it on something frivilous like many of my co-workers did, but thankfully, it eased my concerns about paying for the extras that weren't covered by my insurance.

I'm a knitter, too. I pick up a project every now and again. The last few have been to knit Christmas sotckings for everyone in my family. When I was little, a good friend of my mother's knitted stockings for the first few children my parents had...there were just four of us then. As that lovely woman got busy with her own family, there were no further stockings as our family grew to seven kids. So the three youngest never had the custom stockings (with our names knitted into them).

I was a sewer from wa-a-ay back (started making doll clothes when I was 7), but eventually I decided that crocheting and knitting needed to be added to my repetoire. After I got mediumly proficient in knitting, I copied the pattern of the Christmas stockings and finished up three for my siblings who didn't have them. Then I started making them for nieces, nephews, bro- and sis-inlaws as they were added to the family. I fell behind a few years ago. I think I need to make about five or six more. But all total, I've made at least eleven.

At this point, I should make myself a new one, as it's over fifty years old and rather motheaten. 

Karen, I love the new avatar, too.  If I get my act together this weekend, I'll change mine to show my curly mop.

Sue, good luck at the onc. I find my visits to be non-stressful, but maybe too laid back as I always tend to forget a question that I had planned to ask.

AE and UB... my thoughts and prayers are with you guys.