please help

honeygirl

Thanks Sheila , Thats right , its just another day...

sueps

...Thanks Sheila an Mel xxx

I have to pay £44 for my tooth to be extracted tomrrow xxxx   lol

sueps

BE strong Mel and go for it.... look to the ceiling while you are there and shove your fingers up to bootface.... cos you won and you will do fine.... xxx lol   

sueps

BOIL IN THE BAG BOOTFACE.....YOU STINKING TROG OF BILE AND FILTH ... CRAWL BAK TO YOUR SEWER AND DROWN IN YA UGLY FROTH OF EVILNESS COS NO ONE WANTS YOU ...YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE AMONGST THESE BEAUTIFUL SISTERS OF MINE...

 SO BOG OFF ....SHOOT .... GO .... WALK OUT THE DOOR  YOURE NOT WELCOME ANYMORE ...WE WILL SURVIVE ...

BEAT IT BEAT IT .... I WILL BEAT YOU LIKE A DIRTY RUG FULL OF DUST AND MUCK.... AND FLING YA OFF OF A MOUNTAIN TOP ...

BURN  IN HELL YOU SCUMBAG

Wren

Thank you Sue! I love you!

That is one of the best Bootface rants yet!

honeygirl

Yea Sue!!! I can see that awful bootface scum being swollowed up in hell! Thanks girfriend.

nowheregirl

                  

Sweet Mel, think this way. The day you're dx'd means that's the day you're given a chance to live. What if you weren't dx'd? What if bootface didn't get caught? Remember, it's not the day you got bootface. It's the day it was caught to be eliminated. So it's kinda lucky day isn't it? 

Anyway I'll be thinking of you hon. 

             

xoxo

Fumi

lvtwoqlt

Fumi, that is exactly what I was trying to say about the day of diagnosis, it should be a day to celebrate the rest of your live and a chance to live life fully.

Sue, I do love your bootface rants, with your ability to put in words what I want to say to that terrible bootface, just makes me want to smile.

Sheila

sueps

Good Afternoon Sisters xxx

I am all numb from the dentist...he gave me 2 fillings and hopefully saved my tooth... x

I came back to my mammo results.... ALL CLEAR ....

Thankyou god xxx from the bottom of my heart xxx

livesstrong

Just stopping by with

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for everyone.

AE

NancyD

Hello ladies, I just came to report I pulled a real boner this morning. It was really, really cold, and it snowed lightly overnight, so I went out early to start my car and clear it off, and while I was out there I decided to walk to the end of the driveway to pick up the newspapers for my father. I took about two steps in the snow and then stepped on some hidden ice and went up and then down on my head!

I saw stars and felt like and electric shock down my arms to my hands. I couldn't move for a couple of seconds but I didn't pass out. I remember thinking, "Aw, s--t! I hope I can make it back into the house. It's cold out here."

I picked myself up and wobbled inside, and asked my brother to take me to the ER to get checked out. Sure enough, I have a concussion, and I did something to my left shoulder. Not broken but I must have wrenched it because it hurts...and I still have tingling in my hands. Oh, and needless to say, a headache. Surprizingly, no big lump on my head, just a sore spot.

Of course, this was not a good day to take off from work. I had a lot on my agenda for the day. My boss had called an important meeting. It must be an avoidance mechanism I've created. It's a heck of a way to get out of a boring meeting. But one thing I've learned from having bootface, you have to take care of yourself, special care, so I'm home in bed. I'm hoping I don't feel worse tomorrow (afraid I'll stiffen up in a few hours) as there are some things I have to get done before the end of the week.

************ 

Sue, I think I hate toothaches worse than any other pain I've had, and that includes childbirth. They are maddening! Literally maddening! The last one I had, I thought I would go insane before I got to a dentist. And silly me, I wouldn't take anything but over-the-counter meds. A friend offered some pain pills they had, but I was Miss Pure and wouldn't take them. I hope your fillings last, and I'm so glad the pain is gone.

Karen, you've convinced me that I shouldn't get a pet right now. As much as I have loved the ones I had in the past, I don't think I could deal with caring for one while I'm still trying to care for myself. I'll just visit my brother down the road when I need a few doggy licks.

Val, thanks for the hug. I needed that.

Fumi, I agree with Sheila...I really like that thought and it will help to keep it at the front of my mind.

Big hello and hugs to eveyrone!

my3girls

hi ladies.

I didn't have time to read.  Maybe I will when I get home.

My b'day ended up being a bomb! No fun, snow storm...long story..but great dissapointment.

OH well...I don't really care about much anymore.

It's cold as hell here..and lots of snow.

Looking forward to going to Arizona next weekend to see my sister. Maybe that will cheer me up.

My arm is still hurting. Jane mentioned to watch for tingling, I have that almost everyday off and on. ?? Who knows.  I can hardly lift it over my head..but that is better than it was. I had an x-ray..haven't heard.

Mammo on Monday the 19th!! Stressing about it. Shouldn't be..but I am.  I hate this month, I hate this time of year!! My tumor was discovered this month!! GRRRRRRRR

bye ladies. I wish you all well..and hope you are all doing ok.  Sorry I didn't read, Ill try to catch up later.

xoxo

Lisa

NanaOfTen

Hello sis's,

Sue, I am so happy you have a great mammo result! Glad you got your tooth fixed. I agree with Nancy, Toothaches are the worse! Sue, I just love your posts ... when you tell bootface just how you feel, you make me smile and say what I feel, too! 

Honey, good luck on your upcoming test. u'll do great! I love what TimTam says ... the day we are dx is the day we get a chance to live ... I never saw it that way before, TimTam, but ur right, if I didn't find my lump, I would not be able to be fighting it now.

Nancy, take it easy, goshdaRnit! I hate it when I hear of anyone who hits their head! I'm sort of a ... well, can't think of the word, but seeing how I have a head injury from an auto accident, I get ... ahh ... that's the word, paranoid about stuff like that. Rest ... rest ... rest.

Ok, now, just got home from my ox appt. All tests, cat scan and PET were negative, yahooooo! and I'm HER2- ... he said that's the bad one.  So, that's good to be negative. He agrees with me on my decision, didn't like what my surgeon said. Said, yes I will have chemo, very very small chance of radiation, only if it shows up on chest wall after surgery, and treatment should be done in about 5 months.

So next appt will be with ps and then I will have my surgery. o bouy. big sigh. 

yes, it's gonna happen.

chit.

portiasproudmom

Hi everyone.  I'm exhausted, so this may be a really short post.  It's been a busy week.  Lots of running around with the kids and dog.  Speaking of Tinker, she's holding her own.  The vet put her on meds for some of her issues.  Don't know if they'll help, but it's worth a shot.  She does seem more energetic and doesn't seem to be in pain, so that's something.

Lisa, I can't believe we missed your birthday.  Happy belated birthday!!!!!  I'm sorry it was such a disappointment.  Maybe you can wait until the weather improves, and have a belated celebration. 

Mel, I'm having my pap next week and am still trying to get a referral for a mammo from my onc.  Don't feel bad about being superstitious when it comes to significant dates.  I think I'd be the same way. 

Oh Nancy!  How's that head of yours?  I've slipped and fallen on the ice a LOT during my lifetime.  I really messed up  my tailbone when I was around 12 or so.  It still aches when I sit on a hard surface for any significant amount of time.  You just rest and take care of yourself.  I'm so glad you didn't hurt yourself any worse than you did.

Sue---yipeee on those mammo results! 

Cheryl, you're on your way.  Once you've had your surgery and start your treatments, you'll be surprised how quickly the weeks and months will fly by.  You're going to be fine!  We're here with any concerns or questions you may have.

Hugs to everyone,

Karen

honeygirl

Hi everyone.Fumi ,  Thanks for reminding me of that beautiful way to think of dx date. I remember you saying that before , but of course , in the middle of my squirly , anxious moment , I didn't even think of it. You are such a sweetie. Thanks again.xxxx

Yes Sheila , no one can take bootface out verbally like our sister Sue! xxxx

Sue! I'm soooo glad you were able to have it filled. I hope you are resting comfortably. Maybe with some help from a pain pill?  And congrats on your mammo. YEAH!!!!! Such wonderful news.xxxx Thank you Lord...

AE , and UB , Hugs to you both!xxxx

Oh Nancy! Thats just awful. I'm so glad you were able to make it back inside. Hoping you are feeling better soon. The tingly pain sounds like it might be nerve pain. Rest up. Damn snow and ice and cold. I am getting real tired of it!xxxx

Oh Lisa , I have missed so many birthdays lately. I am sorry I missed yours. And I'm sorry to hear you are not your wonderful , spirited , laughing self. I think this weather is getting to us. I don't remember us having this much snow so early in the season in a long time. It will be good for you to get away to Arizona and be with your sister. I know that will help you feel better. I must have missed your post before. I didn't know you are having trouble with your arm. Mine felt like that when I had a pinched nerve. Gosh darn it , Lisa , I hope you feel better real soon. Have fun in Arizona , just layout , and soak up the sun. Love you , Melody xxxx

Nana , GREAT NEWS! you are on your way lady. You will be on the other side of all this real soon. So gald you decided on your surgery. Good luck to you!xxxx Melody

To all my sisters here , love you and hope everyone is having a good moment. xxxx

lvtwoqlt

Lisa, I am sorry I missed your birthday also (I had to make a special point to remember that today is my dh's bd). I hope your arm feels better and you have a good time in Arizona

Nancy, I am glad you did make it back inside. I saw yesterday where a man in MI fell off his patio/deck and froze before somebody found him the next morning. We wouldn't want that to happen to you. We are just having the freezing temps but no snow or ice, the rain seems to come when it is above freezing in my area but not the upper elevations.

I need to get to work now, I will check back later.

sheila

shari1232

NANCY!!!  That tingling in your fingers is an important symptom that needs to be attended to!  PLEASE have them check to ensure you have no spinal fractures!!!!!!!!!  Sadly, I speak from experience.  Not trying to scare you, but this is important!!!!!

livesstrong

Lisa -

Nancy - 

Sue - 

on NED

For everyone facing test, scans & surgery

In case anyone loses their way -

AE

geebung

Lisa - happy birthday! I am so sorry that I missed it. I must get my own birthday list on my desktop so that I can access it easily.

I am also sad that you are feeling down. It must be very depressing to have bleak weather for so long. I am thrilled that you can go to Arizona to see your sister - that is sure to do you a power of good. I imagine that a typical winter's day in Arizona would be a cold night followed by a bright, sunny day so soak up some rays and make your pineal glad happy again!

Is there any way that you can see an LE specialist before you go to your sister's. Often there is no visual sign of LE but the lymph may be pooling. A flight on top of that may not be the best thing unless you could get a LE specialist to show you how to wrap your arm pre-flight. 

My sister is arriving on Monday morning and I can't wait to see her. I haven't seen her for months - nearly a year I think. 

Sue - I am thrilled over your benign mammo! I'm hoping that once the 2 years post dx is up that your anxiety will decrease a bit. I think we all have these fears when we have our tests and I guess we will for the rest of our lives but many of those who fought of bootface a decade or so ago say that it is just a distant memory and the worry is much, much less. I'm sorry about you aching teeth - hope the dentist fixes you up soon.

Nancy - you poor thing - that must have been a very bad fall. I hope you are feeling better soon. My son had concussion in early December from falling on the ice and he had headaches for  weeks but he is a typical impatient young man who wants to be on the go all the time. I believe that if you take it really easy for the first week and allow things to heal that you will get better much quicker - are you able to do that? My son said it felt like his head exploded when he fell. It makes me feel slightly sick to think of anyone's poor head hitting a hard surface like ice.

I also think it would be a good idea if you could see an LE person - the tingling could just be your nerves but it might be the early stages of LE...

Wasn't that crash landing on the Hudson River in NY amazing?! What a thing to have lived through and what a brilliant pilot! And so wonderful that the ferries were all around to rescue the people. I wonder if some of those survivors now feel bullet proof? There was a movie about surviving a plane crash once - can't remember the name of it but the survivors felt as though they could survive anything else that life dished out to them.

Cheryl, I am especially thinking and praying for you. Please feel our collective love, prayers and understanding as you go through all this time of waiting and fear. We are right here with you on the Yellow Brick Road to hold your hand.

Karen - I am so hoping that those pills work for Tinker. I think that you would know if she was in pain. If she's eating, she probably feels ok. When my last cat had bootface he would not eat and the vet said he was suffering so I didn't hesitate to have him put to sleep. I knew that he had a happy life and I didn't want him to live his last days in pain. 

Love to you all and also AE (fingers crossed and prayers for b9, b9, b9), UB, Ulla, Sheila, Shirlann, AnnNY & Ann in Colarado, Dawn, Mel, Judie, Wren, Jule, Kaloni, Cathi (hope you are feeling better), Fumi, Leesa, Suebee, Shari and anyone I may have missed.

Jane 

geebung

Lisa - happy birthday! I am so sorry that I missed it. I must get my own birthday list on my desktop so that I can access it easily.

I am sad that you are feeling down. It must be very depressing to have bleak weather for so long. I am thrilled that you can go to Arizona to see your sister - that is sure to do you a power of good. I imagine that a typical winter's day in Arizona would be a cold night followed by a bright, sunny day so soak up some rays and make your pineal glad happy again!

Is there any way that you can see an LE specialist before you go to your sister's. Often there is no visual sign of LE but the lymph may be pooling. A flight on top of that may not be the best thing unless you could get a LE specialist to show you how to wrap your arm pre-flight. 

My sister is arriving on Monday morning and I can't wait to see her. I haven't seen her for months - nearly a year I think. 

Sue - I am thrilled over your benign mammo! I'm hoping that once the 2 years post dx is up that your anxiety will decrease a bit. I think we all have these fears when we have our tests and I guess we will for the rest of our lives but many of those who fought of bootface a decade or so ago say that it is just a distant memory and the worry is much, much less. I'm sorry about you aching teeth - hope the dentist fixes you up soon.

Nancy - you poor thing - that must have been a very bad fall. I hope you are feeling better soon. My son had concussion in early December from falling on the ice and he had headaches for  weeks but he is a typical impatient young man who wants to be on the go all the time. I believe that if you take it really easy for the first week and allow things to heal that you will get better much quicker - are you able to do that? My son said it felt like his head exploded when he fell. It makes me feel slightly sick to think of anyone's poor head hitting a hard surface like ice.

I also think it would be a good idea if you could see an LE person - the tingling could just be your nerves but it might be the early stages of LE...

Wasn't that crash landing on the Hudson River in NY amazing?! What a thing to have lived through and what a brilliant pilot! And so wonderful that the ferries were all around to rescue the people. I wonder if some of those survivors now feel bullet proof? There was a movie about surviving a plane crash once - can't remember the name of it but the survivors felt as though they could survive anything else that life dished out to them.

Cheryl, I am especially thinking and praying for you. Please feel our collective love, prayers and understanding as you go through all this time of waiting and fear. We are right here with you on the Yellow Brick Road to hold your hand.

Karen - I am so hoping that those pills work for Tinker. I think that you would know if she was in pain. If she's eating, she probably feels ok. When my last cat had bootface he would not eat and the vet said he was suffering so I didn't hesitate to have him put to sleep. I knew that he had a happy life and I didn't want him to live his last days in pain. 

Love to you all and also AE (fingers crossed and prayers for b9, b9, b9), UB, Ulla, Sheila, Shirlann, AnnNY & Ann in Colarado, Dawn, Mel, Judie, Wren, Jule, Kaloni, Cathi (hope you are feeling better), Fumi, Leesa, Suebee, Shari and anyone I may have missed.

Jane 

portiasproudmom

Hi everyone!  It's a foggy Saturday morning here in Western Washington and I'm lounging in my jammies.  I'm watching QVC.  Ellen Degeneres is going to be on shortly, selling her Halo brand of pet food.  I'm really curious to hear about it.  Maybe it will be good for my little Tinker.

Tonight we're heading to EMP (Experience Music Project) in Seattle for Rhuel's postponed company holiday party,  There was so much snow on the original date, that they figured it would be better to postpone.  Now, of course, we have the fog.  Sigh...........it's always something.

I wish you all a wonderful weekend.  To those of you in the US, enjoy the long weekend.

Love and hugs,

Karen

sueps

sueps

I am here walking with you all ...I love you all so much.

Lisa happy birthday...I am so sorry I didnt realise....My mind is everywhere but at the moment.

The fact this post has been going so long proves how strong a bond we have....I cannot believe there are almost 10000 posts on this thread...and I am so grateful to know you all to have you by my side ...whatever I do whereever I go xxxx and remember I am with you ALL also, and that goes for UB who is an Uncle in a million...we love you ....xxxx

I just wished I lived in the same country as you all and I could pick the phone up and further our sistership xxxx  

I love you muchly xxx 

nowheregirl

                

Sue, this thread has been going super mega ultra long because we are too addicted to you and you are tooooooooo much loved here.  YOU started this and we all appreciate your presence here. You have been and will ALWAYS be our dearest sister. It doesn't matter what you say, you can vent away or cry like a  3 years old toddler or throw a pity party because we just love you the way you are. We may be too far away from one another but measured in thoughts, we have been always close.

                     

Personally I really appreciate you started this and allow me to be a part of the sisterhood. I may not post as often as y'all do but I do consider everyone here as my family. My thoughts are always, just always with y'all. 

              

xoxo

Fumi

lvtwoqlt

The airplane that crashed in the Hudson River last week was heading to Charlotte. Living in the area where over 100 passengers were heading there have been stories of the survivors on the local news stations that have been heart warming. One story that was on this morning, a man who was on the plane spoke yesterday at a church, he said that because of the experience of helping others through the crash, he feels that he is not doing enough in the community and is going to volunteer more and encourages all people to help each other by volunteering. He said to find a group where you can make a difference and start there.

NancyD

What a great living legacy, Sheila. That's inspiring.

portiasproudmom

It's an incredible story, isn't it?  That pilot is such a hero.  I'm sure the lives of all those passengers have been changed forever as a result of surviving this crash. 

Hugs,

Karen

EWB

Cathi,

You've been on my mind- I hope you are feeling better.  So sorry you have been feeling wiped out and beyond your yrs. Yes, it'll pass but kinda crappy to go thru it. Your dh sounds like a wonderful man, much like my dh.  Any time I am feeling the same he just holds me sweetly and tells me its ok and together we'll get thru another day.  Since his mom died of cancer, I feel so rotten to put him thru this again (not that I planned on developing cancer) and all our plans for the future are in flux and all he does is hold me and tell me its ok.  Hang in there, one day, one breathe at a time (no pun). Healing hugs and prayers tonight...Elaine

Anonymous

Elaine, Cathi, and all who have someone who holds them and tells them it's OK, you have no idea how blessed you are.

Can you imagine a time in life when talking doesn't help, hugs feel empty, comfort does not exist?

I found an email support group. I also found that I just don't want to hear about others who have gone through this. I can't care about anyone or anything. I had hoped to find support, but I'm not ready. When I first found that I had bootface, it was the same. It will take time to accept before there is possibility of hearing other's stories and feeling connected and caring.

Until then, I still love my sisters here and read here every few days....Judie

NanaOfTen

Hi everyone, been away a while, think i'm in shock mode. I actually feel like I've been hit by a mack truck ... waiting to wake up and see this is all just a bad dream. Was just reading some other posts and how this ugly BF comes along and whacks you so hard, all your senses are knocked off kilter, I don't know if I'm coming or going.

Towhee, you are so true re those who have someone in their life how blessed they are. Being a person who lives alone and not able to drive and can' no longer work, it's even lonelier now with this staring me in the face.  My second daughter has been a God Send to me. She is there when I ask her to be and even when I don't she will stop by after work to see how I am doing or just to give me a hug.

Cheryl