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Anonymous

Howdy Ladies!

I've enjoyed catching up and will try to do the same for you. I'm not sick like you guys, but a bit under the weather still, and am trying to get used to a keyboard that's way different than the one that died.

I'm moving again starting tomorrow. It's in the same building and the apartment I'm in belongs to the Chinese grandparents who live with my son and wife and take care of Connor, so I can do it at my leisure.

Since taking a break from Femara I am sleeping like a baby at night, the depression is wayyyyyyy better, and the hot flashed have decreased.. I already tried Arimidex, so all that's left now is Aromasin. which I will try.

That's about the end of my energy. Good things are happening in my life...just little stuff, but so appreciated. I think of my sisters here every day and feel so blessed to have each of you as part of my days. Yes, Sue, deep love....that's what exists in this place.

Love to everyone!

Judie

geebung

Judie - so good to hear from you and to know that you are having some happy moments. Great that you are sleeping well and that the hot flashes have lessened.

Well, it's late and I have to get up early to take Blossom to the cattery.

xxx 

lvtwoqlt

We actually warmed up over night to 50 degrees thanks to a breeze from the south and that prevented the rain we got from being snow (for now). The weather man is predicting more rain today with a cold front coming in tomorrow and snow in the higher elevations (hopefully not where I live but farther up the mtn).

Cathi, I tried the 1 glass of soy milk or 1 soy protein bar a day and it didn't help when I was on tamox and I haven't tried it anymore since I have been off the tamox. I think this time it is the natural menopause.

Sheila

dink

Hi everyone.  I got the stitches out from my recent surgery and doing much better.  I'm still on antibiotics for another week.  My gene test came back negative for the BRAC1 and BRAC2 but the genitic counselors says there is another test they will run to verify and she will call me with the results on that one. 

Talking about the weather - On my trip to Lubbock, TX to the doctor we started off at 53 degrees in Abilene, TX then by the time I got to Lubbock it was 31 degrees and snowing.  My mom was with me snapping pictures - they don't get as much snow in MS as we have seen here over the past few years.  She reminded me of a little kid seeing the snow for the first time.  She is going to Paris and Germany Dec. 26 for two weeks so I got her a new digital camera and told her to take lots of pictures as that would be all of our vacation. 

Cathi, I;m jealous about the weather.  I hate the cold.

I hope all the fur babies are doing better.

Leesa

livesstrong

Just putting in my 2 cents - its going to be 70 + degrees here today.  WTH?????

Gearing up for my biopsy on Friday - YUCK!!

Love you all,

AE

1Cathi

AE -Thinking of you for Friday -  YUCK -YUCK AND TRIPLE YUCK - 

Shelia nothing helped when I was on Tamoxifen either, and I know there is such a controversy over Soy right now, but with everything else pertaining to this stupid disease and just female life in general I had to research, talk and ask questions. As I said my onco approved 1 glass 8oz per day, it took about 2 weeks and I completely noticed a change in the flashes, less frequent and more bearable. I of coarse am not recommending anyone to do the same,  but seriously my quality of life was being greatly effected, you can't be naked all the time.  Now my onco did say do not add any other soy to the mix -I.E nuts, etc.  He honestly believes that 8oz per day does not add any greater risk for being ER+ than if I drank none at all.  So for ME  -  I tried and it has helped greatly.

EWB

Livestrong- I am in Parsippany, up in the northern part of NJ...are you Jesey girl too?

Cathi- I will be West Palm Beach for a little R&R in early January- is that near by Indian Rocks Beach? 

1Cathi

W Palm is on the East Coast -I am on the West, in good trafic about 2.5HRS away, that time of year proably more. 

EWB

I'll wave as we fly by on the way to airport Hope you are feeling better.

portiasproudmom

Cathi, you are a total stinker!!!  It's drizzley and grey here today.  Later this week, we're expecting a cold front to come in.  There may even be some (shutter) snow in the mixture.  Blech!!!!!!!

I can totally relate to what you're saying, Sheila.  I don't know how to dress anymore.  I'll be wearing a sweater and then a stupid hot flash comes on and I'm ready to pass out.  It's crazy!  My friends and family laugh at me because I rant like a mad woman whenever I have one.

Have a great day ladies!  I love you all!!

Hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Jane, Tinker has doggy alzheimer's.  She THINKS she's thirsty all the time, but they've ruled out diabetes or kidney issues. 

sueps

Sisters xxx

oh my gosh ... I feel so sick...cos I came home to a hops appt for a mammo nxt Weds....I think I am gonna faint... my heart has sank .... I am quaking it ...the mental strenght is zilch! 

lvtwoqlt

Karen, I have a personal fan in my office that is directed at my head/face and when a hot flash hits, the fan comes on, even if my hands are freezing. I just feel my face get hot and I am thinking that everyone is seeing my red cheeks. Today since it was in the 50's and raining when I came to work, I wore a short sleeved blouse with a lace cami underneath (the neckline is too low for me and the lace fills in the gaps) but also wore a fleece jacket. I also have a chambray long sleeved shirt with the company logo embroidered on the pocket in my office that if I am too cold, I can put that on and still look somewhat professional. Just thinking about hot flashes has my face inflamed but I feel the breeze through the reception window that usually freezes me out.

Sheila

lvtwoqlt

sue, I must have been composing when you posted. Don't let the mammo jitters get to you. You are a strong woman and you can make it through this next mammo. Just keep taking deep breaths and try not to worry.

Sheila

sueps

Thankyou for your kind words Shiela xxx

Yes deep breaths ..... I will be taking them every time I need to...and your love will keep me going...I do not know whether to cry or scream at or blatantly ignore bootface right now..... 

I love you all xxx 

1Cathi

Hi All,

I am calling in some prayers tonite for my very best friends husband. In Oct of 06 he was DX with kidney CA, 1 kidney removed less than a year later, multiple nodules in his lung (part of his lung removed) as I learned kidney CA does not respond well to rads or chemo.  He has been monitered closely, and today he had an Onco appointment for follow-up to his regular 3/mo regimine of testing and not good news, 5 nodules are greatly enlarged,  there is apparently a new type of rads they are trying on lung nodules but his DR said it was just a"bandaid" in his case as he has so many.  I am not sure what the drugs are he will be starting (my friend is very upset, hard to talk) but he will be starting a regamine of something 4/Wk on 2/wks off.  Up until now he has taken things is stride, but she said he just got so angry and mad today at the DR, she actually took DR aside and apologized.  Jo-Anne is my very best friend, she and DH have been married almost 30yrs and have a wonderful marriage, thinggs are not good his prognosis is looking poorer and poorer,   I feel so bad and helpless for them -I HATE CANCER.

EWB

Cathi-

Dh's best friend went thru very similar scenario, it is a diffucult road and I wish I could something for them. I offer my prayers for support, healing, strength, to guide the doctors as they plan treatments, and anything I can think of.

Please let me know how things go

Elaine 

1Cathi

Thank you Elaine,

I am so sad this evening, hating cancer so much and the havoic it reeks on peoples lifes.  I am just a crying mess, and can't understand 'WHY" this has to be,  I believe in God and I trust his judgements and plans for each of us, but SOMETIMES it is really hard not to be mad at him for just a few seconds.

livesstrong

Cathi - when does it end??  I HATE friggin bootface.  Prayers are going out to your bff & her DH.

Sue - I can sit here and type don't stress but I know you will.  Try to think of it as a rountine procedure.  I have a good feeling - I'm sure everything will be OK.  Now, when are you going to rest, missy???  This flu has got you down big time - you need to chill out, girl.

EWB  - I'm in North Brunswick - about 10 minutes from Rutgers and 20 from Princeton.

Delbert is on the mend - keeps licking his stitches - driving us crazy.

Gotta run,

Hugs all,

AE

EWB

It is really crappy news, crappy illness, crappy everything!  Watching anyone (esp people we love) go thru this is hard, feeling helpless to make things better....I offer gentle, comforting hugs to you; so sorry to think of the gorgous face and smiling eyes in your icon as any thing but happy.- Hoping things will be a bit better tomorrow.

EWB

Livestrong-

North Brunswick is not far- dh and dd have season tickets for Rutgers games (before it was popular!)

dink

i ladies,

I will be keeping you all in my prayers and thoughts.  Im sorry about everything you guys ae going through.

Leesa

Wren

Hello to eveyone, I hope those of you with colds are feeling better. I'm nervous about getting sick because it does seem that colds hit me harder since bootface... I guess our bodies just take a bit longer to heal. I'm taking extra Vitamin C and Zinc so I hope it helps.

Towhee, I'm glad you are having some smoother days! I can't believe you are moving again. I hope you get some help and have some time to rest and settle in.

Sue... I'm so happy every time I read one of your posts! I just know you will breeze through your mammo without a hitch.

AE, I'll be thinking of you on Friday and sending good thoughts your way.

I read this board every day and I think of you all in a very special way.

Hugs to you all!

jerseymaria

quite a few jersey girls here it looks like.  been in ocean county now for 6 years (hate it).  but spent all my adult life in central jersey.  first in somerset then hillsborough for 25 years before coming down here.  would give anything to move back if i could find the type of situation i have now that i can afford lol.  it's tough...at some point in not too distant future i'll have to put my hub into custodial care.  it's so so sad to hear so many heartbreaking stories of the suffering because of bc.  i too have thought many times why some people seem to have nothing but heartbreak in their lives and others have good and happy lives.  i do have a strong faith in God but it is hard to accept sometimes.  i don't usually read this thread but hey at almost 3am with too much pain in belly to sleep i come to the one place where everyone understands. i don't know what i would do without this site.  i pray for all those suffering with cancer each day. maria

geebung

AE, I'm sending best prayers and thoughts for/to you for Friday and that you will quickly hear benign, benign, benign.

Sue - I am thinking and praying for you too. It is scary and you will worry but it will soon be over and you will have a great benign result as well.

xoxox

EWB

maria-

Hope you are feeling better, and able to get some sleep. Hard to be up so late not feeling well. 

I lived in Ocean Township and worked in Long Branch  many many yrs ago---really liked it there but that was before all the building.  My office was 2 blocks from the beach and the Haunted Mansion.  Had many dinners sitting on the pier and jetties (until chased off by tide) 

dink

I hope everyone is feeling better today.  Cathi, how is your friend.  Please let your friend and her husband know that we are sending prayers their wa.  Sue are you better today?  Everyone try to smile if you can just think about the good we do and how much we are needed and sometimes that will make you feel better when feeling low.  One smile leads to another.  I know that a smile is contagious because I smile every day I read the entries on this site.

Leesa

1Cathi

Hi Leesa,

Well they are both very solem today,  a very harsh and cruel slap in the face for both.  This man has been such a fighter for the past 2yrs,  I hope he doesn't give up his fight, I really don't know how Jo-anne would go on without him -they are tru friends and sole mates. Thank you so much for asking,  all I can do is "be there" when she needs me to be.  We go to lunch alot, so more of that I am sure,  Wayne hates to have anyone see him when he is down,  after all his surgeries he would not let anyone in to see hi for awhile -until he was back on his feet alittle.  A guy thing I guess -strong and proud.

my3girls

Hi sisters.  I am sorry...can't resond to your posts...I read almost all of them.  Been soooo busy with Holiday stuff, work, etc!!

Just wanted to let you all know...that I love you all and think of you each day!

AE...hope Delbert is feeling better every day.  Oliver goes for his double knee surgery tomorrow..poor little baby .

Keep him in your prayers too.  He will be in surgery for about 3 hrs!  They will keep him over the weekend and I pick him up on Monday.

Ok...back to work...

xoxo

Lisa

Anonymous

Oh, Cathi, how hard it is to see a friend suffer. He is in my heart.

AE, it's today! Can't wait to hear how it goes. I'm sending a hand to hold.

Great to hear your sweet voice, Wren, and to know you visit every day.

I'm still struggling with whatever is going on in my body, but not giving in. I just have too much to do. I've started moving and hauled a bunch of furniture today. I'm exhausted, but the new apartment is worth it.

Oliver, Delbert, and Tinker....get well soon.

Off to bed...

Judie