please help

Ka-Loni

Hi Sue, Oh Sweetie, try not too worry so much. I know.....Believe me. We all have this great fear in us. Unfortunately, it is there. We just have to stay positive, as best as we can. You know, I have scar tissue that is lumpy. Yes! Lumpy. Ha! Please try not to worry. Most likely this is what it is. Talk to your doctor soon on this. You will be fine. You get some rest sweetie. Bye.

God Bless,

Love,Kaloni

TenderIsOurMight

Hi Sue, 

Just got back from a trip away, and thought i'd check in. I wish to let you know in the first two years after my mastectomy I had a piece of suture pop up as a mass, a neuroma or nerve ending bundle pop up as a mass, and scar tissue pop up as a mass, all in the same quadrant/incision area. So go on like all have suggested and get it out, but not by using mirrors to operate on yourself!

 

Just wanted to help relieve some of your tension with real alternatives.

 

Hugs to you Sue,

Tender 

Anonymous

Hey, Tender, good to see you, especially bringing actual experience with what Sue has found. You're a treasure!

Judie

geebung

(((((((Sue))))))). I'm so sorry you have this worry. I hope you can get it checked out and given the all clear asap. As if you haven't had enough worry this last year you poor darling girl. It's not fair. It's sure to be something like an undisolved stitch - I had one of these which formed a lump and I freaked out. I know you will worry until you have it checked though. I thought you were on holidays! I had imagined you lying in the sun in Spain and being chased by handsome Spaniards...

Mel, this is also not fair that you have these worries in your life. I so hope that your SO will like the doctor and listen to him. I will pray that the doctor has the right manner and approaches him in a way that will get his attention. I'm sending you gentle hugs,lots of love and my best thoughts. 

Hi to beautiful Judie in her cool pad downtown! I love your sweet smile - such a great pic of you!

Kaloni - I need to get cracking like you and pack my boxes. I love the idea of your pet rescue service. I wish I could send you all my neighbours' pets!

Karen - love to you sweet girl - I often think of you and wonder how you are. Losing your father is so hard. I still dream about mine and he died when I was 24 - a long time ago.

Ulla - it is early days yet after your treatment. Please don't punish your body with too much lettuce - I think you need a weekly treat - just a small one that you can look forward to! You are beautiful!

Lisa - I am thinking about you and wondering how your surgery went. Sending you very gentle, healing hugs.

Love to everyone I haven't mentioned as well.

Jane xxx 

nowheregirl

 

                 

Hi all, It's Sunday midnight where I live and I am leaving for NZ this upcoming Wednesday. Only three days to go and thee days and a half to finally see my Scotty bear in the flesh! Can you believe it? I am more than excited. I could wee in my pants anytime. His surgery went well but he has been feeling a bit weird. We are guessing it's from the general anesthesia he had. Other than that, he's ok-ish. Oh I did ask him if I could use his PC's and got an yes! So I can come here and talk to you all when he is at work or the gym. He said he'd already set my account up on his PC (he uses Linux) and would be making Spag Bol and Tiramisu for our first night. Both are my favourites and of course I can't wait. Then on the first Sunday I come, we are leaving for a getaway and spending three nights and four days in Rotorua. I just hope the weather will be good so we can enjoy beautiful stars in the sky soaking ourselves in the spa. Everything he's planned for me sounds very exciting and lovely. Oh boy, I really can't wait!

             

               
Anne - Oh so you too are going to NZ for three weeks? Sounds like a gorgeous holiday. If you have any questions about NZ, feel free to ask me. I will get the answers for you. Christmas time in Summer was kinda weird but fun also. I couldn't believe I was doing a bbq under the sun looking at a beautiful Christmas tree beside us.

               

               
Sheila - I am sorry about your friend. Sounds like it's too much to go through for her family. Cancer does suck but I am glad she has you as a friend. Do you like to ski yourself too? I have only done skiing once but it was ages ago. I just can't seem to have much time in Winter as it's the busiest time of the year at my work. Bet you can't wait for John to be back!

              

                
Jane - Thanks for the good thoughts for my Scotty bear. What Coldplay song reminded you of your boys? I like them and often listen to their songs. I will check out the move you mentioned. I like funny movies.

          

                
Mel - I am so happy for your clear results but so sorry about your DH. I really do hope he will overcome his addiction sometime soon before it gets too serious. I can't offer you any good advice or have any personal experiences in this department to share with you but know you're in my thoughts. Stay strong and take care dear.

                 

                 
Judie - Congrats on your cencer-versary. Hope you had a great day. I'm not sure when is my official cencerversary is as there's no clear definition of what date to celebrate, right? I thought it'd be the day I was diagnosed but have decided to go with my Scotty bear who celebrates the day he would have died if cancer hadn't been treated as a second birthday.

                

              
Nancy - I too ma glad your mom was able to spend her last couple of years with your dad being sober. So how are you feeling after having done with chemo? I hope you're doing great.

                

              
Valerie - Hey you bad girl. You shouldn't have made us miss you. Congrats on your cencerversary too. Oh did ya get the PM I sent you the other day with the avatar I made for you? Hope you and UB are having a beautiful long weekend. And yes I am counting. It's like 81 hours now.

             

                     
Shirl - So sorry about your daughter. I never knew you had been through such a tough time. Almost 55 years with your DH? Wow, that's a long time. I do love fresh juice although I don't have a juicer. I will ask my Scotty bear if he has one so that I can make some yummy juice when I come.

               

                 
Ulla - When are you watching Mamma Mia? I hope you have a lot of fun. Congrats on your cancerversary too. Looks like so many of gals here have their anniversaries in this month. Why don't you eat anything but salad? You should eat more than that. And nope we will not forgive you because you haven't done anything wrong in the first place.

                 

              
Kaloni - Good luck with making a website for poor animals. You are such a sweet girl. Feel free to ask me for help as I have made a lot of websites as my job. Being busy is good but don't you ever forget to take good care of yourself.

                  

               
Karen - Another congrats on your cancerversary. I hope you are feeling better now. How's your mom doing? Our summer seems to have gone and it's been either raining or overcast for these several days. I haven't seen the sun lately.

            

           
Sue - I too thought you were on holidays. So sorry you have been having a hard time. But I guess it's just scar tissue. Though I know you can't help but worry until you get that checked. Sending a lot of extra positive vibes your way. Hang in there girl.

                 

            
Tender - You are such a HUGE inspiration to many of us. You never seize to impress us by your compassion and wisdom. I hope you had a great time on your trip. You simply deserve the best.

                  

                 
OK gotta go and do some more packing. Have a beautiful long weekend everyone in the States and a lovely new week Jane!

             
xo
Fumi

sueps

Hello Sisters xxx

Thankyou so much xxx

Today the lump is growing...it is on my scar ... obviously I cant feel any pain cos the sight is still numb. I will go to the docs tomorrow, I am so worried, it just appeared to have popped from nowhere. If it wasnt a lump lump it would be similar to an insect bite...that type of size ...

I have googled it ...bad idea as I only read the cr p xxx 

Tender it helps to know of your experience.. thankyou so much xxx

I will let you know when I have been the docs ....haha Judie of course they wont biopsy it like before... I am so bird brained!!!

Just waiting for the boys to come back from North Wales ... they have been gone for a week and a bit. They go back to school on Tuesday...  please can you tell me what labor day is...is it the same as the bank holiday we had last weekend xxx

sueps

 IT could be a new nipple growing

livesstrong

Sue - I wouldn't worry about the lump.  I'm sure you will be fine.  Go to the doctor and put your mind at ease.

bbl,

AE 

NancyD

Sue, Labor Day was started as an end-of summer holiday to give "working people" (specifically unions) a day off in their honor. It comes the first Monday in September and, while not the calendar end of summer, it is the end of summer activites as schools that haven't already started in August open a day or two afterwards. (Used to be all schools started after Labor Day...then a bunch decided that they should start in August and finish earlier in the Spring. Louses everyone's vacations up.)

I like the idea that it's a new nipple...but more likely it's a stitch coming through. Sounds about right, looks like a bug bite. Sometimes the interior stitches don't dissolve like they're supposed to, and it can take a while to work itself out. I guess it's just chance that it ends up coming to the surface.

Fumi, girl your photos are GREAT!  They really are professional quality. Very, very sharp and clean. Well composed. I'm going to say it again...you should market them!

I'm laying low this weekend...avoiding crowds. I skipped my Neulasta shot after that last chemo, so I don't want to be exposed to any germs right about now (10 days post chemo). Lucky for me my daughter is so enthusiastic about doing the grocery shopping. Well, still a "new driver" so there's that, she gets to take her boyfriend, and she gets to use her new credit card I gave her. I've got to enjoy it because I know the "magic" will wear off, but I love how the little bit of independence has changed her attitude. There's less, "Oh, Mo-o-om!"

And I get to lounge in the yard. Sitting on the chaise, under a big umbrella, sipping raspberry iced tea...gee, I love wireless internet!

Shirlann

Oh Sue, you lovable nut!  I had surgery about 6 years ago and I still get stitches popping up, and yes, at first they look like a pimple or a bite, then if you poke around, here is a little black stitch that should dissolve, but they don't, always.

Now, sweet little one, go in and find out.  You have grieved enough already.  This is nothing, mum says.

So head on in, you will feel so much better when they poke around and you see that black stitch, you will be ready for a whole pint of Ben & Jerry's (or the English equivalent). 

Fumi. love, almost on her way!  Now don't wait to get home, take a pix immediately and post it.  We are all dying to see your love.  What fun!  You will have a great time.

Oh thank you Judie, you are precious to me too.  I felt terrible for years.  I felt it was my fault.  I was her mother since she was 6 weeks old and I wanted a daughter so badly, already had my 3 boys.  Life was perfect.  We tried re-hab twice, she lived with my oldest son, and he got her a job at his place of work, but she just kept going back to the "street" life.  Many years later, the county, due to a law suit, was forced to disclose any information that might affect a person's decision to adopt.  We found out both her parents were addicts.  Kinda had the deck stacked against her.  So I cannot say I felt better, but time did finally make it okay.  I just kept thinking if she had been in another family????  So many what ifs.

Nancy, good idea to stay in, you don't need any bugs.  It was so good you did the chemo at the right time of the year, winter is so bad for germs.  Be sure and get your flu shot this year.  It takes time to get your immune system back on track.

Tender, dear Tender, you are a gift from heaven, as always!  You are a treasure!

Karen, I hope your heart is beginning to heal, it is so hard to lose a parent, like someone just slammed a door.  But time will do a little healing, it is just so hard.  God bless you.

Jane, is that little Joey still with you?  Or is that a pix?  He is so cute, looks like a fawn.  I watched animal planet last night the Animal Police, I CANNOT watch that show, I end up in tears. 

Hugs and kisses to all my precious sisters!  Shirlann

honeygirl

Hi Sue! I agree with everyone else , and I too had the same experience. I didn't even have to say anything. My ps took one look at my breast , and said ,"oh there is a stich that didn't disovle". Mine was on the "scar" of where my breast tissue came together with my "old stomach, new breast" tissue! Thats the only reason I didn't freak out , it was on the scar line.

Oh , I ment to ask you what a bank holiday was? Is it the same as our end of summer labor day?

Oh shoot , here we were all thinking you were basking in the sun somewhere. Well , it will be much needed by Nov.. Bootface sucks Sue , but try not to let it "freak your freak" to much. Love you Sue.xxxx Mel

geebung

Oh Sue, now that you have described the little lump, it sounds sooo similar to my undisolved stitch. When the surgeon started pulling it, it just kept on coming out - about a foot long! It looked like an insect bite on the scar. Still, you won't feel good until you get it checked out.

Fumi - I'm really excited for you too! General anaesthetics can make you feel wonky for quite a while. He's sure to feel a lot better when he sees your sweet face. I can't wait for you two to meet. So exciting! Oh, I was listening to Viva la Vida. I love Coldplay's new album. And I can't get enough of your beautiful photos! They have so much atmosphere in them!

Sheila, I was sad when I read about your precious daughter. The poor girl was probably exposed to drugs before she was born. So sad. But what a wonderfu thing for her to have you and your dh as her adoptive parents. She would have felt so loved and that would have stayed with her until the end. You were her one stable, loving source. Oh, the little joey is being raised by a lovely, kind woman who looks after abandoned and injured wildlife. I wish I could have kept him myself but I'm not really experienced with raising wild animals.

Nancy - I loved hearing about your daughter's enthusiasm to go shopping! Good to hear that you are kicking back and relaxing. It will be great when these final s/es pass and you feel better again.

It's the first day of Spring and it smells great and the sun is shining. 

Love to all you wonderful people - not just the ones I have mentioned in name!

Jane xxx 

livesstrong

Fumi - I just wanted to tell you your pictures are stunning.  I especially like all the ones of the water.  Where were they taken? 

I can never figure out the time difference we have between us so I decided now  to wish you a SAFE, FUN, HAPPY, EXCITING, LOVING, BEST TIME on you trip to see your Scotty.  May you have the time of your life!!! 

We want pictures, missy!!! 

AE 

sueps

Hello Sisters xxx

I hope you had a fine day!!! xxx

I went to the GP ....it is not scar tissue  .... he is arranging to see my surgeon and have it removed as soon as and sent off

I am sorry ....

OMG WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!

I love you all xxx

Shirlann

Oh Sue, YOU are sorry, you don't have to be sorry about anything.  Now don't stay away, you come and wail as often as you want to.  This is not a forum where you have to be brave when bad things come along.  This is a place where you are safe to yell and scream.

I am so sorry little one.  We are all holding our breath. But remember, if it is a recurrence, it is not that bad.  Other than mentally, you are no worse off than you were in the first place. (This is a direct quote from Dr. Love's Breast Book) so keep that close to your heart.

Oh I wish I was with you, we would do so well together.  You need a woman to lean on.  We all do.  But you know we are here and we love you and we truly care.

Just think, this is a little set back, and we are not even sure if it is that bad.  Hang on, dear girl, for the pathology.  It could be several things.

I love you, dear Sue, your cyber-mum Shirl

Ulla

oh dear sue am soo sorry for those worrying news..but i still cant feel it is recurrence..honey they told me it needs more longer time to come back ..u just have finished ur treatments few months ago..

honey am here for u..plz dont stay alone now..

i love u my dear,,

big hug till we talk again

Shirlann

Sweet Sue, Ulla is right, it would be a medical marvel to show up again this soon after that super aggressive treatment you had.  And that is good news.

Hang on honey, just hang on, love you, Shirlann

sueps

OMG ...I am well scared tonight ... well.well scared

I do not know what on earth it could be...but its gotten bigger ....

What what can I do...I will wake up tomorrow with fear.... it is sore ... it is quite hard ...round moveable ...

I FREAKING HATE YOU BOOTFACE YOU MAKE ME SWEAT!!!

Now I will have to live life at triple speed...

HELP ME COS I AM FED UP TO THE HILT .... OHh GOD ALL THE WAITING ALL THE FEAR ALL THE ANGER ....

I didnt bring it on ...I have been positive ... I have tried for a year to think it away ...so why could things just appear from nowhere ....my head is a total MESS !!!!

Shirlann

Hey baby, of course you didn't bring this on, any of it!  Silly goose.  Life just happens to us, and for goodness sake, you show me a positive (honestly positive) person with cancer and I will show you a complete nut!  So stop taking responsibility for this, you did nothing to get this and nothing to cause this new issue.  But to be honest, I like the fact that this thing is moving fast, a lot less likely it is the cancer, a lot more likely it is an infection.  Remember, your immune system has taken a terrible hit.  Keep taking your vitamins.

There are dozens of things it could be.  Maybe just a deep stitch, so try your best to wait till you hear something.  

And this is not your fault, for heavens sake, you did nothing to cause this and did nothing to cause the little bump.  So take that out of your thinking.

You are loved and cherished by all of us.  The sisters are doing Labor Day things today, as it is a holiday, but they will be around.

I love you, honey, Mum 

geebung

Sue, I can't add anything to what Shirlann has said apart from that I am thinking of you and praying that this will be benign. I hate that you have this worry and I hope they race throught the tests and give you a result quickly. Love & hugs, xxxx

Love to everybody else here too. 

Jane xxx 

nowheregirl

Sue, just because it's not scar tissue does NOT mean it's C. And to me, a lump that grows as fast as you say it does does NOT seems like it's C. I don't fekkin know what other C is but BC usually grows really slow. Yeah I know nothing helps. Nobody can take your fear away from you and you will keep worrying until the results come in. But at least you MUST know we are all here for you. Yes you have been positive. You did NOT get this damn thing because you did anything wrong. So don't ever think it's something you invited.

We are all here waiting for you honey. We know we can do nothing. But we are here for you. We are all here sending extra super positive vibes your way from all over the world. You are not alone, we worry with you.

xo

Fumi

Anonymous

Dear Sue,

What can I add? Simply to echo what others have said. I encourage you to read and re-read their words. As you have learned the hard way, panic has no effect whatsoever on the outcome. It is understandable, though, and that's why we are here. You have permission to panic as long as youi promise to keep it short.

Each time it becomes overwhelming, do something. Make a cup of tea. Write a shopping list. Scour the sink. Create a list of ten things you want to do in your lifetime. Take a walk...something simple but either physically active or that engages your mind. You have things to do, children to love, and sisters to hug. We need you as much as you need us.

Steady on, brave soul!

I love you,

Judie 

jimpeter

Well my cousin got the same problem with her. But doctor said its something intial. I have searched the internet alot about it and got well good site http://www.freebreastcancerguide.com, hope everyone will get something useful from it.

Ka-Loni

Hi Sue, Oh Good Lord!  Sue sweetie just stay calm. I really think it is new scar tissue growing there. Please try not too think Bootface. No, these things are not our faults. They just happen. I think you may want to go in and see your Breast Doctor, and find out what this is. Oh Lordy! You do that, and here I am waiting for a new life for myself. I have boxes and more packing to do. I am actually scared to death to be alone again. But, I may love it. No Men! Ha! At least, I will be able to decorate with pleasure. I will keep checking on you. Bye sweetie.

Sue, I will give you the address to my new Blog. Don't mind me though. It is still in the process of being designed the way I would like it.

Go to: http://www.allmycreations.blogspot.com   and Enjoy!  

God Bless,

Love,Kaloni

portiasproudmom

Well crap, Sue!!!!  I hate that you're having to worry about this garbage again after all you've been through.  Everyone who's commented on the speed at which this thing is growing, is right.  My bc was a VERY aggressive, fast-growing little sucker.  My onc estimated that it had only been there for maybe four months when I had it removed.  In the three weeks that passed from the time I found it, until I had it removed, it didn't grow noticeably larger.  I really don't think this lump of yours is bootface.  No way would it be growing this quickly.  Hang in there, girlfriend!  We love you and are sending positive vibes your way! 

Shirlann, I've meant to comment on the story about your daughter.  How sad.  I'm sure you provided a wonderful, loving home for her.  She really did have the cards stacked against her from the start.  I'm so sorry you had to suffer such a painful loss.

Fumi, I'm so excited for you!  Please, please, please share lots of pictures and every detail of your trip.  It promises to be the trip of a lifetime!  Scotty is sure to fall in love with you (if he hasn't done so already).  You're such an exceptional person!  Love you, Fumi!

Love to everyone.  Today is the first day of school, so I'm going to have more time on the computer.  I'll be back tomorrow.  Have a great day, my sisters!

Hugs,

Karen

livesstrong

I swear I am losing it - Sue, so sorry I didn't read you post till now. How does your doctor know for sure?  Can it be a plain old cyst?  You said its "moveable" right?  If this helps - whenever my dogs get lumps that are moveable they are ALWAYS cysts - not cancer.  Believe me, animals get the same symptoms as humans most times.  Don't forget "worry is for shit".  Take one step at a time - it could be anything at this point.  Please pm me your phone number - I will call you.

AE

sueps

Hello Sisters xxx

Just in from a 11 hour shift and had to boot up to let you know I spoke with Claudia remember Claudia club... she has got me in to see surgeon Winstanley TOMORROW at 10 40 am OMG OMG HELP XXX

HELP HELLLLLLLLLLLLPPPP!!!

He operated on me last year ....

BREATHE BREATHE BREATHE!!!!  HAHAHAH 

OK goin for a brew xxx

lvtwoqlt

sue just relax and be glad that Claudia was able to get you in quickly, but I don't think it is anything. Will be praying for you.

Sheila

Ulla

oh dear dear sue..

i can tell u now after reading about the speed its growing with that it cant be BC again as it is against its nature,,u will feel better 2moro after u will talk with ur surgeon..it can be anything as long as its growing that fast and still movable,,but not BC..i can feel it ..so u must look for meeting ur surgeon 2moro not to be afraid of this meating..

i will keep praying for u sweety..u r so close to my heart..i love u so much

love u sisters

livesstrong

I'm with Ulla, I just have a feeling everything will be fine.  But you better post as soon as you get back, missy!!

AE