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geebung

Fumi - so happy to hear that Scotty's surgery is over and he is recovering. He is sure to be feeling stronger by the time you arrive next week.

Love to all,

Jane xxx 

honeygirl

Hi everyone. Fumi , so glad to hear Scott's surgery went well and he is recovering. I hope he is feeling much better. Soon you will be there! Praying for a safe trip , and a wonderful time with your pooh-bear.

Yes , Shirlann and Jane , we do feel so happy when our children are happy. And when things are wrong , I can't rest until things are OK again. Ah , motherhood...

Well , I went for my blood work this morning. I see my onc tomorrow. Does anyone know when we "graduate" to every six month visits? It will be a year for me this visit tomorrow that I have been on tamoxifen and no periods. He did order some hormone tests today to see if I am in genuine menopause. Praying for normal readings and maybe coming back in six months this time.

Sheila , glad you are OK , and are getting some much needed rain. I didn't hear of the lady that was missing. Glad they found her and hope she will be fine. Things like that are so scary.

Yes , Nancy and Karen , I too hope your daughters have a wonderful school year.

Karen , I know how excited Portia must be for the Theather! I hope she has a blast. I never minded the "hair-dye" thing. But I didn't want him to get any tattoos. He hasn't , yet. He did get his ears pierced. Glad to hear you are feeling better.

Anne , the party sounds like such fun. One last hurrah for summer! Wish I could bring a pot of something yummy and join you!

Sue , I hope so much you are having a wonderful holiday. Can't wait to hear from you and see some pics.

Hi AE and UB. Hope all is well in your neck of the woods. Are you two planning one last summer fling on that cool patio of yours?

Well , time to go. I'll check back in after the docs tomorrow.

portiasproudmom

Hi everyone.  I'm back from a long day out with the kids.  First I had my port flushed (gosh, I'm getting tired of the stupid thing!) and then we went to the mall for some last-minute back-to-school items.  I bought a Jack LaLane Power Juicer today.  Have any of you done any juicing?  I figure we can all use more fruits and veggies in our diets.  My kids won't touch any vegetable aside from corn.

Fumi, I'm so glad that Scotty's doing well after his surgery.  How exciting that you only have a week left before your trip! 

Hey, guess what??  Today's my one-year cancerversary!  I was diagnosed exactly one year ago.  I wish it was five, but I'll take one.

Well, I'd better go start dinner.  Take care all my dear sisters!

Love and hugs,

Karen

Anonymous

Hi Karen,

I asked my onc which date is the official anniversary. I assumed it would be diagnosis, but she said they count from the surgical or treatment date. Mine is this Friday, so guess it's time to celebrate.

Whatever.

Good luck with the juicer! I love smoothies.

Love to everyone else. You are in my heart.

Judie

geebung

Lisa - saying a prayer for you for your surgery.

Lots of love, Jane xxx 

portiasproudmom

Love and prayers going out to Lisa.  Good luck, sweetie!

Hugs,

Karen

Wren

Hi all!

I've been busy with life... so that's a good thing.

Suebee, some doctor's offices will give you samples if you can't afford an entire month of medication. Also, some pharmaceutical companies will help you pay for your medicine if you contact them; or they will give you coupons or a rebate. When I was taking a couple allergy medications that weren't available in generic I went to the company website and registered (and sent an email) asking if they had any 'frequent buyer' or 'rebate' programs--and they did! It's worth a try if you like the Effexor better.

I wondered what date your 'cancerversary' was... I knew what was up in late July, early August, but I had my first surgery (lumpectomy) on Aug 29th, so I guess that is my 'cancerversary'... I think I will do something special, just don't know what.

Look how far we all have come in a year's time, though, really. We are all amazing survivors!

And Sue, where ever you may be on vacation, I hope you are having the time of your life!

Hugs to you all!!!

~Wren

Anonymous

This is too weird, Wren...two birds with the same "cancerversary" flying together. I'm also August 29. I'll be celebrating alone, but will raise a glass my dear birdbrain...er...featherhead...er um...twitterpated...errrr...oh, yes...winged victory!!!! We have conquered our first year. Here's to many, many more.

Prayers ascending for Lisa, and for Karen who remembers others in her time of grief.

Judie

NancyD

Ladies, Here's a toast to all the cancerversary celebrants, the about-to-have-surgery patients, the faithful daughters, the making-on-our-own crowd, the almost on holiday travelers!

Slainte!

livesstrong

HELLOOOOOOOOOO!  I know I have been MIA, I have no excuse.

Happy Canceriversary's to all!  This Saturday the 30th it will be 2 years that I found out I had bootface.

Lisa - Good Luck with your surgery.

I'm at work so I have to run, just wanted you all to know I love ya's and I will be back.

AE

Sue - where are you???

lvtwoqlt

AE - Sue is on holiday on a nice island, I don't remember where she went to but it was away from England.

What is it with all the canceriversaries this week. Mine passed in June but I will celebrate with everyone else. My mom's is coming up Sept 16 or 17 (I can't remember which one).

John sent me a tentative date for separation from the Navy but it is not set in stone. He is looking at flights and he said it would be cheaper for him to fly to NY (he is looking at moving in with friends outside Buffalo) and get the unemployment benefits set up and putting in some job applications first then coming home for a few weeks when he expects his truck and belongings will be delivered here. I have to trust his judgment to stay in Buffalo where there are jobs. The jobless rate in Caldwell county is over 10% right now.

I too am at work and need to get busy. Love to all.

Sheila

Shirlann

Hi gals, I am almost to 10 years.  YIPPEEE!!!! With Ned, almost 55 years with Walt.  haha

Yes, Karen, I have made juice for many, many years.  Wore out my old juicer and got the Jack LaLanne one too.  I do a lot of straight carrot juice, I just love it, but you can put in bananas, as long as you have other liquid, any berries, and what I really like is the last few peaches, no one will eat, just peel them and stick them in (without the stone), You can add ice, fat free yogurt or ice milk or real milk, fat free, pineapple juice is a good thing to have on hand for things that don't want to mix up well, seems  to go with everything.  Then, get sneaky, and throw in parsley, or a broccoli stem, be careful, or the kids will notice it! haha.  But, ice really is good too.  We go to Costco about now and buy 3 or 4 big boxes of blueberries.  I wash them, lay them on a towel, wait a couple of hours, then put them in a ziploc bag.  You can use them frozen all winter.  Or any other berries on sale.

Hi AE!  We missed you!

Sheila, I am glad John is coming home, just feel better, him being out of harm's way.

Judie, you look so good.

I think Ulla and Sue, our newest "cured" buddies are definitely AWOL.  Getting their lives back, good for them.

Hugs and kisses to all, Shirlann  

AnneW

Happy Cancerversaries to all!! I get to celebrate twice a year--February will be #7, and this October will be #1. The only way this would be a good thing was if I got cake and presents for both occasions! Hmmm. That could be arranged, I'm sure!

Sheila, I've been following the Pennell girl's story in the News-Topic on line. My brother and I were up in Buffalo Cove at Todd's Store the day before I came home from vacation. (His best friend's family owns it.) It's really a miracle that girl was found alive!

I just glanced at my bare feet and they are filthy! I was out in the garden with my Crocs on, planting my fall spinach, kale, and Swiss chard. I'm hoping for a bumper crop (which I did NOT get this summer!) My juicer hasn't seen much action lately, and I'm thinking some green lemonade would be good (greens like kale, a lemon, apple, and a hunk of ginger.)

Tomorrow's Friday! A long weekend for us here in the US. Enjoy!

Anne

honeygirl

Happy cancervisarys everyone ! May you all have many more years to celebrate.

Sue and Ulla , we miss you , but hope you are having a blast. At least relaxing and getting on with life.

Karen , the juicer sounds great. A good way to get veggies in the kids. Hope you are feeling better each day. You are always in my daily thoughts and prayers.

Well , I saw my onc today. Good for another three months! He didn't have my lab work back on my LH and FSH yet. I guess he will take these every so often over a period of a couple more years to see if I am in true menopause or not.

Judie , Shirlann , Anne , Jane , Nancy , Sheila , Anne , Wren , AE , good to see you all. Hope you all have a great holiday.

Lisa , thinking of you. Good luck sweetie. You are in my prayers.

Mel

geebung

Hi to everyone,

Hope all of you in the US have a great holiday weekend and happy cancerversaries to all who have had them/about to have them. Mine was in April.

Karen, I started a post to you but the phone must have rung and I got distracted...anyway, I know you are still hurting a lot over your father and your mom & family too.Big hugs to you and please know that you are in my thoughts & prayers.

Sheila, that is just wonderful that John is coming home soon. Just to know that he is in the same country and you can see him if you need to will be great and I am sure you will see him a lot.

People keep saying to me "You must be missing your boys" and I deny that I am - I guess I want to show how independent we all are! Generally speaking, I am just happy that they are doing interesting things and I don't feel lonely for them but then, every now and then it just hits me and this morning a Coldplay song on the radio made me think of them and I got such an ache to see them again - they make me laugh like nobody else can and keep me feeling young.

Mel, congratulations on the all-clear from your onc. I had those blood tests done a few months ago and they came back strongly menopausal but it's a different story now - I hope I don't get pregnant! Lol! Only joking! This whole menopausal thing is weird - I don't know if I am coming or going, my moods are all over the place and I feel young one minute and old the next. What am I?!  

Ann, I loved the image of your dirty feet from gardening - so earthy and natural. I hope you get a bumper crop and the bunnies don't find the garden.

Shirlann - you inspire me to get out my juicer and buzz up something delicious and healthy.

AE & UB - love to ya's too! 

Lisa - prayers and good thoughts to you and a quick recovery.

Well, I will probably go to the mountains tomorrow with my dh. 

Love to all of you as well as Sue, Wren, Jule, Suebee, Kaloni, Nancy, Judie, Fumi and all of you great people. xxx

PS - anybody see a movie called Baby Mama? Saw it this today - so funny! Last week I watched Hunters and Gatherers and Kite Runner on dvd - they were great too.

lvtwoqlt

I got some unnerving news last night, my friend who I told you about is back in the major hospital with swelling in her brain and she is in a coma. It doesn't look good for her. pray for her and her family. She is the youngest of 3 and her mother was older when she was born. The whole family is taking it hard right now. To make matters worse, her dad is diabetic and has symptoms of alzheimers and her mother doesn't want to leave him alone. Her sister-in-law will come and stay with her dad so her mom can be with her. Her dad was former Navy just after WWII and he asks me continually what type of ship John is on (every week at church), he just seems to forget.

Sheila

livesstrong

Hi All!!

Sheila - praying for your friend .  It never ends, does it?  Your son wants to move to BUFFALO??? He must like the snow. lol.

Jane - how weird it is that you are starting to celebrate spring. Although I like the fall and hate what comes after!!

Karen - we have a juicer and UB likes to use carrots & apples. We haven't used it since the beginning of his reoccurence. Darn thing takes up allot of space on the counter.

Mel - congrats on the good news.  How is DH doing?

Fumi - are you counting down the hours??? lol.  You are going to have THE best time. i am so happy for you.

Lisa - where are you??  

Shirlann - 10 years!!  You go girl!!!

Anne - how has the bear been treatinng you? 

For some reason I thought Sue was travelling in September. Darn chemo brain.

Have a great weekend everyone.

AE 

lvtwoqlt

AE, I was wondering the same thing about John and the snow. He said that he misses the cold weather after being in Hawaii since 2005. When he came home for Christmas in 2006, he froze and the temps were in the low 50's when his plane landed in Charlotte. He bought a heavy coat and left it at the house when he went back to HI. I am going to get it out and wash it for him to use when he gets back on the mainland. He does like to ski and from my house the ski area is about 45 minutes north, but with his bad knee, I don't know if he will be able to ski without pain. Here we get 2 or 3 snows a year, we are far enough down the mountains that it doesn't stay long, and it is enough for me to enjoy. I used to live in Ohio and we were lucky if we saw the ground from Jan-Mar. Donald said he gives John 1 winter to want to come back south. Although the unemployment here is over 9% right now and jobs are hard to come by, he does need to go where there are good paying jobs.

Sheila

honeygirl

Sheila , my prayers are with your friend , her family and you.xxx

honeygirl

Love and prayers to you all.

Karen , I've been thinking of you sister. How is your mom doing? How are you and your brother doing?  Hope you are all doing as best as you can. Ever since my dad died , I have an emptiness that just can't be filled. I guess thats the way it is when you loose someone so close to you. I always try to think of good memories with him. I remember whenever I got sick , he always bought me something that I could play with while I was recuoperating. Like coloring books , or colorforms , just stuff to help pass the time. It really means alot to me now. I guess it is "the little things". Hugs to you.xxxx

Hi AE. Good to see you here. Hows UB feeling? I hope you both have a great weekend. My SO still had double vision in his peripheral field. But Sunday , he went to "the club" and had two beers. Monday too. Then Tuesday , he asked me to buy him a pint of whiskey , which he only drank sometimes on holidays. I said no , I will not. So he went and got it. It lasted three days. And I could tell he was drinking , cause I had to explain anything I said to him. Like he is mentally in a confused state. I don't know why he thinks whiskey isn't as bad as beer. Probably one of his "friends" at the club came up with that one. So now he is out of boose. And I think I will go make some dinner. I'll be back later.xxxxx Melody

Shirlann

Ah Mel, doggone it, this is soooo hard for you.  You are a real trooper to stay with him and put up with his addiction.  It takes a devoted caregiver to be in this situation.  You have my prayers and all the cyber-support I can give.

You can always come here, with your sisters, there's not a one of us that has not been touched one way or the other with some addiction, sure makes what should be so sweet, these good years, not so good.  I lost my adopted 16 year old daughter to the meth scene 25 years ago.  It almost killed me.  But I finally decided that she made her own decisions, what could I do?  Short of hand-cuffing her to the bed.  So hard.  Just know you are loved.

Hugs, Shirlann 

honeygirl

Oh Shirlann , you are so precious to me. Thank you sister. I'm so sorry for the lost of your daughter. That had to be so hard. And so young. I was always so worried about drugs with my son growing up. Its one of the scariest things for me. He got involved very early with the DARE program. And I really think , for him , thats what kept him from getting involved with drugs. Addictions are one of the hardest things in life. Yes , lots of people I know are dealing with , or are dealing with someone who is. I know I can't make my SO stop drinking. He has to do it. I think at this point in his life , he has physical pain that he "numbs" with alcohol. That and fear of dying. I think he excapes threw liquor. Hes not , what I call , a mean or beligerent drunk , he just "sips" beers all day and numbs out. But with this now , serious condition he has , I never know what I may come home to. He has an appt. with a nerurologist on Sept. ninth. I'm going with him so I can talk to the doc and let him know exactly what is going on. I'm hoping the doc will talk to him and maybe he can get though to him of what serious consequences this could cause. The article I read about this condition said , if he doesn't stop drinking , he will end up an "amneseiac in a nursing home. Not knowing who he is , and won't be able to walk. One day at a time...

Thanks Shirlann , for being you , for being here for me , and sharing something that I know is so heartfelt and painful for you. You help so many , and carry such pain in your own heart. I know that God has special "treasures in heaven " for you. I hope you and Walt had a great weekend and holiday. I'm gonna try to relax and enjoy the last hurrah of summer. Love you Shirlann.xxxx Melody

Ulla

dear sisters..i know i was away last few days...but u know ,,school starts and i must do so many things in the same time..

we will go to see MAMMA MIA film ..i cant wait till we go...

i met the PS i was asking for a liposucction..he didnt accept..he said i dont need it and i can do well with the diet...

i am now on sever .hard diet..sigh

i barly eat anything but different types of salads..

i couldnt read any of the last few days posts,,but hope u r all doing well...

i passed my first year since my first diagnosis in 23 august,,do they account since then or since fifnshing treatments??

i love u girls and hope u forgive me for being away with life....

XOXOXOXO

NancyD

Dear Mel...I know it is hard. Alcohlism runs in my family. My father has been sober for over sixteen years, but he was a heavy drinker before that. He was a "lucky drunk"...never lost his wife or a job; never got stopped for DUI; was generally a happy drunk who loved to sing in his Irish tenor voice. But it was still very distructive to those of us around him and to himself. 

His last binge was set off by a brother's wedding. When he started to feel like he was dying, he finally checked himself into the local hospital and their rehab facility. He's stayed sober with the help of his "club" (AA). I am glad my mother was still alive, and that she got to experience her last couple of years with him sober.

Hugs to you and here's hoping your SO sees the light.

Ka-Loni

Hi My Sweeties, Boy! I am so sorry I have not been here much. I have been so, so extremely busy. I just want to have some quietness to read about everyone. Unfortunately, I am packing boxes, and getting ready for a move I hope soon. So, I will be settled and can continue my visits here. Also, I have been busy learning blogger. Ha! It is very confusing at first. As you all know I am a Animal Lover at that! And, I know alot of us here are. They are Gods precious angels for sure. I want to create a website for Homeless Animals dedicated to all my Breastcancer Sisters. Somehow, and Someway. I am not sure if I am allowed to do this here. But, maybe I can start a small fund or donation for my animals. Well, it does sound neat. Well, for now. I need to run to work, and I will be back later. Take Care Sweeties.

God Bless,

Love,Kaloni  

portiasproudmom

Dang it!  I just lost my first post.  I hope everyone is enjoying their last "real" weekend of the summer.  Our niece is here with us until tonight.  The girls have been juicing all morning.  They made a really tasty fizzy drink with raspberries, citrus fruits, and ginger ale.  Very good. 

Mel, I'm so sorry that your SO is having a hard time conquering his addiction.  Alcohol abuse runs on my dad's side of the family.  I've gone through periods in my life where I've definitely been a heavy drinker.  I pretty much quit after being diagnosed with bootface, but sometimes I revert back (like when my dad died), and I have to keep myself in check.  It's tough when you've relied on alcohol to help you deal with stressful situations for as long as I have.  I feel for your SO, but I also feel so badly for you and admire you so much for sticking by him.  I know it can't be easy.

Well, I've got to run for now.  These last few days of summer are busy, busy, busy!  Love to Jane, Sue, Judie, Jule, Nancy, Sheila (I'm so sorry to hear about your friend), Kaloni, Ulla, Wren, AE and UB, Lisa (how are you, sweetie?), Shirlann, Anne, Suebee, and anyone else I may have forgotten.  You know I love you all!

Hugs,

Karen

sueps

Sisters ...I am not on holiday til November ... I havent been here as I am petrified. I have been in tears most nites after work

I have a lump growin on my scar. I am sorry ...I am terrified.

SORRY SORRY SORRY!

I am taking the boys on holiday in November ...not now

I love you all. xxxx

What is the lump

Anonymous

Dearest Sue,

What is the lump? Hmmmm. Well, it could be a reason to panic and go into a tailspin. Or, it could be a reason to go see your doctor and ask, "What is this lump?" (OK, I'm pullling your leg miss Dorothy)

No one here can answer your question, Sue. But after the treatment you had, my guess is that it's scar tissue or some other unimportant process. As you know, though, you have to take every little thing seriously and have it checked out. I'm sorry you are dealing with this. Make that appointment, then shoo the worry away until after then. If it looks suspicious to the doctor, you have my permission to begin worrying again as long as you keep it to a reasonable level.

sueps

Towhee ...oy stoppin pullin ma legs HAHA

I will go docs...it better not be friggin bootface or I will swing for it!!!

I WILL AV TO AV ANTHER BIOPSY!!!????

NO WAY ...I would rather cut it out maself...

my lil head my stupid body

WAAAAAA!!

Anonymous

If it's on your scar, a biopsy is super easy...nothing like digging around in a boobie. Cutting it out yourself would hurt a lot more, silly.