please help

sueps

OH MY OH MY OH MY

OH MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY .....

MY HEAD IS SHOT !!!!! BIG TIME

sueps

I MIGHT STAB IT LATER!!

Wren

Sue, silly silly! You aren't going to stab anything... Drink some tea, watch a funny movie, take some deep breaths...  Try to feel all the love and support coming your way. You are not alone.

I sure wish we could all crawl through the internet to be right there to hug you... 

You are a busy bee, so find something to do and occupy yourself as others have suggested... Even if it's just rearranging something or puttering around.

It must be evening there and that is when you need to be relaxing. Do you still have medication that will help you? I know that when I was worrying and worrying about what 'it' could be, I requested some medication just to help shut off my mind so I could sleep at night and the breast surgeon gave it to me, thank God.

You are a smart, brave, lady and I wish anything that you didn't have to worry about Bootface again so soon. Please rest and relax as much as you can.

Hugs!

portiasproudmom

Excellent point, Shirlann.  I love the multi-dimentional look of natural hair color.  It looks so drab now.  She did tell me that she'll dye it back to its natural color if she's cast in a main stage production at her theater this fall.  That will require bleach though.  I hope she doesn't end up going bald.  Most of us know how undesireable THAT is .

Hugs,

Karen

lvtwoqlt

sue you are a silly girl, let the doctor take care of stabbing that area of concern! If you try it yourself you might end up with an infection and where would that leave you?

I am sending you a great big ((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))))

Sheila

honeygirl

Hi Sue! Hey girl , put down the knife! lol , I know this is sooo frustrating and scary , but we are here for you girlfriend. I thought about you often today at work. I talked to the other lady at work, who had bc and her sister too. She was the one that had a lump on her scare too. She is such a sweet lady , 70 something , works part time cause she can't make it on her social security , which is a shame... Anyway , she said she is "keeping her fingers crossed" for you! So you have lots and lots of sisters thinkin and prayin for you. So bootface , you might as well shirvel up and blow away in the wind! You may take us spiraling down , but we will never hit the bottom! We are there for each other to catch each other and help take us back to the top again. So just go away you boilin bag of filth!!!!! Remember Sue , nothing is gonna happen , that you and God and all of us can't handle together. Love you Sue.

honeygirl

Fumi! Bon vo ouage! well , can't spell it , you know what I mean! Soon you will be with pooh bear. Please keep in touch via his computer when he is at work. Have a safe trip. Love you Fumi.xxxx

Karen , Portia is so beautiful. She looks alot like you. Lucky girl. Shes a very lucky girl that she has such natural beauty. She doesn't have to dye her hair to look better. But , I'm sure she has to do "her own thing" . I know I did at that age. 

How are you Karen? I know , it seems like out of nowhere something would remind me of my dad , and I would become so sad. But it does get better with time. Hang in there honey.xxxx

Hi Wren! So sorry you are feeling bad. I just took two asprins , I feel like I am coming down with something too. Hope you are feeling better soon. Its so good to hear from you. But am glad you come and read , even if you don't feel up to posting. Take care.xxxx

Shirlann , I wish we could get on a plane and be at Sue's door tomorrow! For now , we'll just keep sending her our love and prayers. Hows the diet going Shirlann? I really need to join you! Love you Shirlann.xxxx

Hope everyone has a peaceful evening. Love to all my sisters here. Melody

geebung

((((((((((Sue)))))))))) - I am so angry at this worry you are going through! I'm still hoping it is just an infected stitch or something. I hate that you have to wait until beyond next Tuesday to find out for sure. Lost for words. Just know that you are loved and very dear to us. I am constantly praying for a good result. Oh, and don't go anywhere near a knife! We will all send mental daggers at that lump instead.

Karen, what a beautiful girl Portia is! She doesn't need to dye her hair! Anyway she is pretty no matter what colour her hair is. Most of us went through the dye stage as teenagers. I know you are still very sad about your father. Sadness is so debilitating. It will gradually pass. One day you will be able to smile at your dad's memory instead of just feeling pain.

Wren - hope your cold passes quickly - it can make you feel so rotten! 

Sue - I checked in here at 2.15 this morning! Why was I up at that hour? My phone rang! I leapt out of bed to answer it and there was nobody there! I immediately thought it was one of the boys - an emergency...or more likely a prank caller. I couldn't go back to sleep then for ages. I hate middle of the night phonecalls!

Love to everyone,

Jane xxx 

NancyD

Sue, Trust the collective wisdom of this board. This will be something else...it will NOT be bootface. Go get that haircut, relax and enjoy the treat. You deserve it.

Fumi...bon voyage. Have a safe trip and have FUN. My children think those things mutually exclude each other, but I think it can be done.

Love to all, Nancy 

honeygirl

Hi Sue , I'm back to check in on you. I know its late there , but I also know worry can keep you up. Guess what I just did? I was cleaning out my now , cold 68degrees pool with the skimmer , thought I would stand on the ladder and cool my legs , its 87 out right now. So , I went to step down on the rung , and presto! I fell in!!!!lololol I must admit , it was refreshingly cold. I looked like Shamu at sea world! Except he means to do it.lol I had to hurry in though , the mesquitos are nasty this year. Hey , how about I post some pics of the girls , no , I don't mean my boobs , the furbabies? They always bring a smile. Be back...

honeygirl

This is the girls trying to share Sweetpea's bed! They are sooo funny. I am gonna post this to see if it scaled down. It looks bigger that the size it shows me...

honeygirl

OK , thats a good size. More pics...

This is the girls snoozin' in the pantry

honeygirl

This is my pool I just fell in!

honeygirl

This is the little weeping cherry tree my son gave me.

honeygirl

This is my "little moster"! Adam getting ready to go to his pre-school holloween party. He won the award for "scariest" costume. He was so cute. I miss those days...

honeygirl

OK , I'll stop , for now. Sue , hope you are fast asleep. I will check back before I go to bed. Love ya honey. xxxx

Hi Jane , Hi Nancy. Jane , I hate those calls especially late at night. Probably was a prank. Hope you guys are having a good afternoon , and evening. xxxx Mel

geebung

Mel - love your pics. Two dear little cats! They look as though they are as close as sisters. Love the photo of your son - wow, he sure does look scary! I love weeping cherries. I have one as a feature in my little front garden in the mountains house. Its buds are getting ready to open. Your back yard is beautiful! I hope you enjoyed your unplanned dip!

Sue, if you are awake I hope you can feel our loving thoughts. xxx

honeygirl

Hi Sue , I am heading for bed. Prayers to you sweetie. I 'll be back tomorrow after I get home from work. Night. Mel

Shirlann

Thank you to all my sisters re my daughter, she was such a dear, sweet baby.  sighhh, well, life does this to us, we just have to go on.

Yes, show her the hair, many people don't realize this about the hundreds of different colors in natural hair, even blondes, and take it from me, how phoney the dyed one's look.  Your photo of Portia is sssoooo good you can actually see the dozens of slightly different shades, that makes hair so pretty.  Not to mention the damage dyeing does.  But she is young, I almost had a heart attack when my son got an earring in 1974, now, that looks tame, I have a grandson with not an earring, but a sort've plugs, it just looks horrible.  Ughh, but, praise the Lord, he is not mine, I love him to death, but I actually got the courage to tell him "Oh, that looks great".  Grandmas get special permission to lie like that so the kids will like them.  hahahaha

Sue, now don't be poking it.  I, in my very long life, have tried that with a few things and it doesn't work, and boy, are the docs mad when you get in.  But does it hurt?  By now, you have probably made it so mad, feeling, pressing, pushing, moving, it's probably saying, "Lady, leave me the frick alone".   hahaha, you will be fine, it is just a hair follicle.  

Oh the kitty pix are just darling.  The new, black one looks just like Cleo.  She sleeps all spread out like that too.  They are so precious.  I caught Cleo rubbing her head on Dusty the dog.  She walked under his chin, let her tail rub his face, then back again, then she laid down and rubbed her head on his.  The dolt, just sat there, she wanted him to snuggle her, I think.  But they are friends, that is good, maybe they will sleep rolled up together some day.

Yes, our dear Fumi should be in the air on her way to her Pooh-Bear.  I sure hope he is good enough for our lovely Fumi.

Hang on, dear precious Sue, hang on honey.  This road is long and bumpy (you don't need me to tell you that) remember my tongue lump.  It was nothing.  Scared me speechless. Of course it happened on a Friday, so I had a real lovely weekend seeing if the BC had come back in my tongue, of all places.  Sheesh, it had not.  After that little fiasco, I decided I wasn't going to let Bootface get me like that again.

Hugs and kisses to all, it is about 3:30am in London.  So I hope Sue is asleep.  

Love, Shirlann

AnneW

Sue, luv, you've every right to be scared bootless. I would be, too. It's all due to what you've already been through. No one can say what you've got going till it's out of you and analyzed. But we can certainly hope and pray for the best. I'll be holding my breath along with you, even though it's way easier to breathe once in a while!

Karen, Portia is a doll. Regardless of her hair.Kind of reminds me of this student I saw at the college health clinic today. She's wearing her hair in a mohawk, has a face full of piercings, and the coolest style of clothes. I'll bet her mom cringes--till she sees how that smile lights up a room! She, and yours, will be fine and go far.

Fumi, have a fabulous trip! I'm so looking forward to NZ in December. We're doing a hiking/biking/sea kayaking trek with Active New Zealand for two weeks, and have about a week on our own, all on the South Island. Can't wait to hit the wineries of Marlborough!

Fall is in the air here in the Rockies! The bears should be heading toward hibernation in another month. Ours has not shown his face in several weeks, thank goodness! I think we discouraged him, thanks to rubber buckshot and a noisy 12 gauge!

Work was insane today. I'm off to bed early. Tomorrow is our 22nd anniverary. Where were you all 22 years ago? I was an Air Force nurse, stationed in Turkey, having the time of my life!

Anne

geebung

Hi Ann, I'm glad that bear is leaving you alone! Autumn in the Rockies - I can imagine how beautiful it is...

Congratulations on your 22 year anniverary! What a lot can happen in that time. It's a relatively short period but so many life changing things can happen in that time that it seems like much longer...22 years ago I was living in Southampton, England with my husband and our kids. Oldest son was at school, my middle one was just starting school and my baby was 21 months old. We were planning a weeks trip to France and Germany and then to Scotland. I was unaware that my husband was having an affair and that I would soon leave him. A lot of water under the bridge since then!

Jane 

lvtwoqlt

Where was I 22 yrs ago.... a new mother who just found out that her husband was cheating on me and said that he would not change his lifestyle and if I didn't like it, I could leave. When I did leave and went to my parent's house, he came by and threatend to take our son. I was a fighting momma bear but ended up with the worst end of the fight (fracture in my jaw and sinus area as well as almost running over me with the car). He had beaten me before but I realized that I couldn't live like that and he is completly out of my life. he signed over his parental rights just before John turned 3 and we have only heard from him 1 or 2 times in 20 yrs but refuse to communicate with him.

Sheila

my3girls

good morning sisters.

I am feeling a little better today. Got good news from the doctor...all lab reports came back clear!!! He said everything looks great and that I could resume most normal activities except for lifting more that 15lbs...I can even go back to work if I am ready! I couldn't believe that one. I am going back next Friday...like I told my boss. That is soon enough for me.  I still need the rest.

Sue..I hope you are doing ok sweetie. I know it's so difficult not to worry and be concerned. Keep all knives and sharp objects far away from you!! I too have prayed for you...group prayers are strong...and will show you how we will prevail..and no bootface will come your way again!

Mel....I forgot that I had felt fluish after the last surgery...thanks for reminding me. I think, since Olivia has the same symptoms, that we just have  a little viral bug. Thank you for your wonderful supportive words for our dear Sue..and the prayer...you are so gifted in that area...xoxo to you!! I love your pics...and I had to laugh about your pool story..but after the heat we had last night...I am sure it had to feel refreshing!! Now that I am getting back to normal..FINALLY...we must plan a Sunday lunch! The only Sunday that I know I have plans are this Sunday. My girlfriend Kim and I are going to my brother's cabin in PA.  I think I have told you all about my visit's there before. Anyhow..we are going on Friday, till Sunday!! I can't wait...relaxation, camp fire..drinking a few beers and just enjoying each others company. We will probably do a little hiking...as much as I can tolerate..and shopping at a little country store...most likely window shopping, since we are both single mom's!  Looking forward to it!  Dennis may join us on Saturday for the day...and then Kim can meet him.  Nobody but Olivia has met him yet.  Kim has been my biggest supporter of him!  Oh...I love the pic of Adam...I miss those days also!

Karen....I feel your pain when it comes to daughters and hair dying!! I never remember dying hair as much as some of my girls have. It can't be that good for your hair...oh well..what do we know right?? haha.  Portia is just beautiful! She does look allot like you.  Her eyes are just stunning...and I like her hair lighter..they match those beautiful eyes!

Jane and Sheila..hearing your stories about 22 yrs ago...wow...it seems like such a long time ago..but at times...I can remember instances like yesterday. Jane..hearing about your boys being little heading off to school...I miss those day's sometimes. I am sorry that you and Sheila had to find out about your horrible cheating husbands.  But look at today and what strong beautiful happy women you are!! Sheila..I am sorry you endured such abuse! You and John were fortunate to have that man out of your life..I am glad you found such a great guy.

Mel...the kitties are just adorable..that first pic made my heart melt! How is your OH doing?  Anything better there? I am so sorry you are going through that. You are such a special person...we just have to meet soon...I can't wait to give you a big  huge HUG!!!

Wren...sorry you are feeling bad...hopefully your headcold is getting better.

Fumi...OMG..you have to be with your baby right now!!! I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! If you are too busy...we will understand!! haha

Shirlanne...I am sorry about your daughter...my heart goes out to you. That is a pain that is unimaginable to me!! I can't even begin to understand your pain. You are such an inspiration to all of us...I am adopting you as my mother too!  I miss my mom so much some times!!

Nancy...sounds like you are doing well after your last tx. You are such a trouper!!

Anne...so glad the bears are going to SLEEP!! Let's hope they don't come back in the spring. Happy Anniversary to you!! 22 yrs...how wonderful...you should be proud!  I hope you celebrate in a fun way!

22 yrs ago....what was I doing??? I was the mother of a wonderful 2 yr old daughter..and we were moving into our first home (that we bought). I was pregnant, and didn't realize it through our move. We had sooo much work to do in this house..it was very stressful..more than we had realized when we bought it? I ended up having a misscariage later this month. Wow..that seems sooooooooo long ago. Now that 2 yr old is 24 and living in Chicago..and one of my very best friends!!

Ok..off to rest a little bit.

Love and prayers for all of you!

xoxo

Lisa

portiasproudmom

Hi everyone.  Thank you so much for all the nice comments regarding Portia.  I let her read all the posts last night.  She's going through a phase right now where she feels really ugly.  It doesn't help that a former friend of hers made a comment that she's so ugly it's amazing that she's ever had a boyfriend.  I want to slap that girl!!  Nasty little twit!

Lisa!!  You're in the clear!!  I'm so relieved for you.  I just knew it would be fine.  Love you Lisa!  Have fun with your girlfriend this weekend.  I really need a "girls" day right about now. 

Let's see--what was I doing 22 years ago?  Well, I had just started my graduate studies and was working as a bank teller while attending school in the evenings.  I was still dating my (now) husband, but our relationship was very rocky.  We broke up several months later when I met my ex-husband.  Who would have thought that we'd be back together all these years later?  Not me!

Chase starts kindergarten today so I'd better hit the shower.  He needs to be there in an hour.

Hugs to all,

Karen

my3girls

 trying to post a few pics....

Sorry these are so big...but I was having a hard time loading them...so I didn't want to mess with size!  This is a pic from June of Alise and I before going to a graduation party.

Olivia with Matthew...he is talking on the phone with his birth mom...Alise..

Matthew and his favorite...TRAINS!

Oliver...

A head shot Olivia took this summer of herself...not bad for self portrait. She has used it for auditions.

my3girls

Karen...I want to slap that girl as well! That is truly a MEAN GIRL!!! She must be blind as well! Tell Portia, that when girls talk that way, it is because they are insecure themselves and are jealous!

Sorry again about the big pics..I have had some difficulty trying to post these before..so I was really afraid to mess with the size.

I better get my butt moving!

One more pic...this is pretty much what my hair looks like now...when I straighten it! I am really feeling happy with it...and NORMAL again! 

This was taken on my cell phone about 1 month ago.

Ok...I need to get my lazy butt doing something.

have a great day ladies!

xoxo
lisa

Shirlann

For goodness sake, Lisa those pictures are wonderful, and I am GLAD they are big, remember, I am old and big is very good for me.  The doggie is adorable, you need to put that one with his tongue on You-Tube. So glad for good news!  You look good, sister, really good. ARGHH, you and Alise look so lovely, how I wish I could still wear sleeveless, I just love that look and you look more like sisters than mom and daughter!

This is really something, not quite exactly, but 22 years ago I was in the labor room helping my daughter-in-law have my first grandson.  My son finally showed up, he turned as green as the scrubs, and I had to cut the cord!  He was leaning up against the wall.  Well, they have been divorced for 15 years, see, if you live this long, everything happens, good and bad!

Jane, that dang phone, it has done that to me, too.  Our oldest son, who is 54, has had a severe heart attack, so I don't want to shut it down at night, but when this happens, my heart is pounding like a trip-hammer!

Oh Sue, bug, I hope you are okay, these stupid weekends just stop everything in their tracks.  Try to get them to tell you something on Tuesday, they can sure try.

Hugs and kisses, to all, Shirlann 

NancyD

Twenty-two years ago, I was a new mom...my son was less than six months old. And everything looked rosy. Well, not really. Then-H had fired his agents and cancelled his illustration accounts to concentrate on a new venture, a small publishing company. It ate up every penny it earned, so I was supporting the family single-handedly for a number of years. I worked up until the day I went into labor, and then went back to work a week later. I worked harder than I had planned with a new baby, and even though then-H worked from our apartment, I had to find and pay for childcare for our son as then-H would not do it. (Wow, how do you think that would have gone over if the roles had been reversed?). In retrospect, that was one of the first strains on our marriage.

Shirlann, your story about the delivery reminds me that then-H fainted during the movie they showed in our Lamaze class. My ob/gyn told him he had to stay up by my head or leave the room because I was going to be his only patient.

Kinclan

sueps

I have cancer in my family my mom had breast cancer on one side and my grandmother had both, I have had the BRAC test and it was negative, I cried because I knew my 2 daughters had a better chance to not follow.  Think positive, every minute is precious and each new day a blessing.  I am praying for you. I have just completed chemo on July 16th this year and am keeping my fingers crossed!

Anonymous

Good Afternoon Ladies,

It's a lovely day today. Fall is my favorite time of year...though it's not quite here. The colors, the coolness without coldness, the sunny days without heat, the scent in the air...all wonderfuly invigorating.

Nancy, just be happy that your daughter is enthusiastic about driving AND safe, as most kids are. I had terrible luck with mine, and it truly was luck. They were careful drivers. Eldest son got in an accident just twice...both the first time he drove a new car of mine. Totally not his fault. Same with youngest son, only not a new car. It's my karma.

Jane, my cool pad downtown is not so cool at the moment. Grief keeps slipping in the window and tarnishing the glow. Luckily, I still have enough oomph to kick him out and get back to work. Then this place becomes way cool again.

Fumi, dear Fumi...I am feeling your joy and seeing lovely pictures, dear beautiful soul. Scotty bear will have an army of angry BC aunts to deal with if he doesn't treat you like the queen you are!!!

Kaloni, I tend to forget things, but I don't remember you talking about moving out. Are you ending a relationship? If so, my heart is with you.

Ulla, I'm sailing on the feeling you have that all is well. Keep up the flow, Ulla. I'm so glad you are staying with us!

Mel, you, as always, bring inspiration. You give so much to us and many others, I'm sure, when you are dealing with tremendous challenges in your own life. As you know, I'm quite partial to Sweetpea. I love the pictures, especially little Adam. I miss those days, too. Your yard is lovely. I think a dip in a cold pool was just what you needed! Laughter and refreshment...what could be finer?

Lisa, so good to hear that you are doing so well and all is clear. Your photos are super. Your beautiful girls come by their beauty naturally!

Wren, hope that darned head cold fizzles out soon. Please take care of yourself!

Jule, good idea to have Sue put on those ruby slippers. She MUST wear them Tuesday when she goes to hospital. That way she takes all of us along to support her. I'm hoping to head your way next month. I miss my guy!!!

Karen, I think of you often. I know what you mean about being sidetracked by thoughts of your dad. It still happens to me many years later. Parents are part of the fabric of who we are. Portia is a knockout! I had a daughter who was actually kind of homely, but refused to let it stop her. She became highly skilled with makeup and filled in the rest with personality.

Sue, did you get your hair cut? Pictures, please!

Anne, 22 years ago I was in my prime physically and emotionally, doing work I loved (charge RN L&D), was respected and had lots of friends. I had met the love of my life and we were beginning the process of having a child and creating a family. It was a very good time. Happy Anniversary!

Love and hugs to AE, Shirlann, Sheila!

Judie