please help

Shirlann

TOLD YOU, Judie!   YIPPEEEE!!!  Still glad to hear the news.  I try and try to get family members, sisters on this site, everyone to get a colonoscopy, the only cancer you can "cure" without doing very much, and I have no luck at all.  When I hear that someone has died of this type, I just curl up inside, so unnecessary.  Well, enough, go celebrate sweet sister!  Such good news.

 Ulla, peaches, what a lovely picture!  Now stop worrying about your weight for a while, you have been to hell and back and you need a break!  Just enjoy being well and hopefully not in pain.  Just enjoy, honey.

Karen, honey, my heart goes out to you.  Just know my prayers and love are with you too, even though I can't be with you.

Hi Kaloni, so good to hear from you!

Jane, where were you?  We are going to Niagara Falls Oct 30th, it is our 55th Wedding Anniversary, will it be frosty or just cold?

Sue, lovey, I sent a new Avatar to you, with a little lightening up, so we can see your pretty face.  I hope it works to get on the site.

Mel, dear, if I wasn't depressed, I wouldn't recognize myself.  It is a hard road.  But we are with you, and love you.

AE & UB, I LOVE the picture, so cute, you both look wonderful.

Hmmmm, so, Sue, it will be Florida, huh?  You could come over the pole to Los Angeles, and I could pick you up, we are only 100 miles South, THEN go to Florida.  (This country is so darn big). Or I could come to Florida, it is pretty easy, lots of flights from here, get a hotel, and we could be together, just keep me posted.

Love and kisses to all, Shirlann 

livesstrong

Judie - doing the happy dance for you!!  WOOP WOOP!!!!

lvtwoqlt

Judi - Happy dance here as well.

sue I am only about a 12 hour drive from Orlando. Maybe I could plan to meet you there also.

Last week Anne and I had fun going to Earleen's studio in Asheville. The only picts that were taken were of my boobs  and guess what Earleen has put my boobs on her site , but I won't tell which boobs are mine!

Sheila

sueps

Oh my Sisters ...lol....is my face green .... I have just tried to lighten up but clicked the wrong button... HAHAHAHHA

 Judie ...HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DANCE!!! yipeeee xxx

Sheila..... a 12 hour drive ...ONLY a 12 hour drive.... hehehhe.... I could drive from one side of the UK to the other in 12 hours .... your country is HUGE!!!  Anyway we are all gonna meet up right....!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS XXX

I have requested 2 weeks off in November to go on my Jollys to Spain or the canary islands....not sure which yet.... and I am going to request a big 3weeks off early next year to come see you all... I am sure I could hop on lots of planes... and hop off again.... I need to plan plan plan.... xxx

I hope you are all having a good Monday... I have a 7 day week this week YUK ....

I have been reading a few posts as usual ....this site is full of courage and wonderful sisters .... I feel very humbled xxx

Kisses to all of you and much love xxx

sueps

Sheila ... I love Penelope... Your pic of her is beautiful...I hope she is being a good girl for mummy  .... xxx

Ulla

oh judie am sooooon happy for the good news..i was very worried but didnt want to say any word till u get the results..

i hate tests and waiting,,

but thank god at last..

dear karen..my heart goes for u ..i will be with u in spirit,,

sue u look so lovely in the pic..ur hair looks so nice ..mine is crazily curled ..that i cant do anything with it but to wait it become longer....

nancy..well done sister..friday is not so far so we will dance for u finishing the chemo..

dear ,,dear mel..plz check in and tell u wat is going with u sister...

and the dearest mom..shirlann..u make me feel good about myself everytime u talk to me..ur words have magical power on me...they make me feel better all the time,,

sheilla..wat site that ur frind put ur boobs on??i didnt understand...

jane,,,hope u have a nice warming coffee..lol

everybody elas who i might forget to mention,,,i depend on knowing that u all sure about howmuch i do love u

lvtwoqlt

Ulla, it is www.ashevillepmc.com Earleen is the cosmetic pigmentologist who touched up the tattoos (areola) that my PS office did first but I did not like them. She started posting on bc.org 1 month after my ps did the first tattoo session. I will let you guess which pictures are mine (all that show are my boobs!), they are on the areola page. Her site is about the work that she does both with eyeliner, eyebrows, and lip liner as well as her passion for breast cancer patients. I signed a release form to allow her to use the photos that she takes both on her website as well as any printed material that she hands out. Her work is fantastic.

Sue, Penelope is being good (most of the time) occasionally she gets in the small trash can in the living room and pulls tissues out and shreds them up or she gets a piece of paper and shreds it up. she doesn't chew anything up but leaves a mess of shredded paper on the floor. I try to empty the trash can every couple of days to prevent her from pulling the papers out of the top.

everyone's new avitar looks great.

Sheila

AnneW

Hello, girlfriends!

I'm finally catching up on this thread after a wonderful week visiting family and friends in NC! My childhood neighbors had a reunion--that was a blast. Some of us hadn't seen each other for 30 years! I got to meet Sheila-- we had a talk-fest on our drive to see Earlene. Earlene does fabulous work, and she is a gorgeous, fun person to be around. I think in the spring I'm going to have her do my "tit tats"!

I'm sorry for all the heartache of illness and loss some of you have endured. Karen, I ache for you with your dad's passing. Losing a parent is so difficult.

I'm thrilled for everyone's good news, healthy check-ups, etc. Keep NED around, okay?

Our oppressive heat finally broke last week. 24 straight days over 90 degrees. A record for the Denver area. Now, fall is in the air even though it is still warm. I'm glad the heat of summer is gone, but I'm not ready for summer to end yet. I still have hiking and biking to get to! Sometimes I feel life is passing my by while I am doing the things I can to keep living. I know that sounds crazy...

The clock says 5:30 p.m. That means it's "tea time"--I've got some single barrel bourbon calling my name (unless dh can tempt me with a martini!)

Have a good evening, everyone!

Anne

honeygirl

Hello all my lovely sisters and UB. I'm sorry I haven't been here. In a bad funk over everything. But , Judie , soooo happy for your good news! I can feel your happy relief. Good for you. Love to endulge in a glass of wine with you.xxxx

Karen , I'm sure you have had a long and exhausting day. Hugs to you sweet sister.xxxx

Well , to start , my SO is an alcoholic. Since he retired , and has no hobbies , and with his PAD in his legs so he has not been able to take on a part time job for the last two years , he just sipped on beers all day long. The only time he left the house was to go to the "club" to meet his other retired friends for beers. Well , since his last surgery , I noticed he wasn't right. I thought maybe he had a small stroke. Was confused and loss of memory. Never really came back physically with his legs either. So anyway , when he started seeing double , I took him to the emergency room. They thought at first maybe his prostate cancer had come back to the brain. So the gave him a ct scan. Negative. They then thought perhaps he was about to stroke out , so they took him to the University hospital. They did a MRI and found out he has a condition known as Wernicke Encephalopathy. It is found in alcoholics and some others , as it is from drinking and not eating right. It causes you to become deficient in thiamine. That causes lessions on the brain stem. Which caused his double vision. But not only that. When the doc was talking to me about the other symtoms , it was like he was describing him. Shuffling gait , which we thought was from the surgery. Confused , sits and stares , no intrest in life , memory loss. They are giving him folic acid , vitamin B , and put him back on lipitor. He has quit drinking as of 8/8/08. But of course is craving it at times. I asked him if he wanted to go to a rehab that is close by and very good , but he refused. He still has slight double periphreal vision. We don't know if that will ever totally go away. He still isn't eating as good as he should be. The worst part is , if he should continue to drink , he will end up in a nursing home , with complete "amnesia" and not be able to walk. He is also dizzy all the time. I don't know if it is meds or withdrawal. Or something else. He has not been able to drive yet , but everyday I worry , I will come home and he will have bought some beer. I'm gonna make a docs appt for him to see about the dizziness. He is suppose to go see a nerologist. Oh , and while my SO was in the hospital , we found out a friend of ours was in there with lung cancer. He had just had surgery.Hes still in there.Just trying to take it one day at a time. But of course when things go wrong , it is like a snowball effect. I was going to the drug store to pick up my script , and my car wouldn't go. I lost all my transmission fluid and my hose for my power steering broke also! Now that is going to cost me 500.00 to get it fixed. This was last Wed. and I still don't have my car yet. Today I went to pick it up and they said they sent the wrong parts. So maybe tomorrow... And I went to my regular doc for my blood pressure to get my script , Are you ready? I have gain 30lbs since dx! Unbelieveable. I go see my onc the 28th. I hope there is no bad news there. I called my son. He and his girlfriend got an apartment. But he hasn't been able to find a job yet. He is getting discouraged. Then things looked up for him a little. He had a interview with a school of music to be an instructor. Please say a pray for him. His name is Adam. He went to college for 6 yrs. I would think he could get something better than dominos. Hopefully , if my car is fixed by Sat. and I don't have to work , I will go see him. Then when I called him last  Friday to tell him I still didn't have my car yet so I couldn't go see him ,  he had gotten sick with a sore throat and head cold. When we hung up , I thought , well I'll just get things done around the house. So I went outside to mow the lawn , and on my second ride around the yard , boom , the steering broke. So I feel like I am surrounded by a "charlie brown" cloud. Or I'm living in murphys law , if it can go wrong it will. I just need something good to happen. And get me out of this funk I'm in. Well , this has been a long post , and I better submit before I loose it. Love you all. Thanks for thinking of me. I love you all. Melodyxxxx

geebung

Dear sweet Mel, I am very glad you finally told us what is wrong. I will keep you, your SO and Adam in my prayers. I am so sorry everything is so hard for you and I hope and pray that you will soon have some relief from so much worry and heartache.

Ann, it's so great that you were able to meet up with Sheila and also spend time with your family and friends. I'm glad that the heat wave has passed. Autumn is best time of the year I think - really energising!

Shirlann - When I went to Canada at the end of last year my sister & I stayed with my niece and her husband in Burlington, Ontario. I think it was about an hours drive north of Niagara Falls. Winter is probably not when most people would want to visit but I am really glad I saw it then. There were no crowds and the scenery was so dramatic and beautiful. Anyway, my sister was there for her daughter's wedding on the 1st October the year before last and she said it was just wonderful then. My niece and all the guests wore summer clothes. I know it can get cold quickly at that time of the year and I would think that the nights might be a bit chilly. The autumn colours will be gorgeous! I went to Scotland in October and it was perfect weather so I think it's a great time to travel in the northern hemisphere.

Sheila - my dog (who is no longer with us) used to love shredding tissues. She knew I didn't like her doing it and she would look so guilty when I came around a corner and caught her in the act!

Sue - people in the UK thought we were nuts when we said we were driving to Scotland for a long weekend! We drove from Southampton to the Lakes District on the first day, then to Loch Ness the next, then to James Herriot country (can't remember what it's called) and back to Southampton - with the 3 kids - the youngest was about 19 months. It's a 12 hour trip to Brisbane from where I live. My son drove to Brisbane and back with his mates in one day to buy a drum kit. Now that's a bit ridiculous! 

Nancy - I will celebrate for your last chemo this Friday!

Karen, I hope you were able to sleep after your dad's funeral. You must be exhausted. Thinking of you. xx

Hugs and lots of love to everyone,

Jane xxx 

Wren

Sheila, those tattoo photos look great. I can't wait to get my nipples done. It will be in November... just scheduled surgery to make them today. Then tattoos a few months later...

Mel, you have a full plate and I'm sure it's overwhelming. I will keep you and your SO in my prayers.

Ulla and Sue--your hair looks sooooo cute in your new photos. I just love how young it makes you both look... just adorable. I'll bet your hair is so soft too.

Judie, Yay for colonoscopies that get rid of precancerous stuff! I'm happy that you got good news.

Karen, my heart aches for you and your mom. I just know these have been some sad days for you. I pray that the memories of your dad stay with you and lift you up in your grief.

Hugs to you all!

Anonymous

Just a quick note this morning. I have been on vacation so a little swamped at work but HAD to check on you all!!!!

Karen-Im so sorry to hear of your dad....I hope you are resting and taking it easy today...these things can be so emotionally tolling!!!

Judie-Dancing with you sister!!! what wonderful news!!!

Mel-Im sorry you have to go through all this....it sure seems that when it rains it POURS in our lives doesnt it...please let us help you when we can...dont hide from us or we will have to come find you!!!!

Ulla-Its so nice to see you back to being bubbly and happier!!! Such a beautiful woman, I love the new pic...

Hi to everyone Ive missed, Ive read each post but dont have to time to visit each of you until later....

I LOVE everyones new avatars!!!!

Hugs to all

Jule

nowheregirl

 

                

Sheila - That's a shame you didn't take any pictures but the ones of your boobs! I would have really enjoyed seeing you in the picture.  But I am glad you had a great time with Earleen.

               

             
Jule - How are you doing? Hope everything is fine. I hope you can make it to Pinkstock next year.

                 

          
Valerie- I do like your new avatar but I would love to see you more clearly. Can't you email me that picture so I can crop it and make you two look bigger.

                

         
Nancy - Woo Hoo for you are almost done with chemo! Only 4 days till the last round? We will have to throw a cyber party for you this weekend.

               

           
Ulla - Don't worry about your weight now. There are so much more you have to do right now and ovbiously your plate is full. Pushing yourself into doing a diet or exercises is stressful. You can wait until you start feeling a lot better, OK?

             

              
Sue - I loved all the pictures you posted but how adorable your prince is! I have always wanted to visit Spain mainly because the food looks yummy. ha ha! I can't wait for you to go on a holidays You so deserve it!

             

            
Judie - Yaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy! I am so happy for you. That's such great news. I'm joining the party and enjoying Haagen-Daz! Yum yum.

               

           
Jane - Your story about Canada reminded me of one of the best memories of mine. I visited Vancouver when I was 16 and stayed there for 2 weeks. Everything I saw was beautiful and Canada has been one of my favourite countries since then. Now you wonder what country I like the most? Believe it or not, it's where you live. Aussie Aussie oi oi oi! *lol*

                

             
Suebee - Good luck with your check-ups next month. I hope and pray that things at your work start improving soon. Hang in there.

              

            
Mel - {{{{{HUGS}}}}} I don't have the words of wisdom but know my thoughts are with you. Everything looks so overwhelming and I can only pray that things will work out for you two. Thinking of you sweetie.

            

           
Wren - Good luck with your reconstruction surgery. I hope you will get what you really want. I can't believe November is not too far away from now. No wonder we get old quickly!

                 

                 
Lisa - I am so very sorry about your friend. I too lost two of my dearest friends here on BCO this year: Jen from my chemo group and Kari who was one of the closest friend of mine. I know I am thousands miles away from you but measured in thoughts, I'm right there with you.

              

           
Karen - I too loved the obituary. Thanks for sharing. I hope the funeral went well and that you are feeling better now. My thoughts are still with you dear.

                 

                 
Shirl - Wish I could fly like a bird so I could come and meet you. But I'm still hopeful that I will make it to your coutnry in the next couple of years. But here's a problem. Your country is just too big and all my friends live in different states. I just don't know where I should go.

                   

                  
Mouse - It's officially 20th August where I live so I am celebrating your first cancer-anniversay. Here's to many many many more years!

                 

                 
Kaloni - Looks like you've been busy. Don't forget that we too love you. Hope things calm down soon. Things are not the same when you are not here.

             

                
Anne- That's fantastic you got to meet Sheila. Now you've got me jealous. Our heat is still here, just doesn't seem to be gone anytime soon. It's been 97-ish for the last several weeks and the worst part of this is that the temperature wouldn't drop down any lower than 86F even at night. Grr.

               

             
Can you all believe I only have 15 days left till I finally meet my Scotty bear in NZ? I can hardly believe that! I've got a pair of new jeans, a mini skirt (yeah I said mini!), two pairs of leggins and a necklace. Of course I want tons more but it indeed is super hard to get something nice to wear in the COLD weather when we are pretty much in the middle of summer. I wish our seasons weren't opposite. But anyway, I'm physically ready to meet him. Oh did I say I have lost 22 lbs since I start dieting in May? When I went shopping for new jeans, I didn't know what my waist size was. I knew it was smaller than before but never knew know it was 6 inches smaller!!! Hooray for me. I really can't wait anymore to see him but am a bit nervous at the same time. I just hope I don't disappoint him. Oh by the way, he had an assessment with his onc today and his last MRI was finally officially came back clear. Now we are party'ing!

               

Hope you all enjoyed the pictures (all taken in my country) and that you have a great Tuesday (Wednesday for Jane). Talk to you soon.

                   

xo
Fumi

lvtwoqlt

Fumi, I love the picts. Around here now the flowers are not as pretty as that because of the lack of rain. we are still in the exceptional drought. We thought that the tropical storm Faye would come up across Georga and South Carolina and bring rain to us but there is a high pressure system sending the rains to the East not much help for the inland areas. I wish I could lose about 20 lbs. I have been walking 3-4 times a week about a mile each time hoping that will help me lose the weight I have gained in the past year. Have fun with your Scotty bear and party for the clear MRI!

Sept 6-7 is a Women's health fair in Hickory and the calendars will be available at that time. Through Healing Eyes (non-profit that does the calendar) has a booth at the health fair and they want this year's models to be there handing out breast health information and selling the calendars. The big THE Gala is Oct 3. I still haven't seen the proof yet from my photo shoot Katheryn said that all the models were great in their photos.

I spoke with John last night and he is still unsure when he will be coming home from Hawaii.

Sheila

geebung

Fumi - your pics are absolutely beautiful! I feasted my eyes on each one of them. I thought your favorite country would be NZ?!!! Every country has its unique beauty but I think that where you are born and raised tends to get into your blood and you feel a real afinity with that region. 15 days to go!!! I am sure Scotty Bear will get his socks knocked off when he sees you! Wow - you have done amazingly well with your weight loss! I wish I could do half as well!

Sheila - I finally accessed that website and had a peek. What a work of art! Quite amazing. It must be a good feeling to be whole again. I do admire women who go through recon. My main fear is that it would worsen my LE so I am adjusting to asymmetry!

Karen, I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family. May you all draw even closer together and find support and comfort in your love for each other.xxx

Jule - I hope you had a relaxing and energising holiday. Great to see you back here.

Mel - thinking and praying for some relief for you and your family. I hope you can feel the loving thoughts from all of us all. I just wish we could do something practical to help. Please keep in touch when you have time. You must be wrung out and exhausted. xxx

Love you all and also to Lisa, Wren, Shirlann, Sue, Ann, AE & UB, Nancy, Suebee, Kaloni, Judie, Ulla and anyone I might have missed. 

Jane xxx 

Shirlann

Oh my, it is hard to even know where to start!  Have we become a community, or what?

First, Fumi, the pix are so lovely, thank you dear girl, for sharing them with us.  What do you mean, will he like you?  Humph, will you like him, is more like it.  You, of course, are perfect and thin, too.

Mel, honey, I cannot believe your post.  It sounds like 2 weeks of dear Abby, in just one week.  I am so sorry.  Shoot, you are overdue for some very good news!

Fumi, we are sorta thinking of Florida for Sue next year.  You could come here to San Diego, well I could pick you up in Los Angeles, it is a cheaper fare, and we could go to Florida together, assuming any of us can afford the air fare by then.  We could stay at Embassy Suites, get several rooms, and they have breakfast included.  Sue will stay with.....our sister....memory blank...in Florida, and we can all meet for a beach day, go out to dinner, etc. for a few days.  So that is one option. Hoping, by then, maybe Ulla can come too.  Some stupid thing about a visa.  Just go to Mexico and walk over.  hehehe

Jule, it is so good to hear from you!  Glad things are going well.

Sheila, we have little rain in the best of times. In San Diego two years ago, we had a total of 3 inches the whole dang year, poor trees.  It was so dusty and dry.  Ughhhh I gotta go see those boobs!  If they tried to take a pix of mine, they would have to lay on the floor, they point that way.  hahahaha

Sue, lovey, I am sending the stuff for Zippy, hope it doesn't take too long.  I will send all of it, as Cleo is never outside, so she has no fleas.  I think, you can check, it is once a month, then, in the winter, at least around here, they are pretty much gone.

Jane, your little Joey is so darling, I love seeing that pix!

Hugs to Lisa, Nancy, Ann, Kaloni, Judie (the lucky), AE & UB....

Hope I didn't miss anyone, if we plan far enough ahead, we should be able to do something, this stupid country is sooooo big.

Hugs and kisses to all, Shirlann 

NancyD

Oh, dare I suggest we meet in FL on the west coast?  My sister has a beach house in Indian Shores (near St. Petersburg) that I could beg for a week...or even a weekend if you wanted to move on to some of the sights in the inland area after a few days. It has four bedrooms and sleeps at least eight comfortably, with room in the living room for sleeping bags or making a nest on the couch.

Fumi, your pictures amaze me! They are so bright and beautiful. Are they all yours?  If they are, you should think about sending them to some stock photo agencies and make some money from them. They're that good. I deal with stock agencies all the time.

Well, ladies I'm all set for my radiation. I had my tattoos and simulation done today, and I start September 2 for five weeks. And here I thought I wouldn't be done with this stuff until Halloween! Looks like I'll be done by Columbus Day.

portiasproudmom

Hi everyone.  I don't have time to do more than scan through the posts.  It's been a very emotional couple of days, and my brain is toasted.  My dad's funeral was really wonderful.  My SIL and nieces did an excellent job putting things together.  I'm so blessed to have them in my family.  I saw people at the reception, that I hadn't seen in years.  It was really nice.  There was a lot of laughter--my dad would have LOvED it!

My mom is feeling pretty down.  Rhuel and I went over there today to paint (we've been painting the exterior of her house).  She was thankful for the company.  My dad was her whole life.  She doesn't know what to do with herself now.  It's so sad.  I'm glad I live so close.

Love to you all.  I'll catch up on the posts tomorrow.

Hugs,

Karen

my3girls

Hi sisters!!

It took me awhile to read through all of the 40 posts!  I love you all, and will try on comment on some of them.

First..Karen....I love you and have been thinking of you daily.  Your father's obituary was so warm and loving. It showed the wonderful man that he was.  Remember him that way sweetie. I too am glad you are close to your Mom, she will need you.  Isn't that sweet that your parents were everything to each other?  I love to hear that about couples!

Nancy...I am so happy that in 2 days you will have your LAST chemo!!! Yeah!!! You have to be so happy!! I like the idea of a beach house in St. Petersburg Florida....I love that area!! Count me in!! I think we need to plan this!

Jane...I love hearing from you.  I have a hard time picturing you in cold weather.  Whenever I think of Australia...cold weather is not part of my thoughts...lol.  Glad you got your keys back!

Fumi...count down....14 more days??  I bet you are just like a kid before Christmas!!!

Ulla...I love your new avatar.  Your hair looks great.  I have had mine cut several times...I need to stop so it can get long, like I want it.  It grows fast.  Mine is like yours...still very curly.  I usually straighten it with a flat iron.  So far...I am loving the style..my hairdresser is great!

Judie...so glad to hear your good news!! yeah!!  I am glad you had an enjoyable evening with your son.

Mel...sweetie..you poor thing! When it rains...it really does pour!  I agree...it's time for some positive things to happen to you!  Your oc apt will be just that! I have said a prayer for you and your SO, and for Adam.  Good things are coming your way. When you get that car fixed...we have to meet for lunch...by then I will need a get away as well.

Well..for me...things are going well.  Dennis and I are enjoying each other's company as much as our busy schedules allow.  We went biking at a state park on Sunday and then out for dinner and then I stayed at his place!  He is so good to me.  He was going to NYC on business the weekend following my surger, but he decided to go later.  He wanted to be around for me.  Heck..even my ex wouldn't have done that for me.  We are going to a concert tomorrow night.  He tells me that he adores me all the time.  I have never had anyone adore me...except for my dad..haha.  It's a good feeling.

well..I am at work...better get back to my claims on my desk.  Love to all my sisters here.  You are all in my heart and mind.

xoxo

Lisa

livesstrong

My oh my, how is a girl to keep up!!! lol

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((MEL))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) -  I feel so bad for you.  Your stress level must be thru the roof. Living with an alcholic is never easy.Your life is always turned upside down.  I hope your SO gets the help he needs and starts feeling better. Please keep us posted.  Oh yeah, by the way, I've gained 25lbs.,so you are not alone.

Fumi - the countdown has begun.  I think I am just as excited as you are!!! lol.  You better check in while you are there and post lots of pictures!!!  

Lisa- Dennis sounds like a keeper to me I am glad he makes you so happy.  Does Olivia like him?

Karen - get some rest lady - you need some "me" time.

Nancy - WOOP WOOP !!!!!!  Friday is the day!!!!  How great is that???  I had no trouble with rad's- except I was very fatigued.  Goig everyday stinks as well. Do you have to travel far?  I went at 7:00am and went straight to work.

Shirlann-  I think it was me who mentioned Florida to Sue.  I'm hoping we will have moved down there by this time next year. 

Jule - hey gf, how the heck are you????  Miss you.

Ulla- you look FABULOUS!!!!  You know when my hair was short right after chemo I hated it - now I kinda wish it was back- it was allot cooler and easier to take care of.

Sheila - how do I get a calender? 

 Jane - how are you?? You have been kinda quiet lately.

Judie - how was the opera?  Are you settled in yet??  I can't wait to move - I love the thought of starting over!!

Sue - how are we going to get you to stop working like a dog???  We need you here!!! UB is jealous you are going to Spain - you better take lots of pictures.

Anne - how is the bear situation?  Is he still bothering you??

Well ladies, I have to hand over the computer to UB. 

Hugs all around,

AE 

Shirlann

Hi Nancy, that is fine with me.  It would be easier for Sue to come to that part of the country, coming to California, it is just too far.  If we get too many gals, I will get a hotel room, no problem, so if we can get a firm date or sort of a time of the year, then we can see how many might be able to come.

I love Florida, one of our best trips was to Ft. Myers to see Edison's winter lab.  I love all areas, so if you could put up Sue, that is the main thing.

Love you, Shirlann 

suebee92

HELLO ALL! 

Well things arent that great around here. Sorry to be so down but everythings in shambles. My cousins best friend who was dx with bc before me has passed on. She had an infection from the surgeries and it attacked her heart. Her 10 yr. old daughter found her. Just devestating!

Well it doesn't stop there! my best friend from high schools father was dx with pancreotic cancer in April and has passed on also Saturday.He was a awesome guy. My friend and i used to get in soo much trouble by him, but i still liked him alot.

Okay bearer of more bad news i am losing my uncle to lung cancer. He doesnt have much more time. He has battled it and tries to continue but he is getting worse. This is a reaccurance second time around much worse for him. Please pray for him.

And i wonder why depression has settled in my brain? I don't even want to get out of bed in the mornings. I HATE THIS! I just want to give up! I was so positive in the beginning and now i'm just drained. I keep thinking i have to do it for my dh and kids but its gotten soo hard. I cry for nothing anymore. I dislike everything,I put on a big act with everyone that its all fine but its not! I'm already on an anti-deppressant and really doesn't seem to help. Why can't i get out of this funk?

Okay i'm done this conversation isn't that good but it helps to just admit your feelings, and i'm scared! Sorry everyone for this post, and i hope everyone is doing much better. Wishing you all the best!

HUGS AND KISSES!

suebee 

Anonymous

suebee, you are not alone. A "series of unfortunate events" is not funny. Layer upon layer of grief and anxiety equals depression big time. Why can't you get out of your funk? Because there are obstacles...big ones. It's useless to think about getting out. Dragging yourself over one obstacle at a time is about all one can do. Getting out is too big a goal for now. It's bare-knuckles survival time. The only absolute necessity is to take the next breath and take the next step. Everything else can take a long walk on a short pier.

You have eloquently expressed the precise place I am living at the moment. There is too much loss to bear. There are no easy answers, but know that the women here care for you and understand in a way few others can. Talk to someone like you did here. Dump it to release some of the pressure. Not a cure, but it helps.

Hold on.

XXXOOOXXX000

Judie 

portiasproudmom

It's pouring down rain here.  Fitting--it matches my mood.  Suebee, Judie, Mel--are you all up for a group hug?    I feel a little better.  How about you?

I hate that so many of us are having hard times right now.  Mel, sweetie, I feel for you so much!  My dad was an alcoholic.  I know how difficult it is to live with someone like that.  I wish he'd stopped drinking years earlier.  Maybe he'd still be with us today.  Hang in there, honey.  I'll say extra prayers for you, your SO, and Adam.

Gosh, Suebee, who wouldn't be depressed in your shoes?  I'm sorry there's so much sadness in your life right now.  YOU are going to be fine though!  I know how scary it is--especially when you're losing people from this blasted disease left and right.  ((((((((Suebee)))))))).

How is our dear Judie today?  I'm praying that you'll find your way out of this dark hole.  I'm right there with you--think we can dig our way out together?  ((((((((Judie)))))))).

Much love to you all--Jane, Sue, Shirlann, Wren, Lisa, Nancy, Anne, Sheila, Fumi, Jule, Kaloni, Ulla, AE and UB, and anyone I may have missed.

Hugs,

Karen

lvtwoqlt

About the calendar, they won't be ready until Sept. I will talk to Katheryn from Through Healing Eyes next weekend to see if I can send them myself or if she wants to send them through her group. Send me a PM with your address and number of calendars requested ($20 each) and I will let you know more as I know more.

SuBee, it is a whole lot of stuff going on right now, sometimes when it rains it pours.

Mel, hope your car gets fixed soon and sorry about your SO and his problems, hopefully he will detox soon and get back to normal.

Karen, I wish it would rain here. Monday the weather man said that by Friday we would be seeing some rain from TS Faye but by Tuesday, a weather front went south and is keeping Faye in Florida heading west, not north. 

My friend I spoke of was put back in the hospital this week with her blood sugar over 1000, she was close to diabetic coma when she was admitted. she is not diabetic but the drugs she is getting for the fluid on her brain has her whole body out of sync. She is so weak now. We were talking last night and the Race for the Cure team I captain (since 2001) will honor Amy and others on our t-shirts this year. We are putting various women's names with BC on the shirts that are from this area and have connections to the church.

I need to get back to work, Hope all have a lovely day.

Sheila

livesstrong

Nancy -

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YOU GO GIRL!!!  I am so happy for you.

AE

Ulla

yeppiiiii yeppiiiii..clear mamgraphy and ultrasound tests for my all breast area..

i know that there was so much greive and pain and sadness in our lives in the last few days but at the end sun must shine..

i was waiting for this last test so they can say am all clear for now a least,,

i love u sisters..

by the way ,,how often u have ur mamographs??and for those with mastectomies..how often for ultrasound??they told me here that it will be in the next year again..unless i feel something abnormal..

dear mel..my heart goes for u ,,dont know wat to say..but just feel me hugging u dear..

nancy good for u ,,u made it girl..now ...we start counting for the rads...love u sister

to be honest i couldnt read all the posts...may be later..

loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Ulla

OH,,ISNT IT SOOOOOOOOOOOOO QUITE HERE TODAY??

WHERE R MY ALL SISTERS?????????????????????

portiasproudmom

to Nancy for finishing chemo and to Ulla for NED!!!!!!!!  I'm so happy for you both!  Have a wonderful weekend, everyone.  I love you all.

Hugs,

Karen

lvtwoqlt

Ulla, it is quiet here today. I am here but actually busy at work for once on a Friday. Congrats on your clean mammo and ultra sound. My plastic surgeon said to come back to him once a year because of the implants, my breast surgeon said since he was moving out of the area, to follow-up with my gyne and family doctors. I only needed to see him or another specalist if I had any problems come up.

Nancy, Congrats on finishing chemo. I don't know when you will see this but I am glad you have finished your chemo.

I will check back before I leave work at 5:00.

sheila