please help

sueps

Hello Sisters

Well I am hoping you are all having a wonderful day xxx I love you all xxx

I have crashed big time today on my day off...this is the first day I have had time to rest in 14 days...apart from going shopping to fill ma pantry with scran ....LOL....xxx

I am feeling ok .... same lousy side effects ....I do feel at a loss...having a few night terrors and feeling a little like I just got spat out from a storm!!  I will deal better when my body recovers xxx

Anyway wow AMERCIAN IDOL was good last night....I cannot believe that millions of people voted .... that is just fantastic....your country is so vast!!!  I think the winner was freakin fit!!!

I am watching Britains got talent in an hour with Simon Cowell.... its a great show ....

Ok Mel ...your lil cat is so like Zippy when he was young....OMG ...you meking me broody sister....I drooled when I saw the pic xxx

Well I will be back later...I just want to send you lots of love and squeezy hugs .... real big squeezes ...

Much Love xxx

livesstrong

Hi Everyone!!!

Mel - the kitten is just the cutest!!  Good Luck with her.

I am so glad David Cook won Idol, he is a cutey. 

Sue - rest up, you wil be back to feeling good in no time.

Thought I would share this with you all -

Got this email & thought i would share - answer if you like this kinda stuff -

You can only type ONE Word! Not as easy as you might
Think. Now copy or forward, change the answers to suit
You and pass it on. It's really hard to only use one
Word answers. You can only type one word.

I am very interested in your response.
1. Where is your cell phone? purse

2. Where is your significant other? sleeping
3. Your hair? ugly
4. Your mother? gone
5. Your father? gone
6. Your favorite thing?  ocean
7. Your dream last night?  scary
8. Your dreams/goals? retire
9. The room you're in? spare
10. Your hobby?  decorating
11. Your fear? illness
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? south
13. Where were you last night? sleeping
14. What you're not? skinny
16. One of your wish list items? money
17. Where you grew up? Rahway
18. The last thing you did? potted
19. What are you wearing? sweats
20. Your TV? old
21. Your pet? clean
22. Your computer? hp
24. Your mood? good
25. Missing someone? no
26. Your car? toyota
27. Something you're not wearing? earrings
28. Favorite store? lowe's
29. Your summer?  excited
30. Love someone? yes
31. Your favorite color? yellow
32. When is the last time you laughed? Today
33. Last time you cried? Wednesday
34. Who will resend this? Unknown

I love these things,

AE      

NancyD

1. Where is your cell phone? purse

2. Where is your significant other? none
3. Your hair? gone
4. Your mother? gone
5. Your father? girlfriend's
6. Your favorite thing?  ocean
7. Your dream last night?  none
8. Your dreams/goals? live
9. The room you're in? basement
10. Your hobby?  cooking
11. Your fear? illness
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? beach
13. Where were you last night? sleeping
14. What you're not? skinny
16. One of your wish list items? money
17. Where you grew up? New City
18. The last thing you did? laundry
19. What are you wearing? jeans
20. Your TV? brother's
21. Your pet? none
22. Your computer? Mac
24. Your mood? tired

25. Missing someone? no
26. Your car? Honda
27. Something you're not wearing? bra
28. Favorite store? Target

29. Your summer?  planned

30. Love someone? yes
31. Your favorite color? blue
32. When is the last time you laughed? Today
33. Last time you cried? Friday
34. Who will resend this? Unknown

portiasproudmom

1. Where is your cell phone? counter

2. Where is your significant other? golfing

3. Your hair? short

4. Your mother? home
5. Your father? home

6. Your favorite thing?  vacation
7. Your dream last night?  un-memorable
8. Your dreams/goals? house
9. The room you're in? living
10. Your hobby?  gardening
11. Your fear? illness
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? working
13. Where were you last night? sleeping
14. What you're not? fit
16. One of your wish list items? money
17. Where you grew up? Tacoma
18. The last thing you did? cleaned
19. What are you wearing? bermudas

20. Your TV? dying
21. Your pet? barking
22. Your computer? laptop

24. Your mood? good
25. Missing someone? no
26. Your car? Chrysler
27. Something you're not wearing? earrings
28. Favorite store? Macy's
29. Your summer?  relaxing
30. Love someone? yes
31. Your favorite color? green
32. When is the last time you laughed? yesterday
33. Last time you cried? Tuesday
34. Who will resend this? Unknown

Hugs,

Karen

sueps

1. Where is your cell phone? table

2. Where is your significant other? pc
3. Your hair? sweet
4. Your mother? heaven
5. Your father? lakes
6. Your favorite thing?  people
7. Your dream last night?  nightmare
8. Your dreams/goals? live
9. The room you're in? lounge
10. Your hobby?  music
11. Your fear? loneliness
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? here
13. Where were you last night? home
14. What you're not? patient
16. One of your wish list items? health
17. Where you grew up? Manchester
18. The last thing you did? eat
19. What are you wearing? jeans
20. Your TV? big
21. Your pet? ahhhh
22. Your computer? Dell
24. Your mood? indecisive
25. Missing someone? very
26. Your car? ford
27. Something you're not wearing? watch
28. Favorite store? tk max
29. Your summer?  holiday
30. Love someone? yes
31. Your favorite color? blue
32. When is the last time you laughed? Today
33. Last time you cried? Today

Ulla

1. Where is your cell phone? BED

2. Where is your significant other? WORKING
3. Your hair? SEXY
4. Your mother? SAD
5. Your father? SELFISH
6. Your favorite thing?  FLOWERS
7. Your dream last night?  PORNO!!!!
8. Your dreams/goals? WORK
9. The room you're in? BEDROOM
10. Your hobby? READING
11. Your fear? RECURRENCE
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? STOCKHOLM
13. Where were you last night? DRUGGED
14. What you're not? SELFISH
16. One of your wish list items? TRAVEL
17. Where you grew up? BAGHDAD
18. The last thing you did?SHOWERED
19. What are you wearing? NIGHTGOWN
20. Your TV? 42PLASMA
21. Your pet?WITH MOM
22. Your computer? ASUS
24. Your mood? GRAY
25. Missing someone? MOM
26. Your car? MERCEDES
27. Something you're not wearing? UNDERWEARS
28. Favorite store? WILLYS
29. Your summer?  PROMISSING
30. Love someone? DH
31. Your favorite color? RED
32. When is the last time you laughed? NOW
33. Last time you cried? 13TH MAY
34. Who will resend this? SISTERS

my3girls

Fun!!

1. Where is your cell phone? desk

2. Where is your significant other? none
3. Your hair? curly
4. Your mother? heaven
5. Your father? home
6. Your favorite thing?  family
7. Your dream last night?  none
8. Your dreams/goals? grandchildren

9. The room you're in? office

10. Your hobby?  drawing
11. Your fear? poverty
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? living
13. Where were you last night? home
14. What you're not? shy
16. One of your wish list items? health
17. Where you grew up? Wadsworth
18. The last thing you did? work
19. What are you wearing? uniform
20. Your TV? average

21. Your pet? adorable
22. Your computer? slow
24. Your mood? good

25. Missing someone? no
26. Your car? toyota
27. Something you're not wearing? necklace
28. Favorite store? Target

29. Your summer?  arizona
30. Love someone? family
31. Your favorite color? pink
32. When is the last time you laughed? today
33. Last time you cried? Today

livesstrong

Love the answers ladies!!!!

Ulla - PORNO????? hahahahaha 

Ulla

YES AE,,BELIEVE ME ,,MY FACE WAS SO RED WEN I WOKE UP THIS MORNNING,,IT WAS REALY STRANGE,,

INFACT WAT MKE IT STRANGER IS THE FACT THAT I DONT HAVE ANY DREAMS USUALLY..I REARLY DREAM OR REMEMBER A DREAM...

I WAS READING ANOTHER THREAD ABOUT STUPID THINGS SAID TO US AS BC PATIENTS,,IT MADE ME LAUGH REALY..

MY PORT AREA IS SO PAINFULL.,,BRUISED,DARK BLUE ALL AROUND,,IS THAT NORMAL??

I CANT C IT ALL AS ITS COVERED WITH TAPES BUT THIS IS WAT SHOWS ON THE BOUNDARIES,,,WORRISOME????

NOTHING NEW WITH THE TAMOX SE,,SAME AS EVERYDAY,I JUST FEEL THAT I USED TO BE NAUSEATED WITH UPSET STOMACH..DO U KNOW THIS FEELING WHEN U JUST FORGET HOW IT FEELS WITHOUT ANY PAIN OR DISCOMFORT?THIS IS WHERE I AM NOW

SUE ..I HOPE U FEEL BETTER SWEETY,,I CAN FEEL UR FEARS BUT TRUST ME I WOULD PREFER TO BE TRIPLE NEGATIVE AND NOT IN NEED TO BE REMINDED THAT I HAVE BOOT FACE EVERYNIGHT FOR THE NEXT 5 YEARS,,UUGGHHHHH,,I JUST HATE IT

SORRY,,NEEDED TO VENT..

LOVE U GIRLS 

Shirlann

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1. My cell phone?  On the sink

2. Where is your significant other?  Church

3. Hair?  Ugly and thin

4. Mother?  Heaven, for sure.

5. Father?  Ummm gone, finally.

6. Favorite thing?  My Walt

7. Dream?  Looking for a job

8. Goals? Take care of Walt

9. Room I'm in?  Office

10. My hobby? Travel, knitting, reading

11. My Fear? Losing Walt

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years?  Alive

13. Where were you last night?  Seeing "Baby Mama"  (Great film)

14. What you're not?  Bashful

15. One of your wish item list? Prius

16. Where you grew up?  California

17. The last thing you did?  Ate dinner

18. What are you wearing?  A Hilo Hattie MuuMuu and a sweater

19. Your TV? 48" Sony HD Plasma & Sony flat screen 42"

20. My pets?  Whippet Dusty and Cleo the cat

21. My computer?  HP, I hate it

22. Your mood?  Very, very happy, our Sue is on the REAL mend and Ulla has a new onc!!!!

23. Missing someone?  My boys

24. My car? Nissan and Chrysler

25. Something you are not wearing? Shoes

26. Favorite store? Macy's

27. Your summer? Here

28. Love someone?  My husband, my children, my grandchildren

29. Your favorite color?  Teal green

30. When is the last time you laughed?  In the movie this afternoon

31. Last time you cried?  Caught my foot in the door

Boy, did I make a MESS OF THIS!!!

Hurry up sisters, write something, make this page go away!

HAHAHA  Shirlann 

  

Shirlann

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Anonymous

What fun! Ulla, can I borrow your dream? I could use a little porno.

1. Where is your cell phone? pocket
2. Where is your significant other? gone
3. Your hair? short
4. Your mother? gracious
5. Your father? unique
6. Your favorite thing? ocean
7. Your dream last night? none
8. Your dreams/goals? family
9. The room you're in? bedroom
10. Your hobby? reading
11. Your fear? death
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? home
13. Where were you last night? party
14. What you're not? reliable
16. One of your wish list items? love
17. Where you grew up? Idaho
18. The last thing you did? letter
19. What are you wearing? nightgown
20. Your TV? none
21. Your pet? cat
22. Your computer? CyberPower
24. Your mood? sad
25. Missing someone? ex
26. Your car? Honda
27. Something you're not wearing? bra
28. Favorite store? Nordie's
29. Your summer? scary
30. Love someone? yes
31. Your favorite color? blue
32. When is the last time you laughed? yesterday
33. Last time you cried? today
34. Who will resend this? Unknown

Anonymous

Spending two amazing days with my son was healing. I told everyone I was spending two days in Paradise with a college man, but when we left it was raining and who wants to go to Paradise in the rain? (OK, so It's Paradise Lodge on Mount Ranier). It always rains on the beach, so we went there and had a blast.

View at dusk from our window:

Sand blowing in the wind...

Devin jumping into the wind

And dancing with the incoming tide:

Life can be good. We are all taking one step at a time together...

Judie 

honeygirl

Shirlann , you are soooo funny. I love you.

1. Where is your cell phone? Purse

2. Where is your significant other? Tv3. Your hair? Curly4. Your mother? Blessing5. Your father? Heaven6. Your favorite thing?  Ocean
7. Your dream last night?  Sexual
8. Your dreams/goals? Peace9. The room you're in? Livingroom10. Your hobby?  Games11. Your fear?Destitute12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Tennessee13. Where were you last night? Sleeping14. What you're not? Skinny
16. One of your wish list items? Courage
17. Where you grew up? Cleveland18. The last thing you did? Dishes19. What are you wearing? Sweats20. Your TV? JVC21. Your pet? cats22. Your computer? Hp24. Your mood? Sensitive
25. Missing someone? Yes26. Your car? Kia
27. Something you're not wearing? Shoes28. Favorite store? Walmart29. Your summer?  Sweaty30. Love someone? Yes31. Your favorite color? Red32. When is the last time you laughed? Today
33. Last time you cried? Wednesday
34. Who will resend this? Unknown

Ka-Loni

Hi Sweeties, Your all great here! Well, I know this for sure. I am alive! I will fill you in a bit later. Hi Melody, I caught you finally.I  love to come on here and read your posts. You are a very inspiring lady, for sure. And, your new kitten is so sweet. There is nothing better than animals. They are great medicine. My Sweet Cockatiels, Mr.Tweet and LilySue are doing well, and spoiled rotten. Ha! I will talk to you

later. Bye.

God Bless You,

Love,

Kaloni

livesstrong

Shirlann - you are to funny - no one word answers from you!!! hhahahaha

Judie - those pictures are great!!  Glad you had a good time.

Well ladies its official - UB went back to work today!!!  Really hoping he doesn't get too tired.  But I'm happy - I have the computer all to myself!!!

Well it is a BEAUTIFUL day here so I going to be outside all day and soak up the sun. 

bbl, Love you all,

AE 

Ulla

HI SISTERS..ITS 3.30PM HERE IN SOTHERN PART OF SWEDEN,,,

VERY SUNNY DAU WITH 21C TEMP..ITS AMAZING HOW THE GOOD WEATHER AFFECTS OUR MOODS,,,

WELL I FEEL GUILTY THAT I WASNT PHYSICALLY ACTIVE AT ALL SINCE LAST WEDNESDAY..

IT WAS 4BED DAYS ,,I SLEPT FOR THE WHOLE WORLD,,12-14HRS DAILY,,

DH IS IN POLAND 2DAY FOR 5DAYS,,HE WILL BE HERE AGAIN IN 1ST JUNE,,AM I ABNORMAL TO HAVE THIS STARNGE DOUBLE FEELING ABOUT HIS PRESENCE ALL THE TIME WITH ME!!!!!!!!!

I MISS HIM SO BAD WEN HE IS NOT HERE AND I LOVE HIM TO BE AWAY WEN HE IS HERE..LOL

MY NEXT LEVEL SWEDISH TEST WILL BE NEXT TUESDAY AND WEDNESDAY,,I WOULD LOVE TO PASS TOO,,ITS NOT DEPENDING ON STUDYING ITS ALL ABOUT HOWMUCH DO U UNDERSTAND AND CAN EXPRESS URSELF,,SO AM COMPLETELY LOST ,,NOT KNOWING WAT OR WHERE TO STUDY ,,,

MY PORT AREA ALL BLUE AND BRUISED,,I CANT C THE INCISSION AS ITS COVERED WITH SOME KIND OF TAPES BUT ALL AROUND IT IS SO BLUEAND PAINFULL..MY HEAVY BREAST DRAGS IT DOWN TO BE MORE PAINFULL AND PUTTING THE BRA ALL THE TIME DRIVES ME CRAZY,,,UUGGHHHHH

MY MOTHER IS NOT DOING WELL AT ALL..INSIDE MYSELF I BLAME DH TO TELL HER,,I STILL CANT C ANY GOOD OF THAT,,,AM ANGRY BUT CANT GET IT OUT IN HIS FACE ,,I FEEL THAT HE LET ME DOWN BY TELLING HER IN THIS WAY,,WE HAD AN AGREEMENT THAT HE DIDNT RESPECT,,AND I JUST CANT DISCUSSE IT WITH HIM,,,HE IS SO POOR ALSO THAT I CANT BE SO HARD ON HIM TOO,,BUT I KNOW HE FEELS GUILTY ABOUT IT TOO..

DEAR JUDIE,,THE PIX R AMAZING ,,I LOVE THEM ALL..GOOD TO HEAR THAT U HAD A NICE TIME,,U CAN BORROW MY DREAM ,,IT WAS A FULL,UNSCENSSORED ,MOVIE FOR ADULTS,,,LOL

AE,,I HOPE UB IS FEELING BETTER ABOUT RETURNNING BACK TO WORK AND THAT IT WOULD NOT MAKE HIM FEEL TIRED AT ALL,,GOD BLESS UR HEART..

MEL,,THE SWEET LIL CAT TOOK MY HEART ,,GOD SHE IS SO BEUTIFULL..HOPE U FOUND A NAME FOR HER,,

LISA,,I LOVE TO READ UR WORDS,,U MAKE ME FEEL HAPPY..

SHIRLANN,U MAKE ME FEEL LIKE TALKING WITH MOM., I LOVE U

SHEILLA ,,WER R U?

SUE HOPE U R FEELING BETTER SWEETY..WE NEED TO DISCUSSE OUR NEXT STEP..(RECONSTRUCTION VS NO RECON??)

NANCY..HOW R U DOING DEAR???

EVERONE ELSE..I KNOW THAT I TOLD U SO MANYTIMES HOWMUCH I DO LOVE U ALL..

I WAS READING THIS THREAD YDAY FROM THE BEGINNING AND IT WAS AMAZING HOW IT MOVES IN THE SUBJECTS THAT WE ALL DISCUSSED HERE FROM BEEING JUST DIAGNOSED TO CHEMOTHERAPY BE4,DURING,AFTER,TO RADS,BE4 ,DURING,AFTER,TO HORMONAL THERAPY,,TO RECONSTRUCTION,TO HELP ME GO THROUGH TREATMENTS AND NOW WE R JUST MOVING BEYOND CANCER,,AND GROWING OUR FRIENDSHIP..IT MADE ME SMILING WITH TEARY EYES,,

I LOVVE U SISTERS..

Wren

Wren's

1. Where is your cell phone? purse
2. Where is your significant other? yardwork
3. Your hair? blonde
4. Your mother? loving
5. Your father? intelligent
6. Your favorite thing? chocolate
7. Your dream last night? lost a boob
8. Your dreams/goals? help kids finish college--have a big grad party
9. The room you're in? living room
10. Your hobby? crochet/cross-stitch/reality tv
11. Your fear? falling
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? financially secure
13. Where were you last night? dinner at casino
14. What you're not? mean
16. One of your wish list items? warm house/insulated floor
17. Where you grew up? all over
18. The last thing you did? cleaned kitchen
19. What are you wearing? jammies, robe, slipper
20. Your TV? sony/etc
21. Your pet? cats
22. Your computer? sony
24. Your mood? neutral
25. Missing someone? son
26. Your car? Toyota
27. Something you're not wearing? bra
28. Favorite store? don't have one
29. Your summer? busy
30. Love someone? yes
31. Your favorite color? aqua
32. When is the last time you laughed? yesterday
33. Last time you cried? yesterday
34. Who will resend this? Unknown

Towhee, Those are great pics of your son. I love the ocean--and that just looked like my kind of day. I miss my son (lives away at college year round--and is 23)... I wonder if I'll be able to talk him in to coming home after my surgery so we can go to lunch or something. Anyway, it looks like a really relaxing time...

Anonymous

Jules

1. Where is your cell phone? end table
2. Where is your significant other? none

3. Your hair? ok
4. Your mother? gentle
5. Your father? deceased
6. Your favorite thing? snuggles
7. Your dream last night? none
8. Your dreams/goals? happy
9. The room you're in? dining room
10. Your hobby? gardening
11. Your fear? SNAKES!!!!!!!
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? secure
13. Where were you last night? sofa
14. What you're not? mean
16. One of your wish list items? security
17. Where you grew up? here
18. The last thing you did? here
19. What are you wearing? shorts
20. Your TV? RCA
21. Your pet? cocktiels/Libby
22. Your computer? I built
24. Your mood? happy

25. Missing someone? yes
26. Your car? truck

27. Something you're not wearing? bra
28. Favorite store? Hidden Treasures 

29. Your summer? lovin it!!!
30. Love someone? yes
31. Your favorite color?dark blue
32. When is the last time you laughed? today
33. Last time you cried? weeks 

34. Who will resend this? Unknown

Judie....I love the pics!!!! you are a talented lady!!!!!!

sueps

Sisters ...Help me  

I have just got in from work. I am so down today...so so down...nothing to live for....why did I go through chemo to feel so detatched ....DO YOU THINK ITS THE CHEMO....I am not due to really hit rok bottom until Weds.... I know I am not going to be here when the boys are growing up ...I can feel it...I was so happy 2 days ago ...

And to top it all I have sliced a huge piece off of ma finger today lol....after a premonition that I would!!!!  My face went   cos it looked OMG   GRIM! GRIM! GRIM!

Anyway I am just gonna stuff a bar of chocolate in my mouth....

URGGHHHHH MY HEAD IS TAKING 200 STEPS BACK...

SCREAMING INSIDE  .....SCCRRRRRREEEEEEEAAAAMMMM!!!

sueps

Ulla ...you have the same feeling as me...when he's here I wish not ...when he's not I miss...hehehehe ...must be a woman thing!!

Ub.....wow you are amazing!!  AE I love ya xxx

Shirlann ..you mek me laugh out loud with your answers  hehehhehe xxx

Judie ....fantastic pictures....brilliance xxx

Hello to all of you...xxx

I am so so so so so so despondant ... I had tx and still dont know whether I will LIVE!!!!   RAGING ....I need an answer....but no on can answer....I need things tied up...I dont like loose ends...

SORRY SISTERS ...I LOVE YOU X X X

Ulla

dera sue,,thousands of times i do ask myself exactly the same of all ur questions..i never had an answer ,,i was feeling so bad and down for many days ,,BUT some of my q??have definite answers which used to help me re-organize my chemo brain to work in the right direction,,,

do others who never got BC or any other seriouse illness be4 knows wat will happen in thier lives??no

would we be able to know wat r our fates even if we didnt get this disease??no

do anyone weather healthy or sick can know when he will die??no

can i change anything of all wat happened if i had the chance??no

does my sadness and depression and thinking so dark will help me feel better??no

do i want to live as long as i can??yes

am happy to be here now??yes

SO,,,AS LONG AS THERE IS NOTHING I COULD DO MORE THAN THAT I ALREADY DID,,

AND AS LONG AS I AM HERE ,,BREATHING,,AND STILL ALIVE,,

I WILL MAKE MY BEST TO MAKE IT A GOOD HAPPY LIFE,,

PLZ SUE.....

I CAN FEEL ALL UR FEARS ,,BUT TRUST ME..I WAS THERE BE4 U AND I KNOW IT NEVER HELPED ME ,,IT JUST TOOK ME DOWN THAT I LOST THE JOY OF BEING ALIVE,,,

HONEY,,WE R HERE TODAY,,WE R GOING TO BE HERE TOMORROW,,SO PLZ TRY NOT TO THINK OF THE DAYS AFTER TOMORROW ,,SIMPLY BECOZ NEITHER WE WHO WERE DIAGNOSED WITH BC,,NOR THE HEALTHY PPL CAN KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THEM...

ITS THE NATURE OF LIFE..WE LIVE TODAY,,WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW AND DONT KNOW ANYTHING AFTER THAT...

I LOVE U SUE..AND I DONT WANT TO C U FEELING DOWN,,

HONEY AT LEAST U HAVE THOSE GREAT 2 LIL MEN IN UR LIFE ,,THEY R MORE THAN ENOUGH CAUSES FOR U TO BE AS HAPPY AS U CAN TO STAY WITH THEM AS LONG AS U CAN FIGHT,,

GIRL..LOOK AT THE LSAT FEW MONTHS,,U WERE WEAKER AND MORE AFRAID BUT U DID IT AND FINISHED THE TRIP..SO NOW ITS UR TIME TO REST SISTER AND TO ENJOY WAT U HAVE ACHIVED,,PLZ DONT WASTE A MOMENT FEELING DOWN..U HAVE ALL THE GOOD REASONS TO FEEL HAPPY AND PROUD OF URSELF..

CELEBRATE,,PLAY WITH UR BOYS,,LIVE UR LIFE AS NOTHING HAPPENED,,AND NEVER FORGET THAT I LOVE U

sueps

OMG Ulla ..... you are sooo in tune.... I am going to be reading your posts over and over.... it is just what I needed....really really truly thankful ... you are like gold dust  xxx  I have been lay here on the chair gazing and wondering .... I am energeless... I need a goal.... I had a goal ...bootfacefreakinchemo......

I need a holiday I think... I am worn out ...

Ulla ...you are bob on .... and the "no" answers in your post ARE very strong...and true ...THANKYOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART  xxx

I am going to plaster up my cut and go for a quick bath...I have eated 4 bars of chocolate.... and a blueberry muffin....GOD AM SO TIRED XXX

sueps

..BUT I NEED TO KNOW ..... you know you know...that kind of gnawing thought.... I will wait and see how I feel whence I am better....

I HATE YOU BOOTFACE!!!

Ulla

sweety sue..i feel btter that i could at least make u think about the endless questions that i have asked myself thousands times be4 u,

honey..the only thing that i have learned from this disease is that life is so short to waste any single moment of it feeling down or sad,,i know i had wasted so long time feeling like that but i always overcomed these hard times,,i just want to save u from passing through the same dark tunnel that i feel i am just out of it few days ago..it felt like i had a bulb lighted in my head suddenly wen i just put all those difficuilt questions and reliesed that the answer for most of them was a very simple NO,,

honey u have a great goal,,u have ur boys to be around them for the next years,,no need to waste those years worriying about something u cant control..enjoy wat u have dear sue..

i just want u to start watch ur sugar intake honey,,

i dont want to upset u ,,but sugars r really bad and we need to stay well and healthy ..

i love u so much ..enjoy ur bath,,sigh ,,i cant have one till my port wond heals,,,,

god knows howmuch i do love u

Ulla

wat u need to know honey??forgive me ,,i didnt understand..

go and plaster ur wounded finger,,take good care of urself..

ur goal was always there for u..HAVING A HAPPY GOOD LIFE WITH UR MAN AND BOYS....THIS IS A GREAT GOAL TO ACHEIVE ,,AT LEAST ITS NOT GIVING U BAD SIDE EFFECTS AS THE CHEMO USED TO GIVE U ..LOL

ENJOY UR BATH HONEY..PLAN FOR A VACATION IF U CAN THIS SUMMER,,AM PLANNING A VISIT TO PARIS OR ROME THIS SUMMER WITH HUBBY,,,KEEP THE BEAUTIFULL THINGS FILLING UR MIND ALL THE TIME..LIVING WITH WISHES AND NICE PLANS MAKE US FEEL REALLY GOOD..MY OWN WISH IS TO FINISH THE REST OF MY 29ZOLADEX INJ TO SATRT A MONITORED PREGNANCY,,THIS WILL KEEP ME UP FOR THE NEXT 2 AND HALF YEARS ,,WHO KNOWS WAT THE FATE HIDING FOR US...

I LOVE THE WORDS THAT ENDS LISA POSTS ...LIVE,,LOVE ,,LAUGH WORRY IS FOR SHITT....

MUCH LOVE AGAIN AND AGAIN

sueps

Ulla ...you made me cry ... I love you so much too.... I am so blessed that I found you .... you are so strong and open and honest ... and above all else a truly wonderful warm inspiration ... I am going for a good cry in the bath HEHEHEHE

I have never been a sweet tooth girl..I think its the CMF chemo....I am hoping the craving for it will go!

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