I am getting there! Slowly. There is Hope!

ripplesdf

Jackie. Hah. I just bought a huge pink button up shirt but it only has one pocket. You think everyone will fit? Makes me think of 8 yrs ago when I had a catheterization done to my heart on Valentine's Day. My DD was just starting college so couldn't be there so she crafted the cutest little heart from paper and crayons-yes a college girl-and told me to put it in my pocket. They let me at the hospital. Everyone got a kick out of it and it made me cry.
You answered my first question already. You are amazing going out on the bike with all your going thru. Gives me faith. I was hoping to go on ours before my biopsy but it won't happen at this point. Well take care. Gotta take care of some kids.
Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi Jackie, This will be short sweety. You started your chemo. I would get a bad case of hiccups, every once in a while when I was on chemo. No fun. I do wish you well with your treatment. You will be fine.
Hi Dawn, Thank you so much for just posting. Your sweet. I am thinking about your surgery. It will be here soon. You do fine too. It will be over before you know it. I will try and post today to let you know how I am doing. MY prayers and thoughts are there for you.

God Bless,
Kaloni

JaxsonHarley

Hi Kaloni!!
How is your day going so far? I went ot your friends beautiful website.It was designed very nice. I also left a message for her to watch over you and give you the peace and comfort you so deserve.You lnow, you will be going for your reconstruction when I am finishing chemo. We both have a good incentive to look forward to!
Dawn, We will all "suck it in" and squeeze in there for you!!We will be there with you for friday.That was so sweet of your DD to do that for you.I hope you are getting the nice weather we are experiencing upstate here,it's just gorgeous.I can't wait to get out on that bike Saturday!! Nothing amzing about it, it's my therapy,I need it!
So everyone, have your good thing today by coming here and sharing some (((hugs)))Love you all, Jackie

ripplesdf

Jackie DH told me tonite after he washed down the Harley that he'll take me for a ride tomorrow nite. I can't wait!! Will make Friday go better for me I think. I won't feel so "deprived". Do you think I'll have to stay off the bike for long? Hopefully not. It's supposed to be beautiful tomorrow.

Kaloni, I visited your friend's site. What a beautiful tribute to her. You must feel blessed to have known her and have her watching over you. I read a book a few years ago written by a Dr. Brian Weiss called Only Love is Real. It is a GREAT book!! It's about how he "accidentally" discovers regression therapy for his patients. It takes them back in time-sometimes not just years in this lifetime, but into another lifetime!! It makes you realize that everyone is here for a reason and everytime we "come back" it is with the same circle of people (loved ones, friends, etc.) it really is an amazing book. He's written a few others that I've read also. I wasn't so sure when I started reading the book, but I got hooked and could not put it down. You know your dear friend is with you always. It has made me feel so much about my dad, mom and mother in laws passings within 2 years of each other a few years back. I know that they are near all the time watching over us. Gives me a good feeling.

Well take care, I'm heading for bed. Love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

JaxsonHarley

Dawn,
A quick note here.Have yourself the most enjoyable ride ever!!! And no, I don't think you will have to be off the bike long at all.Just keep a good positive frame of mind, it helps to heal quicker, and so does all that extra oxygen you are breathing in when on it!!!Kaloni, thinking of you this evening and praying for you both for a peaceful one, with comfort in your hearts and souls. Love always, Jackie

honeygirl

Hello Ladies! I'm so sorry I have been away so long. I am either in to much pain to be at the computer or in a drug induced sleep! I was always a stomach sleeper and since my surgery I had to sleep on my back and from being propped up on pillows and in one position for so long I pinched a nerve and it has caused muscle spams of the big muscle in my back shoulder blade. Which shoots the pain down my arm and into my wrist and hand. Also pins and needles affect in last two fingers. I am seeing a physical therapist , my next appt. is actually in and hour. And I am taking pain meds. and predizone. I do feel better today. I am still in pain , but at least I can type some. Thank You all for your thoughts and prayers.
Kaloni , I am so sorry you are having a hard time right now. Please hang in there. I know it seems like you have waited forever for your surgery. But , I swear , it will be here before you know it! I pray that God grants you sweet patience and calms your anxiteties.
Jackie , good luck with chemo. I hope you stopped hic-cupping! If I have to do chemo you and Kaloni can give me some advice.
Dawn , Good luck tomorrow! I will be praying for you. b9 results!
I have to get ready for therapy now. I will try to write you all later. Take care. Have a wonderful day. Remember you are never alone. God is always there for us. Especially when he uses us as His vessels to bring each other hope , love , and peace. Hugs , honeygirl

ripplesdf

Oh Honey I know how bad that hurts. That's exactly where most of my pain is. The physical therapy should help. I found that thru the years the thing that helps most is the alternating heat packs and cold packs and gentle movements (I'm sure P/T will be helping you with that) and the most important healer is time. I know you probably don't want to hear about time, but basically that's what mine amounts to. I do have bouts at times where it will spasm and when it gets bad, I just micro my heat pack (a fairly large square one) and just lie down FLAT on my back without a pillow and just roll up a towel to put behind my neck for support and just relax. I usually fall asleep and wake up feeling much better. The heat from the shower seems to help it a lot too. I do hope and pray that this passes quickly and you will be back to yourself soon.
Lots of love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi ladies, I just want to pop in and say hello and thank you for the lovely posts. I am still feeling awful. This funk has gone on for four days now. I am better than I was.
I will keep praying here. And, keep my faith I will be better soon. Yes, there is hope.

God Bless,
Kaloni

Ka-Loni

Hello there again, I just wanted to let you know I am feeling better. I managed to go to the grocery store and wash some clothes. Ha. This is a good sign. Especially when I start cleaning and cooking. I put in a roast for tonight for dinner and it smells wonderful. I do hope you have a great evening. I will check back in the A.M.

God Bless,
Kaloni

honeygirl

Hey Kaloni! Roast sounds great! I can almost smell how delicious it is. wish I lived next door to you!

Ka-Loni

Oh, I would be cooking all my favorite dishes for you!
Have a good evening. And, get that rest in.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

With real mashed potatoes and gravy?!!! MMMMM sounds delish-when's dinner? LOL Take care sweet friends. I'm going to TRY to get some sleep. I have to be up at 4AM to leave by 5:30AM to be at the hospital at 6:30 for my biopsy at 7:30!!!! I'm tired already!!! I'll be dreaming of you guys when they give me the good drugs (HEHEHE!!!) Have a good nite. Sweet dreams. Kaloni-eat some roast for me please.
Love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

JaxsonHarley

MMmmm, I can just smell that roast right now!! Kaloni, I am glad you are feeling a little better, and got out of the house.You sound like you are doing a bit better.Now, cooking dinner for everyone was something you just didn't have to do !Honeygirl, so sorry you are having so much pain right now, I hope the therapy helps you out. I too am a tummy sleeper, and since the mastectomy, I haven't been able to get a good night's sleep yet.And it took a half an hour for those hiccups to go away! Dawn, Put us in your pocket in the morning!! And sweet dreams tonight, we will be praying for good results!! Have a peaceful evening ladies, will check back tomorrow, (((hugs))) and Love, Jackie

Ka-Loni

Hi Dawn, It is 8:40 and your out like a light right about now. I wish you so well in surgery today. It will be a breeze for you. Then you can come home and heal. And, you will have us. I am thinking about you today, and your in my prayers and thoughts.

God Bless,
Kaloni

honeygirl

Hi Dawn. We are all praying for you. Gentle hugs to you for a speedy recovery. And may your results be b9. God Bless.

ripplesdf

Thank you so much ladies! I WAS thinking of all 3 of you while I was in lalaland. It wasn't so bad. I heard them talking and just before they got done, my doctor told the intern working with her "not to put your hand in the cookie jar yet".(LOL)I think he was helping her stitch me up - don't think I REALLY want to know what she meant. I almost laughed, but was afraid to. Didn't want to fly around the room like a popped balloon!!! Anyway. I'm home and have some pain, but not too bad. I took a Lortab an hour ago. I'm such a WUSS that only took 1/2 of one cuz I'm a chicken when it comes to taking new meds. But I FEEELLLL GOOOOODDDD! No I'm not that loopy (no more than usual). Just took the edge off.
Well the doctor said it looks like the "gross" description is that it's just fibro-fatty tissue?! Whatever that is. She said that it looked good to her so hopefully my path report will come back B9!!!! I'm relieved, but still a little nervous. Won't know until Friday at my follow up. I know I will be anxious, but not as bad as before the biopsy. I'm sooo glad that's behind me.
Thank you so much Kaloni, Jackie and Honey. I don't know if you have any idea how much you mean to me. It gets me all teary eyed when I think of what you're going thru and you've taken the time to reassure me and read my sometimes too long posts. Thank you so much. I wish I could just hug you all in person. For now this will have to do (((((((((HUGS)))))))))) XXXXXXXXXX KISSES TOO!XXXXXXXXXXXX
Going to fight with my cat Peanut for the recliner. I will be in touch with you. Hope you're feeling better Honey.
ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND!!! I wish I could ride the Harley with Mike this weekend (sigh). Doc said soon, maybe in a few weeks.
LOVE, HUGS, and PRAYERS. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

JaxsonHarley

Dawn,
I am so happy to come here and find that you are doing so well!!You say you are feeling pretty good? Don't fight too hard with Peanut!! I too am very happy that this is behind you now.Look forward to hearing some great results Friday! You just relax, and heal, so you can get out on that bike soon!
Kaloni,Honeygirl, hope you are both having a good day today as well, thinking of you both as well! Any left-overs for tonight? Ha,I have had beef on the brain since you mentioned cooking that roast!Well, here is to everyone finding their good thing today,Oh, i forgot to mention, I went to the mastectomy shop and got fitted for a bra and prosthesis temporarily, until we can restart reconstruction again after chemo.I have bumps again!!Whoo-hoo! Gentle (((hugs))) and prayers and a BIg ~MUAH~ Kiss to you all! Jackie XXXXX

Ka-Loni

You all sound so sweet. Dawn, I am glad your back home. Get your rest. Jackie, We have some leftovers! Ha! I hope honeygirl is doing well. I have to pop in over on her thread and check on her soon. I slept for 3 hours this afternoon. I feel a little better today. I just take it one step at a time. I guess I'll drink a little Sangria tonight to relax with some dinner. Enjoy your evening.
Sleep good. Good Nite.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

Kaloni my boob is really aching so I'll make this quick. My DH is celebrating for me I guess. He's drinking some Robert Mondavi Woodbridge Cabernet and all I can do is smell it. Guess I'll take another Lortab and turn in. The ice doesn't seem to be helping at this point.
Jackie I think we should just take a road trip to Kaloni's and raid her fridge. Somehow the cereal we had (yes cereal!!) just doesn't cut it right now. Gotta eat something so I can take my happy pill LOL!!! And yes I WON the war with the cat over the recliner.
Have a great nite ladies. Luv ya all.
Keepin' the faith...Dawn

honeygirl

Hi Dawn! I'm so glad you are home and having a little r&r in la la land! Try not to be afraid of taking your meds. because you don't want the pain to get ahead of you then it takes longer to get under control. I had to fight my cat for the recliner too! But she ended up in my lap anyway! Hey you guys , don't forget to come get me so we can all go to Kaloni's for leftovers! Yuma! Actually , I went out and picked up some beef for the crock pot tomorrow.
Jackie , I'm so glad you have "bumps" again!
Kaloni , I'm glad you are feeling better. Ahh , sangria , I hope you and your hubby have a relaxing evening. I', ready for a pain pill and off to bed. Mega hugs and kisses to you all. Honeygirl

ripplesdf

Hi Honey. Not such a good nite last nite. I slept really hard (unusual for me), but I could only sleep on my right side. So I could barely move when I got up. I almost got up at 4am to come downstairs to the recliner but I didn't want to wake my husband. I'm not quite as sore as when I first got out of bed. Managed to take a shower and take off gauze and bandage. Yuck! I just took a Lortab a while ago and I'm going to try to sleep in the recliner. I think I'll use my heat pack on my back and see if that eases my muscle spasms. Hope everyone has a beautiful weekend.
Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hello Ladies, You all are so very sweet. It seems like us four ladies are moving right along. It is 10:40 and I am sitting here at my computer again. HA! Boy, I am feeling so much better.I get in those downward spirals here and there. This one has lasted a week. No Fun. I just took some Xanax. It always gives me a boost of happiness. LALA! I guess I might work on some of my Mosaic Vases. Yes, I do Mosaic Art. And, then I will put it on Ebay. I do not have any on there yet, but when I finish one I will list it. So look out! Ha. This will be my good thing today, and a glass of Arbor Mist Sangria. It is good! Let's all cheer! We will cheer to being strong, and to being here for each other each day. I will pop in a little later my lovely lady friends. I Love Ya lots.

God Bless You Ladies,
Kaloni

honeygirl

Hi Ladies. Dawn , I'm so sorry your having so much pain. I know how bad those spasms can be. It might be best if you spend the night in your recliner. Keep taking your meds. and keep the heat on. Prayers for you today.
Kaloni , I absolutely love mosaic! I shattered a mirror and thought I would mosaic my fireplace with it , but I have no idea what I was doing! So I chickened out. I should of tried it. Well you must post a pic of your vase when you are done so we can see it.
Jackie , hope your having a great weekend. I'll talk to you all later. Hugs.

ripplesdf

Well I FINALLY got the best nites sleep I've gotten in months!!! I decided to try the couch. Went to bed a 10:30 and woke up at 4 to go "tinkle" and fell back asleep and didn't wake until 7:30 when my husband gave me a cup of tea. I didn't realize how sleep deprived I have been. I feel wide awake. Better than I've felt in a long time. I'd love to work in my garden today, but I guess I'll just have to do a "walk thru" (LOL). It's going to be a beautiful day so I might as well enjoy it. Think maybe I'll go for a walk.
Kaloni, glad you're feeling more like yourself. You do mosaic? I work with painting on wood. I also sew keepsake teddy's. I haven't done it in a while, but I think this summer I'll get back into it. I used to sit for hours and paint. Guess I've been so busy with my little ones that I'm too tired by the time they go home to even think about painting. Let me know when you get one done. I'd love to check it out on E Bay.
Honey hope you're having a great weekend. I think Jackie's probably out on her bike. Don't blame her. As soon as I can, I'll be back on with my husband.
Have a great Sunday ladies. Love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi! Boy, what a beautiful day it is. Oh, it is in the Nineties here. I was enjoying that breeze out there. I would work in my flower garden, but it is too hot. I need some more shade. It is actually better in the evening were facing the north. Hi Honeygirl I hope your feeling better. Dawn you too. Yes, Jackie is out and about I bet. Well, you ladies enjoy this beautiful day. My good thing today is posting to you special ladies. And, just relaxing. My prayers and thoughts are there for you. Take Care.

God Bless you ladies,
Kaloni

Ka-Loni

Hi Ladies, It is so beautiful and breezy today. I had to open my sliders this morning. You know, they said I may go into menopause after my chemotherapy. Not! I am getting my periods like you would not believe now. I started yesterday, and they are heavy. I am bloated and crampy. No fun. Other than this, I am doing good. Leave it to me, I will always have something going on. Ha! I have my support group tomorrow so I better get better. Today, I still have my good thing and it is being able to breath the fresh air and coming here to visit you all. My prayers and thoughts are always there for you.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

It's a beautiful day here in NY too Kaloni. I haven't felt up to going outside with the 4 kids I watch. I know they will want the swings and I just can't do any lifting yet. I noticed last nite a huge area to the left of my incision getting red and thought maybe it was infection, but now that I look at it today I think it is an "extension" of the huge baseball size bruise I have underneath my incision. Quite colorful I must say!! Purple with a hint of yellow and getting bigger every day. Where the purple stops underneath is where the redness begins and there is a definite line forming a half circle going up above the incision. I called the doctors office this am and told them it wasn't warm to the touch and I was feeling fine, so I am going to watch it for 24 hours and if it gets any worse I will get an antibiotic.
We've had a rough 2 days here. The man that was our school superintendent for years passed away unexpectedly yesterday. He wasn't even 60. He was diagnosed with esophogeal cancer 2 months ago and given a good prognosis as it was caught early. He went to Sloan Kettering for the surgery removing part of his esophogus and a little of his stomach. Had his feeding tube removed last week and they sent him home. He died yesterday morning. Not sure of the details, but it is such a shock. My DH is still in shock-he's been on our school board for 14 years. My daughter is a teacher there and both mom's that I watch kids for also are teachers there. If that wasn't enough one of the young mom's I watch kids for (who happens to me my second cousin) just lost her gram at 1:00 this morning. She was old and sick, but it still hurts so much. AND if that's not enough there was a young man whose sister is a senior at our school that died in a motorcycle accident a few days ago and his funeral was this morning! They say things happen in 3's. It really doesn't seem real.
Other than that I am doing great. Can't wait for Friday to go back to doctor's and get results. The super's funeral is Friday just before my appointment. I'm hoping for B9 as the doctor is thinking.
My good thing for today is the beautiful sun is shining on my garden, it's warm and I heard from my dear friend Kaloni who is feeling soooo much better:}}}!!
You have a great day.
Love ya lots. Hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

JaxsonHarley

Well good evening my girlies!!
I am so happy to come here this evening and find you all just doing well,and relaxing,having a glass of Sangria(my favorite!)Arbor Mist is good too! This is definitely my good thing for today!! I rode 250 miles Saturday, then had a Tea & Fashion show with my daughter on Sunday.Today, just went to work early and then had to go to walmart to replace the microwave that crapped out on us. What ever did we do before those things anyway!! My husband was at such a loss as to how to heat up a cup of coffee without it!! We had to go get one right away!
Dawn, I am sorry to hear of all the struggles around you, (((hugs))) and prayers for all those affected. I know Friday will be your magic day.
Kaloni, you sound so good! I am just feeling the smiles radiating from your beautiful face!! Keep it up!
Honeygirl,Hope all is well with you, I am going to try and get an early night (yeah right) didn't sleep well last night. I am sending sweet dreams to all of you, will pop in tomorrow, Love & ((hugs))) & Prayers, Jackie

ripplesdf

Hi Jackie. Sounds like you had a great weekend. It's so good to finally have Spring here isn't it? I agree about t he microwave. A few weeks ago we lost power for 2 days from snowstorm and I do have a gas range, but I missed my microwave so much. I kept forgetting and I caught myself
twice trying to nuke something.
After I posted yesterday, I got a call from my sister that her mother in law passed away yesterday morning from breast cancer. I cannot believe how miserable this disease is and how many it effects. She was diagnosed about 15 yrs ago. Not sure what kind she had. She went thru treatments and was doing great then it reared it's ugly head again last year. This time it won. I HATE it!!!!!!! So now we have 3 people to attend funerals for in the next 4 days. How sad. I feel so very bad for the families. I guess all we can do is offer our hugs, support and prayers to them.
My good thing for today is sunshine, the beautiful children I watch (the little MONSTERS LOL) and my good friends here.
I will be going shopping later for something to wear for a wedding Saturday which my son will be in. That's definitely something to look forward to...a nice slow dance with my beautiful 25 yr old 6'2" son. What a guy. And he's SINGLE! Anybody out there need a date? He's a plumber/electrician/air conditioning/heating guy! Can't tell I'm just a little proud can you?
You guys have a great day.
Love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi Ladies, I am glad to hear from you both. I always love your posts. Today, was a good day. I went to my support group and that went good. I am thinking about volunteering some of my spare time where I get treatment. I think it would be nice to help all the people. I am not sure yet.
Well, tonight is Fish night. I just love Tilapia Fish. I am making Tilapia Fish with lemon-pepper, and Noodles with tomatoes. Yummy and healthy. By the time you read this, it may be all gone. Ha. Well, I will be thinking about you anyway. I do hope you have a good evening. Take Care.

Good Luck,
God Bless,
Kaloni