I am getting there! Slowly. There is Hope!

Ka-Loni

Hi Sweeties, I am so glad to see and read all your messages. I am going to make it short again. I made it through the night. I am sitting here and getting drowsy again. You know what that means. I will be out until I take another Percocet at 12:00PM. I will do this, be awake for a bit, and fall back asleep. No fun. I have an appointment with my Plastic Surgeon in the morning. Hopefully, he will pull my drains. I hate these things. One good thing, is my new booby. It is doing good so far. They will check the blood flow tomorrow. I listened to the sound of the blood flow, and it sounds like a fetal heart beat. It is so wild. Well, sweeties I better start preparing for my sleep time, as I do not know how long I will be out. I will check in later.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

Just checking in ladies. Hoping everyone is ok. Kaloni I'm saying a prayer for you right now for those drains to be out today. I hope you are feeling better and on the road to a speedy recovery. Hope your new booby gets a good report today! Talk to you later. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hello, I am still alive! I took a Percocet at 6:00AM and I zonked out for a couple of hours. I am on cloud nine right about now. Ha. I kind of like it. Well, I went to my plastic surgeon yesterday. Everything is looking good. My new booby is doing good so far. And, they pulled two drains. Thank God! The nurse put new suture tape on my incisions. Next week, they will pull my third drain. And take the stiches out of my new belly button. Boy, this is alot to endure. I keep strong, and take whatever I can. I just keep resting a whole lot and keep taking my meds. Soon, I will be at the end of my second week. Keep praying for me. I am not out of the water yet. I will check in later on.

God Bless,
Kaloni

honeygirl

Hello Ladies! Wow , I feel like I really need to catch up here.
Jackie , first thanks for sending me pics. And congratulations on the motorcycle test!! You are beautiful! Nice bike. I will send some pics to you soon. Has your daughter found out anything yet? I hope all is well. Will keep her and you in my prayers.
Dawn , how are you feeling? I will continue to pray for you and you brother also. Its so hard when our loved ones are sick. You just want to help them in anyway you can. Gods healing powers to you all.
Hi Kaloni! Thank God you got a couple of those darn drains out. I hated them. Its like you feel immediately better when they take them all out. Just keep taking your meds and sleep. That is so important at this stage of healing.
Big (((((hugs))))) to you all.
Well , my onc has kept me home from work for the last two days. He said my white blood count was to low and not coming up fast enough and didn't want me to be out among crowds of people. I feel fine and have no fever , have to take my temp 3 times a day. But the last test showed it (wbc) to be on the up swing , so he said I can go back to work Fri. My hair started falling out on day 14. I'm not sure when to get it shaved. Jackie , how long after your hair fell out did you shave it? I hate this part soooo much. Ok Ladies , I got to go. Hoping everyone has a great evening. Peace and Love to you all. Melody

Ka-Loni

Hello, I want to thank you so much for posting your sweet messages. I woke up around 7:00AM and figured I would get some coffee and sit at the computer for a bit. I just now took a percocet, and I will let that start working. Soon, I will lay back on my reclining couch. How fun. I am doing good though. I am taking it slow. And, just taking baby steps. My good thing today is coming here and posting. Keep me in your prayers. I will check in later.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

Thank God for reclining couches Kaloni! DB uses his all the time now. We saw him last nite. DH went to mow for him and I brought home made mac and cheese and he loved it. It's so good to see him eat. He's lost some weight. His physical condition is the same, but he was in pretty good spirits last nite. He teased his wife and said she's been so nice to him he thinks he'll "play sick" more often LOL! He said maybe he'd come up with a different tumor every month. I laughed and said you could call it "lump of the month club"!! We all had a good laugh. He showed me the dr's report from the CT scan. The only thing I could make out was he has no evidence of heart failure/disease thank God! His spleen is slightly enlarged-probably from fighting the fevers I'm assuming. They described the tumor 3 different ways and it's like another language! He says the only thing that bothers him about having it out is that they have to "open" his rib cage. I told him to try to think further ahead about how much better he'll feel. I didn't know what to say to him. He's such a sweety. I can't stand to see him in pain. He will go Tues to the thoracic surgeon. I pray they will do it quickly.
So glad to hear you got two of the drains out Kaloni. That must be such a relief. Take it easy while you can. Baby yourself. Lord knows you deserve it. I pray everyday and every nite for you. Just think next year at this time it will only be a memory. Hang in there Hon.
Melody take it easy while you can. You're probably sick of people saying that right? Like I told Kaloni-baby yourself-you deserve it. It's good to know that you have such a good dr/medical team looking out for you. My prayers to you also.
Well Jackie, hope you're having a great week and a "bikin" weekend. Sounds like it's gonna be nice weather. Dh has to work both days til 2 so we won't be taking any trips. Maybe a short one to the ice cream stand (LOL) for Father's Day. I plan on finally getting to weed my flower garden and mow the lawn-never thought I'd miss the lawn mowing! My ankle is healing slowly but surely. I've dumped the air cast and now have an Ace ankle brace on it for support. Hopefully I can keep myself from twisting it again.
Well gotta go figure out what's for my 4 little one's lunches. I can't beleive another school year has gone by and they'll be home with their mom's (both teachers) for the summer. Then the two older girls will be in kindergarten (sniff). And I will have the 2 three yr olds and a newborn (6 wk old) baby to watch. It should be INTERESTING to say the least!! I don't have any grand kids (just my dear grandpuppy Keegan the boxer) so these kids are my adopted ones.
Have a great weekend everyone. Lots of love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi Sweeties,

I am getting there slowly. Dawn, thanks for your sweet post. Today, I did not get up out of the reclining couch until about 5:00PM. Here I am. I will just pop in for a bit. I am finally moving right along. My new booby says hello. He is doing good. Were both hangin in there. It is such a long road, but it will come to an end. Yes, there will be light. And, the light will be shining bright.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

Hi Kaloni! Hope you and your "new buddy" are doing well today ;}. Glad to hear things are looking up for you (and "Buddy" too!) Wish him Happy Father's Day for me! I'm waiting for my Dh to get home from work and our 3 kids are going to BBQ chicken for him on the new grill we got him for Father's Day. We're so lucky all our kids live an hour or less from us so we always enjoy our holidays together. Well gotta go make some salad.
Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
Love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

JaxsonHarley

Hello there my girlies!
I hope this finds everyone well today.
Kaloni, A big warm welcome to the new booby! I am glad you are doing so well. Just keep getting lots of rest, and that last drain will be out before you know it!
Melody, my hair started coming out around day 14, it actually went about another week before I couldn't stand it everywhere but on my head! That last day, it came out in such big handfuls, I just did it that night after work.I'm telling you, in this heat, it is great not worrying about putting it up! But I do miss it, my last treatment is in 2 weeks, I hope it starts coming back soon after that!
Dawn, prayers for your brother, and that all goes well with him. And good for you getting out on that bike! Hubby and I and our son went for a 250 mile ride Saturday, was alot of fun! I needed to get out and just ride, my Dad was in the hospital Thursday & Friday, Kidney infection they think. He is 80, and I worry about him so. He stayed at his girlfriends house over the week-end, so I took off and had my therapy session with Harley!
Well, have to go shower for work, will check back later, you ladies have a wonderful day, Lot's of Love and ((hugs))) Jackie

Ka-Loni

Hi there, Thank you so much for sending me your sweet messages. They sure make me feel better. Well, things are moving along. Today, I just layed back and watched TV and read some. I should be making a hole in the couch by now. Ha. There is little I can do. I am not supposed to use my left arm at all. So, I am using my right hand to pick things up. My new booby is doing good. He is hangin in there. I just been getting a sharp sensation every once in a while. I think it may be the nerve endings in the new tissue. Tomorrow I have another follow up visit, and they are going to take my last drain out. Thank God! And, take the stiches out of my new belly button. I am getting there. I just keep praying each day. And, staying strong. Know that your also in my prayers too, sweeties. I will check in later. Have a great evening.

God Bless,
Kaloni

honeygirl

Hi Kaloni , Dawn and Jackie! Kaloni , it sounds like you are healing well. Keep up the good work , and go ahead and wear a hole in the couch!! You will feel so much better when that last drain comes out. I still get sharp pains from my nerve endings. I hate when it feels like I have an itch but when I go to scaratch it , its somewhere else! Weird sensation...
Well , I did have my second chemo today. I almost didn't. He said yesterdays blood work came back to low(white count). I about started crying. He asked what was wrong and I said I just don't want delays , I want to get this over asap. So He said he could send me for blood work right then and there was a posibility it could on came up high enough , as I was boarderline. Well , it came up and I was able to have it. Tomorrow I have to go after work for my neulasta shot. Well , two down and two more to go. Jackie , do you have one more to go? How has it been making you feel? I hope all is well with you.
Dawn , how are you and your brother doing? I hope you are feeling better. Have you been on any bike rides lately?
Well Ladies , I must go clean up after dinner. Take care. Hugs and Love , Melody

honeygirl

Oh Jackie , I had my girlfriend shave my head on Sunday. It was falling everywhere and I just couldn't stand it anymore. I will pray our hair grows faster than the weeds in my yard after our last chemo!!!lol

ripplesdf

Haven't been on in a few days. Just checking in with you guys. Sounds like your moving along there Kaloni. Melody hang in there. Lots a prayers going out to you.
DB saw the surgeon Thurs. and they are going to do an MRI now to determine if the mass is solid or soft and then decide on how to remove it. Dr said the lump is the size of a lime! I can't believe how long it's taking them to get this out of my poor brother. Each day that goes on he is more sick and depressed and trying so hard to be optimistic. In the meantime he can't do anything. It hurts him to walk, drive, move etc. I feel so badly for him and I wish I could take his place. Keep praying for him ladies. He needs all the prayers he can get. Take care all.
Love, hugs, and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi Dawn, I am glad your posting. You are so sweet. I want to let you know how sorry I am about your brother. I can only imagine what he is going through. It is really tough, isn't it. I have been so wrapped up with myself, and I tend to forget what is going on around me. I just want to send all my prayers to you. I know this has to be so tough on you. I pray that your brother gets his surgery and treatment going soon.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

Hi my sweet Kaloni. So glad you're here. I just got back from a funeral-yes another one. My sister's MIL was 84 and in very good health passed away suddenly on Sunday. Not sure what caused it, but she was a great lady. Very young 84 years. She loved to quilt so she had written instructions for her funeral and requested that friends and family all bring her quilts and place them on the pews for her funeral. How beautiful this old stone church built in the 1800's looked with those quilts. I just kept staring at all the stitches in the one in front of me and cannot imagine how many thousands of stitches must be in all of them at that church! Amazing and she never used a sewing machine for them. She certainly loved life and her family.
I just got off the phone with my brother. He sounds so down. He is getting his MRI tomorrow but was informed by his dr's office that the dr is leaving for vacation on Wed. for 2 WEEKS. So his surgery would not be until sometime after July 17th!!! I cannot beleive it. I wish he could go to a different dr and have it done sooner. Oh this waiting game really STINKS!!!!Don't these dr's realize that he is so sick? I can't believe they don't put him in the hospital. It is really frustrating to just be considered another number. I hate being at the mercy of these drs. All we can do is pray that he makes it thru this.He is a carpenter/woodworker. He loves to build things-especially entertainment centers, end tables, coffee tables,etc and he does such beautiful work. He built 2 beautiful urns for my mom and my dad when they passed away. The local funeral home has had him make some for them to sell. They are just beautiful. But he can't even get up and down his stairs to go to his shop. He can't stand for more than 5 minutes at a time without sitting down. I'm going to have to go visit him this weekend and see if I can't cheer him up. He has always had such a funny and sometimes weird sense of humor and it kills me to see him so down. He used to love to draw. He was great at characatures. Maybe I'll pick him up a sketch pad.
Sorry to ramble. Just needed to vent.
It's so good to have you here to "listen" to me. I have a hard time talking to my husband about this for some reason. Guess I don't want him to worry about me. He has enough to worry about.
Well take care. Say hi to "buddy" for me. Glad you're both healing so well. I am so very happy for you. How hot is it there in FL? Not bad here tonite it's about 70.
Love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi Sweeties, I am coming along quite well. I got my last drain pulled. Thank God! I am managing to walk around a bit. But, I get so out of breath if I am on my feet for too long. I am really disappointed with my weight. It does not help me. I am going to start my dieting and just eat lightly. So when I start my long walking again it will not be as tough. I just want to look like I used too before all this. I really do not think I will. But it is nice to dream. Reality really hits me that I am just not going to be the same person, even though in my mind I still am the same person. It is a shame. I been really down about this. I just want to get in shape again and live life happily. I keep trying to stay positive minded, but it is tough. I keep my prayers going. I guess only time will tell for me. Well, keep your prayers going for me. I still can use them. I will check in later.

God Bless,
Kaloni

Ka-Loni

Hi, I am getting there sweeties. I just tend to push myself so fast at times. Then, I only get dissapointed. I have to remember to take my time. I been walking around my house and on the deck. But, I get tired just doing that. It will be nice when I can walk along the lake. My booby is doing good. He is staying healthy. I am just now concerned of my weight. I am wanting this stomach of mine to go down. Some is still some swelling. Today is just Yogurt and salad. Well keep your prayers out for me. I love you sweeties.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

Hi Kaloni. Glad you're moving around. That's got to help you feel better. I know it does me wonders. I just said to DH tonite I miss my walking and I think tomorrow I will get brave and walk. I still have to be careful of my ankle. I have not needed my brace but will use it for walking. Where I live there are only paved roads and dirt roads. No sidewalks. I feel so fat. I now weigh 180 pounds and I hate it. Before I hurt my foot I had been losing steady by doing my Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds videos on rainy days and walking outside on nice days. I'm really looking forward to getting back in my routine of walking. I feel so crappy when I don't. I hope you keep up the good work. You're getting there finally a little at a time. I'm sending lots of healing prayers to you.
Take care. Hope you're having a good weekend.
Love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi sweeties, I figured I would pop in again today. It is such a beautiful day.Well I am getting around a little today. I guess a little more each day. And, of course eating lightly today too. That is about it I guess. My good thing was coming here today, and know your all in my heart each day.

God Bless,
Kaloni

JaxsonHarley

Hi sweet girlies!

Just wanted to pop in to say goodnight, I was out on the bike all day with some friends, went to Sodus Bay on Lake Ontario.Really pretty! Kaloni, you sound like you are coming along so well! I am so happy for you!
Dawn, your ankle is also healing good, don't push it too hard, they can take quite some time to get back to "normal".I have also put on about 10lbs since all this, I need to start an excersise program again, or start running in the morning.I hate feeling like this!
Melody, how are you feeling? I am thinking of you.
I hope you all found your good thing today, I am thinking of you all, but I have to call it a night for now, sweet dreams, Love & hugs, Jackie

ripplesdf

Hi Ladies. Had a busy weekend. Had to replace our liner in our pool. It was 18 yrs old and finally sprung a leak this spring. We had a houseful of company to help us. Had a BBQ to go to Fri. nite where my husband's band played. They sounded so good. They haven't played out in almost a year. DH plays the drums. 2 of the little ones I babysit were there and they were like leaches. They followed me all over. Didn't want much to do with mommy and daddy. Made me feel good. Sniff. I'm going to miss them this summer. Today is my FIRST day off for the summer. I've mopped my kitchen and bathroom floors already and going to do some much needed vacuuming and dusting. Then it's out to do some lawn mowing-mostly riding. Haven't done that since I hurt my foot! I'll be busy, but I love being able to just walk out the door and be outside.
I'm glad everyone is doing so well. Jackie I bet Lake Ontario is beautiful. We're trying to get some much needed stuff done around our house like painting trim, etc so we can enjoy the rest of our summer and get some bike rides in.
Kaloni, glad you're feeling so good. Way to go girl!
Melody, hope you're having a good week.
Take care all. Love, hugs, and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

Ka-Loni

Hi Ladies, Your doing good dawn, I did not wake up until 9:00. You can come clean my house. I have been so sleepy in the mornings. Today, is my third week. And, I stopped my meds already. I don't need them. My booby is doing so good. I am so happy about that. But, I still have three more weeks until it is good to go. The only problem I am having is walking. I am still a bit hunched over. My lower legs in the morning are so stiff. My whole body is stiff. Boy, this is going to be a job getting back in shape. No fun. Today is yogurt only. Well, you all sound so good. I am not out of the water yet, so I still can use your prayers. I am still praying and, I keep you close in my heart.

God Bless,
Kaloni

honeygirl

Hi Kaloni , Jackie and Dawn. Boy everyone seems so busy. I think thats a good thing. Kaloni , make sure you take vitamins. Yorgurt only? Keep your strengh up. It takes time to heal. Be good to yourself.
I am day 5 after my second treatment.I started feeling better Sunday. So I did some much needed housework. It is pretty hot here today so I am just heating up leftovers for dinner. Dawn , it sounds like your foot is much better. Jackie , the bike trip sounded sooo nice. Well , dinner is ready , thank God for microwaves! Hugs and prayers to you all. Melody

ripplesdf

Kaloni, I'd love to help you clean-maybe in the fall (LOL) I've been in Florida in June and it is WAYYYY to hot and humid for this NY mountain girl. It was 95 here today and that was enough for me.
Kaloni and Melody I'm so glad you girls are doing so well. I am so happy for you. Praying everyday for ya.
I went to see my brother tonite. My dh and ds go there after work once a week now and mow his lawn-about an acre b/c he is so sick. We are on pins and needles and so is he. TOmorrow he goes to the surgeon to get results of his mri of Friday to see what type of surgery they will have to do to remove his tumor and when. Only thing is the surgeon is leaving Wed. for 2 weeks vacation!! Sure wished he'd have someone else filling in for him that could do the surgery. Ernie has suffered for far too long and cannot do anything. He has all he can do to let his dog out. His wife works so I will probably be taking care of him after his surgery until he's able to care for himself. I just PRAY so hard all the time that it's not cancer and is just one of those freak b9 tumors in his chest. I still can't beleive it. He's never smoked a day in his life and it kills me to think it's possible he has cancer. He needs lots of prayers.
Thank you sweeties for being here for me all the time. I love ya so much. Don't know what I'd do without you guys. Sometimes I feel I'm closer to you than the friends I've had for years.
Well DH is calling me from our upstairs porch to drink a Mich Lite with him in our lounge chairs. Think I'll take him up on it. We sat out there a few weeks ago and fell asleep. Weird how it's taken us 28 yrs of living in this old colonial house to appreciate that old upstairs porch!! I love it. I'd love a smaller house but I love this old one too much to give up its uniqueness. It used to be an old parsonage in the 1800's for a Methodist church. Love the old history stuff.
Well take care girlies. Have a good nite.
Love ya lots. Love, hugs and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn PS Please pray for Ernie:)))

Ka-Loni

Hi Ladies, Well, Thankyou so much for posting. It is so nice to read your sweet words. I woke up this morning and my lower legs were so stiff. What is this? It is like a charlie horse. My booby is good. I been kinda down about the weight issue though. I am taking vitamins and eating lightly right now. Thats all I can do. And, just resting alot. And, going through my healing. I guess I will just take my time. I appreciate all your kind words, and for all your prayers. Keep them up. And, I keep my prayers for you too. Well have a good day. I will check back in later.

God Bless,
Kaloni

JaxsonHarley

Hi Girlies! I was checking my email, and Kaloni, the address you gave me won't work, it keeps coming back saying " delivery failure" this user doesn't have an acct. Can you send me something by email, then my computer will put the correct address into my address book? Thanks sweetie! Will check back later, Love to all, Jackie

honeygirl

Hi ladies. Dawn , I pray daily and Ernie is in my prayers. I am so sorry he is going through this. I will especially pray for B9 results and quick healing for him. It has to be especially hard for him due to him being so active and now he psycially can't. You sound like a very loving and caring sister.You both are in my prayers. I think your house sounds so lovely. When I was a little girl we lived in a big old house that had an upstairs and downstairs porch. I loved the upstairs porch , you could see for miles and yet it was private and so much fun to play on. And we would have "sleep outs" on the porch. There is something so charming about older homes.
Kaloni glad to hear you are taking care of you. I have found , when I can lose weight slowly is best as it stays off better and you get into a healthy eating pattern that helps keep it off too.
Jackie , I still have to send so pics to you!
Well ladies , its dinner time again. Hugs and Prayers to you all. Melody

Ka-Loni

Hello my sweeties, Well, I am doing good. I am just so sleepy in the mornings. I want to start training my body to get up earlier. I am watching my eating, and it looks like I am losing some bloating in my belly. My booby is doing so well. Thank you Lord! Today, I am going to walk just a little down the sidewalk along the lake. That is a start. I am so determined to be physically in shape again.
I don't know if I will be a bikini model, but I am going to look good enough for me. Please pray for me, as I go through this. It takes such discipline. I also will keep my prayers out for you too. I will check in later.

God Bless,
Kaloni

ripplesdf

Hi Ladies. Just got done weeding some more of my perrenial flower garden. Boy is it hot and humid here in the Catskills today. I plan on staying inside this afternoon and try to clean out my laundry room. I have all summer to clean, but I am one of those people that can't relax til I know my house is clean. I think I'll just do one room at a time and hopefully I'll have it done in a week or two.
Well my brother went to the surgeon yesterday and he told him he needs a biopsy. It seems the mass is pushing against his bronchial tubes and his trachea so they are going to do the biopsy thru his throat somehow according to my brother. They have it scheduled Monday and the dr leaves Wed. for 2 wks. I hope that they get the results before he leaves. He has waited 2 months now. It's ridiculous how long it is taking to get this removed.
Anyhow, we're saying lots of prayers and hoping he can have a quick recovery.
Well gotta go fix some lunch. DH is going to stop by today for his lunch. It will seem nice to have some time with him. He is so busy right now it seems he hardly has time to just relax and when he does he's out like a light LOL.
Take care all. Love, hugs, and prayers. Keepin' the faith...Dawn

ripplesdf

Hi Girlfriends! Just wanted to keep you updated on my brother. He told me today that he got mixed up at dr's the other day. His wife told him that doc said he is doing the biopsy thru his neck-just below the adams apple. He will be going down his throat to have a look also to see if the tumor is involved in his trachea. How scary. He's being so brave. I just can't wait til this is over. I love him so much and want him so much to be free of his pain and anquish over this. Even if it's not the big "c" it sucks!
I talked to him today and he is so stressed over their financial situation. I told him the most important thing right now is his health then we'll worry about the money thing. I can't blame him. He hasn't worked in over 3 months and he worries about losing his house. I suggested to him one of those consumer credit counseling services. We did that over 5 yrs. ago and it's the best thing we ever did. Paid off our debts in 5 yrs. I hope they take my advice and pursue it. I already talked to DH and he agrees if we have to they can live with us until they get back on their feet. It just sucks that they may lose their house because of this illness. All we can do at this point is pray for him.
I had a good day today. I got the rest of my perrenial garden weeded!!! Got done at 11:30 and hope I don't have to do that again for the rest of the summer! I love my flowers, but it seems they are more work every year. But it's worth every bit when I stand back and look at it or have someone compliment it. I do take after my Dad in that respect. He always loved his flowers and veggie gardens. I didn't realize how much I learned from him until he passed away in 2003. God I miss him. His old house is next to me with a big field between us and everytime I mow over his old garden I say a prayer. Can't help it. Nothing seems to grow there now except weeds! He'd roll over in his grave LOL!! My sister and her husband moved in there 2 yrs. ago with their 3 grandkids they are now bringing up-God Bless Them! Their DD lost their dad to brain cancer 4 yrs ago and just neglected them so bad that SS was going to take the kids away but DS and her husband said no-they would take care of them. 2 girls 13 and 9 and a boy-18 yrs. old. They love it here. Their old school they were loners b/c the kids would not have anything to do with them b/c of their" smell" and everyone knew they were neglected. How cruel. Now that they're here for 2 yrs., they have so many friends and my DS and her Dh take such good care of them. It makes me so proud and so happy that we did not have to sell dad's house to strangers.
Well, enough rambling. I'm a widow tonite. DH went to a Union Dinner for NYC DEP so I was going to fix a sandwich, but DD and her BF decided to pay a visit. I BBQ'd some chicken and am waiting for them to get here.
Take care all. Love, hugs and prayers...Keeping' the faith...Dawn