INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

Anonymous

Good Mourning Jazzy! When I have to up this early it's "mourning" time.

Susan ~ How can it be that each picture of Elena is more adorable than the last? I envy your friend, getting that full body snuggle. Once they hit their 20's you can't cuddle 'em like that anymore. (sigh) So happy for you to have had your sweetie to yourself so many times this week! Your porch looks like a place that would be hard to leave, so cozy. Is that a glider your friend is sitting in with Elena? I have a porch swing on the front patio. It is not the same as a glider. My mom's front porch had a sofa size glider that was occupied as much as possible - loved it!

Okay.......I go to bed early and there are crisis's, crisisiss, crisies, cripes!

Sassy ~ Are you okay? The day you are a detriment is the day I become a morning person - NOT possible. ((Hugs)) You know how much we all love you!

Anonymous

JunieB ~ Darn. Usually I would have been up when you posted. ((hugs)) I hope you were able to get some sleep. You had a real roller coaster of a day that ended with a ride on the tilt-a-whirl. You "met" your sister and you are an Auntie! Focus on that part for right now. As for your Father.......he may had been a different person for each of the different people in his life. That is very much true of my father. Your Mother may have felt she was protecting you or she just may have had her own issues. Maybe a combination of it all? There are so many points of view involved......you Mother's, your sister's and her family's. Even if you could have spoken to your Father before he passed, his version of events would still have been just another ingredient to the mix of what did or did not happen. We can't control the past. Or other people. (grrrrrrr)

Live in the "right now" for a while. Your body and your heart need some healing time. (((hugs))) and more (((hug)))

Off with DS to get some more test for his gall bladder ~ I'll check in later

WenchLori

Sassy, I agree with Shepkitty. There IS NO WAY you could be a detriment to anyone, anything, anytime or anywhere!! You are hands down one of the BEST of the BEST out there fighting for All of us! You have taken us all under your wings and held us tight when doctors/technicians etc are feeding us a load of baloney! We ALL love you and we

WenchLori

Shepkitty, so nice your FFH got you out of the house and dinner too! We want to hear where you went and what you had to eat. Yeap, we are nosy that way lol

WenchLori

JunieB, YAY on you becoming a sister and an aunt all at once! I also agree with Shepkitty on taking what you've heard in the past with a grain of salt. There's always a twist in there somewhere. What's important is a bridge of love has been built. Now you can go out and decorate that bridge with all the new and wonderful memories to come!

I know, it's really strange to being going Yeah! to surgery and yes, I've been waiting for over 3 months for this to finally take place. I'll have one of the BIGGEST FITS ever seen if this has to be canceled and rescheduled! Tornado Lori coming through!!

Thank you All!!

Anonymous

Sitting in the waiting room while DS has his CT test.........

Wenchie ~ "a bridge of love"...... what a beautiful image 🌈

Cheering for surgery, not many people would understand that, would they? Kinda bittersweet. I talked to my surgeon's office Wednesday. The equipment needed for the ablation procedure in my spine has to be borrowed from a different hospital. It could be another month before my back gets patched back together......

Loverly ~ been thinking about Mitzi peeing in her crate. I wonder if she could have a UTI? Female Shepherd breeds are susceptible to them. Nerves, change of routine or not peeing often enough can cause infections. I would have been so mad about that anti-ich medicine. Poor doggie. How is the new food treating her? If only they talk and tell us how they feel. 🐶

Mostlymom ~ Last week was your procedure. Did all those yucky stones turn to dust? Hoping you are doing well.

Anonymous

This is where we ate last night in Murrells Inlet . Great little "hole in the wall" with home cookin' and super friendly staff - friendly customers too. Fun place! Thursday is all you can eat wings night for $8.......so meaty, not greasy and sooooo good. We splurged and spent an extra dollar for a big basket of fries. We got food to go for dinner tonight......a Philly cheesesteak for me and turkey melt for FFH.

Desserts offered included oreos, cake, twinkies and pop tarts - all deep fried. I was half tempted by the strawberry and ice cream topped funnel cake...... tooo full though!

I felt like such a hypocrite after hanging out on Wenchie's thread and talking about nutrition 'n healhty eating 😜

Lookforward

Junie isn't it nice to be home, how's the recovery going?

Wonderful news about your sister and niece, I hope you get to meet them in the near future. I agree with the other ladies that you can't undo the past, and the truth lies somewhere in the middle. We all have different versions of events.

Wenchie fingers crossed your surgery date stays the same, we don't want to see the tornado unleashed.

Shep how was dinner? Hopefully the projects in your home are getting done. Grocery delivery would be wonderful, along with the added feature of unpacking and putting everything away.

Loverly having pets does restrict us in just being able to pick up and go, the kids we can take , but not always the pets. My husband did not want a dog, but he is the one always hugging and kissing him. The dog still likes me better Lol.

Sas were you having a bad night, I hope not. I am trying to go to bed earlier, last night it as lights out at 12:30.

I am off for a walk and a bike ride to work off the spare tire around my stomach, not working so far. I don't Know if it just age or the tamoxifen. I am also overheating when I get hot, never had this problem before.

Wren44

Junie, I can relate to the multiple stories about fathers. I think I got straighter info from my father's obit than ever anything a family member said. I hope you and your sister like each other and develop a good relationship. I have never met my half brother and sister and don't know her married name. So she doesn't know she has a sister with BC. I just hope she gets her mammos regularly.

Holeinone

JazzyJune, so sad reading your story. Not fair.......

My mom was not capable of being a role model or a good parent. I think when we are raised in those situations, we somewhat grieve for the childhood that we did not have. It has made me more independent than other women that were over spoiled as a child, but still no making up for stability & normalcy. I hope for you a chance at a easy relationship with your new 1/2 sister.

WenchLori, good luck next week. I had a lumpectomy, so pretty easy compared to what you are doing.

Sas, bump in the road?

Wren, sorry also your dad was estranged from you. Who wrote his obit?

Shepkitty, Poppys looks like my kind of place. Love wings....

Hello to all, can't keep up but I do try to.

Susan, love all the photos, she is a sweety. Sorry for your recent struggles with DH. Highs & lows in all long term marriages.

I had Taxotere # 6 last Wed. Should be done with that, but will have a scan in a couple of weeks to see. My numbers have continued to improve, but the Cancer in spine & bones seems to be worse. I spend a lot of time watching stupid TV. But Wimbeldon is on now so I can justify staring at the boob tube......lol....

Jazzygirl

Hi friends- wishing everyone a pleasant holiday weekend. Thought this would make you smile!

JunieB

Thank you all for the words of support. As I said before, in my heart I'd like to confront my mother, but nothing good would come of it. Plus, I will stand before God, just as she will (we) all will, so I'll just leave it in his hands. But still sad though.

I came home yesterday as an only child (in my head), now I am a sibling and an aunt to two little boys. Ages 12 & 8 or 10, I can't remember. When we concluded our conversation last night, I said to my sister "Good night, but NOT Good-bye". Now I need to start saving some money to buy a plane ticket for when we finally do get to meet. Not sure how that will happen, but amazing things can happen. As evidenced by the recent events for me.

Jazzygirl - I definitely did smile at the cute pic you posted. Thank you.

Shep - Yummy! Love Honey BBQ wings myself.

Jazzygirl

JazzyJune- glad I made you smile! Mission accomplished!

I think connecting with your half sister would be so nice and perhaps the relationship you really do want, vs. trying to have anything deeper with your mom. I was not sure she was still alive or not, but as adults, we all have to decide what kind of relationship we want with our family, whether they good, bad or outright ugly. A narcissist will never listen to anyone, got plenty of them in my family. I live by a phrase "when someone shows you who they are, believe it." I think you just know a whole lot more about who your mother really is after this. That being said, it is sad to realize and been there too sister.

Sending you hugs and wishing for better days.

Shepkitty- it sounds like things are better and glad you got out to eat!

Wren44

Holeinone, I assumed the newspaper wrote it. He was a big cheese in his town and prominent in a lot of things. It began, "he was a chain smoker who loved a good cocktail" so I'm pretty sure it wasn't family. I hope I inherited his ability to smoke without dire consequences. It took me forever to quit smoking. We never lived together.

Loveroflife

Hi, MamaRay! I just got back from picking up my younger daughter from swimming?

Loveroflife

JunieB, soooo....was your first meal a big bowl of salad? How is the healing coming along? Do you have help from friends from church? Gosh, I wish I lived closer to you. That must had been a stab in the heart to hear the story about your dad. I'm sorry. It's hard not to be bitter towards your mom. For whatever reason, your mother could not forgive your dad and harbored the hatred. That bitterness not only affected her joy and happiness, it now causes you pain. I agree with ShepK. Focus on your new found family. I know you will be a good sister and auntie.

Loveroflife

MammaRay, is the headache gone?

Holeinone

Mamma Ray, thinking of you, hang in there sweet girl....

JunieB

JunieB

Actually Loverly I didn't have that salad, but I did get to the store and bought the ingredients. So tomorrow I will have that for dinner.

I was so upset last night about the things I learned about my family history that I took my Xanax and slept for 2 .5 hours, then took more at 5:00 a.m. and slept until 12:40 p.m. today. Still struggling to absorb everything, but I know that will take time.

Now I will just be thankful for this day and all of you ladies. Goodnight for now, and hoping all have sweet dreams tonight.

Loveroflife

Hi there HiHo, hope your scan gets an A+. Bummer about those bone mets. Wonder if they can zap them to lala land.

Lori, yay indeed for surgery this Wednesday! Three plus months of waiting is torturing. Mine was only a three weeks after dx and that seemed like an eternity. I remember the day of surgery I was really calm because I was more than ready to have the " monster " taken out. During pre-op I was joking with the nurses and the anesthesiologist, even refusing Verced because I was not nervous at all. Thanks to all the people praying for me. Will be praying for you.

Ms. Wren, I have been wanting to ask how your niece is doing.

Susan, I am jealous too of your friend who was carrying Elena. Love it when they fall asleep on your chest.

Forward, good for you for exercising. I play badminton twice a week for a few hours and walk Mitzy on my days off. I always feel good afterwards. I get cranky when I don't get my excercise.

Rosevalley, it was a delight to see you dropping in. We miss you here. Thank you for sharing the article from NY Times. I was excited to read it until I came to the part where it states that the findings only applies to hormones+ and tripple- BC, not Her2+.....boo or should I say boohoohoo

Ms. Sas, you ok??

ShepK, boy I get heartburn reading what you had for dinner last night. I love wings, especially buffalo wings. I have not tried Mitzy on the new food yet because her stool is still loose. Stopped the Apoquin several days ago. Not sure how long it will take her stomach to go back to normal. Her itch is back. Really thinking about giving her Zytec or Allegra. I still have some prednisone from the previous visit, but don't want to give it to her again. It also can suppress her immune system. I'm changing Vet.

Hello Jazzy, Ms. S, Sensi, Kath (have not seen you for awhile. Hope all is well with you), Eeyore, Jwoo, and my other lurking friends.

Oh Mostlymom, I found the picture of the stones they took out of our friend from Nepal. I hope everything went well for you.

The poor friend was kept in the hospital and was not discharged until the next day.

feelingfeline

MammaRay

M0mmyof3

So happy today!!!!! I now only have to see my BS once a year as of yesterday, unless something starts showing up!!!! Another step to normal!!!! I was also given the staging for the BC. I was never a Stage IV

Teka

Debbie (footprintsangel) has a white golden puppy service dog in training named Faithful Grace.

I miss Chevy's banter!

feelingfeline

Where is Chevy and her beautiful garden?

feelingfeline

Good news M0mmy!!

Smaarty

Don't know what these are made of. From Mexico or Cuba.

Me in the morning! At 5!!!!!

sas-schatzi

Life lesson: Do not try to light a joint when you have a paper protector on your nose

Loveroflife

Oh poopoo!

M0mmyof3

Thanks. Just another step into normal livin