please help

barbe1958

(((((((((((((((( Cathi & Jacquelyn )))))))))))))))))))))))))

Sheila, remember you did a lot of lifting at work with all the labels, that could have exacerbated the arm too!

barbe1958

hehehehehe, had to go back and read the last page so I could remember what I wanted to say...

Lisa, my DH and I talked and talked for the first couple of dates. We got to know each other very well, became friends, then lovers and the rest is bliss! Keep us posted on how it works out.

When I realized he wasn't trying to get into my pants, I knew he was looking at it longer term, too.

lvtwoqlt

Barb, with the labels (4"x 6"), I was just folding them in twos (12") as they came off the printer  with my right arm doing most of the movement and the rolls of labels (1000 labels per roll) only weigh about 5-8 lbs each and I only lifted one roll at a time and usually with the right arm (dominant). To load the labels you usually put the rolls on spindle with the right hand and feed it through the slot with the same hand. Fortunately we are done with the major label job, only printing a few at a time now. The arm that is swelling is my left (non-dominant) hand.

barbe1958

I know it's your left Sheila, I was trying to find another excuse not to work....sigh. I hope you get the call you need today, let us know here so we don't have to hunt you down all over the forums.

p.s. I note you say "usually lift with right arm", maybe you did do too much, just like your yardwork. Horrid to think it can happen that easy.  

lvtwoqlt

When I was printing all the shipping labels (before they put printers at the warehouses over 3 yrs ago) I would pick up the rolls two at a time - one in each hand - and stack them up next to the printer but this time printing these labels I was only picking them up one at a time with my right hand. And yes I will let you know when I get the call and what the LE therapist says after the appointment.

Sheila

1Cathi

Girls I think I am going nuts,  I mean really,  I think I need to see GP for something to "settle me",  I hate taking scripts, but I don't know what else to do, between Jaclyn, Ed's business, and me freakin out lately over NO BOOBS,  I should be comitted.  Friday is 6/Mo post MX and I am now so upset over the whole thing, I know I could attempt reconstruction, and attempt it would be, to many healing issues on rads side, I really don't want to go that route, but why now am I so upset over seeing eveyones else boobs flapping in the beach breeze. Ed is more than reassuring the A$$ IS WHAT REALLY MATTERS,  yet I don't always believe it,   I feel like theres nothing out there for me to wear,  my Lung specialist doesn't want me wearing the foobs to much - to much stress on lungs/breathing, and they are so uncomfortable,  I need a bathing suit, and they are stupid and ugly.  Sorry for whinning again, I guess waiting for Jaclyns appointment is getting to me. . 

barbe1958

Cathi ! I know how you feel, you know I do. I have found a couple of really pretty tops that drape from a semi-cirlce around the neck, like ) but sideways, if you know what I mean. Kind of like off a necklace.... They tend to be fuller, have no arms of course and are really pretty. You can't tell what's under them (or not!) Then you wear cute shorts (I've seen your legs in that hammock shot, you go girl!) and you really feel pretty!

Now when I see the boobs flopping around, in my head I go moooooooo. They have begun to look sloppy to me and I never felt "neat" in my large 42Ds anyway.

Someone on another thread mentioned she was told she looks "athletic" with her new shape. That's a good spin. Not everyone has large boobs. Try to remember the other summers. Did you ever get this feeling before you had your mast? I'm remembering that I always felt sloppy and admired women with trimmer shapes. Human nature, eh? 

barbe1958

I hate when people ask a question in a thread "what would you do...." and then they jump all over you! Or someone else in the thread does....why haven't I learned....sigh. Why do I bother posting?

My IOS is a 5 pound weight GAIN! Found out yesterday when they had to weigh me before surgery. I don't get it. I'm down 2 pant sizes! ? ! I think it's water retention from my kidney stone but I take a diuretic with my blood pressure meds, so what gives? Also, I found out I had 13 nodes out, not one! And two had micro-mets. I need a second opinion as I haven't had anything except surgeries and no onc!

Only good thing is that my CT scan is April 29th, only two weeks now....

Wow, I vented! 

lvtwoqlt

Barbe I just followed you where you were jumped on and I have realized that the stage IV people feel that those of us without mets don't think we know what they are going through and are looking for opinions from people at the same stage they are at. I am being more cautious as to what I post and to whom the posting is directed to. I agree that there is a big difference between stage 0 and stage IV and I just read those threads (stage IV) and don't post unless I know the poster.

Sheila

barbe1958

  

Sheila, I sent you a PM so I don't get knocked around again. Thanks. I have communicated with the poster before..... 

lvtwoqlt

I replied to your pm, Please don't think that I was judging you by what you posted. I was trying to justify their position. My mom was dx (2001) with IDC 8/15 nodes single mast and had to have chemo and rads so sometimes the mast doesn't keep you from having the 'full tx'.

Sheila

barbe1958

Didn't get your post Sheila, I know you weren't judging me....

I also know about the full tx after mast, but if she is already in so much other treatment, what would they add? 

portiasproudmom

Barbe, I didn't read the posts you're talking about, but I've learned never to ask questions on the mets board.  I made a remark there after a couple glasses of wine, so I was feeling a bit sensitive, and I got reemed.  I think you actually posted on that thread as well.  No, we don't know what it's like to have mets (not yet anyway--it could hit any one of us at any time), but I don't know why they get so upset sometimes when we ask questions.  It really kind of hurts my feelings--but then, again, I'm kind of sensitive.  Sigh....I thought we were all here for one another--mets or no mets.

Cathi, hang in there hon!  I would kill for legs like yours!  Barbe's right about the shirts that have like a necklace and drape.  Barbe, aren't you wearing one in some of your pics on FB?  You look GREAT in it!  I wouldn't have guessed you didn't have boobs.  Personally, I've always been fairly happy with my small chest.  I'd certainly not trade with someone who wore a DD cup!

Love and hugs,

Karen

barbe1958

Karen, I didn't ask the question, the stage IV did. It was the old lumpectomy/mastectomy question. I threw in my 2 cents worth and got back $1.50.

I liken it to that clique of girls in highschool who laughed when I walked by.

I'm VERY sensitive, especially when I pour out my heart and soul into my posts (except on the Housework thread and there I can have fun!).

Cathi, you get to go shopping! But I know you'll wait until after the appointment with your daughter. I hope all went well with Jacki this afternoon. Please post and let us know. 

lvtwoqlt

I haven't heard from the dr's office about my appointment to the LE clinic so I called to see if I could talk to the scheduler and she left at noon for the day. SIGH!!! I guess I won't get any info until tomorrow. The receptionist acted like she didn't know what type of therapy I was to be scheduled for. I had her leave a message for the scheduler to call me tomorrow.

Barbe, I got alot of those snickers from the popular girls when I was in school. I have learned where I am wanted.

Sheila

Makratz

Sheila - good luck at your doctors appointment.  I hope they can help you arm feel better.

Cathi - You are beautiful, boobs or not!  I can imagine how sad it makes you feel though.  Ed is right (again)! you need to go shopping and find something that makes you feel great.  Being very flat chested, I always had problems with bathingsuits with molded cups.  They looked funny on me because if you elbowed me in the chest, the would invert.   Best of luck with Jacki.

Barb - didn't read it, but we love you!

my3girls

Thinking of Jacqueline and Cathi!! (((((cathi)))))))) I know you need us right now!

 I don't know how I would feel Cathi, if I didn't have my boobs. Honestly....I lied..I do know...I wouldn't feel happy...but that is why I made the choice for reconstruction.  I have always been busty..and I wanted to feel like my "old" self again.  But, you were SO positive about your decision before you made it!  Try and gain back that old attitude and positive outlook about that decision. I know your plate is just very overloaded right now! I can't imagine just dealing with what your daughter has going on..that alone is overwhelming! You are a bright, beautiful and sexy lady...boobs or no boobs...try and remember that.  Love ya Cathi!!

Barbie & Sheila...I have had not such good experiences on other threads. That is why I pretty much just stick with "my home" here!  Plus the fact that I don't have time...barely for this one. But too many people, like Barbie said...are just the "mean" high school girls!

Karen..did you go with DH yesterday?  I think that is when he had dinner tickets right?  How has he been acting to you?

I talked to Mike last night...and then I talked to another guy...Marlon on the phone...omg...he is awesome to talk too.  A father of 4 daughters...so we can relate! He is a strong christian..his youngest is 7...and he is very very involved with her.  I didn't think I would be interested in meeting someone with younger children...but...like my daughter Danni said..'mom..I don't think you should rule that out..you love kids".  So...we are going to meet. I am keeping all options open..we will see what happens.

Back to work ladies.

 xoxo

lisa

portiasproudmom

Go for it, Lisa!  Like Danni said, you have to keep your options open.  You never know.....

The Mariners game is tonight.  I feel kind of poopy today--neck, shoulders, and head hurt.  Also, I'm coughing and my abdominal issues are giving me grief.  Hopefully, I can still enjoy the game.  At least we'll be in a nice, heated suite.  DH has been decent.  I think he feels badly, though he'd never admit it.

Are you kidding, Barbe?  You're not qualified to have an opinion because you don't have mets?  Good Lord!!!  I'm sticking to this thread, and this thread only!!  I don't think I'd even feel comfortable going there if I did end up with mets! 

I'm sorry you couldn't get an appt for the LE therapy, Sheila.  Waiting is such a pain!

I received my share of snickers in high school too.  I was certainly no social butterfly.  It's weird, but I'm friends now with some of the popular girls who used to snub me back then.  Others though, I've run into and they still act like they're better than me.  To heck with 'em!!!!

Love and hugs,

Karen

Edited to add this:  Elaine, you are such a blessing to us.  I know you're heavily involved on the mets boards, and I certainly didn't mean that everyone there has snubbed us non-metsters.  Love you, Elaine!

sueps

Hi Sisters ...I am gonna have a good old read of you all in a minute xxxxx

 I dont come here every day but once evert three to catch up... however I have been so rund down lately.

 Its not good I am afraid... I have cystitis, kidney infection, conjunctvitus ... and very run down... one of my ribs has been hurting for the past 3 weeks .... I was tnegative dx and I know it is probably not good ., All these symptoms I had pre dx 2 years ago

I have thrown in the towel right now... I know it will get me...  and I wont do chemo again as if I do I will have no bones left they are that pain ful and damaged. And I have just been reading some sad posts of recurrances on trip neg...

I have 2 days off work. I am that tired and ill , I feel like giving up ...

I am going to cheer up and read all your news xxx 

geebung

((((((((((Sue))))))))))! I'm so sorry you are sick - glad you have a couple of days off. It's great to see you post again.

Jane xoxo

sueps

ahhhhhh sisters I loves ya all xxxx

I just read back ... I feel like I am @ home here .... I really do.... I have cheered up no end  fankyou!!!!

Hey forgot to say I have an appt with the genetic doobbery wotsit in June for BRCA1 ! WOTEVER YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN??

Karen I love your Easter pics...xx

Cathi... I feel same as you ... an I only have one boob ...lol ....remeber this though BOOTFACE IS GONE!!!

I am so grateful I came here 2 years ago ... and met you all... my friends ... my sisters ...god bless you xxx

And UB xxx 

sueps

Jane I LOVE YOU ...I LOVE YOU ALL....it has done me good to fall out with bootface and stay away from thoughts of the ugly piece of camel shit... but I cant have it keep me away from you ... I miss chatting about so much things... NORMAL OCCURENCES as well as butt ugly bootface smelly shifty camel shit occurences xxx

I truly love you xxxxx 

sueps

I am going to rest as I feel diabolical xxx

portiasproudmom

Cheer up Sue!  I feel like shit too (misery loves company, right?).  My throat feels like it's closing up and my ribs ache.  I hate you--boil-in-a-bag, dirty, filthy, crappy ass bootface!!!

I'm not as good at the rants as you, Sue, but I feel better.

Please rest up and recover from your infection.

Love and hugs,

Karen

geebung

Rest well dear Sue. See you back here when you wake up! xxx

TenderIsOurMight

Dearest Sue,

Checking in on you, as I frequently do, I see you need a smile. I wish I were able to be with you, but between us are many miles. Please rest and eat and read these posts, to heal your body's ills. Please know you always are in my prayers, intercession asked that your worry may be stilled.

((Hug)) 

Tender 

Makratz

Sue - Thinking of you and sending Hugs your way!!  Never give up!

geebung

((((((((((Karen)))))))))), ((((((((((Jaclyn & Cathi)))))))))), ((((((((((Sheila)))))))))) and anyone else who needs a hug. I'm praying you will all feel better and stronger.

Lots of love to you all xoxoxxoxoxox

barbe1958

Chocolate for all my ladies who are hurting (((((((((((((((((((( Hugs )))))))))))))))))))) 

livesstrong

Ladies- It has been a long time since I have posted anything but Valerie keeps me informed as to how everyone is fairing. I have chemo next week...Tuesday and Wednesday, then 3 weeks off. I am receiving a new drug called Treanda and one of the possible side effects are hallucinations. All things considered, that could be a good thing right now. I haven't hallucinated since the ' '70s. Anyway, Valerie doesn't like it when I tell stories of my jaded past. Suffice to say the last treatment left me feeling like I had been hit by a truck. After 9 years, I'm not sure how much more fight I have left. The only thing that keeps me going is Valerie's love and support. Thank you all for your support and well wishes. I sincerely hope that the day will come when we can all meet. I hope everyone has a great summer, or in Jane's case, a great winter. Continue to feel good ladies and continue to support each other the way you all do. Your support in the past has done wonders for Valerie when she has needed it. I enjoy looking at your photos and placing the faces with the names. Does that make any sense? Anyway, you are all beautiful...I especially like your photo Karen, the way your hair is covering your one eye. It has a provocative quality about it. SSSHHHH!!!!! don't tell your husband I said that.

Bill