please help

my3girls

EskimoDoll wrote:

Hi Ladies,

I work for KTUU News in Anchorage, Alaska and was made aware of AlaskaDeb in a roundabout way.  But even before that, one of our reporters is already in Soldotna working on this story.  If you live in Alaska, it will be in our 6pm newscast.  If you don't live here, you'll be able to find the story at http://www.ktuu.com/ sometime this evening.  I'll post a link later when I find out what it is.

 Peggy McCormack
KTUU

Ladies..here is a post from a news reporter in Alaska where Alaska Deb lives.  Just thought many of you would like to know.

honeygirl

Hello all my lovely sisters. Hugs to you all. Lisa , I was so glad you went to Az and got to see your sister and have some fun and relax. And now this. Damn it!!!!!!!! I hate all this so much. I have been getting nervous , cause my mammo is Feb. 27th. I know how you feel about Jan. I was dx in Feb. And all the awful feelings are flooding back. You are in my daily prayers always Lisa. All the ladies and UB are. I know they are just being cautious. But man , it SUCKS the big one!!!! I hope they don't make you wait for results. They have to know what you are going through. Hang tight  , cause I need you to tell me this in Feb!!!! Seriously , Try not to worry , unless there is something to worry about. Love you. Mel

honeygirl

Ladies , I am just beside myself with grief over Alaska Deb. When I get to come here , I just read and cry. I don't know what to say. If ever there was a women so in tuned to life , love , and God , it was her. She made me laugh. She made me cry. She made me pray. She made me believe that we can get through this. One day at a time. I really , really , thought she would beat this. I can't believe she is gone. I feel so bad for her family and friends. I know they are suffering because they have lost such a beautiful , caring , loving human being. Someone who definately brighten their everyday. Deb , you were the sunshine in so many lives. I feel so blest to have met you here. It was so bitter-sweet. Thank you for being you. Thank you for all you gave us. Shine on bright star. You will be in my heart , and mind forever. Love you Deb , Melody

portiasproudmom

Awwww.....Mel, you have such a way with words.  You are one of the most caring, loving, beautiful people I know.  I love you, Mel.  I miss you so much when you're not here, but it's so wonderful when you are!

Love and hugs,

Karen

NancyD

I just watched the video from the TV station. It's made me well up again, but I'm so glad Deb has received such a wonderful tribute. I wish we could do it forr ALL the women who have posted here and passed, but truly, this was special for a special lady.

my3girls

MEL!!! Thanks honey...you don't know what your words mean to me!! I love you Mel..and like Karen said...I miss you when your not here...but LOVE when you are.  I may call you...I think I need to talk to someone who knows just how I feel.

I can't wait to get home from work today and watch the video from the news station. I can't view it here at work.

I agree with you Nancy..Deb was very special..and deserved this tribute.  I too wish we could give it to all of our angels.

Back to work ladies...love and hugs...and "warmth" to those that need it! lol

xoxo

Lisa

1Cathi

I am so sad today, I watched the news clip you posted Lisa, I watched the video you posted Val, and I have been watching one of my favorites all day. Why do so many of us have to die from this???? This is such a sad day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YKEA6T4egfc

my3girls

I can't watch the youtube's here at work..what are they about?  I can't wait to get home and watch the news video. I can't download the adobe video to watch it here at work.

It is a sad day Cathi....but you know Deb would want us to be happy....

my3girls

http://www.peninsulaclarion.com/obits

 Here is Deb's obit that was in their local paper.  I thought I would post it, in case some of you had not read it.

1Cathi

They are both just songs that Val and I did,  if you watch them you better have a case of tissue along with the news clip, I guess tears are good,  my hubby watched the news clip, well most of it............... he walked away. 

I wish I could live everyday by your tag line Lisa, but hell, worry seems like all I do sometimes. 

I hate when I get mad at God, but right now I am.

my3girls

Oh Cathi....I know...I know.  I worry too...very, very difficult not too. That saying, actually (as Sue knows..haha) came from my Ukranian grandmother...my Baba...she couldn't speak English well..but that she would convey..haha. She taught us that if it's not something we can change or control...worry does you NO GOOD.

I will watch all of the videos tonight, with a box of tissues by my side.  I think I need a good cry. I prayed and teared up in the car on the way to work this morning. I just asked God to make me stronger, and help me get throught the next 2 weeks!

I don't think I have told you ladies that Oliver is not doing well.  Ever since his surgery and actually even before...he has acted very strange...he leans to one side..he still won't jump at all..and he is just not OLIVER!  I took him to the doctor and after another 100.00 bill...he gave me meds and ear drops for what he thought might be an inner ear infection.  Well...it did NOTHING. I am calling on Monday.  I want my old dog back!  I am worried it could be something neurilogical. : (

Anonymous

Darling sisters of mine...

Words fail me, so here's a picture. Jule called and cheered my day. My surgery went very smoothly, was home by noon. Two of my daughters and my 16-year-old granddaughter had a slumber pary here, little Connor, his mom and uncle came for a visit. What a party! Still quite a bit of pain, so I'll cut this short. I did watch the news video about Deb. So hard to believe she is gone, such a thrill to see how many lives she touched. I slept last night wrapped in the gift of cuddles from you, and feel your love and support. Thank you so much. Agnes the cat thanks you, too. 

my3girls

(((((Judie))))) So glad to see you feeling well enough to post.  Sounds like your implant surgery went well.  I am so happy for you.  A slumber party....WOOOOHOOOO...how fun!  I am so glad you felt our love and support.   You know how much we think of you and love you.  You are my comfort so many times...and I thank you!

Rest...and come back soon to update us. Love you Judie.

xoxo

Lisa

1Cathi

JUDIE -Just for you -------- xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

sueps

Ohhhhhh Judie ...a beautiful pic...xxxx

Agnes .... looks very warm and cosy ...hehehehe ...shes adorable xxx 

livesstrong

Love that smile....................

geebung

Oh sweet, beautiful Judie - what a great picture - I love your smile! I am so glad that your surgery went well. Your family's love will  help you to heal up. It's so great that they are all around you. Agnes will help you heal too - animals just know when you are not feeling 100%. What a sweet cat she is!

Lisa, I so hope that something can be done soon to help Oliver, the poor little chap. Our furry companions are so precious to us - they give so much and it's horrible when they are not feeling well. I hope and pray that time passes quickly so that you can have the official b9,b9,b9 for yourself.

Mel - it's always a delight to hear from you. I hope things are working out ok.

my best wishes and love to everybody,

Jane xoxo 

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honeygirl

Hi Karen! I love you too! Wow , look at that gorgeous hair! You are soooo beautiful. I bet the hubby has a hard time keeping his hands off you!lol Is your hair still curly , and you straighten it? Whatever , it looks great. Mine is touching my shoulders and I bought a clip tonight to see if I can do some kind of an updo. It still has some curl at the ends. Hope all is well with you and your family. Hugs to Portia and Chase. xxxx

Hi Nancy , how have you been feeling? Did you recoupe OK from that nasty fall you took? Hoping all is well with you and your family. Stay warm!xxxx

Lisa honey , I am right there with you girl! I really think they are just being cautious. They have to. You are just fine. It is just a scary thing for us. We never want to go through this again. So when they order tests , all our feelings of the past come back full force. But thats the way our minds are. We always go back to what we know. But you are fine. Remember what Baba said. Remember her loving arms around you. She is giving you a great big hug and saying "worry is for shit"!  Share my montra with me , " right now , I am well , right now I am fine". We need to get together again. Soon. Love ya girl. xxxx Prayers going up for Oliver too. That precious baby. I hope he is OK. xxxx

Hi Cathi , so good to see you. Sorry you are feeling down right now. I know we all are. But everytime I see your avatar , it makes me smile. You have such a sweet smile , and you are someone that I would love to "hang out with". Maybe someday I will get to Fla. and we'll share some laughter and fun. Maybe we can go to that disco you go to. Are you feeling better? I hope so. Soak up  some of that great sunshine. Hugs to you.xxxx

Hi Judie!!!! Wow , what a smile. It can light up any room. Glad surgery went well. Take care and heal. Sounds like you have a great family taking care of you. And seeing that sweet Connor has to be great for healing! Your Afghan looks nice and warm. Especially with sweet Agnes on your lap! She is soooo beautiful. She does remind me of Lilly. Its so good to see you here. You just relax and heal. Hope you are having a peaceful evening.xxxx

Hi Sue! So good to see you. So you are coming to Fla.?!?! That is great. Maybe I'll be coming to see Cathi sooner than I thought! Gosh , it would be so great to see you and all the sisters here. Let us know when you are coming. Maybe we can all plan a trip to Fla..

How are the boys doing? Hope they are good. Are you feeling better? I hope so. Take care sweet Sue.xxxx

Hi AE! Hi UB! How are you two doing? Has UB heard anything from his docs yet?Your in my daily prayers. Hope you are feeling good. You know what I was just thinking of? That wonder "margaritaville" patio of yours , and I wish it was summer and we were all there enjoying some blue drinks! Who knows , maybe we all will be when Sue comes here!?! Take care you guys.xxxx

Hi Jane! Dear , sweet Jane. How is the mountain house doing? Are you all settled in now? Hows Blossom doing? I hope all is well and you are feeling good. Did you post any pics of your home here? I probably missed them. Are you still going to teach? I hope so. I think you would make an excellent teacher. How are the boys doing? I think I did read that you had a visit with them. And your sister. Thats great. I miss my sister. Maybe this spring I can go see her. Well , I hope you and your sis , had a great visit. Any chance you can come to Florida when Sue comes here? I would just love to meet you in person. I feel like I already know you , I could just give you a big hug and hang out like we were old friends! Take care Jane.xxxx

Shirlann , Fumi , Sheila , Bee , Dink , Kathi , Nana , Kaloni , Jule , Wren , and anyone I forgot to metion , you are all in my heart. Take care , God Bless you all. xxxx Mel

my3girls

Mel...my sweet Mel..

Thank you so much...your words brought tears to my eyes. That is not easy to do..since starting Arimidex..my eyes..along with everything else is as dry as a bone! I love you Mel..and we DO have to get together again! Florida for sure...You are going!! I hope everyone gets to go!

Well...it's only 9pm..but this girl is tired...and tomorrow is my only day off next week. So I am going to relax with my little Oliver...poor guy. I think I am going to do some research on the web tomorrow about his "condition".

Love to all my sisters...honestly...I really don't know what I would do without all of you!!

xoxo

Lisa

Oh..I finally saw the news clip about Deb...how wonderful! God Bless her.

dink

Hi everyone,

I saw the newspaper clipping regarding Deb.  It's a wonderful tribute.  I was trying to see the news video but I gues I'm not smart enough to find it, can you guys help with this?

Leesa

dink

Judy, this is the first time I have seen your picture, you are such a beautiful lady and that smile of yours is very contagious.  Those shiny pink cheecks light up the room.  I needed that today and I am so glad I looked on this site today.  I love your blanket, did you make it?  My sister croshaes (sorry dont know how to spell), and she seems to whip out a blanket in no times.

I have not laughed very much since all of this has been going on but reading everyone's posts regarding their dear little fuzzy ones, I took in my daughter's little LasaOpsa and I have laughed so much and ran through the house.  Animal aare great and I didn't realize how much I missed my last dog A.J.  I have a fish called Henry and I talk to him and he comes to the front of his tank and he sits very still and moves his fins very fast and it's as if he is smiling.  I tell him I need to pet him or rub him and he turns sideways and I rub the side of his tank/bowl.  When I feed him, I open the top and he just sits there and opens his mouth and watches me.  Pets are great.  Sorry, I didn't mean to go on about my little critters.  But I have laughed more in the past month than I have in one year.

Leesa

dink

Mel, you are a ray of sunshine.  You are very thoughtful and sweet.  You have lots of words of wisdom, support and encouragement.  You never forget anyone.  I love to read your posts and see your pictures.

I like the idea of everyone meeting in Florida.  I'm in Texas but I would like to try to meet up with everyone also.

Dink 

Anonymous

Leesa, the afghan is a "hugaghan". I guess there is a group here on the board that knit and crochet squares, then send them to a couple of women who put them together and send them where they are most needed. Our dear Jule requested one for me. It arrived the day of my surgery and has been a great comfort. When life becomes as filled with loss as mine has been, gestures such as this revive hope. Agnes the cat and I are cuddled up in my wonderful hugaghan most of the day, and it really does help!

EWB

Judie

So glad to see you home and are doing well- couldn't help but to smile when I say the photo.   Be well dear one, sweet dreams tonight.

Elaine

portiasproudmom

Judie, the hugaghan is beautiful.  No one deserves it more than you.  Snuggle into it with your gorgeous Agnes, and feel how much everyone here loves you.

Hugs,

Karen

geebung

I love, love, love reading all your wonderful posts!

Oh Mel - so good to hear from you again. I would put pics up but I don't have a camera. I keep waiting for my boys to visit but they are so busy working. Two of them work for themselves and the economic downturn is making things difficult for them.

I WISH I could get to Florida! I would absolutely adore to meet you and everyone else. If I win the lottery I will be over quick smart, then, after we've spent a riotous time getting to know each other I'll check into that wonderful reconstruction clinic (It think it's in New Orleans?) for a state-of-the-art recon and I'll pay for anyone else who wants to go with me!). Lol! And pigs might fly. The most I ever won was $15 from a scratchie!

I am booked to fly to Brisbane to stay with my sister and visit my mother (who is in an aged care facility) in two weeks. She will soon be 92 and she is not well lately. The year she turned 90 she developed epilepsy and today she had two seizures. I may have to cancel my booked flight and go earlier.

Leesa, I loved hearing about your pet fish! How wonderful that he knows your voice and gets a 'rub' from you, the dear little thing.

One of the cute things Blossom does...my house is on two levels and there are glass doors just at the foot of the stairs that I leave open for her to come and go as she wants. If she can't see me when she comes inside, she gives a little trill which sounds as though it has a question mark at the end. (translation: "where are you - upstairs or down?" I trill back to her and she comes leaping up the stairs or into one of the lower rooms, 'talking' all the way. I do love that cat!

Lisa - enjoy your day off!

Love,

 Jane xxx

geebung

Wow - Karen - you're still up! It must be getting late there! I'll have to look at my world time clock and check the west coast time.

xx

PS. It's 9,39pm I think so it's not that late. It'ss 4.15 pm here only it's the 2nd of Feb. 

geebung

I meant 9.15!

portiasproudmom

You're exactly right, Jane.  It's 9:38 here now.  I'm about ready to call it a night though.  I've been pooping out rather early lately.

Love to you, dear Jane. 

Karen

PS  I loved the story of Blossom and her trilling.  Absolutely precious.  I hope your mum is okay.  Poor thing.

NanaOfTen

I'm home, at my daughter's now. Came through. This part of the journey is finally done.

Before the surgery, I was surprised to see what the surgeon marked for removal. I have the port in and am also surprised at this. it's inside me! I thought it would be a tube hanging outside of me. I'll see how it works. Have two drain tubes. The nurse came out to the house yestertoday. They will be coming out twice a week. My grandkids are helping me all they can.

I woke up at the end of surgery  in the OR. my doc said most people don't remember that! I still had the tube in my throat, no meds for pain yet, they were wrapping me up. was not very nice. I remember saying the mantra "oh please, oh please"over and over. they quickly gave me something to put me back out again. Still not eating too much, though dinner tonight was the best i've eaten so far - my daughter is an awesome cook. I slept a lot the past couple of days, that's why i'm only getting back to you now. I had to bug my daughter to let me post last night, LOL She had to help me down stairs. It's not that many .... 6 stairs, I it's making me feel good to be on the computer chatting with you ladies. Though it didn't seem like that much, it was a lot to do so I iwll keep this short and only be on the puter a few moments each day.

I had a pump in the hsp for pain but didn't use it that much, it made me sick. Felt better when they took it out and just game me pain meds. The incision is not as bad as the drains and the port is rather sharp. It hurts a bit. I don't know how many lymphnodes he took out, but my armpit is rather hollow and sore. I find out that Monday - today. The doc said it just took them out - he is not sure just how many. I thought he would know.

So far I'm, triple negative er-pr-HER2- which gives less treatment options, but he said when they test the tissue from the middle, they might find something. If they don't call me by 2:30 or so, I"m calling them to see if they know anything

I really want to go home, but know not yet. The nurse said I'm not even supposed to bend over. It's uncomfortable to do so, so it's easy not to.

I will walk as soon as possible. relaxing as much as I can,

Cheryl