please help

sueps

Oh Ginny ....he will!!! He will know!!!! Gosh thankyou so much for your kind words....I cannot see beyond living without my lil soul mate...he was my universe...there is something about animal bonds...it is ultimate unconditional trust and love.... I dont think I could bear the pain of another...I feel nothing can match Zippy...I have 2 other cats but I am not close to them...my head is so cabbaged and all I want is Zippy xxx

I am supposed to be going on holiday to the Canarys on Weds...I just cant face it now ....

I love ya Zippy and I am lying here...on our fav chair....leaving room for you by my feet like I usually do .... PLEASE HEAR ME BOBS I LOVE YOU XXXX 

livesstrong

Sue - go on your holiday- it will be good for you. 

We have 4 of our dogs with us in our living room, on top of my armoire - each with a picture - I still miss them to this day.  They each brought their own kind of joy to our lives. 

Ginny - WELCOME!!  Stick around,  that are allot of crazy animal lovers here.

AE

 

Anonymous

I see Zippy, too! He is with you looking out for you dear Sue. There is nothing to make grief go away. We just have to walk through it kind of like those people you see on TV that walk on a bed of coals. Stop, and you're fried. You have to keep moving even though it hurts like hell.

Welcome Ginny. I enjoyed your story and wish you well on Monday.

AE speaks wise words, Sue. You and your boys could use a holiday. Zippy will come along.

Judie

1Cathi

Hi All -  HAPPY TRICK-OR-TREAT.  Have been laying a little low the past few days. Sue so sorry about Zippy,  I lost a pet durnig my treatments in 06 - oh I feel so sorry for you. But as AE said go on holiday and when you get back find a new special buddie to love.

Life is grand without the drains, no more pain meds, an ocassional Tylenol, (2 weeks today) and doing well, sore and stiff. I did a total melt down yesturday out of the clear blue. Ed took me up to the store as I wanted to find a few colored cotton A-Shirst to wear under some tops I have, well I ended up having to look in the "nitie" dept,  and out oof left field I just lost it - crying my eyes out, trying to hide from other customers, found Ed in shoes, I was unable to talk, he is not sure if I am in pain or what, finally got it together and did manage to leave with what I wanted.  Not sure why that happened, I have a ton of those things I hardly ever wear anyway - I guess I just thought for a second, well now even if I wanted to buy/wear one I never can. Oh well I am fine now.

Hope eveyone has a great day.

LOVE - XOXOXOXOXOXOXO 

lvtwoqlt

Happy Halloween to all! is anyone dressed up in a costume today? I am dressed up as 'Britney Spears' with a tight fitting black t-shirt (with my filler boobs in place to make me a C cup), bleach blonde crimped wig, black sporty cap, long scarf draped around my neck, tight blue jeans and silver strappy sandles. They posted the picts of all who dressed up for the contest, I have stiff competition from a guy at the warehouse who dressed up as a pink ballerina and Glenda who dressed up in a black nun's habit. Last year the same guy who is a ballerina today won after dressing up in a diaper and bib. They cautioned him about exposing skin today. I will know after 11:00 am eastern who won the $50 prize.

Cathi, we are all allowed to melt down occasionally and seeing all the pretty sexy nities which are made for boobs would be reason enough to melt down. Pretty soon you should be able to shop for your new boobs.

Sue, go and enjoy your vacation. At least zippy's passing didn't happen while you were gone and you were able to say goodby properly.

Sheila

1Cathi

Shelia your costume sounds great -good luck on winning.  I am just lounging around right now - this is my first official day home all alone, Ed is working my daughter is off doing school things with my granddaughter, they will all be here later to trick-or-treat and we will hand out our candy, and dress up a bit.  Love to see the little ones in costume.

Thanks also for the encouraging words on the "nitie" thing also Shelia,  yes I think in about 2 weeks I'll get my script for prosthesis, I have already looked at some.  Now that I am getting dressed again and it is cooler here so have to wear some heavier cloths (light sweaters) not a real big dif in my appearance (my daughter made note of that the other day in a way only daughters can -LOL) I was quite small naturally (neither of my girls take after me for that)- ALA-BARE CHEST, is not all that bad in fall/winter cloths,  will have to do some bathing suit re-thinking, but I am alive and will stay that way for a long time to come.

I am not sure if I am just behind the times, but last night I watched the Breast Cancer Diaries (about Ann Murray Paige) has anyone else seen that, I wasn't going to watch I thought oh another story about "how great BC" is, I was completey amazed with it-  just a ture real depiction I thought of how this disease messes with us on every level.

Well anyway - GOOD LUCK SHELIA - LET US KNOW IF YOU WIN!!

XOXOXOXOXOXO

lvtwoqlt

The ballerina won. I guess he gets the warehouse guys to vote for him. any man brave enough to put on pink leggin pants, a pink bow at his waist, a pink sports bra and a blonde wig similar to mine should win, but his big belly is hanging out!

Donald is wearing his leprecaun top-hat (left over from St. patties day). He said that he is the giant leprecaun from NC.

Here is some Halloween fun, pumpkin carving without all the mess. you may have to copy and paste the link to the browser line to get it to work.

http://www.cubpack81.com/images/carve_pumpkin.swf

Sheila

portiasproudmom

I'm sorry the ballerina won, Sheila.  You've got to hand it to him though--it takes guts to wear a get-up that ridiculous looking.  Especially when you work in a warehouse full of other guys.

Cathi, I watched The Breast Cancer Diaries too.  It really brought back a lot of old feelings.  I sat and cried through most of the show.  She'd say something, and I'd be sitting there nodding and crying because I remember having felt exactly the same way.  I'm sorry that you broke down at the store.  I didn't have a mastectomy, so I can't relate entirely, but I do have scars and my boobs are lopsided now (one nipple points straight ahead and the other points up).  I feel self-conscious about them.  I don't think my husband has seen me topless more than a handful of times in the past year.

Please don't cancel your trip, Sue.  It will do you good!

Well, speaking of pets, Tinker (our dachshound) has been having health issues.  First, she had a UTI, now she's drinking water excessively, and having accidents in the house.  Last night she peed in my bed!!  I've been forced to put a diaper on her.  She's not pleased with me.  This article explains the disease the vet thinks she has.  More tests need to be done to confirm the diagnosis.

Treating Cushing's Disease In Your Dog

Hyperadrenocorticism

Ron Hines DVM PhD 1/16/08

h
Cushing's syndrome is a disease with very distinct clinical signs in your pet. It is also called hyperadrenocorticism. Two small glands, the adrenal glands, that lay just ahead of your dog's kidneys are responsible for this problem. When these glands over-produce the hormones, cortisones, hyperadrenocorticism results. All the symptoms of Cushing's disease are due to this excess of cortisone in the body. Cortisones relax the ligaments of the abdomen and causes enlargement of the liver. This is why dogs with the disease have a pot belly. Cortisones decrease the growth of hair and thins the skin. It increases appetite and thirst, which results in weight gain and excessive drinking and urination. Cortisone decreases muscle mass resulting in limb weakness and debility. The production of connective tissue that stabilizes the joints decreases. Cortisones also regulate the mineral content of the blood.
The adrenal glands are regulated by the pituitary gland situated in the brain. The pituitary produces a hormone, ACTH. ACTH stimulates the adrenal gland to produce cortisones. Occasionally, an ACTH-producing tumor will form in the pituitary gland. This is one form of Cushing's disease. It accounts for 85% of all cases. A second form of the disease occurs when a cortisone-producing tumor forms within the adrenal gland. A third form of the disease is man made. It occurs when a dog receives too much corticosteroid supplementation either in pill form or by injection. Sometimes this is the price of controlling some other serious disease.

Symptoms of Cushing's Disease:
One of the first signs noted by owners is excessive drinking and urination by their pet. Female dogs may have "urinary accidents" at home. Owners sometimes tell me that they have to fill their pet's water bowl again and again throughout the day and that their pet cries to be let out to urinate during the night. These dogs also become more susceptible to urinary tract infections.
Another effect of increased cortisone is increased appetite. Dogs with Cushing's Disease never seem to be full. This constant eating leads to weight gain and obesity.
Cortisone also causes the muscles of the legs to wither and the liver to enlarge so that in advanced states, the dog assumes the proportions of a fat, pot bellied barrel on spindly legs. In this condition the pet's exercise tolerance and activity decrease. It becomes difficult for the dog to jump onto the bed or climb stairs.
With time, the pet's hair coat becomes sparse - especially on both flanks. Hair on the head and legs remains normal. It may take very long for hair to regrow after clipping. The dogs skin thins due to the action of cortisone which causes it to become more susceptible to scrapes and infections. A textbook sign of Cushing's Disease which I have never seen is Mineralization of nodules within the skin (Calcinosis cutis).
High risk breeds for this disease include Silky Terriers, Bull Terriers, Boston Terriers and Yorkshire terriers, dachshunds, and standard, toy and miniature poodles. Female dogs are more susceptible to adrenal gland tumors. Dogs that develop the disease are generally older than five years.hyperadrenocorticism

Diagnosis of Cushing's Disease:
Cushing's Disease is diagnosed through a series of blood tests. These tests not only diagnose the disease but they tell us if the problem is in the pituitary within the brain or within the adrenal gland(s) themselves. Routine blood analysis often show that the pet has higher than normal levels of Alkaline Phosphatase (ALP), Alanine aminotransferase (ALT), cholesterol and blood glucose as well as very dilute urine. If these results and the dogs other symptoms make us suspect Cushing's Disease, we run additional tests: One of these is called a dexamethasone suppression test. The other is an ACTH stimulation test. Both will usually confirm or rule out the presence of this disease and tell us weather to pituitary or the adrenal gland is the root of the problem.

The ACTH stimulation test is expensive, requires hospitalization and is time consuming. Recent studies have shown that another test, the urine cortisol:creatinine ratio (UC:Cr) is equally effective in screening out dogs that do not have Cushings Disease. It is best run on your pet's morning urine collected at home when the pet is at ease. I suggest that this test be run first. Dogs that have a normal (negative) cortisol:creatinine ratios are quite unlikely to have Cushings Disease. However, when the test comes back as elevated (positive), the ACTH stimulation test should be run. This is because a number of other health problems can cause the elevation (liver, intestinal, kidney, heart or autoimmune disease).

This test is also a good way to monitor your pets condition over the years once initial stabilization has been achieved. It is not a good test to use alone when the pet is initially stabilized.

Treatment of Cushing's Disease:
It is not unusual for dogs with Cushings Disease to have other endocrine gland problems such as diabetes or recurrent pancreatitis so their long term survival can be tenuous. If tests determined that there is an adrenal gland tumor, it can be removed. The surgery is quite specialized and dangerous so many veterinarians prefer to have a specialist attempt it or elect to treat the dog medically. Pituitary gland tumors are not usually removed. Most cases of Cushings Disease are managed medically. We treat the disease with Lysodren (o'p'-DDD, which is a relative of DDT or mitotaine) or an anti-fungal drug, ketaconazole. Lysodren attacks the cortex layer of the adrenal gland suppressing the production of cortisols. Just enough Lysodren must be administered or the dog will lapse into the opposite disease, hypoadrenocorticism (Addison's Disease) when not enough cortisol is produced. So dogs on this medication must be closely monitored.
A new drug, Anipryl (l-deprenyl) was approved for treating Cushing's disease in 1997. It does not appear to be as toxic or have as many side effects as Lysodren. Anipril is effective in approximately eighty percent of cases but may take several months to work. Improvement in the dog's general condition is a much better judge of the effect of this drug than laboratory tests.

The Outlook For Your Pet:

If Cushing's Disease is not treated, it can progress to life-threatening conditions including congestive heart failure, liver failure, kidney failure, diabetes and neurological disorders. Dogs with Cushing's Disease are also more susceptible to infections of the mouth, ears, skin and urinary tract. The most dangerous period is the first six months after treatment begins. None of the treatments actually restore normal adrenal function but once the six months period has passed, dogs with the disease may live several more good quality years.

New Developments:

A new drug, trilostane, appears to have great potential in treating Cushing's disease without some of the side effects caused by mitotane. Trilostane interferes with production of cortisol in the adrenal glands without destroying the cells in the adrenal cortex that produce cortisol. The drug is not currently available for general use in the United States. In England it is marketed by Arnolds Veterinary Products of Yorkshire under the name, Vetoryl. The company is attempting to gain FDA approval to market in the US.

Hugs,

Karen

1Cathi

I cried almost the entire show to Karen, a friend told me it was on, and I wasn't going to watch - just fiqured another one that was gonna paint this whole thing "rosey and a cake walk"  Well you may not have  had a mastectomy - but I have also not had to walk in your shoes (like hers on the show) with small children - I'll say it again -  my hats off to you-   I can not imagine the struggles with that  - you are tired and sick - they are not -  and all the other stuff -  YOUR AMAZING!!!  I am having a hard enough time just trying to answer questions for Alexcis (4yrs) why her Me-ma has cuts, bandages, and bottles on my belly W/Yucky blood - and thats not daily.

THREE CHEERS FOR ALL YOU MOMS OF LITTLE ONES AT HOME DEALING WITH THE BC ROLLER COASTER.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

portiasproudmom

Thanks, Cathi.  It wasn't easy, but having my kids forced me to get out of bed and try to keep things as normal as possible for them.  In a way, I'm grateful for that.

Love ya,

Karen

Anonymous

Cathi! Good to hear from you. I wondered how you were. Ah, yes, the good ol' meltdown out of the blue. So confusing, so justified. I'm glad Ed was with you.

Some advice from one who learned the hard way. Despite being a little more expensive, go to a shop staffed with certified fitters when you get your first breast forms. You wouldn't believe the training they go through to be certified. They will guide you to what will look best. No guesswork for you, and they make you feel soooo at ease.

I really disliked wearing them until I found the Amoena Contact Comfort +. It feels like part of my body instead of an add-on. Both the shop (Mary Catherine's) and the Amoena sales rep bent over backwards to find what I needed, saying that they weren't finished until I was happy...which isn't easy sometimes.

End of shameless infomercial. I just can't believe what they did for me and am so grateful.

Sheila, IMO, you won.  Britney Spears trumps a beer-bellied ballerina any day! The vote was rigged! Demand a recount!

Karen, I'm sorry about Tinker. We had a similar situation with our Wire-haired Fox Terrier when she was only about three years old. There would be a puddle on the kitchen floor that looked like it could only have come from an elephant, and she drank huge quantities.

Her problem turned out to be diabetes insipidus (not related to the other, familiar diabetes). It's a lack of a pituitary hormone that regulates whether the body keeps its fluid or releases the excess as urine. When it's missing, fluid just goes in one end and out the other and the body can't maintain its balance.

We had to administer hormone drops into her eye every day. Very pricey, but totally cured the problem. Over a few years, her own system took over and we were able to discontinue treatment. It was so weird.

It's raining in Seattle. I slept late, so will now hop into the shower, then start sewing another outfit for Connor. Such fun!

Have a great day, all!

Judie

1Cathi

Thanks Judie for the advise -I actual visited the "boutique" where I will be shopping the day before I had my surgery - they are all certified and were awesome, I got to squeeze feel and play with them -  LOL .  I am not really that sure how often I will even wear them, I know all things chage over time - but now that I am dressing again -  HECK I don't look all that diffrent  - still "A HOTTIE" (LOL) Just a bit more "Athletic" looking. 

Still have bandages  - but Ed caught me doing a "new sexy" dance the other night in front of my full length mirror -  Crazy -  going from one extreme emotion to the other - but I really-really am good with all this,  I'll just work through those down times and pray they are few and far between.

I plan to start my exercising again this Monday (at least on the other end) , sooooooo instead of 'MOUTH FULL"   - I'll be "BAD ASS

Love yeah Judie  - hope your not spitting all over your computer again.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

debk55

Cathi,

I kinda know what you went thru in lingerie dept my 17 dd wanted to go into Victoria Secret for something I don"t remember and it was just ! week before my mast and I my eyes started to water and I did not want her to see me like that, it was all I could do to get to her and tell her I would wait for her out in the chairs in the mall.  I do not know how I made it with out losing it completly. 

I usually do not post on this thread or much at all but, have been reading since my dx in sept. You all seem like a great bunch of ladies. And Cathi I had my drains in for 2 wks and have had them out 2 wks. It is wonderful but still tender for me when I want to lay on my side. I had a port put in the same day the drains came out and that sucked as I was wanting to feel more "normal" too!!! 

I am having my first treatment as I type. SO far the A went in fine and the C is done now too and I am getting either the placebo or avastin now.  I hope all the meds they have given me keep me feeling fine.  SO far so good!!!!

It is REALLY nice here in Michigan today,  65 and sunny great night for the Kids trick & treating and my 17 dd is going to high school football playoff game. Got to go the social worker just came in to tal. I will update you laler. Have a great SE free night.  Deb:)

dink

Hey Cathi, I'm newto this site, but you can wear what-ever you want to - just be careful.LOL.

I had bilateral mastectomies June 18, 2008 with reconstruction - not what you think it is.  In August I developed an infection in the left expander and it had to be removed immediately.  No I'm like a young teenager and I stuff the left breast (bra) with silicone padding from Sears so it will look to be the same size as the right breast (expander).  Well, I was in a meeting about a week ago and one of the meeting members looked at me then did a second take and smiled.  I looked down and my left breast stuffing was now in the middle of my chest.  LOL I looked at him and told him I was an alien and life is just exciting that way.  "I forgot where the boob was to go."  We all LOL and it really broke the ice.  I was so embarrased but hey what was I to do - it was funny looking.  I went to Lane Bryants and got a "C" cup bra that has slits in the cup and now I put the silicone pads n the slit and now they look even and I don't have to worry about a third boob.  I was well indowed prior to my surgeries and all I can do is laugh and my friends make jokes with me so it doesn't hurt my feelings as much.  My daughter asked me how big I was going and I told her I thought the "C" cup was good enough and she said "OOOOOHHH no you gotta go bigger - my dad likes boobs."  Yes he loves boobs and that was the hardest thing for me - I though he wouldn't love me any more but that was my insecurities talking.  I get down sometimes when I drive 2 1/2 hours every week or every other week now to see my Surgeon but I have learned to laugh about it.    I hope your night goes better and have fun with the kidos.  I still don't wear nitties but I think I might and wear my stuffed bra underneath.  Thanks for the idea - I'll probably chicken out.

Leesa

footprintsangel

Hi Friends, Just getting ready to rest, I wanted to let you know, I am praying for you all. God give you strength at this time. I need to rest having breathing problems. Take care, Debbie

my3girls

Hi sisters!

Checking in from work again!! haha...feels like I live here sometimes.

Sue..honey, I hope you are doing a little better. Zippy is watching over you Sue. He will always be with you! Go on your vacation..you and the boys will love it!

Karen, so sorry about Tinker.  Poor baby. I hope it's all very treatable.  I can't even imagine ladies...anything happening to my little Oliver.  I would be like Karen and keep his ashes, and like AE and have pics up of him forever!  My little man..as I call him!

I went to see Matthew yesterday.  I took Halloween goodies for him and his brother. As I stood on the porch ringing the doorbell...I heard the running of little feet....and and excited..."it's Grandma Lisa"!! Do you know how wonderful that made me feel?? My heart was overflowing! He opened the door and then I got a hug!  Ladies...I am so blessed to have him in my life!!

Cathi...I totally understand the breakdown.  Just seeing those sexy items remind us of our sexual beings. When losing that womanly part of our body, it's normal to feel sad, and seeing the negligee would make us realize that we are now "different".  Even though we aren't...except for the fact that we are better and stronger! I had lots of those little breakdowns after my mastectomy. The first day out, when I had my drain removed..I just wore a sock type filler in my bra.  I was so worried about "everyone" knowing. It was not warrented though..as my girlfriend said..Lisa...you can't tell at all.  I never got a prothesis...I just wore a fluffy in my bra, since I knew I would be reconstructed.  It worked ok for me, for 4 months. You will get to the point (although maybe you have, since your hubbby caught you doing the SEXY dance) where you are confident and feel good about how you look.  Work on those gludes!! Your rear will be envied by all! I was sooooo worried about every showing a man my deformed and mutilated body...at least that's how I felt it looked.  But now...I feel so confident...Dennis has definately helped with that.  He is always telling me how beautiful I am, and how he Adores my body.  Who would have ever thought that?!  I think dear Cathi...you are well on your way to being that same confident women, in everyway!  Judie has given you good advice too!

Sheila...my vote would have been for dear Britney!! You go girl!!

Ok..my day is drawing to a close! Happy Halloween to all!

xoxo

Lisa

ginnysue

portiasprout, you just helped me to understand more regarding the passing of my best friend when you put up the Cushings and dogs.He suffered from Cushings, empesema and osteoporosis.

 I am continually amazed by the wealth of information I am getting here!

 Oops gotta go, I think my first trick or treater is her.

 XXOO

 Gin

sweeeeetpam

           hi There,   Take a deep breath, did they suggest chemo BEFORE surgery, I have the same thing you have and I am doing chemo fisrt to try and shrink the tumor......... I have surgery schuduled Dec 27.  I am 55 and their is no history in my family, you may want  to get a second opion it takes time, but it will make you fill better> Write back if you want Pammie

1Cathi

Hi All,

Thanks for the great words,  most-most of the time I am fine,  last night my daughter said the greatest thing to me with out even knowing it. I just had on a pair of jeans, a orange cotton tank underneath a light weight black sweater (kinda fitting) and she said WOW mom you look pretty sexy -  shes like your just all straight up and down -  she is always teasing me I have no butt or when I did no boobs (she is endowed in both areas) always says I am to skinny, anyway it was very nice to hear  -  Ed says it is an athletic appearence and it is great!!!  Like your Dennis Lisa Ed's love and support have helped so much his feelings, his looks at me have not changed one bit,  I still have bandages (steri strips) over the scars so neither of us has actually seen those yet, but I know it won't make a dif either. 

Well hope everyone has a great weekend - I am off to try and find something HOT to wear for the day -LOL!!

XOXOXOXOXOXO

my3girls

Morning sisters!

Here...at work again.  Not feeling well. Went to bed last night very tired. Woke up this morning..and for some reason I feel as if somebody beat the living daylights out of me!!! I hurt from head to toe, even my fingers ache. My throat is a bit sore, head hurts. I have NO idea what is going on...but I could go to sleep right now, if I was able to. I have the opportunity to leave work about 3 hrs early today, and even though I need the money, I think I will leave!  Go home, and go to bed! I hope it's nothing...and I am sure it's not.  Saw my breast surgeon on Thursday, she said everything felt and looked good (except I was up 4 lbs!!). The weight made me mad...I don't feel like I gained.  Well..starting today...watching (really watching) my intake and cutting out some carbs and any sugars..and increasing my running.  I see my OC on Monday...for my 3 month check up, so hopefully my blood work comes back ok.

Cathi..it sounds like Ed and Dennis are great guys for us to have around!! I feel very blessed to have Dennis...after having not so great to absolutely crazy nutcases for men in my life...this is a dream!!

Back to work...but wishing I could zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

xoxo

Lisa

portiasproudmom

It sounds like you have a flu bug, my dear Lisa.  Please leave work early, drive home carefully, and sleep the rest of the day. 

Welcome to all our new visitors.  Please keep coming back.  We'd love to have you all!

Take care of yourself, Debbie.  I'll pray that your breathing issues get better.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Love and hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Cathi, you are still one hot, sexy mama!!  I used to have a very boy-like, skinny body, without any real curves.  Now I have one very big curve---my GUT!  I hate what this Tamoxifen is doing to me!

Hugs,

Karen

1Cathi

Thanks Karen -  I wasn't on Tamox long enough to experiemce the weight gain  -  I think that was the only SE I did not experience - the others were so severe the Onco pulled me off after 3 diffrent attempts over about 8/Mo,  I wish I could have taken it  - but I was totally unable to function on it he attribuited the severity to being Pre-menapause. Well Karen you look great in your pic -  and hell we all have tummies after giving birth -  and I think just being woman we will never be completely happy-  my honey tells me men like the "soft stuff" (a little meat on the bones) everytime I complain that my, hips, ass or belly are to big.  For being 48, having 2 kids and all this crap I guess I am not to bad as none of us are.

Lisa it does sound  like you have the flu -it is that time of year now.  Get some rest.

I am freezing here in Fla today - only about 75 I freeze once it drops below 80 -  well at least noone can tell through the T-shirt anymore -  LOL

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

honeygirl

Hi ladies. I have some news. My SO informed me , he is moving to Pa. I can go if I want. He knows I can't and don't want to. I need my job. I need my insurance.I have brought boxes home from work all week. I asked my bff if I could still move in with them , till I get my act together. (she had offered before). So I am off on another , very insucure , adventure. I was angry at first. But now , I just feel sorry for him. He stopped eating again. Drinking daily. Hes forgetting things again. And I feel like he will never make it on his own. But , this is his decision , and I know his son will step in if , no when , he can no longer remember anything. If anyone had told me eight years ago , than this is the way it would turn out , I would have laughed. You just never know what tomorrow will bring. The hardest part right now for me , is the fact that I may not be able to take Lilly and Sweetpea with me. My heart is aching. My bff's son has asthma , and is allergic to cats. My bff has two cats , and has to go through all kinds of cleaning when he is coming over. I told her , they can stay in the basement , where I will be staying. But she said , it would get on me and I would bring it upstairs. She said she would talk to her son , and see what he says. I just can't stand the thought of them going with my SO. He can hardly take care of himself. Let alone them. I have prayed daily for God to show me the way. If this is what must be , well OK. But please God , help me to choose the right path. Show me the right way. I have made so many bad choices in the past. But this last one I thought was a good one. It was not. Please Lord , help me to listen to you , my gut , and have the courage and resist making decisions out of fear. Amen.

So ladies , I won't be here much for a while. The computer is his. I will use my bff's computer when I can. Love you all. Please take care.xxxx Melody

Anonymous

Oh, Mel, you are breaking my heart. I'm so, so sorry. Starting over is so hard on every level. I have a friend whose son is severely allergic to cats. Their allergist said that the major allergen is the saliva on their coats from grooming and if you rub them down with a wet cloth a couple of times a day it really decreases the problem. They tried it and it worked for them. Just a thought. I'm just glad you have someone to be with for a while.

honeygirl

Thanks Judie. I will tell my friend about that. And thanks for you concern. Mel

livesstrong

Oh Mel - what can I say???  Let him go, its his decision, right or wrong.  Things WILL get better for you. Is there anyone you know who could foster the cats for awhile? Damn, why does life have to be so hard.

"

AE

honeygirl

Thank you AE. I REALLY needed that hug! I don't know if there is anyone who can give them a foster home. I will ask my son , and if I can't find anyone else , I will let my SO take them , and tell him they will come with me as soon as I get my own apartment. I know he cares for them , hes the one who brought Lilly home. I just get scared knowing he is forgetful , that he may let them out , or not feed them. So that might mean , me keeping in contact with him to make sure they are OK. I love my girls. I can't stand the thought of them being without me and visa vera...

Anonymous

Ulla

hi sisters,,just a quick hello here after i almost killed myself with shopping i was buying dresses and cloths like a crazy,,,

i feel like a child in the 1st day school..

huggs,,kisses,,and much love to all of u....