please help

1Cathi

Happy Friday all, Sue hope you had SWEET dreams, I am a bit on your time these days as I am working with the London Times, sooooooooo my internal clock is a big mess. 

Roderadio I don't think you have gone overboard if what you do works for you - to each his own.

 not matter what or how long we are "survivors" BC has made an impact on your life - it changes everything FOREVER, we get past the mad, sad and scared pretty much I think but it never completely goes away I don't think. 

I had  made alot of adjustments to my life style before BC  -  I had given up "crap food"  -  I exercised anyway (no Arnold Swatzanager) ,  I did my best to live a positive and happy life , but it happened anyway (I suppose I can blame it on the EX - I think I will he deserves it)

I try not to become to consumed anymore over everything - because  for me I have realized that there is just not one thing I do that is 100% SAFE AND "MIGHT NOT CAUSE BC"  I guess I would have to live in a bubble, and even then it would be made from a toxic plastic and increase my risk.  I guess what I am trying to say is for me I try to base everything on my "quality of life" oh sure I don't want to leave this earth before I am 99 -  but that proably isn't going to happen, 

so I enjoy the beach and the sun,  I enjoy a glass of wine (maybe a couple some  days) the Soy (in moderation) enables me to get up get dressed and dance and play with my grandchildren, I read and read, I listen to all of you smart and informed woman and then I make a decision (some times I wobble for awhile)  .  I also truly believe that God has his plans for me,  and pretty much no matter what I do or the DR's - he makes the final decisions,  through all of these issues he is teaching me to be a stronger woman , which in turn teaches my daughters the same.  I spent over 20 years allowing someone else to RULE me and Beat my every thought  and emotion down to the ground.  

Kinda stinks that BC had to be my teacher -but "THATS LIFE!"

LOVE & HUGS TO ALL!!!  XOXOXOXOXO

nowheregirl

Hello dearest family,

           

Sorry I didn't give you any news sooner but there is just too much going on around here.
First of all, as our sweet cyber mom Shirl posted for me, things between me and my sweet Scotty bear didn't work out the way I had wished. But that is all. It just didn't work out but by any means it is not to say he hurt or played with me. He told me that I am one of the best things that has happened to his life so far. He holds a very special place for me in his heart and still love me to bits, not in the same way as I do but still does. No worries I am not a little girl. I am not decieved, scammed or anything like that. I can tell he speaks from his heart by looking into his eyes. We will still remain friends and care for each other just the way we did before we met in person.

               

Of course my heart was shattered to pieces and I had to cry my eyes out like a baby when I was told all this. I am still sad. Could burst into tears anytime. No idea how I will get over this and move forward. But hopefully I will eventually.

            

You would have said it was just too much to go through for a holiday but apparently it wasn't. The real nightmare just started last night.

              

Scotty has been back to work since this past Monday and it's his on-call week so he has been extra busy and I have been mostly by myself during the day. Yesterday was expected to be the busiest day of this week. It was about 3:00 in the midnight (technically Friday) when he finally came home from a 18 hours of non stop workingsince Thursday morning. I was in the kitchen at that time and doing the dishes. I was frightened when I saw him because he was just there standing quietly. Just about when I was to tell him "hey you scared me. Why not say hi?", I realized that so many tears were running on his cheeks, that he was holding his poor little baby girl in his arms. Apparently his sweet baby cat Starbuck who he just got from SPCA several months ago along with other boy cat named Apollo was hit by car and he found her dead on the driveway. We don't know if she was there because she tried to go back home or someone who knew she was his cat brought her there. The only thing I am certain is how devastated he must have been when he came home after having worked way harder than anybody should have just to find his little baby dead. I could never ever forget how awful he looked when he came into the kitchen carrying her in his arms. Just remembering that makes my eyes all teary but it keeps flashing back. I sure cried my eyes out when I figured what had happened, probably more than I should have because he had to pat and hug me when he needed it the most.

               

Of course I am so very sad she died. I too was pretty much attached to her after having spent two weeks with her. So sad that she died alone and it was so cold outside. But I know he feels way far worse than I do. I know why he decided to adopt her and the other cat in the first place. I know how empty and lonely he was feeling at that time and how these two kittens brightened him up. I know how he ended up having to give the other cat Apollo to his ex g/f (long story) and how much he had to miss him. I know how this little girl always wanted to sleep on his laps and how much he loved it. It is just not right and damn cruel.

           

Obviously he is not handling this well (who could???). He apologized to me that he would be very quiet and introverted for a few days, that it would be pretty much affecting the remaining two days
we would be spending together. He is feeling really empty and dead right now in a way he didn't think he would again.

          

I went shopping while he was at work today and bought some flowers and a card. I wrote my first and last letter to his little girl on the card and enclosed my necklace which she liked to play with. I put it along with the flowers beside her in the backyard. He buried all of them with her at his mom's place today. I didn't even need to hear a word from him to see how empty and sad he was feeling when he was back from his mom's. His eyes spoke it all. I held his hand with one hand and kept patting him on his shoulder with the other hand until he fell asleep on the couch. It was just too sad and too much to handle. My heart literally bleeds for him and I really don't know what I could do for him. Prayers would be highly appreciated.

             

xo
Fumi

livesstrong

OH, Fumi - all I can say is I'm so sorry things didn't turned out like you expected.  Sending BIG hugs and LOTS of prayers your way and Scott's way.

AE

portiasproudmom

Oh Fumi!  I'm tearing up at the thought of Scott standing there with his dead kitty in his arms.  How horrible for the both of you.  Poor sweet baby--It's just awful losing a pet.

After reading your post, I'm no longer mad at Scott (my initial reaction was "how can anyone not want our dear Fumi??").  I'm glad that the two of you can remain friends and love eachother even if it's not in the way you would have wanted.  You'll survive this, Fumi.  I know it feels like your heart has been torn out of your chest, but you're going to be fine.  Look at how many obstacles you've already tackled.  We love you, Fumi.

Big hugs and prayers are going out to you and Scotty.

Love,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Welcome to Cathi!  I'm so glad you found us here.  I'm amazed that you have grandchildren.  You look so young on your avatar!  Did I read that you're in your 40's?  I'm 44 and have a five year old.  Sometimes I wonder, "what was I thinking???"  by having a baby at 38.  In a way, he keeps me young.  I'll tell you what though--I feel a lot more tired at the end of the day than I did when my (now 15 year old) daughter was five.  Anyway, it's great having you here.  I hope you stick around.  We're a really fun, tight-knit group and we always welcome newbies.

Hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

I'm so glad you had a restful, dream-free night's sleep, Sue.  My dreams have become much more vivid since my bootface diagnosis.  Luckily, they haven't been upsetting or traumatic. 

Love and hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Ooooohh, guess what Portia and I are doing in a few weeks?  You all know that she's into theater, right?  Well, I purchased tickets for us to see "Spring Awakening" at the Paramount Theater in Seattle.  She is beyond excited! 

1Cathi

Hi Karen,

Yes I am 48 (thanks for the compliment) as that is a pretty recent picture as well.  I have 2 daughters (26&28) and 4 grandchildren  2Girls 4&5 & 2 boys (1 MO &2M0) I started quite young with mychildren.  I spend tons of time with my 4 year old granddaughter as she lives very close so I know what you mean about being alot more tired at this age.  But the luxury I have is when I am exhausted she gets to go home and I can laze out. 

Children are wonderful, I wish I had been a much better mom than I was, Grandchildren are just something else TOTALLY TOTALLY AWESOME!!!! 

xoxoxoxoxoxo - I am happy to be a part of this wonderful group.

sueps

Hello Sisters xxx

Just got in from work...wow what a horrible day!! And I am back in in 10 hours ... I am sooooo tired xxx I have extreme pain under my arm ....must be from last weeks procedure...I am sick of this at the moment...I just wanna feel normal ... I REALLY REALLY DO (

Cathi my goodness you look fantastic ... I love your picture...theres no way I would think you were that age...Your smile is infectious!!

Well I am just going to make a brew...I have just had a quick look at flights to NYC and it would be around £400 return...I am very tempted...although I have now booked 2 weeks off work in November and have no holidays left now until January LOL .... I still havent made my mind up where to holiday in November , however I am now swaying to hotter places because the dark nights are setting in here and a bit of sunshine will do everyone good !!

Fumi it is so good to know you are bearing up, I am so sorry to hear of Scottys cat...how very sad xxx

Much Love xxx 

sueps

Geez I cannot shake this bootface cloud!!!!! I am stuck at a brick wall xxx

lvtwoqlt

sue, just keep knocking at that brick wall and take it down one brick at a time, don't focus on how big it is just try to knock it down where you can climb over it. don't try to do too much at one time, Sue. You need some time for yourself.

Cathi, I am almost your age but I don't have any grandchildren yet. My son is 23 and just getting out of the Navy. I am the younger woman in my avitar, the older woman is my mother who had single mast with chemo and rads in Sept 2001, she just passed her 7th anniversary of her surgery and she is doing great.

I hope all have a great weekend, tomorrow is the NC Foothills survivor luncheon. I went 3 yrs ago with my mom and sister as a guest, 2 yrs ago I helped the local group organize the luncheon and I was an honorary member. Last year was my first year attending as a survivor. Donald will be home about 2:00 am and he will go with me as my guest.

Sheila

1Cathi

Sue don't let yourself go to the "bad place"  do something just for you even if it is as simple as a warm bath and a glass of wine, close your eyes and think about "Chip & Dale Dancers" or something,  I love my hubby to pieces but I always picture him in a SPEEDO -  OH MY (AND HE IS A VERY SKINNY MAN -skinny chicken legs for sure)   Works every time,  just can't help but smile and laugh.

You know what I mean,  and as Shelia said one small brick at a time.  Sue you are only one year out from DX, that was absolutely the worst, even with all the previous biopsies, tests and what not it has gotten better, I know it will for you too.

xoxoxoxoxo 

my3girls

That's right my dear Suzie!! Take it slow...you are allowed to have these feelings..but try and think of your upcoming vacation...get in the happy mode, and think of how much fun you and your boys are going to have. Is your man going with you 3?

Fumi...darling....I am sorry about what happened with you and Scotty...but sometimes things just work out the way they are supposed to. You cry, feel bad...and in time all of that will heal..and someone is out there waiting to be your prince! I am so sorry about his little kitty and how badly he feels.  That is just horrible! Poor thing.

Hi Karen...and you bet that Chase keeps you young! Look at how awesome you look!! He is such a doll!  I bet Portia is very excited.  That will be a fun time for you and her to share!

48 must be a popular age. I am 48 too Kathi...3 daughters, 24, 21 (almost) and 17. One grandson that is 3 1/2, he was adopted...but they consider us family...and he knows me as grandma...couldn't ask for a better scenario than what we have.  I am very blessed.

Well..just counting down...1 hour to go at work!!

Love to my sisters....AE, Jane, UB, Mel, Wren, Judie, Jules..where are you?, Ulla...stop in darling and say hello..take some time from your studying...Sheila, Shirlann..and anyone else I may have missed...xoxoxo to you all!

Lisa

Shirlann

Hi Sue, Lisa, Jane, AE, Wren, 1cathi, Judie, Mel, Jules, Sheila, UB, Ulla, all you precious women!

Sue, if you buy a ticket, let us know!! ASAP, we will need to get ones too.

Our dear Fumi, I am so glad your first days were so wonderful, and who knows?  He may be in a bad place right now and in a better place later on.  We will hope for that.

Oh you babies, I am 73, I have a SON who is 54 and another one about to be 50, little kiddies, you are!  (just jealous) hahaha

Sue, lovey, you are fine.  You are just lifting and hauling like a longshoreman, and the muscles and things have not had a chance to recover from the chemo.  And, before bootface, did you ever have any aches and pains?  Because, of course, now, everything is cancer, where before, you might have ignored this.

I hope all of you sweet ones are doing well, life is good.  Shirlann 

my3girls

 Shirlann...we like being the "babies", cause then you are our "momma"!  I love having you as my surrogate mother!!

I feel the same way Shirlann...my back was achy today...and that is the first thing I thought of. It's hard not to do, but I can't worry...because...worry is for shit!! lol!

honeygirl

Hello to all my lovely sisters and UB. Welcome to Cathi and roderadio. So glad you found us. Wel have a very special "circle of love" goin' on here. And the best part is there is always room for more!xxxx

Well , tgif! I thought I was going to have to work tomorrow , but I don't. YEAH! Sunday , Lisa and I will finally get to meet. I am so excited. I was telling my son that I am having lunch Sunday with someone I met online. He was so funny. He thought I was meeting a guy. I said no way! Its better than that. Its a girlfriend. They last forever! I wish we all were meeting Sunday. You all will be with us though.

Fumi , I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you were hoping. And I am so sorry for Scott's loss of his precious furbaby. Although you already had such pain in your heart , I'm glad you were there for him. And he will always remember that. You are so near and dear to us Fumi. I know there is nothing I can say to make this better. I know there is someone out there just for you. And when you find each other , you will know without a doubt. And he will be one of the luckiest guys ever to get someone as special as you. Just keep taking good care of yourself Fumi , like you have been doing. Love yourself , it shows to others and they can't help but love you too! Like we do. Girlfriends are very special people. We cry when you cry. We laugh when you laugh. We are always here for you sweet sister. Big , big hugs to you Fumi.xxxxx

Sheila , love your avatar. I wish I had one of me and my mom. Sounds like a great weekend. So glad your son is going with you.

Hi Sue! Hope you go somewhere nice and sunny and warm. It really helps the soul. You and the boys need to get away and have some relaxing fun. I think the sun and fun will help chase bootface away. You work way to hard. Try to go to a spa on your holiday. You need pampered.I think it will help you find some normalacy. Love you Sue.xxxx Lisa and I will have a great big hug on Sunday just for you.Cause if it wasn't for you girlfriend , we wouldn't be meeting then! Just think Sue , you're post was the start of all of this beautiful circle of sisters. Thanks Sue!

Hi Karen! Sounds like you and Portia are gonna have fun. I bet she is excited.Hows she doing in school so far? Hope she has a great year. Hows your mom doing? I hope everyday gets easier for her. And you. Love you Karen.xxxx

Hi Judie. Gosh , you have such great words of wisdom. You really should think about writing. You really do inspire me. Hows Connor doing? We need more pics of that little guy! Have you been to the library lately? I think the next time I visit my son , I will go to the library there. Its quite big and old. Just the way I like them! Hope you have a great weekend. Oh , I have to go to the site you post , about the retreat.  Sounds great.Love you Judie. xxxx

Hi Shirlann , aw , so sorry to hear you are having pc troubles. Hope you can get it straighten out. Oh , I met to ask you , did they ever find out what caused the train accident? I haven't heard anything about it since it happened. Hope you and Walt and Cleo and Dusty , are all having a good weekend. Love you Shirlann.xxxx

Hi Jane! Hope you and your girlfriend are having a great time. How is little Blossom doing? I'm confused. Is she now staying at your house? Or a friends? Your still living next to the freakazoid neighbors , right? They better not even think about taking Blossom back. Hope she is healing well. You are such a good soul. If you haven't moved to the mountains , how soon will you be moving? Give Blossom a big kitty kiss for me. Love you Jane. xxxx

Hi Kaloni! So good to hear of you good reports. I hope that helps you feel better. Did you move yet? Do you ever hear from Jackie or Dawn? I don't think they come here anymore. I hope they are doing well and just have gotten on with their lives. Will you still be living close to your mom?

Hope you are having a great weekend. Love you Kaloni.xxxx

Hi Wren , hows everything your way? I'm not sure where you live. I am in Ohio , and fall will be here shortly. Its already gotten cooler at night here. Hope you are having a great start to the weekend. Love you Wren. xxxx

Hey Ulla , where are you girl?! Are you and your DH doing anything fun this weekend? I hope you are fine and doing well in school. I was just thinking of that cute little red kitchen of yours , as I am getting ready to redo my kitchen. Love you Ulla , have a relaxing , fun weekend.xxxx

Hi AE and UB. Hows things going for you two? I wonder how far it is from Ohio to where you two are. Cause I know me and Lisa are gonna want to come there when Sue comes to see you guys.

I'll drive. I love road trips. Unless she comes to see you after you have moved to Fla. Then , will have to fly. Love to you and UB. xxxx

Jule , where are you girl? Are you in love? Better make some time for us!lol Love you ,xxxx

Well everyone , I'm gonna go relax. Sweetpea and Lilly are wanting me to "recline" so they can too. Be back tomorrow. Hugs , Mel

portiasproudmom

Love you too, Mel!!  I'm so jealous that you and Lisa are going to meet!  Gosh, how I wish I lived closer.  I just HAVE to meet all of you someday!  Maybe I'll write Oprah too.  If they get enough e-mails from us, they just have to consider our story!  It would be so perfect for October.  Breast Cancer Awareness month is practically here--the pink ribbons are already everywhere I look.

My dh is out of town for a golf tournament this weekend, so it's just me and the kids.  Kind of nice for a change (don't tell him that).

Love to you all,

Karen

roderadio

honeygirl aka mel, how goes all on your end?  thank you for the warm welcome...i am truly new here...it seems so new that i can't work out the bugs:  posting a reply always tries to force me to do it in bold...i successly undid the bolding but it wouldn't work this time so, aplologies to all if this messes with your eyes; and what's up with being allowed only post 5 replies per 24 hour period?  and how do you post pic's?  it's a shame to be young enough to be in touch with technology but not fully grasp it...lol...i had my dreaded mri this morning...popped an ativan pill beforehand which had me sleeping all afternoon...i'm so glad it's the weekend, that way i can sleep in and try not to think about the upcoming multi doc conference on monday and separate meetings with breast surgeons for a 2nd and 3rd opinion...this whole business with trying to be strong in the face of adversity is tiring...oh, but before i veg out on the chaise, gotta commend mel for the poignant point made:  "love yourself, it shows to others and they can't help but love you too"...SO TRUE...smile as much as possible because you never know who is watching and may be positively affected by it...

portiasproudmom

So true, roderadio.  Relax and have a nice weekend.  I know you're probably dreading the appointments next week, but you'll get through them.  We don't have a choice, do we?  We just have to muddle through.  God Bless you as you start your journey.  We're all here for you!

Hugs,

Karen

Anonymous

roderadio, if you're using Internet Explorer, try this:

On the "General" tab, under "Browsing History" click on "Delete", then on the first choice, "Temporary Internet History", click on "Delete Files".

Be back later...

Judie

1Cathi

Hey all, wishing a "groovy weekend for everyone"  We are back to the 70"s this evening to a local "MATURE" disco lounge,  we don't go out like this to -to much,  but 2 glasses of wine and let the band begin and I don't sit down until my honey drags me away.  I guess he is thinking keep my mind very busy this weekend, we see the surgeon Tuesday and time to discuss and schedule the mastectomy.  Funny thing kinda hard sometimes to follow ones own advise I know that I am ready and I absolutely am making the right decision, but still is sad that such a decision has to be made.  I suppose I can compare it to the passing away of my parents - both so vey sick "it was expected" but still made me cry and it wasn't easier because it was expected.

As we are not 20 anymore both of us find the need to nap before heading out this evening,  Gosh where did that time go the days when leaving home at 10PM for a night out  was the norm -  now it is 10PM bedtime!

LOVE TO ALL

my3girls

Melllllllllllllllllllllllllllll..............just checking in to be sure we are on for tomorrow.  I sent you a pm...to decide the exact time for lunch!  Let me know!! Can't wait!!

xoxo
Lisa

livesstrong

Cathi - I had to laugh when I read your post.  How true!!  I am 53 and have and old friend that still plays in a band,  He always invites us to go and see him.  But most times he doesn't come on till 9:30!!  I'm usually heading to bed by then! lol.  If this was 30 years ago I would be just getting ready to go out.  Too funny.

Lisa & Mel - you better have someone take pictures tomorrow.  I wish I was there with you both.  Mel, can you come to NYC in October?  Lisa & Nancy - its a date for the 19th.  I can't wait.

 bbl

honeygirl

HI roderadio , I'm sorry you are having trouble posting. I never had that happen , yet.lol Sometimes , I know I can speak for the others too , I have wrote this long , long , involved post , and hit submit , and by golly , it gets lost in cyber space! And Lisa had trouble for a while , with text appearing on every post. Judie is a whiz though when it comes to giving great instructions for helping with computer problems. Fumi too.You need to have an account with photobucket to post pics. Fumi has great directions to get you started there. If you already have an acct there , just upload a photo , or choose something from photobucket and use the direct link and come here and click the tree above and follow the directions. Good luck with your mri results. I know how you feel about trying to be upbeat all the time , especially in the beginning when everything seems to be bad news or stuff you can't understand , but have to make some fast , major decisions. And if one more person was to tell me , "you will just be fine" or oh my god , are you gonna die" or My aunts cousins boyfriends sister had that... I just wanted to rip someones face off!lol Hang in there. This all sucks. But you have all of us by your side. And between all of us ladies and UB , we have a lot of experinece in it all. I'm glad you have some ativan. I like xanax. It helped soooo much. And still does when those "black thoughts" come seeping in. Have a relaxing and try to stay calm weekend.xxxx

Hi Cathi , sounds like lots of fun. A night of retro disco!

 Have fun! I know what you mean about getting old. My dad use to call me "the night owl". I would not leave the house until 11pm to go out! Now , like you said , I'm in bed before 10pm! Life is funny that way. OK , take that power nap. And disco till you drop.xxxx

Judie , where did you go? OK , right now I am gonna go to the retreat site... 

honeygirl

Wow Judie. That seems like an incredible retreat. I'm so glad you are going. Sounds like something we all could use. Yes , we would have a blast if we all could go. Well , maybe if I win the lottery before then , we all will go! I can wish can't I?xxxx

Hey everyone , I am in shock. I got in the mail today , a BILL from genomic! WTF?! In March of 07 , I talked to  two people from there that said , I would not have to pay anything. That my wages were of such that I didn't have to pay. And I said , listen , I don't have this kind of money. And they  needed to tell me if I was going to be responsible for it , cause then I wouldn't have it done. They reasured me I didn't. Well , today I got a big stating my insurance paid 500.00 and I have to pay 3,000.00!!!! Man , my bio rhythms are very low right now. That came after my SO last night told me he plans on moving back to his hometown before the holidays! He knows I can't leave my job right now. Cause he said "do you want to go too?" And like I said , he knows I can't. And he knows if and where I do move , it will be to Tennessee to be with my family. And I said , don't you want to go to Tenn. with me? My family all welcomed him with open arms. And he said "no , why would I want to go there?" Before , he said yes , he would like to. To get away from the winters here. Now , he wants to move to the hills in Pa. Where the snow is just as bad!?!  His last statment last night was " I was born there , so I will die there". Well , he just had a MRI , cat scan , and pet that we would all love to have the results of. Is it the drinking that has gotten to him? I'll tell ya , between him and my outrageous bills , weight gain , gas prices , food prices , I am about to go bonkers! I wish Charlie Brown would take his @#$%! dark cloud back so it will stop following me! OK , Mel , calm down. Look out the window at the beautiful wild flowers. Purple , yellow , white , red. Breath deep. Grab one of your SO's beers and sip quietly. Ahh , thats better. Better days to come. Like tomorrow. I get to meet Lisa!!!!

 OK Lisa , I will try to calm down. And I will try not to kling to you and say , Nooooo , please don't make me go back when its time to leave!lol

lolololol. OK Lisa , I scared you enough. See you tomorrow. I will be the one in a blue Kia sportage , sweating! See you there.xxxxx

my3girls

Mel...honey...omg...that bill can't be...a year 1/2 later and they are now sending it?? WTF!!!??? Don't worry about it....and if your oh doesn't want to go with you to Tenn..and he wants to move to Pa...sounds as if he has made plans without you.  I don't like that! After all you have done for him! All of these things seem overwhelming right now...but you are right..think of happy things...and go there...don't dwell on these. Tomorrow we will hug and talk, about good times...or whatever your little darling heart desires! Then...we can have a drink or two...long before we have to drive and enjoy ourselves and laugh..much needed laughter!

I drive a silver Toyota 4runner...so look for me...and NO...you didn't scare me...it would take allot to scare me away!  I have been looking forward to meeting you for 10 months! And...if you don't want to go back home...come with me...I have extra bedrooms!! haha.

Hey...you should go with me to NYC to see Nancy and Val.  I can get you a buddy pass..it would be 100.00 round trip.  Think about it. Nancy..someone told me that place that you mentioned..the Blue Fin..I think...is nice, but expensive. Maybe we can have one drink there and go somewhere else..haha...my budget is kinda tight. We will figure it out...and have fun doing whatever together. ( I will talk Mel into coming too!!!)

Ok...back to work...less than 2 hrs left...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

xoxo

Lisa

honeygirl

Hey Lisa , I pm'ed you again. But you already answered my question. What kind of car you have. Dear sisters , thanks so much for inviting me to NYC with you. I would absolutely love it. But my budget is in the red right now. Maybe after the new year. I have never been to , and it has always been a wish of mine to go to NYC. So , you ladies check out all the cool places and I make it the next time hopefully. xxxx Mel

Shirlann

Hey Mel, well sort of, the engineer never applied the brakes.  The freight train did.  The few people that had minor injuries were in seats facing AWAY from the front end, you know, those back to back ones.  The rest of the people flew through the air like missles and ended up in a heap of bodies and body parts in the front of each car, piled 8 feet high, it was horrific.  The front car, of course, fell on it's side and telescoped. 

The engineer was gay and his lover committed suicide 5 years ago.  (That has nothing to do with anything) but he was texting 2  -  14 year old boys 1 minute before the accident.  They had been down to see a demonstation of some kind regarding the train.  They have the time clearly on their cell phones.  Who knows?  Just a goofy accident.  Of course, no seat belts, same as on school buses, even if you want them.  

We went to see, "Lakeview Terrace" it was goood.  Really good, also "Burn After Reading", a Coen brothers film, was very good, and Elegy (sad but good) with Ben Kinglsley and Penelope Lopez, she ends up with breast cancer!  YIKES  We also liked "Swing Vote" and "Vicky, Christina, Barcelona", a Woody Allen film. Tropic Thunder was awful, and so was Righteous Kill.

Nothing much else going on.  Hugs, Shirlann    

honeygirl

Hi Shirlann! So good to hear from you. That is just to horrific and sad about the train crash. Its really scary to think that one cell phone call , or text can mean missing a signal. I can't help but to feel that there are some jobs that should banned having a cell phone on. This is one of them.

Wow , you see a lot of movies! I want to see Burn after Reading. And Elegy sounds good. I never cared for Woody Allen films. The only one I saw that I liked was Hannah and Her Sisters.

Well , everyone , have a good evening. ttyl.xxxx Melody

Anonymous

Hey, I wanna go to NYC, too!!! Would you believe that there is a person as attractive, charismatic, and worldy as moi has never been east of Butte, Montana? How sad is that. Maybe it's because in reality I'm ugly, dull, and reclusive...

I have, however, been to Maui once and Australia once.

Anyhoo, I'm with Mel in the budget department, so you guys had better lift one for me, and the toast had better be a good one (as in hysterical, raucous, or both...no sentiment allowed).

On the good news front, I get to meet a sister next week...so there. I'm heading east of the mountains (Washington State is "un duos partes divisa", pardon my Latin, by the Cascade Mountain Range. The left side is liberal, the right side is wrong...er...conservative. Any congress between the two requires going "east of the mountains" or vice versa) to visit my baby boy Devin and my sister Jule!!! I head out for the 5-hour jaunt in my '88 Honda Accord jalopy on Thursday, return on Saturday.

Did I tell you that the retreat is totally FREE? Three days in heaven, free of charge all on account of cancer. Hey, you gotta suck what you can out of old bootface. All I have to do is drag my sorry a** to Hood Canal...another long drive. I beseech prayers, meditations, chants, visualazations...whatever you choose...that my old but loved vehicle survives that long.

After sharing my stuff, I'm too spent to care about the rest of you, so I'll close. OK, so I lied. But I do have to run and will try to get back later. I do have to tell Fumi that I'm so sorry. I know how it feels to lose the promise of love for life and no one can say anything that makes it any better. Only time will heal, and waiting for healing of a broken heart is even worse than waiting for test results!!! You have, however, added one more person in this world who loves you. That can only be a good thing. Hugs to you, and to Scottibear in his loss. Life is too tough sometimes. You are in my heart.

And hugs to the rest of you wonderful people!

Judie