please help

sueps

Hello Sisters xxx

I hope you all had a great Independance day...it sound so much fun ..... I wish I could be there with you celebrating...  please accept me in spirit...oh my if only I could transport myself !!!

I am still crashing from the chemo...and it is getting VERY annoying!!! arghhhh I try my hardest to stay awake....

I dont want to lose any of you or this thread...please know that I am itching to meet up....xxx

Much love DOROTHY .....HEHEHEH XXX

portiasproudmom

Hi Sue!  Hi Kaloni!  Kaloni, i think we all fear a recurrence until we get to the point where we feel somewhat secure again--like Shirlann.  Whenever I start to worry, i think of Shirl and my MIL (she's 11 years out).  Survivor stories like theirs is what gets me through the scary, rough times.

Ladies, I may not be around for a few days.  My laptop has totally died on me.  Windows won't load, so there's a serious problem.  When we had to have Portia's operating system reinstalled, it cost almost $300!  I really don't want to spend that kind of money right now.  Sigh.....

Take care everyone!  Hopefully, Portia will let me on her computer to read posts.

Love and hugs,

Karen

Anonymous

Karen

If I were closer to you I would reload and repair you laptop for you....I use to work for Gateway as a repair tech, as well as compaq and emachines....You might also check with Judie since she is closer...she's pretty computer savvy and probably knows how to reload them too...

Just a thought..Im not sure how much it would cost but if you would like to ship it to me I would gladly fix it for you. I cant believe they charged you $300 just to reload a computer!!!

I hope everyone had a wonderful $th of July holiday and are enjoying their 3-day weekend.....

Jule

nowheregirl

Hi people,
           
Just dropped by hoping this gives some hope to you,
especially to those are relatively new to this shitty disease.
          
         
Three years ago today, on the 7th July of 2005,
I was dx'd with breast cancer.
I thought I was given the death sentence.
I called my mum immediately
but she couldn't cope well at all.
I ended up being bashed when I needed the words of comfort the most
for not getting myself looked at by a better oncologist
when I first realized symptoms
so that I could have been treated a year earlier.
I hanged up the phone in tears and called my ex husband.
It was the worst mistake I ever made.
I wouldn't tell you what he said
because it would only remind me of the worst memory.
So it wouldn't be wrong in saying that I was totally alone literally
and feeling like I was in the darkest tunnel
and would never ever see the light again.  
     
              
Today I have marked three years of survivorship.
In the past three years,
I have seen so many women leaving behind their families,
yet I am still here alive even though I have no one to leave behind besides my cats
nor do I have anyone to look forward to growing up.
But I have decided to cherish every moment of my life for those who had to go
instead of feeling guilty for them.
I believe that it's our mission to live our lives to the fulluest
for those who had to go way too soon
because we have been given time to live,
which sadly didn't happen to them.
        
        
I am still here, alive and kicking.
I am pretty much the same silly woman as I was before cancer.
So girls, rest assured that you will soon be where I am right now.
Life may seem to be filled with crap at times
but it does have some good in it.
Like the fact that you are still here surrounded by many friends who care for you.
Enjoy every minute of your life and don't be too sad.
There are so many more years ahead of you.

With tons of hugs,
Fumi

Shirlann

Oh Fumi, you are so wonderful.  I can't believe you think that your precious self is not needed in this world.  Your strength and courage are a huge help to everyone that knows how hard and lonely your BC journey was.  I know, and I think of you with love and admiration so often.  I love having a friend in Japan,  I would love to spend more time in your lovely country.

We had one day in Nagasaki.  First we went to ground zero, where a few Japanese veterans had petitions for "No More Nuclear Weapons", Walt and I signed immediately.  I was only 10 on that day the bomb was dropped, but I will never forget the pictures and the grief stricken people.

Then, we walked up a lovely path of paving stones.  Up ahead were a giggly group of school children about 7 or 8.  All in uniforms.  Beautiful children, they all ran into a store and Walt and I went in too.  They had just amazing things.  First, they had coca-cola in bottles with a ball in the top.  I looked at them, puzzled, and we bought 4 for our grandchildren.  They had adorable small glass animals, different things to eat.  It was such a lovely scene, we took pictures.  Well when we got home, the grandchildren were so thrilled with their cokes.  When opened, they fizzed the ball up to the top, and my kids were awestruck!  It was amazing!  We don't have them here!

Across the street was a store that sold nothing but super gorgeous, elegant plastic jewelry.  Odd and lovely shapes, of every kind.  I bought one, and I just love it.

I guess I felt like I was in Oz.  What a lovely country.  You are one lucky lady to live there.  

So I guess I just need to say you are a treasure to me and one of my dearest memories of this site.  And some day, maybe I can go to Osaka.  

Sincere congratualtions on this 3rd anniversary, you are an inspiration! 

Love you, Shirlann 

livesstrong

Fumi -

Please feel free to come here ANYTIME and talk to us.

Love ya,

Valerie 

Ka-Loni

Hi Sue Sweetie, You have a Lovely thread here. And, I read Shirlann's posts alot. She is a great lady. Yes, that makes us three Triple Neg's here. I am too. Yes, I am trying to move on from BC. But, Emotionally, it is a real scary thing. One thing, I do need to change is my eating habits. I love Sugar.I have such a great fear of Cancer coming back. Yes, I do try to stay Positive, and live in the moment, too. One day at a time for me here. Ha. And, I hold on to my great Faith. Me and God have alot of private talks. Ha. I have Faith in you. Yes, Chemo is rough. But, you fight and stay strong to the end. You too will see the bright light shining at the end of your tunnel. It peeks in and out, you know? And, then there is more. And, then it is there for good. You will make it too. It is coming. The light is coming closer to you sweetie. I am so glad I came back here. I want to help you fight this battle to the end. Take Care sweetie.

If you ever need to PM or just Email. Please do. I am here.  kkelley39@yahoo.com

God Bless,  

Love, Kaloni

Wren

Fumi,

Thank you for the lovely post. Your words and your presence are inspiring.

I appreciate so much all that you have done to help us all here.

Thank you so much!

I have never been to Japan but I would love to go. My daughter has been as an exchange student to Takaktski (I can't spell it) and Abuno, and Kyoto, and others.

We have also hosted teachers and students from Japan through an exchange program for several years. I have enjoyed all our guests and learned a lot.

My daughter hopes to return to Japan and learn Taiko and other music. She is studying opera singing/performing and hopes to become an ethnomusicologist (specializing in Japanse cultural music perhaps).

My older son's girlfriend also has a college degree in Japanese studies and has lived in Japan. She also hopes to return there to teach after she is done with her other college degrees.

My dad said Japan was one of his favorite places when he was in the Navy and the ship would stop there. He loved Tokyo.

In August it will be one year since my diagnosis and I am just happy to still be alive and have new reconstructed breasts. Thank goodness for early detection!

Hugs to you all!!

sueps

Hello Sisters..xxx

Fumi...it is so good to see you ....your post is beautiful....really beautiful .... I hope you are having a lovely day....xxx

AE and UB ...... ohhhhhhhhhhhh....OHHHHHHHHHH.....I wish I lived near ya ....xxx

Wren you have done really well in 12 months..... it will be a year in Sept for me...even tho thus time last year I remember the ugly freaking bootlump !!!! and how ill I felt GRRRRRR xxx

Well I am still crawling into work....my achey achey bones are wearing me down...and my right wrist on my bad side feels broken!!! It is very painful to type....

I just want you all to know that I am thinking of you every day....and remembering all our bonding moments.....and thanful for all your amazing support.....truly truly thankful....xxx

I can't wait to see you all..... it will never come to soon .... I have started to put money away .... and I am going to buy a map of America to study and pinpoint where you all are.... xxx

Much much much MUCH LOVE .....  XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

sueps

Karen xxxx

My laptop is driving me up the wall...my mouse keeps whooshing across the screen ...and it takes ages to steady it..... I need a new one...before I launch this out the window ...lol....its really annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope you get yours fixed soon.....we will miss you loads!!!

xxxx

lvtwoqlt

Sue, it is good to see you posting, I am sorry about the se's of your chemo. I wish I could give you some good info on chemo but I didn't need it. Hope you feel better soon.

I know somebody said that the fireworks upset their dog. We went to the fireworks in Lenoir Friday night and when we got home Penelope was beside herself and her eyes were bloodshot from crying. Neighbors evidentely had set some off and the past few years I have stayed home with her, calming her whenever they go boom. She reacts the same way when there is a thunderstorm in the area.

Sheila

geebung

Sue, I'm so sorry you are still feeling the ill effects of the chemo. They must have given you such strong doses of it over so many long months. I hope it won't be too long now before your body recovers. I love your idea of getting a map and planning your trip to the US.

Kaloni - it was so great to hear from you and I am so glad you are feeling so much better since your last surgery. The fear is always there - sometimes filed away while you get on with life and other times creeping back...

Lisa - wow! Great to hear that you had a date and it went well. It's so nice that you could talk so easily with this guy. Hope you meet lots of nice ones and somebody special - he will be very lucky to find you.

Fumi - thank you for your wonderful post - you are inspiring and kind. I wish so many good things for you.

Karen, I hope you can get your laptop fixed soon. You are a precious part of this thread. 

Shirlann - you have so travelled to so many exciting and diverse countries. I love hearing about your travels.

Wren - I was so interested in hearing about all the Japanese links in your family. Your children sound very bright and talented. You have done so well this last year with all your surgeries. 

AE & UB - hope you are having some good moments. Any advice on stripping my table and making it look good? 

Sheila, I hope Penelope has recovered from the fireworks. My last dog (Thelma) was terrified of thunderstorms and fireworks. I used to keep her in on New Year's Eve and play cheerful and quite loud music in an attempt to drown out the noise and distract her.

Yesterday my sister & I took "Klaus" to the vet to have his shots and to discuss de-sexing. The vet commented that he "was far too pretty to be a male" He had a feel around and said "It's a girl!" So I am thinking of maybe calling her "Possum" or "Ntombi" (Zulu for lady) or  "Mineau" or "Minoo"? (which I am told is French for meow!). It's funny because we were just discussing (the day before) that she did look feminine but I didn't want to upset her by having a really good look!) I had hoped to get a female cat but when "Klaus" came along and insisted that I adopt "him" I loved "him" straight away. So now I have my female cat and I'm very happy!

 Love to everyone,

Jane xxx 

Shirlann

Oh Jane, that is hilarious.  We had a puppy stroll into our home about 30 years ago.  I, being the resident know-it-all, whipped the puppy upside down and told the family this is a boy!  So we named him Bruce.  Well he was a she.  She lived in our home and our hearts for 14 years.  She went skiing with us (she stayed in the condo) she went to Baja camping with us, she loved the mexican dogs, no leashes at all, just sand water and fun, she had so much fun she wore the skin off her pads. We had boats, she went on every trip, and she got seasick if it was really rough.   She went camping with us.  Finally, when all 4 kids had left home, she went with Walt and me to Big Bend National Park.  She stayed in hotels (the ones that allowed dogs) and we had so much fun with her.  The day I had to put her to sleep still makes me cry.  I have had many dogs since, but none lived my life with me or was such a big part of raising those 4 kids.  Many a tear fell in her brown ruff.  She was a wonderful, wonderful mutt. Well, I gotta stop, I am tearing up.

Hugs, Shirl 

my3girls

Sisters...I need your prayers and support. I am sorry I have not been here much lately. Busy..but now it is something else. Yesterday after 15 months of not having a period..I woke up and I had started..I was dissapointed and confused..esp. since I am on tamox!  Well...it got heavier and heavier. I have cramps and back aches.  Today I had my surgery...nipple and revision on my breast. I was awake through all of that, and it went well. But this bleeding is really, really heavy!!!!!!!!!! I am changing my tampon (super plus) every hour...and that is almost not often enough. I called my oc and gyno...they called in a progesterone to help slow down the bleeding, but I have to go see my gyno..she wants to do an ultrasound and blood work. I have to work tomorrow..so not sure what to do.  I am so tired and weak! I am kinda scared too!  My oc..said this is not normal at all. She said if it gets any heavier..to go to the emergency room! On a lighter note...I have another date with the same man on Thursday..we are going to a cleveland baseball game. Hopefully I can go.  I have met online 2 other guys that look interesting. One is 8 yrs older...but I am attracted to him.  Who knows..we will see. I love all of you...and hope you are all doing well. Sorry for not reading everything...I am just kinda out of it. Love to you all! xoxo Lisa

Ka-Loni

   Hi Sue, I am popping in a bit of light for you today. I am sitting here, mulling again. I am one of those people that is constantly thinking.Ha! Well, I am going to my Breastcancer Doctor today and she will give me my new results on my Right Breast Mammo and MRI I had done last week.I am keeping my Faith that it is clean. Yes, the Fear is there. But, I keep Positive and Strong, and keep the Faith and Hope.Have a grand day All! Bye.

God Bless,

Love, Kaloni   

livesstrong

Lisa - please get the bleeding checked, it does sound excessive.  (((((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))))))) I swear it sucks being a woman.  Please keep us posted.

Sheila - I can so relate to your Penelope story.  I had a mixed breed a long time ago that hated loud noises.  She would hide in the bathtub and I would go in and put the overhead fan on to block the noise and sit with her until it was over.  She would shake like a leaf.  At the end of her life she even jumped when I would turn the TV on!  Poor creatures.

 Sue - by the time you come over here UB & I might be in Florida.  We'll be about an hour or so away from Disney World.  The boys would love it. You can come and stay with us to save money!!  I'll even have a bedroom for you!!

 Gotta get back to work,

bbl,

my3girls

Thanks Val!!

I called my gyno last night, and she called in some progesterone to take. It helped!! The bleeding has almost stopped completely!  I am going today for an ultrasound and blood work to see what is going on. 

Grrrrrrrr.........and I was doing sooooo good!

 Have a good day to all my dear sisters! Much love to you all.....you are my rocks!!

xoxo

Lisa

Harley44

Lisa,

Glad that you got something to help slow the bleeding.  Good luck with your ultrasound.  Let us know the results.

I have to get an endometrial biopsy in two weeks, because my ultrasound showed that my endometrial stripe is thicker.  I'm only 45, but I'm post menopausal, and now I'm having some problems with cramping and a little bleeding, so I'm worried.  I left a message for my gyn who I saw last year for my mammo, ultrasounds and my pelvic exam, and I'll see what she says.  The nurse said that she may be able to fit me in sooner.  But if my drs. think it's ok to wait, I'll wait til July 22nd, and my pcp will do the biopsy.

Hugs,

Harley

lvtwoqlt

Harley, before my bc I had some abnormal periods and my gp would not do anything about it, he said that I was just getting older. I went to a GYN and she did the oc cancer blood test, tv ultrasound, and the endomentrial biopsy. fortunately all were negative (I had an aunt who died from undiagnosed OC - only found and treated mets until autopsy). Good luck on the biopsy.

Lisa, glad your period from He** is easing off.  good luck also on your tests.

Sheila

my3girls

Sheila..thanks...the thing is, with me being on tamoxifin, I am not supposed to have periods..and definately not severe bleeding like this.  I hope the tests today, give me some answeres.

Leaving here in a few minutes to have them done.

xoxo

Lisa

lvtwoqlt

The 6 months I was on tamox, my periods were very irregular, skipped a couple of months and when I did have one it was very light. Since I have been off of it (1 yr) my periods started returning to normal but lately, they have been heavy for 3-4 days then I spot for 7-10 days. I know not normal and I should get to the gyn. I am due for my physical next month.  My sister, who has not had any problems with bc, had a couple of periods from he** and ended up anemic almost needing a transfusion before they would do surgery to remove her uterus. They left her ovaries but she thinks that they are starting to reduce producing estrogen.

Sheila

AnneW

Lisa, Tamox does not stop your periods, but if you were definitely in menopause before starting it, then ANY bleeding post-menopause is abnormal. There are a handful of women your age who go into a temporary menopause after chemo, and their ovaries "wake up" somewhere along the way. Could be what's happened to you. I'll keep my fingers crossed that the biopsy is okay, though.

Sheila, we've had a houseful of guests and kids all week, and my poor big orange kitty Murphy was terrorized by them. His favorite hiding place is under the guest bed, where the grandkids were staying. They kept trying to pet him, and he couldn't take it. He went under that bed during one of our afternoon thunderstorms (he's a big wussy-pussy!) and I couldn't get him out for the life of me when it was time to put the kids to bed...Poor guy. Most everyone is gone now, it's thundering again, but now he can hide in peace!

 Family reunions are fun but exhausting. I'm voting for a cruise next time, so no one (especially me!) has to do the cleaning and the organizing and the buying and the majority of the cooking and cleaning! Whew. Love 'em, but glad to see 'em go. Even the grandbabies got me worn out. I'm a low-energy type person--entertaining and being "up" all the time really drains me. I need my quiet time!!!

I hope everyone is having a good day!

Anne

portiasproudmom

OMG, Lisa!  I'm finally able to read the posts from the past couple of days (Portia is watching TV).  I don't know if you recall, but last week I had a period too.  It was by FAR the heaviest period I've ever had.  I totally saturated a tampon AND a pad that I was wearing for added security within an hour.  I've never bled that heavily.  I was afraid to leave the house.  I'm on Tamox too, and I didn't think I was supposed to be having periods.  It's finally gone away, but I'm going to talk to my onc about it at my appt tomorrow.  It really had me kind of freaked out.  I hope your tests come back with good results.  I'm sure we're both okay, but it's just so scary, isn't it?  ((((((Lisa)))))).  Hope it helps to know that you're not the only one having these issues.  Love you, sweetie!

Well, I'm taking my laptop in tomorrow.  I talked to the tech yesterday, and he said that it sounds like my hard drive has gone kaplooey.  Jule, why would this happen to a computer that's less than two years old?  I'm wondering if it's even worth having it fixed.  I'm scared to hear how much it will cost.  We don't need this extra expense right now.

Have a wonderful day, everyone!  I hope to be back again tomorrow. 

Love and hugs,

Karen

Anonymous

Karen,

Be careful taking them at their word......alot repair shops say that when all it takes is an fdisk/reload of the system....it takes 8-10 hrs to complete a load that way and I think they feel it is cheaper in the long run to replace the hard drive...with it being a laptop it will be more expensive.

geebung

((((Lisa)))) & ((((Karen)))) - I'm so sorry you are going through this. Heavy periods are scary and exhausting. I had one last year that went for nearly a month but that is just my stage of life...I hope your gyn gives you reassuring news soon Lisa. Karen - hope your onc is able to give you a reassuring explanation. I hope you get some satisfaction with your laptop.

Oh Ann - your poor orange boy! He is used to a quiet routine and suddenly he has to contend with an invasion! I'm glad he is relaxing now that life has returned to normal. I've read that people generally fall into two categories: one type of person is energised by lots of people, talk and socialising, the other type needs alone time to charge up their energy. I enjoy spending time with people but I then I need to have my alone time. So I can understand how you feel about your guests.

Shirlann - I loved your story about Bruce! Did you keep calling her Bruce after you discovered her true gender?! Bruce is such a masculine name and to think of a female called that just cracks me up! It sounds like she was a wonderful character and gave you much joy. 

Hi to Jule, Kaloni, Harley, Sheila, AE & UB, Sue, Wren, Ulla, Melody, Judie, AnnNYC and everybody else.

Love to all,

Jane xxx 

Shirlann

Oh yes, she was Bruce till she left us.  And to top it all off, my dad died and my mom re-married a man named Bruce.  hahahaha She would lay on our bed in the evening, and if you put your head on hers,and hum a note, she would hit the note on the head, then, you could go lower or higher, and she would move to whatever note you were on.  Sighh, I still miss her.

Oh AE & UB, I can come to Florida easily.  They have a non-stop from San Diego, I will get a hotel and get to be with all of you.  It would help Sue to stay with you, I know, she is still working.

Anne, DEFINITELY, we took a cruise for our last reunion.  It was a 7 day out of San Diego for $549 each, no air.  If you book 10 cabins with most lines, you get one free.

Kaloni, hope you are in a better place, sweetie. JUST STOP WORRYING, GIVE IT TO THE WORRY WART~~~~

Ah yes, well here we were, flown in by float plane to McNeil River Falls, on the Katmai Peninsula in Alaska, in a tiny pup tent, with 5 other couples.  We went to see the Grizzlies.

We hiked into the river on the second day, 3 miles in the mud.  We waitied on a "bear viewing platform" and soon, a mom and her two cubs came right down the trail and walked by our spot, the ranger got a little nervous, and said "shoo" to her, she charged him.  He picked up his rifle, but she backed off.  We saw 21 bears, 4 big boars, and they fished about 30 feet from us.  This particular bear had the two cubs and they sat and watched her.  After a few hours (we could not leave until the tide turned) the two little ones began to play with each other and a stick.  Mom turned around and as hard as she could smacked each of them.  They sat right back up and watched.  They only stay with mom two years, and if they don't learn to fish, find the berries, and all the other stuff, they don't survive.  It was amazing.

We got back to the campsite it began to storm.  The float plane could not get in to take us back to Homer.  I had only brought enough heart pills for Walt for 3 days and only enough food for 3 days, on the 5th day, they could fly in and get us out.

I will see if Fumi will post a couple of pix.

Hugs, Shirl 

livesstrong

Just checking in to see if Lisa posted.

Also I think today was Nancy's surgery - hope all went well.

 Hugs to both of you.

AE 

honeygirl

Hi ladies and UB. Sorry I've been away for a while. I came and posted a couple of nights ago , but of course , I lost it. I was to mad and frustrated to write again.

Wow Lisa , I am sorry you are experiencing this bleeding. Hoping your tests are all clear. I know heavy bleeding is no fun and can be very worrisome. I know it is a chemically induced menopause , but my onc said you can still have a period , light , spotty , heavy , just like women who go through it naturally. I think the only reason I haven't bled yet , is because just before my dx of bc , I had an emdometrial ablation done. I had it done because my periods were so heavy. Much love and hugs to you Lisa and Karen too. I hope you get and answer and some help soon.

Shirlann , love the story of Bruce. What a precious little darling she was. And what an adventure you and Walt had in Alaska! What funfilled and interesting life experiences you guys have had. I am in awe of you two.

Hi Kaloni! Good to see you here. Good luck with your test results. I hope everything is b9 , and will help lift your spirits.

Sheila and Anne , we can add my Lilly to the list of "under the bed" furbabies when the storms hit. Poor little thing. Yesterday we had bad storms and she didn't come out until bed time. I just wish they could understand so they wouldn't be so scared.

Sue , hope you are feeling better. Hugs to you and the boys.

Nancy , hope all is well with you.

Hi to everyone else.

Love and prayers to you all. Melody

Anonymous

I just finished setting up my internet connection in my new place. Talk about withdrawal! It feels like forever. But now the bells are ringing at the cathedral across the street, the sun is shining, a nice breeze is blowing through the apartment, and I'm online. All is well.

Life: Load car to the gills with previous tenant's (son's inlaws) stuff. Drive to son's house, unload, fill car with my stuff. Drive to apartment, unload, crash. Next day scrub, clean, put away, organize, feel good. Repeat sequence every two or three days, including satisfaction when progress is made, despair when the next load is dumped all over progress.

Sunday is the final push. I've managed to move almost everything so it will just be the big stuff.

Fumi, you spoke my heart. Thank you. Sometimes it's hard to keep going, to find purpose. You are inspiring.

Inspiration. That describes all of you. My thoughts are with each of you, though my weary mind can't sort out who is going through what. Of course, my mind clears dramatically with the word "computer". Pure geek, I am. Karen, forget the tech!!! Bring the machine here. You can take frequent walks to bring us lattes and food. I actually get to slow down until Sunday. All it would cost is gas...hmmmm...would that be more that a local tech fee? lol Think about it. I'm serious. PM me and I'll give you my phone number and we can talk. 

 Ulla, I especially want to respond to your concern. Your love is totally evident to me whether you come here or not. Your need to back away and take a break is understandable...normal, even. I did the same for a long time. We all care deeply about you. Guilt is unnecessary girl!!!

So much to say, so little energy. I don't know when I've ever been so tired for so long.

Judie 

my3girls

Well ladies, it 's late and I will be quick. My g/f took me out for a much needed girls night and some drinks...to drown my sorrows. My surgery on Monday for my revision and nipple construction went very well! I was awake..and even got to see myself opened up!  That was weird. My bleeding got extrememly heavy on Monday!! I went to the gyno on Tues and had a vaginal ultrasound and blood work done. Did not call for the results of the bloodwork yet, since I was in Atlanta all day for a meeting.  The ultrasound did not go well. I had this done in April, and I had cysts on my left ovary and my lining of my uterus measured at 9, but the biobsy she did, did not show pre-cancerous cells. Well this time the cysts on the left ovary were more than 2 x the size they were in April, and now ther are cysts on the right side and my uterine lining measures a 15!! Wtf!  She didn't think I needed further testing...what is that?? So I called my oc..and she was concerened about those results, said it could be pre-cancerous, or I could need my meds changed to regulate the hormonal imbalance.  She wants me to have another biopsy done!! My question...DOES IT EVER END???????????? I cried yesterday...I have been feeling so good, doing good..actually ready to date...and now this!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont know sisters what do you think.  I am trying not to worry...but GOD!!! Sorry....I am so fustrated right now.  It's late and I need to go to bed.  I actually have a 2nd date with the same man.  I think he likes me, not sure how I feel.  I am more on the friend mode right now.  He is taking me to dinner and an Indians baseball game tomorrow night. At least that will get my mind off of all of this. I love you sisters and I am sorry I haven't been around much lately. Please know that I think of you all everyday..and hope you are all doing well. xoxo Lisa