please help

portiasproudmom

Gosh, Nancy.  That really stinks.  I'm sorry for you, but I'm also very sorry for your sis.  I hope her bootface hasn't returned!  Why doesn't anything ever go smoothly and as planned?  Sigh.....

Like Shirlann, I'd be there in a flash to help you out if I didn't live on the other side of the country.

Hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Ladies, I need prayers again please (I know--broken record).  My dad was getting better for a couple of weeks, but has now regressed.  He is having trouble with all of his daily activities--even eating.  Yesterday, my mom left him to bring in the mail, and when she returned, he found him in the bathroom where he had completely soiled himself.  He just couldn't get into the bathroom quickly enough without her there to help him.  Neither he or my mom have slept in DAYS.  He panics when he lays down and feels like he can't breath.  I told my mom to just let him sleep in the recliner, but he doesn't really sleep well there either, and she doesn't sleep at all.  Today, he is so depressed he is refusing to eat or take his medications.  He just wants to die.  I understand why he's feeling depressed, but I'm also angry!  He's being very selfish!!  My mom has called their gp to get his antidepressant dose increased.  I hope this helps.  It's just all very frustrating for everyone.  Please keep us in your thoughts.  Thanks everyone.  Your support always means so much to me.

Love and hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Oh!  Guess what?  We ended up buying a TOTALLY different house!  No need for any of you to be jealous, because this house isn't nearly as extravagant.  My poor dh was so stressed out--it just wasn't worth it to try and build the other one.  We could have done it, but it would have been a serious financial hardship, given that I want to go to nursing school in the near future.  This one will allow us to keep enough money in our savings for that.  Once I'm working, we can always think about building one of the other homes.  We've even talked about buying some land in the mountains and building a smaller version of the other house (with fewer windows--I wasn't thrilled about the window washing prospect either...LOL!!).

I'll post a picture of the one we selected.

Hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Well, here it is.  Not nearly as impressive as the other, but I think we'll be happy with it.  It's a rambler, but the floorplan is very open--just like we wanted.  It's plenty big for us too--about 2,400 square feet.  We've ordered a huge patio for out back too.  I think we may put in a full outdoor kitchen.  We wouldn't have been able to afford that with the other place.

I'm off to go yell at my dad.  bbl.

lvtwoqlt

Just popping in to see what is going on. 

Karen that house is great. I wish that mine looked that good.

Nancy, what type of surgery are you planning? there are several threads on the sugery topic about what to expect and what to do to prepare for surgery. I have put several hints on there and keep bumping it to the top.

Sheila

Shirlann

WOW, this is gorgeous too, my, my you will have wonderful memories.  What fun, now you two, enjoy this, no buyers remorse!

Hugs, Shirlann 

livesstrong

Hi All!!

Nancy - I wish I could help but I didn't have that surgery.  I think Lisa did, with only her DD with her.  Maybe she could shed some light on it.  Sending prayers your way for your sister.

 (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Karen))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) - I will keep your family in my prayers, as well.  The new house is BEAUTIFUL!!!  I'd move there in a heart beat.  Good Luck!!

 Gotta go walk, bbl

AE 

portiasproudmom

Thanks for the hugs, AE.  I'm feeling a bit better.  My dad ate some soup this afternoon, so the lecture must have done some good. 

You're right, AE.  Lisa did have only her daughter Olivia to help her out after surgery.  I'm sure she can reassure you, Nancy.

Hope everyone's having good moments today!

Love and hugs,

Karen

Shirlann

Karen, honey, as a life long (since the age of 2) anxiety, depressive, panic attack person, your dad, if he is in the condition I have been in so often, cannot help himself.  It is not a choice to be so sad, nor can you do a lot about it when you get so down.  You just want to die.  I know, I have been there.

Upping his meds is a very good idea, and some Ativan or Valium for the "break through" times helps too.

So try not to be mad at him, I understand this is totally out of love, but he can't help it.

 Hugs, Shirlann 

geebung

I posted this morning but it didn't seem to stay there - very strange. (((((Karen))))), I'm glad your father is feeling a little better. I totally agree with Shirlann - he doesn't mean to be like this. Depression just takes over. My mother has been depressed for years but refused to take anything for it. (What good that did her or those around her?) When she was looking after her second husband (my dad died when I was 25 (he was 74) he became increasingly self-focussed and unconsciously selfish even though he was a sweet old man. My sister and I were angry too so I think I can understand how you feel. The whole situation is unfair, sad and stressful for everyone involved. I will keep you all in my prayers. I love the new house! It's still pretty big. When will building begin? Life is full of light and shade isn't it? Just as well we have some sunny bits!

((((Dawn)))), would it do any good to insist that your brothers do a little more to help? Sometimes men just don't get it and things need to be spelled out clearly to them! I forget if you are having a mammogram or lumpectomy - with or without recon? I cannot give any suggestions for a recon because I haven't had it. I think I had a pretty easy time after my surgery. I had a seroma with the lumpectomy which resolved itself and after the mx, I had a lot of fluid buildup and an infection but apart from that there wasn't a lot of pain. I was rather weak though for the first week or so afterwards and a bit weepy once or twice.

Love to everyone

Jane xxx 

portiasproudmom

I know he can't help it.  I've battled depression on and off for years too.  I could never hurt myself though because I know it would kill my parents and kids (maybe even my dh--lol).  I guess I don't understand how my dad can talk that way when he knows how devastated we'd all be.  

My dear SIL had a customer at her work today who volunteers for the state, helping the elderly and those who care for them.  He told her that there are tons of programs out there that could help my mom and dad.  My mom doesn't want him in a nursing home, but it's just too hard taking care of him on her own.  Especially when he falls (which is often), and he can't get back up on his own.  She and I are going to go over there tomorrow to convince them to seek some assistance.  Wish us luck--both my parents can be rather stubborn. Gee, that must be where I get it .

Thanks for the supportive words, Shirlann and Jane.  I love you guys!

Hugs,

Karen

NancyD

Karen, I hope you find a program that can help your parents. My prayers are with you. Caring for the elderly in my family has become an increasingly more important thing, too.

Ladies, thanks for your support. I am more worried about my sister than I am of myself, really. They told her that there was no cure for her cancer 16 years ago...that it would come back 15-20 years down the road. The only treatments were surgery (which she had) and radiation, which she refused because it would have effected so many things other than the cancer (brain, eyesight, olfactory nerves, salivary glands, thyroid...basically everything from the neck up). I'm hoping that it's just her prothesis that is causing the bleeding, and that a refitting will take care of it all.

My younger sister has stepped up and will try to stay here, but she can't stay more than a day or two after I get home from the hospital. She has to call her boss to see if she can get the extra leave time, but doesn't feel it will be a problem. My surgery is a week from today, and I don't think they'll keep me in more than a couple of days (bilat mx; no recon now). After she leaves, it will really fall on my daughter to care for me...I'm not sure how soon I will be able to drive, so things like dr's appts are the critical needs, so I'm glad she got her license in May. If things fall apart in the house for a month, well, that's just the way they'll go.

Don't you know things come in threes? Well, yesterday morning, my sister-in-law's father (who always joins us for our reunions) collapsed at breakfast at his hotel and had to be taken to the hospital. He was fine shortly afterwards, but they won't release him until a cardiologist sees him today.

Now, to counteract all that negative news, we had a fun time yesterday. We drove into the city to see the Waterfalls sculptures that were built along the lower East River. Then we went to Chinatown for an early dinner, and some shopping in SoHo. 

Going to the beach was voted down today...I guess everyone was worn out and it's a two-hour trip. But we're going to hang out at my brother's pool and go to the drive-in movies tonight.

NancyD

Thanks, Sheila. I'm reading those threads religiously. I did get some good ideas about how to set up my bedroom to make things easier.

geebung

Hi to all you wonderful ladies and gentleman. It's quiet here at the moment. Thinking of all of you right now and hope you are all having some happy moments.

My darling sister is arriving this afternoon and I am so looking forward to her visit as I haven't seen her since early February. She is bring her 8 year old grandson down to her son for an access visit. 

I have been  busy painting the outside of my house, specifically the coloured parts (window frames, front door etc). I quite enjoy doing it and the weather has been great - dry, cool and breezy. Next job is stripping my old table. Any advice anyone? Sue - did you stain, varnish or oil your table? As it is oak I would like to keep the colour as natural as possible. 

Sue - summer holidays are coming up for your boys. Are you able to have any time off?

Ulla - I often think about you and wonder how you are.

Karen - praying for you and your dear parents.

Nancy - I do feel for you and your worry over your precious sister. What a lot you have on your plate right now. I hope your younger sister can get the time off to give you some help and support. 

Kaloni - how are you feeling? I hope you are recovering well.

UB & AE - love to you both.

Lisa - I know you are working too hard - when do you get some time off?

Melody, are you still getting up at 3am? Makes me tired just thinking of it! I hope you have some time to relax. 

Sheila - hope you are enjoying your week off (I know you are going into work each day for a short time). Is your dh home for any of that time?

Judie - how are you going with your move? Am looking forward to hearing from you when you have a moment.

Wren - hope you are making steady progress with your healing.

Jule, AnnNYC, Ann in Colorado, Lucy and anyone I may have missed,

Love to all of you dear people,

Jane xxx 

Anonymous

Hi my Peeps,

It's a quick stopoff at my son's to pick up more of my stuff and check email. I hate getting so far behind. I've just read everything since I left, but don't have time to think and respond to much, but Sue, hang in there girl. I'm sorry you have to feel so much pain. You, too, UB. Nancy, I can relate to that feeling of having no one to help out. I spent five hours in the ER Monday all alone. I've never done that before. (I'm fine...just stress.) I have to have someone take me home after my colonoscopy in a few weeks. I'm used to having a partner. Heck...who does these things? Grrrr. Great house, Karen. Tender is, as usual, on top of things. What a gal!

The move is moving along. I'm staying in the apartment as of Monday, taking things there every day or so by the carload. I installed a closet organizer yesterday, getting a load of clothes today. Big move is still weekend after next. I'm beyond tired but very optomistic.

Love to everyone...and I mean everyone. Mel, I haven't gotten back to the library yet...too tired...but hope to get there soon.

Judie

lvtwoqlt

Nancy, after my bilat mast with recon last year I was by myself in the evenings and at night. My dh had planned to be home with me until Wed but his (adopted) father was admitted to the hospital with end stage liver cancer the day I was released and he wanted to stay with his family at the hospital, though he did stay with me the first night. My mom came by every day to help me around the house cleaning and taking me to appointments. If you follow the suggestions on the surgery threads, you will do fine. I found out the hard way to get the non-child proof caps. fortunately my mom had a collection of non-child proof medicine bottles at her house and brought several to my house and we were able to peel the labels off my bottles and put them on the new bottles to identify the medicines. btw, I sent you a pm about after surgery camisoles.

I am off this week but my hubby is driving, he should be home tonight and be here tomorrow for the fourth. Saturday we are going to his biological father's house for a cookout and fireworks. I could have traveled with him this week but we would have had to put Penelope in the kennels at the vets, and since she was there once this year already ($130 for 5 nights) we could not afford to board her again and I would not have had the chance to earn a little extra income.

I saw Earleen Tuesday about my tattoos, she is great. She said that they weren't really that bad, just bad techique. she did some touch up to try and correct the color problem (orange tinge) and the dark ring around the edges. Anne, she said that when you come in if we have a chance she would like to go for lunch in Asheville with us and discuss your options.

Need to get to work now.

Sheila

livesstrong

Where is everybody????????????????????????????????

Shirlann

I hear ya, most especially, where is SUE???

I will PM her, I sure hope she is okay.  Dang those people for putting that littly bitty girl on a trial, are they all nuts?  She is a single mom who has to work.

I will see what I can find out.

SHirl 

honeygirl

Hello everyone. Boy , was it a rainy day here today. Now it has cooled off , and the sun is trying to shine. I need to mow the lawn , but I think it is still to wet. And I need to dye my hair , get a rub on the ribs , clean , shop , awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! I hate when I get overwelmed with things to do. I end up doing nothing. Does anyone else have that problem? It seems like too much is going on in my head , and I end up thinking , wow , I can't do all this" , and then I do nothing! Help! Man , I wish I was one of those people that can just do it all and not think twice about it. I feel so mental...

Well , I am having a long weekend. So maybe that will help me. And , I just realized , at my last onc appt. , they were suppose to set a date with another doc for a colonoscopy.(thanks for reminding me Judie) But , no one ever called. So I guess Monday , I better call and find out whats going on. Geeze , don't I have enough to do , now I have to do what the doc's office is suppose to do!?! OK , I feel better. I have a feeling , if I did have my periods , this would be a pms moment!!

So , are all my USA sisters getting ready to celebrate our Independence Day? I bought a "smoker , grill" and am gonna try my hand at smoking some ribs. I can't wait. I have a gas grill , but missed the taste of a charcoal. So I thought I would buy one , and I found this charcoal grill/smoker on sale at K-mart so I got it. I always wanted to try smoking meats. Last night , I tried out the "grill" part of it and grilled some steaks. Yummmmmoooo!  And I got a "chimney starter". Wow , those things are great. I was grilling in no time. I hope you all have a safe and fun 4th of July.xxxx

Gosh , I am trying to remember all the posts. I want to wish all of you having a hard time right now , my prayers and good wishes. Hope you all feel better soon. Sue , I hate seeing you still having such pain after finishing chemo. I know you had a larger , longer dose of it than some of us. Maybe it is just taking longer to "come back". Healing hugs to you my sweet sister.xxxx

Karen , I really like the second house better. That is just my own feelings. They both are beautiful. The first one just had to many windows for me. And it didn't seem as "homey" as I would like. But , the second one does feel homey to me. And it fits your financial plans. You must become a nurse first , then you can build that house if you so wish. I always thought I would be a nurse. But at 51 , I feel to old to do it now. So please , don't wait to long , like I did.xxxx

Judie , OK , I know I said don't strain anything lifting , I guess I should say , slow down! Stress can hurt just as much. I'm glad it wasn't anything serious , but please , take care. I want you to enjoy your new place. Not looking at the four walls of a hospital room! OK , end of sermon.xxxx

Nancy , oh good luck to you honey. I think your daughter will be able to help you just fine. Try not to worry about it all. I mean , you will get everything you need before surgery. And you won't be going anywhere , except to doc appts. and your daughter can take you. I've read that a mast. without immed. recon , is a shorter recovery time. The biggest pain in the a$$ is the drains. And make sure you take your pain meds on time. Don't wait until you are in pain to take them. Then as you heal , you will know when you can cut down , or go to aleve or tylenol , or whatever you take. You are in my prayers and thoughts Nancy. Will you be having chemo again after your surgery , or are you done? You have a great outlook , and you are gonna be just fine. Post any questions you might have , we will help you with any and all.xxxx

AE and UB , hope you are doing good and UB , hope your aches and pains are subsiding. Man , I wish we could all be together tomorrow in you backyard , grillin' and chillin' with some blue , fruity drinks listening to Margaritaville! Lighting our sparklers , and having UB let off some big boomers! How much fun would that be!?! xxxx

Hi Jane! I hope you are having a good visit with your sister. It will be so good to see her again. My sister wanted me to come visit her for the 4th. But , I just don't have the money or vacation time right now. Good luck with your table. Yes AE and Sue can give you some tips. They both did a beautiful job on theres. Oh boy , soon you will be in your new mountain home! I can't wait. I am sooooo excited for you and hubby. Don't forget to take Klaws with you!xxxx

Oh Karen , how is your dad doing?  I hope he is better real soon. It is so hard to go through this. I know when my dad was in the nursing home with his disease , he would be "out of it " most of the time. But he would come back to reality momentarily , and the last time I was with him he asked me to "get his coat and take him home". Oh God , that was sooooo hard. I had to say , I'll be back . And I wasn't. And I thought of all the times , growing up , he had held my hand and was there for me. And I had to leave him , and not take him home. It is so hard when our parents get ill. I will pray that your dad will be feeling stronger and well soon.xxxx

Hi Sheila , I hope you and your hubby and family have a fun and festive holiday.Sorry you didn't get to go with your hubby , traveling for the week. But I know one little girl that is happy mommy is home with her. Doggy hugs and kisses to sweet Penelope. Its sounds like Earleen is gonna be able to help with the tattoos. Thats great. When will you have them done? Good luck!xxxx

Hi Lisa , how ya doin'? Sounds like we may have to wait till August to meet. Unless I get a "wild hair" and just drive to your door and say "hi , here I am"!!lol I hope you are feeling better. Hey , how about posting some pics of your vacation? Love ya. xxxxx

Shirlann , Wren , Jule , and everyone else hope you are having good moments. Love you all. Mel

I want to be the first to say ,

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portiasproudmom

Wow!   It's been a busy couple of days.  We had my mom's 80th birthday party over here this evening.  We had a barbeque, but the weather was so crazy overnight and this morning, that we didn't know if we'd be able to follow through with our plans.  We had major thunder and lightning storms.  I think they said that the east side had huge hail.  Crazy!!  Anyway, it ended up being nice this afternoon, so we were able to have our party outside as planned.  It was nice--I think my mom had a good time.  I haven't seen her smile as much in weeks.

Have a Happy 4th, all my sisters from the US.  Love and hugs to everyone. 

Sue, please check in with us, Sweetie!  Ulla too!

Karen

Ulla

hi sisters,,

today i will have my chest x-ray ..plz keep me in ur preyrs..

i miss all of u,,but i have made my mind to get myself lil bit away from the bords,,

i need to take anything related to bootface out of my mind be4 i become crazy,,

we still do those long walks through the wood by the lil river in our charming town,,its very healing..i will try to post some of the pic i took there..

i just need to know that u all understand how i feel ..and howmuch i do love u..

geebung

Hi to all you sweet ones. I will be brief because I have my sister here and have a lot to talk about!

Karen - I'm so glad your mother's birthday brought some happiness to her and the family - very good to hear.

Great to hear from our dear Ulla. Those long walks sound wonderful. Praying that your chest xrays bring comforting results.

Love to all my beautiful sisters and a very happy 4th of July to those in the US

Jane xxx 

lvtwoqlt

Donald got home about 2:30  this morning and I thought while he slept I could come to work this morning for a few hours, I have been doing about 2 hrs a day getting all the orders in, I am coming in early morning so I have the rest of the day to do what I want. I have been sewing, my quilt guild is selling raffle tickets for a hand pieced and quilted queen size quilt at local festivals along with 'botique' items. This week I have made 24 luggage ID tags out of colorful fabrics. They make your luggage stand out on the carousal at the airports. I can make 5 or six in a few hours.

Earleen started the adjustments to my tattoos Tuesday. She has changed the color drastically according to Donald, before they were dark brown with an orange tinge, last night he said that they were a lighter brown and more on the pink side which is what I wanted in the first place. She also has softened the ring on the outside. She will blend the colors a little more when I go back in August.

We will be going to my mother-in-laws today for lunch and time around the pool (no swimming for me - no soaking the tattoos for 2 weeks) and Donald's birth father's house tomorrow evening for a cookout and fireworks. We thought about taking Penelope with us tomorrow but she is frightened with fireworks. About 4 yrs ago Donald wanted to take her to the local fireworks display, we had her on the leash and when the first one boomed, she started shaking and tried to get away. we ended up putting her in the car so she wouldn't pull against us.

Happy 4th to all.

sheila

livesstrong

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Happy 4th my US Sisters!!!

bbl 

my3girls

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY TO ALL MY US SISTERS!!

 Sorry it's been awhile since I have been here. I have been working allot and when I am not...I have been busy at home.

I read thru the posts..and I remember some.  Karen, I saw the pics of your first pick on the house..it was beautiful..but sooo big!  I can't see the one you are builidng..but it sounds like it is the better of the two..in many ways.  I hope & pray your dear father is doing better.  That has to be so difficult. Happy b'day to your mom.

Mel...I know just how you feel about having so much to do..it becomes overwhelming and you end up doing not much of anything!! I can SO RELATE!!!  Yes lets get a Sunday picked..the only one I have open this month is July 13.  Let me know.

Nancy...I think you will be fine with your mastectomy.  I had my bilateral done..and nobody was there with me at home.  I could drive also, the only reason I couldn't drive is if I was taking the pain meds.  I only took them for a few days. Just be sure to do your excercises that they give you to get your mobility and range of motion back.  You will be fine.  The reconstruction is the big surgery. Good luck to you next week!!!

Jane enjoy your time with your sister!!

Ulla...I will be praying for you dear sister.

I can't download the pics from my vacation, because it was Danni's camera..and we don't have the hook up for it. Hoepfully soon...I will get some.  I visited Matthew yesterday..and had a wonderful time. I may post some pics from that visit!  He is growing up so quickly! I called him my baby and he said "grandma Lisa, I am a big boy"!

Well ladies...I did it...I went on a date!  I met a guy from the match.com and we met for dinner last night.  It went really well. Not sure if it is anybody I would actually date, but we got along very well and talked for 4 hours!  It was nice.

Ok...I am working all day and back tomorrow at 5am..and working till 7:15 pm!!

Love to you all, I will check in with all of you soon.

Love to all..and Sue darling...where are you?

xoxo

Lisa

sueps

Hello Sisters xxx

My gosh Lisa ...you are sooooooo busy!!! I hope you rest when you can ... and post us a pic of your date.... Purleassse!!!

Karen your house looks a dream...tell me are you having it built...I dont understand..in the US do you build houses from scratch ...sorry ...I am not very bright LOL....it takes months to buy houses over here...xxx

 Mel...every day I am like ..too much to do ....what shall I do first...running around my head...and then I give up HAAA xxx

AE  ...I have been sat outside just and dreaming of meeting you all ....I hope UB is bearing up...UB I send you a nice slap.....and much love ..... xxx

Well I feel another crash coming on....Shirlann I love you so much....I just cant wait to come over that pond..... I just need to meet all of you desperately ....DESPERATELY....AND I WILL!!!! Just need to get better

I have been working like crazy ...still not had time to book a blood test...and I feel rubbish ,I am sure I will recover !!!

Bootface is an evil demon...WHY WHY WHY .... WHY!!!!

I HOPE  YOU ARE ALL HAVING A GREAT INDEPENDANCE DAY .

You are all sooooooooo special!!! Every single bit of every single one of you xxx

Much Love ....and many many dreams of being with you .... xxx

Shirlann

Hi Sue, we have a whole lot of different systems.  You can buy a lot or acreage and build whatever you want (as long as it meets the building codes).  Or, you can buy a ready made house  new, or used.  OR, you can buy a condo or townhouse or a  row house.  All of these can be rented too.  Just depends.  In San Diego, for instance, most of the "easy to build" on land is gone, at least near the ocean.  But in  Texas, or Idaho, there is lots of land at a very fair price, so you can go there and build a lovely home.

England, I know, is smaller.  And I am sure mostly built up (although when you drive around, it seems that there is a lot of lovely land), and so you probably buy a used house.  A lot of people here like the older homes, they have more character and better craftmanship, in some cases.  But just as many people like brand new houses, with all the new goodies, new stoves, fridges, and bigger bathrooms.

How are you feeling?  Are your bones any better?  We need a physical update on our Dorothy. Bootface is gone, what is going on now is the leftover stuff.  So you need to go and see what is happening.  

You are so special to me and to all the other sisters, we need to know what is up.

Hugs and kisses to Sue, dear Ulla, and Mel, UB & AE, Lisa, Karen,Sheila, Jane, Wren & Jule, Kaloni, Nancy, both Anns, and anyone I can't remember  

portiasproudmom

Hi Sisters!  I hope everyone here in the US had a wonderful 4th.  I'm laying here on my bed--it's 11:30--and the fireworks are still banging and booming.  There won't be any sleep for me for a while tonight.  The neighbors around here go CRAZY with the fireworks.  We bought a bunch and had my dh's parents and sister over for dinner.  Chase had a great time watching our little fireworks show.  The dogs, however, did not have so much fun.  Poor Tinker cowered on my lap, under her blanket.  Buddy was at my feet.

I was so happy to hear from both Ulla, Sue, and Lisa.  Ulla, sweetie, I totally understand your need to separate yourself from the boards a bit.  I hope your chest x-ray results are good.  I'll keep you in my prayers, as always. 

Lisa's back in the game!!!  Good for you--even if you don't see yourself "dating" this guy.  It sounds like you've made a friend.  I'm glad you're putting yourself out there.  You just never know when Mr. Right is going to come along.  Whoever he ends up being--he's going to be one lucky guy!!

Sue, my dh and I bought a five acre parcel of land about three years ago.  We had a house designed for us, but decided against having it built because we really don't need a house that big.  We hired a custom home builder to build a house on our land.  It will take probably six months to build the house once they start (which will probably be sometime in September).

Sheila, I'm glad your tattoos are looking better.  It's amazing what they can do these days to make the reconstructed boobs look like the real thing.

Love to everyone--Shirlann, Jane, Mel, Judie, Jule, Nancy, AE and UB, Anne, Wren, and anyone I may have missed,  I think the fireworks are lightening up.  I'm going to try to get some zzzz's!

Love and hugs,

Karen

Ka-Loni

Hi Shirlann, You know something Shirlann? I read your messages here on the boards, and from my heart you are so very inspiring. You light up a room everywhere. And, you bring such faith, hope and joy to someone going through breastcancer. Shirlann how long have you been in remission? For me, it has been 2 years in March. Shirlann, I been feeling good and moving on with my new life. Especially, after my Hysterectomy on May 1. I feel renewed. And, I am sure it is my hormones. But, lately, I have been so scared and worried that my BC will come back in my other(Right) breast. I am so fearful of this. It is always on my mind. I just wondered how I can cope and deal with this fear. I know you have an answer on this one, because, you are so beyond cancer and seem so positive in your life.

God Bless,  

Love, Kaloni  

sueps

Hi Kaloni xxx

It is good to see you..... Please know that I am sending you warm thoughts ... and that I think you are doing extremely well...I hope I can get to 2 years .... I also have scarey feelings....so I feel you....Shirlann is one beautiful soul....and she always inspires me too....especially being trip neg.....

Scarey moments can be just that....I always try to live in the moment and distract myself well and truly.... I am mostly scared for my boys and mostly angry by the abruptness of damn bootface.....xxx

I am sending you all my love and hope that these moments may ease....because you Kaloni are an inspiration to me also xxx

Much Love xxx