please help

my3girls

Sue..the US is not 70...maybe where Karen lives...but not here in Ohio..today is cold!  There was actually some freezing rain today.  And just the other day, it was almost 70!  Crazy weather.

I am finishing up here at work.  Off the next 2 days!

I have no secret for weight loss.  I ONLY lost 4 lbs.  That's not much at all...at least not to me.  I want to fit into my 6's again!   I will keep trying.  I have been exercising more and eating as healthy as possible.  I think the effixor takes away my appetite.  But I still eat..to try and keep my metabolism up.  I need to start on the weights..lifting builds muscles..muscles burn more calories.  It's just so much more difficult as we get older.  GRRRRRRRRRRRR

Mel..I will take the little quiz when I get home..can't do it here.

Nancy..be lazy...we all need that from time to time.  You are going thru tx's...rest, rest, rest!

I love border collies too!  Aww...a new dog Jules..how special!

Ok..off to finish up my work...and go home!

love to all!

Lisa

my3girls

Ulla,

Having the port was not too bad.  I could not wait to have it removed!  I only had a local anesthetic.  I was awake..so if you are, I recomend that they give you something to relax you.  The part I did not like, was that I could feel the injection, and then I could feel the pull on the removal.  If I had taken something to relax me, it would have been much easier!

I have a small scar from the incision...but it has faded..and I had it out in December...I think..haha..can't remember now!

Don't be worried Ulla...it's really not bad at all.

xoxo

Lisa

honeygirl

Hi Ulla and Lisa. Yes , getting your port removed is no big deal. I was in the OR and was given twilight, I don't remember anything except waking up in the recovery area. I think it took , maybe 20 minutes. My doc cut me on the same scar as when he put it in. So no extra incisional scar. I had very little pain after that, but it sure does itch at times. I scratched the scar so much , I made it bleed! Don't even worry your pretty little head Ulla. After all you been through , this is a cake walk!xx Love you. Mel

Lisa , what time do you get home? I'll check back to see if you are here.xx

Hi Sue! Miss you! Sorry the tired has hit , but you just relax and sleep. You need it. Don't even worry about Tuesday until Tues gets here. Just let your body and mind rest and relax. I can't wait for our online party! It will be here soon Sue. Take care. Love you , Mel

honeygirl

The peaceful doves are watching over you Sue. So sleep as a child.xx

portiasproudmom

What a gorgeous picture, Mel.  I took that test, and it sent a code to my cell phone, I plugged in the code, but the results didn't show what finger I am (I couldn't find it, at least).  Don't know what the heck I did wrong. 

livesstrong

Ulla - port removal was a breeze.  I had conscious sedation.  I had a small infection afterwards and now my scar is bumpy!!  It looks awful.  I think I have allot of scar tissue underneath.  Mine itches too!!  Don't know what thats about.

Lisa - sure wish effexor took MY appetite away.  Nothing seems to help me!

ttyl,

AE 

Wren

I am a ring finger...

Ulla, your new hair is cute.

Nancy, I like your new picture too--very pretty.

Sue, just sleep and rest like Mel's pretty picture with the doves... rest rest rest.

Congrats on your new dog, Jule...

Hugs to everyone!

Anonymous

Code to your cell phone? That sounds worrisome Karen. The result should just come up on your computer. Odd.

I'm a middle finger...no comment.

Just a quick note. I'm too scattered to respond to each post, so will be general.

I just got back from going to a lovely park with my son and grandson. It is on Lake Washington. There is an off-leash dog area, and Connor went nuts. The kid has no fear. His favorites were the biggies...German Shepherd, Goldens, Irish Wolfhound, Border Collie. There was a wonderful Visla/Border Collie mix...extremely well-trained and so cute!

No dreams for me, but I keep going through periods of acutely missing my breasts and despising the stiff chest. I use a vitamin E lotion and massage it daily to keep the tissue supple, but it still has a feeling of stiffness from the inside. And I'm tired of wearing prostheses. I've been just going around flat. Well, not flat...a little concave with a nice round belly below. Tweedledee. I'm in a "screw you" mood and don't care how I look. Is this depression or standing up for myself? I don't know. I just hate this whole thing. End of whine. My path has been so much easier than many of yours.

Life is actually good. It's a gorgeous, sunny, shirtsleeve day. The park was spectacular. I miss my dogs terribly, and petting all the dogs at the park was good medicine. (Jule, I'm soooooo jealous!) I'm making steady progress on my project of scanning old family photos onto my computer. Grandson is adorable, pain is under control...it's all good, eh?

All my best wishes for Ulla's cath removal, Sue's chemo, any others having important stuff next week? Hang in there AE and UB. 

Ulla and Nancy...gorgeous pictures. You rock!

Judie 

Ulla

ty sisters for ur all nice words about the semi-bald head..lol

and thanks alot about all the informations regrding to the port,,

i feel really better after reading all wat u said,,

wih i wont have something more

now ,,the wight thing,grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

i started my sever diet since about 15 days and till now i have lost only 3 kgm which equals 6.6 pounds ,,i am returnning back my normal face outlines,,no more ugly rounded fatty face,,thank god for that,,but i am still didnt have my periods back so i think it is the cause that i stopped loosing the wight any more,,i am waiting to get it back to c if i will start loosing again??

by the way..howlong till those of u sisters who r still pre menapause get ur cycles again after the chemo and rads???

i am just trying to know howlong it needs be4 it come bak if i decided not to take the tamoxifin????

i just want and need my normal body again,,i want to let it work naturally ,,

i love u all..no energy to write anything again...

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Anonymous

You ladies here are ALL beautiful...I love the new avatars!!!! Years ago I wore my hair short on purpose and have often thought of cutting it again, but I find it much easier to deal with longer hair...not so much time getting ready to leave the house!!!!! So I associate with short hair issues, it takes alot of time, especially if its curly I would imagine.....my hair has always been as straight as a board!!!!

Libby is wonderful and Im really glad that I changed my mind about the first Libby...and yes, border collies are extremely smart....her name was Fransseca (not sure I spelled that right!!) when I got her but it just isnt her....that name just DOESNT fit her, I didnt think I could change her name since she is 3 but she actually answers better to Libby!!!!!!

Mel, the comment about people and their dogs!!!!! I have seen that.....and I agree, the other breed I like is Blue Heelers.....when they get older then are short and fat......hmmmmmm, wonder why I didnt get one of those

Ya know I read every new post here this morning but cant remember who's doing what!!!!! So please dont think Im just picking on the ones that I mention by name!!!!!!

I do have a question for (I think Nancy?) the raspberry/green tea what brand did you find that you like so well??? Im not a green tea drinker but lots of other teas and would like to find one with the green that I like....

Sue-I have an empty bedroom, head on over anytime!!!! I would love to have you here, the nice weather would help you feel better....I just know it would!!!!!!!!! but since that isnt possible just snuggle in and close your eyes, dream sweet dreams of how if you were here we would sit on the deck on a bright early spring morning and feel the sun on your face...see made ya feel better didnt it??? (I HOPE!!!) Your at the tail end of all this goop so hang in there girl!!! Rest as much and more than you need....we will be here when you wake

Ok, this is getting rather long and I dont want it to go into cyber space when I try to post it so I hope everyone has a beautiful day...

Hugs

Jule

sueps

Hello Sisters xxx

I have been sleepy sleepy again ...I had to go Asda and I made some beautiful fairy cakes for the boys xxx

I hope you are all well.... xxx

I am just surfing the net and came across this site...look at the writer of OZ ...he was born a llllllloooooonnnnngggg time ago...I find it all so interesting...xxx

 http://www.wendyswizardofoz.com/baum.htm

I dunt wan go work tomorra LOL .... AND I DO NOT WANT TO GO FOR CHEMO ON TUESDAY I HATE IT. HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!

I am on the verge of giving up treatment...skipping a week has done me no good .... how can I go back to that NIGTHMARE...and I am still not recovered ...why my counts are probably still low.... I was on line the other day at work making a sandwich and Blaire is like Sue Sue YOUR NOSE .... well it was bleeding everywhere ...awwww...

I am going to take my camera in to work and get some piccies....

The sale goes through on the 22nd and Tom will owe us all a weeks wage and more.. I hope he doesnt run like the wind !!!!  I also hope he has been paying my tax and National insurance I havent had a payslip for months!!!!!!   GRRRR

I am giving up with this fight ...no no no no ENERGY xxxx

sueps

First episode of Britains got talent on TV last night...hows this for talent lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Bt4kguLPTU

I wonder if Gin will win!!! xxx

sueps

and this was the worst lol'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0kpdjk6fDCk&feature=related

livesstrong

OMG - Sue - I WANT THAT DOG!!!!!

AE 

NancyD

Jule, it was just the Lipton Raspberry tea. I think they actually mix it with their regular orange pekoe or black tea. You can get a sampler box of mixed flavors.

Today was another day of lazy relaxation. Some of my se's caught up with me this morning, but by mid afternoon, I am feeling OK again, but tired. I just ate 1/2 a bag of potato chips and drank a bottle of ginger ale. Chicken broth and rye toast for lunch. Weird combinations.

Back to work tomorrow for me, too, Sue. I've got reports due this week and I have nothing to say in them. I go to work but it feels like nothing's happening. Oh well, short reports.

OK, I'm going to post TWO GOOD things about chemo:

1) I haven't had to tweeze my eyebrows in two weeks! 

2) The post-menopause mustache that I had started to notice is GONE!

So there...don't let anyone say there's nothing good about chemo. 

sueps

I know AE me toooooooooo ...she lives near me that girl...shes only 16 ...OMG ....I WANT I WANT!!!!  You can have Donald in the other clip hahahaha ...I love that programme...cant wait for nxt weeks !!!

I so want that dog...it brought tears to my eyes the love and bond they had xxx

livesstrong

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TdnzKgq-B6Y

Somebody please tell me if you can view this!! 

honeygirl

Oh Sue , thank you sooo much for sharing that with us. I laughed ,cried , clapped , and I want Gin!!!!!! You and AE can fight over Donald!lol Gin is mine!!!

AE , yes , I copied and paste it in my addy box. Loved that version , and I love Jason!

md_mouse

AE,

Yes I can view it.  Very nice..I didn't see it when it originally broadcast.  thnx

Hope all is well with you and UB

portiasproudmom

Jule, the tea I drink is raspberry pomegranate green tea and it's by Stash.  It has a really interesting twang to it.  Really quite yummy!

Good to see you, Dawn!!  We've missed you!

I promise to post more tomorrow.  I had a really busy day and I'm beat!

Love and hugs to you all,

Karen

livesstrong

WOW!!!  REALY QUIET AROUND HERE!!!

Just wanted to wish Sue GOOD LUCK tomorrow - UB & I will be there holding your hand!!

AE 

sueps

Thanks AE .... I am really contemplating not going tomorrow...I feel more tired than I did last week when I didn't have it ...why so I keep falling asleep...I don't think my body can take anymore..I really don't I feel like I have been punched out .

I hope you are all OK

I am sorry I am so energless and really cross with myself xxxxxx

All my love everyone xxx

honeygirl

Hi Sue! OK , chin up girl. I know you hate, hate, hate this and chemo really sucks , but we are all here with you , and nothing is gonna happen that you and God and us can't handle. I will be praying for you and hope your wbc is up so you can get this over with. You have been through so much Sue , and you are still standing. And we are all standing right beside you. Arm in arm. So lets kick some bootface a$$!

Love you Sue. Follow the yellow brick road! Much love , Melody

You're almost there Sue

honeygirl

Stay strong Sue. If your count is still to low , then its time for a break. Good luck sweet sister.xxxx

my3girls

Good luck to you tomorrow dear Sue.  If your count is too low, then maybe you just need to rest more.  Are you drinking enough water? Maybe you are dehydrated..that will make you tired too. I loved the video of the dog!  He was incredible!! Didn't like the guy....he really stunk. I am off to eat my dinner.  Meatloaf, and veggies. Saw the gyno today.  I had been having some small pains near my pubic bone (probably from scaring) but to be sure, she wants an ultrasound of my pelvic area, and she is doing a bone density test.  I don't have either of these tests till the next 2 weeks. Nancy D...you sound like you are doing well with your chemo. Good for you!! AE, I hope you are doing well.  How is uncle Bill?  Are his s/e better? It's a beautiful day here....cold, but sunny. Talk to you later...off to eat! xoxo Lisa

honeygirl

Hi Lisa , I'm having meatloaf too!

portiasproudmom

Meatloaf sounds good.  I may fix that for dinner tonight too.  I think my family's getting tired of chicken.

Hang in there, Sue.  You'll be fine.  Mel's right--you've been through so much and you're still standing and fighting.  Stop apologizing for being tired and for not posting much!  You're amazing and we all admire you so much.  Of course you're tired!  Your poor body has been through the wringer!  Good luck tomorrow, sweetie!

I have eight rads left to go, ladies!  I'm in the single digits!  I saw my onc today and she told me to start Tamoxifen the day after I finish rads (next Friday).  She sent me for an x-ray of my ribs today too.  I've been having back pain on my tx side every afternoon.  It's really weird that it isn't there when I get up in the morning, but it starts hurting more and more as the day goes on.  She prescribed a muscle relaxer too.  Hopefully it will help.

Love to everyone.  I'll try to bbl.

Hugs,

Karen

Anonymous

Awwwww Sue....I know this has been rough on you but your almost there girlfriend!!!!!!!! OZ isnt too far away for you now so keep on the yellow brick road!!!! Imagine us all arm in arm skipping down that road with our piggy tails and braids all floppin in the wind!!!!  We're right there with you sweetie....

Karen & Nancy, thats for the tips on the tea...I love tea and I love raspberries so Im thinking this will be a good thing .

Valerie----remember a bit back when I asked you about the sparkly things??? its been quite sometime but if you can would you please send me the web site that you found them on???? Im thinking this is a really NEEDED thing right now and would like to see about sending some.....Im not as familiar with everyone here and dont have email addresses but if you would like to do something similar to what I did with Valrose on the sparkles for this one I would be happy to help if I can.....if I have you completely confused now send me a pm or you know my email and I will explain, but I think you will know....

Hope all is doing well with everyone...I gotta run as need to do a couple of things yet this evening...will check back a little later...

Hugs

Jule

NancyD

Sue,

I'm tagging along behind you...just think, you'll be all done with chemo and I'll still have several doses ahead of me. Bleh!!!! You'll need to cheer me on.

Come on girl, we can do it!  Maybe you can skip tomorrow...that's OK, but we're going to finish the course and get all the benefits of these darn drugs. We're going to kill every last little cancer cell in our bodies, and then we're going to kill them some more with the radiation. And then we're going to build up our immune systems so they can take care of us again on their own. If you have to take a break every now and again, so be it. Take it and renew your energy, and then come back fighting!

Nancy "The Gipper" D

livesstrong

Sue, Aunty Em here - I know you are mentally & physically exhausted and you have had it with all this crap.  But please go tomorrow - if your counts are still done then you wait - if not, have the treatment and remember that after this one its what, only 2 more?????  You have come to far to give up now!!  You need to destroy bootface completely so it never shows it ugly face EVER again.

Love ya girl, STAY STRONG.

Aunty Em