I can't get my act together and I don't know why

sueper13

Hey guys,

It's me, up at 3:30 for my 4:00 wake up.  That's acceptable.  Anybody else have trouble getting comfortable for months after breast suurgery?  I really, really miss sleeping on my left side.  The best I can manage is a few minutes on my back!! The rest of the night is spent on my right side, which before bc was the side I laid down on, prepared to go to sleep on,  got warm on, etc., then, when I was ready, I turned on my left side and effortlessly went to sleep. Well, I think that turning on my left side was the signal my body understood to let go and go to sleep, and my body and I are having to get used to yet another new normal (I HATE that expression!). Sorry to start right out with such a whine but....

Otherwise, I feel pretty good.  I get up at four because I have to be at work at six, have about a forty minute commute, and I walk, in the dark, in the early mornings.  I do 2 miles, and I never see a car, walk in the subdivision across the street.  It nourishes my soul to look at the sky, and I have a better day when I walk.

Kerry and Wish, what's with the summer thunderstorms there?  It sounds like Texas!!  We've gotten off easy so far this year, although on our trip we ran into some weather that had a scary cloud that went almost down to the ground--that's when you better be getting somewhere safe!! We were watching by the side of the road to see if anyone had a storm cellar, just to be safe.  Do people have storm cellars there?  They look like half-buried WWII bunkers to me.

Sue, sorry you forgot Father's Day.  I haven't forgotten that one yet, but one year we decided (I thought) not to buy each other anniversary gifts, and my dh got me this beautiful ring.  I had nothing for him and felt so bad, so I know the feeling. You're not a bad person for forgetting it, you're just going through something really crappy. I do think you need to share that bad feeling with your 18-y/o--I did it all for my two sons until they were about 16 and then I sat them down and said, He's not my father, he's your father, and you need to celebrate what kind of father he has been!

Harley, roger on the sweating like a pig thing--my head gets wet!! Yuck! Does it get better?  I thought it was just chemo!!

Viv, hope you get good news today--don't let them wait.  I would call them!!

Cristine (aka Shovelgirl), yes, you get it.  No weirdos. I knew you would get it!! Also, I am proud of you for not cleaning up your daughter's mess. 

Anybody I missed, sorry.  Off to have my one cup of coffee and then my walk.

Have a great monday!!

Love,

Sue 

wishiwere

Well dear, you're a better woman than I, walking in the dark, subdivision or not!   I'm in the country, although it's being developed around us faster than we like   But no sidewalks, so walking is while cars are speeding past at over 45 mph is just not my liking   BUT HEY!  Some consider a walk work?  You are doing more for you health than I do working in those gardens you all holler at me about!  What gives lady?

Okay.....so hope this finds everyone still healing well, getting through tx (Lori) with few SE's and getting on with their weeks with more of these storms the nation has felt!

kes

Hi Ladies,

Chris,

That is usually what happens to me. I get left with all the clean up and the presents sit in the bags until the DD takes an interest and opens one up. On March break I found an old birthday present and the DD did it then. I was not feeling so well, so it did come in handy. I was thankful for it.DD is still in school until next Wed or Thursday, I think.

Sue,

You are a stronger woman than me. I don't think that I could wake up at 4am. Only could do it if I had to catch a flight to go on a trip or the cruise. And walk at that hour. I can barely talk at that hour. I am NOT a morning person. I am a night owl. Some say party animal.(Not much of that lately) I do not have a storm cellar but I need one. Have a cold cellar under the front porch. That would do in a pinch.

Wish,

I hear more thunder again. This is getting to be a little bit nuts. I think that we are getting a cold front come in after some more storms and then it is going to be 9 degrees tonight. That is cold.

Job interview- Went well. Have to wait and see. I don't know if I want to go inside now and work now that the nice weather is here. I like to cut back in the summer, not take on more hours!!!! Do that in the winter.

Take Care All,

Kerry 

wishiwere

Weather.com has been a royal pain the arse lately, but I think we are in the clear, although they said 49 faren here tonight!  WHoohoo! Great sleeping weather!  And my windows will be open tonight!  Although with it that chilly and windy, i bet it would be great to sleep outside tonight too! 

Is your first job inside too?  I can understand not wanting to be inside, but with these hot flashes and as hot as it's been already this summer/spring, I'm not sure I'd last long outside in the prime hours of the day!  I'd be a puddle in the sidewalk!

Sue, I'm normally up that hour most days, but not all.  IF i had someone interesting in walking at those hours, I'd be there in a flash.  Just have no one to do that with and the industrial park where I do walk isn't a good idea in the wee hours like that!

kes

Wish,

My first job in outside. I drive around from visit to visit. July and August are cookers. Jan, Feb and March are brutal because of the snow and the rest of the months are great.Don't know if I can be confined to a building again.

I may need help to dig a hole. DH told me that I just cannot get on with my life. The last year and a half, he told me that I cannot move past it. And my DH is a good one.

Kerry

wishiwere

You know, it's bad enough when someone that isn't close to us feels that way, but horrible when we feel those we love the most aren't supportive!  Tell him he can do his laundry now!  I said so   Seriously though, darn it, what is with these men, they just don't get it, do they?

Anonymous

Okay, for all you bug lovers....

      

I'll find you more later! 

Anonymous

Sue (sueper), I'm so jealous of you.  There's no way in H that I could get up that early unless I really, really had to.  Then, the rest of the day I wouldn't be worth a crap.  And, walk at that time in the morning!  I haven't even gotten on the treadmil AND I must!  But, seems like it's great therapy for you. 

Wish, gardening is good exercise.  That's HARD work.  I'm jealous of you too!  And you also get up with the roosters?  BTW, we need more rain here, but not like in the midwest.

Hey, Harley, I posted to you on the "other" thread.  Quit that stupid job.  I'll be talking to you later. 

So, I can't get my act together.  DH cooked dinner tonight....LOL...mostly leftovers and frozen stir fry veggies.  But, hey, I didn't have to do it.  Plus he emptied the dishwasher and put more dishes in it.  I suppose I better get it together tomorrow.  It'll be my turn to cook.  Ha!  Should be time for dd to come for a visit to eat.  LOL  I'm such a mean mom!

Don't work too hard.  Patrice (gsg) must be working her arse off.  I need to watch CSpan tomorrow and see what's going on.

Shirley

Anonymous

Sue (sueper), I'm so jealous of you.  There's no way in H that I could get up that early unless I really, really had to.  Then, the rest of the day I wouldn't be worth a crap.  And, walk at that time in the morning!  I haven't even gotten on the treadmil AND I must!  But, seems like it's great therapy for you. 

Wish, gardening is good exercise.  That's HARD work.  I'm jealous of you too!  And you also get up with the roosters?  BTW, we need more rain here, but not like in the midwest.

Hey, Harley, I posted to you on the "other" thread.  Quit that stupid job.  I'll be talking to you later. 

So, I can't get my act together.  DH cooked dinner tonight....LOL...mostly leftovers and frozen stir fry veggies.  But, hey, I didn't have to do it.  Plus he emptied the dishwasher and put more dishes in it.  I suppose I better get it together tomorrow.  It'll be my turn to cook.  Ha!  Should be time for dd to come for a visit to eat.  LOL  I'm such a mean mom!

Don't work too hard.  Patrice (gsg) must be working her arse off.  I need to watch CSpan tomorrow and see what's going on.

Shirley

drcrisc

Sue - Wow...4am?  Impressive...like someone else said, I don't think I could talk, let alone walk, at that hour.  You go, girl!  (And do let us know if the dgf arrives safely.)

Kerry - Maybe I will just leave them and prompt her to look there on one of my chemo weekends!  Look, something new!!  But if that doesn't work, I'll resort to wish's suggestion.  That will probably move things along.

Not too much energy tonight...woke up with a stiff neck that's been trying to form a headache all day.  Good thing I still have some Darvoset left...

sam408

Sue - Just want you to know that you've become the inspiration I needed to get off my butt and start walking. I'll never be out there quite as early as you, but I plugged my ipod in and was out there at 8:00 AM. I walked a little over a mile and it took me 45 minutes. Wow, have I slowed down. Prior to surgery I could do a mile in 15-20 minutes.

It's 2.3 miles from my driveway to the end of the street and back, so I'm setting that distance as my goal. Our street is a lot of hills so it'll take a while for my tummy muscles to be up to the pulling, but I'm going to work on it. The fact that it took me so long this morning was also a wake-up call that I need to get myself back into better shape.

I also think getting out in the sunshine is definitely a "feel better" even if I wasn't walking fast.

Even though you didn't realize you were doing it, thanks for the push Sue.

sam408

These figurines sit on my windowsill and I thought you all might get a kick out of them. Mind you, they have been there for many, many years so this was my mindset long before bc gave me an excuse, LOL!

The frog ended up being too small to read, but he says "You'd be happy too if you could eat what bugs you"

darah58

Hi all,

Thanks for welcoming me.  Sue: I am so impressed with you.  I would honestly rather go to bed at 4:00 than get up to walk at that hour.  Exercise is so good for us, though, and I admire you for having that discipline.....I have it for a few days at a time, but then it goes away.

My apartment is a horrible mess, and I feel more disorganized than ever!  I live alone in Italy for a good part of the year -- then in the US -- and I seem to be fluctuating between being grateful at the early diagnosis (DCIS) and fearful of what could come.  I am OK a lot of the time, but sometimes I just feel terrible.

Anyway, I read and appreciated all your comments.  I'll keep coming back -- thanks so much.

Darah

darah58

Hi all,

Thanks for welcoming me.  Sue: I am so impressed with you.  I would honestly rather go to bed at 4:00 than get up to walk at that hour.  Exercise is so good for us, though, and I admire you for having that discipline.....I have it for a few days at a time, but then it goes away.

My apartment is a horrible mess, and I feel more disorganized than ever!  I live alone in Italy for a good part of the year -- then in the US -- and I seem to be fluctuating between being grateful at the early diagnosis (DCIS) and fearful of what could come.  I am OK a lot of the time, but sometimes I just feel terrible.

Anyway, I read and appreciated all your comments.  I'll keep coming back -- thanks so much.

Darah

sueper13

Hey guys,

If I don't walk, I scream at people and stuff.  And my back hurts.  And I'm just, in general, bitchier.  And I live in Texas, so basically eight months out of the year if I don't walk in the morning it's too hot to walk!!! So don't put me on a pedestal, okaaaaaay?!?!?

Sheila, doesn't the ipod help with the walking?  It makes it effortless.  I listen to audiobooks when I am walking and also when I am doing housework (sorry, not supposed to admit to housework on this thread)...And as for being out of shape, I seem to recall you just had a MAJOR surgery not too long ago? So I am proud of you for getting out there and walking.

We can all walk together on the bc only cruise, right? And, I'll even get up late!!!  BTW I love the figurines..

Cristine, the dgf got there safely.  Turns out she has a lead foot and it didn't take her very long!!! 

Stayed home from work today and started on antibiotics for a beginning upper respiratory thing...hope it's resolved by the 26th for my next tx....spending today in the recliner.

Hope everyone has a great evening!!

Love,

Sue 

collector

Walking keeps me sane.  I'm not stalwart enough to walk in the heat and bugs, however.  I LOVE the 4:30 AM time at the air conditioned health club.  Just me and my book on the treadmill and even in my bald scarf, I'm pretty anonymous.  I have thought of dropping my membership so many times because they do not offer enough classes for people with my interests but the thought of doing without the treadmill keeps me there for now. 

wishiwere

Oh geepers! Now I'm feeling like I should be out walking too! Cardiocutie passed my heart for no problems today, so I guess I can't use that excuse.  It's like housework and longdistant running. I hate it!  I can walk IF I've got somewhere to go, but.....

I did go out after chemo and mark the industrial park road with 1/2 mile spray paint so I could do just that.  And then dsis sent me an ipod (the mini) to walk with.  Guess I have to dig it out and get with it huh?  To bad we can't chat while walking together at 4am, b/c I'd be there if someone were with me

kes

Hi ladies,

Wish, You are right. The Dh can do his own laundry and I will tell him that you said so. I can't go walking as it will not STOP raining here today.

O.K. ladies, I cannot walk at the crack of dawn. But I will walk on the cruise at 4 am but it will be before going to bed after a fun night on the cruise ship. And I think that we should call oureslves the "can't get our act together and can't move on gals, so we just decided to cruise". How does that sound? I cannot walk fast. But I can drive my new car fast. Does that count?

Sue,  Glad that the girlfriend made it safe on her roadtrip. She drives like me.FAST!!

Shirley,  Love the bugs. Everyone was bugging me yesterday.

Chris and Sue,  Hope that you guys are feeling better. Just lounge around all day and look at the cruise brochures!!!! 

Went to see the PS today and the new foobs have been unveiled. I am pleased with the results. Need to give it time so the muscles loosen up.

Have a good one ladies and remember "we don't clean, we cruise!!!"

Kerry

wishiwere

Congrats on the unveiling!  So happy you are happy with it all!  I can't imagine the tight muscles, as mine give problems (chest wall) everytime I pull the HUGE weeds that are growing out back!  UGH!

Anonymous

YAAAAAAWN!!! Walking at the crack of dawn? Sue....hows it look that time of.........day??? Oh, roll me back over. I prefer sundown to sunrise. How about a moonlight stroll?

sueper13

Viv,

For you, I would stay up late...

iodine

A clean house is the sign of a boring woman.

kes

I have never been called boring in my life. A lot of other things, but never boring. Life is too short to be boring.

Kerry

wishiwere

I see how it is!  Planning midnight strolls after I get ready for bed!  Okay fine!  But I'll be up 4am and expect you all still here ready to stroll again ladies!

G'Night and sleep safe ladies!

kes

Wish,

Thankx for the well wishes. I cannot pull big weeds out of the garden as my upper back would get tight and give me problems.

We could always divide the group into 2. The early birds who like to walk when the birds are still sleeping and the night owls who like to howl at the moon, and look out if the moon is full. That might help, then we can all get our exercise, even on the cruise.

I gotta go to bed. Had a crappy sleep last night and I am pooped.

Kerry

wishiwere

Hope everyone slept well last night!   Looks like a cool morning, so I'm heading out to the gardens soon.  Have a wonderful day all!

wishiwere

You know?  I HAVE NOT done a DANGED thing today!  NOTHING!  Well, I did start the D/W, but that's it!  I'm SO FREAKING sick of waiting for reports?  TELL ME why we can't just get copies sent to us directly rather than mailed just to the freaking doctor office,who someone has to open, another person who then has to process them, stamp them, file them, set them on the doc desk, then someone to remind the doc that he files to call about or read, or go through, and someone finally has to say the patient has called after day 5 wondering if they are dying or will live, and will you call them after your next round of golf and so on and so forth!

I JUST freaking want to know what the test show?  THat's all?  I'm not asking for a surgery, or for them to examine me or anything else?  I don't even care if the NURSE calls with the results, but dang it!  ENOUGH ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!  SOMEONE CALL??????????

AND NO!  I do NOT feel any better after b*tching, b/c I'm still sitting by the phone rather than out in the gardens where I should be or mowing, b/c then I wouldn't hear the phone IF it ever RINGS!!!!!!!!!  UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

wishiwere

FINE! I just decided I'm having chocolate mouse tracks ice cream for supper tonight!  ANd I might have Movie buttered popcorn with a movie tonight and just sulk all night, b/c no ones' home as normal and I'm in a mood and I JUST DON'T care anymore! Phooooey!

collector

I feel your pain and anxiety.  At the moment I'm not waiting for anything but there are too many people on this site dealing with inhumane and inconsiderate policies that keep our own information from us for intolerably long periods of time.  What about camping on their doorstep? 

wishiwere

Thanks Collector.  I guess it did help, b/c after my rant, I went out to walk the gardens and saw a PUMPKIN starting and didn't even realize they were flowering yet   So then, I thought I should water the veggies, so I started that, and before long I was watering the birds, fed them, and pulls some weeds, cut back some iris and MAN!  Did I feel better! 

So, I came in and warm up some cheesy broccoli soup I made the other day and ate it up!  I'll have the moose tracks tonight instead!   Thanks for letting me rant...