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sas-schatzi

Ducky, Pharma research ---how timely. Please read the following link. Trying to entice Greg Pawelski to become a resource here. He posted a response to Jelson on this link. Can't figure out how b/c he doesn't show up on the members list. But, nonetheless, I think if we could get something going, it would be a great resource for change of approach for BCO members docs b/c members would have the research ammunition to request testing, change in drug approach, whatever. Pawelski's dedication to research and interpretation is good, very good. So, track the thread,please, if you would---Thanks, sassy

http://community.breastcancer.org/forum/73/topic/798301?page=1#idx_12

thefuzzylemon

Ducky.....Your mom really did have a way with words!!  Love it!!  LOL

Anonymous

My chemo doctor called me with the results of the PET scan I had this morning. My husband I and I were having an early dinner. I was feeling low from seeing the plastic surgeon. Anyway the chemo is doing its job and the tumors are shrinking. I cried. I couldn't speak. My husband was sitting across from me wondering what's going on. The waitress came over to make sure I was okay.

Hugs!

thefuzzylemon

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!

WHOOT WHOOT VEGGY!!!!!!!!  OMG!!!  THE WHOLE ROOM IS PROBABLY CRYING!!!

Adey

Awesome Veg!

duckyb1

Great news............

luvmygoats

Haven't posted much here but WAY TO GO VEGGY.  Yay for SHRINKAGE of the right kind!

Anonymous

Thanks you everyone!

crog234

Just read this... Great news Veggy!!!!!!!

chabba

WONDERFUL VEGGY!!!!!!!!

sas-schatzi

Veggy---------wow, words can't tell you, finaly a good phone call.L&H&P's sheila

sas-schatzi

Chevy, if you're still checking in, need to talk about clorine baths, need to see if you are experiencining what I am?

kathindc

Congrats Veggy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SherylB

ducky,

My mom had the same expression about the wishes. My dad used to say, "I used to wish I had shoes, until I met a man who had no feet." Here is another one, "If wishes were horses all beggars would ride."

Funny how we all grow up with colloquialisms, I have tons.

Sheryl

SherylB

Veggy,

So absolutely wonderful, yeah!!!!

Sheryl

Linda-n3

Veggy, it's about time you got some good news!!! Yaaayyyy!!!!

ridergirl

Veggy I been needing some good news lately....and boy that is good news!!!! Woot Wooot!!!!

Alyson

Veggy, wonderful news. Doing a happy dance.

lisamarie68

Veggy..... wooo hoooo the best news .. soooo soooo happy for you .. I read your post and cry to know thats great news .... bug hugs 

Chevyboy

Sassy, what do you mean? I mean what is wrong with your hands?  Sorry, I haven't checked this thread lately.  I still add a little chlorine to the dishwater, with room-temp water.... and I do this just once a day now.  What are your hands doing?  I use that prescription ointment, and then vaseline on top, about twice a day... After I rub it in real good, I'm okay.  I use other creams in between, like the Shea butter mix with Mentholatum. 

At night I put it all on, and then sleep with those polyester gloves on.  My hands are a LOT better..... Since it is Eczema, I'll always have some problems with them being dry, but at least they are not cracking and peeling like they were.  

I really like that Eucerine Professional Repair, or the Generic, Skin Repair Lotion.  I use this during the day. 

I also think any kind of stress makes it worse....  have you noticed this?  I used to take Claritin or Zyrtec, thinking it was allergies.... but it didn't help at all.   Take good care....

Linda-Ranching-in-the-mTns

LisaMarie (and Ducky and all) --

Yep -- Landmark is $600 -- but it is the best money I ever spent (and everyone who has been to Landmark will tell you the same). To keep it in perspective -- the course is very intensive, from 8am to 10pm Fri, Sat and Sun -- then you have a day and a half (with no class) to process things -- and return Tuesday (6-10pm) to come back together and synthesize everything you have learned... and hear from some people what their epiphanies have been. 

However -- if you are interested... and just want to experience a little hands-on to get your feet wet and decide if you want to invest in yourself to this degree -- YOU CAN ATTEND A ONE-EVENING INTRODUCTION TO LANDMARK FOR FREE.

So -- what is there to lose?

I personally did not go to an intro before I signed up for my Forum -- I just had known a couple of Landmark graduates, and I wanted the confidence and calm-clear-thinking that they exhibited. They exuded a practical ability to accept what life brought them -- and seemed to effortlessly set (and reach!) their goals. Nothing was 'too much' -- they seemed to have boundless energy and an excitement for life that I WANTED. 

In a way the Landmark Forum is like VERY intense group therapy -- (in that people do stand up and get personal coaching if they are working through something that one of the exercises has brought up for them... and in their sharing many others will 'get' something of their own). 

But (for me) the lectures and exercises were so worth more than the money I paid -- I learned how to de-drama and de-clutter my thinking. I was (for the first time in my life) peaceful -- without all those negative "I can't" or "I shouldn't" or "they should" or "poor me" thoughts -- I even became free of the 'good' thoughts about myself -- ("I am a hard worker", "I am friendly", "I am someone that you want on your team" )-- because I learned to accept that there simply is no way that "things" or people "are" -- that there is only the story that we tell ourselves, and we can decide to change that at any time. We can -- with a single thought -- change nearly everything about our lives.

The Forum is SO hands-on... and from the very first 15 minutes of lecture you will begin to see life in an entirely new way. You can almost see the 'light-bulbs' lighting up over peoples heads all over the room... as they 'turn on' to the concepts and understand immediately how they can apply even ONE of these new ideas to some problem spot in their life.  My instructor called it "popping" like popcorn kernels heating up -- and each "pop" being an epiphany...

So -- if you think of this as "therapy" -- with the end result of finding the key to create true/lasting happiness and letting go of all your heaviest mental burdens... at only about $15 per hour -- this is the most affordable (and most productive!) "therapy" you will ever have!

And -- if your goals are more business-minded -- you absolutely will learn where your mental blocks are about money and time that are gettting in your way... and by the end of the 4 days, you will have a plan (and the tools) to move forward more powerfully towards your goals (which will, by the end of the seminar be much more clear, and often MUCH different than the goals you were working towards prior to Landmark!)

Anyway -- obviously I am a Landmark fan -- you can even see some of the sample training on their website... and get a taste of what this is. Like I said, many people use this as "business training" -- and others go with personal goals in mind. But what you come out with is SO much more than you can expect -- because you will be introduced to an entirely new world of thought.

So -- why not at least explore the website for all the free tidbits you can glean... and attend a FREE Introduction in your area?

Just a reality check here -- I don't work for Landmark Education, and I don't 'get anything' for turning people onto it... I just LOVE what I got there. I now LOVE myself and my life... despite breast cancer... despite my wonderful dad's illness and death... and I LOVE being free of fear and depression. My mind is full of exciting new concepts that I can apply on a daily basis. My relationships are INCREDIBLY better... I am so strong in myself now -- and so loving... so very unlike the depressed and resigned woman who I was only 2 years ago... posioned by anger that I didn't even know that I had!

Another way to look at this is -- How much would you pay to lose 40 pounds (I did), find the love of your life (I did), find epiphany and spiritual enlightenment (I did and still do, everyday)-- even in death and through whatever BC brings you (I have)? How much is your sanity and restoring your excitement about creating the life that you actually want to lead... and being given the to tools to DO that? How much to suddenly release all the animosity you feel for your co-workers, your mother, your sister, your brother, your husband, YOURSELF -- and be able to see them (and YOU) as your new closest friend again? 

I know -- it sounds like a huge promise -- but Landmark graduates have accomplished amazing things in a very short time. People have stopped drinking. Stopped smoking. Lost weight. Quit jobs and started their own companies -- doing EXACTLY what gives them excitement and pleasure every single day to do! Imagine waking up every day EXCITED to dive into your day -- absolutely certain that it is going to be a FANTASTIC day... filled with insight and wonderful new ideas...

Man -- if the ability to create that sort of blissful success isn't worth $600 -- then I'd have to ask myself if I really WANTED success and happiness. I would have to ask myself for how much longer I was going to let my circumstances control me -- rather than taking control and creating my own NEW circumstances.

I would encourage you to beg, steal, or borrow the $600 -- if that is all that is standing in your way. (OK -- so don't actually steal it -- but 'steal it' away from other priorities like the food budget, entertainment budget, clothing budget .. because the NEW you that emerges will be able to create for you a wonderful life that includes whatever money you feel you need.

Did it again -- another long post.

I just want you all to be happy and feel in control of your lives. 

OK -- gotta go live my own life now and quit poking my nose into yours.

Linda

Linda-Ranching-in-the-mTns

Oh -- and Veggy... WHOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO! Thanks for reminding us all why were putting up with these surgeries and side effects! So great to hear a success story!

lisamarie68

Well today is Tuesday and in 2 weeks I will undergo yet another surgery and hopefully the last. The PS just called and my pre surgical testing is scheduled for Feb 6th .. my anxiety is growing now more than ever. PS orderd Mentor Ultra high profile implants made for tiny girls with a narrow frame they are aware that there is pocket work to be done . I am trying to have complete confidence in this next surgery . I was also just informed that my insurance is not paying a dime and has not .. ?? so now I am starting to think how is this being paid for and what the hell is gonna happen .. am I gonna have a big bill ? is my PS just doing this because he is the sweetest man ever .. I just don;t know but like I said before my anxiety is piling up and I am loosing control ... have a blessed day everyone 

Jomama2

Veggy --- So glad you got happy news for once!!!  Hope the blessings keep on a comin'.

LisaMarie -- Financial stress on top of everything else...grrrr...not fair. Sorry.

Linda-Ranch -- I have enjoyed your posts and looked up Landmark Education, because my self-talk is so negative and reading self-help books have not helped me at all (of course, one has to actually DO the work for it to work--very good at reading, not so good with the follow-through).  Anyway, the more I read on the website, the more it reminded me of a program in the 70s...E.S.T.  or, what is now called Erhard Seminar Training, but used to be knows as Erhard Sensitivity Training, named after the founder Werner Erhard.  I looked it up, and I was RIGHT!! (I love being right)  It seems EST was sold to Landmark Education in 1991.  It was very controversial back in the day, if I remember correctly.  That being said, IF I could set aside the money, and IF I could be in an all-day seminar without a bathroom break, I think I'd give it a try.  It certainly has worked for you...and thanks for the posts. I actually had a taste of the training back in the late 70s while getting a perm at what was for this little rural area, a high-end salon.  My hairdresser, a cute guy (think Warren Beatty in Shampoo if you're old enough to remember that movie), had just gone to the weekend seminar and did not stop talking about it for the entire three-hour hair ordeal!! 

At any rate, hope everyone is doing well...and thinking healing thoughts for Granny and her son today! Joan

Anonymous

Veggy - so good to hear, I would have cried too!  Yeah!

LindaRanch - have read your posts end to end.  I have the Tolle book but never really cracked the first one.  I will also check out their website and the EST info which I did read a great deal on in the 1980s and 1990s.  Paying for all my alternative choices out of pocket, the $600 plus hotel and such is a few months of tx in one way or 1/3 mo or another kind of tx, so not a choice.  But the concept is freeing, I am sure.

LisaMarie - I am not sure of this and have not encountered it personally, but someone please do tell --- is it not the law that if a woman has a breast removed (also mutilated) to save her life, doesn't the insurance company have to pay by law?  There are threads about this somewhere on bco too.  But who knows what?

A few days ago we went for groceries and bank.  I never sleep when Hubby is driving, the stories are enough to tell why.  And this day I could not keep my eyes open even after 10 hrs sleep.  I slept pretty sound almost all the way there, even going through the farm where we get our raw milk, so lovely there and snowing that morning. 

The next night I took my 'melatonin' but woke the next morn realizing I took the T3T4 thyroid pill which causes sleeplessness as it revs the hormones.  So the next morn I realized I took the wrong one and stood there looking at the pills and I took the melatonin in the morning which causes sleepiness.  GADS.  I considered following up with Ipecac but decided that was over-reacting.  So i basically slept the day away while watching movies I have been wanting to see but always work too much to watch. 

Anyway, been taking these pills for four months and I think did just fine until now..... and then I forget which to take, though I know which color is which.  Am guessing the morn I slept on ride I also took the melatonin.  Now Hubby is in control of these and if I can remember to not touch the pills in the teacup that have the little sign that says DO NOT TOUCH! then I will be all right.  He decided he will move the pill i need next to where I will take it from a silver tray. 

This is not about focus or knowledge or remembering or what??? I don't know what it is.  I can best describe it as going into a hazy daze and having no control.  Edited to add that description and say that it sucks.

LOVEEssa

SherylB

LOVEEssa,

I can relate, I was driving and got where I was going and couldn't remember making turns, changing lanes etc. A friend said it's because driving is like second nature. I said no way one should know when they are driving even if it is second nature. I am careful to not drive when I feel fuzzy from the chemo.

Sounds like you got some good sleep out of it.

Sheryl

Anonymous

Sheryl - also edited to add - I quit driving for the most part bcz of that daze and I could not figure out how to get home or remember roads I had been on 50 times.  That was 2 1/2 yrs ago when I gave up keys.  Now I am so much better I do drive to go see daughter for lunch or something easy and in the country.  But no town driving. 

Sleep -- Not really any good sleep - everytime I would doze I would wake up and rewind to where it left off, usually mere seconds.  Go figure, I needed the sleep but am stubborn I guess.  Watched Kristin Scott Thomas in a French film, I Have Loved You So Long, I deleted it after ten min before and am glad I took it on again, a bold movie.  Before that one I also watched ....... uh........ eh...... ahem...... you know, I have not a clue and cannot recall a single scene at the moment.  I will edit when it hits me again, I remembered this morning. 

EDITED TO ADD THE MOVIE I REMEMBERED - The Great New Wonderful - I did not like this movie.  But I watched every minute, see it as a character study.  But I thought it was a bad form of commercialization of 9-11 and unforgivale characters for the most part. 

Two nights back Hubby and I watched Bridges of Madison County.  He hated it the first few times, fell asleep in beginning, he said it was boring. Did I post this before?  I know our DBIL was an influence on Hubby, saying he would rather shoot himself in the foot than watch that movie again, and tat Eastwood had no business on screen cryng.  To Hubby, I said, this is your actor hero for decades, and he chose to produce-direct and take lead in this movie, where in 1995 for the first time he plays a REAL person.  This is one of my favorite films, this and August Rush, they are both about how life brings us crashing together when we are meant to crash.  So Hubby watched it and said it was not bad at all, he had prejudged.  So we got the movie w Liem Neeson spelling in Taken 2.  Taken 1 was awesome, everything one wants out of a father in that situation, he never hesitated.  Taken 2 pissed me off, I was so angry at those parents, did they learn nothing.  It was short and 'sweet' and now we wait for 3 and hope they show some sense which they are not so far at the end of 2, so I may not be able to handle it w/o screeching.  As far as I am concerned they destroyed all credibility of Taken 1 and it was a favorite.  Anyone have a different review, go for it?!  It's movie week.  Next we watched The Words.  Also Arbitrage (R Gere).  Tonight Hope Springs w Meryl Streep and TL Jones.

LOVEEssa

Adey

Boo....  I enjoyed Taken very much, haven't seen Taken 2 yet.  Had high hopes!  (c:

thefuzzylemon

Hello everyone!!  Hello Hello Hello!!  I'm in a pretty good mood....I think it's because of Veggy's good news.  I just got a little goofy after reading all the posts and it is just such a great reminder of how awesome you all are...

Linda-Ranching-in-the-mTns

Essa -- I have never even heard of "Taken" -- so I just put it on my Netflix list... thanks for the reccommendation. And, I know what you mean about having the books, and even reading some -- one of the things I liked about Landmark was that once I got past thinking I couldn't afford it -- and actually enrolled -- I felt like I was DOING something -- even before I took the class! And then, once I was in that room -- I was mesmerized... it had me on the edge of my seat. It made me uncomfortable with some of the excuses I had been making (for my whole life!) and at the same time, no shaming! By the time the 4 days had come and gone -- I couldn't wait for MORE. Even though I had no job and dangerously dwindling bank account -- I enrolled immediately in the "Advanced Course" -- even having no idea how I would pay for hotel/etc -- or afford the gas to get there. (Advanced was in Chicago (10 hrs one-way from Kansas City where I lived then).

But, in the 10 days between classes -- it all fell into place. My friends and family were SO impressed with the "new me" (and no doubt so relieved that I was suddenly loving and invigorated instead of my old "hard-working-nose-to-the-grindstone-angry-energy-old-me) that several friends made me 'gifts' of cash for the trip -- even though I hadn't even told them I was unsure how I was going to make it happen! And -- I got brave, and contacted another Forum graduate, who was so excited about going on to the Advanced Course that she was asking for roommates to share hotel. (In the past, this is something I would NEVER have even considered -- sharing a hotel room with a total stranger... and committing to taking a 10-hour trip with her (each way) -- I mean -- I am sure that many of you right now reading this are thinking -- "NO WAY -- It makes my skin crawl!"

But Tina and I are extremely close friends now (because of sharing that trip)-- and we had a great time sharing the room -- like a 'slumber party' for adults... it was really fun! In fact, she just came out here to the ranch in October, right before my BMX for a visit.

Anyway -- here's the thing. I put myself out there and enrolled -- and let the Universe put the rest into place. We ended up taking the double-decker "Metro" bus (I had never heard of it) for $25 each way from KC to Chicago! No way that would have paid for gas if we had driven!

One more thing is that you actually get TWO classes for the price of the Forum -- because part of the Forum includes a 10-week (one-night-a-week) seminar -- on different topics. One I went to was called "Money" -- and for 10 evenings we explored our hang-ups and blocks and assumptions all around money -- what it means to us, what would 'be enough' for us... it was fascinating! And what I discovered (by then I had already taken several Landmark Seminars as well as the Forum and Advanced) I discovered that all my hangups and worries about money had ALREADY disappeared! That was one of the 'Ah-Ha!" moments that proved to me that this new-way-of-being was PRACTICAL and had become my new way of life.

JoMama -- Yep -- this is the old EST training -- but updated. There is a fascinating DVD about Werner Erhardt (I got it through Amazon) -- and yes, in the beginning (back when it first started and was EST) one of the 'rules' was that you couldn't leave the room at any time (during the 12-14-hour session) for anything --- and come back in. You could leave, but not come back until the next day. The purpose was supposedly to prove to people that we CAN control our lives -- we can even decide to control our bodies to the point of NOT needing to pee! Well -- the old EST was pretty outrageous -- but extremely effective... and when the controversy got to be too great, Landmark bought it and softened the edges a bit.

I (obviously) reccommend this training as strongly as possible! And the proof is in the pudding -- much like your hair-dresser -- nearly every single person who does Landmark has found it life-changing enough to want to tell the world. Part of the 'controversy' was about just that -- the people who took the course were SO thrilled with the results that they (we) just keep talking about it, trying to share it with others who feel 'stuck' about something in their lives. If everyone in the world 'did Landmark' -- there would be no terrorism, no wars. In fact, since selling EST to Landmark, Werner Erhardt has become a consultant, still teaching this work -- which has been used to help settle national conflicts -- in Africa, Ireland, and I forget where else. Imagine two (or twelve) world leaders getting intensive group therapy together for several days -- and having to learn to trust each other! 

LisaMarie -- about your insurance not paying for reconstruction... I am positive that Essa is right -- that with UMX (or BMX) your insurance MUST pay not only for reconstruction, but also for whatever work needs to be done to the remaining breast to achive 'symetry'. However, since you already had reconstruction (your bio says you have TE's) -- your insurance may already have reached the limit of what it must cover... but one would think that complications would alter those requirements... (?)

I would definately go the the financial/insurance questions threads and ask people there if anyone else has experience with what you are dealing with.

And -- about Bridges of Madison County -- loved the movie -- hated the book! I read the book first -- and it was written by a man, from the point of view of a woman -- and (not being a woman) I think he completly flubbed what she would have been thinking about! The great thing about the movie (besides two great actors bouncing off each other) is that her 'thoughts' are MUCH subdued into whatever could pass for conversation or the reading of her diary. Much of the (my opinion) "stupid stuff" was omitted! I put off seeing the movie for a long time, and then really liked it.

Later,

Linda