Fuzzy's Romp Room
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Luv....you made me LOL for real!! That's not Good enough for her!! If there not leading, she's a wreck! But, I'm enjoying it so far!
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She wants to kick me out of "her" livingroom....LOL
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Enjoy snuggling. Mine came home last weekend for OH a little over 24 hours. Miss her dreadfully. Very responsible young lady. College degree, own apt, own car loan. Works for major corp. Know she has her own life and wouldn't have it any other way. It's cold here again, no sun today but it was in the lower 70s yesterday. Looks like they will make it to halftime tied. TRUCE for the both of you.
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Luv...it really is hard on me when they go back to school. I miss the girls so bad. I enjoy every minute they are here, that's for sure! Your daughter sounds so wonderful - like she's really got it together (nice job mom
Her own apartment too?? That doesn't seem very common anymore...I've told the girils since birth they never have to leave....ever! LOL I still mean it too...but, as you know, they probably will sooner or later. Ugh. We're still in the same room together even though the Niners are on top....LOL!!!
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Luv...BTW...it's like 19 degrees here...and really windy...LOL
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So...does this mean we have some really good days coming up?
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So, im taking effedrine again...for energy...and green tea capsules...for energy. My blood's pumping a little faster today but damn it...I need that!! The docs are going to hate it. Why, when I complain all the time about having zero motivation, do the only give me meds that are considered downers? I've gained 15 pounds and I've had enough of that!!! Lets put weight gain on top of my already cranky attitude!! LOL
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Poppin in to say the tub failure total by insurance is 5700$+, thankful for insurance.
Fuzzy, yes lots of construction, multiple projects per day. Looking for more to be done. Place is looking fine.
Catch up on reading soon-----love to everyone
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OMG sassy....you crack me up!!!
Here's to working with wood...screws....nails. -
Just stopping by briefly, am tired and don't feel like writing much, although it will probably turn into another book. There were just a few things that caught my attention.
I had a sheltie, also - my first and only dog of my own. I loved that dog, and miss him yet - lost him over 10 years ago.
Chemotherapy-induced peripheral neuropathy is HORRIBLE!!!! AND IT IS PREVENTABLE if you TELL YOUR DOCTOR ABOUT YOUR SYMPTOMS AND YOU GET THE CHEMO DOSE REDUCED AND/OR DELAYED until the neuropathy resolves. If you have pain or numbness in fingers or toes and you go ahead with the chemo, it can become permanent. I did not realize this, and it is over 2 years since I finished my last chemo, the fingers got worse for MONTHS afterward, stabilized at useless of over a year, and I am unable to practice my profession because of it. So my message is: Tell your MO about your symptoms, and DO NOT let him/her shrug it off or reassure you that it is PROBABLY temporary, that it will go away. My MO told me that, and when I have continued to have problems, she admitted that it could take 5 or 6 years or more, or may be permanent. Yes, I am still very angry with her. That is why I don't trust her and changed MOs.
I hope all your families are doing better tonight, that you are all feeling better or at least that you all had a few moments of pleasure or joy today. And fuzzy, I completely concur with the 2 comments above!
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Linda...howdy!! Wow...I did not know that you should pause treatment to reduce permanent damage risks!! Good to know!
I ended up with major anxiety today. Im pretty positive its from the drug I added. But, that's the way its going to be unless they finally want to listen to me...we'll find out...
Has anyone seen the movie What Dreams May Come? I'm a huge fan of Robin Williams (older...not younger...other than Mork ). Its a pretty intense movie and I'm just curious what others thought about it...
My daughters got a little something special from their dad Today...a 5 week old puppy. OMG! I can't believe it. They asked if I Would babysit it and I start tomorrow!! Oh geez I can't tell ya how much I love puppies!! And, I think my baby pup will get a huge kick out of it!! I will update with puppy stories Tomorrow night.
Everyone ok? Its been kinda quiet in here sooooo....maybe everyone is having an awesome weekend!!
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Lisa- we make choices---and we seek guidance---and we research---then we come to a conclusion that seems right for us. It's the best that we can do at the time. My twin had BC in 1996. Because of family history that struck---and I mean struck that year--2 aunts and 3 first counsins---it was a shock. I thought about an elective for many years. Then there was an internal push to it. Went after it. DUH. 2nd phase of elective---bingo --BC.
Why then, why anything. The bugger was very aggressive.I'm still here. Why? Dear friend whose gone through mets to liver and remission, then mets to liver and lungs and then remission, has been RETRIEVED by chemo primarily herceptin. Her statement as a nurse "Is God isn't done with what he want's me to do". It's been since 1998.
Lisa----we haven't a clue of the why and the how. I keep asking people to be prepared. BUT so many want to do avoidance on being prepared. It sucks b/c then chaos ensues. Preparation allows peace.
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All of this talk about daughters is making me teary eyed. I am so blessed to have wonderful daughters.
Today I'm going in for day surgery at one to have a skin graft, and I sit here exhausted, because after three weeks in the hospital and recuperating at home, I had the most fabulous day on Saturday bridal gown shopping with my girls! Oh, thank you God, it was just what I needed! It was an amazing moment when we knew it was "the one" and she said, "Yes" to the dress! So corny, but true.
(But let me tell ya'll somthing - after being mostly immobile for five weeks, your muscles really do atrophe. I hurt so much yesterday, I felt like I had run a marathon the day before! LOL But it was worth it.)
A real spirit lifter.
(Hope you are all doing well. With the girls home, I haven't been on here much.)
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I plan to submit a complaint about Nurse Nancy to the nursing board (and to send Nurse Nancy a copy of the complaint). Or I will send the complaint to Nurse Nancy with a copy to the board. I'll work on that later today. My PCP agreed that Nurse Nancy should have been in partnership with me and should be empowering me in my health care decisions, not making unilateral decisions and refusing to discuss it with me or even look at me.
Also, my PCP wants to get me off of as many drugs as possible. I don't know much more, but I told her I was willing to go back to the 2mg of xanax immediately, as opposed to having to subject myself to Nurse Nancy again. I told her the important thing was that she listen to me and take into consideration what is going on with me at the time. She definitely seems to believe that we need to work together. So now I am doing my best to wrap my head around the idea of getting off the xanax as soon as is practical.
I am going back in there today to see the GI guy about the hemmorrhoid. My doctor called it THE hemmorrhoid as opposed to YOUR hemmorrhoid so that I would not take ownership of the thing. I like that.
I will need to be more conscientous about doing stress-control exercises every day so that I can be ready to let go of the xanax. I'm hopeful that I will begin this in earnest today.
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Dunesleeper, I am sure you can make the change from xanax to mindfulness-based stress control if you have made that decision. OK, quick confession here: after reading on several threads about everyone with meds & SEs, having lots of them myself, I took myself off ALL my meds to try to get to a baseline before starting any of them again. I have had such low energy since chemo in Oct. 2010 (almost all the meds I take can cause fatigue), dry mouth (almost all the meds I take can cause dry mouth), a little loss of balance (ditto), GI problems (ditto again), and other stuff. So I dropped the ambien, pain meds, energy meds, antianxiety meds. I am now feeling better in many ways overall, but the pain and fatigue have been worse. So I am going to add one drug at a time until I figure out which works, which causes unbearable SEs. I realize there has to be a balance that is acceptable to me, and it is not something anyone else can do FOR me. I was surprised that I really have had minimal trouble sleeping without the ambien, and my balance is better at night without it - I still get up every 2 hours with hot flashes and bathroom trip. Using mindfulness-relaxation techniques, I am able to fall back asleep each time.
Strike_two, so glad you could do the shopping with your DD. I am sure that was one of the most meaningful times the two of you can share! I was smiling just thinking of the 2 of you, remembering my own mom shopping for my dress with me. It wasn't as successful - she and I just don't have the same fashion sense - she fell in love with a dress that I just hated. This was over 30 years ago! I found a dress that was NOT a wedding dress, wouldn't consider the shoes she thought I should wear (back then, heels or pumps would be appropriate, I chose ballet slippers, which have since been quite popular - I was just a little ahead of my time - I am all about comfort, not style) - anyway, the wedding was great, she adores my DH, and as part of our 30th anniversary year, we put on tux and dress and posed for portrait - we are still a great-looking couple. I hope the same is true for your DD and DSIL-to-be. Most of all, I am glad you are finding some moments of joy in this process.
Heading out to face the icy wintry mix here - not sure how the daffodils that have already been blooming will do with this turn of the weather. Brrrr. -
Sooooooo I think I am fine. I go to the endocrinologist to have blood tests and vitals before the next review on my new hormone protocol. The bp she said is 120 over 68 or so. I say that is ridiculous, my blood pressure is always perfect. (edited to add: I think this is extremely HIGH in my befuddled memory.) Will you please take it again before I leave today. She agrees. After the blood draw and such she offers to do now. It is now 116 over 65 or 75. Soooooooooo I say, what is a normal blood pressure reading because I am realizing I do not have a clue anymore. The memory thing is not fine at all.
Anyway, Gail, the day I have to pay bills I am a cranky fool. Have always been that way, though I love to organize stuff and cross off on lists. You would think I would be happy. Am glad you are getting a five week vacation and Hubby is backing you up on it. My hubby is good like that too. When he gets a vacation he stays home and does dishes and helps cook. He expects for me to do nothing but be on vacation too.
Danny Boy is due a real bath, no groomer around here is equipped to get him in the tub without lifting and it cannot be done. go figure. We always bathe him with hose in good weather but is in teens here now, so the tub in our house looks like the best deal. Need a hook on hosette and good flat strainer for lotsa black fur. We are using a waterless bath from Canada though and it helps a lot.
I am in four wool socks, two sweaters and a wool cardigan, velour pants, wool slippers, a wool scarf wrapped around my neck and tucked in, a little beanie on my head to top off the outpouring of body heat and keep me warm. I am freezing to the core. Took a hot shower this morn and it did not help. The heat is running, the electric ceiling heat fan is on, and I need a blanket to sit here.
Think I will bake the rotini today instead of boil and stovetop everything. And chocolate chip cookies.
I use my flower essences for stress and sadness. There are days when I feel the lights go out inside me. Don't know what I would be without that hope from the flowers to hold me up. I call them Creator's beauty angels, we can see these angels and they help us. They say you can even look at a picture of one and pull in the essence of what support they are here to offer. Flowers are beautiful and useful.
Star of Bethlehem for support during and after life traumas.
Sweet Chestnut is me quite often. It is for despair, despondency... the dark night of the soul, when we feel our back is against the wall. Spiritual support from all around is given. I pulled this info from a website, they say it perfectly......
"Dr. Bach said that Sweet Chestnut "Is the (remedy) for that terrible, that appalling mental despair when it seems the very soul itself is suffering destruction. It is the hopeless despair of those who feel they have reached the limit of their endurance." A person in the negative Sweet Chestnut state feels completely alone, helpless, hopeless, and unprotected. The emptiness and the despair are acute, yet he harbours no thoughts of suicide. This person fears breaking down under the stress and works hard to keep his anguish from other people. He may be recognized by phrases like "I don't know what to do," or "I'm at my wit's end," but he will not admit to the despair he's feeling. You may recognize him by the fact that no words of hope will enter his conversation, because he has none. Sweet Chestnut is one of the mostly strongly negative soul states, but does not always show up in its most extreme form. Interestingly, the extreme negative Sweet Chestnut state is often the beginning of a transformation into a new and much better life. This is an emergency state - a "dark night" for the soul - a time when old beliefs and patterns break apart and make room for new levels of consciousness, and even to a new connection to God. The negative state will resist the change, but this personality will somehow realize that he must hit rock bottom in order to rise again. After treatment with Bach Flower Remedies, the Sweet Chestnut personality will recognize that a new inner journey has started and he will welcome the ability to believe again. He may also experience a new personal relationship with the Divine Spirit. This person knows that he has been lost, but has been found again."
Sweet chestnut pictures.... and check out the grandfather of a tree these flowers grow on.....
What is your favorite flower? I can tell you what I remember or refresh my memory of what they offer, if you like. In the dead of winter, their essences are here for us too.
LOVEEssa
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Yellow roses, daisies and peonies are my favorite flowers.
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Lilac, lavender and Japanese cherry are mine.
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Daffodils and carnations are my favorite flowers!
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lilac, poppies, peonies and roses
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i like lilacs and lilies.. might have spelled it wrong and orchids .. i am totally having a day off .. not thinking about shit because im drinking .. what a life ..oh jeeze
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I like the spring flowers, especially tulips, forget-me-nots, and hydrangeas.
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So cool. I will check into these. None of them are Bach remedy flower essences but they are essences for the United States. I will have so much fun doing this tomorrow, it makes my heart flutter.
So - the wool socks and all - I somehow thought I had turned up the furnace and was in a 70 degree house. I had not. The temp was still at 62 and poor electric ceiling fan for heat was doing its best in such cold winter that it could not get the room past 65. I turned up heat and got all better in a hurry. Stupid brain cells.
I will be back tomorrow, I promise. With pictures.
LOVEEssa
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LoveEssa...I was terrified you had a fever!!! I'm sooooo glad you had the temp turned down. Whew.
Could I ask you to pick a flower essence for me? I need something for energy and happiness....something powerful and pretty....something that takes me from "here" to "there".... -
I'm in love with this bird. (I did not take the picture.) I can't help but think of Essa. He is sooo cute.
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Sunflowers! Marigolds! Lavendar! Mix of shasta daisies, Black-eyed Susans, and Ecchinacea. All of these are my visual preferences, but the marigolds and lavendar are the scents I adore.
Essa, the description of the sweet chestnut hit so close to home, I am wondering where you found the site. Is it related to aromatherapy? I have been working with an NP who uses aromatherapy - she completed an advanced study course in it, so I may ask her about this. I may have missed something in the conversation in the last few pages.
I have Easter lilies coming up, and I had tossed a planter with some type of bulbs out last year into my little pile of containers, potting soil, etc. They are coming up!!!! And now we are in the middle of ice and wintry mix... hope they all survive. I may bring the planter in and see what I get... such a nice surprise!
By the way, does anyone here know how to attach images when using an iPad? -
Dune, I love that little fellow. Such a sweet picture.
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PT, what sort of mindfulness meditation do you use to help you sleep . . . or just relax?
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Linda - the Sweet Chestnut hits home for a lot of us on a lot of our days and nights. That is because we have taken a hit. You didn't miss anything, it started at the flowers and tree pics. My Hubby - last night I read one of my blog posts to him, he laughed and then I read him the story of Tucker and the Turkey and he laughed until he cried. While I had him at the monitor I showed him the pic of the Sweet Chestnut tree, and read to him that remedy support info. This morning on the counter I find that he got into my box of flower essences and took out the bottle of Sweet Chestnut for me, just left it there for me to find. For that, I cried, am again.
About aromatherapy for Linda -- There are many therapies that are gentle, noninvasive. Such as Bowen therapy is the gentlest energy / body work ever, over chiropractic, acupuncture and such. Flower essences are gentler then homeopathy and aromatherapy. One can cause harm if they don't know what they are doing with the oils and the homeopathic remedies. But the flower essences were developed so anyone can use them and there can never be harm, it is a mere essence of the flower's gifts, not a medicine or oil or Rx drug.
Dunes - love love the bird.
Fuzzy - You want to get from here to there, as in back to whatever it was before we needed a romp room with padded walls?
Daughter showed up - will be back in a few......
LOVEEssa
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