Fuzzy's Romp Room

heymoose

PTdreamer, good news on test results.

Stirke Two, sorry to hear about your MIL's passing. May she rest in peace.

Dunesleeper, Lisamarie68 and anyone else unhappy with their implants, there is a very informative thread for breast sizing.  The thread is by Whippitmom and is located at Forum: Breast Reconstruction / Topic: Breast Implant Sizing 101. Check out the thread this may help when you go to the PS.

Fuzzy, Rider, Veggy and others that I may have missed have a great day.  

Hugs, Cheryl

lisamarie68

Thanks Moose , I went on there I guess I was supposed to be on there before my implants were put in.. they also ask for all kinds of mesurements . I am alone and dont have a tape measure lol.. well I guess I gotta go in the ps tomorrow and hope for the best... ho hum .. i never did get a choice on what kind or anything .. was never shown any either .. that is what happens when we do not know anything and put trust in doctors .. guess I better shut up before i get started again ..

thefuzzylemon

I'm ready to get started too! Did fine until a half hour ago...the little bitch started acting up (the Foob. ..shooting pains..ouchie ouch ouch). Took pain.medicine...I'll be back shortly....LOL

sas-schatzi

Linda, You are wonderful sensitive deeply spiritual person who is a year 1/2 out from the beginning of BC. You need time for all of you to heal. Everything you believe in got scmushed. Live in the moment as you have written and love. Corny as it sounds love will get you through. You're on Bonfires too. The discussion of Paul McCartney and "Let It Be". His words are a prayer of acceptance and recognizing he was surrounded by his mother's love. His words though reach to us. We have lost the before, but can create something new. More slowly than we would like. It's tough for me to say observationaly what it's like at 2yrs out, 3yrs out. I can say in 2 weeks is my 4th cancerversary and all things have gotten better since the brainsurgery, before that the shoes kept dropping. Think of what Jo1955 has written lately. "Sorry, been too busy". She's now past BC's grasp mentally. We may never truly feel that BC isn't there, but there is a day that you will say "Cluck it, I'm done with it". Diamondgirl has barely a minute to check in. So, many have gone on to LIVE when their time came. Yes, some of us die, but we live too. Plan on living. It's more fun. You miss your quips, whew it's so real, but your serious side has given sooooo much. Your wit where isssssss it? Practice on OMG THEY FOUND A CURE FOR STUPID. Read the same(OMG). My fav right now is Jeff Dunham videos on YOUTUBE.  Darwin Awards may touch your laughter center. Where is our laughter center? Has that been researched?  Court your sweetie, pretend he's a new beau---could be veRRy InTERResting.

Anonymous

I feel like I am always wearing a bra that's too tight. I wish that feeling would go away.it keeps me up all night.

thefuzzylemon

I feel like there's a garden tool against my chest wall...scraping and scraping....underneath my lemon sucker.....

sas-schatzi

What's a Lemon sucker?

Strike two and family so sorry for your loss

PTd Yay

Veggy, the train is wonderful, the pockets were getting tight. Plus having the BAR car is an added goodie.

Dunes with you on house fiasco's----tub failed leaked water intowalls and flooring of bath,dining, bedroom , garage--guess much repair, who knows till it's done.

sas-schatzi

Lisa Marie---so much the same, except idiot PS filled me to 850cc.  Odd b/c they don't look gigantuan, but that's what the card and operative record record. Hurt for 2 1/2 years. Then inexplicably the pain stopped. Before though it was a constant battle of sporst bra on>>hurt>>off>>hurt>>sp. bra on>> positioning>>>drugs>>each day was a trial. Never consider deconstruction b/c I figured if I got this far I was going to keep them until .......Then things got better.

DBF home ---off too see what may happen.

lisamarie68

Sas.. yes thats me sports bra on and off ... pain yuck .. itch ..burn .. and Veggy TIGHT ..omg ... i thought i'd seen the last of that with the TE's but guessin not sooo..

I Love this train .. I am sitting back with a nice glass of wine .. hoping soon we will all feel fine ..  

"come on ride the train , the Choo Choo Train " woo and if ya feel like dancin ... 

Ok im getting nuts .. prob my Lunesta .. siesta pill .. lol it's the only pill I take besides synthroid ...:)  

Love and Hugz

lisamarie68

Ok Veggy I just typed hopeserenitystrength in google and my blog comes up ... Hope U can find it there you will see pictures of me after surgery ,and the implants now .. hope it works ...xoxo

Linda-n3

Strike-two, I am so sorry, keeping you and your DH in my heart and prayers.

Sassy, I am actually 2.5 years into this, not 1.5.  This is my 3rd recurrence; first was 1 year after diagnosis (and just 6 months after finishing chemo); 2nd was a year after that, and this one is just 3 months after the 2nd one.  I don't trust my MO, so am seeing a new one tomorrow.

I'm not very talkative tonight either, but sure did enjoy Veggy's train from yesterday!  Hugs tonight - will check in on all of you later.

kathindc

Strike Two, so sorry to hear about your MIL.  May she rest in peace and may the good Lord give you and your DH strength during this time.

thefuzzylemon

Helllllllllloooooooooooo from the CooCooKachoochoo Car!! So, mom is still in the hospital. She's got something seriously funky going on with her arm now...I wont describe it, its pretty narly. They'll do an ultrasound on it tomorrow to look at the soft tissue.

I have my group therapy tomorrow...ugh. I'm hoping I don't want to poke myself in the eye this time when I'm there...

I ventured out tonight with DH. I kept saying no but he insisted. It was nice. I haven't been out in a while!

I'm going to look around the train...see who's got the lava lamps and Brownies....

Wren44

Strike two, Condolences to you and your family. Sounds like she had a long life, well-lived. My mil was also great. I try to follow her example with dil.

dunesleeper

OMG! I just lost my long post.

As I recall I started it by LMAO at Fuzzy's lava lamps and brownies.

Then I shared that I struggle with the bra on bra off pain tightness discomfort thing too.

Then I talked a little about my PS and how I just trusted him to make the decisions because he is so like an artist that I didn't want to interfere with his creative process.

Then I sympathized with SAS over her leak and mentioned that my toilet no longer requires my special talent to get it to flush right. Any idiot can do it now.

That was the condensed version. LOL

lisamarie68

Well the big day is here PS today ... a little nervous I might say . I know for a fact I am going to get yelled at for smoking ... I quit when I was diagnosed .. he said I had to be 3 weeks nicotine free or he would not do my reconstruction... so I was like hey doc (my surgery day ) I am 7 weeks nicotine free and 9 weeks smoke free.. he called me his mirical ... oh boy now I let him down .. But the friggin stress from all of this ...I don't drink so .. what the heck else to do to calm  my nerves .. noone has been on the non smoking boards for a whle ... I continue to put the patch on and not smoke , then I rip it off again .. shows how weak I really am ...maybe I caused all these problems with the implants .. wow my mind is taking over big time ..I don't want to be a WIMP.. I just need support here ... and willpower I suppose .. I will put the patch back on in a little while ... I gotta start living my life a healthier way .. I am just soooo glad I found u all here .. I am sorry that it is only 9 am and I am here bitching already .. sorry girls ... 

lisamarie68

Calling to confirm my appt ...and PS office states I dont have an appt ... I have been waiting for this since Dec 12th when I called ... soooooo friggin pissedf......anyway now after arguing that fact i am going in at 1 pm ... I feel as if I am one big pain in the asssssss ... but this is my body for gods sake ..... God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change !!!!!!Sorry again .. I am missing you guys 

sas-schatzi

Dunes erghhh I just lost a post too. Thanks for comisserating on the water disaster. Love the pockets!

Lisa lost my long post about foobs. Condensed version: In watching the posts around the boards, lots of people have problems as we have described. We post, look at suggestions, try some or all, save some & discard others. For mine, the length of time 2 1/2  years was perhaps complicated b/c I used arms and pecs very significantly the night Dh passed to keep him from falling out of bed. Had that not occurred don't know if length to nonhurting time would have been less. The misuse of my body parts was 1 year and 2months past exchange.

When the hurting stopped, it was after using the electric bed for x number of days(forget x) with head at about 45-60 degrees, with arms propped at about 90 degrees, legs up at 30-45 degrees. No sp.bra. The foobs fell dependently --down--not to the side. Surmizing that it took the pressure of the axilla/armpit. Previously, lots of sidelying with upper arm supported on pillows above body level, rotated frequently b/c of pain.  When the pain stopped, it seemed related to the new positioning b/c I hadn't done that before. But the unknown is whether the pain was ready to stop on it's own. Never will know, it just did.

What I can say, either from personal or nursing experience, is what we experience with this BMX/MX/Recon/snl or full LND is UNLIKE any other surgical experience. Other sx interventions, I could and others with long experience could ask what day or week post op the person/patient was and I/we could say exactly what they would or should be experiencing/feeling/doing if there were no complications. What is so different or devastating to the body about this particular surgery is a puzzle? Why after a 110 plus years since the first documented mastectomy surgery, is there all the problems that there are? Why the significant disability? Why the high complications of infection, LE, Loss of range of motion, chronic nerve pain syndromes? All the other surgical interventions have advanced hugely overtime with changes in actual surgical approach/ infection prevention protocols/modification of physical therapy i.e early mobilization unless determined to be detrimental. Nothing is as problematic as what we have experienced. Nothing.

So, much for the condensed version.

Linda-n3

lisamarie, my father was a smoker, quit when he developed SEVERE emphysema (early on was in complete denial). He actually lived with it for about 20 years longer than he should have, thanks to a wonderful pulmonologist. However, he LOVED smoking and would have gone back to it in a heartbeat at any time.  He was more than addicted to it, he enjoyed everything about it.  I know how hard it was for him to quit (cold turkey!) and I know you struggle with it.  I have seen a few folks who develped cancer or heart disease when they were in their late 70s or 80s, and my opinion is, if you have lived that long, you enjoy it, why not do it if it brings you joy?  Now, on the other side, if it is going to slow your healing (such as in plastic surgery where you want good oxygenated blood to get to all the damaged tissues so they can heal properly), or if you are very young and continued smoking will have a significant negative impact on your life, then you should quit. And who is to say that a couple cigarettes a day is harmful?  "All things in moderation."

My mother quit on a bet with my grandfather, she saved her "cigarette money" and bought a sewing machine.  She continues to save her "cigarette money" and spends it on luxuries for herself.  This has been going on for about 50 years now.... and with the price of cigarettes going up, she is able to buy nicer things! 

Now, if you need support to quit, I will be right there with you in whatever way you need.  Gentle reminders?  A hug? A reassurance that you can take each moment at a time, do some yoga breathing instead of sucking down tar and nicotine?   A kick in the arse?  Whatever you need, just ask for it! And don't beat yourself up over this - you are a human being, and that involves falling down once in a while, then picking yourself back up after a while.  Be kind to yourself, show yourself the same love that you give to others.

sas-schatzi

Linda-n I fogot about your recurrences, shouldn't have. So, you fall into the category of the unusual. Ergo, nothing can be predicted, accept that you are starting at the beginning each time. That may sound discouraging, but it should allow you to disregard questioning why you aren't recovering as others have. You have such strength of spirit. Let go of the why? Actually, your words have said that you have. You have developed so many outlets to keep your spirit alive i.e your art, philosophy learning, and helping of others. Keep on the train. Rant prn.

Veggy LOVE THE TRAIN --it's taking us somewhere all the time. We can devise the somewhere at a whim. Somewhat analogous to the BONFIRE. The BONFIRE allows us to do what we want with the burning, from a hot  seering burning of trouble to the sweet fire of friendship. Cool.

lisamarie68

Thank you Linda and Sas .. well after being a total brat to the nurse .. I am going at 1 pm to PS and she says we will schedule surgery for Feb to exchange for different implants .. (somewhat of a relief) Linda, I am not sure I like smoking anymore , I just do it because maybe I feel better for a second after smoking it ... maybe my mind tells me when I am stressed I need it ... when I quit before I stayed quit for 3 months and couldnt believe how great I felt.. I am 44 and tiny 5 foot 96lbs on a good day .. smoking and coffee also curb my appetite so I dont eat another bad thing .. I am glad to have support , it's been one hole hour since my last cigarette .. I dont have anymore but I can easily drive to get some .. I am not ... today is a day I feel like just crying all the time ... I am hoping for better times ... I am hoping my new foobs will be better ..  I am hoping for a new me at the end of the day ... I am happy to have friends like you , even if we cant see each other 

sas-schatzi

Lisa--if you are getting an exchange to new foobs--talk with Whippetmom--Deborah ASAP. She's on Sizing 101. She IS the absolute GURU of implants. She should/could teach PS's around the globe. I so wish I'd known of her for mine. I'll find the link and add here.

http://community.breastcancer.org/forum/44/topic/746448?page=246#post_3365766

lisamarie68

Sas , I did leave a post there .. on 101 thread .. she needs measurements and stuff I dont know any of that . I dont even have a tape measure lol... i have menntor smooth round mod profile 400 cc gel now .. I looked at the mentor sight and see a ultra high profile looks better .. it says smaller base width . I think that is half my battle these things are tooo wide for me ... anyway , I did go to that thread ... appreciate it

sas-schatzi

Lisa, She has a means to talk you through how to do the measurements, she sends them to newbies all the time. I read in your post that you don't want to go back there(101), ergo I should back off, BUTTTTTTT she is likely one of the most knowledgeable people in the world. AND that is Not being dramatic.

Linda-Ranching-in-the-mTns

Lisa -- The key to the smoking thing may be just to decide every single morning that you will not smoke for 3-more months... at which time you will then decide what to do next.

That way you are only making a 3- month committment -- much easier to make yourself a limited-time promise, and see where that leads you. 

That gets you through your surgery and recovery -- and by then, you probably will have kicked this addiction sufficiently to choose the 'stay-clean' option,  and (being under MUCH less stress post-surgery) you will be in a better place to make a longer-term health-committment!

You can do it! And you will feel so empowered by beathing the smoking-habit. Man -- if you are not even sure you like it anymore -- then imagine how GOOD it will feel to get that dirty monkey off your back!

We are all pulling for you -- and you can post about it here anytime!

Linad

Anonymous

I had 10 hours of sleep last night with minimal discomfort and now I am enjoying a cup of coffee. I cheated and had took some sleeping pills. Today is chemo day. Anyone want to come and cause problems? I see doctor Chaz  today. He's the one who can't say the word "sex". Last week I asked him to check my incision and he did. I thought or sure it would embarrass him or atleast make him sick. I was disappointed. He did it without flinching.

Hugs!

sas-schatzi

Chevy call me. We have a common bond in that we had Dh's that were loosing it in front of our eyes. You already have my number. sassy

sas-schatzi

Veggy--please find a sex question to ask him--we would so apreciate the amusement. I have one "Does frequent sex increase the estrogen or testosterone hormones produced by the adrenals?" He should have to do research on that one, which means he'll have to talk about sex at your next chemo heheheheheh!

luvmygoats

Veggy - In your pocket. Dr. Chaz will just have to get over himself. Whatca planning on asking him today????

Anonymous

Sas - How a question about the lack of desire?