INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

Enerva

Oh ya and one cute for those who love dogs. look at this cute little thing.

ha ha ha i miss having one.

dutchiris

Sorry for your loss Blessings.

Anonymous

Blessings, before I try to catch up on reading, I am so sorry for your loss. Your MIL is pain-free and at peace now. How are you and DH holding up? You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers; sending hugs and love to you to get you through the days ahead.

Wren44

Dutchiris, Sounds like it could be the flu. If you start running a fever, give your doctor a call.

dutchiris

I did get a flu shot so hopefully not that.

mdnghtdeb3

Hi, everyone! I'm new here and not sure what is discussed/not discussed in this forum. Can anyone out there give me a hint? I'm one day post op and feeling ...well, not sure what I am feeling, but sadness is at the top of my list. 

Enerva

Hi and welcome Mdn, i am always catching up with this forum but it is a great place to be when you cant sleep. The ladies here are all very knowledgeable and kind, they are very positive and funny. i am sure someone else will tell you more about this forum.  

  

mdnghtdeb3

Thank you Enerva! The rest of my family is sound asleep right now and I am feeling so alone. They are exhausted, and I am glad they are getting much needed rest as they have been so worried about me and taking such good care of me, but the tears are flowing and I can't seem to make them stop. I know I should be happy that the surgery is over, but I can't help but wonder about the biopsy results that will come in the next few days. I'm wondering what I look like now under the bandages. I wonder when and if I will be able to shut my brain off and sleep. I'm so sorry to sound so down, but I'm overwhelmed with so many thoughts. 

Blessings2011

Holeinone – one of my favorite expressions! “$@*%# her and the broom she flew in on!”

Cami – good advice!

Chevyboy – Ahhh… Dye job: check! Haircut: check! Top half is
beautemous tonight. Toes, not so much. Will try to post a pic after pedi. Love
the “Check Liver Light” funny.

Tang – someone mentioned cuddling… believe it or not,
sometimes that’s all a guy wants – especially if it’s been a loooooong time…

Badger – my MO told me the same thing: “Use it or lose it!”
When I told DH that, he looked at me like I told him tomorrow was Christmas
Day. He also considers my MO his new BFF.

Sassy – thyroidectomy on the 28^th? Hope you have
BIG POCKETS!!!

Teka – is the thread a buzz, or is your head buzzing?

Jazzygirl – how sweet that you were able to give eulogies
for parents and brother… that can be very hard to get through. What a gift to
them, though!

Luvmygoats – I love Ethan Allen stuff! Used to be it was all
like my mother’s Early American style, which is not me. Now I have an Ethan
Allen wall unit with displays, and the top half of an Ethan Allen Entertainment
unit mounted over the big honkin’ flat screen above the fireplace. I can’t
stand to look at a big TV in a room. Soooo… exactly how big IS this giant
economy size KY you get for your goats? What kind of sexy description does it
have on the package? “For those intimate times in the barnyard… “

Dutchiris – Ohhhh NOOOOO! Not sick! Bugs, go away! Tylenol
if you can take it, nice hot tea made from fresh ginger, lemon, boiling water, and
honey… a hot shower and a soft bed. Rest, rest, rest!

Enerva – so sweet!

2TA – believe me, all those prayers and good thoughts are
deeply felt!

mdnghtdeb3 – if you find out what the topic is here, please
tell us. I don’t think any of us knows. But stick around, you won’t be sad for
long. If unwanted thoughts are crowding your mind at night and keeping you from
sleeping, try writing things down in a journal. Sometimes committing them to paper allows them
to leave your brain. Big hugs to you.

Blessings2011

Sistahs – 

Many thanks for the continued sweet thoughts. Even
though I took a day off today, I was still planning. We are expecting maybe 200 at
this Memorial. I like to organize events, and since DH and I are the only local
ones, it makes sense. (Not like any of the siblings are rushing to help. Oh, well. We're used to it.) Dad has asked us to just handle things.

Little by little, the details are coming together.
Tonight I made a flyer for the guests who spout the old standard “Call me if you need anything.” 

My version gives concrete suggestions like “If you are cooking a meal for your family,
make extra, and take Dad a plate. Better yet, invite him to join you, and go
pick him up. Eating alone is hard.”

I also added things like phone calls, cards, grocery
shopping, running errands, chores and tasks, yard work for those who are up to
it, driving Dad to doctor’s appointments, and just being there and listening to
Dad’s stories. At 92, he has a lot.

I think I'm going to put a stack on each of the tables at the reception.

Church tomorrow... our church family is awesome. It will be nice to see people.

Hope by now you Owlettes on the East Coast are snoozing away....

xoxoxoxo

Enerva

well i took a pill, i need to sleep tonight, its already past 2 and not sign of sleepiness so pill needs to help. i just cant stop from wondering what will happen on Monday. and next Sat with my exam,and also at PT.

Any hope you get some rest too. 

mdnghtdeb3

Blessings2011...thank you! I will give the journal a try! ...and the hugs are greatly appreciated. 

Anonymous

Wow, am 3 pages behind!

mdnghtdeb3, welcome, I'll be here for a while. Took a long nap this afternoon, wide awake now, so don't feel like you're alone. That's the beauty if Insomniacs - companionship during the night. We're here all day too, but it's such a comfort to have a listening ear when it seems like there's no one else around. Only warning, someone is bound to shorten your name.....

Gingerbrew

How did I get six pages behind?

Alyson

Oh dear 3 pages behind.

Sending love and prayers Blessing. 

Hope everyone is having a restful weekend.

Alyson

PS

forgot the owl

Chevyboy

Uh-oh.... The Cammi isn't up.. looks like I have this place to myself.

So what's this? We have a new gal who is sadly? Can't have that! And her name is .... wait, what is it? Something like MidnightMadness????? See, I went back a page to actually correlate this, and I'll get back to her in a minute, but man, I just hate being SAD!!!

GG.. Yes... Whitney was just the best...

Morning little Bluebirdofhappiness! And Blessings!

Seemed appropriate here.....

How's it going Badger?

SASS! OMG!!!!!!!!! YOU asked "who's PLAYING"???? Do you even know what the Super Bowl IS? Don't ask your friends THAT!! They will make other arrangements! Glad SOMEone straightened you out! Where do we GET these people?

Badger! HERE we go!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JZVV_SwfeIo

Morning Jazzy!

Uh oh.... Dutch Iris has the Squeabs! I just made that up! It's just like the flu... If MY upper teeth hurt, I would take them OUT! Where do you live? In Holland? No wonder you are cold and have the chills!.... Wait... sorry.... I was just being fastidious.... Ha....! That word does not go there...

ENERVA! I sent YOUR picture to my Grandson's! THAT is the biggest snail I have ever seen! He got a lesson from my Dad's old neighbor, about snails.... And how to "fix" them..... never mind.... but I love that little puppy!

Morning Wren and 2nd! THERE she is... "mdnghdeb3".... Good Lord, I won't get YOU straight girl! How's about just "Deb?"..... I'll wager your name is Debbie.... right? See? We are very intelligent on this thread. Oh man, I hope you are feeling better! So WHAT did they do to you? We won't tell.... but we surely will fix you, or make you feel better! YOU were the one crying! I'm sorry... Yes, that is normal. If you are a woman, that is normal..... Just takes time.... like maybe 12 years or so.... then you will feel better....   (I gave you a smiley face.)

Rule #1.... just don't think.... Cammi and I don't. If you think, you will get sadly.

Hi Blessings again... "Christmas Day"..... Ha, ha! I can just see that!

I don't talk about toes.... Mine are rather sketchy, to say the least.... I mean my toe-nails.... and that one toe!

Yes Deb... Blessings had a good idea! Write it all down... You can always tear it up, but writing your thoughts gets them out in the open! And then they will leave....

Morning Aly! Love your owl! It reminds me of midnightDeb, or something!

Okay.... well guess Cammi is still in bed, so I can't find her....

xoxoxoxoxo

Chevyboy

Littlegoats... My Daughter just sent me this!

Chevyboy

dutchiris

It's my birthday and also Ground Hog Day.  After about 4 hours of sleep, I still feel crummy.  

No, Chevy, I'm not in Holland. I'm not Dutch, I just like dutchirises.  It is cold outside here in Wisconsin.  I think I'll stay inside today if at all possible.

Chevyboy

Oh!  Good Morning, and Happy Birthday littleDutch!  My Dad's Birthday was today also!   And I LOVE Dutch Irises also!  I've planted a lot of bulbs!

They are smaller than the average Iris, and the leaves are prettier! 

Yes, it's only 8 degrees here right now!  And a LOT of snow on the ground....

Jazzygirl

Mdn- welcome to the thread. You are getting good care and comfort from those around you, from the sounds of it. Let them help you all you need and get some rest. 

The waiting for results is the hardest. I hope your pathology results come quickly so you know the next steps in your treatment. The ladies here seem to talk about everything and lots of owl pictures as many who post are insomniacs (myself too sometimes). Nice supportive group, people will help you here.

Dutchiris- I hope you don't have the flu. I know several who have had the shot this year and got it anyways. It is a really nasty year for the flu and it sounds like the shot is only 70% effective (ugh). There are other things going around too so you may have another bug. So sorry you have to be sick on your birthday, but wishing you a good one just the same!

Chevyboy- morning right back at cha!

Chevyboy

I took this picture a few years ago...  Lacee is laying in the yard, with my common Iris...

mdnghtdeb3

Good morning! Thank you for all the warm welcomes! Didn't sleep much last night and woke up with the tears starting once again. This can't be! How can one girl cry so much? I also woke up with a sore throat and cough. No fever, but not feeling so good. I tried to write a few things down last night, which did help...so thank you for that! xo 

Didn't even dawn on me that my name would be too long...you can shorten it any way that works best. Is there a way I can change it on my profile? 

Jazzygirl...I'm having a very hard time allowing others to help me. I know they care, and I feel very lucky to have such a great family and group of friends, but at the same time...as horrible as this may sound...I don't want to need their help. I have always been the one to care for others. I bake the cookies, send the flowers, wipe the tears, etc. I'm not used to and not really liking being the one who needs help. It's hard for me. I know I am somewhat of a newbie to all this, but why can't I stop crying? Oh dear, I'm not making a very good first impression here, am I? I'm so sorry. 

tangandchris

Morning owls! Have I been around long enought to say that? lol

Blessings-I dont know how you do it...sounds like a lot of stuff to put together. But, I love the idea of putting stuff down for people to do. I find that to be very difficult, when people say "let me know if there is anything I can do", do you take them up on it...or is it just a go to that people use when they don't know what else to say? My life group at church as asked me several times, and I just plain don't like asking for help. Cancer has a way of pushing you out of that though

It's gotten very cold here this morning. I should have gone out yesterday to get stuff to make potato soup grrrr. Luvmgoats-got any wintry precip over there yet?

Happy Superbowl Ya'll

 

mdnghtdeb3

Oh, I almost forgot...Happy Birthday, Dutchiris! There are plenty of parties going on today to help you celebrate!

Chevyboy...I had a double lumpectomy and lymph node dissection on Friday. I can take the bandages off later today or tomorrow, but I don't want to. Okay, that's not true. I do want to, but I'm afraid to what I might see when they do come off. Hubby wants to help me, but I honestly just want to be alone. 

tangandchris

mdnghtdeb3-You do what you are comfortable with, if you want to be alone I'm sure dh will understand. ((hugs))

dutchiris

Oh, I like all irises but those are my favorite colors.  I have some common irises in my backyard as well.  Lacee looks happy.

Jazzy, I hope whatever I have is short-lived.  I'm on call for work today.  I'll have to take something in a bit.

Mdn, welcome and sorry you feel down.   waiting is hard. We have little to no control over what is happening to us.  It's stressful but one step at a time and we will get through it.

Good morning, Alyson. Or is it Good night for you?  Raw asparagus, really?  I think that may have been another thread.  I read several threads and then can't remember where I read this or that.

Blessings, I'm not good with words so I could never write a eulogy our anything like it.  What a great thing that there are people like you who can help us honor the memory of our loved ones.

Teka

Good Morning!!

Flowers are always a pick-me-up!

Jazzygirl

Mdn- I totally understand where you are coming from. We are very much alike, in that I have always been the one to help others. I came from a family that always expected me to do for them, rarely got much support in return. Therefore, I have become a very self sufficient woman in my adulthood. It too was very hard for me to accept help when my health changed, but I found I really had to. It is okay to let others help you, a sign of strength and not weakness.

Here is what might be helpful. You are probably used to being pretty independent and suddenly now you are not. For those helping me, I asked for help with the things I knew I could not do on my own. Rides to places when I needed them, someone to take me out to do grocery shopping or run other errands. My sister set up a cleaning service for me because I live alone and could not do that much for awhile. It allowed me to feel a bit better about things. I took care of my finances, bill paying, etc. The things I could do that did not require much moving around!

Your tears are a very normal part of this process. From the moment you get diagnosed to the time you get into surgery, things move very quickly. There is no time to think, react, or cope. That was my experience, I just become numb and then just got through it. But the tears come later and they still come from for me time to time too. I think we all go through a sort of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder with this. 

You are not alone. But if you feel it is too much and does not get better in awhile, tell your doctors during follow up so they can help you. Sometime we need sleeping aids, anti-depressants, etc. for awhile as we go through treatment.

I am sorry you are having such a difficult time. Lots of nice folks here to help and listen.