I Come to the Garden...

Meece

Please do, and bring your specimens back to the garden so we can further examine them.

3jaysmom

just wanted to jump in here. have been in bed, after 2nd surgery, this one hurt WAY more than the dbl mx..and it was considered minor plastic surgery.  i was wondering why ps kept trying to find me a strong pain med i could take more often..because of m.s.; meds dont work weell on me,,anyhoo, he was "just" removing the dog ears that were near my armpits..from side to middle of back, the cut is 7"....7"!!!! i still am in shock. he got rid of the dog ears, and some scarring i had, to boot. since he's nixed any recon for me, he tried to pretty it up for me. i just depressed me more. i looke like a 13 yr old boy, whos 9mos pregnant.. i cant hardly look in a mirror anymore...who IS that woamn? any way, got caught up on reading this thread.. elimar, the pic is beutiful, as usual. i loved that "motherfly" u guys found..see ya      light and love, 3jaysmom

Meece

(((hugs))) for you, 3jays.  I will pray that your pain subsides.  Why did the PS nix future recon?  can you get a second opinion?  Stay strong, but lean on Him.

3jaysmom

thanks for the hugs, and the prayers, meece. i need them all..this isnt the first ps, i saw a few before masectomy last yr, and they all agree, with all my health problems i would be foolish to even try any recon. ms would reject it, or id get an opportunistic bacterial infect., or have another stroke..so, thats it. it sucks to be me..but i have gotten this time, and will keep going health wise. its just foolish to  worry about cosmetic issues now. the way he put it, i could live from breast cancer, then die from vanity..i know he's right, but when i look in the mirror, im horrified !and it 100x's better than t was. mine was a ra dical, so, im not just flat, i have indents..im just praying a lot to accept myself as i find myself right now.your support has helped alot. off for more testing. onco is convinced i have some abdominall/gyn/gi tumour, so im having a pet scan, and an ultrasound. added to the gi scan i prev. had, a colonoscopy, and an endoscopy. they keep finding stuff that chemo did, but the bloat keeps getting larger. something is causing this gas, but they dont know what..yet. i guess patience is in order..i never pray for patience, then God gives you times to practice it. so, im prayinf for acceptance,that feels more pallitable, somehow. thanks for checking in for me. ireaaly appreciate it.   light and love, cherieaka 3jaysmom

Meece

Cherie, I now understand why recon is out for you.  I did not have a mx, so I cannot speak from experience, but I suppose you could look at it as a gift.  You can be assured that you are balanced, something I have been striving for for nearly 7 years.  You can decide just how big you want to be to look good in the outfit you picked out to wear.  I have to find ways to make me fill out any outfit normally, and I have no Idea how to pad the one side to make it look right.  make the lemonade with the lemons you have.

In Feb. I got the "pleasure" of having Breast MRI, CT scans of head, chest, abdomen and pelvis, and I.V. ultrasound for my pelvis.  I get to repeat some of them come the next month or two. 

We will pray for the wisdom of your physicians to find what the problem is.

More hugs coming your way (((Cherie)))

3jaysmom

thanks so much for listening, and hearing, meece. balance was one BIG reason i opted for a double mx. in the beg. also, left breast had "questionable" tissue..it exploded from an abcess in some of the remaining tissue 3 wks out of surgery. bs said God was watching out...and i also believe it. i couldnt do the other side now, if i wanted/needed to, ive been so weakend from treatmt. and yes, its wonderful to be able to size up, or down....i was a big girl 42dd, and i settled into a 36B, but am ordering larger soft forms because my belly is getting so bloated. its just my job right now, to show up for dr. appts..and its Gods job to give the results. my therapist today reminded me that the onco is covinced theres a tumor, not necc. cancerous... i hope he's right, but, im not so sure, as just praying..i have a few days off from drs..Fischer DGS is home from cancun ! lucky 2 yr old that he is this wkend, so will be visiting him. the best things in  life ARE free !! light and love, cherie

Meece

Cherie, keep looking on the bright side.  Hugging little ones can be so theraputic!  Enjoy Fischer.  And enjoy your days off!  ((((Hugs))))

Meece

Edited to add a list of the songs and hymns which have been posted in this thread:

Pg 1

I come to the Garden Alone

How Great Thou Art

The Old Rugged Cross

Just a Closer Walk with Thee

Pg 2

O God, Our help in Ages Past

Nearer My God to Thee

Make Me a Blessing

Shall We Gather at the River?

A Mighty Fortress is our God

I Love to Tell the Story

In My Heart There Rings a Melody

Pg 3

All Things Bright and beautiful

It is well with my Soul

Pg 4

Amazing Grace

Pg 5

Mountain of God

What a Day that will be

Pg 7

Bow the Knee

Because He Lives

Pg 9

Awesome God

Pg 10

Behold the lilies of the field

It Satisfies Me

Pg 12

There is Power in the Blood
Sweet Hour of Prayer

Christ Arose

Christ the Lord Is Risen Today

Via Dolorosa

The Old Love Letter

Because He Lives

Pg 16

Grace Greater than Our Sin

Pg 17

His Eye is on the Sparrow

Make Me a Blessing

Pg 22

Blessed Assurance

3jaysmom

thanks for YOUR faithful friendship, also,meece. DH is here, just commented how lucky/blessed i am 2 have found "such good friends as that.."  light and love, cherie aka 3jaysmom

faithandfifty

Here's some pretties from our garden-walk last week:

This one made me think of Barbe's "Disney-description".....seemed like something created in a cartoon shop or from an animation studio:

And this one fascinated me. Tiny bursts of color:

Cherie, we have a real gem in our Meece.

We're all here cheering for you!! Being faith-filled when the situation at hand is filled with challenges, is a way to honor our Creator.

Eph3_12

Faith-that 2nd one is amazing.  Do you know what it's called?

faithandfifty

I have no idea, Joni.

Wait till Meece comes thru -- she is the most amazing researcher.

deborye

I have seen quite a few of these Hummingbird Moths on my tall Flocks odd looking creature.

Meece

Good Morning Ladies.  I believe that the purple flower is a form of African Daisy.  The petals are sometimes referred to as spoons.  I have the normal African Daisies in my yard.  Maybe I'll try the "Spoonies" someday.

I can tolerate hummingbirds, but I have "issues" with fast, random moving insects, grasshoppers, crickets, bumble bees, and hummingbird moths just move to quick and unpredictably for me.  I like looking at them in pictures instead.

barbe1958

Yep Faith, them there are those Disney flowers I was talking about...and that there is one of them Disney moths.....what a great imagination our God has! heheehehheheehhehee

2Hands4me

Faith - I really think your comment needs to be in all capitals - "Being faith-filled when the situation at hand is filled with challenges, is a way to honor our Creator". WOW!  I can't even begin to find the right adjective to describe the impact of that statement!!!!!! What a way you have with words!

And I agreee with you too, barbe - God certainly has a great imagination! Just look at all the different kinds of people, animals, flowers, plants, insects etc. etc. that there are!

Love the pictures, too!

Meece

Another prayer request for Grace.  She is certainly being tried.  Matt called a couple of hours ago.  He had just dropped Grace and her DH at the airport.  Grace's father has had a stroke and is in intensive care.  They have headed stateside for a couple of weeks.  Please pray for their safe travel, Grace's health to withstand the stress of this trip, and for His will in her father's health.

BLESSED ASSURANCE

Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
O what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
born of his Spirit, washed in his blood.

Refrain:
This is my story, this is my song,
praising my Savior all the day long;
this is my story, this is my song,
praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, perfect delight,
visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
angels descending bring from above
echoes of mercy, whispers of love.

Perfect submission, all is at rest;
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
watching and waiting, looking above,
filled with his goodness, lost in his love.

barbe1958

Grace is certainly in my prayers as is her Dad now. I thought she was moving "home" soon anyway?

Meece

They are not due to leave Japan until Sept 3rd.  So this expense is most likely a totally unplanned one,  That may be another area we keep lifted up.

3jaysmom

thanks for ALL of that, Faith...i sometimes feel like..oh yeah, this s where i used to curse God, now, this is the placw i remember who He is, and who I am..JO, i think thats he hardest..knowing its god will, because its here; but not knowing WHY..it seems its better to just accept whatever..as coming fro His hand,and move on. if i start asking why..thats when it all comes from the enemy, fear, lack of faith, anxiety..then, i have to back all the way back to, God put this...whatever, fill in the blank...in my life; now, what am i suppossed to do with it? tthats my process, long and convoluted....thats why my life verse remains    "I believe, help thou my unbelef..." thanks for listening. am praying for Grace, and her dad....light and love,     3jaysmom

3jaysmom

dont mean to bicker...i believe what i believe, its all semantics.. i believe God allows (puts ) things in MY life, you believe what you want to believe happens in yours. im sorry to be, but i feel .CORRECTED; which i dont believe ANY of us can, nor should do, to each other. not picking a fight, dont need to continue discussing it, but im 60; not 6 yrs old...light and love,   3jaysmom

mumito

Just found out about Grace.She has been added to my prayer list.

Took this photo last week

barbe1958

Mum that's beautiful!!! You done good!

mbtlcsw01

Up close and personal with this blue heron at Sanibel Island last December.  I love birds.  God didn't create just one, but so many different kinds.  He did it becasue He loves us.

barbe1958

And He loves it when we appreciate His imagination!!

(I can't see your pic at work, I'll check it out when I get home.)

mbtlcsw01

Hello friends.  I ask you to add to your prayer list my son, his girlfriend and a baby on the way.  Not how I would have wanted it, but she has high risk pregnancies with a blood clotting disorder.  We found out yesterday we are going to be grandparents for the first time in March.  They plan to be married after the baby is born.  God is in control.  I am excited, but cautiously optomistic.  They love each other and not living together right now as they both get some counseling for awhile.  God has a plan.  I'm trying to stay out of His way

Eph3_12

Mary, I will be praying for this situation!  Thanks for entrusting it to us.

Meece

Your son and family have been added to our prayers, Mary.

" A baby is God's opinion that the world should go on" Anon

mbtlcsw01

Thanks everyone.  They are going to church together and hearing the word.  God is at work.

mumito

How about some prayers for Konakat ladies she is having a very rough week.

sheila888

I wanted to post something on her thread. But since this stage thing, didnt want to offend any other posters. (((((Elizabeth)))))♥