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  • ravdeb
    ravdeb Member Posts: 3,116
    edited September 2006
    Tracy..
    That must be really hard to grasp..knowing that he has a new relationship so soon. But, like you said, your life is so much better now. You've rid yourself of that toxic relationship and you are so much better for it!
    You just be patient! Your life is moving along so nicely, you are so active in good things that fulfill you. This is so much more meaningful.
    I know it hurts..but that's okay. Just keep your chin up!
    We love you!
  • ravdeb
    ravdeb Member Posts: 3,116
    edited September 2006
    Kelly... glad to see you are keeping up your secy. job here!

    Jill..what gorgeous pictures! Thanks for sharing those with us.

    Rosemarie...YES! Glad to hear your daughter got into a more appropriate ballet class. True..there IS no "normal". We are each individuals. And Brownies...brings back memories of MY childhood. No Brownies here but there are Israeli scouts..just not in our town. I was really sad about that. My dh and I tried to push for it when the kids were young, but it never worked out.

    And John Michael a Cub Scout! Wow! Your kids are growing up! My brother was a scout in the States. Love those uniforms!

    Laura..we know you are there...and yes..make yourself a Rock-tober shirt. You'll need it when we get on Oprah!!!
  • debbie444
    debbie444 Member Posts: 847
    edited September 2006
    So much happening!
    Brenda - there is 1 teacher, then i do 10 hrs, and my friend does 7hrs. Someone from the autism unit comes for a short while too but in the afternoon the teacher is on her own!!!

    Oh i so love the whole cubs and scout thing etc. Mark was a beaver, now a cub and Catherine did Rainbows, brownies and is now a guide - camp fire tomorrow night !

    There were some super pictures - it was good to see your kids Maryanne.

    We had 8 tonnes of hardcore delivered yesterday which roger and his friend moved, just got back from work to find pallets of bricks and blocks - i pray someone else is coming this time too!
    DEbbie
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited September 2006

    I had to laugh when I read that Debbie's house got 8 tonnes of hardcore delivered to her house! LOL The English language doesn't always mean the same thing everywhere!

  • marymelodi
    marymelodi Member Posts: 515
    edited September 2006
    I'm also laughing . . . what is hardcore, Debbie???
    Mary
  • debbie444
    debbie444 Member Posts: 847
    edited September 2006

    OMG - just realised ! RUBBLE ladies RUBBLE!

  • ake
    ake Member Posts: 684
    edited September 2006
    here's a new pic of me and my lovely husband. i actually love my hair right now. i always love to post pics of my husband because he's such a cutie [image]image[/image]
  • TracyNY
    TracyNY Member Posts: 434
    edited September 2006
    I have been up to no good recently! And now I have only one arm to use. I'm going to fight a parking ticket looking like the one armed bandit, I hope it gets me some pity!! $115 for parking in the no standing zone!

    Truth be told, I parked my car there all day every day for four months and this is the first ticket I got. If I paid to park it would have cost me $800 ($10 per day x 80 days) so I still made out pretty good!

    I am loving this LE massage!! I had an hour today and I have 90 minutes scheduled for tomorrow.
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited September 2006

    Amy, your hair is adorable and so is your hunny!

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited September 2006
    TaDah, one day you are going to have to tell us what you do for work and where you work. Have you ever thought of writing a book like everyone keeps suggesting?

    Now, what is going to be your excuse for parking in a red zone??? LOL
  • maryannecb
    maryannecb Member Posts: 1,453
    edited September 2006
    Tadah you are a woman after my own heart. I live in a small city. I never ever pay the parking meter. The fine is only 15 dollars and I get hit maybe once a yaer. I like living on the edge...

    Amy your hair looks much straighter than mine. Are you straightening it? I have a large cowlick and can only work down bangs on one side and that takes effort. The bangs want to spring back all day. LOL.

    Hardcore..........what is happening???????LOL.

    Tracy , I divorced my first husband. I was so hurt when just one month after I said it was over when he got a girlfriend. I think it meant that for me it was really over. I left him because his priorities were all in the wrong place. When I saw how little he fought for us and how soon I was replaced I knew for sure his idea of love was no where near what mine was. I have since moved on and am quite happily married to someone who loves and respects me and I love and respect him. Take some time to discover you again. When you love whp you are again you will move on too.

    Mary, my sock size is 6 1/2. I wear knitted socks for slippers always. It will be nice to have pink ones. Thanks.

    Kelly, how was your MUGA? Good I hope. I get Herceptin tomorrow. Hope they can find a vein. It took 6 pokes, two by the radiologist to get the IV for my CT last week! Only 6 Herceptin to go.

    Brownies and cubs...those were the days.

    Fists up!
  • ake
    ake Member Posts: 684
    edited September 2006
    mary-anne...i didn't get the post-chemo curls. my hair came back as straight as it was before it fell out. it's thicker, so i can put wax in it and make it messy, but that's it. no curls. bone straight. grrr. at least it's hair
  • TracySeattle
    TracySeattle Member Posts: 690
    edited September 2006
    Amy - love your pic, your hubby is a cutie!

    Maryanne & Ravdeb thanks for the good words. I know that I am much better off now. I am feeling good and moving on!

    Tonight is our first cancer support group at church! I sure hope someone comes!
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited September 2006
    Tracy, I so hope it works out for you at the church! You are so wonderful to do this for others. Tell them all, next time, how much you are loved!!

    MaryAnne, my MUGA was "in the 50's" per the tech. So, I was allowed to take my treatment. Unfortunately, I have the huge bruise from the 1st tech who couldn't get the iv in and then blew my vein. Its huge! I mean, it looks like I got bit by a horse.

    --------
    what kind of girls do we have here?? Hardcore and teabagging? (tee hee)
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited September 2006
    Just read this quote on another post:
    Quote:

    I have a great support system and hope that you do as well. Night time is hard..that's when the seven "dwarf demons" come out and play in your head--fear, worry, pity, anger, hopelessness, doubt, and the bugger of them all~the past~back when life was good and you only knew of cancer in other people




    Isn't that a great description???
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited September 2006
    Amy -
    You look great! I bet you never thought you'd like short hair! dh is a cutie!

    Tracy -
    I feel bad that you're hurting....even if you are happier now, it's still hard. A gentle hug has been sent your way...

    Laura
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited September 2006
    Hey this is interesting...here's a link to info re: a vaccine for breast cancer survivors to possibly prevent recurrence...

    Tracy -
    They're looking for stage 3 gals in Seattle for the clinical trial. I don't know if you're stage 3 or not - but you still may want to inquire.

    http://community.breastcancer.org/ubbthr...8431#Post420048

    Laura
  • RoseMarie
    RoseMarie Member Posts: 502
    edited September 2006
    Amy - beautiful picture - you guys are such a nice looking, sweet couple!
    TaDah - hope you win the parking ticket fight!
    Debbie - was a bit confused too and then I read Kelly's post and had to laugh!!
    Tracy - wish we lived closer - how did your meeting go?
    Hugs everyone - off to wake up my kids -
  • debbie444
    debbie444 Member Posts: 847
    edited September 2006
    Isnt it funny how some words just dont travel too well.
    I always remember when my aunt in Pittsburg asked if i was allowed to wear pants to school, i thought she had gone out of her mind until i realised what pants were!
    As for the parking ticket, I put one on religiously, no such thing as free parking here what with traffic wardens patrolling - one tried to stop my sister from pulling out of her space the other day by standing in front of her car, she had 3 minutes to go and he had already taken a photo of her car. Irene ( bless her) drives much like me and threatened to run him over if he didnt move.
    Chemo head really kicked in the other day. I went into town to meet a friend. It was only as we sat having a coffee and she asked me how long i had left on my ticket when i realised i had no ticket - i had just parked and sauntered off. I sprinted back across town ( well in my mind i was sprinting - perhaps more of an embarrassing jog if truth be known) to find i had actually parked in a 'pay as you leave park' DOH !!
    Madisons package has left , Justin & gang may have to go surface - it feels awful heavy!

    DEbbie
  • ravdeb
    ravdeb Member Posts: 3,116
    edited September 2006
    Debbie..count me in for laughing about the hardcore!!!

    Tadah..Good luck with the parking ticket! When I first moved to Israel, my dh took me to this one town 3 times a week for Hebrew classes. He parked in the same place every time. NO ticket. I couldn't read the sign there since it was in Hebrew (he could..he chose not to!). Well, after the first few weeks of Hebrew classes, I knew my way around so I did the drive myself, parking in the same place and well..of course..I got a ticket. So, I went into the police station and told them I honestly couldn't read the sign, had just moved to Israel, blah, blah, blah, and they tore up the ticket and told me not to park there anymore.

    Amy....What a great picture of you and your dh!! You look gorgeous! And he's a handsome guy! Your hair looks beautiful as it did when I met you in person.

    Nice that you now love your hair. I love mine, too!

    Tracy..how did the bc support group go?

    I've been really busy lately, running around doing all kinds of things. Most of it has been fun stuff, but I sure am tired. And I have so much on my mind, that I am having trouble sleeping.

    I got my mammogram results and ultra sound. It said..appears benign..at the bottom of the report. I had such bad memories of that cuz it said "appears benign" over a year ago and well..we know it was NOT!

    But they were talking about all my scar tissue. Just that when I got the mammo report, it was while I was waiting to go in for the US. So, I'm looking at it and the right side had nothing written but the left side.. the part where it is printed that there is no sign of a problem was scratched out and a bunch of Hebrew was written there and boy did I panic! I showed my dh and he said he also got nervous for a minute cuz it was hard to read what was written.

    I will show it all to my onc but it appears that all is well. As far as I'm concerned, NED has entered my life!
  • TracySeattle
    TracySeattle Member Posts: 690
    edited September 2006
    Hi All...

    Laura - thanks for the good words and the info about the trial. I am not stage III, but I have a friend who is--I will pass the info along to her!

    Victoria - having a print of one of your paintings would be so awesome!

    Rosemarie - I wish we were closer too....

    Kelly - Thank you. I love all of you too....

    The support group went well, there was only one person who came other than Pastor, Michelle and I but I think we all learned and gained support from each other. The new person is Kurt - he lost his wife to cancer last December. She died 11 days after being diagnosed with Lung Cancer. They were married for 31 years. Her death has devastated him and after listening to him - I realized that I have never experienced that kind of love. They were true soul mates and he is totally lost without her.

    He and Pastor are friends, he was with Pastor Kelly when his son died and Pastor Kelly was with Kurt when his wife died. I think it was really good for both of them to talk about those experiences. They talked about the sad things and they laughed about some of the better things.....

    I had shared with Pastor before the meeting about my EX and his girlfriend. When I told my story during the meeting, I left that part out. Pastor asked me to please tell everyone about it - so I did. They were all very supportive of me and Pastor told me that even tho being betrayed hurts, it is for the better and it needed to happen because there are better things waiting for me.

    Listening to Pastor and Kurt's stories about losing their loved ones to cancer really touched me. I feel like dealing with having the disease myself was/is so much easier than it would be watching it happen to someone that I loved with all of my heart.....

    Next month I am hoping we have some more people come to join our group, but I think our meeting last night was just right and that we all benefitted from getting to know each other and telling our stories....

    Off to work for me, you all have a great day!

    Love you!
  • ravdeb
    ravdeb Member Posts: 3,116
    edited September 2006
    Wow, Tracy...that is one moving story! And I so agree with your pastor...better things will come your way. I believe that things happen so that other things can either take their place or add on to that experience. Things happen for a reason.

    I'm a total believer in this because I see it in my own life and how each experience helped me get through the next one and so on...

    I also hope more people join your group because they will be able to benefit so much from it! Good luck!
  • marymelodi
    marymelodi Member Posts: 515
    edited September 2006
    Oh, Tracy! What a great story. I find it moving to help other people and I think your guys probably all helped each other alot. You are such geat woman. We love you!!!

    Mary
  • cathy987
    cathy987 Member Posts: 179
    edited September 2006
    Hey wonderful women,

    Had a really great weekend at WomanSong. My bc workshop was attended by about 15 women. The two friends (a 10 year survivor and a six year survivor) I invited to share their experiences did a great job. I was surprised by another young woman I know who lives a hundred miles from here who also joined us and shared her experiences. She is in the middle of her chemo-–will start Taxol this week. She was incredibly knowledgeable. She had a lumpectomy with the new interstitial brachytherapy radiation. She and a sister had had Hodgkins with radiation to the chest so was not eligible for the usual radiation. This was the route I was investigating before I knew I would end up with the mast. She bared her chest and showed us her scars, which seem to be healing nicely.

    Ironically we had the same breast surgeon for our lumpectomies and now have the same oncologist.

    All of the other women in the group had known someone, a sister, a mother, a friend who had breast cancer and it was amazing to me how many varieties of opinions were shared. Bottom line was the willingness to share and some good resources were talked about. I told them how this web-site was my best source of information along with Susan Love’s book.

    Briefly, WomanSong is a wonderful event dreamt up by a very young woman five years ago to “provide a unique opportunity for women to explore in a natural setting the fine art of living as a woman of the prairie through art, music and a renewed sense of community.”

    My daughter Amy, grandson Bo, (from NY), son Mike and grand daughter Erin joined us for the weekend. Mike did some child care and the kids joined Amy and me at the park some of the time. We took some great pictures but I forgot to download before Amy took off with her camera–will post some when she sends them. Amy is an editor and writer and promoted her first novel at the event.

    Ravdeb–your comments to Tracy are so right on. I’m in your camp that things happen for a reason. Help–what is NED?

    Tracy-– how very wonderful you are sharing your support with people in your church monthly. So far once a year is what I am up to.

    Debbie–love your escapades and love the “chemo head” I use to use my age for my excuse–grateful I now have chemo to blame.

    Rosemarie–what a sweet person you are. I’ve noticed your encouragement to others on other strings and to think you invited me to meet up with you in Indy when I’d only been posing here a week.
    TaDah–you are the wild woman. Hope the lymphedema is improving. I have very slight LE–have a sleeve and glove I wear when I fly long distances and am very careful not to get infection anywhere.

    Wildflowers-–catching up is hard. Congrats on your art award. I thought about you all weekend at our art thing on the prairie.

    Laura–I think you were the one who asked what kind of business I’m in which I think I answered–I’m interested in your graphic design work. What do you do?

    Kelly–thanks for helping me keep everyone sort of straight. Are you, Maryanne and I the only Her2 girls in this group? And are you back on with the Herceptin? I get my 3rd echogram next time. So far so good.

    Maryanne-–you too are a great supporter both here and I’ve seen you posts on the Her2 girls string.

    Amy–love the pictures you post. Love the hair and your guy isn’t bad either. Hope to post some picture sometime.

    So Brenda and Maryanne You’re the teachers? Right? I spent many years substituting in all grades. I really admire what you do.

    Mary. Sock yes!!! Size 8 shoe. What a wonderful project. And Laura please do your t-shirt and only then if I’m still hanging in here with you all consider making one more.

    Graycie–you are my hair inspiration. Not much growing on my head either especially on the top but have high hopes. Will try the Nioxin.

    I’ve left some out but one last shout to Sherryhaire. Thanks for starting this group.

    Cathy
  • cathy987
    cathy987 Member Posts: 179
    edited September 2006
    Mary

    Actually 2 socks would be better than one.
  • ravdeb
    ravdeb Member Posts: 3,116
    edited September 2006
    Cathy,
    Your WomanSong sounds very interesting...

    And Rosemarie IS sweet...she's a true southern belle

    Hope everybody is doing well today.

    Oh, and Cathy..I'm impressed that you mentioned almost every Rock-tober Girl! I'm grateful that Kelly is here to keep everything straight!!!!
  • cathy987
    cathy987 Member Posts: 179
    edited September 2006
    ravdeb

    WomanSong is great. http://www.dakotawomansong.org 2006 pics should be posted soon.

    Rosemarie: “a true southern belle.” Indy? What’s the scoop—oh I think I remember you made a move during treatment?

    Paula from down under is traveling, Scottishlass is new like I am and chumfry doesn’t post often but checks in on us and is from Minnesota which is the closest to me. We might be able to get together sometime. There all 18 and I won’t do this again. Just today realized that adnerb is Brenda backwards. Am I slow or what?
  • TracySeattle
    TracySeattle Member Posts: 690
    edited September 2006
    Hi All....

    Sad day today at work. 1/3 of my immediate team got their lay off notices. Their last day will be on 12/31, after they have trained their replacements from India... Our team is like a family. We have been together for 5 years and this news hit us really hard. 5 people are leaving including our soldier who did time in Iraq and has been one of my biggest supporters throughout treatment. He even wears a pink bracelet that he never takes off.....

    I guess it could be that one more change is headed my way--a new job.... Who knows how deep the outsourcing thing is going to hit us.

    On a more positive note, I am going to a FREE Cancer Retreat next weekend at a place called Harmony Hill (www.harmonyhill.com). Next week's session is specifically for breast cancer patients. I am going with JanS and Cheryl both of whom I have met here on bc.org. It starts Friday afternoon and goes until Sunday. They have all types of classes - yoga, meditation, imagery, etc. It should be interesting....

    Well, better go for now. Guess I will be searching for the Resume tonight so that I can get it updated.
  • jz20022001
    jz20022001 Member Posts: 480
    edited September 2006
    Hi Tracy Seattle, I am sorry to hear about all the layoffs. All this outsourcing to India is just so WRONG!

    The cancer retreat sounds very exciting. Have fun at that!

    Catherine
  • TracySeattle
    TracySeattle Member Posts: 690
    edited September 2006

    YAY!!! Victoria is going to paint for us!!! I can't wait!

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