Fuzzy's Romp Room

dogeyed

What a relief, Nancy!  I was torn between letting you do what you wanted and begging you to stay.  So, I am so proud of you and happy for myself and all us other wounded folk here in Fuzzy's Romp that you shall stay... and yaaaaay, more serial cat movies coming at a theater near us!!!

Dune, hey, I knows how it feels, girl, to want to curl up with some drinks and smokes.  I had quit both, hadn't had a drink for more than 20 years, quit cigs 10 years, and when we had to sell our house when I got disabled, I was broken-hearted.  After wallowing in misery for a couple months, one afternoon I gave husband my keys, opened up a bottle of wine, smoked cigs, and wound up half-drunk and crying.  Didn't make me feel none too better, so my sinning ended, just a slip, no permanent damage done.  Apparently this is something that happens to people when they get beyond upset.

And Fuzzy, my owne tru sister, I love you always.  GG 

Anonymous

only a few min - bro is coming up long long drive.

Nancy - glad you are staying, I almost left too, am mostly alt so always chance the firing line, though I need support and love and laughs and hugs just like everyone else. Then decided to stick closer to the threads where all congregate to hug and support, not so much for info or debate though I do lurk and read for research and experiences. Fuzzy's is one place I absolutely love, Bonfire is the other, and YKYACPW and OMG they found the cure for stupid.  Get ready to laugh till it hurts.  .  I need the support I get here, saame as you too.  There is always controversy to be had even in person-to-person support groups. 

duckyb1

Nancy, right now I'm ready to give in and give up, too, but this "thread" gives me the laughs, tears, hysteric's, and all the good tings I need to get throug;h the day ...........................never, leave us, we could not do it without you ,.........................I've been to that dark hole, and you ladies have brought me back................but we're gonna get through this.................together we can do it..................never let "cancer" or negative assholes bring you down................I am trying, and you have to too........................it isn't easy........ran out of big girl panties months ago..........................broke all my suspenders that pull up my pants, and my boot straps gave up long ago,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,but I'm still hanging..............hang with me girlfriend.......................love ya.

FireKracker

Nancy---I too am glad you are stayin here....this is sooo safe just like the bonfire of the goddess....

anything that turns my stomach(and lots of people and threads do) I may lurk for info but i will never get into a debate.did it once and never ever again...hey i dont mind a debate but some of these sistas are brutal....

stick with us...this is where the happy people go!!!!!!!!

sure we bitch and complain but there is never an argument..lets keep it that way.

you can kinda tell by the tone of the message when a fight is gonna happen....RUN!!!!!

Anonymous

Today I feel like a villain, the bad guy. This afternoon we have to put our sheltie down. He's been really sick the past two weeks and we have tried to get him to eat, anything. In the meantime we took him to the vet and it could be lyme and probably other problems. I rescued him when I finished radiation a couple years back. I try to tell myelf that he has had the chance to know what love is. He definately would have been put down before we got him.

It just feels like everything is falling apart.  I have cancer (again), my breasts are gone, no time or money to help him because we are always going to appointments, and he has to be put down, My uncle had a heart attack and because he lacked oxygen to his brain he is in a nursing home. I need something happy and quick.

Anyone remember Hee Haw and the song, 'If It Weren't For Bad Luck I'd Have No Luck At All? That's how my day is today. Tomorrow hopefully will be better.

SpecialK

a hug to veggy!!!  Sounds like a "when it rains it pours" deal - sorry you are down.

crog234

(((((Veggy)))). I do remember Hee Haw and that song.....



Cindy

Wren44

Veggy, (((((HUGS))))) I had to put down my cat the same day I found out I needed a mastectomy (after 2 previous surgeries). I was more upset about the cat than myself. I remember the song also.

sas-schatzi

Wren and Veggy-HUGS----are furry babies are as much a part of us as any human in our life. So sorry.

Anonymous

Little more than a half hour to go. I laid on the floor with Harley trying to get him to play once more time. He tried once or twice and gave up. I sat there talking to him an he was trying to talk back to me. We had our last conversation. Now I have to pull myself together and get through it. I didn't even cry like this before surgery.Nope I didn't cry at all. Thanks everyone for the kind words and hugs.

Editted... Harley went the vet calmly. He cooperated like a gentleman. My DH and I cried in each other's arms. When I get stronger I am going to plant a bleeding heart plant next to his grave. 

LaurenM730

((((VEGGY))))

ptdreamers

Veggy, I'm relly sorry about your dog. Our sweetie is buried right outside our back door.

ptdreamers

FireKracker

Damn Veggy---im soo sorry about the dog.....You know what they say when it rains it pours....BUT....then the sun comes out....and it will.know that nothing ever in life stays the same....the good the bad and the ugly.speakin of ugly I just got the shortest haircut ive had in a very long time....This I really did to honor YOU....so when you see my my hair wont be wild and all over the place....

cannot wait to see you.dont have exact date yet...no excuses and by that time if you are ready for another dog you know my GD was a vet tech....The dr.told me to get one....best pal...when you are ready.

Im wishing that friday the 13 is over real fast and things start lookin up for you...

Hugggggggggggs K

here is a gentle hugggg and lots of prayers K

Anonymous

We buried him at the edge of our field. He always like to investigate there. My friend came over with her two year old, red headed son. Between chasing him around and trying t pick berries - I didn't have much time to mourn.

I told my husband no more dogs. If I want one I'll borrow a friend's dog for a while. Same thing if I start thinking I want another baby (which could not happen anyway) I'd borrow a friend's baby for an entire night. 

I think tomorrow I'll make some bluebery muffins and make food my friend. 

Thanks for all the (((hugs)))

dunesleeper

Veggy I am just really sorry about Harley. It surely sounds like it was his time, and now he is free of pain. I know you will miss him but will be glad he is not suffering.

sas-schatzi

Pt d-------------I question my sanity at every moment-------reality _ what is it? ARE people that we deal with cognizant and able to deal with the present question?      I's my sanity versus their stupidity. Right now i'm thinkining heaviy about another subject----that ya'll don't have do deal with___i think---unless it's sex

sas-schatzi

Okay---I miss sex and all that went with it---Everthing---------if you can still haave access  to it -------DO IT

sas-schatzi

Dunes---how many squre feet did you clear today? I went on a cleaning binge----the person that was staying over tonight brought her own Coke  zero----------I managed to make one explode in the kitchen.............well.....the one thing I didn't do was wash the tile-------------at least I didn't have to do it twice-------one small space at a time

Anonymous

I woke up this morning looking for him and my DH doesn't know what to do with himself. The dog had DH trained as to when to take him out. Time will help heal.

dogeyed

Ohhhh, Veg, bless Harley's heart and soul.  He was a good dog and he had a beautiful life with you and your husband.  Our pets mean more to us than the moon and stars, they are the warm fuzzy we reach for when we feel dispair, the joy on a rainy day, there aren't enough words on this earth to describe the way our hearts entwine.  Your dog let you know it was time for him to go when he stopped playing in the vet office.  Those shelties are gorgeous creatures, you will have many happy memories of him.  But the sting of loss, there is no cure.  I shall pray for you Veggy and your husband too, and all those who love and lost their dogs, may you find peace in a sunlit shadow, a nap where you dream of him, and know the pain you feel is how strong the bond was between you and the humble dog.  Veg, he is romping in doggie land, and his special spirit will be with you always.  Love to my sister, who is still sick but hanging in, Gail

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XmSdTa9kaiQ

Anonymous

Thank you Gail. Today I am missing him, but I know he is no longer in pain.

On the brighter side it has been 17 hours since my last (otc) pain pill. Right now I am trying to focus on the good. I took a shower, washed my hair and did not tire out. I can return the shower chair. Even if it rains today I'll consider it a good day.

(((hugs)))

dunesleeper

Oh SAS! Sorry about the Coke. I don't know how many square feet I cleaned out. I got through a box and a large bag. Most of it was trash. I now have the box filled with stuff to go to Goodwill. I also got some stains out of my sink and then put acrylic protectant (the stuff for floors) in it. I'm hoping that will help keep it from staining so easily. I hate an icky looking sink. I also washed the floor of the hallway leading from the living room into the kitchen. Then I put down some of that acrylic stuff -- since it was out. It made it nice and shiny.

I am having a hard time getting rid of a lot of stuff. For example, I must have 20 highlighters and permanent markers. I should just give away or throw away most of them. I have clips for large stacks of paper. I'm not going to use them. Why won't I get rid of them? I have 3 rulers. I started to put the third one in the drawer and managed to force myself to put it in the Goodwill box. I know part of the problem right now is the serious shortage of money, but seriously, I have to let things go. Maybe I ought to start sitting outside for a few hours on weekend mornings and maybe sell some stuff, but that is really pinching pennies. I'll figure it out in time.

I will keep chipping away at the clutter. Thanks for thinking of me!

Wren44

Dunesleeper, Perhaps start a bag for a school donation. Teachers would be happy to have highlighters and clips, also rulers. Saying this, I have a drawer full of pens I'm not using and at least 5 rulers lol.

sas-schatzi

Dunes---thank you---just hoping for your to be about getting through some of your "stuff",made me want to get through someof my stuff. I did and feel better about it. Hope you had luck tooo sassy

Anonymous

ETA Not a suicide note......

I have a collection of dogs, cats, skunks on the other side waiting for me to cross over.  Promised them all I would see them again soon.  Such a heartache letting them go, helping them go, especially when I hung on too long and they then begged me to help because they could not stand the pain of dying, and I did hang on too long too often.  I am learning not to do that.  Veggy - you let go soon enough though maybe the reasons were time and money, it ends up being best for them to not end up in extreme health challenges. 

There was a time - probably still is in many cultures - where the aging or ill just took their blankie to the meadow and waited, long before the extremes of health challenges had them by the throat.  I always think this is the way to go.  I have a meadow.  I can imagine all the pets of mine around me waiting for me to be able to see them as I cross the Veil of Life.

Yesterday Hubby sold some of his guns to pay for my first alt tx, and I am touched and grateful, but I don't know what to choose.  

Last night I had a dream that broke my heart, woke up with a broken heart and cannot let this go.  I don't want to choose any tx now.  

I am in the right forum right..... emotional crises, anxiety, depression. 

My word for this one dream.  Unforgivable. 

I feel like I am done trying.  But is that selfish. Right?  Maybe not.

Should 'should' hate the pointing finger at suggestiveness of should ... but should I not be trying harder so others are not hurt by me just going. They don't know the dream.  But my heart has been seared, I can never forget.

Sorry so depressing, but I cannot talk to anyone about this, no one at all.

EDITED TO ADD - I am not considering suicide, I am considering not doing anything more, just not, but I will do more, it is the next day and I am going to press on regardless.

angeleyes12

Love your room, hell mine is being padded as we speak, and everyone one is so supportive of my newly diagnosed alien cancer that I think I want to throw up....  Ugh! this sucks.  I don't like and don't want to be treated like a baby, and yes I want what I want! like yesterday. Like the day I found the lump in my boob, i wanted it gone...but not my boob gone! now waiting for the last of the test before deciding what the fate of my boobie or boobies will be....huh  just plan sucks..

duckyb1

Angel.....savor the support.........cause when everything is over and done, and everyone th;inks your "super duper again"..........you will want that support back................trust me..........ask the ladies on here.............all too soon, what we went through and go through are forgotten , and all your supporters look at you as if to say "ok, its over, there shouldn't be anymore problems now...............right....................guess again...........but you still have to go on smiling, and saying "yea I feel fine", when they say "you look great......."glad its all over"...................all over "my ass"....................walk in my shoes.................

crog234

Nancynow. I couldn't help but laugh at your cat story.. I can picture the cat climbing the screen and you holding your breath ( or at least that is what I would be doing) hoping and praying that the fur ball makes it to their landing!!!! Thanks for the laugh!!!



Cindy

dunesleeper

Hey Sas. Glad you got through some "stuff." Ugh. The stuff I have. All I did today was go out to lunch with a friend, but she started talking about blood pressure, and that reminde me I have several blood pressure cuffs and meters that I could sell. I only need one and don't really even need that. Also I moved some cooler weather clothes into the back bedroom closet, and I listed my good DVD collections (MacGyver, Mission Impossible, and James Bond) on craigslist. (I already had them on amazon.) I also have the Planet of the Apes collection but hesitate to let it go. I'll get it listed soon. I also found a "gig" listing on craigslist where somebody wants someone to copy about 1000 CDs to a large external hard drive. I sent them an email. I can do that. It will be about 50 hours of work so I offered to do it for $250. I am awaiting a response.

Essa, I think sometimes it can help us to fight harder for someone else, but in my opinion, if the time comes that we really are tired of trying, they need to be able to let us go. It is not a decision to be taken lightly of course. I can't really see you being at that point, but then I only know you through these forums. See how you feel in a couple of days.