Fuzzy's Romp Room

dunesleeper

I actually made some progress today. It makes me think that it just might be possible to get this house right. Of course, my foob got to hurting me quite badly, so I stopped the work, ate some food, and took some tramadol. Later I noticed that the foob felt mighty hot, especially the lower part, so I gave it an icepack while I watched TV.

I should not have a problem cleaning up enough for my high school classmate to come in, chat for a few minutes, and take the massage table on Monday. 

I really need to keep chipping away at this disaster area. It can really be done! There is actually hope!

TeresainTucson

I think when our house actually goes on the market I'll move into my SIL's car just to avoid having to try to keep it clean (or harass my children to do it) and avoid the people tromping through when I don't want to deal with anyone. I'll just have to go to lots of drive through food places

dunesleeper

I did practically nothing today but thanks to the prep work yesterday, I accomplished nearly everything I set out to do. It was a pleasant day, albeit a hot one. In cleaning up I came across my medical records that I need to send or take to the Medical Board of the MD State Retirement System. I was not sure which doctor's records were in one of the envelopes, so I opened it. It was the Medical Oncologist. She wrote that I was having a lot of anxiety about my dx and yet I refused chemo and hormone tx. She wrote that I have a 65% chance of recurrence. I blew it off at first, but then tonight, out of the blue, those words came back to me and really scared me.  Maybe I ought to take another xanax because the 2 don't seem to be helping. Just because she thinks it will come back does not mean it will. Her stats are based on what she terms "doing nothing" but I am not doing nothing. I am still falling short on the exercising, but I eat a healthy anti-cancer diet and I take a lot of anti-cancer vitamins and supplements. I made my decision and I was and still am willing to live - or die - with the results of that decision. It was just her cocky confidence that I should have done it her way that made me doubt myself. 

Well, I have therapy tomorrow. Tuesday and Wednesday I'm supposed to get new doors installed. Hopefully the weather will cooperate. I need to take a drive to see a friend and to pick up some real organic eggs from hens that are free-range and not given hormones. I've been craving eggs but I don't trust the ones in the store to be free of hormones. Being ER+ I don't want hormones, but I do want some eggs. Oh yes I do. I want an egg as badly as I have ever craved chocolate in my previous (before bc) life. So that pretty much covers my week.

dogeyed

Bless you, DUNE.  Hey, my chances are even worse than yours, and I did chemo and all the other.  Ha!  Yup, ain't got a prayer.  But we're alive.  I did refuse the hormone blockers, drove me insane.  And yes, I was ovo-lacto vegetarian for awhile, only ate free range chicken eggs, one particular local brand was better than the others.  I've gotten strung out on breaded mushrooms lately, little box for appetizers, me and the dog are addicts now.  Hey, next time you feel a little anxious, just do some deep breathing, brings the heartrate down.  But I know, I take meds for my fractured back and other stuff, and some days, good grief, the pain and misery is just so bad.  I will be glad to see all my docs in September, I want every one of my meds changed or increased, including MY tranqs.  See ya, lady!  GG

LaurenM730

So part of the weekend I washable to take my mind off my lost items. Only for a short time. In addition to the lost wallet and keys, my husband lost his paycheck. We spent part of the weekend digging through upstairs and didn't finda damn thing!!! I'm just so frustrated...



I delayed going back to work. I'm having fun spending time with the kids and family and getting things done that I normally wouldnt. Hopefully, I'll never be in this situation again where I have to have major surgery. So, yes, I am taking advantage, but I think I deserve it...



I hope everyone had a great weekend!

Anonymous

I got two out of the four drains out. All I have to say is, "OUCH!! In 10 days I go back to get the other two out.

LaurenM730

Veggy - you'll start to feel much better as the drains come out...



Still can't find the damn wallet and keys... Arhhhhhh!!!!!

thefuzzylemon

Hey there everyone!! Its been a weird couple days round here. Sorry I've Bern MIA. I'm watching the Rules of the Mafia and...Hmmmm...realized I needed to connect with MY family! LOL

Not sleeping but my mental shtuff seems better....got a call from an uncle (who was really kinda worried about me I guess)...and an aunt committed suicide - got caught in traffic, exited the car, ran across the median and jumped in front of a car....therapy didn't work. So, I feel so horrible about her pain that would drive her to death....we got to stay ahead of that game. Ugh.

Good news! I forgot about my purpose and a total stranger along with a nudge from my DD got me right back on track. Shrink has me assigned to exercise so me and baby puppy did that tonight. I can't believe I did it!!! But....if I don't get some sleep, I'm Going to lose it. Am I rambling....I think so...

hugs and kisses to all....night night....

ptdreamers

No offense to anyone. Had to share:

ptdreamers

No offense intended. Just had to share.

Anonymous

ptdreamers - I feeeeeel like it.

DOGS - last night a one ounce horse fly was after Danny Boy, the 140-pound Newfoundland.  He ran out of garage to me then back into garage then without my knowing he ran around countryside.  Came back limping, stepped onsomething tht cut intto his back pad on front paw.  Big baby.  Giving he the hugs and I love you mama eyes, fix it for me....... After several tx during eve, nite, morn, afternoon..... w h2o2 then olive leaf extract oral and topical, and some ojibwa salve, he is not so bad today, so is working.  A horsefly. omg

Sassy - we take him for fast walks on backroads with the leash and window system, he will run off we think, he is the fastest dog we have ever seen in our lives, so long and lanky and huge.  we are no match.   I used to hold leash outpassenger window while Hubby drove until surgery for lymph nodes and bc.  Now he does and drives, scares me, esp w us on wrong side so know what you mean.

To all who live in clutter.  Been there.  Explosions of papers esp, and projects and business.  now it is more minimalistic, so can be done but only if there is a huge garage to stack things to ceiling,  then never ever ever let it get past the garage door in any direction.  I tell Hubby that I am fighting it back daily, and so far I am winning.  When we move, I am commited to an auction of everything but my collections (birds, skunks, baskets, books, fav clothes) which will travel w us so I can make ea place more personalized but w their  furnishings.  We plan to travel slowly, a few mo in ea place during off seasons, cabins, cottages, small stuff, esp MI, IN, close to family.  But some ME, Nova Scotia, Prince Edward Island, MN, WI.  The UP.  Has to be cheap though.

Anonymous

I want to shoot myself in foot, bounce head off table  Better yet bounce laptop off a boulder.

I want to sit and cry in my soup but cannot, already took the Metformin for cancer and this is cancer fighting soup so have to eat the stuff, not slobber it up.

EBAY - have started a fund for my alt bc and lymph  cancer tx.  Selling stuff we will not travel w on Ebay.  I got one listed a few wks ago.  Hard.  Today tried again to llist next dish set.  Got it ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLl AAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL DONNNNNNNNNNNNE and hit save draft and it started spinning and was doing so so long I started to howl and sob because this is my life, cannot get anywhere, nothing works for me, I try to hard and this sh*# happens ea and every time and - in comes my sweet Danny Boy the Newfie to check on me so I stopped that crazy stuff, cried silently and acted as if I was ok though here I am trying to earn some cash to save my stupid ass and cannot accomplish one thing even in a day, but dogs know these things.  Mama is crazy again, damned cancer that I smell is not helping, they think.

Yup, lost two hours of work and five attempts before that and all the time after, including all the info I wrote for the Home Laughlin history to spice up listing, am a writer at heart, I go all the way. no keep it simple stupid in my world.

PT DREAMERS your image could not come at a better moment!  A little smile for you.

Now back to Ebay.  

But I like this place, it is like a padded room w funny friends who get it.

Going to RFA and cryoablation dr tomorrow, 2 hrs one way for info.  Hoping.  Want the cancer lymph nodes dealt w asap.

dunesleeper

Dang! Nancy, we will miss you. I do understand where you are coming from, though. Fuzzy's Romp Room is the safest place I have found on these boards. Some discussions are downright cruel. I pretty much stopped posting in them, but I haven't deleted them yet. I go there for information that might show up but I don't dare offer information of my own. I don't handle the criticism too well.

Essa, I hope you do well on ebay. I'm selling stuff on craigslist and pennysaver. These are local so there are no shipping costs. You could write your descriptions out in a text file and then copy and paste to ebay. That way you won't lose all the work you put into it if the upload doesn't go successfully.

ptdreamers, I love your psycho picture. It is perfect!

GG, let's show those docs what they can do with their statistics!!! Roar!!!

Veggy, I'm glad your drains are starting to come out. I know you will feel so much better when the last two come out.

Lauren, damn! I'm sorry about your lost items. They have been missing for a good while now. And then you tore the house apart looking for them without success? I would be having a major hissy fit. I hope they pop up soon.

Fuzzy, I sure am sorry about your aunt. Gosh I have been there, and even though I don't know her, I think I can relate. It's just that "straw that breaks the camel's back." Freaking traffic jam. Wow! I pray she is out of her pain now. I don't believe there should be a punishment for suicide. If you are commiitting suicide, you have already been punished quite enough.

I was baaaaaad yesterday. I guess I am going to have to completely stop drinking. I picked up a six pack and could not find herbal cigarettes anywhere. So, knowing that drinking would make me want to smoke I went ahead and did it. I started going a little nuts wanting a cigarette, so I decided to drink the last beer and take my tranquilizers so I could go to sleep. Just after I did that, my neighbor came home; and I ran over to her house and bummed cigarettes. Then we partied for a while longer. I have a feeling there are parts I don't remember. For example, who put the partially drank beer in the freezer? Hmmm. Tell me that one. I was expecting to pass out from the beer and the sleeping pills, but apparently it all just got me rolling. I hope I haven't kicked off my nicotine habit again. Oy! So . . . no more booze. I cannot seem to drink and not smoke, so that's just the way it is.

Wren44

Nancy, I will miss you and SKK very much. Sorry you feel you must do this. Here's hoping you find a good supportive group in person. (((((HUGS)))))

SpecialK

nancy - sent you a PM

TeresainTucson

Nancy we all need kindness and love. Add everything that is happening that brings us here and this should be a place for compassion and caring. Of course should be does not translate to 'it is'. I am so sorry you have to leave. I hope things continue to get better with your mom's health. I pray that you find the right support group for you and that everything goes well for you.

Anonymous

Nancy- I am going to miss you very much! Hope everything goes well for you.

Sending you great big hugs!

Valerie

dogeyed

Oh, NANCYnow, you have no idea what a sweet person you are to me.  You were the one who came up with, "So, where is the Fuzzinator?"  Always funny, always pleasant and kind, just a sort of perfect person.  And what shall we do without tales of the serial cat?  Oh, dah'lin, I knows how you feel, I had to quit the hormone department becuz a couple girls lit into me, how dare I talk about giving up when they were all trying so hard to do, and on and on it went, until I wrote to the Mods, and they said they'd keep an eye on it.  Well, they didn't, so I bowed outta there.  NANCY, some people really are on a self-imposed one-way agenda, and they don't hear, don't see, don't know what they do.  I am going to miss you SO BAD, and I hope at least you'll "read" us here at Fuzzy's encampment, for we are the good guys, fo sho.  MOST ladies on here are unbelievably nice, they bend over backwards to make us feel comfortable, even in our awful rants and crazy cries, they lift us up and carry us on through.  I could NOT have made it thru my cancer situation without the wonderous women I have found here in the few places I visited.  But you know what, seems like anytime I stray from where I usually go, I DO run into those gangs you're talking about.  It's like some school boys are disguised and trying to beat us up.  Well, we are BIG MAMMAS and they better watch it!!!  I will always hold you near my heart, Nancynow, and just please know you are such an amazing person, I think everyone here feels exactly as I do about you.  I will sorely miss you, dear one, and it's okay to go, we none of us can really manage too much stress to begin with, much less from a website that we tend to trust, which makes it hurt all the more, when we're caught unawares.  Love to you always, your sister, Gail

LaurenM730

Nancy, I'm going to miss you, lots! I'm sorry you've become subject to any negativity on here, as I though BCO would be a place of overall love and support. I'm disgusted for you. I wish nothing but the absolute best for you and your loved ones, especially your mother. I will be sending lots of hugs along the way.



Dune - were all entitled to a bad day. Whatever your vice, go ahead with it... Enjoy yourself!



I got fitted for a bra yesterday. First bra I've worn since January. Get this: 34 DDD. What!?! Yes, DDD. I was a B in January. Guess I shouldn't complain that they're too small. Brought me a little smile yesterday. Now if I can find that damn wallet and keys, I'd have a huge smile!



Have a great day everyone!

Sommer43

Hugs to you all, hope Veggy is doing well and recovering from her surgery.  I have just popped in for a moment...  Work is frantic... 

FireKracker

Awwww Nancy----I know all about those stinkin so called sistas who love to argue and fight.I have left quite a few bthreads cause of that but I will be damned if i would leave cause of them...just stay away from them...But please stay with us...we dont fight or argue,we have no huge egos and surely we dont know it all like those who think that they do....shit on them!!!!

lauren----forget about lookin for the lost items...when you least expect it you will find all of them...put it out of your mind and enjoy your children...

i was AWAL cause on the hottest day Sat.104 my AC died...couldnt get near the puter....im good now and im back...hugggggggs everyone K

sas-schatzi

Nancy , lovey, still please consider what I said in the PM. I'm still just a phone call away by 3 hours. Today's decision may be tomorrow's old decision. Please don't close the door. Just go on a break. Whatever your choice I Love you.

sas-schatzi

Dunes , congrats one small space at a time.

 Fuzzy, Sorry about your Aunt., They may consider it suicide, but NO one can say for sure she wasn't just frightened and confused. Situational confusion causes people to do bizarre things that others based on their own biases make assumptions, based on clinical history. SO, if she was seeing a MH and on MH drugs>>ergo , had to be a suicide. Not so. Don't mean to add to any family grief. Just know that in the scheme of life 1+1 doesn't always equal 2.

Lauren two things sweetie----Do you know a cop that has a K9 dog, And did you cancel all your credit cards? I made a list of everything I had in my wallet. I did it in my really forgetful days. Then forgot I made the list LOL. Came across the list in the rolledex and laughed out loud. Great idea, But needed to remember I had done it. Told DS, so he can remind me.

sas-schatzi

Dunes to give you more encouragement. At one time I had all thes piles of med/insurance papers, stuff. Started working through it all, and had 7 or 9 ring binders for myself and DH for 2009 and beginning of 2010. 2012 is when I finally started working on drawers or cupboards or closets. ONE at a time. If I got a couple of sqaure feet reorganized ,I was happy. Then I'd reward myself------with whatever. Might be coming here, might be doing nothing, even doing nothing felt great after doing something >>>thinking Yes , I have one more small space cleared. Yeah, there is an absense of time in there, but it's okay. I needed that space.

ptdreamers

Glad you are staying Nancy. I don't get why people have to trash one another. It is so counter productive.  Hope everything calms down for you.

dunesleeper

I am very glad you have reconsidered Nancy. Fuzzy's Romp Room is a safe place. I'll be checking out a f2f group toward the end of the month, but I'm staying here too. I feel much stronger coming here.

sas-schatzi

Nancy-, love you babe --sheila

chabba

Nancy, needed something to end my day on a happy note.  You just gave it to me.  Thank you for staying with us, we love you.

crog234

Nancynow. I am so glad you decided to stay!!!!!



Cindy

LaurenM730

Nancy, so happy youre staying. We will only have hugs and laughs for you!