Fuzzy's Romp Room

ptdreamers

Great news Gma. Things are looking up.

Shellshine

Wonderful news, Esther. I'm sooooo happy for you.

kathindc

Gma, great news!

GmaFoley

Now maybe we can afford the sleep doctor.

FireKracker

Oh GMA..its sooo nice to see you on these threads.I knew you would like these sistas and they would love you...

Keep the pics.please.Im glad things are finally lookin up for you.

dunesleeper

That's awesome Grammie Esther!!! I'm very happy for you.

Oh, and your living above the fog picture is awesome too!

thefuzzylemon

Hello lovlies -

Mom is still in Trauma Life Support Center but she is more stable. Its been a rough week 'round here. That damn menstrual cycle thing threw me for a loop (oncologist says its actually good as its better for my bones but it freaked me out), the puppy I puppy-sit got really sick, mom was in bad bad shape, my idiot sister pissed me off really bad and then...the big deal I was prepping for yesterday totally fell apart. So, I think I'm going to just take a breather. I literally made myself sick. Just took anti anxiety meds to try and settle myself. Its just one of those weeks I guess. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers for mom...its very appreciated.

xoxoxoxo

chabba

Fuzzy you are in my prayers along with your Mom.

duckyb1

Hang in there Fuzzster, we're here by your side. Hugs

ridergirl

Gma great news about the medical bills.......we all have enough to worry about without that on top!! So glad for you.  Also just had to finally take time to say the pics are amazing, I  don't always feel up to posting but I always come to look.....what a wonderful gift you are sharing with all of us.

Fuzzy you and Mom are still in my thoughts constantly.....hoping for the best possible on all fronts my love

Lily55

Fuzzylemon - still thinking of you and hopefully you are feeling us sending vibes your way - horrible lonely and kind of crazy making place you are in .......

sas-schatzi

Gma---I missed something----why was your company hedging on paying the bill? Glad they are--yeah. But why not future? Those pics are dreamy.

Fuzzy we keep missing each other. Going to try now and see what happens.

Lily thanks for the kind words a way back.

GmaFoley

Sas, I don't have any health insurance... I applied for financial aid. Been denied 4 times before they decided to abolish my bill of $23k +.

FireKracker

Thinkin and prayin for you Fuzzy....and your mom too.xoxoxo

GmaFoley

Just caught up with the pages.



Fuzzy *****HUGS*****



My hubby said something yesterday and made me smile:



"Shit happens, then you flush twice and move on"

sas-schatzi

Gma--have you heard of pre-existing condition insurance program. I thought I got the web page , but must have dropped it. Be back. sassy

WEB address www.pcip

See if this is something that helps? It was /is part of obama care.

thefuzzylemon

Hello all...I'm in the TLC with mom. We didn't know what would happen when they stopped the IV BP meds...so far, she's still with us. She's at 45/21 (30) right now. So, I'm snuggled up next to her in a makeshift bed (three chairs and two pillows.

Thank you all for the thoughts...I feel it...I do...she knows it too.

thefuzzylemon

Hello all...I'm in the TLC with mom. We didn't know what would happen when they stopped the IV BP meds...so far, she's still with us. She's at 45/21 (30) right now. So, I'm snuggled up next to her in a makeshift bed (three chairs and two pillows.

Thank you all for the thoughts...I feel it...I do...she knows it too.

chabba

Still with you and praying Fuzzy.

Wren44

Gentle hugs for you both.

Anonymous

Fuzzy - hugs and tears for you dear, been there, it is so hard.  Your mom knows you are there holding her.

Esther - so good to know you have a fresh start with the bills, hope  the pre- insur program is one you can get into for a real chance to keep your head above it all. 

Up too late, was studying.  On way to MO in morn for the Faslodex injections, goody.

I know everyone has a lot going on, but wondering if Dunes has been around and I just missed her.  Dunes?

dunesleeper

I'm around, but I'm still suicidal -- and I get the feeling you all don't want to hear about how I feel. So while I consider blowing breastcancer.org right out of my comptuer, I do come here and read most nights. Even though I know you all don't care about how I feel, I do wish you well.

Gingerbrew

Hello Dunes,

I don't know why you would think noone cares about you. Caring is mutual here and resonates through out the threads.  

You may need more than a message board, even this one can offer you. Please consider getting some assistance from a professional. Healing from the stress of BC can take some time. 

My best wishes to you on this journey we have all walked. 

Ginger

kathindc

Oh Dunes, people on this thread care about you.  Please, please try to find some help.  I know it can be hard to find a good fit between a patient and a professional.  That journey can be daunting on top of your feelings.  You are in my prayers.

Lily55

Dunesleeper - lets talk some more........one thing that was said to me is that we may feel that way as its a better option than carrying on in the misery and unknown limbo we are in now which hurts like hell - its a HECK of a change from active treatment to trying to get back to normal life when for us life is never ever the way it was again and for many of us never have the bodies we had, I am forever disfigured, significantly so......but the scars and sears in our souls and hearts are unseen.......

I have read half the book Dancing in Limbo now and feel quite normal!!!  Its reassuring to know that feeling our way through this even to the pits is normal and what´s more, necessary to move through this.........I care about you, what can I do to help you feel a tiny bit different?

xx

Lily55

Fuzzy - how wonderful your Mum has you and you are close enough to be able to be so with her in this, sending you a big hug......hang in there...xx

kathindc

Fuzzy, your mom and you are in my prayers.  ((((HUGS)))).

Linda-n3

Fuzzy, you and your mom are in my heart and prayers.

Dunes, you are also in my heart and prayers.  I have been in that hopeless place and feel your pain. People here DO care about you.  I don't know you very well, but the emotional pain of depression is something I understand.  It is very isolating, you don't even want to hear yourself talk about the problems, much less think others would want to hear them.  There is, obviously, some truth to that - I am smiling a lot, not letting many into my own worries because I am just tired of being me right now, and don't even want to explain it to anyone else. The only things I have found to help include some readings in Jon Kabatt-Zin's work "Full Catastrophe Living" and some of his meditation recordings on mindfulness-based approaches to pain and depression/anxiety.  That and a good counselor, but I had to search to find the right one.  One guy I saw told me I just needed to be more organized and I would feel better.  I went to see an integrative health nurse practitioner, who set me up with my current counselor.  I so wish I could just put my arms around you right now - you need a hug, and you can have my shoulder to cry on as well.

For all the rest of you, I have been reading most days, not posting much.  I am just tired of this journey, and unfortunately, I am back in active treatment and apparently will be for the rest of my life according to prevailing concepts on BC.  So I am choosing to find something good in each day to appreciate.  I LOVED the comment that shit happens, then you flush twice and move on.  Think I will use this as my mantra this week! 

ridergirl

Dunes I have nothing to add that others haven't said except to add my own name to the people who really do care and do want to know how you feel.  Like it or not we are all in this thing together and I hope you'll let us help you.....even if all we can do is be here

Gentle hugs

duckyb1

Dunes........your not alone......this is, what it is.......some days I cry for no reason, just the blues....wondering to myself......where did my life go.......all I want is to feel like my old self again, and I know that is not going to happen....by the time I am through the years of Meds that have put me in this (dark hole) and I know that is why I'm in it.......I will be too old to care......but good or bad, happy or sad, in or out of pain, I am sure you have a reason to want to go on......,don't let cancer win............we need you to battle with us.......hugs.