Fuzzy's Romp Room

GmaFoley

Lily, I now have trochanter bursitis,and it flared last week, on top of nerve pain I've been dealing with for almost 2 years. I had to get an antiinflammatory shot in the bursa on thursday last week. I asked everyone to remind me to not do anything crazy.. no exercise for at least 10 days. that means no long walks too.

thefuzzylemon

Bobo - always here for ya!

Crog - please oh please keep updating. Thinking of you.

All my sisters in pain...and all the shit that comes with that...its one of those times where I'm thankful that we have each other. When There isn't anything or anyone around...we are always here for each other. Each of us come here to be with each other. Even though hearing the words "its too much...I want to just give up...death is the only solution..." is heartbreaking, but, I can totally understand those thoughts and feelings. Constant pain is so frustrating. It messes with our minds too. For me, I get pissed off and get back to my "one step at a time." Its all I can do somedays. So far, its working out! LOL I'd like to suggest acupuncture, reiki, energy work...but who has the $$$ for that stuff!! Adds to my frustration of course...

thefuzzylemon

P.S. GmaF....don't do anything.

Lily55

Yes Gmaf - don´t do anything, only a few days to go but bursitis is caused by over use......x

duckyb1

Gma. Hang in there girlfriend.....together we will get through this.

thefuzzylemon

Ginger....thank you darlin'! I'll keep ya posted.

I'm really feeling like yuck today. Hoping tomorrow it'll turn around. My youngest angelface is suffering real bad with a fever and flu stuff. In the process of midterm week too. Poor little thing. I just got her started on probiotics for IBS and now this.

My oldest angelface had her car breakdown today. First time we've ever had any issues with it. She has OCD so that has her kinda upset...

Where the hell is my fairy dust!!?? Sure could use an easy solution to some of this stuff!!

Alyson

Wish I had fairy dust for all but mine has failed today. I am so tired actually, absolutely exhausted and can't work out why. I know its propably the RA but it really worries me on days like this. I though the pain would lessen when I finished femara but its got worse and some of the pain relly worries me. Sorry to be negative but its such that I have to use a stick if I am going more than a short distance.

Hot and dry here we do so need rain and my poor garden is suffering.

So when I get like this I knit or do embroidery to take my mind off things.

Big hugs to all.

thefuzzylemon

Alyson...big hug. Pain is just a monster of its own. Are you on meds for it too? If it helps you smile at all...my gardens ate buried unfer four inches of snow and frozen at least two feet down! LOL

Alyson

Thanks fuzzy. I have a whole lot of drugs  -brufen plus paracode or tramadol and panadol. Just not sure why its so bad this weather.

Did smile about your garden, heres mine withering up and your's is under snow. A friend in Denver said they had 14inches which I just cannot imagine.

To cheer myself up must get on to trip plans.

Big hugs to everyone.

dogeyed

Sweet Ladies, I'm telling you, pain is not helped by cold, worries, not to mention cancer, and if you're not taking a drug to knock out the discomfort, you shall be misrable.  More often than not, the hormone blockers will make a mess of a perfectly normal human being.  I can't take them.  Could be diff ones are easier to take than others.

Funny thing is, I woke up this morning feeling awful, totally forgot my breakfast, pills, coffee, and could not understand how come I was so annoyed.  Duhhhhh.  So, I'm sitting here reading of everyone's troubles, and it dawned on me I had forgotten my own self!!!

I sent fairy dust everywhere.  But it's just not gonna work for everyone.  We each have to dust ourselves some, we all have to REST for gosh sakes... remember, we got cancer, you know, and we have to be nice to ourselves, and we CANNOT take on nothing that will damage us.  Keep things calm, cry as needed, two pills of sobs every four hours, call the doc in the morning.  I feel anger right now more than anything else.  FUZZY, I really can't hardly bear you getting all tangled up with some big humanitarian effort best left for someone you can tell it to and let THEM do it, only don't tell me.  I can't do jack shit. As much as i got going for myself, NOT ANYMORE.  NO.  I am not the same person I was.  I mean, like all people, I have an extra war to work on that i can't do anything about except give myself LOTS of breaks.  I only do fun things.  Our computer chair broke, and like a idiot, instead of waiting for husband to do it, I went and did it, then had to TAKE IT BACK and go get another one.  DANG.

FUZZ, whatever it is you're up to, could you please put it off for a week or two?  Thank you.  You got a dog, a husband, movies on TV, pajamas.  Just do the easy stuff.  No hard stuff.  LISTEN to me.  Becuz if you miss something good, who cares; but if you miss something bad, you will never know what might have happened.  My dog actually tells me when to stop doing stuff I'm doing.  I'm thinking of having Smokey trained as an assistance dog. When I had to swap chairs for the computer, I almost fell dow a halfdozen times.  And like I said, he seems to know when I gotta stop whatever dumb crap I'm doing.

Bye for now, sweeties.  Be good to yourselves.  NOTHING is so important as our own persoal happiness, otherwise  you're no good to anybody.  GG 

duckyb1

GG.....thanks for the reminder. .....have a good day...it's 5am, what the hell am I doing up.....

GmaFoley

Ducky I'm up and working already ! 4:30 am here.

With all the snow everyone is having - lets think spring - here is a spring picture this morning.

duckyb1

Thanks, girlfriend.....got a call at 6an.....youngest daughter, the one whose kids Ihave taken care of while she works for 14 years (of course now, only after school). Well anyway this is how the conversation went ..."Sorry to wake you up so early".......(no problem, my sorry ass has been up since 4:45)...."Just wanted to ask you.....do you have any appts today"......answer "no"......."well Sean woke up with a fever and I am keeping him home....could you come sit with him"....(she works).......said "sure, no problem, and it isn't....however.........don't take this wrong....I love my kids, and Grands......?would do anything for them, and have......but where the fuck were you all the whole weekend when I was sitting by myself, with an IPad for company, and wondering....IS THAT ALL THERE IS.

So here I am at her house, grandson sleeping, and her dog sitting at my feet......farting his ass off, smelling like something crawled up his rectum and died, while I pull my sweatshirt up over my head to avoid the smell....will be here till around 4pm.

Yesterday, daughter #1, 2nd child, called and said...."Mom, do you think you could go over to the house tomorrow, and let Sophie out.....(normally a friend does it for her).......oh did I fail to mention..Sophie is her dog.......I'm beginning to feel like the elfin "dog whisperer"....hen she says....I am going to have a key made for you, so I think this is an every Monday thing.....calls last night and says, all cheery....Hi Mom, got you your key.....I will leave it under the planter out front...I said."ok, Gin"............then she says...."are you ok".....,,,,.,I said, yes, and hung

Don't mind doing any of this, but hey, a friggin phone call just to say "how the hell are you".......a visit for a cup of tea,........or hey Mom, is there anything you need.......I guess if I drop dead the stench will draw the attention of the neighbors....hmmmmmm, better give the neighbors one of their phone numbers........aahhhhh, why bother it will go into voicemail anyway............oh well shit happens.......

But why is it everyone assumes once the crisis has passed it's over......will they ever realize we need them more now then ever......guess my mistake was not being a whiny, needy, dependent woman.......seems they always come out smelling like a rose......but tat is not me, and my kids know it............God love them........

Adey

GmaF-  I love seeing your photos!  Thank you.

Lily55

Many of us on here are strong women and maybe that is apart of thre problem ?

GmaFoley

Ducky one of these days you are going to have to say "NO" get a baby sitter... I hate to say it, but I have been there with a few people, including my dad's side of the family.. They would always call and dad would jump to help them... The day he died - we never saw them again.. They never called my mom or anything.. just left her by the wayside..  It really sucks to see my mom abandoned by a family.. I understand though if you can't say no - that was the only time my xdil (before she was and ex) called was for me to watch Allie, my GD.. One day maybe I can come have tea with you!!! ***HUGS****

ridergirl

Feeling awful these last couple days, hot and cold, weak, shaky, fuzzy. Just not myself.  Don't know if this is the 'fatigue' they mentioned from rads, low blood counts from Taxol or what but I hate it.  Did see the ortho specialist last Thurs and seems femurs aren't any worse so i don't see him again for six months unless I think I need to...........thats a break!! 1 less appt

duckyb1

Gma...would love to have tea with you.....I must admit had my daughter asked anyone else to take care of Sean when she went back to work, I would have been crushed..she did say if I said no she was going to quit her job, which was high paying with big Pharma...we both worked there along with another daughter. She paid me which was the only way her husband would allow it. It helped a lot cause my husband had died a few years earlier, nd I had to take early SS, which hurt my amount of the check...(you lose 20% for each year you go on earlier then 65)..........so he was literally "my life". He filled a huge gap, left by my husband dying.......made me feel wanted again.....then 2 years later along came Makayla.....and so the story goes.....that was 14 years ago.....

So I loved that job......I just wish our kids knew that time is short and precious....I truly think they feel we will live forever, and they have much time left for visits, but time is short. One day you look back and think.......why did I not call more often, visit more times, go in, instead of driving by........I learned that lesson the hard way when my Mother died, and I was with her constantly, or she with me......yet I still second guess myself........did I truly spend as much time as I could have......my answer always comes back......maybe not......6 kids, a demanding husband........it was not easy, but you "make"the time.

So here I am, me and the dog....Sean is still sleeping and it's 10:30am..........but I'm on duty.......and so it goes.

thefuzzylemon

Hello Romp Roomers...I'm just very, very fatigued today. I called my oncologist office and left a message. Might need Med changes or something.

I can't agree more With the fact that after treatment, the hair cones back...everyone thinks we're cured! Everything goes right back to normal! It just goes to show how rampant ignorance is when it comes to what we go through. That is probably why we gather the way we do...to talk it out With the people who can understand.

Ducky...does your family know how you feel? Just curious Hon. Even when I say things in what I consider a "direct" way...it doesn't get through to some.

GG...don't you fret Sugar! I only need to do "parts"...then there's a lot of waiting...its been an adjustment but I found a groove and I'm riding it.

Ok...its nap time. Too tired for much more of anything.

XOXOXOXO

Lily55

Fuzzy - I had a day like that yesterday, just could not find any energy and even looked white but today a lot better....hope you feel better soon.....and find some zing

TeresainTucson

Hi All,

I've been gone for a while. I think I wanted to live life ignoring cancer didn't work lol. Had a second mastectomy in November 2012 - good news 1) now the sides are even without multiple rebuilding surgeries (just 1 mastectomy per side), 2) no more prosthetic! Though it was nice to be able to drop 2 pounds instantaneously by taking off the bra lol.

I haven't caught up on any of the 100pgs I've missed. I will go back and read several but probably not all 100. How is everyone doing? I hope mostly good! I am on anti depressants along with everything else and I must say it is wonderful not to be randomly breaking into tears. I actually feel like doing something, I just wish I could figure out what.

duckyb1

Fuzzy......my kids were amazing during the worst times......I'm not looking to be the center most important person in our immediate family....just a phone call.....

I love doing things for and with my kids, what else is family for......just would like an occasional visit, or call...maybe this is their way of keeping me active and on my toes......who knows.......one daughter I spent more time with shopping and having fun....she has decided to do her job full-time beginning this week... I will really miss our 2 days a week......it is true 1 is the loneliest number.....husband died 21 years ago....I had just turned 55, and he was just 57.......pancreatic cancer.......never cared to date, so I guess family was all I had...they are good to me, maybe I need to expect less.....they have lives too......but just a phone call.........

FireKracker

AwwwwwDucky/sista/friend...i hear you loud and clear....I went to a wake a few months back and one of my Xco workers said it well.This man wanted to have a reunion in the worst way....we had quite a few but not in the last 4 yrs.he was sick and we all knew that but we kept putting it off for this or that reason and then he died.

we always think we have tomorrow.We thought we did.Well we did alrite at his wake...damn shame.

Same goes for our family and friends...they never think that tomorrow just might not come.

just a damn phone call makes all the difference in the world.

duckyb1

We do always think we have more time, more tomorrows....I did with my husband.....I ran out of tomorrows.......I regret that every day......make the time......never look back and have to say""if only""..............cause life is not a dress rehearsal. We only get to go around once.....

thefuzzylemon

Teresa...welcome back!! You were MIA forever!!! I know sassy will be thrilled to see you're back!

We have highs and lows but there's never a day where we can't find each other!! No need to go back and read...just jump right back in!

Hi Adey! Good to see you too!

Lily...thanks girlie!! I'm just wiped out.

Ducky...I thought maybe your daughter is "keeping you busy" too. That's kinda sweet.

Oh boy. Just gotta shut my eyes for a bit...night night everyone...

GmaFoley

Ducky maybe that is why I feel so close to you - my dad was 53 and died of pancreatic cancer.  Its been 38 years and I still grieve every year.  

Hello Teresa - I'm new here - nice to meet you - I hope surgeries went well.

I am blessed with kids that stay in touch except for my Granddaughter - that I think ex DIL has a way of not letting her call - but that seems to be changing. Ex DIL has gotten cervical cancer and has opened up the doors a bit more so to speak. Her mom has abandoned her during her surgeries so she has kept me in the loop and is actually talking to me.  Concerned of course how GD is taking it and if she has said anything.. You know she hasn't mentioned it at all - She would rather talk about other stuff.  Anyway, I skype with my 2 grandsons 5yrs and 3 yrs old - mommy lets them call whenever they have time to tell me about their day.. I so wish you all had kids like that!!! you make me remember how blessed I am..  

Now to get my body to feel blessed and I would be awesome.  Hip is a bit better but still on a bit of pain meds.. I am being good and not doing anything yet.. keep reminding me please.. Have a meeting with the Respitory therapist today to talk about my sleep study and get a new mask.. She had to cancel yesterday - its the pits when they do that..

DH has to drive to the coast for a job today - please keep him in your prayers - our bills are getting to the point, bankruptcy seems eminent unless his work picks up - he is feeling useless because I am working 46 hours a week and he might scrape up 20 hours a week.. This job today and yesterday gives him a good start on another 40 hour week like last week.. If he can keep it up, we might make it.  It is hard not to be depressed when I am with him..he just complains about the medical bills - it makes me feel real bad... 

GmaFoley

Ok on a nicer note - Picture of the DAY - Called New Life - This series of pictures I will share with you this week are a set that I took during my cancer treatment to remind me that new life is all around us and my life was taking a change and it would become my "New Life"

Linda-Ranching-in-the-mTns

GmaFoley -- I hear you about the bankruptcy... But I did one (finally) in 2005 (after my divorce and just not being able to keep our joint-business afloat with all that business debt... and then the coup de gras of 'selling' my building to a con man who never paid... MAN was I at a low point in my life then!

But as it turns out, the banckruptcy was a HUGE relief and a blessing. It is so hard to walk away from a great credit rating and that self-satisfied feeling of 'being one of the responsible ones' -- but when you NEED bankruptcy... that is what it is there for. At least in my state (at that time Kansas) I was able to keep my house and my car -- too bad I had just re-financed the previously paid for (!) house in order to try to pay my creditors!

Ah well -- I'm just testifying to the fact that bankruptcy can be a wonderful thing.

Love the deer -- here is to all of us starting our NEW LIVES today!

Linda

Gingerbrew

Has anyone see 3Jays lately?  I know she was moving b ut I think that is essentially completed.   

Thanks Ginger

GmaFoley

No I haven't and I get nothing when I search for her..