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Anonymous

groannnnnnnn...stretch.......grrrrrrr

Oh, good morning girls!!! What a lovely day (not!)

Well, starting out with such positive energy has to be a good thing. I'll be all perked up soon. Mornings are the worst.

Thank you so much for the warm greetings. I'm glad I jumped back in.

Karen, I'm now actually living on Mercer Island. Not terribly far from you. Maybe we could find a place in the middle one day for a cuppa. I'm desperate for excuses to get out of the house.

Mel, you are a ray of sunshine on a gray day. Thanks for the updates on everyone. I was just joking about AE and UB, of course. Your good wishes, and especially saving a seat at the bar for me, are deeply appreciated.

 Jule, I'll check with my son about the lakes. He says there is fantastic flyfishing on the Grand Ronde, but there are no roads on the Walla Walla side and it's a long drive around. He's just itching to go there one day. I would love to see you when I go over. Now that I'm separated, things like parent's weekend will be awkward so I'm not sure what I'll do. I'd love to just go over and spend a few days sometime.

Off to face the gremlin...I hear "gramma" in the air...

Judie 

livesstrong

Where is everyone???? 

Ok, played hookey today and didn't go to the whse for inventory.  UB is in alot of pain from the Neulasta shot - so I was up half the night with him.  He's not much better.  I HATE BOOTFACE!!!!

Judy - Welcome Back!! 

AE 

portiasproudmom

Awww, AE, so sorry that the dreaded "nasty-lasta" shot is kicking UB's butt.  Oh, how I hate that stuff.  I had an allergic reaction to it, remember?  I literally thought I was dying.  Give him a big hug from me and tell him that I feel his pain.

Judie, I'd love to meet up one day for a cuppa.  Maybe once I've finished with rads.  I've pretty much exhausted my babysitting resources for a while (my son is five, and a bundle of energy).  I think both sets of grandparents are probably exhausted by now.  I can imagine how your little grandson is running you into the ground.  They really are fun though, aren't they?  I wouldn't trade my little guy for the world.  He's more physically exhausting than my daughter, but she exhausts me emotionally.  Oh, the DRAMA of being a 14 year old girl!  I don't remember my life being so full of angst at that age.  Sigh...................

I'm sort of dragging today too--and it's already 1:30 here.  I've been doing some very necessary housework.  I've become a real slug since starting treatments.  I thought it would get better after chemo, but I'm still exhausted all the time.  Also, my muscles ache something awful.  Did any of you who have done rads notice that your muscles ached?  I keep having to push that "mets" fear out of my head whenever I have an ache or a twinge.  It's just so scary.  I HATE living in fear all the time.  GOD, I HATE BOOTFACE!!!!!!  Can ya tell I'm having a rather poopy day?  Blechhhhh!!!!! 

Ok, I feel a bit better after my rant.

bbl.  Hugs to all.

Karen

geebung

AE - so sorry that UB has had a bad night and you have this stress and worry over the dear man. Love and hugs so you both. I so hope he feels better soon.

So great to hear from you again Judie - what a rotten year you have had - it couldn't get much worse so I hope that things will really look up for you now. I know what you mean about living with your children but sometimes it can work quite well. You have your work cut out being an almost full time carer for your grandson but, as you say, it is kind of nice to be involved. My sister is constantly flat out juggling work and her grandchildren. I cannot see it happening to me anytime soon - even though my eldest son is 29.

It sounds as though Sue is sleeping. I hope you are able to catch up a bit sweet sister. You must be totally exhausted. 

How cool about the Nordies and noon arrangement! It will be so great if you can meet up.

Bbl

Hugs for everyone,

Jane xxxx 

geebung

(((((Karen))))) How many more weeks of rads do you have? I'm sorry you are so achy and tired. You have a lot on your plate right now. I cannot imagine how exhausting it must be to have treatments and have a family to care for. You ladies who do it have my admiration.

xxx 

portiasproudmom

Thanks Jane.  You always make me feel better.  You have such a sweet, sympathetic, and soothing quality.  I love you, dear sister!!  I have six more weeks of this.  I'm getting 33 regular rads and 2-3 extra booster zaps to my tumor site.  The past week flew by, so I imagine the next six will go by just as quickly.  And then it will be almost summer!  I'm looking forward to it so much.  It's strange to think that you'll be heading into winter, Jane, just as we're emerging from it.  How cold does it get where you live?

Hugs,

Karen

livesstrong

Karen - hang in there girlfriend.  Rad's made me tired as well.  A different fatigue then what I felt during chemo.  I had mine at 7 in the morning, went to work, then by 7 at night I had to lay down and nap a bit.  It's more of a nuissance then anything.

It does fly by - you'll see.  You are getting closer to OZ with each passing day!

AE 

sueps

        Hellooooooooo LOL.....well I have just got online...and I just called to say I love you (Stevie Wonder) ......I just called to say I care xxx

Sisters I will be back soon..I have been up since 5 am at work all day and had 10 hours sleep since Tuesday.... I am in for the big crash ....

I am just going to make a cuppa .... I am very tired tonight...it is 10pm..... xxx

I will read in a min...xxx

You are ALL always with me deep inside xxx

portiasproudmom

Thanks AE!  It always helps to hear from someone who's been through it.  I know it will go fast.  I'm just sick to death of all this garbage.  I used to go YEARS without a single doctor's appt.  I guess I'm just having a delayed reaction to this new "reality" that is my life. 

Hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Hi Sue!!!  Are you tired?  Maybe you should just go to bed.  Ten hours of sleep in four nights is NOT enough!  Your body needs rest to heal and recover from the chemo before you go in and do it again.  Maybe some warm milk will make you sleepy?  I've never tried it, but people swear by it.

I'm sharing this with you all because I though you'd get a kick out of it.  Is this at your house, Mel?  Yours Lisa??  Chase cracked up when he watched it.

http://www.maniacworld.com/dog-having-a-blast-in-the-snow.html

Hugs,

Karen

sueps

(((Karen))) I love that dog!!! hhahaha..I thought it had drowned in the snow at one point...very funny...lol ...

Well I am very tired....I think they gave me too many steroids ..I dont know...it is not a nice feeling...and all my veins are full of bruises... I am off tomorrow ...so I am going to sleep big time...after I have been food shopping...I also think i regenerated on my holiday ... and have loads of energy in that way ....

I am absolutely dreading the back end of next week after the second week if this cycle when I go again on Tuesday...I am DREADING it ...

Karen are you having a whole six weeks of rads..I think I am only having 3 or 4 .... not sure....but I am not looking forward to it...

GOD I HATE YOU FREAKING FREAKING BOOTFACE...YOU ARE EVIL IN EVERY DESPICABLE WAY ...EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL!!!

I will be back soon... xxx

Much love xxx

honeygirl

Oh Karen , thanks so much for that video!lololol How cute. He sure does love the snow! When he was tunneling in it , it reminded me of the movie Tremors! Sorry you're feeling so tired. Damn rads , damn bootface! Can you take naps during the day? Hang in there sister.xxxx

Hi Lisa! Noon at Nordies sounds great to me! I think I know where the beachwood mall is. I past it when I got lost going to my ps!

Wow , it was really foggy here this morning. Did you go to work? Was it foggy there? Well , the snow is melting here. There are spots of grass showing here and there. Maybe this will be our last snow! Wouldn't that be great. Hope you're feeling better.xxxx

Hi Sue! Gosh , I can't imagine going on 10 hrs. of sleep since Tues..

Yes , get a cuppa , and try to unwind. I have a feeling , when the steroids wear off , you are going to sleep along time!xxxx

Hi gb , hope you're weekend is going well with dh. I bet you guys are busy making plans for the big move. I'm so happy for you. And I want you away from those freaky neighbors!xxxx

 AE , UB is a private detective!? How cool. I always wanted to do that. Wished I would have. Hope he is out of the pain from the shot soon. Give him a big hug and tell him I'm rooting for him. Go Bill go , kick cancers a$$!!!.xxxx

geebung

Oh Karen- that dog!!! lol! He reminded me of a duck diving under the water and re-surfacing! How did he breath?? I guess that if it was really powdery snow there would be air amongst it? He looked so happy and excited!

I love the winters here. We get a few frosts as we are a little inland from the sea (about 25 minutes away from the nearest beach) but the days tend to be sunny and mild - the lowest daytime temperatures of the year tend to be around 23-24 degrees F but usually a bit warmer than that. People who have lived here for a long time complain but I lived in Canberrra for a while and the winters were much longer and colder there. I am looking forwards to a Blue Mountains winter where it usually snows at least once each winter.

Sue, I so hope you can get some sleep - roll on Sunday! I want you to slumber for hours and hours to catch up. You must be absolutely dizzy with tiredness - even though you can't sleep.

Must go and get busy.

xxxxx 

geebung

There is a girl in my night class who has been a private investigator - she has spied on cheating spouses and loved it!

NancyD

My father was a private detective in his third career (he's had about four or five). He started out going to law school just before WWII, and when the war broke out they rejected him from enlisting due to a childhood bout with rheumatic fever, so he joined the FBI and made that his first career (chasing spies and gangsters).

When he retired from that he joined the NFL, chasing away gamblers and drug pushers from the players and "protecting the integrity of the game". 

When he retired from THAT, he joined a few other former FBI agents and opened their own PI firm.

Anyway, he really dispised the cheating spouse jobs. When he had the joint company, one of the other guys always took those cases. My father much preferred trying to catch employees stealing from wharehouses, or background checks on people.

After a few years, they decided to disband the company and each went out on thier own. My dad loved the fact that he could finally give up his commute into NYC and work from home. He also took an appointment to the local sanitation commission for many years, and finally ended his career as one of the three police commissioners for our town.

portiasproudmom

That's funny Jane!  I've often thought being a PI who catches spouses cheating would be a fun job.  Except I'd feel badly if the spouse who hired me was all upset and crying when presented with the evidence.

Hugs,

Karen 

portiasproudmom

Thought for the day

Handle every situation like a dog. If you can't eat it or hump it, Piss on it and walk away.  

Love and hugs,

Karen

portiasproudmom

Oh poo!  The cute picture of the dog that went along with the last post isn't there!  I hate it when that happens.

honeygirl

Wow Nancy , your father has had quite an exciting career life. Thats great.I always wanted to do that.

Karen , I loved "handle every situation like a dog"!lol So cute. And just what I would like to do sometimes!

Sue I really hope you are sleeping right now. I think it is 2am your time. Sue , I am so in awe of you right now. You have really been through it and you are holding your own. I am so proud to call you my friend. You stay strong and keep up the fight against bootface. You are doing a hell of a job. Soon , you will be in Emerald City! It will be your "crossing the finish line. Much love to you and your boys.xxxx Melody

Shirlann

Oh man, HI TOWHEE!    So much fun having you back.

Love always to hear what is knew with Karen, loved the dog thing.  I am going to use that one.  Kare, I hope the rest of rads goes well, I had an easy time and I was 63, but so much depends on just you.  Can't tell which thing will knock you on your a**.  No way to tell.

Sue, lovey, hang on baby, hang on.  You may get lucky with the rads.  I got mine in the evening, about 3pm, then went home and DID NOTHING till morning, and I worked (of course, sitting on my arse) through it.  So who knows?  You may not have too bad a time.  Anyway, one baby step at a time.

I spoke to Ulla, she is okay, just wanted to take a break for a while.  But she is okay.

I want to meet at Nordies, TOO!!!!  Dang it, this is such a big country.  Shoot. 

AE, I still cannot believe you are both in this rat race!  Too much.  Bless your hearts.  Hang in there, we are all with you and I think you two are so strong, you will kick bootface in the rear.

Love to you all, I come here and just read and read, then can't remember anything, except I have never been associated with a nicer group of gals. 

Hugs, kisses, and love, Shirlann

livesstrong

Hi Ladies,

Thanks so much for your words of encouragement for UB.  Poor guy is having a tough time with pain.  You can bet this will be his LAST Nuelasta shot.

He actually hasn't done PI kinda work in a long time.  Nancy, like you Dad he never did the cheating spouse kinda work.  He worked with a firm in NYC that worked strictly corporate cases.  Money laundering, embezzlement that kinda stuff.  His firm actually did work for some famous people - Uri Geller, Billy Joel, Yoko Ono.  But, eventually he burnt out so he left. Then he got bootface the first time and was out of work for quite awhile.  Now he does public record searches on the side and got a job in Loss Prevention for a food chain here. 

Karen - LOVE the video - aren't dogs great!!!  They always make me smile!!

Mel - always love your pics, keep them coming.

Shirlann - can I go with you??? Please. PLEEEEAAAASE!!!!  

Sure hope our Sue to dreaming the night away.  She needs her rest!!! 

Well ladies, I'm going to check in on a few other boards then call it a night.

TTYS,

AE 

livesstrong

Goodnight ladies -

honeygirl

Awwwwwwwwwww , AE , I have tears! That is one of the cutest things God ever created.xxxx Thanks Mel

portiasproudmom

I want a kitten!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  That is absolutely adorable!!!  Thanks for posting it, AE. 

xoxoxo

Karen

Anonymous

Anonymous

Hi again,

Rats! My son's firewall thwarted my attempts to post a picture...sigh. I'll have him add this site to my safe list tomorrow.

Speaking of pictures, you are so much fun, Mel. Are you possibly our Yellow Brick Cheerleader?

Thanks for the warm welcome AE. I hope I can keep up with this dynamic group! Here's hoping UB's pain settles down very soon. What a life you two have!

Hey, Karen, I can relate to grandparent burnout. You could always bring your ...ahem...active...son and I'd bring my grandson. On second thought, let's wait. I wouldn't want you to get too weak to go to those treatments! It would be fun to meet you whenever it is possible. I feel guilty "only" having surgery and skipping radiation and chemo. My hat is off you you guys who are doing the whole nine yards.

Jane, don't give up on the grandbabies. My eldest son is the papa of my youngest grandson! He was 44 when Connor came along. It took him a long, long time to decide he would make a good daddy.

Hey, Sue! I know you are feeling low in the energy department and have been to hell and back, but you manage to brighten the room when you walk in. Keep it up! I've gotta make that pie I read about when trying to catch up. You are dangerous, girl!

GB, I'm jealous of your Blue Mountain adventure. It will be fun to go along with you over time.

Wow, Nancy, what a dad! He sounds adventurous. Somehow I think he would also be a lot of fun. Is that a good guess?

Ah, Shirl, thanks...I've missed you. Your comment about reading all the messages and not being able to remember a thing cracked me up...join the club!!! I'm glad Ulla's ok...what a struggle she has. It may be a big country, but it seems that Nordie's is everywhere now. It's kinda sad, actually. It was our local pride and joy, too good to go mainstream, but like Starbuck's, we've lost our edge. Nothing's local any more and I just hate it!!!

It's been a tough day here. Each day I've been feeling a bit more down and can't figure out why. I went for a walk tonight to clear my head, and it hit me that in a few days it will be the anniversary of the first of the events that ultimately unraveled life as I had known it...the death of my partner's mom, who had been a very large part of our lives. I miss her. Her death was the beginning of the end for our family. So now I know why I'm down, and it's perfectly normal, and I will get through it. Whew!!! (All the pain and constant hot flashes are another story altogether...those I'm not so sure about )

With that, it's into bed with high hopes for some sleep...that wonderful, elusive state of restful oblivion...

Judie

geebung

Nancy - your father has had a very interesting life! I can imagine the burn out rate would be high for PI work though. I don't think I would like to spy on cheating spouses either - you would get awfully jaded and sceptical about true and lasting love! Karen - I totally agree, it would be sad having to give the bad news to the non-cheating spouse. Loved your dog's perspective on how to handle life!

Melody - love your inspirational pics for Sue and UE - those kittens are adorable! 

Judie - loved your post but I am so sorry that you are down. You have had such a sad time. And I think menopause makes all your emotions more intense because you often feel more vulnerable. Hot flashes are the pits - I hate them! I hope you had a peaceful sleep.

hugs,

Jane 

honeygirl

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIA!

Mia , lots of birthday hugs being sent your way! Love ya , Melody

livesstrong

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIA!!!!!!!

AE

Anonymous

Hmmmmm, I must be the sleepy head in the bunch here!!!!

Happy B-day Mia!!!!!

Ive had a tremendously busy week and was a tired girl this morning so slept in for a bit, if you can call 7:30 sleeping in!!!!!

But it is bright and sunny so thought I would have my morning coffee
here with you all...

Although I did have my first cup outside on the deck a bit ago....I
love spring!!!!! There is this little squirrel that has been hanging
around here for the past few years...I know it is the same one as he
is missing on of his from paws (poor little guy), he joins me on the
deck when I am out there for his morning peanuts....If I dare forget
his peanuts he squabbles and squacks at me until I get them and if I
leave my coffe out there he is drinking it when I go back!!! Goofy
little guy!!!

Spent the day with mom yesterday. We drove to Tri-Cities (50 miles
away) to do a little shopping and meet up with two of my brothers and their wifes for lunch...was a fun day....was even nicer as the rain
only seemed to happen whenever we were inside....

Today I have tons of stuff to do!!! The dreaded housework of course
and I want to spend more time outside in the rose gardens, they are
still looking kind of yukky....have some car issues to deal with
too...my car has a dead battery so need to charge that (dont drive it
very often in the winter as I also have a truck that I love), sons
car has a flat tire, so need to get that off and to the repair shop
as he is out of town for awhile now and not sure when he will be
back...

Went out to my little brothers a couple of evenings ago, boy do I
wish I had a video camera!!!!! My 14 yr old nephew and his friend are having steers in the local FFA here and they were delievered the
other day....he called and wanted me to come see them and watch
how "well" he knows how to handle a cow.....he was walking along
leading this cow and the next thing I knew the cow was running and
Rob had turned around to see what was going on, the cow running
towards him startled him so he was running backwards with the lead
rope still in his hand, needless to say the cow ran him over....it
was hilarous, just like a cartoon!!!!! Afterwards I asked Rob why he
didnt drop the lead rope so the cow would go on its own...he said he
didnt think about that!!!! Mind you this cow is about 300 lbs....Then
my little brother stopped by for a few mintues last night...I asked
him how the cow thingy was going and he said "I truely think me, Rob and Chris are all now trained to lead"....seems they should have
boughten smaller cows

Judie-I would love to visit, let me know when you are in my area and we will get together....Karen, you too, if you ever get this way let me know.....Walla Walla is getting pretty well known for its wines here, I have never done a wine tour but it would be fun....

Well, I have tons of stuff to do so better quit playing around....I hope you all have a lovely day!!!

Jule