please help

sueps

Ok ..I am going for a bath ...and then I am going to post some pics of our beautiful Ulla ...so watch this space ...I won't be long....X x X

my3girls

I am glad to see you Ulla.

I will look for those pics when I get home, while my cake is baking!  I hope I will be able to go home ontime tonight!

I am feeling warm and headache again!  I hope and pray I am not getting Olivia's bugs!

sueps

Oh god Lisa ...I hope not either..I am pryaing you arent..although you have been unwell lately ...maybe it is your bugs she caught xxx lol you never know xxx

I don't believe this I have just had to take an anti sickness pill !!! cos the thought of treatment is strongly making me blerggh. rite let me sort Ulllas pics xxx

sueps

 

 

ULLA YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL X X X

Karyll

All I can say is WOW.

Karyll

honeygirl

Oh Ulla , you are sooo beautiful.xx

sueps

You are so right ...Ulla is drop dead gorgeous...Ulla you really are...inside and out....and it is all our sincere pleasure to have you in our lives xxx WE LOVE YOU !

sueps

Karyll ...Hello  I thought of you at work today ..thinking gosh I havent seen Karyll for ages...when I got home I chased all your posts up....I was worried you hadnt been around....how wrong was I!!

I am so glad you are resting...I think I will have to go the same way as you...I am finding it way too stressy and tiring trying to fit sleep and rest around work...chemo SUCKS...

It is so nice to see you  xxx

Ulla

oh ,,karyll

i do really miss u and miss ur words ,,,

let me tell u that the 1st picture (in black) was in the same mastectomy day,,it is in the waiting room be4 my being marked for the operation in the hospitall....

the pic in pyj. was in my first 2 weeks of pregnancy

and same as the pic in white in the train it was only 3 or 4 days be4 the dx

the pic with the funny red hat is the one be4 the christmas,,this is in the school with other students,,one of them who is in the pic is hungarian and wanted to celebrate with all of the classroom in his own way so he brought a bottle of wine for each of us and for our swedish teacher,,,as he wont be able to spend the christmas in sweden..he was travelling to hungary ...can u c the difference in my appearnce bet the pix???????grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

i hate that fatty ,,bald face

but i believe and trust ur words ..u r really making me feel better that i found myself able to write again

love u from all my heart

Lucy1234

Ulla you are also a sexy mama! I wish I was blond....

Sue I hope I didnt offend you with my post before I just thought it might help you to see the good things in your life though the bad

sueps

  Poppy dear sis xxx you definitely didnt offend me...you gave me strength....and I promise we will be licking icecreams in Bournemouth this Summer!!! I wish with all my heart I still lived there...maybe if things are ok in 4 years ...I will move back...I would go at the click of fingers...but I dont want to move the boys while they are happy.... I love you Poppy...cant wait to meet ya xxx

Ulla

dear sue thank u so much for posting the pix honey...

i hope u r feeling better ,,,my arm starts to hurt again ..grrrrrrrrrrrr

dear poppy thank u for ur nice words ,,my heart start to dance wen read u saying (sexy mama) i cant wait till i am able to be a MAMA even if wasnt sexy then...lol

i dont think sue felt any bad about ur post ,,,i loved it becoz u were trying to show her the good sides of the bad things that she is passing through now..this way works sometimes with me...

sueps

Ulla wait til everyone else sees your pics...you have to believe us ...you look good in EVERY pic...goodness ...you should see me...I am yak ...yak yak ...and yak LOL...Ulla you will get through this...and I will ...then we will put lippy on and go for a nice time xxx

sueps

Ulla there is an airport called Heathrow ...down south ...if you flew into there I can pick you up and drive to Poppy...oh hum...just a nice thought... xxx

Ulla

dear sue..i know heathrow and i may be able to come to uk by boat from gothenburg (may be next summer)hubby have some work need to be finished there and he was postponding his visit till i feel better so i can come with him to c u and poppy and to pay a visit my sister tooo.lol can u beleive me if i told u that i forget that i already have a sister in UK??I ONLY REMEMEBRED U AND POPPY ....LOL LOL

I LOVE U ALL

sueps

HAHAHAHAHA LOL ULLA ...Poppy and I are your sisters...lol...we are your special sisters!!

Thats brill that you are coming over...we will all be so much better then!!

You have given me something to look forward to!!! However do you think dear Poppy will have enough money to buy two ice creams LOL xx

sueps

See how yak I am even before treatment!! Everyone says I look young for 38 ...I feel like 78 LOL

Shirlann

Oh Sue, sweetie, you are so YOUNG! What a pretty young girl. With that lovely British skin! WOW! You are a looker, honey, but your heart is prettier still.



ULLA, my God, have you considered Hollywood? No, don't go there. But what lovely pix.



You two girls are just precious, beautiful, gorgeous, hmmm, memories. I USED to be pretty, doesn't last long! hahaha



Sue, I think you are so down because your last one of these chemo's (this type) is coming up. We had one woman who couldn't drive down the street her chemo facility was on for years after her treatments. She would instantly get sick. And another lady, met her infusion nurse in a grocery story, said "HI", and promptly threw up in the brocolli!



Chemo is not for the faint of heart. You both get big gold stars with all of us.



Hang on, precious ones, hang on.



One step at a time, baby steps.



Love you, Shirlann

my3girls

OK...I CAN'T WAIT TO GET HOME TO SEE ALL OF THESE PICS!!! LOOK WHAT A PICK ME UP THEY WERE TO YOU TWO!!

AT WORK THE PICS ARE BLOCKED.  SO AFTER I GET MY LITTLE GUYS CAKE IN THE OVEN, I WILL LOG ON AT HOME TO SEE THEM!! YEAH..I CAN'T WAIT!!

I AM FINISHING UP WORK HERE NOW..IT'S 7:10PM MY TIME...20 MINUTES TO GO!

XOXO

LISA

Karyll

Yeah, I am here and there and everywhere. I read here everyday because if I don't I have mounds to catch up on... lol. I usually post mostly in the Sept and Oct gals chemo threads but I always know what is happening the land of Wizard of Oz. -

My thoughts and process have been quite dark of late too. I have had a great deal of trouble with my last two rounds of chemo. I have one more to go on Thursday and I think someone may have to sedate me to get me there.  The forced medical leave turned out to be a blessing in disguise because I literally could not get up. And there in itself leads me to a bit of depressive behavior. I tend to be that way anyway, and I now mostly expend my energies on trying to stay out of that pit of despair before I spiral completely into it. Reading how everyone else is coping, and the words of wisdom that follow has helped me along and through some pretty tumultuous days and lately weeks. So yeah, like the other ladies said, this too shall pass. I'm sure counting on it.
Great Pics of you too Sue.

Lovely ladies indeed today.

Karyll

geebung

Hello dearest sisters,

I have just caught up on all your posts after spending the weekend with dear Oliver (my friend's cat!).

Sue, I was SO worried when I read your earlier posts. I am not at all surprised that you felt so dreadful. It must be incredibly hard for you. Please never feel though that you can't come and scream out your frustrations, fear and pain on here. I was so happy to see your lovely face in the photos. You do look incredibly young! English rose!

And Ulla, you are gorgeous too! With and without hair and your face doesn't look fat to me. You haven't been posting much during the last week either for similar reasons to Sue and I am so sorry you are feeling so bad too. I would love to think that you and Sue and Poppy could meet up. I really think it's a great plan for next summer - something to look forward to.

Lisa - loved your pics of your darling little gradson - what a treasure he is! Please give him my late birthday wishes. Such a lovely photo of your daughter too (so pretty!) and that one of you holding Matthew with his dear little hand on your breast - so sweet! Hope Olivia is feeling better. I felt so angry over her boss's unfair attitude - what a stinker!

Karen, please don't feel bad about the car bump - it happens to everybody sometimes and besides, you have a good excuse! You are just great the way you keep going through all this horrible chemo. Hope you are having a wonderful weekend away.

So good to hear from you Karyll but sorry to hear that you are doing it tough too. Please come back again soon and rant to us - we would love to have you.

Melody, it was great to see you long post about how you felt divinely led to this site and how all the wonderful women helped you through your darkest times. Your posts are always inspiring.

Sue, Lisa, Karen, Mel, Ulla, Shirlann, Tender, Wren, Mia, Poppy, Sheila, Auntie M, md mouse, Val, and anyone else I have forgotten - hope you all have a good week and my special prayers for all who have treatments this week.

Hugs,

gb 

Ulla

oh god sue ..i just sign in and saw ur charming pix,,wat a skin????

u look so yonger than 38 ...

ur hair will start coming again after this last red devile in tuesday...

u will feel so strange to have it again....

i am intending to shave it for the last time after the last chemo in friday so i can start having a nealthy untoxicated new hair

karyll..u will finish ur RX 1 day be4 i will finish mine...

i hope that it will be easier for u ...

dear gb ur words allways lift my spirit up...

but i hope u understand that sometimes i dont feel like writing anything ,,,just sit and read all ur posts in calm...

but not find anything to write as everything is going in the same routien way,,,nothing to be written ,,as simple as that,,,

lisa ..everytime i hate myself for being fatty as$ i go again and have a look at all ur pix ,,they make me feel really better,,,

poppy ,,,u r a very special person for me ..ur jokes ,,laughs ..make me smile all the time when i remember them...go on spreading these posative feelings here and there,,,

mel..i do trust every word u say ,,i beleive in u ,,,u r so spiritual..u make me see the other bright side evrytime i sink in the dark side..thank u ...

karen ,,i hope ur weekend will make u forget the this lil accedent ,,plz take care of urself..hope u will have a nice time..

now i kept SHIRLANN,,till the end...i hope my outcomes will be like urs dear shirlann,,,

u r the hope that make me keep fighting this bootface..u make me believe that i can do it without being afraid that it will come to me again..u make me stronger and know how to drag me from the dark thoughts to the poastive ones,,it all happenes wen i read ur words everytime..

dear siters ..i love u so much and thank god everyday that ive found u,,

honeygirl

Hi gb! I'm glad you had a good weekend with your furry little friend Oliver. I bet he appreciated your company so much. Did you take advantage of the bubble bath again? Oh my , theres nothing like a bubble bath to relax you. Is it still incredibly humid and hot there? How about I send you some of our temps , todays high is 13! And its snowing and they are calling for a foot before its all over. Oh well , it makes me appreciate spring that much more. You have a good week too gb.xxx Melody

honeygirl

Hi Karyll , so good to see you post. Sorry the dreaded tx is getting the best of you. You only have to weather the chemo storm alittle longer. And things will be sooo much better then. Good luck Thurs. , I know , my last tx was my hardest to walk into. I mentally just put blinders on and just kept repeating "last one , last one".After that , then time to recover for me was about the time I would have had another tx. And I noticed thats when I started feeling healthier again. Hang on sister , you can do it!xxxx Melody

honeygirl

Hi Sue! Your pics are beautiful! Shirlann is right , beautiful complexion. I've always had a "ruddy" complexion , so I really appreciate a beautiful one. Your hair is so thick and pretty. Wait till that comes in all new and healthy. Simply gorgeous.xxxx

Ulla , last chemo on Fri.! Yeah! Like I told Karyll ,when you're all done , about the time you would be having another chemo , you will start feeling healthy again. Its such a wonderful feeling , so glad you made it through Ulla.xxxx Melody

Lisa , hope the cake turned out good.I'm sure the little guy will love it. Take pics to show us.xxxx Mel

livesstrong

OUR SUE IS BACK!!!! YIPPIE!!!

Jeez, I haven't been on since yesterday afternoon and so much is going on!!!

Ulla & Sue - WOW!!!   You two are absolutely gorgeous - Aw, to be young again.

Just wanted to let you two know that, gotta run DH is making breakfest!!!

bbl,

Aunty EM 

Ulla

where is everybody today??????????

i can c sue now in the kitchen making a good roasted dinner for the boys ,,,mmmmmmm

am hungry againnnnnn

c ya

sueps

 Hello Everyone x

Ulla today ...Well in a bit I am making a roast beef dinner....I just have to muster the energy...I have just been shopping at Asda...god I hate food shop!!! I was in a bad mood...and everyone was annoying me !!

We had the same checkout operator as last week ...and every single item he put through he kept saying "There you go" "There you go" well after the 40th odd item I felt like saying "There you go ...off you trot and shut up" lol ..... why is everything annoying me...I am a sea of emotions lately...and I dont know which way to turn....How do you get through this .... I am trying with all my might to find an even keel....it is so gruelling... xxx

Well I hope you are all having a good day ... and resting up on a Sunday....cos thats what Sundays are for.... I have never liked Sundays really...but lately they have been a godsend for rest xxx

Much Love xxx

Lucy1234

I know what you mean Sue Im like that once a month! We went to ASDA today, we are trying to get parked the kids are in the back of the car trying to kick ten bells out of eachother, the dogs in the back barking. I thought Im going crazy.......

Then this stupid woman spent about 5 mins going backwards and forwards trying to get into a parent and child space and when she got out she didnt even have kids with her! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Sundays restful? I dont think so! Bring on Monday morning and work! LOL

I love them really

Ulla I will buy you the biggest ice cream you have ever seen if you come to see me!

sueps

I just laughed aloud ...hahaha Poppy....thats so funny...I had some right ones in the carpark today....I am going to do my shopping online next time...I am going to research tonight..the delivery times etc etc....cos I am really really hating it....the world is just getting busier and busier ....

Right I am off to finish making the dinner...I have made enough for the whole of Bolton as usual...so I think Zippy is in for a lucky night...why do my days off go in a flash .... I wish I had 2 days together ...xx

Poppy are you watching Dancing on Ice tonight...I so love that programme...One of them had a nasty fall this week....What about Gareth Gates lol...I never thought he would do this show...

Well I am waffling now...I am going to take my wig off...it is fly away mad today...I feel like a barbie doll when all the hair is old and tangled...my o/h washed it last night....god knows it looks terrible...like I have had an electric shock !!!

Much Love xxx