TIME TO CIRCLE THE WAGONS GIRLS

BMD

Good afternoon all. Just got back from our San Diego get together. It was just so relaxing and fun. I just love meeting with the ladies from here. SoCal has probably already posted our picture. I have not checked yet.

Wild/Jan I PMed you my email and phone number. Hope we can get together while you are here.

AlwayHope that was the Geek Squad that came to my house. The data retreval was the most expensive part. If I had even an ounce of sense I would have been backing up and updating all along. Then I wouldn't have to pay someone else to fix it. I need some of the data for my work.

Nicki--My dog gets all excited after we are all done with the dishes at night. Now that I have been walking again she just assumes when the dishwasher goes on she is getting a walk. She just barks and carries on.

Puppy--Glad to see you are able to post. I love the picture of the praying hands. Hope you are feeling well.

Well I may be getting the hang of this. We shall see.

BMD

neesie

IMPROVING THE BOARDS MY FANNY...................STUPID THING JUST GAVE ME THE 'INVALID' THINGY AGAIN!!!! FIRST TIME I ACTUALLY ADDRESSED ALMOST EVERYONE IN AWHILE AND POOF.........GONE! I DO STILL HAVE SOME NOTES SO MAYBE LATER GATORS!!
SEEMS LIKE EVERYTIME I DON'T COPY....IT GRABS ME AND WHEN I DO COPY I DON'T NEED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hugs,
Denise

CherrylH

Denise,
Relax. Count to ten. Take a large stiff drink and try again.

Cherryl

Sandra1957

Hi girls,

It's me, bad, lazy wagon circle sis, lini. I haven't circled round in a while, and I'm almost embarrassed to ask, but I really, really need you to put my baby boy in the middle of the circle. I know the power of this place and he really needs it right now. I've peeked in all week and tried to muster up the courage to ask, but then saw every one else talking about their "boys" and all that their going through and I felt ashamed and embarrassed to post. But it's not for me, it's for my boy. Please say a little prayer for him. He needs strength and guidance and all the love, good thoughts and prayer that any of you are willing to send out right now.

Humbly yours,

lini

Madison

I'm melting......I'm melting
Gosh, it is so darn hot....got middle daughter totally moved out of her apartment.....115 heat index

Lini, the circle is to help, to "circle around those who need us".....prayers are going you way....in fact,

I need to ask for prayers for my military daugther....just spoke to her and they are taking her to the ER....still can't keep anything down. The base does not have a "base" hospital, so she will be in the city's hospital. One of her wingmen is bringing her and she promised he would call with up-dates. I hate being a long distance mommy!!!

Thanks all, Madison

Sandra1957

Thanks, Madison. I'm sending prayers right back your way, too. I hope that it's nothing too serious with your daughter. Geez, it's so much harder having adult children than babies!

Sandra1957

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AlaskaDeb

OK...this is a self-centered vent. Feel free to skip it and go have a nice glass of wine instead…I just need to gripe….

I am so damn tired of worrying. About a week before I went to Pinkstock I started having pain in my ribs on my non-cancer side every time I take a deep breath. I consciously MADE myself not worry about it. I also have developed a lot of pain in my “bad” shoulder. I ALSO somehow screwed up my knee…..

SO, now all this has been going on long enough that I feel like I need to address it with my Onc, which means a trip to Anchorage for the appointment, and I am 99% sure that if I voice all this I will be flat on my back in a bone scan machine before you can whistle Dixie…I mentioned the joint pain to my onc and now she wants me to see a Rheumatologist because of the joint pain… I need another doctor like I need a hole in my head…..grrrrrrr.

So basically I am just sick of worrying about every pain. I am half-way convinced I have mets in my ribs, worried it is back in my auxiliary area and considering if chemo has permanently killed my joints….are we having fun yet?

I know that my choices are to either ignore all this for a few more days and see if things improve, or call the Onc and deal with the whole test run-around again…I just don’t like either choice.

OK..thanks for letting me complain. I need to go make some dinner. Life has a way of just keeping on keeping on even when I am in a crappy mood….

AlaskaDeb

Lini and Madison – I am keeping both of your kids in my prayers and sending you both hugs.

lizws

Lini sending prayers your way hon. Don't ever feel like you can't ask. That's why we're here.

Madison - Okay girl, keep us up to date on what's going on with DD. She most likely needs some IV fluids and some good IV nausea meds. Prayers for ya'll also.

Deb - HUGS. I knew something was up with you. You did a pretty good job of not showing your concern. Personally, I would go to the doc and have it all checked out. I've found that worrying just drives me battier than I already am.

Back to read again.

Love & Hugs
Liz

Sandra1957

I'm having a pink greyhound instead of wine. I bet you're fine Deb, maybe just really over-worked, over-tired, over-traveled, and over-partied. Get it checked out anyway. I'd probably try to rest up a bit and wait a few more days before doing the whole test thing. The choices do suck big time. Used to be, "oh your uterus is slightly enlarged and tilted back. No biggie" Now it's a vaginal ultra-sound every year to go with the pap. I guess it's better to err on the side of caution. I hate this crap, too. And I am also in crappy, crying mood.

jankay

The Duck and the Devil ~ I'm in the 93%
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>>The Duck & the Devil
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>>There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm.
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>>He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods.
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>>He practiced in the woods; but he could never hit the target.
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>>Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner.
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>>As he was walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck.
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>>Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in
>>the head and killed it.
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>>He was shocked and grieved! In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood
>>pile; only to see his sister watching!
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>>Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing.
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>>After lunch the next day Grandma said, "Sally, let's wash the dishes"
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>>But Sally said, "Grandma , Johnny told me he wanted to help in the
>>kitchen." Then she whispered to him, "Remember the duck?" So Johnny did
>>the dishes.
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>>Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and
>>Grandma said, "I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make supper."
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>>Sally just smiled and said, "Well that's all right because Johnny told
>>me he wanted to help" She whispered again, "Remember the duck?"
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>>So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help. After several days of
>>Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's; he finally couldn't stand it
>>any longer.
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>>He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck.
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>>Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, "Sweetheart, I know. You
>>see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing, but because
>>I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let
>>Sally make a slave of you."
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>>Thought for the day and every day thereafter?
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>>Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done... and the devil keeps
>>throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits,
>>hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.)...whatever it is ...You need to know
>>that God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing. He has
>>seen your whole life.
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>>He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven.
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>>He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you

AlaskaDeb

<----passin' lini a tissue.

I know I am over tired right now, which is not a good mental place to make decisions. I think I will just give things a few more days. I just detest constantly questioning each little thing that pops up. I am not so much scared about it anymore…just pissed that I can’t just ignore little things…

Hugs right back at you Liz.

Thanks for letting me vent. Somehow just getting it all out makes me feel calmer…weird, I know, but it always seems to help.

Oh…and what pray-tell is a pink greyhound? Do I want one???

Hugs to everyone
Deb C

Sandra1957

Pink Greyhound=Vodka and pink grapefruit juice

You know, Deb, getting things out almost always makes things better for me too. Thanks for the tissue. Your CD got me through a very rough last week. Thanks again.

liz (flip-flop sister of mine)~ Thanks for the prayers.

Jankay~ I think that I'll copy your last post and send it to my son. It's very appropriate. Thanks.

nosurrender

This is to Lini, Madison and Deb since we all seem to be feeling the same way tonight.

Lini, you have been such a good friend to me. I never would have gotten through my surgery without your help. You don't have to post here often, I feel our friendship as strongly as if you live next door. Your son has my love and prayers. Please know that your family is our family.

Dee, I am so sorry about your daughter. You are a person who has touched my heart deeply. I will never forget the way you have always been there for me and I really do think we just may be long lost Thibideax relations. Your daughter is in my prayers.

Deb, dear sweet Deb. The friend who just thinking your name makes me smile and feel a warm hug from across the miles. Of course you are sick of this. I think the first year or two after treatment is almost harder than the beginning because everything is a what if moment... and everything always seems to be such an emergency. We aren't allowed to get a bruise anymore or an ache or feel just plain bad because "WITH OUR HISTORY...."
Get yourself checked. You will probably see that Arthur Itis is visiting you. He seems to make his appearance around this time after chemo. You hit this cancer with everything they had- it isn't back. But the Beast likes to mess with us. You are in my prayers as always my dearest friend.

I wrote to these three sisters not to exclude all my other wonderful sisters, but because I could see they felt like I do tonight. Plus, I haven't read all the posts. I am having a hard time with side effects today and my eyesight is not very good. I noticed I had one of those big red blood blisters on the white of my eye. It scared the daylights out of me. I looked it up and Dr. Google said it is nothing to worry about. Then I sat here thinking, but I am on chemo- I better call. So I got my onc's partner who hasn't read Dr. Google and seemed to be alarmed. So I wound up trying to calm HIM down. I reminded him what tx I was on and he said I was supposed to be doing three weeks on and one week off. I have done 7 straight with no break. Then I told him I was on Plavix and could that be causing this. He wanted to know why I was on Plavix and I hated to tell him it was for a retinal blood clot. Honest to God I felt like he was going to send an ambulance to my house. I reminded him that it was a couple of years ago and it was in the OTHER eye. Then to calm him down some more I told him I had been taking Alleve as well. He couldn't understand why on earth I needed Alleve. HELLO? ABRAXANE? PAIN!!!

After I explained everything to him I realized I never should have called, that I knew all the answers beforehand. Now all he did was scare me. He actually said "If you lose your vision you must call someone" YA THINK?

Anyway- this isn't a big problem but I am just sick and tired of side effects and chemo and everyone around me bursting with great health.

So I am putting my arms around the girls I found just on this opening page who seem to have - once again - felt what I am feeling and just get it.

Tomorrow will be a better day.
(Or according to my onc's partner I will be blind...)
One or the other, I still know where to find my soulmates.

And for that I thank you and offer you all the love and understanding you have always given me.

Love,
g

nosurrender

Dear Robin,
Do you realize "our" one year is coming up??
You have been quite a trooper and an inspiration to us all.
Love,
g

Sandra1957

Gina ~ You truly are an angel here on earth. Not just any ordinary angel, but a true gift. You are so in tune with life and love and everyone. Thank you for your kind words. I send you my love, my prayers, my hugs, and gratitude to have such an inspiring friend like you. I hope that you have a better tomorrow.

lini

newvickie

Do I want a pink greyhound too? Oh what a day LOL. All I did was mow lawn and be a bum. I played games on the internet with Nate, went shopping with my sister and BIL and we went to Friendly's for dinner and ice cream. Now I'm too full and car sick...I can't sit in the back seat without getting car sick.
Lini...you can always come here for prayers. You know that. Once a circle girl, always a circle girl. Sending hugs and prayes your way.
Deb...I have the same thing...my collar bone hurts on both sides and has for a while now. Just tender when you press on it and a couple of ribs too. Hoping it's just "post radiation" soreness and it will go away by Sept. 11th when I see my oncologist. Don't want scans...don't want pain either. I'll have a pink greyhound with ya and we'll forget all about it. (yeah right).
Madison...sending out prayers for you and your DD. Is there any way you can go be with her for a few days? Where is she? I'm sure once they get her hydrated and give her some anti nausea meds she'll start feeling better. Love and hugs your way.
brb

newvickie

oh hell...can't have a pink greyhound...no grapefruit for me. I'll have to stick with my Smirnoffs Watermelon.

Gina...oh sweet girl...sending you hugs and prayers too. Wish it could all be better for you when you wake up tomorrow. What a miraculous day it will be when they find a cure for this crap. I do believe it will happen I just hope and pray it happens soon.

Liz...probably gonna change my mind and do the secret pals thing after all. Miss ya.

Doris (Silka)...I actually took two showers today. The heat was unbearable.

Jasmine...where ya hidin?

I'm so friggin woozy it's pathetic...LOL...i so hate to get car sick. Gonna grab some gingerale and crackers and head off to bed. Tweak my toes in the morning sweet ladies...
love and hugs to ya all!
Vickie

RobinTN

Gina: Yes I remember it well.I was thinking the same thing today when I posted.So much for the 2 months huh? Dang I beat the odds.Maybe I should go to Vegas!!!

JanKay:that was a great one and just what I needed to hear tonite.

Just got the fridge and freezer unloaded and boy what a mess.It just about kills everyone here to move a finger to help me..boy I dont know what they would do without me thats for sure.Anywho i will never get to bed tonite.Cant drink a bud light cause they are hot!!!
Have a good nite everyone

Sandra1957

Way to fight the fight, Robin!!! The fight and all of the prayers and good circle vibes are awesome!!!

SoCalLisa

Brenda..guess I need to post our picture here..

BMD, 3boys4me, LisaSDCA, and me

bearlysane111

Hi and Happy Sat Night!
Angel Charlene-do not have words to express my thanks for starting the thread for my birthday! Thanks so much and the lovely pics and all the good wishes-just awesome. Thank you,all; the link and all the great e-mails It was so wonderful that I had people stop and share their time and good thoughts.I am real wordy;what else is new? LOL

I will just say,Gina,this circle has really meant so much to me this yr. Almost 700 pgs of friendships,thoughts,special happenings,concerns and day-to-day occurrences. I believe that it was shokk who mentioned this before.
Glad to have been part of this group and share the lives of others.

Thinking of those who are concerned abt loved ones and their own appts,too. Pls keep Jimmy in mind as he is in his mid-twenties and was hit by lightning yesterday. He was working on his boat;wild storm on the water yesterday-near here.He may have been paralyzed-sad situation.

Thanks and I have abt twenty more mins of my day left.Two yrs since Aug diagnosis and this birthday was not as scary today. You all helped and I am very grateful.

Iris

Anonymous

Good Morning Everyone: I had a wonderful time at my SIL yesterday. Even got up and was singing with my DH - and who says wine doesnt relax you? Im beginning to think I might be sleep walking. Last night I walked into a wall in stead of the doorway with a twinkie in my hand. Have a little bump there this morning. Put ice on the bump and ate the Twinkie anyways.

Jankay: The Barbie joke was funny. Im glad you enjoyed the picnic yesterday. I do agree that a swimming pool would have been a nicer way to cool off.

Robin: It sure does like "Evil" is changing a bit. Im glad to hear he is trying to be nice to you. I know there is some bitterness cause he has been so mean for so long, but just enjoy this time. Wonder what he is thinking and why he is trying to change and be nice again. I agree with you, I really do appreciate my time alone. But yesterday I enjoyed being around people too. Guess I could say that I have had a wonderful week-end.

Cheri: OK, Im stomping my foot down. If you dont get to a doctor soon, we will be sending a posse there and make you go. From your description, it is cellulitis and the beading of up fluid and weeping - that needs to be taken care of. Cellulitis isnt a simple skin infection - you need stronger antibiotics. I sure wish you would go to the ER and have it looked at.

Peter: Seeing a post from you actually put a smile on my face. As you can see from many posts, there are many who miss talking to you.



Denise: Sounds like you had some touching moments with your mom yesterday. Ya gotta love the spunky independence our older adults strive for.

BMD: Im laughing cause I think its funny how our dogs learn some things and decide to ignore others. My Mister has it all figured out. When I get off the computer and take a shower - he knows Im going to work. All I have to do is put shorts on and he knows he is going for a walk. He sits there and talks to me. Barking under his breath. Besides popcorn, going for a walk is his favorite thing. Now mind you, we have a fairly large backyard that he can be outside in whenever he wants. But he likes to strut through the neighborhood.

Lini: Darn its so good to see you. Just remember, once a circle girl, always a circle girl. Im sorry to hear there is trouble for your son, and of course we will put him in the middle of the circle. Hoping everything is ok.

Madison: Gosh I hope your daughter is ok. I dont think there is any good kind of food poisoning, but sounds like she needs antibiotics and IV's. It must feel awful, being far away and not being there to help her. Sending prayers your way.

DebC: You have every right to vent. Every little pain makes us wonder what is going on. And yep, if ya mention it to the doctors - your in line for more tests! Somehow, no matter how hard we try, its hard to get bc out of our minds. If I have to add one more doctor to the list I already have, I will go bonkers. I do think you should get it checked out though. Its the only way, your mind will be relieved of all that worry.

Liz: Its so good to see you popping in. Sometimes I get lost trying to read all of the posts, especially during the work week. Hope everything is going well for you.

Vickie: Im tweaking your toes this morning, and hoping your feeling better. Im just like you, I cannot ride in the back seat without getting motion sickness. It was so hot yesterday, that I was hot while I was in my SIL pool! The water wasnt evening cooling me down. I was swimming and doing the back storke, now my whole chest and ribs hurt. Guess I used muscles I havent used before. Do I think its from swimming - yes - but there is always that thought in the back of my mind it could be something else.

SoCal: I do love seeing your pictures. Looks like you all have a good time with your get together.

Iris: Im so glad you enjoyed your birthday. Im sorta reflecting about the wagon circle - it has been a wonderful year here. I feel like its not just one person, but all of us who have made the wagon circle what it is. I have been here from day one - and so have you and many others. We watched it grow and now look at all the friends we have. It started out as a house, but now its a home.

Seems like this has been a hard week-end for many. DebC, Lini, Madison, NS - Im sending hugs your way.

Odalys: Sending strength your way.

OK - time to go, I will catch up with you all later.

NIcki

jankay

is it mon yet

sherloc

Good Morning Campers. Off to church in just a bit. Stopping by to say hi.
Going to an old friends house for dinner tonight. Have a grand day one and all.

Anonymous

Just took a walk down memory lane. On August 22nd, the following friends made their first posts. There were others, but you will all recognize this list of names.

...NS
...Chemosabi
...TGirl
...Susan
...CSP
...DebC
...Naniam
...LIni
...MargaretB
...Amy
...Shel
...Mena
...Guz
...Vickie
...Ishop
...Robin
...Deese
...CherylnC
...Sige
...ChristineK

And look at how our circle has grown since then.

Nicki

newvickie

good morning all,
Sunshine sister Nicki...thanks for tweaking my toes. I feel much better this morning. I hate riding in the back seat...ewww. I hate the whole dizzy, tummy rolling feeling. My dogs are like yours...they know just what I'm going to do and talk to me to let me know that they have to be involved.
Hey there sunshine Jankay...whats up. Why are you wishing it were Monday already?
Robin...hmmmm...Evil must be figuring out what he's going to be losing. I am with you though...there are things that you simply cannot forget or totally forgive. Take advantage of his "good" side for a bit...you deserve it.
Madison...do we have any news on DD? Miss ya.
Shirley girl...It's off to church for me and Nate too. How are things going? Homesick yet? Miss ya.
Iris...you are such a doll...you know why...love ya fellow Leo! Hope your birthday was grand...we want to hear all about it.
Cherryl...were are you?
Colleen...haven't seen you either!
Who else is MIA? Gonna have to round up a posse and find out.
I have to jump in the shower and get ready for church. Super foggy this morning and supposed to be very hot once the fog burns off. Another sweltering day! I don't know whats happened to our weather but it just isn't normally this hot here! Now if I could just melt off this tummy I've developed I wouldn't mind so much LOL.
We have such a big circle...I hate missing a post to anyone but it would quickly become a novel...know that I love ya all and when I see your post then I'll post...Its easier for me to keep up that way!

Cheri...get your butt to the ER...TODAY! Don't make me come there!

XXXOOO
Vickie

newvickie

Isn't it beautiful Nicki!

Anonymous

Vickie: This wagon circle has made my world a rainbow of love. By day 2, here are some others you will all recognize that joined.

...Tinairene
...Iris
...Silvergirl
...Baldeagle.

Life is good.

Nicki