2005 ROCK-TOBER CHEMO GIRLS

marymelodi

Well, having an MRI of my head was a surreal experience. The machine makes loud enough noise that it would have surely given me a headache if I had not already had one going in. What a royal pain!! Thankfully, the machine they used was not the small cylindrical kind you always see on TV, but something more like a clamshell shape. I could see out to the sides, but of course had to keep my head absolutely still so I just closed my eyes and tried to think of something besides the LOUD clanking all around me. The inside of the top of the "shell" was within inches of my nose so it was a close fit, but I didn't feel all closed in like I thought it would be. It took about 55 minutes and of course, my scalp began to itch, my cheek twitched, and when the nurse wanted to inject the contrast medium my vein was not very cooperative.

I still have the headache. It's now at about the 5 to 6 level on a 10 point scale. On Thursday and Friday it was more like 8 to 9. If this is a virus, it is the strangest thing I've ever heard of . . . pain only on one side. I still hope it is just a migraine. How's that for realitivity . . . I'm hoping I've got a migraine or some variation of that. At least the nausea and vomiting did not come back today. The soup and sandwich I had after the test when my husband took me to lunch tasted so good.

Husband is being very solicitious right now. Trying to smooth things between us. I am afraid to believe that it will last.

Laura, I hope you are feeling better. Michele: so sorry about the doggie. I've loved and lost a couple of dogs from my life. It's not fun.

I would respond to everyone if my head were not pounding and throbbing. Even if I don't make it personal, I hope you all know I cheer for you, wish you all the best, and treasure our friendships and ties to each other.

Sweet dreams,
Mary

TracySeattle

Mary, I am so worried about you, but glad you got thru the MRI. I tried to do one on my head once and they had to pull me out of the tube - way to claustraphobic for that!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Debbie, I am so glad that you can come for our time together! If we are talking Feb as in next month, I am not sure I have enough vacation..... I also have a committment on President's weekend. Any other dates are good except the week of July 27,28,29 which is Aquafest. Since I am the President, I guess I really need to be here.... LOL!!!

Michelle - I am so sorry about your puppy. I would be upset too. There will be a good home out there for it, though... all will work out.

Hey Everyone - I AM TYPING THIS ON MY BRAND NEW LAPTOP!!!! I love it!!! Dave & I are in our "Old Folks" Recliners in his TV room and I am on my computer talking to you!!! YAY!!!

Laura & Mary - feel better.....

Love you all!

chumfry

Mary:

Have you had migraines in the past? They *do* tend to be one-sided. There are weird kinds of migraines that last a long time, but I think there are medicines that can help once they determine the proper diagnosis.

I had a brain MRI, too, at my BC diagnosis, because I'd been having a bunch of weird migraines (aura without headache) and I guess they were checking for brain mets. I found the entire experience quite uncomfortable, especially since squeamish me hadn't been told IV drugs would be involved. Ugh!

I'm glad the test is behind you. Hopefully, you will find out what's going on soon. To me, though, it does sound like a super-duper, stress-induced migraine. Do you have any hospital-grade pain meds left? A Percoset might help. Or an Ativan? Maybe it's an allergic reaction to your husband? Tell him he has to sleep in the garage!

RoseMarie

Slumber party in downtown Chicago!! Sounds like fun! That makes a lot of sense and it sounds like a blast. It's going to be hard to find a date that works for everyone but should we go ahead and try to firm up a date? I'm so excited - It was so awesome meeting Laura and Ravdeb in person - it really made me want to meet each of you!
I'm going to ramble on and on...It's nearly 3 am and I'm wide awake. I slept for hours while my husband watched football...so frustrating...
Victoria - your trip sounds so peaceful! I plan on googling the site when I'm done here.
I'll send out the list I have of numbers...if anyone else wants to be added please let me know.

ravdeb

Cindy..naughty, naughty...sleeping in the garage! LOL

Mary..I had an MRI of my brain a few years back for a headache on one side. I forgot! They were looking for a tumor but found nothing (my dad said they looked in my head and found nothing!). Anyway, I recently had a CT of neck and head. I've gotten used to it. I just close my eyes and take myself to a different place.

Distressing. I hope it's migraine..what an awful thing to hope for! Glad you got through the scan okay, though.

Laura..I forgot to tell you how much I love your pic of the license plate! I wish we could do that here!

Now..dates...

The weekend of Feb 16th, 2007 is okay with me. (but not good for Tracy).

March 31 to April 15 ..can't come then.

May 26th - June 4th...This I could do. Am trying to get my parents here in July. That would work for me.

July - Sept... Can't come.

I live too far. Too many things going on. I have to take at least 2 weeks when I come so that I can visit with friends and family and get over jet lag. Each flight is about 12 hours...

Tracy..congrats on the new laptop up and running!

Mary..wanted to add something... I'm believing it's migraine or some other problem other than cancer. I am a firm believer (and this drives my rabbinical friend crazy sometimes and he wants to have a serious discussion with me soon!)that things happen for a reason and this is just a "thing" that G-d chose for you..a challenge that won't be life theatening but will be a tool to bring you and your husband closer together. I know..I'm totally nuts and have explained all of my ailments and issues and events in my life by this theory, recently wrote this to my rabbinical friend who is one of my closest friends in the whole world, and he said we need to have a serious talk about this! But I do believe it. I really do!

I hope my theory is right this time!!!! I wish you well. I think of you always, as I do each and every one of you..

Hoping that Laura is feeling better, Teryn and Mom are back out getting into trouble, and that all of you are doing well.

Victoria..you are away but that is so very nice because it's such a special place for you...like my beach in some ways...

Okay Ladies..I'm off to get my hair tamed. It's a wild, white fluffy mess!

Let's get a date going!!! I can't wait!

ravdeb

Hi RoseMarie! We posted at the same time. That is highly unusual given the time difference. You better get some sleep, Girl!!!!

Okay..I'm off to get the mop tamed.

RoseMarie

Lol, Ravdeb, I WISH I could sleep!!! At least it's not like chemo where I was like this nearly every night!!

Ok - sent out the new list with numbers added - please let me know if any addresses or numbers need to be fixed or changed. hmmmm, what else can I do???? (This is going to be a loooooong night.)

debbie444

Mary - hoping all holds out for oyu. Glad you checked in, was beginning to think you had flipped and buried DH under the porch!
Dont know what possessed me to put Feb on, yes I am off but cant come - we have things planned in.

Its a shame you cant make Summer Dev, we are the same - because of the distance we are hoping tp tag some travelling in - see the real America ( you know thw sort of thing) The kids still talk about the place we went where we drank from Jam Jars and crunched peanut shells on the floor , that was near Rochester!!
If we cant sort 1 date , how about 2? Only a thought.
We need to sort one tho as it sounds as if Rosemarie is too excited to sleep!!

Thehair made me laugh. Before this i used to have mine dyed in slices, and the coloured i had was 01 Primary Red ! I wanted Neon Pink but didnt think my boss would go for it. So if i come on with different hair, the chances are its not a mistake!!
DEbbie

RoseMarie

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RoseMarie

LOL Debbie
Now you and I are posting at the same time!! I'm going to go dig up my Melatonin!!

Paula15089

Girls, apologies for being absent, went to Melbourne with a girlfriend. Boy, those post-Christmas sales sure are good!!

Havent had the time to read through all the posts yet, but wanted to pop in to cheer Mary up. It sounds like a migraine to me.. praying it is. I get them sometimes, and the pain is localized and always one-sided. My ex used to get them quite bad, vomiting and all, so i know they can be totally incapacitating!
We are here for you, hoping and praying for a good result. Gosh, when does a migraine becomes a 'good' result.. this is strange lives we live now.

re coming to US, i have same problems as Ravdeb, would have to take at least 2 weeks off work. So feb is definitely out for me.. too soon. But later on in the year is more likely.

take care girls, i have more pics to posts later on!

marymelodi

I have never been diagnosed with migraine. Perhaps this is a menopause "surprise" instead of night sweats or something like that. Still have an aching head this morning. Nevertheless, I will go to church. I need to feel the love of my church community and friends and perhaps tough something more powerful than myself in prayers and sacred music.

Have a lovely day.
Mary

Curlylocks

The puppy has gotten a reprieve!!! Yes, I'm so happy, once she gets her stitches out from her spade next week. We have to start giving her additional excercise besides her walk as she is so high energy like throwing the ball around the yard to her. I cried for three days straight about loosing her and my hubby said to me last night I'm not a monster and I know it is your puppy too. So we will try to make this work out as she is a good dog otherwise.

I feel more at peace today knowing that she is not going to be transported off to another family, couldnt bear that.

May 26-June 4 time frame would work for me. As the summer months are quite busy for us and we may also be moving this summer if we sell our home. Where is everyone meeting, will it be Chicago? I have only been a few places in the U.S. but never Chicago. I am really looking forward to meeting all of you!!!

Mary I hope your headaches are related to stress.

TracyNY - you made me laugh as my sister falls asleep with the tv blaring and all the lights on. I wish I could go to sleep that easily these days between the Armidex and Zoladex injections my sleep is totally up in the air, wouldnt sleep a wink without my immovane. What kind of pancakes are you making us? I love banana or blueberry.

Mary - shall we address you as "worldy one"....I like that.

Debbie444 - I am excited that you are coming to America. Have you seen that movie with Eddie Murphy? It is sooo funny, hopefully you wont follow suit with what he does, hee, hee:)

Laura - I hope you feel better soon.

Ravdeb - how cool is that talking to your parents via video!

Rosemarie - I get into my pjs once I get home from work, call it getting out of my monkey suit.

Graycie - thanks for your kind thoughts.

Paula - can wait to see the new pics.

Love to all my sisters on this Sunday morning.

Michele Wenz

maryannecb

Mary, migraine is an unusual first diagnosis at your age.

Common causes(I don't even want to consider the nasty one) are, tension, temperomandibular joint dysfunction and medication-induced.

If you have been using a lot of Tylenol for pain, you can develop headaches from that. The treatment is to stop the Tylenol, take Ibuprofen(with stomach protection) regularly and usually HA subsides in a week or so.

Tension HA often caused by poor sleep. Trick here is to establish good sleep and HA should subside. Sometimes low dose Amitriptyline is used for this.

If it is TMJ, your dentist can fashion a bite plane.Reduce stress... Don't chew gum and try Ibuprofen and heat to your jaw are.

I think if you had an abnormal MRI the tech would have brought it to the attention or radiologist . Also you have no focal signs or symptoms. So lets get those nasty thoughts out of your head.

Laura, glad you don't have an infection. Sometimes people feel awful after anesthesia...for up to a month. I think we should do our grand meet at your house if possible. I picture us all making a nice afternoon cooking, drinking wine then sitting at a table enjoying our work. A restaurant would be a little restrictive. But, restaurant would have it's advantages I guess.

I couldn't possibly come until next Fall. My oldest is in her final year of Highschool so have to keep on her back re studying and be around for prom and graduation etc. I am visiting DH at end of Feb(yeah) for a week. I can only take so much time away from work and always have three weeks in the summer so.... yup, count me out til next Fall when I would move heaven and earth as I have plenty of time to plan.

The lady I was talking about at my last infusion died two days ago. I knew she looked terrible...so sad.

The captain of my Boat team is 49, she has had BC in each breast. Last week she was admitted to hospital with pneumonia that developed and abscess and ruptured in to her lung space. She then bled in to the cavity. She underwent surgery on Friday and is very ill. I am really worried about her. She has been so good to me on the last year, welcoming me to the team.


Rosemarie, hope you get some sleep tonight, Debbie and Paula Hi, Graycie hope your coloring looks great Victoria bet you are enjoying your get away.

Michele just read your post.So glad you are going to work on your dog. I had to gave away a dog when the kids were younger. It felt like I was giving up a child. I cried for days and felt like a traitor. But ...it needed to be done. she was big time alpha and had me terrorized. The next owner was much firmer and had little trouble. My chocolate lab is such a softy.


Fists up!

ravdeb

Michele..So glad you worked it out and the dog stays! You were tooooooooooooo sad. You have a fantastic dh!!
It is pretty funny about my parents and the video chatting. They are so cute. They sit together and I can see them both and they get so excited to see us all! It's awful that we are so far apart.

Maryanne..I don't know about Mary, but I'm feeling better after reading your post about possibilities other than you-know-what. Funny how all those awful diseases actually sound "appealing"!

Okay..admittedly..the second weekend in Nov is definitely the best one for me. I talked it out with my dh. I am thinking about going to the States between Feb and May though Feb was really the chosen time because my brother is celebrating his 45th birthday and my parents will be there. So, if I was there for his birthday, I could then fly to Chicago for our get-together. It's really hard, as it is for the others outside of N. America, to make plans for a weekend in the States because it's very expensive to fly so we need to be able to take a chunk of time out in order to do it. Also..I can't afford too many trips and try to keep it down to once a year but may go twice this year.

Still, the Nov. one was the best as I had thought to go then for Thanksgiving. My parents were so sad last year and felt lonely.

However..I could do the end of May/June date. I will then fly to Omaha to check out my aunt and uncle. By then, my aunt will be moved into her "independent living facility".
We are working on getting my parents here to Israel in July for my mom's 80th birthday.

So hard organizing all this stuff!

ravdeb

I just got an e-mail from my brother..makes me so mad! I am always the one to orchestrate parties and get togethers for our family. If it weren't for me, we'd never see each other.

Am trying to make a party for my mom's 80th birthday. So, I e-mailed my sibs and asked them what we could do.

My sister is having Passover at her house and my parents will be there. I suggested we all meet there. I was willing to travel the distance. My sister said fine. My brother said that that only worked a few years ago because his wife had time off then...now she won't.

I'm like..okay..but I was willing to leave my kids and husband for the holiday in order to do this. I'm always giving up stuff because I live so far away.

So, my brother is having a 45th b-day party in Feb and I said great..my parents will be there so how about if we all get together on that weekend and surprise my mom? My sister said she can't because her husband is officiating at a wedding that weekend (he's a rabbi). I was really mad because I was going to do this alone, again. My husband was not so sure he could make it either. He will be in the middle of a big fruit season in the greenhouses.

So, then I said, since my sister is hoping to be in Israel in the summer and my mom's birthday is in the summer, that my brother come here and we would talk my parents into coming here in July.

So, my brother writes back that it's unlikely that HE would be able to come to Israel and he'd need to check out their situation, but that wouldn't mean that my parents would come to Israel because they will be flying twice this spring..once in Feb and then in April.

I'm like..and what about me??? And besides..my parents ARE thinking about coming here this summer. We've been discussing it. My mom does want to come. I am willing to have them all here and we'd find the room for them all. I can't leave this summer because my son will be in the army in July. I need to be here before he goes into the army. And my other son can't travel because he is in the army and my parents can't see him unless they come here.

I'm really mad at my sibs because I brought my whole family minus my soldier son to the States last summer and it cost us an arm and a leg, if you know what I mean.

But..we did it so the kids could be together with their cousins. I kinda thought it was important..silly me. Now our mom will be turning 80 and I kinda thought THAT was important. Another silly thing of mine.

I'm so angry with them! They are so self-centered. I love my sibs..don't get me wrong. But they are like this and I always defend them when they are like this but this time...I'm so angry! I wrote back to my brother and told him so.

ravdeb

and on top of all that..I tearfully told my dh that if either of my sibs had been diagnosed with cancer and one of them was trying to get the family together for a happy event, I'd be the first one on the plane.

My dh told me I should tell them that. But I won't. I'm angry and hurt but I don't want that to come between us. We see each other so rarely.

TracyNY

There's never a dull moment with family is there? My grandmother appears to be dying. She's 85 and my uncle(her son/my mother's brother) calls me about it and I could hear it in his voice that he was getting ready to ask me to front him the money for an airline ticket. He lives about 5 mins from me, my grandma lives in Barbados.

I was formulating which excuse to use in my head, the money I just spent on furniture or the money I blew on lipo. Either way, I wasn't giving him a dime because I know I'd never see a penny of it and he hasn't been to visit her in over 25 years. Please. They really can get on your nerves.

My dance card is filling up, people. I am now scheduled to go to Florida with my two best friends from Feb 24 - March 3rd. Another friend has me pegged to go to Montego Bay for Memorial Day. We need to get dates sorted out, no pressure, before my travel budget is exhausted!

ake

Hi ladies,

April, July, or August are probably the best months for me or next November...things are getting hectic.

I haven't posted in a while because I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed. Tired of worrying about cancer, but not really wanting to talk about it. I just went out to brunch with my best friend and cried the whole time just because she asked a question about how I feel about our other best friend being pregnant. I see my breast surgeon tomorrow for regular followup and then have my other onc. appt. next week and I'm emotionally drained about it all. I'm only 30 and I feel like I have only just started my life and I hate having to ask these doctors...what is the best thing to do to keep me living as long as possible? Shut down my ovaries? Not have children? Is my prognosis even good? Having these appts. coming up and realizing that it's been a year on Jan 19th since I finished chemo has freaked me out. My husband and I had a long cry the other night....we really opened up to each other that we don't want to loose each other too young.

I think I had told you that a woman had passed away on the young survival coalition and ever since then, I've been really freaked out....I'm just having a hard time and sometimes I kinda retreat when I'm feeling that way, so I just wanted to warn you all.

Love,
Amy

ravdeb

Oh Amy... not sure what to say. You need that space, I think, where you can take the time and NOT talk about cancer.

On the other hand..always know that we are here for you. You ARE young and it's not fair that you need to deal with all of these concerns. It is the reality though, and you know that.

Not so sure you need to freak out because of that young woman. You know that just because it happened to her does not mean it will happen to you.

You are lucky to have such a warm and supporting husband you can cry together with.

TracyNY... ugh. I'm sorry about your grandmother. And I can see why you are not happy that her son, who gave no attention to his mom all these years, wants you to pay his way to see her. Why do people wait til somebody is dying before they can find the time to pay them a visit. My rabbinical friend (I often refer to him because he's always giving me advice!)reminds me all the time to never put off things that are important. He said that people find time to show up for the funeral but never find the time to be there while the person is still living.

Time for me to go to bed.
Here's my family the weekend of my mil's 80th b-day...



Back row: nephew, SIL,Me, my daughter, nephew, nephew, my son.
Front row: my dh, his parents, SIL, my son

BTW..I got my hair cut today so the curls are just about gone!

Anonymous

paula -
Glad you popped in...I should have known you were off having fun somewhere! Your energy and zest for life brings back memories of my life at your age!

mary -
I hope you're doing better and resting comfortably. Hang in there sister!

maryanne -
Thanks. And that was really nice of you to take the time to give advice re: Mary's headaches, hmmmmm, quite impressive. btw, I never had a problem with anasthesia, but I guess that doesn't mean it's not a possibility.

ravdeb -
Sorry about the siblings...I have problems with mine too! Maybe you should consider doing your own intimate little celebration - when the time is right for you (aka numero uno), your immediate family and your parents. Then tell the siblings the time and date and leave it at that. If they feel it's important enough...they will find the time and the money. If not, that's not your problem, after all, you tried, right? It's frustrating, so say the least. I hope it works out. Unfortunately in situations like this, it's usually the wrong ones that suffer. Your family is beautiful.

TaDah -
I'm so sorry about your Grandmother...I hope she is comfortable. Ahhhhh...family feuds...never a dull moment! I have my sure of heart ache too! Hope you're enjoying your new furniture. What time should me, Roy and Buddy Love be over for that pork roast!

Amy -
Hang in there. We need a cure AND a big box of kleenex! I hope you can find peace with it all soon. If this is the path you take... wanted to let you know that one of my girlfriend's couldn't have a baby so she adopted a little girl from China. She is the cutest, smartest and energetic little doll. I think one of that ethnicity would physically blend in with you and your dh and complete your circle. Where there's hope, there are possibilities.

Girls -
Speaking of breakdowns...I had a major one this morning...I woke up feeling like a truck hit me. Achy, feverish, nauseous, etc. Temp was 99.8 according to one thermometer, 98.3 according to another and 98.6 according to yet another, arghhhh... Roy got up and made us breakfast, and then I got really emotional - triggered by feeling so physically crappy. I was sobbing and telling Roy that I'm so tired of everything and how humiliated I am because I feel like such a wimp. And I really thought this was the beginning of being able to put all this behind us...blah, blah, blah. The incision site is not any "pinker", but I have a lump the size of a small grape at the right end of it, near my armpit. I'm thinking it's a necrosis(?) or just an area of thickened scar tissue...but so soon? It's so sore that I can hardly touch it. I did not have this happen on the other side, so I'm concerned...not freaked out, just curious/concerned. I've been hanging out here on the computer trying to pre-occupy myself and get my mind off feeling like crap. I've been sleeping on and off for two days now. I think I'm going to tough it out until tomorrow's appt. and will ask for a different antibiotic as I think that's what's making me nauseous. And my face is really pale too...I'll know more after my appt. tomorrow, maybe I'll be feeling better by then.

As for our get-together...choosing a date that would work for all of us, is going to be tough. One suggestion...maybe everyone could post the months that won't work. As I have already mentioned, anytime is good for me.

The Susan G Komen 3 mile walk for the cure is on September 29th this year. It would be great if maybe we could all walk together in it...just a thought.

Post your thoughts about the get-together...as soon as possible.

Laura

RoseMarie

ok - new list being sent out. By the way - my original cell phone # was listing wrong so this new list is the corrected version

Beautiful pic, Ravdeb! What a nice looking family!
TracyNy- So sorry you're having to deal with your irresponsible uncle! Sorry to hear abour your grandmother.
Amy - I understand how you're feeling - And you really are young. I have a friend who had Hodgkins disease, underwent chemo and 10 years later had a beautiful baby girl! I know that there's more to it than if you CAN have children, though, and I'll be thinking about you as you have all your dr's visits!

Graycie

Mary, I am also worried about you, glad they took all the necessary tests. 55 min. in the MRI machine would have freaked me out, I can't stay still that long...Be sure to let us know as soon as you get the results. I am feeling a little better today and my voice is coming back.

Laura I also have the achy flu like feeling so I am convinced it is a virus since I have no fever either. My temperature is 95.4, isn't that a little low? No wonder I am cold. I hope you are feeling better. Tis the season I guess. Black with pink hi-lights...hmmmm, Not a bad idea, can you imagine the looks I would get?

Ravdeb, What is wrong with your neck and head that you had to have an MRI? I can't believe you got another haircut. Your hair must really grow fast. I haven't even had my first one yet or do I need one......heeeee. Sorry your family is giving you such a hard time. I know you would be the first person there if need be. Nice picture though, at least you were able to get them together once. I have the same family here.....and we all live pretty close together.

Michele, I am happy for you that you are getting to keep the puppy. Hopefully she will outgrow her friskiness.....

Maryanne, Sorry to hear about your friend. Now your scaring me that maybe I am getting pneumonia. I don't think so though, my cough is getting better. Good advice for Mary. I experienced those so-called rebound headaches before from taking too much Tylenol.

Tadah, So sorry about your Grandmother. I know how you feel. My sister is kind of like your Uncle only she demands money from us, like we all OWE her for some reason. Do you believe she wanted my credit card once to go to Florida.......YEAH RIGHT, like I would give her that.......She has a drinking problem and no job so no money for her.....

Amy, try not to worry. I know it's easier said than done. Tears come to me fairly easy these days too.....I'm not ready to go yet either. I refuse to let BC win...Be careful what threads you read as some of them are depressing and it get's me down too. I try to steer away from some of them. Well, on the bright side, we have "Desperate Housewives" tonight that should help take your mind off of things........I know some people don't like that show but I can't wait to watch it.

Hi to everyone I missed.

Gail

Graycie

Laura, I must have been writing when you posted your post.....I am sorry you are not feeling well. I also had a crying spell yesterday because I was experiencing the same symptoms as you although I didn't tell anyone. I don't want my dh to know what a baby I am, it just upsets him, besides my grandson was here. I hate being sick because then I think that is it for me.......My mind starts filling up with horrible thoughts.....I won't even tell anyone what I thought I had as far as met's. I guess that is going to be the story of the rest of our lives. Good day's and bad day's.......I want the good day's. I am not a doctor but I am thinking maybe you have a clot of blood under the scar. I had that when I had my biopsy. They called it something I can't remember. Glad you are going to the doctor tomorrow. Maybe he will change your antibiotic. I know I get sick on some of them myself.

I am supposed to go and see "Dream girls" tomorrow if I feel better. Anybody see that?

As far as our get-together, Spring is not good for me but anytime after that should be OK........

Gail

TracyNY

Thanks for the thoughts about my grandmother. Life owes her no change and the truth be told, she's not the most pleasant person either.

That drunkard called me and told me he has to make my delivery tomorrow because he couldn't find the upholsterer who had my seats. He is sooooo lucky that he called me during my afternoon nap (I sleep every day from 2pm until I get up) or if I'd have had my wits about me, I'd have cussed his ass out.

I'm eating the damned pork from a plate on my hand. I won't even waste my time being mad at that bum. Its not the first time he did this to me, I don't know why I'm acting shocked.

Dreamgirls was a good film. I enjoyed it. Let's see what happens tomorrow. He'd better not bring out the arsonist in me, I got that gas can in my trunk!

Graycie

Here's an article that my brother sent me that you may be interested in reading.......

http://www.lasvegassun.com/sunbin/stories/thrive/2007/jan/02/010202876.html

Paula15089

arrgh i just wrote a long post and lost it!!!

anyway, finally got through all the posts i missed..

Laura - love you new number plate! Hope you are feeling better, or will soon/

Mary - when do you get your MRI results?

Graycie - I have put highlights in my hair, i think 1 year post chemo should be safe enough!

Kelly - Terry is an absolutely adorable girl.

Amy - once again, i could have writted your post. BC thoughts are never far from my mind. Last weekednd, I went to Melbourne with one of my best friends, who is 29, and is now 6 months pregnant with her first child. I love her dearly, but I can't help feeling sad when i think that this is something i will perhaps never get to experience...

Zoladex is not being kind to my body. I feel like a 60-year old with all my joints aching... I am 32 for crying out loud, I should NOT be needing arthritis medication and having to count every calorie i consume lest it goes to my waistline.. It takes me 3 weeks to lose 1kg and 2 days to gain it back..

So last weekend i thought - stuff it. Need to spoil myself.
Here is what i had:

Of course, i am on a diet (again) this week.

and here is a pic from New Year celebrations:


love you girls!

TracySeattle

Hi Everyone....

Mary - hoping you are feeling better today.

Laura - I am so sorry that you are feeling bad. You have been thru a lot in just the past couple of weeks - take some time, rest and before you know it you will be back to your normal self.

Amy & Paula - I'm thinking of you too. You both have some different challenges since you are our two youngsters.... My best friend had chemo back in 1978, they told her she would never have children and since then she has had two boys..... Amy - it could all work out with time. I know it is hard to wait.

TaDah - you just crack me up. Please take it easy on the guy, he can't help it that he is a drunkard.... LOL!

As far as dates that I absolutely can't make it would be February and July. I could proably work with any other dates.....

Well, I need to get going. It is time to get my act together and get things ready for work tomorrow....

marymelodi

Hello everyone:
First, MaryAnne, thank you for the information. I've been afraid to do much research, for fear I'd just scare myself. The technician gave me no information other than that the radiologist would read the films and report to my doctor. My PCP said they would call me, probably Tuesday. I will call them however, tomorrow morning, since the headache is still with me. I do not think it is a rebound kind of headache as I haven't taken pain relievers much. I usually take ibuprofen, but sometime do take generic Tylenol. I am really wanting to believe in the virus + stress explanation. Someone a church told me she had a similar headache before Christmas that turned out to be a virus. She did go on to have other symptoms, though. I hope to be asleep soon and perhaps a long night's rest will help.

Amy: so sorry for the things you have to face. You are an emotionally brave woman and I admire that you are able to express your feelings.

Laura: Hope you will feel better soon and have continued healing.

Graycie: thanks for you kind words and good wishes.

Paula: looking good!!!

Michelle: happy for you and your puppy!

Ravedeb & Tadah: we will have to have a long talk about family frustrations. The stories I could tell would fill a big, big book. Sympathies to you both.

I can take the time to meet you all at any time. Later in the year would work better for me (finacially) but I would do as someone else said, move heaven and earth to get to you. I actually would consider driving to Chicago since I know I can make it there in about 8 hours from here.

So glad to read the messages from all of you. YOu are in my thoughts and prayers.

Mary

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Well, I had to work today and have to work tomorrow as well, must forego the days off til the end of the week due to our Winter Show. My mom is here to help with Teryn and she will leave I think, on Wednesday. It has been nice to have her, Teryn was screaming with delight.

Has anyone seen that movie: A Night At the Museum? OMG, THAT WAS SO FUNNY!!!

Paula, love the new photos and I feel for you and Amy ....... and I know that adoption may not seem the same but I know 2 adopted adults and they are so loved by their parents. Michelle is such a wonderful person and I cannot see her with any other parents ..... her hubby, Matt, is wonderful as well and his mom is the Best. Michelle and I are very close and I am so close to her mom and dad .... it amazed me to find out that she was adopted and coincidentally married a man who was adopted.

TaDah, you are going to have to show up at this guy's place with coffee and sober him up!!!!

Dev, love the photos!

Mary, I hope you are feeling better...... I strongly believe it's not cancer .... we are all going to be fine.