2005 ROCK-TOBER CHEMO GIRLS

RoseMarie

I ditto Kelly!!! You have quite the adventures, Debbie!!
Glad results were all fine, TaDah!
Tracy - you go girl! So glad you're happy and having fun!
Kelly - sorry to obsess...does your onc order the blood work or does your PCP do it? I'm feeling like I'm a bit in limbo right now.

ravdeb

Debbie..that is amazing. YOu should write a book about different weddings. I'm sure you could get on Oprah for that!!!

Tadah..have fun. that's what life is all about..even a 25-minute marriage!!!LOL.

Tracy...I'm so happy for you.

Rosemarie...just FYI.. my onc told me to go to my family doctor and have a blood work up... surgeon told me the same thing.

Anyone for a jammy dodger?

Anonymous

Debbie -
What does doolally mean?

Everyone -
Hi there...still really busy with work, designing lots of Christmas items and general gift items. Life in the forest here is fine. I found two lumps in my remaining breast and am having a diagnostic mammo and US on Monday. I have really been trying to not think about it. And believe it or not...for some strange reason, I'm not freaked out! Of course I'm concerned...but my gyn felt them and said they're probably cysts. So...I have convinced myself that it's probably nothing more than that. 6 months ago, I had a clean breast MRI...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, the gift that keeps on giving! This just makes me more resolved than ever to have the prophy. Mast. I can't continue to live with the constant uncertainty. Hope you're all having a great day, I am so envious of those of you that live where it's warm and sunny all the time! And especially those of you that live by the beach. It's cold and dreary here, but makes a hot bath that much more inviting.

Back to work now...gotta keep those creative juices flowing!

Laura

Graycie

Debbie, LOL..I have to say you have a very interesting life. I really think you should sell the playwright's.....

Tadah, Glad you got your results FINALLY and everything is OK
Jammy dodger, I never new that was the name of those cookie's.

Kelly, For the most part I am not wearing the wig but I have to admit I do wear it on occasion......When I want to look good. I still don't like the way I look without it but my hair is growing and I never though I would say this but I think I need a trim in the back. I am still waiting for my bangs to grow. I don't look good without bangs and they are so short right now. I have to say no one is really looking at me funny without the wig that I can tell but I still feel self conscious.


Ravdeb, I am sorry you are having such a hard time with your insurance. That Stinks!

Tracy, I am so Happy for you.....

Rosemarie, Whenever I go to my ONC, except for when they flush my port, he has the nurse come in and take blood. My PCP also does blood work once a year.

Laura, I will keep you in my thoughts on Monday. I bet your doctor is right and they are probably cyst's. Glad you are keeping busy.....

For those of you that do get bone scans and ct scan's, how often do you think they will keep giving them to us? Even though I am afraid they will find something they also give me peace of mind.

Graycie

debbie444

Laura - thinking of you , your gyn wouldnt have given you false hope . Doolally means round the twist, bonkers, funny in the head etc.
We were watching a programme about Bloomington Illinois last night - anywhere near you?
Think winter is here - -3 this morning. BRrr
Graycie - do i remember right that bangs means fringe? Or is it those side bits? I keep wondering about having my fringe cut but am loathe to have more cut off. I actually dont think i will grow it much longer tho.

I have done my bit for the cause. One of my friends at work told me that she had a lump but wasnt doing anything about it as she had had a cyst in the past. After some emotional blackmail she has an appointment at the breast clinic for a biopsy .
Tracey - when do we see Delightful Dave?????

Debbie

ravdeb

Debbie.. Yes..bangs are the fringe that hangs on the forehead. In Hebrew they are called pony! I cracked up the first time I heard THAT!

Good for you that you blackmailed somebody into getting it checked out! In the Talmud it says that when you save one life, you save the world. (I'm wearing my Rabbi Wannabe shirt today so I can play the part! ).

Graycie..I've had my hair trimmed a few times already but the bangs in front haven't grown much. I'm also used to hair on my forehead down to the brows, but I have very little. Of course, it's very curly so it appears shorter. But that part has never been cut! The rest has and keeps growing but this part is the slowest to grow for some reason.

Actually..I've gotten used to it short like that and I like it.

Tracy..don't you just love the name Delightful Dave??

Laura..I'm glad you are staying calm and just doing what you have to do. I'm sending good thoughts your way.

I'm an emotional wreck these past few days, weeks??

Be well Ladies and have a good weekend!

debbie444

Hey - guess what i nearly hit today, flew out across the front of my car ?



A peacock!!! What an insurance claim that would have been!!

Graycie

Debbie,

Ravdeb, pretty much explained what bang's are. MIne are only 1 inch long. I also like hair on my forehead usually down to my eyebrows. I think that is why I look so bald no hair on the forehead and also the crown is very short (top of my head) That would have been something hitting a peacock......I feel like I am starting to follow in your footsteps,.I was pulling out of the drive-way yesterday and I hit the gate. What a ditz I am. I was in a hurry because I was going to the dentist and I didn't want to be late. Well, anyway I broke the rearview side mirror off. I called and it is $200 for part's. Isn't that kind of high for a mirror? So it was an expensive day between that and the dentist.........It just so happen's that I am taking my car in for a recall today so I will have them fix that and who know's what else they will find wrong, might be another expensive day.

Ravdeb, I hear you about being an emotional wreck. Me too.......

Graycie

ravdeb

Graycie... I hit my rearview mirror about a year ago and had to have it replaced. Hit it on the gate/bush/tree thingy. I was on chemo and so spacey (like I'm any different today ) and decided to not drive anymore. I am driving now, though, and sometimes I'm amazed I get home in one piece!

Debbie..that is so wierd..well, not for YOU because that is the norm for you! We used to have a peahen in our yard and nobody believed that it would fly over the fence. yes..they DO fly!

Are you sure you haven't had too many jammy dodgers??

ok..time to go cook. Wonder how the food will come out tonight. I'm so fatigued that I can't do anything, it seems. I went to do my weekend shopping this morning and just couldn't wait to get home. Took a nap. Now I must get cooked what I meant to do earlier. I've got 9 people for dinner tonight.

TracySeattle

Delightful Dave..... LOL!!!

I am making Pot Roast for dinner tonight and he is so excited. The poor guy - his idea of meals are the already prepared things you buy at the Grocery or going out to eat!

Tomorrow morning our Kiwanis club is sponsoring a Pancake breakfast to raise $$ for the city's Bike Helmet Program. I signed up to be there to work at 6:45am!!! What in the world was I thinking????? UGH!!!

Next weekend is a 3 day weekend for me (Veteran's Day). Dave and I are going to an Inn on Whidbey Island. My plan is to sit by the fire, sip wine and read a book all weekend! I so need the time to just relax!! He is so funny - he refuses to get a computer, so instead of being able to find a place to go and make reservations on-line, he went to Whidbey Island yesterday and personally looked at all of the places that we could go..... The place that he chose is on the water. He loves boats - so he will be looking at the boats and I will be reading my book.....

Nothing much new with me. I got the results of my bone density test back. Minimal bone loss in my hip. Guess I had better start taking calcium.

I have a pic of me at the Making Strides Walk with my T-Shirt that has all of your names on it. When I have a few minutes at home, I will scan it in and post it so that you can see.

I am also working on the CDs gettting them ready to mail out, it is a slow process, but you might see them by Christmas!

Have a good day everyone!

Anonymous

Debbie, we call them bangs and you call them "fringe" ....... LOL, I think fringe is funny.

Someone really should write a translation book for American English and the King's English.

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TaDah, you'll have someone trained in no time. How is your apartment? Where are the pics now that it is all painted??

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Ravdeb, I had some Jewish customers yesterday and they have been to Israel. They are now buying a motorhome to see some of the US. I was telling them that you lived near the shore....in Haifa, They were telling me how beautiful Israel is. And they even celebrated the Festival of Booths (I can't remember the word you use for booth or tabernacle) and they set it up in their backyard and eat it in too. They said they used to sleep in it as well.

ravdeb

Kelly... I do live near the sea but not in Haifa. I live about a half hour south of Haifa. Pretty close..but then it's all relative since it's such a small country anyway!

A lot of people celebrate Sukkot and have their own sukkah in their yard. It's a fun holiday.

Well, Tracy..going away with Dave, huh? Sounds pretty darn serious! Are you sure he'll have time to look at boats and you'll have time to read????

Tadah..not only do we want pics of your freshly painted home, but we want pics of YOU! You promised, I believe?

Back to cooking. Just about done. Amazing how much I can get done when I keep my mind on it. But... I can't seem to do that. I'm a wreck. I just want to sleep...

TracyNY

Yeah, I took the photos. I have to size them and post them.

My mother is coming to visit for a month on Monday. A relative died and she is coming for the funeral and will stay until after my surgery.

That's just an excuse, tattoos and liposuction aint nothing. I think she's hiding from my dad! He's a lazy somebody and she needs a break!

Tracy's got a boyfriend, nah nah nah nah nah nah!!

RoseMarie

ok Ravdeb, starting to worry about you!! Positive thoughts and prayers coming at ya!!
Laura - lots of hugs coming your way!!!!
Debbie - a peacock?? omg!!!!
Tracy - Have FUN!!

I'm experiencing chording again, I thought I was done with that obnoxious pain. It started shortly after my exchange surgery so I guess I'm back to excercising that arm...
Well, I'm off to make beds and then shop for curtains...

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

ravdeb

Rosemarie..that sucks that you are having the dang cording again. This stuff just never ends! I hope that the exercising will help it.

Curtains?? for which room?

Well, dinner is over, I'm off to finish putting the things away but the dishes are washed and/or loaded in the dish washer.

Rosemarie..I'll be okay. I'm just trying too hard and getting annoyed too much. Thanks for the good thoughts.

Laura..I may be in a bad mood, but I'm saving my good thoughts for you!

G'nite...

ravdeb

Tadah...I would LOVE it if MY mom would come and pay me a visit. I'm sure you'll enjoy the company. No surgery is "nothing". Surgery is surgery. You will appreciate the company.
When is your surgery???

TracyNY

I'm getting my nip/tuck on November 29th. My ps told me he was going to cut the dog ears off now he says he's going to suction them out and leave the skin there because its a difficult spot to cut off as it goes around the back.

I asked him that since he's back there how much will he charge to liposuction my back fat. We agreed on $3K and he's going to give my abdomen a little touch up to make my waistline smoother.

I'm actually looking forward to seeing my mother. She is a tiny lady, 4ft 11, but its all sugar!! I have yet to meet another human being as sweet and without guile. She only thinks the best about people and is loving and generous. She's where I got my good looks too!!

I don't think I get intubated for this one, just a light sleep and I wake up sore and strapped into that darned girdle again!! Remember that torment? I guess I'm just a glutton for punishment! Although I would recommend abdominal liposuction to anyone, I loved the results and I lost four inches off my waist.

ravdeb

Okay..I remember you said it was going to be Nov. 29th. I should remember that..girlfriend's mom's birthday, too.

Suction the dog ears...hmmmmmmmmmm...

wow..sounds like you will be a new person when you are done!

I watched one of those make-overs on TV last night. hmmmmmmm... they all look so wonderful afterwards but I'm not so sure I could go through the surgery part of it! I applaud you for it!!!

I'm glad your mom of sugar will be there for you. I think that you not only got your outside beauty from her but, but I do believe you have that inner beauty as well.

and where is the picture of you?????

Anonymous

I wish I had the TIME and money to do lipo! I'd lipo the tummy and the inner thighs!

I have water in the pool, girls! Pretty soon Teryn will be a little mermaid.

Graycie

Kelly, You and me both......If I had the money I would have lipo too. Actually I would do a complete makeover..... Tadah, If you can afford it and it makes you feel good about yourself you go for it girl.......I am glad to hear your mother will be there with you. She sound's like a sweetheart. She was definitely a good role model and I can tell you got your beauty from her which shine's not only on the outside but also within just like Ravdeb said..

By the way Kelly, I am jealous of your pool. I would love one but not worth it here in the northeast since we only have a couple month's of good weather. You will have to post some picture's after it is done.

Rosemarie, Sorry about the chording. I am still not sure what that is......I haven't had exchange surgery. I just had a lumpectomy. I am wondering now if I did the right thing. I did have a choice. I just pray it doesn't come back.

Tracy, How did you know you had bone loss in your hip? I didn't realize the bone density test tell's you where the loss is. I thought it just gives you an overall score. Maybe that is why my hip is bothering me since they told me I had minimal loss too. What kind of calcium are you going to take. My friend suggested citracal. She said she found out the hard way not to take anything else because some of the supplements constipate you. I hope you are having fun with Dave this weekend.......

Hope the rest of you are having a fun weekend too.......

Graycie

Anonymous

Just dropping in to let you ladies know I'm not too busy to run for the cure tomorrow. Fly in and join me and my (other) friends!! It will be held in scenic Balboa Park amidst tall trees and winding highways.

ravdeb

Brenda! I miss you! Where have you been???? Enjoy the run for the cure! That's great that you are doing this.

Graycie...do NOT go there...worrying about whether lunmpectomy was the right decision. If you had done mastectomy you could have the opposite thoughts. It's not worth it. Once a decision is made, I believe it is the RIGHT decision.

I am not sorry about doing lumpectomy and then chemo and rads. I would have had to do the chemo anyway and I know that although mastectomy can lower the chances of recurrance, there is STILL the risk. So, just relax. It's all a gamble, no matter how you look at.

So, Kelly..when's the pool party? Can we have a virtual one?

Laura...we will all be there for you tomorrow. It will be a bit crowded with all of us..we will try to be quiet and we'll try to behave.

Ladies..I'm depressed. There, I said it. All I want to do is sleep and cry. Is this normal? I'm tired of the sciatica and it's chronic, nagging leg pain. I wonder if this is really sciatica or if there was something cancerous that didn't show up on the CT last year. The herniated disk showed up but they said it's an old one and I've had it for years. So, why the pain now? Coincidence? I only had a strange sensation when I did aerobics and so years ago I quit that and the pain was gone...until this past May.

I don't even know if that is what is depressing me.

And I don't do well with rainy days and we are having those.


ugh..

When the sun comes up, I'll be better...

Have a nice Sunday.

debbie444

Laura, i find it hard to be still and quiet - i had better wait outside the door!

ravdeb

this is my cousin and me and my daughter before bc.

ravdeb

OMG it worked!!! HA! Kelly once asked for a pic of me before bc...that's me about a year before diagnosis..cousin on the left was visiting from N.Jersey and that's my daughter on the right. We're in Caesarea and I'm giving her my tour.

This is before bc, before my camera was stolen, before I got my multi-focal glasses... oh..so maybe this is about 2 years before diagnosis.

I miss my hair.

RoseMarie

Great picture, Ravdeb - so funny how we both ended up with curly hair! I can only imagine what you must be going through with the constant pain! That's enough to make ANYONE depressed!! Praying for sunny days!! Is there anyone you can see about this?
I need curtains in every room of my house. I keep putting it off because I really don't know what I want. Everything I buy I return. But my husband walked in the other night, looked around and made a comment about still not having curtains...for him to even care was a big deal...
TaDah - you are a brave woman. I'm such a chicken. Just the thought of the pain and discomfort makes me want to run away and hide!! I'm so glad you get to do this for yourself!
Graycie - If I had had a choice I probably would have had the lumpectomy with rads/chemo. I was told I wasn't a very good candidate because I was "too small." I would have had nothing left up top!! I think the outcome is the same - Like Ravdeb said, you made the right decision.
Laura - I'm there with you too!! (I may be outside waiting with Debbie, though)
Brenda - have a great walk!!
Tracy...looking forward to hearing about your weekend!
Lots of love ladies...

Graycie

Ravdeb, My husband is calling me to go for a walk but I just wanted to comment on your picture......WOW! I don't think I would have recognized you. It must be the dark hair, and alot of it too. Your daughter look's just like you, very pretty.

Brenda, good luck with the walk today....

Will write more later.

Graycie

ravdeb

Graycie..how was your walk with dh? I didn't get out because it was raining on and off all day today. I mean..I was out..just didn't get to walk! CRAP! Really need that walk.

Yea..I know how different I look. People who have known me for years just don't recognize me! Had black hair forever!When it turned gray..like lots of gray at age 30 something, I started dying it til chemo. But, I miss that hair! Even though I'm not sorry I'm not dying it now cuz I was really tired of keeping that up, I still miss that look.

I know that I can't go back to it and I know that most days I actually prefer my white little lamb cut, but I so want to go back in time sometimes...

My daughter is beautiful...she has such a warm heart. She's my best friend. She has never failed to be that.

Rosemarie...I suppose it's the chronic pain that is getting me down. Seems worse today..could be the weather. My knee was even hurting while I was laying down for a nap. That paniked me...it shouldn't hurt when there is no pressure on it, right? So, it's not hurting me now. Guess that should relieve me.

Anyway..proud of myself that I learned to post a picture. Posted a picture of two of my cats (I have more cats..)on Sierra's post of her kitty...

ravdeb

Just had to add... Gilad (19) Matan (16) and Yael (21).
This pic was taken a year ago.

Graycie

Ravdeb, You are getting good with the picture's. Watch out it get's addicting.....lol...Are you using photo bucket? You have a beautiful family.....

I can relate with the way you have been feeling lately. I was real depressed yesterday too but feeling a little better today. I hate every little ache and pain. I am still worried about my hip. It is strange it come's and goes.The fact that it aches in my groin (that is getting better) and down my leg sometimes make's me think it is a nerve thing not sure if it is sciatica though, My knee's have really been bothering me too but at least I can blame that on arthritis since they told me I had arthritis in my knee's when I had the bone scan. I'll give it to the end of the week and then I may call the doctor if it isn't better.
I really think chemo has a lot to do with the way our bodies have been feeling. The weather doesn't help it is cold and damp here.

Rosemarie and Ravdeb, you are right about the lumpectomy. Treatment would have been the same either way. I did tell my BS when he did the surgery if he felt I needed a mastectomy to go ahead and do it but he said no we really don't do those anymore unless you want it. Your right you can still have a reoccurence either way. So, I guess I should relax with my decision.

Laura, keep us posted on how your appointment goes tomorrow. We will be with you in spirit.

Graycie