please help

Will be thinking of you all day Sue. Am just about to leave. I am driving this morning. The sun is shining here - first time in ages! I will send some sunshine to you in my thoughts and prayers.

love,

gb. xoxoxxo 

Sue - rushed home to check on you.  Listen to Ulla, take a nice hot bath and relax.  Those damn steriods are having there way with you again.

This will ALL pass, just like the last time.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{SUE}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

AE 

HONEY WHERE R U??????

HOW DO U FEEL?????

I LOVE U ?????

SUE ,,,,,WAT HAVE U ATE TODAY???

U WERE WORKING TILL 3PM ....

WAT WAS UR BREAKFAST??

WAT U HAD FOR LUNCH??

AND WATS FOR DINNER??

Sue, I don't know about cmf...I will google it, to see s/e.  Take your pills!!! Please...I did as often as I could...you have to stay on top of your pain and your naseau!

COM ON SUE...

TALK TO ME..

LETS SHOUT ON THE FACE OF THAT NASTY BOOTFACE TOGEATHER...

LETS PROMISE EACH OTHER TO MEET AT THE END OF UR TREATMENST,,,LETS LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE WHEN ALL OF THIS WILL END,,,

LETS THINK ABOUT UR BOYS AND WAT WILL U DO WITH THEM IN THE NEXT SUMMER VACATION...

WHER U R PLANNING TO TAKE THEM ??

HOW U WILL SPEND THE SEMSTER????

U NEVER TOLD ME UR PLANS????

Darn it...I tried looking up individual tx's..and I was not able too.  It is like it gives all chemo as the same??  I am not too good at this.

You lay down Sue...rest...best thing for you!  I took 2 different anti naseau meds...so I was taking something like every 3 hrs or so.  I took them religiously, just to stay on top of the terrible feelings.

Hi Sue! Listen , the chemo is cumulative , thats why you feel worst and faster than usual. It very normal. And when you are so broken down by the chemo , if any part of your body has a weakness , it magnifies the pain/condition. So keep taking your meds and don't stop even if you feel a little better. Yes Sue , cmf is what is known as a lite chemo. Its so much easier than the other. I was hoping thats what I would of had , but I didn't. This really is the worst right now Sue. I remember when I was at this point. It was summer , so nice and I really felt half dead. I thought maybe if I sit outside in the nice summer air I might feel better. I sat on my swing , a pleasant summer breeze started to gently blow , and it actually hurt when it blew on my skin. I had to immediately go inside lay down and cover up. Everything about you right now is "raw". Thats how I felt , like a piece of raw meat.

Try to lay down and if a cover feels good do it. If it feels better with no covers ,do it. You just have to go with whatever it is that can make you feel the slightest comfort right now.xxxxx I love you Sue. Eating now might be harder too. So if you are carving anything , eat it. Its very hard to get comfortable in this state. But this is the last of this truly horrible feeling. And remember the pain in your sterum is being manified because of the chemo. I know my lymph node removal scar really ached and my diep was so much more sensitive on chemo. Our scars are still relatively new and the f__king chemo posion is maying it all hurt that much more. It a heating pad feels good , use it , if a cold pack feels better use it. Its just hard to tell right now what will help.

Take care my sweet Sue.xxxx Melody

HONEY..

R U SLEEPING??

LISTEN TO MEL...ALL WAT SHE SAID IS WONDERFULL

I FEEL ALMOST THE SAME ,,,

I HOPE U R FEELING LIL BIT BETTER...

MY ARM HURTING ME SO BAD,,,

AND IT IS SWOLLOWEN ...I HAVE PAIN IN MY SCAR AREA..(ABOVE AND UNDER THE SCAR)

IT IS ALSO VERY SWOLLOWEN AND PAINFULL UNDER MY ARM...

I SWEAR I CAN FEEL THE LYMPH FILLING THE INTRACELLULAR SPACE IN MY ARM AND UNDERARM...

IT IS REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE AND VERY VERY FURSTRATING...

DEAR SISTER ...

I DONT KNOW WAT TO DO JUST TO MAKE U FEEL LIL BIT BETTER,,,

DO U NEED TO TALK ???????

R U SLEEPY?????

HUGGSSSSSSS

Oh, poor Sue!  This is the worst of it, I promise.  From what I've heard of cmf, it won't be nearly as bad as what you've already had.  Just rest tomorrow and don't push yourself.  Hopefully it will be better by Friday.  I wish I could be there to fix you some soup and take care of you.  Don't talk about not wanting to live anymore.  I know how you feel.  I felt so horrible after my first round of chemo.  I thought for sure I was dying and I just wanted the pain and sick feeling to end.  I've never felt so ill in my life.  I knew I had to hang in there and fight the damn can*#r with everything I had for my kids.  Fight for those boys, Sue.  They're worth it, and so are you.

I love you!!!!!!!!

Hugs,

Karen

You hang in there too, Ulla.  Friday is your last chemo, isn't it?  My last one is a week from today.  I'm actually looking forward to it because I'll be DONE!!  We'll be done, Ulla!!!  Don't worry so much about the radiation.  There are things you can put on your skin to help with the sunburn.  It will be FINE!  A piece of cake compared to this chemo nightmare. 

Love you, Ulla!

Hugs,

Karen

Oh Karen,  I more week and you are done! I am so happy for you too!  Do you have to do rads?  Did you ever have days where you were just pretty much in bed all day?  I know I did.  It seems like you tough gals have been up and about everyday!

DEAR LISA AND KAREN ..THANK U SO MUCH FOR HE SUPPORTING WORDS,,,

I HOPE IT WILL ALL GOES WELLL...

I ONLY WISH THAT THIS PAIN IN MY ARM WILL BE LESS DAY BY DAY,,,

KAREN ,,UR PIX R AMAZING...THEY R SO SO BEAUTIFULLL...I LOVED THE HOURSES AND UR BEING THERE ALL TOGEATHER,,,

KEEP HAVING SUCH NICE WEEKENDS ,,,THEY R REALLY HELPFULL

DEAR LISA ...LET ME TELL U ABOUT MY STUPIDNESS REGARDING TO THE CORONA,,,

I TOLD MY HUBBY ABOUT OR CHAT AND THAT I DIDNT KNOW WAT IS (CORONA)THAT I ASKED U ABOUT IT ...

GUESS WAT????????

HE WALKED TO THE REFRIGERATOR AND BROUGHT ME A BOTTOL OF IT ...I WAS SHOCKED FEELING SO SO SO SO STYPID THAT I NEVER LOOK AT ITS NAME ...

HE LIKE IT SO MUCH AND USED TO BUY IT ...

AND I USED TO SHAARE HIM SOMETIMES ..

I DONT LIKE IT REALLY ..I AM A WINE PERSON ...MAY BE THATS WHY I NEVER BOTHERED TO READ ITS NAME ..LOL LOL LOL

CAN U BELIEVE SUCH STUPIDNESS, I DIDNT DAE TO BLAME MY CHEMOBRAIN FOR THAT...HE HE HE

AS SUE IS NOT HERE ,,I HOPE SHE IS SLEEPING,,,,

I DONT WANT TO FEEL WOORY THINKING THAT SHE MIGHT BE MORE SICK AND NOT WANTING TO SHARE WITH US ,,,

I bet she is sleeping.

Ulla, that is funny...haha. Well, if you are not a beer drinker, you just did not pay attention to the label.  I have always been a beer drinker.  I love the corona's with a slice of lime!! I just may have one when I get home.  It has been a long day!

Ulla - I'm here!!!   I was preparing the flying monkeys to fly to Sue's and steal her away but hopefully she is sleeping and I will put that on hold!! LOL.

I just want to say that ALL of you ladies ROCK!!!  The way you support each other is wonderful!!

AE