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  • geebung
    geebung Member Posts: 1,851
    edited January 2008

    Will be thinking of you all day Sue. Am just about to leave. I am driving this morning. The sun is shining here - first time in ages! I will send some sunshine to you in my thoughts and prayers.

    love,

    gb. xoxoxxo 

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    DEAR SUE I FORGET TO TELL U THAT THE HOT BATH SHOULD NOT TAKE LONG TIME,,,NO MORE THAN 15-20 MINUTES

    IF U R STILL IN PAIN ,,DONT BE AFRAID OF DOUBLING UR PAIN KILLERS,,,DO U FEEL NAUSIEATED TOOO...

    OR JUST PAINS??

    HONEY HANG ON,,,IT WILL END ....

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  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited January 2008

    Sue - rushed home to check on you.  Listen to Ulla, take a nice hot bath and relax.  Those damn steriods are having there way with you again.

    This will ALL pass, just like the last time.

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{SUE}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

    AE 

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited January 2008

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{SUE}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    HONEY WHERE R U??????

    HOW DO U FEEL?????

    I LOVE U ?????

    SUE ,,,,,WAT HAVE U ATE TODAY???

    U WERE WORKING TILL 3PM ....

    WAT WAS UR BREAKFAST??

    WAT U HAD FOR LUNCH??

    AND WATS FOR DINNER??

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited January 2008

    Ulla ...thanks sister...I dont want warning shots lol over my head hahaha

    I tell you..my feet and hands burn , I have severe pain in my bad arm at the top under it over ribs on under sternum I am very nauseasted I am very depressed very suididal very sick very exhausted and very disturbed ....my head is not here

    gb ...Have a beautiful drive...I will try and imagine sitting beside you.

    Will the CMF be better that this red devil ..I have 8 of those...do you really think it will Cry  I am aching everywhere xxx

    Ulla I am loving you lots xxxxxxx

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited January 2008

    Sue, I don't know about cmf...I will google it, to see s/e.  Take your pills!!! Please...I did as often as I could...you have to stay on top of your pain and your naseau!

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited January 2008

    AE I hope it passes...it feels like it wont...I never used to feel like this until after 6 or 7 dats..it has taken me by surprise...

    I am so very very very sad .... I feel outta this world..I just want peace now...to go..where my head and body face no more torture xxx

    Ulla for my brekkie I had bacon and sweetcorn sub .... for my dinner zilch.....for my tea 2 oranges 2 apples 2 pcts cheese n onion crisps. 2 jacket potatoes with beans ...I am not up to eatingy at the mo...too sick....cant wait to see if the binge starts...that might cheer me up xxx

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    COM ON SUE...

    TALK TO ME..

    LETS SHOUT ON THE FACE OF THAT NASTY BOOTFACE TOGEATHER...

    LETS PROMISE EACH OTHER TO MEET AT THE END OF UR TREATMENST,,,LETS LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE WHEN ALL OF THIS WILL END,,,

    LETS THINK ABOUT UR BOYS AND WAT WILL U DO WITH THEM IN THE NEXT SUMMER VACATION...

    WHER U R PLANNING TO TAKE THEM ??

    HOW U WILL SPEND THE SEMSTER????

    U NEVER TOLD ME UR PLANS????

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited January 2008

    I will Lisa I am going to get another nausea..it is says 3 a day but I have had 4 already xxx

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  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited January 2008

    I am jsut going to put my head down for a second, I feel so ill, I will be right here with you on my bed xxx

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    YESSSS

    SUE..

    HONEY ..RIGHT IN UR BED WITH ZIPPY....

    TRY TO HAVE A CUPPA,,,,IF U FEEL LIKE TOOOOOOO

    U KNOW WAT??

    LETS KEEP CHIT CHAT IN HERE ..

    IT REALLY WORKS AGAINST ALL TYPES OF PAINS....

    XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited January 2008

    Darn it...I tried looking up individual tx's..and I was not able too.  It is like it gives all chemo as the same??  I am not too good at this.

    You lay down Sue...rest...best thing for you!  I took 2 different anti naseau meds...so I was taking something like every 3 hrs or so.  I took them religiously, just to stay on top of the terrible feelings.

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    DEAR SUE ..

    I HAD TOOK THE CYCLOPHOSPHAMID AND FLOUROURACIL ALLREADY...

    I TOOK THEM BOTH WITH THE RED DEVIL...

    CAN U BELEIVE THAT?????????

    I WAS IN THE SAME REGIMEN LIKE KARYLL...

    MY NURSEN TOLD ME THAT THE OTHER 2 (CYCLOPHOSPHAMID AND FLOROURACIL)ARE NOT MAKING THE SAME SEVER SE AS THE RED DEVILE,,,

    SO U WILL FEEL THE DIFFERENCES WEN U TAKE UR FIRST DOSE OF THEM...

    TAXOTERE HIT ME SO BAD ....I STILL DREAD THE NEXT RX IN FRIDAY ,,,TRYING TO BE AS POSATIVE AS I CAN ,,,BUT INSIDE ME...I AM SHAKING

    LOVE U

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited January 2008

    Hi SueSmile! Listen , the chemo is cumulative , thats why you feel worst and faster than usual. It very normal. And when you are so broken down by the chemo , if any part of your body has a weakness , it magnifies the pain/condition. So keep taking your meds and don't stop even if you feel a little better. Yes Sue , cmf is what is known as a lite chemo. Its so much easier than the other. I was hoping thats what I would of had , but I didn't. This really is the worst right now Sue. I remember when I was at this point. It was summer , so nice and I really felt half dead. I thought maybe if I sit outside in the nice summer air I might feel better. I sat on my swing , a pleasant summer breeze started to gently blow , and it actually hurt when it blew on my skin. I had to immediately go inside lay down and cover up. Everything about you right now is "raw". Thats how I felt , like a piece of raw meat.

    Try to lay down and if a cover feels good do it. If it feels better with no covers ,do it. You just have to go with whatever it is that can make you feel the slightest comfort right now.xxxxx I love you Sue. Eating now might be harder too. So if you are carving anything , eat it. Its very hard to get comfortable in this state. But this is the last of this truly horrible feeling. And remember the pain in your sterum is being manified because of the chemo. I know my lymph node removal scar really ached and my diep was so much more sensitive on chemo. Our scars are still relatively new and the f__king chemo posion is maying it all hurt that much more. It a heating pad feels good , use it , if a cold pack feels better use it. Its just hard to tell right now what will help.

    Take care my sweet Sue.xxxx Melody

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  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited January 2008

    Hi Ulla. Tomorrow is your last tx isn't it?

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    HONEY..

    R U SLEEPING??

    LISTEN TO MEL...ALL WAT SHE SAID IS WONDERFULL

    I FEEL ALMOST THE SAME ,,,

    I HOPE U R FEELING LIL BIT BETTER...

    MY ARM HURTING ME SO BAD,,,

    AND IT IS SWOLLOWEN ...I HAVE PAIN IN MY SCAR AREA..(ABOVE AND UNDER THE SCAR)

    IT IS ALSO VERY SWOLLOWEN AND PAINFULL UNDER MY ARM...

    I SWEAR I CAN FEEL THE LYMPH FILLING THE INTRACELLULAR SPACE IN MY ARM AND UNDERARM...

    IT IS REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE AND VERY VERY FURSTRATING...

    DEAR SISTER ...

    I DONT KNOW WAT TO DO JUST TO MAKE U FEEL LIL BIT BETTER,,,

    DO U NEED TO TALK ???????

    R U SLEEPY?????

    HUGGSSSSSSS

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    DEAR MEL..

    IT WILL BE FRIDAY ..I AM DREADING IT ALREADY...

    THE HOSPITAL SENT ME A POST...THEY WILL PREPARE ME FOR RADS IN 7TH FEB THEN START RADS IN 18TH FEB 25ROUNDS DAILY ...

    THE WAY TAKES 1HOURE AND A HALF TILL THE HOSPITAL...

    I HAVE A VERY SENSATIVE SKIN ALREADY AND I AM REALLY WORRIED ...

    WHERE IS SUE???

    I HOPE SHE SLEPT...

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited January 2008

    Oh, poor Sue!  This is the worst of it, I promise.  From what I've heard of cmf, it won't be nearly as bad as what you've already had.  Just rest tomorrow and don't push yourself.  Hopefully it will be better by Friday.  I wish I could be there to fix you some soup and take care of you.  Don't talk about not wanting to live anymore.  I know how you feel.  I felt so horrible after my first round of chemo.  I thought for sure I was dying and I just wanted the pain and sick feeling to end.  I've never felt so ill in my life.  I knew I had to hang in there and fight the damn can*#r with everything I had for my kids.  Fight for those boys, Sue.  They're worth it, and so are you.

    I love you!!!!!!!!

    Hugs,

    Karen

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited January 2008

    Hopefully our dear Sue is fast asleep.

    Ulla, that is really great that you are coming up on your very last tx.  I remember being excited about mine, then just days before...thinking..nope...no more...I don't want it.  I was on taxotere like you for my last 4 tx.  I told my friend how I felt, and she said..you did not come this far and go through all of that hell to say NO to your very last tx.  I did it, and afterwards...we went out and celebrated with some Mexican food and a corona (the beer I like) haha!  You can do this Ulla!!  I didn't end up having to have rads, but I have heard, they are not bad at all. If your skin is sensative, you may have the sunburn feeling...and also be tired.

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited January 2008

    You hang in there too, Ulla.  Friday is your last chemo, isn't it?  My last one is a week from today.  I'm actually looking forward to it because I'll be DONE!!  We'll be done, Ulla!!!  Don't worry so much about the radiation.  There are things you can put on your skin to help with the sunburn.  It will be FINE!  A piece of cake compared to this chemo nightmare. 

    Love you, Ulla!

    Hugs,

    Karen

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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited January 2008
    Lisa, are you still at work??  What happened to leaving early?  I'm going to start calling you Sue!  Laughing
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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited January 2008

    Oh Karen,  I more week and you are done! I am so happy for you too!  Do you have to do rads?  Did you ever have days where you were just pretty much in bed all day?  I know I did.  It seems like you tough gals have been up and about everyday!

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited January 2008

    I know.  I am still here.  Did you see what I did too?  I fell on the bag belt and cut my leg open!  I then limped down for someone to help me clean it.  Then felt very weak and had to lie down!  I think I am just getting overwhelmed with everything and not feeling good does not help.

    I will leave in about 45 min. or so.

    Just call me Sue the 2nd!

    xoxo

    Lisa

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    DEAR LISA AND KAREN ..THANK U SO MUCH FOR HE SUPPORTING WORDS,,,

    I HOPE IT WILL ALL GOES WELLL...

    I ONLY WISH THAT THIS PAIN IN MY ARM WILL BE LESS DAY BY DAY,,,

    KAREN ,,UR PIX R AMAZING...THEY R SO SO BEAUTIFULLL...I LOVED THE HOURSES AND UR BEING THERE ALL TOGEATHER,,,

    KEEP HAVING SUCH NICE WEEKENDS ,,,THEY R REALLY HELPFULL

    DEAR LISA ...LET ME TELL U ABOUT MY STUPIDNESS REGARDING TO THE CORONA,,,

    I TOLD MY HUBBY ABOUT OR CHAT AND THAT I DIDNT KNOW WAT IS (CORONA)THAT I ASKED U ABOUT IT ...

    GUESS WAT????????

    HE WALKED TO THE REFRIGERATOR AND BROUGHT ME A BOTTOL OF IT ...I WAS SHOCKED FEELING SO SO SO SO STYPID THAT I NEVER LOOK AT ITS NAME ...

    HE LIKE IT SO MUCH AND USED TO BUY IT ...

    AND I USED TO SHAARE HIM SOMETIMES ..

    I DONT LIKE IT REALLY ..I AM A WINE PERSON ...MAY BE THATS WHY I NEVER BOTHERED TO READ ITS NAME ..LOL LOL LOL

    CAN U BELIEVE SUCH STUPIDNESS, I DIDNT DAE TO BLAME MY CHEMOBRAIN FOR THAT...HE HE HE

    AS SUE IS NOT HERE ,,I HOPE SHE IS SLEEPING,,,,

    I DONT WANT TO FEEL WOORY THINKING THAT SHE MIGHT BE MORE SICK AND NOT WANTING TO SHARE WITH US ,,,

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    oh dera poor lisa ...

    be carefull for urself plz ..u r going to have a surgery..

    u need to relax...

    why u didnt leave the work till now???

    where is AE ..I WILL ASK HER TO SEND U SOME OF THOSE FLYING MONKIES ,,,,,

    R U GOING TO WORK TOMORROW TOO??U NEED REST

    PLZ LADIES ...

    TAKE CARE OF URSELVES ,,U R SO SO PRECIOUSE,,,

    DERA KAREN ,,R U HAVING RADS TOO???

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  • my3girls
    my3girls Member Posts: 3,766
    edited January 2008

    I bet she is sleeping.

    Ulla, that is funny...haha. Well, if you are not a beer drinker, you just did not pay attention to the label.  I have always been a beer drinker.  I love the corona's with a slice of lime!! I just may have one when I get home.  It has been a long day!

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  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited January 2008

    HOPE THAT SUE IS SLEEPING NOW

    HUGGGS HONEY

    ALL  LADIES I WISH U HAVE A GOOD TIME TOO

    I NEED TO SLEEP ...

    NITY...

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  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited January 2008

    Ulla - I'm here!!!   I was preparing the flying monkeys to fly to Sue's and steal her away but hopefully she is sleeping and I will put that on hold!! LOL.

    I just want to say that ALL of you ladies ROCK!!!  The way you support each other is wonderful!!

    AE 

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  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited January 2008

    Karyll - how was your treatment??? It was today, wasn't it??

    Ulla - Fridays treatment will feel like a breeze - we must celebrate!!  

    Karen - good for you, your near the end.  It is the best feeling in the world, isn't it??  Are you having rads??

    Lisa - hope the leg is OK, go home and GO TO BED, Sue Jr.!!  LOL

    Hugs to all,

    AE 

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