please help

Good morning all,

     I hope that you don't mind if I join in the fun. I have a read a few posts and have enjoyed the support you all give each other. I was diagnosed Nov 1 and just started chemo and would love to be able to share with someone who understands. I started on this site earlier this month after working up the nerve to look around and found a  wonderful friend and supporter who happens to live right here in the same city. I love this site.

     I'm 36, married with 4 beautiful, crazy kids. I am lucky to have my family here in the same area. Unfortunately, they are constantly watching me to see how to treat me. Nothing like being under a microscope.

    My chemo cocktail is TAC and I started on Jan 10. My next is Jan31. 1 down and 5 to go!!

    Well, my daughter is moving around so it must be time to get them up for school.

                                                      Have a great day!!

Good morning sisters.

I wish I could say that I feel better this morning, but I don't.  I almost stayed home.  But, when I calculated the wages I would lose, I came in.  I may go home early.

Sue, I hope you are feeling well after your tx.  I would never put my concerns and worries on a plane over to the UK...Thanks sweetie..but you have enough on your shoulders!  I love you!!

Ulla...so good to see you, and your inspiring comforting words to our Sue!  I will check out all the pix today when I get home.  Our internet connection is finally up and running.

GB..thanks for your support.  Are you going to have reconstruction anytime?  Or is it something you don't feel the need for?  I am very anxious about feeling "whole"again as you put it.  I am however nervous about the whole surgery, recovery time etc.  I don't like being put under either.  Although, I have had several surgeries in my liftetime.

I am glad you are gaining your confidence back.  It is a hard thing to do after all that we have been through!  But we all need to think, how much we have overcome...more than the average person!  So in all reality, our confidence levels should be high!! I wish it was that easy!

Welcome Angie!! Feel free to come here with any and all concerns.  We are a great group, and truly care and support one another!! Is the T in your treatment for taxol or taxatere?  I had A/C and Taxotere, 8 tx's.  We are here for you!!

Karen, can't wait to see the pics when I get home.  Leavenworth is someplace I would love to visit!

I will check in today, while I am here at work.

Love to all!!

xoxo

Lisa

dear lisa,,,

i hope that my words will be helpfull for calming ur worries regarding to the upcomming surgery...

just look at one of the multiple good sides of it...ur bootface will be out of ur gorgeous body...(sorry i cant take ur pic in orange out of my mind)u r so so beautifulll

i know that words may not help enough ,,but when the words come from ur sisters who passed through the surgery that u dread ,,they can really help,,we went through surgery and we can help u imagine wat u will experience,,,while u finished ur chemo be4 us and u were a great help for us to overcome all our difficult times ..

dear lisa i hope u feel better today..

i will try to catch all the posts as i started with urs in last night and couldnt wait till i finish them all be4 i snt u this big hug,,,

love u lisa

Thanks Ulla!! I am feeling a little better right now.  I have already had my mastectomy, so my cancer is gone.  This is reconstruction.  I know it is a positive surgery, just still scarey for me.

I am all my girls have.  I think I worry about something happening.

Thank you Ulla, you make me feel somewhat attractive again, by your kind words.

xoxo

Lisa

Lisa - SOMEWHAT ATTRACTIVE  AGAIN?????   When did you stop????? 

You are gorgeous - I should be so lucky.  

Your surgery will be fine, sometimes I think the "pre-jitters" are the worst part.  Stay strong lady!!!

HUGS,

Valerie

dear lisa...

u r more than attractive trust me,,i saw ur pix ...foxy mom....

nothing will happen in ur reconstruction,,,,u will be here sitting (but with boobs now)lol lol

and sending your happy posts to lift up our spirits as u used to do...

remember ur words....that always helped me wen i read them at the end of every post of urs,,,

 Worry is for "shit"! Live, Laugh, Love!

Oh, Ulla - I hope she is home resting with a cuppa with Zippy at her side snoring.

AE

Ulla,  I did my tx and surgery different than most.  chemo first, then lumpectomy and nodes, not clear margins, so mastectomy.  Now reconstruction.  The tram flap, using my stomach is the scary part.

You guys are all too kind.  Not trying to be a downer, just not feeling like myself lately.  I think it's the stress and a little sickness.

Guess what I just did?? I fell at work and cut open my leg!! I can't have any open wounds for surgery, so it has to heal quickly!!  It hurts really bad.  I almost fainted, not sure why...it wasn't because of the blood...maybe the pain??

I think I will go home soon.  I can't stay here another 4 hours.

Sue...where are you?? I do hope she is sleeping and not feeling too badly.  She really is a strong one, not sure how she could think any differently.  Sue, Poppy and Karen, you all have young children...I don't know how you do it all!! I don't think I could have handled all this when my girls were younger!! You all have my admiration!

xoxo

Lisa

Oh Lisa! I am so sorry that you fell and cut your leg - no wonder you nearly fainted. You are not feeling well and you are stressed about the surgery. That all helps to make us more accident prone. I hope you go home and rest up and heal very quickly. I hate to think of you working when you are not well.

Much love and hugs,

gb 

SUE - YOU WILL BE JUST FINE/

Am leaving work -  will check in later - Lisa is right, take something for the pain, takes some deep breathes and lay there and pet Zippy.

bbl,

Valerie 

Dearest and precious Sue, this is probably the worst you will feel for a while - the last stinking, #@%&*# red devil. Please hang in there...it must be so hard for you and I can only imagine how you are feeling. All I can say is that we are all thinking of you and praying for you and that this will pass. You are so strong, even though you feel like hell right now, you will get through this.

Gentle hugs 

gb 

Thats the spirit chicky KICK ASS.

there you go Sue!! That is when that darn red devil hit me...a little over 24 hrs later...started to feel like hell!!! Take the pain killers, take the diazepam...they work!! I could not have made it without all those "little helpers"!