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  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited December 2007

    Sue, I'm so relieved that your o/h is ok.  How horribly painful that must have been.  It's already Boxing Day for you there, but I hope you had a wonderful Christmas.  You too, gb, Ulla, and Poppy.

    To all of you here in the states--Merry Christmas!! 

    I love you all to pieces and feel so blessed and honored to know you.

    Love and hugs,

    Karen

  • Wren
    Wren Member Posts: 324
    edited December 2007

    Merry Christmas to all!

    I hope it was special and memorable.

    Hugs,

    ~Wren

  • md_mouse
    md_mouse Member Posts: 99
    edited December 2007

    I just wanted to say MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you.  I hope you enjoyed your day with your families.

  • livesstrong
    livesstrong Member Posts: 1,799
    edited December 2007

    Well its the day after and I bet I'm the only one working!!! LOL.

    Just wanted to wish my dear Sue a Happy Boxing Day!!!

    Will check in later,

    Valerie

  • Lucy1234
    Lucy1234 Member Posts: 289
    edited December 2007

    Poor you Val



    Yes I think you are.

    But then again I think I would it would be more relaxing at work than being here at the moment. A 9 year old and a 5 year old pumped up on sugar and too much excitement!

    Looking forward to a restful day at work

    lol



    XX

  • lvtwoqlt
    lvtwoqlt Member Posts: 6,162
    edited December 2007

    Happy boxing day to all my friends in the UK. Glad to hear that you are off today Sue.

    I spoke to my son on Saturday afternoon, his ship was in Singapore. He was unable to call again on Christmas, the ship was preparing to leave port on Christmas day (our time). He said that they were going to have a special dinner on the ship like they had at Thanksgiving. He told me after Thanksgiving that it was good but not like I fixed. He did get the boxes of goodies that I mailed to him and he liked the travel game my sister sent, it reminded him of Christmas Eve when we would go to her house and play games until midnight while Santa visited our house.

    Sheila.

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Hello Everyone xxx

    I hope you all had a very peaceful happy Christmas xxx

    Aunt Em...I am hoping your working day is almost over....maybe you have a couple of hours to go...I cant remember where you work...I am not sure you said xxx I hope you are enjoying the book ...and resting up at night xxx with a cuppa ...hahaha XXX

    Sheila...wow Singapore for your son!! I am so happy you spoke with him and he recieved his packages....you are all so close even though far apart...and that bond you have is so unconditional ... makes me all warm xxx Hope you are enjoying your time off work...xxx

    Poppy...I love your pic xxx I can imagine your funfilled house with your boys ...lol....isnt Christmas great .... xxx

    I had a lovely couple of days with the boys and my o/h.....It has been a very peaceful quiet Christmas for us....I am glad because my energy is completely zilch ....no matter how much sleep I have x

    My bad arm has been painful too and my good arm which is the chemo side is now getting as bad as the bad arm...lol..the veins are really sore all the way up.... I am dreading them getting any worse with the next lot on Friday....I dont know how else they can get the stuff in though...worry worry worry......

    Please all I hope you are all ok...I have been thinking of you this Christmas...and feel warm inside to know that I have all of you in my life xxxxxxxx

    Much Love xxx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    I LOVE YOU ALL Laughing

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    When am I going to feel better...when will I feel my energy levels again...I am getting real hacked off with it now....xxx 

    I am hacked off....I am sick of being ill...and I dont want anymore chemo....and I dont want to die.....

    I have found these last couple of days to be good in a way as it is the first real time I have grounded and taken stock of the last 3 or so months...and that is my conclusion above...

    I want to click my fingers and be myself again....and come out of this healthier than I have ever been...I am going to ask Lisa some tips on running xxxx

    Melody...David and Dan loved their card ...lol...thankyou!!! xxx

    Shirlann mum.....I sent you a PM xxxx I hope Cleo and Dusty are Ok xxx

    Well I guess I will get organised for my days work tomorrow ....xxx

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Hi SueSmile! I'm glad you had a peaceful Christmas and the boys liked the card. You are hacked off. You have every right to be. You will continue to be until you're done with chemo. The only good chemo is the last treatment of it! The month after the last tx you should start to feel your energy level come back. And believe me , that makes all the difference in the world. Hang on Sue , time really does fly and you will be you again. xxxx I hope your O/H is feeling better.

    Sheila so glad to hear you got to talk to your son. And I'm glad he has such great memories to think of in times when he is away for the holidays. My prayers are with him.xxxx

    Happy boxing day! What do you do on boxing day?

    Hi Poppy , Lisa ,Wren , gb , Karen , Valerie(sorry you had to work) , Valsul , Shirlann , Sunnydazee , Ulla , Fumi , and any I forgot. Hope you all had a lovely holiday. I don't know about you ladies , but I have ate entirely too much! And I am having my port removed tomorrow morning. They said eat a light meal the night before , well , the turkey was light in color , so was the mashed potatoes and gravy , but , I don't think thats what they ment.lol Oh , I got a digital camera for Christmas! Pictures coming soon! xxxx Love to you all.

  • Shirlann
    Shirlann Member Posts: 3,302
    edited December 2007

    Oh Honeygirl, that was priceless!  The turkey was light, too funny.

    Sue baby, you will get well, you will not die, but you will feel really bad for a bit longer.  I know you want you old life back, and you shall have it!

    Patience, honey, one day at a time.  This time next year, you will be well and sooooo happy!  We will all be here, and so will you.  We will lift a cuppa to celebrate!

    Hugs and hugs, Shirlann 

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Melody ...you make me laugh again ...lolol...Good Luck tomorrow....yey...you will feel much better ...... and dont go eating no more til its done!!!!

    Well best get to bed huh...and go set my alarm Frown 

    much love to everyone xxxx

  • TenderIsOurMight
    TenderIsOurMight Member Posts: 4,493
    edited March 2008





    Wishing you all a great week in between the holidays, both English, American and all our other sisters and brother's countries, and a Happy New Year, 2008!



    I echo Shirlann's sentiment: may 2008 involve evolving quietude on own health issues and allow time for concentrating on warmth, caring and sharing with others.



    Tender

  • kmjjj123
    kmjjj123 Member Posts: 28
    edited December 2007

    Sueps, How did you recover after your surgery. I am 40 and my grandmother lost her breast to cancer in her late 50s. I am due for a mastectomy on the 9th of January and still dont even believe i have bc. I cant begin to think what it feels like to wake from your op with one breast missing, how did you deal with it. Surgeon not sure about lymph nodes have to have dye prior to op. Thanks

    Karen xxx

  • lvtwoqlt
    lvtwoqlt Member Posts: 6,162
    edited December 2007

    Karen, I am sorry you had to join the 'club nobody wants to join'. I was 46 when I lost both breasts last June to this terrible disease. My mom lost one breast at age 59. It is different waking up without any breasts but it is a relief to know that this ca***r is gone. I still wake up thinking that I don't have BC.  Take it one step at a time and you can make it through this. We are all here for you to help you.

    Sheila

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Karen...xxxxx  You are going through exactly the same thoughts as I had xxx Sheila is so right...you will feel absolute relief before anything else. I was so scared ...so very scared about surgery....but after having it done, I realised that the thoughts were worse than the actual experience.

    From a physical side I had pain for appx 3 weeks but I changed the pain meds and got something stronger which helped. Now I am having chemo..it has all happened so fast that I dont actually mourn my breast more than thank god I found it. I do wish I had had my other one off ...it does make me sad...but there is nothing I can do to alter things....so I dont waste energy being cross much ...lol xxx

    Please hang on...please please let us suppport you ...all your thoughts so close to surgery are so justified...but I want to tell you and assure you from my heart you will feel fine..I was back at work within 3 weeks and out of hospital after 2 days....YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS....xxx

    Having the lymph nodes out was the painful part....mainly down the arm.....I am praying you will be good in this area xxx

    If I was to be totally honest ...I am still in disbelief....but in all reality I think it is our coping mechanism....bit of denial I think I have....xxx

    Much Love xxx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Hello Everyone

    Hope you are all enjoying the Christmas hols still xxx

    Well we got hammered at work...good grief where do people get their money from....we got caught out...short staffed etc...so I am whacked out!

    Got my treatment tmw at 8 30am ...was going to swear then ...but I refuse to let it get to me......much.....I am crying inside...in reality ...xxx

    Well best make a cuppa and mellow for a while...

    Much Love xxx

  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited December 2007

    dear karen...i will say just as sheilansaid (((( I am sorry you had to join the 'club nobody wants to join'))))..but u r very welcomed to be our new sister here..this wonderful group of ladies..is really a bless,,they helped me so much passing through this long hard way

    i was dx last aug,am 34 years old and was 10 weeks pregnant in my first baby who i lost with my left breast due to the doctors openion that i must be aborted in the same mastectomy operation day,,having the port too in that horrable day that i would never be able to forget,,

    i was so concerned about the abortion thats why i didnt worried so much about the missed breast,,i still in disbelive that all of this is hapenning to me really...it is just too much pain here,,

    physically ,,i agree completely with dear sweet sue,,the mastectomy itself was not so bad as i imaginned ,,the most pain really was the nodes removal...they made an axillary clearance for me removing 27 nodes,,which was so much to deal with as an extra...4 nodes were posative cancer cells in them,,

    i am so sorry that u r here ,,plz lest us help and support u passing the next few days hoping that ur operation will goes well...

    u will need pain killers after the operation which helped me so much,,btw..never lift heavy or evn light things in ur affected side after the mastectomy ,,i am telling u that from now as i wish that i had someone to tell me that be4 i develope this painfull lymphedema in my upper arm...

    plz feel free to ask watever coms in ur mind...

  • Ulla
    Ulla Member Posts: 840
    edited December 2007

    dear sweet sue,,

    i miss u so bad inspite that i have so dark,negative feelings lately,,i cant feel better ,,but i cant not send u my best wishes to pass through ur next Rx tomorrow with the least SE due to it...

    goodluck with ur next Rx honey..

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Hi SueSmile! I'm home! No port! Yeah!!!! The area is sore , but after all I have been through this year , its a walk in the parkCool! Me and my O/H were so pertrubed. They told me to be there at 7am. and surgery was scheduled for 8am. No one called the doc to tell him I was there for 8am surgery. He finally was paged and showed up at 9:20am! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! I just thought , wow I am his first patient , I'll get right in and out. Oh well , if thats the worst thing thats gonna happen , I'll take it. I must say , I love "twigh-light" med. They call it alert sedation , but I always fall asleep with it. But I wake up feeling sooo good!

    Try not to think about tomorrow , tonight Sue. I mean , once you start tx , and you know what to expect , I would try to keep it out of my head as much as I could. Cause I dreaded it , and I would try to not think of it until I arrived at the ca center for treatment and then when I was getting infused , I kept thinking , another one down. Good luck sweet Sue , you can do it!xxxx

    Tell us , what did you get for Christmas?

    I'm gonna get a cuppa. brb

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Dear Ulla....I can feel your dark thoughts xxx....I have missed you loads this last week...I know how it feels to think dark....you cant really feel much or anything but sadness...Please know that these are all moments...and you and I will be doing much better in the Summer...xxx

    I am sending you all my hopes and wishes and hugs...because I really understand where you are.....remember there will be brighter days ahead and we are battling our way through a dark fog...but we are right beside each other...and you will never ever be alone in this journey...

    Please get through each day with me....and we will come out smiling...eventually.....trust me ...I love you xxxx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    Melody congratulations!!! I am so pleased...geez I cant wait to be shut of my treatment...I wish I had the nerve to get a port put in... my veins in my arm are crucifying me ...LOL .....listen ARRRRGHHHHHHH ....can you hear my scream across the atlantic...ARRGHHHHHHHH ....it is piercing LOL...

    I got loads of cds, chocolates, jewellery and bath stuff for Crimbo...so tonight I am going to have a luxurious bath....hahaha...I am still in my uniform at the mo....my wig is on the floor and my hat is on....

    God Mel ....I bet you're so relieved to have gotten through all this....there are times when I dont think I will make it...it is the worst thing ....just the hardest .....xxxx

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    GOD HELP THE NURSE THAT ADMINISTERS ME TOMORROW....I will try to contain myself more...I will really try to keep my mouth shut...lol....they know I dont rant at them...cos I face the other way while I go on and on and on .....from start to finish....oh god....horror horror HORROR...

    Right forget it Sue...you muppet xxx lol

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Welcome Karen. I'm so sorry you are going through this.BUT , you came to the right thread! These beautiful ladies are a "melting pot" of different stages of this journey and they are loads of help. Shirlann is , I think 9 or 12 years cured! And is our guiding light. Tender is very imformative and helps us with all the technical stuff. Then , some of us are almost a year out of treatment and some are just going through it like you. An Sue is a real inspiration to us all. Come here with questions , path reports , or if you just need a friend.xxxx Melody

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Oh Sue , it sounds like you were showered with beautiful gifts! Good for you! Yes Sue , I am sooo relieved , and you will be too. I can't wait , we are gonna have the biggest cyber-party there ever was when you finish!

    You scream at that bootface all you want tomorrow! I figure its like childbirth pains , when I was in labor , the nurse had the gull to tell me to "keep it down " I was disturbing the other patients! Boy did I let her have it!lol

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Hi Ulla , so sorry your feeling bad. Is your arm still swollen? Do you have a sleeve for it? I hope your feeling better real soon. Ulla , when is your next treatment due? Hugs , Melodyxxxx

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Sue , Your scream just knocked Lilly off the couch!lol

  • portiasproudmom
    portiasproudmom Member Posts: 2,125
    edited December 2007

    Good for you, Melody!!  I'm so glad your port removal went well.  I can't wait to get the darn thing out.  It's such a pain!  I really am glad that I have it though.  When exactly did you finish chemo?  Just wondering when they'll be able to remove mine.  I'd really prefer to have it out before we take our vacation in June.

    I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, Sue.  Just keep thinking "one more down!!"  I have to force myself to focus on the end of treatment and having a worry-free vacation with my family when it's all over.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel, my dear Sue!  We will be stronger women in the long run, won't we? 

    Well, ladies, we are leaving town tomorrow afternoon and will be gone until Sunday evening.  I'm finally getting my day trip to Leavenworth to play in the snow and shop in the quaint little Bavarian themed stores.  I'm very excited.  Then we are spending a day with our friends at their cabin in the country.  The men are taking our boys (ages 4 and 5) snow-skiing.  We moms will probably drink hot cocoa and chat.  It sounds very relaxing.

    Take care all!  I'll catch up with you on Sunday.  Have a wonderful weekend.

    Love and hugs,

    Karen

    PS  Welcome, Karen!  I like your name.  Please come back to vent, ask questions, or just to chat.  We are a fun group and so supportive of one another.  I feel very blessed to have found this thread.

  • sueps
    sueps Member Posts: 2,266
    edited December 2007

    LOL Melody...when I gave birth it was my ex husband that told me to ssshhhhh stop swearing...boy did he av it ...lol

    Awww sweet Lilly....she is gorgeous...

    Oh my I so dont want to go tomorrow...I have to get up at 630am....what a pain...I am going to be in a foul mood ...lol...and I aint wearing me wig...I will wear my hat and dress like a tramp...

    I am going to go for a bath and try and get my head together...if my veins on my arms hadnt been sore this week I wouldnt be half as bothered...How will my blood flow without veins...and then my hand will die with no blood Cry

    I am well hacked off...I can feel myself errupting on the inside...well I am on slow boil..I will save the eruption for tomorrow ...when my cup overfloweth xxx

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 1,718
    edited December 2007

    Hi Karen , Hope your holidays were great. And you get to go to Leavenworth! Take us with you!lol That sounds so fun and relaxing. Be safe , and have fun.

    I finished my chemo Aug. 1st. My bs , I saw him on the 19th of Oct. , said he would take it out for me if I wanted him too , because he couldn't believe they left it in that long. But I asked my onc the last visit , that I wanted it out , and he agreed. All docs seem to have a different time-spand to taking it out once treatment is over. At your next treatment either , ask how long after your last treatment do you have to wait , or just tell them you are going on vacation , and you need it out by then! Take care , xxxx oh , take some pics to share with us when you return. Melody

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