please help

livesstrong

gotta run, Dh wants to go DVD shopping.

Love all around,

Aunty Em 

Ulla

margret mitchel is the author of the great novel (GONE WITH THE WIND)

SHE WAS A VERY SENSUAL WOMAN SHE WROTE THAT NOVEL ONLY...WHEN HER LEG WAS BROKEN AND SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO TAKE FULL REST IN BED FOR FEW MONTHS ,,I HAVE SAW A FILM ABOUT HER LIFE TOO,,SHE WAS UNIQUE ..ONE OF HER TYPE THAT TIME...SHE WAS VERY CONTROVERCIAL CHARACTER ..FREE WOMAN AT THOSE TIMES,,,

I LOVE THE FILM TOO ,,I CANT NOT TO RE=SEE IT SO MANY TIMES EVRY-TIME I GOT A CHANCE TOO..

IT IS ONE OF THE MOST WONDERFULL CLASSICS OF THE AMERICAN ART,,,,

FILLED WITH THAT TYPE OF PASSION THAT MAKES U WISH BEING ONE OF THE CHARACTERS THERE,,,

LOVE U ALL

PLZ SUE I STRONGLY RECOMEND THAT U GO HAVE BOTH THE BOOK AND THE FILM...

LOVE U ALL..

OH MELODY SWEETHEART THANK U SO MUCH FOR UR ENCOURAGING WORDS IT JUST I CANT FEEL GPOOD ABOUT ANYTHING IN MY APPEARANCE,,,I STARTED TO FEEL LIKE HATING MYSELF...

LOVE U ALL

livesstrong

Ulla,

 

My Sil is a HUGE fan of the movie as well.   I think she told me she has watched it over 50 times!!!  LOL.

It is VERY dramatic, isn't it?

Jeez, goota run Dh is getting inpatient........... 

sueps

Ulla I will definitely buy the book and film xxxx

I am going to bed soon ...I will be crying inside tomorrow when I go for tx...and Ulla I hate looking at myself...chemo SUCKS ....I cant go through it much longer....

I love you all  xxxxx

honeygirl

Goodnight and good luck tomorrow Sue. Stay focused. Picture your boys at the end of the tunnel. You can do this. It sucks , and you can hate it , but you gotta do it. Emerald City , straight ahead!xxxx Mel

Bye Auntie Em.xxxx

Ulla , please , never hate yourself. You are looking at you , but right now , this is a reflection of all you are going through. Tx does take a toll on us all. I wouldn't go anywhere I didn't have to when I was going through it. But try to separate "you" from the tx. You are still the same beautiful creature God created and with time , you will see it in your reflection once again. You are a "chemo cocoon" that will blossom into beautiful Ulla once again. Promise. xxxx Melody

sueps

Melody...what beautiful words...you are one in a million....thankyou god for giving Melody to us in our plight...and for the rest of our lives  xxx

Sweet dreams xxxx

I will report back tmw xxx

Much Love xxx

Ulla

OH MELODY TY REALLY FOR UR NICE WORDS,,IT SEEMS I NEED MORE THAN MILLIONS OF WORDS TO LIFT MY SPIRT UP LIL BIT,,,

SMILES

SWEET SUE GO GET REST ,,SLEEP WELL,,THINK ABOUT UR BOYS WHEN U WILL FINISH ALL THAT CHEMO HELL TO BE FREE FOR THEM ..

LOVE U REALLY,,, 

Karyll

Rent the movie Sue - GOne with the wind - I dunno about you, but my chemo brain won't let me focus on any reading material that is thought provoking (except for all what you ladies say here of course).I have seen it 27 times.... lol...at least once a year since I was small. It is a classic for sure. Even the music gives me goosebumps.

My veins were like that too Sue - they have improved. It reminded me of when I first tried to stretch out the mastectomy arm... that same feeling I had in my armpit, I had in my arm veins. The veins feel much better now though and they use a diferent vein everytime.

  I had my chemo postponed again today - I had an adverse reaction to the Taxotere and the Doc feels I need more time to heal before he gives it to me again in a reduced dosage. SO my "sunburn" on the chest and armpit time is getting later and later too. I was to be finished chemo Jan 7th, and now it seems it will be more like end of Feb.because of two postponements now - if I can get these last two chemo's in as ordered. Then 6 weeks to rads after that for I don't know how many tx. yet. My tunnel keeps getting longer but I know the light is at the end of it somewhere... lol...

  Do you take an ativan before your chemo Sue? I do when I am feeling so anxious. Do you have an ativan order? Lorazepam is the generic name.. something like that? I get up, take an ativan on that day because it is very anxiety producing especially this time when I feared for the repeat of last time. However, it didn't pan out anyway... lol.. Ahhhh Well.... Rent the MOVIE... *Grin*

Karyll

Shirlann

Hey baby, why no port? Everyone loves them once they are in, and you need your veins. Hummmmmm think this one over. Still a lot of time to go. So much easier on you in the long run.



How many more of this kind of chemo? Then, you get an easier one?



I think.



Hugs, lovey, Shirlann

Ulla

love u all

i went to my hair dresser to have a new wig wen husband coms bak..

i feel lil bit better

it is rainning heavily here and get dark at 3 pm...

it dont seems nice to walk in this weather..

kisses

my3girls

Hello to all my wonderful friends here!! I see everyone had a joyous holiday!! Sue....You have had your tx by now.  I hope things went better for you this time.  I am soooo glad you had boxing day off!! Good for you!  You deserved it!! I saw the part about when u feel better, getting running tips from me...absolutely...I will be glad to help!! Thanks for all the good wishes from you ladies!! Especially from you Shirlann!  You have such a way with words! Mel...I am SOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!! WOOHOO...NO PORT!! Doesn't it feel good?!  I am glad you had the twilight...I did not!! It was freaky!  I have to tell you,  I still feel weird in that area, and it's been about a month.  Hopefully that will go away.  I am sure you are so glad to be done with that!! Ulla...I am sorry you are feeling dark.  I hope you are feeling better.  I love your new avatar!! Great pic. Poppy...I love your new pic too!! I bet you had allot of fun with your little ones!  How nice!  I enjoyed my grandson!! The excitement in little ones eyes...priceless! Welcome to the new Karen.  We are here for you! Karen...I am glad you are taking your little trip to Leavenworth!! How magical!  Enjoy yourself! Did you feel good for Christmas?  All the chemo nasties over by then? I am enjoying my days off of work. I go back in tomorrow,(Sat.), actually looking forward to my routine!  With the girls all home, my house is definitely busier! In a good and bad way..haha. I will try and check in with all of you tomorrow.  Sue...see how you are doing. Happy new year to all.  May 2008 be a healthy and healing year for all of us!! xoxo Lisa

my3girls

I missed reading the last page before I posted!  Ulla...I understand so very much how you feel about your appearance!  I felt the same way!! I hated looking in the mirror, and when I did, I kept saying...who is that person?? I would sit and cry and wonder if I would ever look "good" again.  Well, let  me tell you...you will!!  It's hard to imagine while you are in the midst of it all, but you really will look like your old self again!! I promise you!! I am now feeling really good, look allot like I did before dx.  I have hair, curly and short..but it's mine!! Soon, it will be long again..and nobody will know that anything was ever wrong with me.  This too will happen to you!  Only one 2 tx to go!! That is wonderful!! After you are done, your skin will get it's color back and it will not look so dry, your hair will grow..but most importantly...YOU WILL FEEL GOOD AGAIN!!  Gosh...I know how you and Sue and Karen feel....but Mel and Shirlann and I are all here to tell you....this will be a distant memory before you know it!! xoxo Lisa

Lucy1234

SUE!!!

You do know Gone with the wind! "Frankly my dear I don't give a dam!" If you have never heard that tag line before then you must have been on another planet!

I just love vivien Leigh she is the most beautful woman in the world.

Here is picture from the film it kind of shows a bit of the 1800's i suppose?

Hope all went ok today X

honeygirl

Hi Lisa! Glad to here from you , and that you and your girls had a good Christmas.

Yes , I am really glad to have it out. But this morning , when I got up , after having a hotflash night , my nightgown,lol, was "stuck" up on the left,back side of me and I kept pulling at it ,lol and I thought why is it stuck!?! So I put my hand up there and found one of those little sticky circle things they put on during surgery to monitor your heartbeat and after a night of hotflashes , it was "glued" to my skin!lololol Well , rippin' that off woke me up! The front "big" bandage came off this morning the same way! Boy , bodyheat and sticky tape deffinately make glue.lololol The butterfly band-aids will probably never fall off!

OK , enough about me and my comedy of errors , Sue , where are you?... I hope tx went as well as tx can go , maybe you are taking advantage of the "pre yucky" feeling to get somethings done. Hope to hear from you soon.xxxx

See Ulla , Lisa said your avatar looks good too. Now , we are all "sisters" and friends and we would not say something looks good if it doesn't! Did you get your new wig? I hope it makes you feel better.xxxx

You know , years ago , someone gave me a prayer card that said something like "sometimes God strips us naked only to renew us again". I always thought of that when I was going through chemo. After chemo , it starts to get better each day. I pray God renews you in a way that will please you , and you will renew yourself in a way that pleases God. xxxx

sueps

Blerghhhhhhh 

Ding ding another round done ...so thats 3-0 bootface....

Well hellooooooooooooooo lol....xxx

Karyll.... it is so nice to see you...and gone with the wind 27 times....blimey ....  lol...I am going to order a copy from Amazon...since everyone is raving..how comes I never heard about it...lol.....and how did we broach the subject...

Karyll I dont take ativan..or anything before I go for tx....I cannot believe your tx has been postponed again!! Well I guess docs know best and dont want to take the risk....and February sound so much better than June ..for me   I hope you have managed to sort things at work....xxxxx

Shirlann I have another epirubi Red Devil to go....and then 8 cmfs.....

I am so tired tonight...I fell asleep in the car on the way back...Got to the hosp at 830 freaking A.M. and didnt come out til 4 freaking P.M. !!!!  What a day...I guess they were really busy post xmas etc...they do work hard......

I got to see oncy doctor Welsh today.....hes so nice but very guarded.....I showed him my veins on my arm...and told him I had been quadruple tired...so he has given my double the steroids for 5 days....whoooosh...I will be by midweek...lol....He told me to massage the veins with cream and that they would get better afterwards....and it was the epirubi causing the damage....I only have one of those left....

I asked him if I would die....he told me he hoped I wouldnt and my outlook may even be as good without chemo but no one knows....I WISH I DID!!!

So off I went to the chemo suite...I was allowed to carry my own medical notes ...so I spied a long peak....couldnt see much that I already didnt know... next time I will take them and have a cuppa while I study them at the little tearoom ...hahaha

Ok I wore my cap today and when the nurse was administering I pulled it down over my face....I have never ever seen the chemo yet...I just turn to the right and rant at the wall ..all the while....its a good job we had waited almost 5 hours as I was actually too tired for a full blown one.....but rant and cry I did...and cry and cry and rant....and then apopgised and then said thankyou ...lol

The nurse told me  the cost of chemo is astronomical and it wouldnt exist if it didnt work.....etc etc...

oh my I feel like I have been washed and spun....

Please everyone have a snooze for me xxx

Much Love xxx

sueps

YES Poppy I have heard of that saying!!! but I still never heard of the film...who is that actor in that pic....and what on earth the plot of a film of that title lolol..

Melody ...what a lovely saying on the prayer card to go through chemo with....You are ever so thoughtful ...and ever so ever so FUNNY lolol

Lisa....I am so glad you have had a great Christmas with your girls...where does the time go !!!  xxx

I am going to make a cuppa before I go off it for 10 days xxxx

sueps

Oh yes Mr Welsh and the nurses told me to cut down the worklife and to eat more as I had lost weight...Is losing weigh a side effect...last time I had chemo they tried with half the steroids and my big appetite vanished....I hope its nothing sinister!!

Nurse told me to stop googling on the internet...and browse for a holiday instead ..lol...she said I knew too much and nobody could promise the earth....well I have never really googled much since I came here...AT ALL whatsoever...cos you all are all that I need xxx

Feel sick xxx

sueps

"Is gone with the Wind" an American film

...and who was the lovey girl Dorothy played by...I cant quite remember xxx

Ulla

hi dear sue..

i hope u have the least SE after ur treatment today..com on girl its only one red devile left..it will go fast..trust me..

now with my TAXOTERE,,i feel lil bit less,but different  SE,,

i am on the same coactail of karyll and debbie,,,

plz take good care of urself ,,u r lucky to loos wight while i was gaianning more and more since the DX,,,goooshhhh,,am fat..

sweet sue ,,,GONE WITH THE WIND, is an american classic film,,,when u will watch it u feel like u r one of its characters,,u will love,,hate,,get angry,,cry,,scream with them,,,the film is an open invitation for everyone to feel all the human types of feelings ...

it is so romantic too...god help me to remember the name of the actor who was very very famouse one ...god this chemobrain kills me..i know the name of him in the film(RET BATTLER)i lost his real name in the curves of my stupid brain,,forgive me ...

the name of the novel is the same of the film ,,,,

u will know wat it means at the last seen of the film or at the last page of the book,,,it is very deep ,,meanningfull film to be watched after chemo..in my first time i watched it 4 times after i read the book twice,,,

i know by heart where is every single word in the book and every single seen of the film,,wen i watch it now i can tell wat they actors r going to say be4 they open thier mouths,,,can u believe it....???

sue ,,plz take good care of urslef,,,eat well,,,this will end honey...

sueps

Karyll I am so glad your veins have improved....I am relieved to hear this...and yes it is exact same freaking stretching pain...

I am having pains in my heart this evening though...which is worrisome xxx

Ulla .... I am still loving your pic xxx

Have yu ever thought of becoming an actress...you remember lines really well...lol....xxx

I am going to the back door for some air...xxx

Ulla

dear sue here is some info about the film

Gone with the Wind is a 1939 film adapted from Margaret Mitchell's 1936 novel of the same name and directed by Victor Fleming. The epic, set in the American South in and around the time of the Civil War, starred Vivien Leigh, Clark Gable, Leslie Howard and Olivia de Havilland. It told a story of the Civil War and its aftermath from a white Southern point of view.

It was awarded ten Academy Awards, a record that would stand for years. It has been named by the American Film Institute as number four among the top 100 American films of all time. It has sold more tickets than any other film in history. Today it is considered one of the most popular films of all time, and one of the most enduring symbols of the golden age of Hollywood. Adjusting for inflation, the film is the highest grossing of all time

sueps

My goodness...how come I never heard of it....what a gigiantic succesful film...I remember that name Clark Gable ...thanyou for this Ulla.....  xxxxxxx I am so going to order off Amazon.... xxxx

Ulla

The story opens on a large cotton plantation named Tara in rural Georgia in 1861, on the eve of the American Civil War. Scarlett O'Hara is the eldest of three daughters of Irish immigrant Gerald O'Hara and his wife, Ellen. She is seemingly sought after by every young man in the county, except the refined Ashley Wilkes, for whom Scarlett longs. She is upset to hear of Ashley's imminent engagement to his cousin Melanie Hamilton, to be announced the next day at a barbecue at his family's home, the nearby plantation Twelve Oaks.

Clark Gable in Gone with the Wind. Photo: Howard Frank Archives

At Twelve Oaks, she notices she is being admired by a handsome but roguish visitor, Rhett Butler, who had been disowned by his Charleston family. Rhett finds himself in further disfavor among the male guests when, during a discussion of the probability of war, he states that the South has no chance against the superior numbers and industrial might of the North.

When Scarlett is alone with Ashley, she confesses her love for him. He admits he finds Scarlett attractive, but says that he and the gentle Melanie are more compatible. She accuses Ashley of misleading her and slaps him in anger, which is heightened when she realizes that Rhett has overheard the whole conversation. "Sir, you are no gentleman!" she protests, to which he replies, "And you, miss, are no lady!"

The barbecue is disrupted by the announcement that war has broken out, and the men rush to enlist. As Scarlett watches Ashley kiss Melanie goodbye, Melanie's shy young brother Charles Hamilton, with whom Scarlett had been innocently flirting, asks for her hand in marriage before he goes. She consents, they are married, and she is just as quickly widowed when Charles dies not in battle, but of pneumonia.

Scarlett's mother sends her to the Hamilton home in Atlanta to cheer her up, although the O'Haras' outspoken housemaid Mammy tells Scarlett she knows she is going there "like a spider", to wait for Ashley's return. Scarlett and Melanie attend a charity ball in Atlanta, where Rhett makes a surprise appearance. Now he is a heroic blockade runner for the Confederacy. Scarlett shocks Atlanta society by accepting his bid for a dance, even though she is still in mourning. While they dance, Rhett tells her of his intention to win her, which she says will never happen.

The tide of war turns against the Confederacy. Scarlett makes another unsuccessful appeal to Ashley's heart while he is visiting on Christmas furlough. Eight months later, as the city is being besieged by the Union Army in the Battle of Atlanta, Melanie goes into a premature and difficult labor. Scarlett must deliver the child herself. Rhett appears with a horse and wagon to take them out of the city on a perilous journey through the burning depot and warehouse district. He leaves her with a kiss on the road to Tara. She repays him with a slap, to his bemusement, as he goes off to fight with the Confederate Army.

On her journey back home, Scarlett finds Twelve Oaks burned out and deserted. She is relieved to find Tara still standing, but learns that her mother has just died, and her father's mind has begun to crumble under the strain. With Tara pillaged by Union troops, and the fields untended, Scarlett vows she will do anything for the survival of her family and herself: "As God is my witness, I'll never be hungry again!"

sueps

WOW Ulla ...how beautiful.....what a wonderful story....I am going to get this tonight xxx

Ulla

Scarlett sets her family and servants to picking the cotton fields. She also fatally shoots a Union deserter who threatens her during a burglary, and finds gold coins in his haversack. With the defeat of the Confederacy and war's end, Ashley returns from being a prisoner of war. Mammy restrains Scarlett from running to him when he reunites with Melanie. The dispirited Ashley finds he is of little help to Tara, and when Scarlett begs him to run away with her, he confesses his desire for her and kisses her passionately, but says he cannot leave Melanie.

Gerald O'Hara dies after he is thrown from his horse while chasing a Yankee carpetbagger off his property. Scarlett is left to care for the family, and realizes she cannot pay the taxes on Tara. She knows that Rhett is in Atlanta. Believing he is still rich, she has Mammy make an elaborate gown for her from her mother's drapes. However, upon her visit, Rhett tells her his foreign bank accounts have been blocked, and that her attempt to get his money has been in vain. However, as she departs, she encounters her sister's fiancé, the middle-aged Frank Kennedy, who now owns a successful general store and lumber mill.

Soon Scarlett is Mrs. Frank Kennedy. She becomes a hardheaded businesswoman, willing to trade with the despised Yankees and use convict laborers in her mill. When Ashley is about to take a job offer with a bank in the north, Scarlett preys on his weakness by weeping that she needs him to help run the mill; pressured by the sympathetic Melanie, he relents. One day, after Scarlett is attacked while driving alone through a nearby shantytown, Frank, Ashley, and others make a night raid on the shantytown. Ashley is wounded in a melee with Union troops, and Frank is killed.

With Frank's funeral barely over, Rhett visits Scarlett and proposes marriage. Scarlett is aghast at his poor taste, but takes him up on his offer. After a honeymoon in New Orleans, Rhett promises to restore Tara, while Scarlett builds the biggest and most crassly opulent mansion in Atlanta. A daughter, Bonnie, is born. Rhett adores her as a less spoiled version of her mother, and does everything to win the good opinion of Atlanta society for his daughter's sake. Scarlett, still pining for Ashley, lets Rhett know that she wants no more children. In anger, he kicks open the door that separates their bedrooms to show her that he will decide that.

When visiting the mill one day, Scarlett listens to a nostalgic Ashley wish for the simpler days of old that are now gone, and when she consoles him with an embrace, they are spied by two gossips - including Ashley's sister India Wilkes, who has always held a grudge against Scarlett. Scarlett's reputation is again sullied, but Melanie refuses to believe in the rumors, and invites her to Ashley's birthday party. Afterwards, a drunken Rhett tells her he will make her forget Ashley, and sweeps her up the stairs in his arms, telling her, "This is one night you're not turning me out." She awakens the next morning with the look of guilty pleasure, but Rhett returns to apologize for his behavior and offer a divorce. When he returns from a visit to London with Bonnie, Scarlett tells him resentfully that she is pregnant again. After Rhett tells her to "cheer up. Maybe you'll have an 'accident,'" Scarlett lunges at him and, when he steps out of the way, falls down the grand staircase of their home and miscarries.

As Scarlett recovers, and Rhett attempts reconciliation, young Bonnie, as impulsive as her grandfather, dies in a fall from her pony when she attempts to jump a fence. Scarlett and Rhett are devastated and exchange recriminations over her death. Melanie visits to comfort them, but then collapses in labor from a pregnancy she was warned could kill her. On her deathbed, she asks Scarlett to look after Ashley for her, as Scarlett had looked after her for Ashley. With her dying breath, Melanie also tells Scarlett to be kind to Rhett, that he loves her. Outside, Ashley collapses in tears, helpless without his wife. Only then does Scarlett realize that she never could have meant anything to him, and that she had loved something that never really existed.

She runs home to find Rhett packing to leave her, saying it is too late to salvage their marriage. She begs him not to leave, telling him she realizes now that she had loved him all along, that she never really loved Ashley. Rhett tells her that as long as there was Bonnie, whom he could spoil and love unconditionally, as he wished he could with Scarlett, there was a chance that they could have been happy, but now that chance was gone.

As Rhett walks out the door, she begs him, "Rhett, if you go, where shall I go? What shall I do?" He answers,

"

Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn.

"

and turns away. She sits on her stairs and weeps in despair, "What is there that matters?" She then recalls the voice of her father Gerald: "Land's the only thing that matters, it's the only thing that lasts." And Ashley: "Something you love better than me, though you may not know it. Tara." And Rhett: "It's from this you get your strength, the red earth of Tara."

Hope lights Scarlett's face: "Tara! Home. I'll go home, and I'll think of some way to get him back! After all, tomorrow is another day!" In the final scene, Scarlett stands once more, resolute, before Tara.

Ulla

Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn."

is a line from the 1939 film Gone with the Wind starring Clark Gable and Vivien Leigh.

It was spoken by Gable, as Rhett Butler, in his last words to Scarlett O'Hara. It occurs at the end of the film when Scarlett asks Rhett, "Where shall I go? What shall I do?" if he leaves her. The line is memorable not only because it contains a swear word (which was generally not allowed in films of that time period), but because it demonstrates that Rhett has finally given up on Scarlett and no longer cares what happens to her.

This quotation was voted the number one movie line of all time by the American Film Institute 2005.^[1]

In the novel Gone with the Wind, Rhett does not say "Frankly", but simply "My dear, I don't give a damn". The context is also different; he is speaking quietly to Scarlett in a room, not storming dramatically out of the house.

Shah Rukh Khan speaks the same lines in his latest film Om Shanti Om (2007) at a critical juncture, as a tribute to this famous quotation. The movie itself is a tribute to Indian Cinema. It is also used in Tim Burton's Corpse Bride as a humoristic element when the dead walk the earth.

honeygirl

Ulla! You go girl! That was quite a cliff note of the story. Sue , after you watch the movie , you'll be saying things like "fiddle e dee" and when I want to put something off , I say "theres always tomorrow at Tara".lol

Sue , glad your home and only one more red devil. You will feel better after thats done. I'm glad the doc said to take time off work. You really should. Its bad to push yourself when your system is low. I lost 6lbs by the end of my chemo. But when my taste buds came back I ate everything and gained weight. Oh Sue , its almost a new year and in Feb. here , they have a home and garden show and we start thinking of what to plant in the flower gardens. And spring is just around the corner. May will be here soon. And you will be done with chemo.By summer , you will feel soooo much better.

As for now , buckle up and get ready for the week of a rough ride on this darn roller coaster! We are all here riding with you Sue.xxxx Mel

Ulla

dear sweety sue..

i have sent all these things to u just to keep ur beautifull head busy with something nice ,,,,after ur Rx today...

i would like to appologise to our sisters about me loading the thread with all that ,,,,am sorry again but i cant help it ,,i love that film so much...

love u all

Ulla

ty so much for encouraging words MEL...

i did that for sweet sue to make her feel better after her RX ,,,i love to share those detailes of the film,,,,

love u all

my3girls

OH my gosh!! I love that movie too!  Ulla..you are a true fan!! I love Vivian Leigh...I agree with Poppy...she is absolutely stunning!  Clark Gable has always been a favorite of mine.  My middle daughter, if she was a boy, I was going to name her Garrett...and call her Rhett!  After the movie...haha. Sue, sounds like your tx went a little better this time around.  I am not sure if I could have handled it in my veins.  The port was definitely a convenience.  Drink lots tonight and rest, rest rest!  I lost weight Sue, with my first 4 tx's.  I had A/C, and I lost.  Then with my 4 tx's of Taxotere...and steroids...I gained. Melody..what a beautiful prayer card!! I wish I had heard that during my dark and ugly days.  I could have used that. Melody...your comedy of errors were amusing...I can just picture you.  Also...thanks for the pics you put on here.  Love the tree!  Good gift you got.  That is what I need, a good digital camera, dont' have one yet.   Ulla...darling, not sure what you looked like before tx, but your avatar is stunning!  I think you look like a movie star yourself!  Truly!! xoxo My cousin in NY, is a big fan of Gone with the Wind..and she has a huge collection of memorabilia.  Sue...do, rent or buy the movie...well worth it!!!!!!!! Karyll, good to see you again.  Sorry to hear your tx were postponed.  I was like you as well, when it came to reading.  I could not concentrate during chemo time to read anything!! I got several books from friends and family.  I still need to get them off the shelf and read.  But I could watch movies or tele. xoxo Lisa