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  • Loveroflife
    Loveroflife Member Posts: 5,563
    edited January 2016

    Priceless!

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  • Zillsnot4me
    Zillsnot4me Member Posts: 2,687
    edited January 2016

    gorgeous pi

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  • luvmygoats
    luvmygoats Member Posts: 2,942
    edited January 2016

    Thank you Smaarty. Lovely picture.

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  • JunieB
    JunieB Member Posts: 1,023
    edited January 2016

    Beautiful picture Smaarty.

    It got up to 57 degrees here today with gorgeous sunshine for most of it. So grateful for it, because it's supposed to go back to gray and rainy tomorrow.


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  • glennie19
    glennie19 Member Posts: 6,398
    edited January 2016

    great pic!

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  • Smaarty
    Smaarty Member Posts: 2,951
    edited January 2016

    thank you guys! Has everyone dug themselves out? Anybody hear from Deb?

    Queenie, how you healing up? Are you all done now? I go in next week for a yearly checkup. Everything should be fine.

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  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Member Posts: 19,603
    edited January 2016

    Chevy, from back on page 1119, pipeline, I was working towards a prophylactic BMX because of family history. Pipeline---hmm not sure why I know what it means and you don't. Looked it up. In medical circles it means "working towards an end goal". I wanted my boobs off.. Had I not been working to get them off. Likely wouldn't be here. I had a mammo august of 2008 NED see you in one year letter.

    Dec.8th 2008. had MRI. Doc nicely lied about why it needed to be done.

    It had the awful signet ring. Never have a problem over the holidays. Couldn't get anything scheduled fast. But got the bx on jan23rd. and the brain MRi should have been done earlier wasn't accomplished till Jan 20th/21st.

    Both dx's came in at the same time. Not sure why the MO asked a nurse to call me and say" Dr Levine want's you to know that you have a brain tumor" What a sucky thing to say on the phone. I asked her "where?" I don't know. "What type?" I don't know. "What does this mean?" I don't know.. I said "Well, when the shit hit's the fan, I'm leaving for a breast bx that we know is positive'. Closure words forget.

    Dear Greg and I thought we had a solution when we went to the boss. I had him already approved as a volunteer to help me with my homecare paperwork. A first in the volunteer system. He could drive me. Nope she relieved me from duty/work. Chit. Seriuosly, sucky.

    What got me brain disabled..........I was trying to get back to work. I took the brain test 5 weeks after the last surgery. 4 surgeries, an almost killer chemo, Dh with ca & chemo and Arimidex. .I failed the test. FUCK. Retrospectively, DUH. That much messing with the brain........poor brain.

    But as I said before it resulted in me being able to take care of Greg. Poor Greg, God love him. What he went through. 10 admissions, 4 for chemo--each had a fuck up. Then 6 admissions for complications. Then complications with those admissions.

    It was part of why I stared at the ceiling for a year. All I believed and did my whole life was to help................ and then to see so many errors........... trying to make some sense of it.......

    .not sure why it's hitting me so hard right now....

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  • magdalene51
    magdalene51 Member Posts: 2,214
    edited January 2016

    Anniversaries suck. The end.

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  • Smaarty
    Smaarty Member Posts: 2,951
    edited January 2016

    sassy, maybe it's time for bed? Have a little wine. Better yet, go grab Donnie and have him knock your socks off. You need to turn off. And breathe.

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  • PattyPeppermint
    PattyPeppermint Member Posts: 11,162
    edited January 2016

    smarty. Love the pic. Can def tell y'all are related

    Sas. Sorry your getting hit so hard now. Hugs dear friend. Hugs

    Hootie hoo


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  • Cubbie2015
    Cubbie2015 Member Posts: 875
    edited January 2016

    Smaarty, what a cool picture!

    Patty, and Susan, I loved hearing about your relationships with your hubbys. It brightened my day.

    ((((Sas))))

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  • kathindc
    kathindc Member Posts: 2,042
    edited January 2016

    ((((Sas)))), time to step back and take a slow, deep breath. Now let it out slowly. Repeat until you feel calm. Sounds like you have so much on your plate that it makes you remember how nice your life was before your DH's and your diagnosis and wishing you had it back, maybe. Know we all love and care about you.

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  • JunieB
    JunieB Member Posts: 1,023
    edited January 2016

    It's nice to know that when we hit a rough patch there is no judgement and great support here, even when we have to let it all out.

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  • PattyPeppermint
    PattyPeppermint Member Posts: 11,162
    edited January 2016

    Well said

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  • feelingfeline
    feelingfeline Member Posts: 5,664
    edited January 2016

    Smaarty that is so utterly joyous - thank you for sharing that picture.

    Sas hugs to you. Sometimes it is quite incredible what we can get through. You look back and go "how the hell did I manage?" Have you remembered to give yourself a pat on the back for getting through so much? We are quick to spot how great everyone else is. Sometimes it is good to recognise it in oneself.

    XXX

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  • Loveroflife
    Loveroflife Member Posts: 5,563
    edited January 2016

    Ms. Sas, it is good that you are sharing your thoughts. Please don't blame yourself. The guilt is still eating you up inside. You did your best. You were not well yourself. Your are carrying a very heavy burden by yourself that will only beat you down and continue to tear you up inside. Leave it at the altar. Forgive me if I am too blunt. Love you.

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  • JunieB
    JunieB Member Posts: 1,023
    edited January 2016

    PattyP - I've been wanting to ask how/where did you come up with your cute saying "Hootie Hoo"? When I lived in Las Vegas, I worked as a Home Health Aide, and most of my clients were from different parts of the U.S. One lady was from Louisiana and called a toilet brush a "Johnnie Mop". Another lady from NYC called ground beef "chopped meat". There were a couple others, but they escape me right now. So l was just curious as to whether your saying is just something you made up or is it a regional thing?

    Also, since it was so sunny today, it made me feel the longing to see the new blossoms of spring, but since it is still winter everywhere, here is a pic of my lilac tree from last spring.

    image


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  • Jazzygirl
    Jazzygirl Member Posts: 12,533
    edited January 2016

    Smarty- lovely photos of you five gals. How fortunate Evie is to have so many of you to love her!

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  • Chevyboy
    Chevyboy Member Posts: 10,786
    edited January 2016

    That's amazing Smarty! Could even be used for a Christmas Card... Or enlarged for each of you and hanging in a living room! Beauriful memories.

    Sass! I was joking! I was teasing you.... I KNOW what prophylactic is....

    prophylactic

    [proh-fuh-lak-tik, prof-uh-]

    Spell Syllables

    adjective1.defending or protecting from disease or infection, as a drug.

    2. preventive or protective.noun

    3. Medicine/Medical. a prophylactic medicine or measure.

    4. a preventive.

    5. a device, usually a rubber sheath, used to prevent conception or venereal infection; condom.

    So I'm not as stupid as I look!

    Sometimes things just hit us, and we don't understand why.... But we don't have to go through the pain, the same way we did at the time.... It was "yesterday".... and if we can't do anything about bad memories, then we move on.... we sweep old memories away.... and work on building our own special "gardens" of happiness! And we have a lot to be thankful for!

    I mean even Rosie! She was in that black hole, but saw the birds all coming to see her, and it gave her some enjoyment.... It took her out of that place ..... at least for awhile.

    Peppermint and Susan and Blondie, and Rosie.... always in my heart.... have a beautiful day my friends.

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  • Spookiesmom
    Spookiesmom Member Posts: 9,568
    edited January 2016

    much better todayimage

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  • Chevyboy
    Chevyboy Member Posts: 10,786
    edited January 2016

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NVfWa0GioNg

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  • feelingfeline
    feelingfeline Member Posts: 5,664
    edited January 2016

    JazzyJuneBug I wondered about Patty's HootieHoo then I saw that the long time gang on here call themselves the Owlettes so I thought Patty is an Owlette! Now I am really interested to see whether this is the right answer.

    Over to you Patty....

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  • feelingfeline
    feelingfeline Member Posts: 5,664
    edited January 2016

    Chevy that video before the sermon was very beautiful.

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  • PattyPeppermint
    PattyPeppermint Member Posts: 11,162
    edited January 2016

    feekine feline. You are right on. Just made it my closing to all my owlettes.

    Sas. - hoping today finds you in better spirits. Hugs

    Jazzjune - your lilac tree is pretty. I absolutely love the smell of lilacs. Thanks for posting

    Jwoo - hello.

    Susan. Hope you are feeling better today

    Hugs all around.

    Well I was up until 4am. Couldn't sleep due to back pain. Ugh. Def getting a nap today. I've been up and motivated. Already been to store and back and got supper marinading in fridge. Dh is a deer hunter. I have always been really weird about touching or cooking or eating it. I dont like to touch any kind of raw meat. I could be a vegetarian but not my family. Since deer meat is not pumped full of antibiotcs and hormone growth junk, I am trying to find some recipes that we can love. Haven't really found a good one yet. I have plenty recipes to use the ground venison but its the tenderloin I am having trouble with. Any suggestions. ? Today i am trying a bacon wrapped tenderloin recipe. Now it's marinating with brown sugar and soy sauce this evening ill wrap bacon around them and secure it with toothpicks. Coat with s thin layer of white sugar to crisp the bacon and bake it in the oven. Fingers crossed. Thankfully dh and dss will eat almost anything. Not picky eaters. Gonna have some broccoli and cheese with it and a fruit salad. Anyone wanna come over ? I always make too much. Also , got some fresh greens at the store so we can get back to juicing 4-5 times per week. I can def tell the difference when I am not getting enough raw fruits and veggies. Just feel more tired or lazy. I love my nutribullet machine. We used to use a jack lalayne juicer but most of the veggies and fruit were lost in the pulp and thrown away. How wastefull. Anyone else juice ?

    Hootie hoo

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  • susan3
    susan3 Member Posts: 3,728
    edited January 2016

    pp...have been on my big " d" diet since Sunday. There must be better ways to lose weight...lol

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  • Zillsnot4me
    Zillsnot4me Member Posts: 2,687
    edited January 2016

    Have you tried the crockpot? Very tender. Just like a beef roast. Can't remember if they soaked it in buttermilk first. Was a long time ago. I like deer jerky but depends on who makes it. let's us know how it turns out.

    Sas. Big hug. I'm sure weather not helping but you have this big to do so you'll perk up and be off and running. It's ok to grieve. Maybe you didn't have time before. Just know that you've helped many, many, many since then. We don't know why. We will never know why but try not to dwell on it. Easier said than done I know.

    I have a nutribulket too. Haven't found anything that I love. Kids turned off by color. Still feeling my way thru Ibrance. You're not afraid of raw foods? IV chemo was told to stay away from berries and salad bar due to contamination. I'm assuming this is similar? Also told no diets or supplements.

    Tomorrow is my last day of round one! Hoping for some energy by the weekend!

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  • Spookiesmom
    Spookiesmom Member Posts: 9,568
    edited January 2016

    Patty, a BIL goes deer hunting. I think his processor cuts it in chunks for stews, and grinds like hamburger.

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  • PattyPeppermint
    PattyPeppermint Member Posts: 11,162
    edited January 2016

    ive had it is in the crock pot seasoned like roast. Family liked it but not me. The taste was OK but the texture turned me off. Is super thin cut .


    Spookie I told dh to trty to get cut like stew meat this time but he didn't. Ugh. Men. So ground. Tenderloin and sticks of jerky.


    Ivebeen to the processors and came away feeling a little more confident in eating the meat. They are a mennoite family. The place is completely clean and sparkly. They work behind the glass and you can watch the processing part thankfully not removing the meat from carcas. Yuck. Double yuck. Their entire family works there and then kids are homeschooled at night. From about ,8 years old and up they each had a job. Wrapper , cashier. Sweeping up etc. They are genuinely sweet people. They always have samples of different meats from diff animals. I have never ever ever tried one. No way. Dh and dss love it. Might be beef jerky , or pork. Or venison, or lamb. Etc. No thank you. I want to know what I am eating by recognizing it on my plate. Or. Vegsnd fruit they also sell homemade jams, breads. The best ever cinn rolls , etc. Cute little place




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  • feelingfeline
    feelingfeline Member Posts: 5,664
    edited January 2016

    Dh bought the family a juicer at Christmas. Best thing is HE does the washing up afterwards.

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  • PattyPeppermint
    PattyPeppermint Member Posts: 11,162
    edited January 2016

    lol.




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