In shock

Liefie, Lentil soup  please please send   me a bowl, I adore the stuff. In the middle of making big bacon shank soup and your post remoinded me that the split pease needed to soak, thanks.
Dancing naked on tables ha ha. I can' even got on the flippin things these days so my DH is also safe from that sight. x

Jennie just read your post sweetheart, you are sooo not alone I too hit the wall and sobbed for half an hour this morning. DH said there is no way he could do this sxxt we are going through and just let me cry it all out.
He says women are definitely the stronger and braver sex !! Now that is a revelation. I am gobsmacked lol.
Of course we Warrior sisters knew that all along.
Take yourself to the stream in our meadow, lie on the warm grass, close your eyes and listen to the water. It moves on over every obstacle and so will you and arrive sparkling and alive at the other end.
Big ((( HUG ))) XX

All other sisters back to straightening out onto last room YAY. Catch up later.x

Awww Jennie, you've got that 'set adrift' feeling now that chemo is done. Most of us struggle to find our equilibrium after that, because we've been in the active treatment stage. We've psyched ourselves up for this chemical warfare to beat this enemy, and then it is suddenly over. What an anticlimax, right?

I had 4 cycles of the exact same chemo as you. It took about 3 months post chemo to get back some energy, to get rid of the stiffness and weakness in my leg muscles, that breathless feeling and the racing heart. Chemo wrings everything out of you, and it takes time for your battered body to heal and recover from the collateral damage. Also did rads during that time period. I guess that you also have to do rads? Just take it one day at a time, be very kind to yourself, and cry when you feel like it. This thing has to run its course, and you cannot force it. It is better to just relax, and keep busy with whatever activities you can manage even it if is very little. Don't beat yourself up. Rest when you need to, and don't let anybody make you feel guilty if stuff does not get done immediately. You have the rest of your life to do it. During rads I slept more than I had ever slept in my life before, often 12 hours per night. But that's what my body needed to cope with everything it had gone through. You will begin to feel stronger physically and mentally, just give it some time. (((((Big Hugs!!!))))

lol was thinking the same thing liefie, Im here , 4pm and waiting for ds to wake up and dh to come home from work!

Well, lets think where the girls will be at............

Edi's DH probably sat on her notebook where she hides it under the pillow on the couch because she didn't want her catching him this morning when coming down stairs for a cuppa.!! so she is putting on her lippy in a few hours getting ready to complete a cycle of CMF

Dakota is just soaking up the peace and quiet now that she has changed the locks on that cockroach!

Nihahi well she is in the mountains taking pics for us all to admire!

Benny, is visiting her big plush then home to peel potatoes and relaxing

Websister is busy with life and plodding along with her radiation.....;)

Carlads is busy with her gorgeous GD

Everyone else just happily plodding along as we do best .

Well last chemo for me tomorrow party hats on girls.......Tracey is going out with a bang.....lol.

Hope you are all enjoying whatever you are doing and everyone is feeling as well as can be

Traii, your description of what everybody is/was doing is probably spot on. It means they're getting on with life, which is a good thing. Will be in your pocket tomorrow for your last chemo - what an accomplishment! It sucks that you are now left high and dry as to the surgery date. One wants to get it over and done with. Oh well, fingers crossed it will still be May 9. Mine is scheduled for May 21, and my PS is going off for four months starting June. We are guessing she's having a baby. If anything goes wrong with my May date, I will also be looking at a much later date when she comes back again in October. I am so ready to get rid of this TE.

Edi, will be with you too for the CMF. I really hope Traii is wrong about DH sitting on your notebook . . . hopefully it is still working? LOL.

This morning I hurt my back stretching from the couch to get something from the coffee table. It is an old muscle injury that plagues me every few weeks. When I regularly do yoga, I don't have this problem at all. That's why I started yoga in the first place, but I have not done it for a month. There were other things that had to be done, so I missed my classes. Sitting here with a microwave-heated bag of beans on the sore spot for relief. Should not have missed those classes . . . I can kick myself.

Thanks Caitlin

Liefie, Lets hope fingers crossed your surgery goes as planned too May 21st and mine May 9th so we can get this over and done with and you can say bye bye to those TEs!!

Good Morning cyber mummy Edi, Enjoy your tattooing......it doesn't hurt I still have my 3 dots on me from back when I was 18....they are my " I survived Hodkgins Disease ' trademarks ...... (dots may have gotten bigger with 'body expansion'..) lol.

Love to all......

Hi ladies !!!

My life went from crazy to even more crazy. Can't elaborate but it's nuts!!!! Wish I was relaxing!!! Traii !!!!

So excited for u and edi!!!

Lie fie - hope ur back feels better!!

Hope everyone is great !!

Love and hugs !!!!

I'm here.  Hibernating with a nasty cold.  Haven't been sick in over a year (well, not counting BC).  Seems I read and want to post but just don't.

Traii - I get all confused on times.  I think it must be about 3:30 am your time so I guess your last chemo is done.  WOOHOO.  OK I admit I had to cheat and look at a world time clock.  Hope date for surgery doesn't get changed.  So Liefie is getting TE's exchanged.  I forget what you are having.

Sheryl - Your last chemo is wow, like next week.  Congratulations.

Liefie - sorry about the sore back.  Hope you get back to your yoga soon.  Love living in the country but so far to get to anything.  My cancer center has yoga on Tuesday nights 6 pm but it's prob. like an hour drive that time of day.  We have a fitness center in town but I don't think they do anything specialized, just equipment.  And I am a SLOTH.  No sense paying money for something I would prob. never make myself get up and do.

Websister - Love your new avatar.  I have read part way through your blog up through the early part of this year.  You and Liefie need to get together and write something.  How is your mom doing?  Sorry, have lost count but you must be more than 1/2 way thru rads.

Dakota - Hope the new crazy is an improving crazy.  Congrats on lock change.  Hope not DH is not the source of crazy but bad suspicion he is.

Edi - I have been living on hot tea/toast.  Can't stand coffee when I'm sick and usually drink several cups.  DH needed a small item to complete his Amazon order to get free shipping.  I had him order 180 (Yes 180) Yorkshire gold teabags.  That ought to keep me in tea for a while.  Though I did have to switch to herbal last evening.  Yuck.  So - getting tats for rads.  Doesn't that sound like a rap song?  Repeat over several times to a snappy beat.  When is your chemo done?  Loved pics of new redecorated bedroom.  OOOH-LA-LA.  Lovd GD's picture on "proper horse".  She's adorable.

Caitlin - Reading back is see you're due another round on Thursday??  In your pockets, girl.

Nihahi - Out enjoying the landscapes??

Scottie - How's is your son doing?  When is he to wear the monitor?  In US we generally call them Holter monitors (I'm sure Holter was a brand name that has become a generic term).  I had one years ago for 24 hours but a lady from church just had one for a week.  Yegads - I would itch to death from the leads by that time.  They did have what is called an "event timer" so pt could note unusual symptoms.

Jennie - Welcome.  I think most will agree rads was annoying but do-able.  Esp. if you've already endured chemo.  Not minimizing that some women do have a very bad time with it but most don't.  Lube, lube, lube.  My RO loved Aquaphor which did wash out of everything; who'd have thought it would.  I used cheap cami's from dollar store.

Still on baby goat watch.  No action yet.

Benny - Hope you are out enjoying giant plush toy.

Dakota, I think bc was a good practise run for what you are dealing with now. You survived and came through that, so whatever that insect throws at you, you will handle. Must be really unpleasant, but just know that we are all on your side. You have my admiration for the way you are forging ahead. Big hugs!

Still have the heated bag on the sore back. It is usually stiff and sore when I wake up, but gets better as the day wears on. It will go away by Thursday or so - it's happened so often in the past that I know exactly what to expect. It's more irritating than anything else.

Edi, hope  CMF, mapping and tats went well.

Traii - you're DONE! YAAAYYYYY!!!!!!! WHat a good feeling, hey?

Jennie, are you feeling better?

Traii, you will be all done by now, Congratulations !! Finish c tablets on your b/day the 12th is that right. ?
What a relief I had a really lovely 5 hours at hossy today. CMF administered by a nurse just learning chemo. The boss lady watched her like a hawk but she was so sweet and gentle Edi breezed thru.
Mapping and tats a doodle as everyone says it will be. Went thru scanner and she put my right arm in a cuff above my head. Feel like I am in " fifty shades of grey " says I. Hysterics had by us both lol.
Took a leaf from your book, as I was having my treatment sweet lady with terrified expression sits in next chair. She sat quietly and when mine was done I asked if she was ok.
Just nervous first one she says, but after listening to you and hearing your stories of how people fall over when they see your baldy head I am no longer afraid because you are looking and sounding so normal. Gave her some of my lemon sherbets and blew her a kiss on way out. Hope to bump into her next time.
Two tats wanted butterflies but noooo.
Weeps are a nuisance as they bugger up my mascara, keeps DH on his toes tho.
Think split peas not that nice really, may stick to lentils.
My DH snores on his back /side/ front any way up. Can you send DS to push him off the bed please ?
Love the swings too might take GD after school Thursday love that feeling of being a kid again too.
Think you may be up and about by now if I have my days mixed up which chemo brain does, and it is Wednesday, in your pockets.
Love you lots like jelly tots x

Liefie, good advice for Jennie, hope date for your op is the one you want. You and Traii going through this one together with us all there cheering you on.

Jennie, head for that happy place, it is waiting for you xx

Dakota, in my thoughts every day, Edith esther sends her love x

Nihahi, hope to see those pics soon x

Benny, hope you having some normality in your life x

Websister, hope rads going well, Love the hair xx

Carla, Had my GD here for tea today, they are a tonic aren't they x

Caitlin, hope you slept wellx

Sheryl 14/3 happy days x

Luvmy.Hope back does ease soon. What is holding up baby goats.? x

DH back in with face like jar of worms,see you all in the morning xxx

Traii, go cyber baby girl !! Woo Hoo thrilled for you. knew I had my days wrong lol.

Thinking of you as I munch on a choc ice, can't face dinner too hyper, LOVE those steroids just not the splat tomorrow.x

Traii - OK, I had my days wrong too.  I believe according to my world clock it is 9:06 am.  In your pocket TODAY.  You go, girl.

Edi - Enjoy the steroid high.  Or maybe not knowing the crash is coming. Just spent the last hour and a half off and on watching pair of red tailed hawks first in front yard, then in back.  Non-productive day.  Read the paper and laundry on.  Now that's no great feat as laundry is just the other side of dining room table.  Only 2 cups (large ones) of tea.  Of course, no tomato soup in house.  Just what I crave with a cold.

Don't know what's holding up the babies.  First one could have kidded yesterday but 2 weeks either way of that date; I saw her bred.  Only know when I took Mr. Bucky Boy out of pen for the last one as they were like teenagers and sneaky.  See no imminent signs in either.  Have yet to miss a kidding and don't want to start but darn it could interfere with my life.

DD has asked me to the Dallas Stars hockey game March 23.  Would have to spend the night at her apt.  Co. they do business with gets a suite with luscious food of course so they will do more business with them.  Didn't feel up to it last year but had much fun the year b4.  Darn goats, get with it.  Of course, DH was off this past weekend.  Will they do it when he is off to help??  NOOO. But he has been the goat midwife the last 2 years when I was at work.  He is off Friday so I still have a little hope.  At least warming up towards the end of the week.  I have heat lamps out there but they are minimal and usually replace with real lights so I can see.  So warmer is better.

Hi everybody....yes again, MIA.....I'm 85% recovered, which is great, just would like to

have a bit more energy for my very large class of students. I have 40 on my register!!!!!

We have March break here next week and I'm going to a cottage for a few days with a lovely women I met on here. She is an office manager in a large high school so will be off

for a week also. She lives about a 45 minute drive just outside of Toronto. We will go for walks, watch movies, cook and eat....heaven.....no men around.....lol



Luvmygoats...thanks for asking about Andrew...he is still waiting to hear from the hospital

about his monitor....he will probably phone them tomorrow to find out what's going on.



Dakota....stay brave and strong.....you can do it girl ❤



Trail....so happy your chemo is at an end....congrats



Edi and everybody else....luv ya and thinking about you all ❤

Hey ladies,

Thanks for all the well wishes for my last chemo next week. I am starting to get excited and just want to do it now. Then I can get to recuperating and ready for my 6 weeks of rads.

Hugs, Sheryl

Websister, you had me worried there for a moment with that wheelchair going downhill, but good for you for hanging on. It's good news about the hip having healed so well. Hopefully your mom's life will settle down now, and she will enjoy her new place of residence. I just 'tested' the back by putting on some fifties rock and roll, and doing some cardio around the kitchen island. Seems I can resume normal exercise tomorrow. Yes, rads make you tired. I could never figure out why. Slept more during that time than ever before in my life. Sweet dreams!

Luvmygoats, being midwife to those goat 'ladies' sounds interesting . . . hope they don't keep you in suspense much longer. Goat babies are so adorable, but I'm just glad I'm not that first timer goat mama - LOL!

Traii, sleep ha what is that ? was hyper until one am. Caught up on loads of TV recordings that DH doesn't like.
Went up and lay there listening to road drill. Finally slept then the water works kicked in. After that at 4am lay there until 5 and now down here mug of tea in hand. Gonna pay for this later .
Hope all went well at hospital ? like websister loved the CD and the fact we could get parked.x

Scottie, 40 students !! That is like rent a crowd lol. You try and not get too knackered.
Cottage break sounds idyllic. Best part NO MEN. My DH is at his guitar playing mates house today so can do what I want. Calling to see my lovely friend this afternoon and catch up, she has just become a Nan to twins, can't wait to see pics.
Hope yous DS son gets monitor soon and all is well.x

Luvmy, you are going to be soooo busy. Hope they all arrive in time for you to have that Hockey getawayx

Sheryl, nearly there !! Rads even tho tiring I believe MUST be better than chemo. x

Websister, Mental pic of you hanging onto Mum's wheelchair had me in stitches. Glad you both got there in one piece.
Perhaps now she knows all healed well, Mum will have a bit more confidence.x

Liefie, glad back is up to dancing and excercise again x

Nihahi, Great you are back, we need ALL the details of what you got up to. x

Benny, hope you have had a go at thoses chips. I tried some plain ones the other day but can't manage yet. x

Carla, Caitlin, Bearcub, Jennie, Dakota and all you giddy kippers. Edi is going to make another gallon of tea and maybe snooze on sofa while road drill hogs the bed upstairs.

This will give you all a giggle, wrinkly butt and mate finished my bathroom whilst I was at hospital.
Thought I would have a lovely bubbly soak, turn on tap and lo and behold COLD water hurtles out. Boiler buggered  DH knew it was dodgy but spent the day at house opposite hanging gates with our lovely neighbour, He didn't have time to ring the Gas people !! what the Fxxk. Then sits down after his dinner complaining how weary he is," walk a mile in my shoes" was on the tip of my tongue.But didn't have the strength for a row lol x