2012 sisters

Hi!  Just joined this site, and happy (weird choice of words, I know...) to join this community of strong women who "get it."  The relevant details of my diagnosis and current treatment plan are in my signature.  Lots that I don't know right now, but more will known in the coming weeks.

 Good luck to everyone as we get through this first year of diagnosis together.

Hi Everyone!

I was away for a few days and wow, so much to read.

Excited tonight.  I got the pathology results back from the radiologist and my BS and the 2 thyroid cysts that were biopsied last Thursday came back B9.  Yay!!  I'm doing the happy dance tonight.  Thank goodness for some great news (finally).

Take care everyone and welcome to all of the newbies!

Hi all

Welcome to everyone that is new, seems that status wears off very quickly, this is a very accepting group of ladies.

Teeballmom - wonderful to hear, it must be such a relief.

Ramols - last evening was not my best either, I was into the 'this isn't fair ' mode of thinking. I'd stupidly started reading about all the various chemo drugs, wondering what my pathology from surgery would show and which chemo I would get. Then, as if I wasn't scared enough, I went and watched a YouTube video of my surgery. I ended up nauseated and shaking and my poor husband was crying as he didn't know how to help me. Don't recommend doing this. Too much information all at once, still recovering from the surgery and fragile.

Lesson learned - the hard way.

To all the new ladies - sorry you have to be here, but happy you found us.    This for me is a safe haven where you can laugh, cry, bitch, yell - whatever you need to share.

Jpmom.   You look absolutely beautiful.  Yes, just some big funky earings.   Great news, the absolute best news about your results... doing the happy dance.

Lisa - hope the taxotears clear up soon - I find that the most annoying SE.

Websister - love your avatar - beautiful lady.    Dunno how you could watch a video of your surgery, yikes !

And as for dense breasts... I had a 8cm+ tumor that hardly showed up in a mammo. They showed me the images and it was really hard to see.  

I really think its a crap shoot about who gets cancer and who doesn't.   A colleague of mine at work - ate healthy, most probably drank the equivalent to a bottle of wine over a year - she actually completed Ironman 2 years ago that's how healthy she was, she got bc.    Remember, dont look back, you're not going that way.

Lostinmo... see my thoughts for sending rain your way didn't work - sorry ! and sorry about the candy bar too.

Cindy.. thanks for sharing.

Ramols - sending {{{{{hugs}}}}}} your way.  

Teeballmom... yay - happy dancing with you.

Well last night must've been a "pity party" night... I had a major meltdown and all started when I pulled a closet door closed and caught my fingernail on the edge.  About a quarter of the nail pulled away - it bloody hurt too (and I wore frozen gloves during my taxotere tx).   So course everything  and anything made me cry or angry or both together.     Emotions seem so close to the surface these days.

Today is a new day and yes we can kick cancers butt !!

If I have missed anyone sorry but here's to positive vibes to you all. 

Take care everyone and hope you are all managing to enjoy your days.

forgot to mention (chemo brain ) I will be seeing my MO every 3 months too.  But mine is because I am taking part in a clinical trial for denosumab.  They are hoping that it is effective in delaying th spread of the cancer to the bones and if it delays relapse too.   Because I am at such a high risk of recurrance, I have to be honest, I was quite happy to be able to see my MO that often.   Plus I am lucky that I actually work at our local hospital and the cancer agency is attached so it is no inconvenience to me.

I seem to have missed a bunch of posts, I must have forgotten to refresh. Dianaprince, welcome. You are so recently diagnosed, I hope you find this site as helpful as the rest of us. Your head must be spinning. I am glad you got on here so fast. It took me months to want to look and I wished I had done it sooner.



Teeball, yay! I couldn't be happier for you!



Websister, here you are feeling better. I definitely believe there can be too much information out there sometimes. We have those days. Vent away! Tie is all still so fsh for you too. You haven't had any time to process this information and have already had surgery. It's good that things move fast but it's hard to process. I hope it calms down for you!



Hugs to all that need them!



I just ran a mile. I might pay for it later, but it felt great. This stuff does get better. Fight on sisters!

Way to go JP - a mile with a smile  

These is 11 days PFC for me and I feel really good today - will not be running a mile though

DianaNM...you so get a lot of brownie points for knowing who Diana Prince is!  Let your geek flag fly...right next to mine!

Welcome to all the new folks that have to join us because of this stinky cancer crap and Hi to all my ol' buddies (I miss you!). I have company staying with me so I haven't had much time to get caught up but I hope there are lots of happy dances going on . OMG I am about ready to call it quits on these fills because they are starting to feel like Ostrich eggs have been squeezed under the muscle even though they aren't ostrich egg size yet. LOL the fills didn't hurt until now since I'm getting closer to the end. Infact I've actually taken more pain meds today and yesterday after yesterdays fill than I think I did after my dmx.Tazzy there is a price to pay for perky tofurky but I'm sure it will be well worth it! When my husband hugged me before going off to work this am he was afraid I was going to burst. Talk about hard, ouch. Well I'm going to go see if I can find a comfy way to sit for the next day or two. I'm getting so top heavy now in this "bra of steel" that I'm tipping forward at my desk. THose of you with TEs or getting TEs will be in my position before you know it! Fun fun. Take care all.

So much going on, I had to take notes while reading all that I have missed today to remember what I want to write down!

To all the new folks joining - welcome. I am sorry you're on this journey - but you found the right place for relief and comfort. And about all that dense breast talk - what is it with dense breasts? I was told the same thing. And my tumor did not show on my mamo - only on the sono. So odd... Thanks all for your hugs -I felt them, I did. Sorry to hear others of you were in the angry club last night too. My poor husband took the brunt of it - but he's a trooper. Feeling much better today. Spent my entire morning doing pre-surgery and genetics stuff, and badgered the nurse for her version of my PET scan results since the dr. is on vacay. After stressing that she's not qualified to do this - she said she didn't see anything alarming or that would change the course of my surgery. I'll have to wait until Thurs or Fri for the dr. to confirm - but I'll do a mini happy dance for the moment.

teeballmom - mucho congrats on your results, that's awesome!

lostinmo - sorry to hear about your sleep woes. I'll admit these days i sometimes pop a 1/2 xanax before bed to shut my brain off and that lets me sleep. But then again - i have no SEs to deal with yet... Good luck tonight!

websister - the anger and why me phase is so hard. i am newly diagnosed as well and it creeps up on me even though I try to push it away. let it out here whenever you need to. sending gigantic hugs your way.

jpmom - you are a true rock star! I love that you're rocking your hair as is - you look beautiful. And you ran a mile - go you! And as for the nanny thing - you are right, it is the hardest part of being a working mom. I want to put a protective bubble over my boys - especially my smart and perceptive 4 year old - for the next 6 months to shield him from all that is going on. All I want to do is keep their lives normal - and so many things out of my control are not letting me do that. It's a crappy feeling. But kids are resilient and he will be fine. I know this - but in crashes the mommy guilt... Thanks for sharing your stories. Oh - and your earlier comments about your itty bitty titties had me cracking up. My mother-in-law keeps commenting how she can't believe two tiny little things are causing such big problems!

tazzy - glad you're feeling better every day, but sorry to hear the angry bug bit you too yesterday. Sending gigantic hugs your way too. And good luck with that fingernail!

2friedeggs - sorry to hear about all the TE pain. I'm gonna need your help with all this, as I'm getting TEs put in next week when I have my mastectomy. Both sides. Sounds like i'll be needing some major pain pills...

Hope I didn't forget anyone. Feel good and rest up lovely ladies!

Ramois Best wishes for a speedy recovery next week. I hope your dmx goes as well and as basically painless as mine did. I just really needed pain meds after the bmx for a couple days and I was out and about. I had an allergy to the steristrips which caused havoc with the skin and post poned the fills but once i got started on those, they weren't bad at all until these last two. (now I'm glad I didn't use up all my meds cause I am taking some now and sitting up to sleep) lol

Its weird because they are so dang hard! I'm afraid if someone runs into one I'm going to hurt them. LOL Man I'm starting to feel like one of those old movie stars that did the cross your heart bra commercials! If I could swim I sure as heck wouldnt need the scrubbies anymore but I would be afraid I'd sink and drown with these cement blocks on my chest!

Teeballmom-Happy dance with you too!

2FriedEggs-Missed you too! Glad to hear from you and sorry about your TEs trouble, I've heard a lot of ladies saying that their TE's are very uncomfortable at their last fills, hops yours will become a little more bearable until your exchange. 

Wow - TE fills sound a lot like engorged nursing boobs. Hard as a rock and super duper tender to the touch. My first son used to flail his little legs on the changing table and kick me but good in my super engorged boobs and I'd double over in pain. I guess I could deal with that for a bit again if it means I get nice cancer-free boobs at the end...

Sending you all good vibes for a long and restful night sleep. To those of you in the States - hope you have a lovely 4th of July tomorrow. We're going to a pool party and I realized it will likely be the last time I parade around with my old boobs in one of my old bathing suits. Very odd thought... 

Oh - and do I really need to ready the 5 million pamphlets they gave me at my pre-surgical visit today???