I Come to the Garden...

I began my prayer at dinner yesterday with "Happy Birthday, Jesus." and could barely continue, I was so caught up in the emotion of it all.  I hope that you all were able to be joyous & "in the moment" yesterday.

Padiddle (still love that screen name!) I am soooooooooo sorry you are on the recovery road yet again.  Cast your cares..................

We are running up to a brand new year, yet again!  I hope that collectively we can breathe a sigh that 2011 is done & that 2012 will be better in all ways.

Rejoice for the King of Kings is still in charge! 

Prayers and love to all who are facing surgery and further treatment, God will be holding you through it all.. I want to wish each of you a Happy New Year and to let you know that I will not be on the boards much over the next few months as I will be working long hours with my new job and trying to help DD with Sam @ least 2x's a week until spring. I will read whenever I get the time though. I am excited to start my job with Hospice, in the beginning of my career I worked in the nursery and now I will have the privilege of being there when people make their return trip home.

Love and Hugs,

Linda

I come to the Garden to pray.  But first, PADIDDLE, thank you for consoling me in the loss of one of my dogs back in the late summer.  I just now have returned and saw your post, so thank you.  GG

Heavenly Father, a lamentation for You to listen to,

Lord, you know my thoughts before I speak them, but I say things to honor You and recognize the miracles you make for us daily.  I have been in such turmoil the last couple days, I cannot seem to be moderate in my conversations, I am filled with anxiety, I run into walls, I am overcome with fear.  I try to count my blessings, but in this world of survival, I forget them all.  Lord, help me to find peace within, so that when I encounter difficulties, I can endure them without lamenting too long, for we are all but sheep in the Good Shepherd's flock, and all we need to do is follow, follow. 

Heavenly father, our other dog passed two months ago, so now both are dogs are walking in heaven, beside the Lord God Almighty, he is their protector until I come to heaven, too.  I began a medicine I have to take for years, and after just two weeks, I am an emotional wreck, I miss my dogs so much, I cannot see well for all the tears in my eyes, sorrow from within.  I knew this would happen, but I am trying to do what is best to survive this awful disease that has visited on me and my family and my friends.  And so, I have also had trouble from without, for twice now I found myself upset when some weakness from another has hurt a friend and myself.  Please forgive me my unsettled thoughts and I ask again that you give me Your peace, so I will not tarry too long in difficult situations.  Release me, Lord, from these conflicts and from my constant grieving sorrow.  Because of these things, I am finding it hard to see the good all around me in this world, which I easily see when I'm in your spiritual place that we all strive to be in, but I am so blinded by petty nothings and loss, that sometimes I wander away, lost, when if I only reached out with my faith, I would be saved. 

Tears well up in my eyes more than ever with this medicine, so that every time I look at where our dogs used to be, I am overcome with emotion when I think they are just outside but the door is closed, sadness from this great loss has harmed myself and husband, we can barely stand or speak.  But heavenly Father, I also want to thank you for the new hope that will soon fill our hearts, as we have planned to get a new pup from the shelter, to give that dog a home and all the love he could ever want, next month we'll finally clean our house, we've been too preoccupied with so many troubles to worry with dust and dirt and clutter, and so once the house is ready, and we've re-read all our dog books on raising one, we'll take on the blessed responsibility of a new dog.  I pray earnestly, in the name of Jesus Christ, that you will send me some angels to help husband and I clean our house, not to put it off, to go at it knowing the result will be the reward, and that a puppy follows, just as we might follow the Good Shepherd in everything we do.  Then finally harmony will be restored to our hearts and our home.

I am heavy in heart, Lord, I pray and pray and my eyes are still filled with tears.  So please, Lord, give me your peace, give me the will to do what I must, and give me your forgiveness for my confused state.  God bless this world, bless this forum that lets me pray openly in the Garden, and bless all people who struggle with problems much larger than mine.  I pray as I always pray, in the words of the song, "When morning fills the skies, my heart awakening cries, may Jesus Christ be saved," and in honor of and in the beautiful name of Jesus Christ, I pray these things so you will know and everyone will know that I believe in the reality of Your Grace.  Amen.

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Thanks sweetie

i don;t know how to do the links to you tube.. try going to you tube  Lance Perry: he's an incredible guy, does all " the old hymns" barbershop style ALL by HIMSELF.. i'm finding a lot of relief listening... hope that helps you all...

  I too, find this day/eve very bittersweet. the songs, the prayers, the fellowship here is beyond words!.3jays

GG,,,,where do you live? If I know someone in your area I know they will be the angel you need to be the arms to embrace you and to help you out. I pray too that God will encourage you and hold you through all you are going through. I pray that God will free you of cancer and you health, energy and encouragement. In Jesus tender and forever love. E

also...if you belong to a fellowship or Church let them know your prayer request...hopefully they will surround you with all you need...food, service and clean your home.

How is Barb?

I would also appreciate your prayers for quick recovery for the recent mx and reconstruction.

Barb, I am so sorry for your heart problem. I will definately keep you in prayer. You are always there for us. Keep us in touch to how you are doing. Know that you are loved ((((hugs))))

And, yes, recovery with reconstruction from a mx is hard. If I knew how painful it would be and how long it takes to recover I might not have done it. I feel so helpless. I know you understand. I am not used to be waited on or doing nothing but find life on my laptop...that is when I'm awake. Today, I do feel a little stronger.

thanks, Meece: i thought it was a great viual of the 3 boys who dont want to hear, discuss, or look me straight in the eye, with the bc..hahaha

   am praying for both Barbe, and evebarry..

  today i was "telling God in my meditations that i am wonderfully made, and asking for a dr who understood at least the thyroid part of it !hahaha i've "stepped up my game spiritually, so i know thats' one of the reasons the Lord hasallowed this in my life.... i got a new "life verse " from springtimes signature.. its right where i can see from my bed, and it really helps me, all day, everyday...

   Lately, i've been following a lesson on " the diciple who He loves" and its helped me, also.. concenraring on how much He loves me, reminds me.. i love Him so much.. so thats' encouraging me, in this hard time.. I really do need only to pay attention to the one right thing.......3jays

I am so glad although we face problems that we have a problem solver.