I Come to the Garden...

3jaysmom

Jean, im sorry you had to have more surgery, bWest Tisbury, for years, then moved to Fla bf they passed...

   i hope you do find the dolace you find you need so much.. i love that He holds us under His wings.. there's a scripture, i forget where now, (its  late, and im bad a \t verses) but it says He "dandles " us "on His knee"...

   i always cling to that verse, when im down, or afraid.. i know how I rock my grands, and wiggle my knees.. i wonder how that really feels, from Thefather?? i omagine the comfort in it, all the time..

  wishing you all a Blessed Christmas.. im listening to "Mary Did You Know" by Kathy Mattea tonight.. sorry, can't do "linkys" its a beautiful song........3jays 

Eph3_12

I began my prayer at dinner yesterday with "Happy Birthday, Jesus." and could barely continue, I was so caught up in the emotion of it all.  I hope that you all were able to be joyous & "in the moment" yesterday.

Padiddle (still love that screen name!) I am soooooooooo sorry you are on the recovery road yet again.  Cast your cares..................

We are running up to a brand new year, yet again!  I hope that collectively we can breathe a sigh that 2011 is done & that 2012 will be better in all ways.

Rejoice for the King of Kings is still in charge! 

Hindsfeet

Sweet Ladies, I would appreciate your prayers tomorrow afternoon Pacific Standard Time. I'm going in for the right breast mastectomy with reconstruction. I'm not sure right now if its a bilmx or uni. The bc wants me to do a blmx. Please pray that God's will be done. Pray that I will have the right mind and wisdom through this whole experience. Pray that my eyes will be fixed on Jesus the author and perfector of our faith. I only want to honor Him, even in my weakness...and my time at the hospital....so in our trials, I will cast myself into His loving arms, resting in His perfect love.

Thank you and a blessed holiday to all of you and your families

Meece

Evebarry, you are in my prayers.  May His will be made known to you and your surgeon and may you be at peace with the final decision.

Welcome, macatacmv! Glad your children are stepping up as you continue to recover.

Padiddle, Lurking isn't a bad thing, and if you read my posts, you KNOW that sometimes I don't know what to say.  As usual, i tend to say something anyway and you lovely ladies accept me anyway.

Barbe and Eph, I will be awaiting your first draft, because I want to read your novel.  If you ever get a chance, I recommend reading "The Red Tent."  It is written from the perspective of Dinah, the daughter of Jacob and Leah.  There is a lot of artistic license used, but we don't have enough info to make a full story without it.  I think Mary's story would be very interesting.

barbe1958

I'm sure I read The Red Tent. Isn't that where the women went when they had their periods and they got to rest? In the Jewish religion is it considered impure to handle food while on your period? Am I mixing up a whole bunch of ideologies??

Eve, you are in my prayers. Please let us know when you can how you did.

OG56

Prayers and love to all who are facing surgery and further treatment, God will be holding you through it all.. I want to wish each of you a Happy New Year and to let you know that I will not be on the boards much over the next few months as I will be working long hours with my new job and trying to help DD with Sam @ least 2x's a week until spring. I will read whenever I get the time though. I am excited to start my job with Hospice, in the beginning of my career I worked in the nursery and now I will have the privilege of being there when people make their return trip home.

Love and Hugs,

Linda

3jaysmom

praying for you, eve barry.. i'll miss you OG; but its so good that you're working with hospice.. it takes special peole to be there, and i know you'll be one.............3jays

dogeyed

I come to the Garden to pray.  But first, PADIDDLE, thank you for consoling me in the loss of one of my dogs back in the late summer.  I just now have returned and saw your post, so thank you.  GG

Heavenly Father, a lamentation for You to listen to,

Lord, you know my thoughts before I speak them, but I say things to honor You and recognize the miracles you make for us daily.  I have been in such turmoil the last couple days, I cannot seem to be moderate in my conversations, I am filled with anxiety, I run into walls, I am overcome with fear.  I try to count my blessings, but in this world of survival, I forget them all.  Lord, help me to find peace within, so that when I encounter difficulties, I can endure them without lamenting too long, for we are all but sheep in the Good Shepherd's flock, and all we need to do is follow, follow. 

Heavenly father, our other dog passed two months ago, so now both are dogs are walking in heaven, beside the Lord God Almighty, he is their protector until I come to heaven, too.  I began a medicine I have to take for years, and after just two weeks, I am an emotional wreck, I miss my dogs so much, I cannot see well for all the tears in my eyes, sorrow from within.  I knew this would happen, but I am trying to do what is best to survive this awful disease that has visited on me and my family and my friends.  And so, I have also had trouble from without, for twice now I found myself upset when some weakness from another has hurt a friend and myself.  Please forgive me my unsettled thoughts and I ask again that you give me Your peace, so I will not tarry too long in difficult situations.  Release me, Lord, from these conflicts and from my constant grieving sorrow.  Because of these things, I am finding it hard to see the good all around me in this world, which I easily see when I'm in your spiritual place that we all strive to be in, but I am so blinded by petty nothings and loss, that sometimes I wander away, lost, when if I only reached out with my faith, I would be saved. 

Tears well up in my eyes more than ever with this medicine, so that every time I look at where our dogs used to be, I am overcome with emotion when I think they are just outside but the door is closed, sadness from this great loss has harmed myself and husband, we can barely stand or speak.  But heavenly Father, I also want to thank you for the new hope that will soon fill our hearts, as we have planned to get a new pup from the shelter, to give that dog a home and all the love he could ever want, next month we'll finally clean our house, we've been too preoccupied with so many troubles to worry with dust and dirt and clutter, and so once the house is ready, and we've re-read all our dog books on raising one, we'll take on the blessed responsibility of a new dog.  I pray earnestly, in the name of Jesus Christ, that you will send me some angels to help husband and I clean our house, not to put it off, to go at it knowing the result will be the reward, and that a puppy follows, just as we might follow the Good Shepherd in everything we do.  Then finally harmony will be restored to our hearts and our home.

I am heavy in heart, Lord, I pray and pray and my eyes are still filled with tears.  So please, Lord, give me your peace, give me the will to do what I must, and give me your forgiveness for my confused state.  God bless this world, bless this forum that lets me pray openly in the Garden, and bless all people who struggle with problems much larger than mine.  I pray as I always pray, in the words of the song, "When morning fills the skies, my heart awakening cries, may Jesus Christ be saved," and in honor of and in the beautiful name of Jesus Christ, I pray these things so you will know and everyone will know that I believe in the reality of Your Grace.  Amen.

Meece

Amen, dogeyed.

barbe1958

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3jaysmom

so much of what you prayed, is also for me.. i will join you in your prayers, dogeyed, I know He is faithful.....3jays

3jaysmom

im back, had a stressful day: weird, God was speaking to me all day: subconciously, i kept himming "i surrender all.. now, if i just could... fussing with DH all day. i think this 2 wks off work is wearing thin... off to a dr appt tommorrow, then going to suggest a movie.. not stay home and "pick" at each other.. charity begins at home, right??? 3jays

barbe1958

Is DH getting under your feet 3jays? That's the problem when a lot of men retire. They don't know what to do with themselves. Us women, well, we've got tons of hobbies. Men have TV.

mumito

I am starting the newyear off with a very heavy heart.I need some assistance from above.

barbe1958

Dear God, please hold your child Kathleen in your hand and comfort her. Wipe her furrowed brow and console her pained heart. Protect her from further angst and hold her close to your heart to ease her soul. Allow the blessings of the season to fill her mind with happiness only, enough to push away the pain of yesterday and yester-year. I ask of this in Jesus' name. Amen

mumito

Thanks sweetie

Eph3_12

Father, Touch us all as we cross the line into the new year.  We know you are with each of us, but sometimes we are oblivious of You.  Give us courage, strength, joy, hope, patience, empathy, peace & love as we continue our life journeys.  I ask for your presence in Mum's life to be tangible & real to her.  Give her the ingredients required to lighten her heavy heart and bring her Your Grace. In Your Son's Name, Amen  

3jaysmom

i don;t know how to do the links to you tube.. try going to you tube  Lance Perry: he's an incredible guy, does all " the old hymns" barbershop style ALL by HIMSELF.. i'm finding a lot of relief listening... hope that helps you all...

  I too, find this day/eve very bittersweet. the songs, the prayers, the fellowship here is beyond words!.3jays

Raj20

Hi! Cherie!  May this New Year brings you happy and cheerful moments in your life Wish you a very Happy New Year 2012. You can log in to Youtube with your mail ID. The year 2011 was not so good year for me as there was lots of obstable in my family. I pray to God to bring happy moments to all my friends, family  throughout the year 2012.

3jaysmom

thats a beautiful picture, sneh... thanks...cherie/3jays

dogeyed

I love the picture too.  I come to the garden for a short prayer.  Heavenly Father, who knows all things and gives us everything we need, please send me a couple angels to help me clean my home in the next few weeks, this cancer hormone drug is turning my once-finally-normal life into turmoil.  I am filled with fear and am trying to stay in the moment, but I need some help so I won't stall around and not clean this house.  For once the house is clean, which will be so good for me, I've worried about it too long, but if the angels can help me, we will be able to finally give a little dog in the shelter a new and happy home for life.  May there be enough forgiveness and joy to go around to all of us, for we live in an era where cancer is killing us and hurting us, too many are dying, Lord.  In the Good Shepherd Jesus' name, I pray, GG

Hindsfeet

GG,,,,where do you live? If I know someone in your area I know they will be the angel you need to be the arms to embrace you and to help you out. I pray too that God will encourage you and hold you through all you are going through. I pray that God will free you of cancer and you health, energy and encouragement. In Jesus tender and forever love. E

also...if you belong to a fellowship or Church let them know your prayer request...hopefully they will surround you with all you need...food, service and clean your home.

mumito

Time for extra help for Barbe as well ladies.(((Barbe)))

Hindsfeet

How is Barb?

I would also appreciate your prayers for quick recovery for the recent mx and reconstruction.

barbe1958

Eve, you are still in my prayers as I haven`t heard that you are done with the surgery yet. Meaning the healing part - the hardest part!

Ladies, I was in the ER the other night and diagnosed with a Long QT Syndrome in my heart. VERY dangerous diagnosis!! It is often missed on a routine ECG as it doesn`t happen all the time. My alarm went off constantly all night as I lay there!! It MAY be drug induced and I have already cut 2 meds in half (can`t go cold turkey on either) as I prepare to start a cardio work up. I finally have a surgery date of Feb 6th for the tumour in my neck and throat. I picked up a horrid cough in the ER and am up eating icecream to soothe my angry throat as it hurts too much to cough!

I am very soon going to start feeling sorry for myself. Please help me get over it! All prayers are gratefully accepted.

Hindsfeet

Barb, I am so sorry for your heart problem. I will definately keep you in prayer. You are always there for us. Keep us in touch to how you are doing. Know that you are loved ((((hugs))))

And, yes, recovery with reconstruction from a mx is hard. If I knew how painful it would be and how long it takes to recover I might not have done it. I feel so helpless. I know you understand. I am not used to be waited on or doing nothing but find life on my laptop...that is when I'm awake. Today, I do feel a little stronger.

Meece

Love your avatar, 3jays!

Barbe, I know this has to be difficult for you.  You are so good at being strong for everyone else, lean on Him, and let us encourage you as you go through yet another health issue.  I don't know if there is a similarity, but I have tachycardia.  My heart would go into a super fast rythm and it would take 10 minutes or so before it could correct itself.  It made me panic because I would go light headed and nearly blackout.  Something as simple as a phone ringing could set me off.  I suffered for years and finally my GP sent me to a cardiologist.  I thought he would not believe me but at that very first visit he scheduled me for a cardiac catheter ablation.  he went in and ablated the nerves which were causing my heart to  "short circuit"  Unfortunately he could not get all of the problem causers because one lies at the central node and if he were to mess with it, it would mean a ICD or pacemaker.  So I take meds, but much less than I used to.  I feel much better and the spells are fewer and shorter.  God has provided an understanding of the body to our physicians and there are so many new things they are discoving each year!  I pray for your peace as they are working on your treatment plan.

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Dogeyed, praying that your angel(s) will arrive soon.

3jaysmom

thanks, Meece: i thought it was a great viual of the 3 boys who dont want to hear, discuss, or look me straight in the eye, with the bc..hahaha

   am praying for both Barbe, and evebarry..

  today i was "telling God in my meditations that i am wonderfully made, and asking for a dr who understood at least the thyroid part of it !hahaha i've "stepped up my game spiritually, so i know thats' one of the reasons the Lord hasallowed this in my life.... i got a new "life verse " from springtimes signature.. its right where i can see from my bed, and it really helps me, all day, everyday...

   Lately, i've been following a lesson on " the diciple who He loves" and its helped me, also.. concenraring on how much He loves me, reminds me.. i love Him so much.. so thats' encouraging me, in this hard time.. I really do need only to pay attention to the one right thing.......3jays

Raj20

Barbe! so sorry  for you but  you will be alright soon  with proper medication. If you belief me  you do breathing exercises for 10 minutes  in the morning  hour which will help your problem. I know you  have all the  tactics how to face the problem better than me but this is what I experiece .. just sharing with you . You cut  down  red meat, oil. If you can use Olive oil(vergin) that is also good.

Sneh,

Hindsfeet

I am so glad although we face problems that we have a problem solver.