The Hermit Club

Teka

SPOILER!

Furfriend2

Teka/Jazzy

Thank goodness for Spring

Furfriend2

Ladies,

I think there is a dense fog in my brain as well.  I forgot an apt this past week and had to reschedule for next week. Perhaps Chemo Brain???

Teka

Possible, my last BC treatment was in March 2011 and I still feel a touch of chemo brain.

Gingerbrew

Spring, spring, spring, springity spring!!!!!!!!   Hopping around in joy, okay, yes  I have a broken back but I am hopping in spirit here!!!

Teka

Easy, you'll scare away the robin in my dream of spring!

Jazzygirl

Gingerbrew- a broken back, what happened? You poor dear, thinking of you this evening. Keep us posted on how you are doing?

camillegal

Ginger WTH did I miss-- have a broken back??? OMG how, when WTF? Tell us.

Anonymous

Ginger, did you fall? Or do you have osteoporosis? I know with that, many times the bone breaks before you fall.

I'm sorry you're dealing with that on top of everything else.

Paula

Jazzygirl

I have to repost this every once and awhile for the newbees, and also because it it Teka's favorite. 

SallyS70

Ginger, so sorry to hear about your back.  Are you being well taken care of?

Jazzy, love the picture!

Teka

Jazzygirl,

You know me so well!

Jazzygirl

Cami- you know, I am on the go a lot, but don't do nearly as much as I used to (probably a good thing too). All I have gone through has taught me a few things- life is short and you need to focus and do what matters to you. I need to work for a living, so there is that, but I am trying to do the things that support my greater well being. Exercise, music, writing, my yoga practice, and time with people who care about me. Going through cancer treatment has given me so much clarity about so many things and people. It is a reality check like no other!

Having a slower morning today and then meeting a friend for lunch around noon. I started writing my short story yesterday. It is called the Red Canary in the Coal Mine.

I hope everyone has a nice Sunday! 

Teka

camillegal

Jazzy I like the name and I get the meaning. U'r just an amazing woman, and I'm sorry if I embarrass u and go on and on about u, but since I've known u u have just blossomed nd I love it--u've put more positive in u'r life, and it's wonderful and u are such a caring person. OK nuff about u Missy. LOL

Teka I love that pic too.

Paula u'v brought up such an interesting point, so many times a bone will break (even a hip) and we could fall and people will say they fell and broke a bone.And it's the other way around--it just amazes me how delicate our bones can get---well especially after all this chit--it seems to target our bones big time.

Jazzygirl

Cami- I love the things you write about me! I just wanted to share how things have changed for me the past year. You know for a long time, you are just trying to survive, get through every day, keep up with what you have to. I may be starting to really move beyond survival now into the new phase/chapter I knew would be coming. My focus this year is on health- healthy body, healthy relationships, healthy work situations!

The story will have an interesting twist you won't expect!

camillegal

Jazzy and u'd better believe I'm going to say I knew u when-----

Gingerbrew

A few people asked how I hurt my back. On September 3rd I was making a turn when a car hit my car at approx 45 mph. on the drivers side rear quarter panel, actually directly into the rear wheel. It actually broke all of that snapping it off. Totaled my car a big Toyota highlander. The seat belt and shoulder strap tightened down so hard I couldn't believe it. The side air bag walloped me in the head and shoulder and upper back, hard. I was immobilized and take to the ER. The ER Dr requested a Cat scan of my cervical vertebrae. He referred me back to my Dr.and therein came the problem. My Dr left the practice and I didn't actually have a specific Dr. Only three Drs were left and I had seen one for a UTI two different times. I finally went to see him in October, he gave me a referral for PT. I went to PT. The pain did not lessen in my back. Other pains did lessen as time passed and I was strengthened. It became somewhat simpler to get in and out of bed, it was nearly impossible the first few months.   

Fast forward to January and my Onc appt. She ordered an MRI right off, she wrote re-staging for the reason. This pain in my back could have been Metastasis and I thank God that it wasn't. It is a compression fracture, She referred me back to my Dr and he right off referred me to an orthopedic surgeon.. I now have an appt at the Ortho for Feb 6, first appt. 

Funny thing is if I am sitting I don't hurt. If I stand up and start to walk I hurt badly, too badly to continue on after about 20 steps. I have a stool in the hall and a shower chair in the bath, a chair in the garage and a chair by the door of our bedroom. I do not do any kitchen work or cleaning. Just standing hurts just as badly. I think I was overlooked at the ER because there was someone who, as staff put it, was very sick so they didn't spend much time with me. The RN and Dr apologized for being so busy elsewhere.  I was so stunned by being in an accident and hurting so much that I felt glad my neck was not broken. The rest of the pain I thought it would go away. I am 68 and a pretty patient person. I was really glad my DGD who was in her car seat in the back seat wasn't injured, she is 3 years old and my joy.  This was the first accident that I had been in and I am still surprised by how much it affected me. Thanks for asking, I hope my explanation makes some sense to you. 

If I wasn't me I would have been yelling at me to go back to the ER. Alas I didn't.   

DGD is coming over for a play date at noon so I am off for a while to read and play ponies and such.  

Hugs Ginger   

louise2

Can I join this club please?  I started this 'journey' 9 months ago, and can so relate to what has been discussed.  I was already suffering from severe depression before diagnosis, and life is obviously more difficult now.  Has anyone else been depressed and anxious, even before having breast cancer?  I have become even more of a hermit.  Even getting dressed feels too much effort, and I often stay in my pyjamas.  Like you, I also get asked all the time when will I get the All Clear, and am told that now I have had treatment it can be put behind me.  It doesn't feel that easy.  I agree that only others who have gone through this can really understand.  By the way, I love the cat pictures and captions, they really cheer me up.  Thanks a lot.

Teka

louise2, Welcome!

Sunday, 3:22pm in the North Country!  

Why should I bother getting dressed this late in the day.

I'm looking forward to a soak in the tub.

Jazzygirl

Hi hermits- welcome Louise2! Yes, we all get a lot of that "are you all done with it now, everything back to normal?" We know there is only the new normal we must find after everything. My journey began 17 months ago, and it is still sometimes very much one day at a time for me. We have a lot of cat (and animals) lovers here so it is a good place to hang out. We are an easy going bunch, often known as the "judgement free zone!" Glad you found us.

Ginger-your story with it taking so long to find out what is really going with your back is sad to me, but also not surprising. I work in healthcare, and know ERs are filled with lots of other problems and sometimes people get sidelined. It used to be that ERs were the place to go and get checked out after a car accident, but now many other things get put first (including the ever present gun shot injuries, drug overdoses, etc.) I am sorry it took you so long to get diagnosed, but glad they finally figured out the problem. You have been through a lot and hope you continue to heal and feel better every day.

Teka- I think a soak in the tub is on my agenda for this evening too.

Teka

CCFW

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Jazzygirl

CC- glad your outing was fun! 

camillegal

it's tough pain.  Good Luck.Welcome Louise I love u'r accent too. I think we all have gone thru, u look good and u must feel fine now--everything turned out all right. Well I don't think it works like that--we have all kinds of scars but here we do understand and we talk about that and a lot of things.

Ginger to have that back and u just kpt on going amazes me, I have nothing broken bus my back has been affected by all this and

Teka

How do I hear an accent on-line?

camillegal

Aha Teka---u have to use u'r imagination. hahaha

Teka

Doable!

Jazzygirl

Went for a walk. It stimulated me to come home and work more on my short story. I think I have got the setting done and the beginning of character development. I decided on my walk there were other interesting things my father told me about his father's experiences that I can roll into this story. I am spinning the canary tale now....

Who is watching the Grammy's tonight? They are coming here in another half hour.

Teka

I don't care for the Grammy's.