Fuzzy's Romp Room

SpecialK

lauren - happy b-day to your daughter!

FireKracker

Veggy!!!!!please give me that survay to fill out for you....please!!!!I need to vent for YOU..

I sure wish the timing was betta for you to come to NY....next time!!!

And you Ducky....you never mentioned a word about the reunion...you could tell me to shut the hell up and leave you the hell alone.

Fuzzy---you can pick me up either in NJ,PA or NYC....Ill go with you.

ridergirl

Please come north to ontario i want to meet you all!!!!

Anonymous

Fuzzy - If you pick up Grannydukes in Pa I'll be hitch hiking.

thefuzzylemon

Oh dear. I'm just down today. No call, no text. No nothing. I feel so betrayed. So sad. I didn't really want to post this but I might disappear for a bit. Not sure how to feel better. The foundation of the whole thing is pretty material and I just want this to be a bad dream...but its not.

Fword Fword Fword

sas-schatzi

Okay everyone hold on --we are here to take care of each other. We have alreadyrun away to here. We each are apart of the whole. Take a piece away and there is a hole.

ridergirl

Fuzzy please dont go anywhere. We are all here together, and im not ashamed to say I need you ladies and this place. Please tell us what you need...other than love and hugs which ill leave here for whoever wants some

sas-schatzi

gg--YOU NEEDED A HUG(((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))

dunesleeper

I'm sorry you are down in the dumps Fuzzy. It does make it hard to keep coming here, and yet I believe it is helpful to keep coming and reaching out or simply distracting ourselves. The romp room is the best for that, too.

My eyes are closing so I have to log off. Have my pre-op in the morning. I'll be checking back in at least once tomorrow.

thefuzzylemon

You're all right...thank you for pulling my head out of my butt. Totally the wrong thing to do is disappear....you are all so good to me and we do need each other. I just don't think there's any hope right now I guess....

Nancy dear Nancy....with all you're going through...Rider,SAS, ...Where we have been...Granny, GG, everyone....Lauren's baby's bday....our newest Romperettes...I really do need to be here. Thank you from all the little pieces of my busted-ass heart...(Fuzzy humor is apparently still in tact).

Nancy...yes, my youngest pissed all over me, my DH and my oldest then cozied up to her jackass father and on her move in day at the dorms...well, I guess I kinda had enough. Ugh. And, I have a dream to rent an RV and tour around to see everyone! OMG! How awesome would THAT be! And...sounds like I'd have company!! Ah...there it is...my happy is still there..

Sorry...I guess I get self destructive - no wait! This might be that aggressive behavior my shrink talked about. Lightbulb moment! Oprah might call it an ah-ha.

You all are the Shit!! Which, as we know in Nightmare definition...you're worth bazillions to me.

I never intend to leave put anyone's names...I hope we all understand that...typing with one finger on my little touch screen phone makes for edits that are never meant to be insensitive.

So, how does one knock a child back to super sweet, loving, kind and open minded? This may consume me for a while....

Did I mention I'm way better at being pissed than sad? True story. The worst part is....this all ties into the same reasons I'm in MH. Blech blech blech.

OMG. I love you guys. I really do. Tomorrow is a new day...

Baby Puppy just came to me woofing....wagging that beautiful tail! You all made him feel better too!!! I can't believe how many of us get such pain from our babies.

dogeyed

Well, I can't RIDE in an RV.  I haven't been able to ride in cars since my accident so many years ago.  Oh, if I HAVE to, I can, I do take medicines for it.  As for visitors, I told husband I wanted a real high wall built out of stone on the roadway, with an iron gate, and a little button thing that when you push it, it says, "GO AWAY."  Hahahaha.  But you guys can send me a postcard if'in ya'll REALLY head out.  And eventually we'll finish cleaning up this plague house, I might even take a shower.

I'm sorry, you kind ladies, that various young'ins are treating you all so rudely.  It's bad enough to slowly let them go, and then they kick you on the way out.  Ya'll say, "What the EFF did I do???"  I guess it's an independence thing, and one day they mature and come home, so grateful for good food, clean sheets, and folks who KNOW their wretched selves and love them anyway.

Anybody watch "American Pickers" on TV?  Hilarious flea market type guys, their joking around is pretty funny.  There's another show I wanted to mention, but OF COURSE I cannot recall it.  I swear, husband and I can talk without using a single noun and understand each perfectly.  "You know, that movie with that guy in it that was in that other movie."  "Ohhh, yeah, I know that guy."  Well, lotsa love always, GG

leggo

Aw Fuzzy. I might be reading something that's not there, but geez, having a parent that has cancer sucks...plain and simple. I always think, how can we expect kids to act appropriately when most adults don't even know how to in that situation. The sh*t that goes through a kid's head, knowing their parent has a serious illness....my gawd. Take comfort sweetie....they might say the rudest, crudest things in a heated moment, and then come back spilling their guts with an apology after they've thought about it a while. My mom was sick for most of my childhood, and holy cow, I remember thinking (and saying) some pretty awful things. Sometimes, it takes a while for that empathy gene to kick in, but it always does, sooner or later. Forgive and forget....kids aren't fully cooked.

thefuzzylemon

So, you all have magic powers...you really do. I am going to tell her, sometime, that she hurt me. Oh yeas. She is young and I remember I didn't understand my step fathers illness either (that's the story I had published) and I was such a punk. I admired that beautiful man far too late. JBaby was so mean to all of us for a long time...I'd like to say it was a heated moment because I can understand those. Since I am unable to work, not bringing in an income, I am now without value in her world....that's where the pain sets in. Maybe I should give her my story to read....I've kept that from my girls because its not a good story....but it moves the reader.

So...your magic powers gave me hope and some fight! I'm going to fight with a bucket of paint today!! I love to be surrounded by color and I want to try that Behr brand. My oldest will be home this weekend so I'll surprise her!

Gracie-GG-Nancy....if it works out....and I'm really trying....that RV thing is for real! Could take a while but that's ok. I'd love to see Europe! But...I'm not Good on planes or on boats....so I'll have to see the pics! LOL

Ok. Kitchen or dinning room first? Guess it'll depend on the color I buy!!

Love love love love Love everyone!

LeahLeah

Happy painting Fuzzy, for me painting always looks like so much fun, then I get everything all taped up, get started and Oh Wait, I hate painting!!  arggg... I'm glad you have something to keep you busy and your oldest will be soooo surprised!

I finally told my boys about the BC yesterday, pretty much No response really, although it had to be by phone and they are over a 1000 miles away, so I don't know how they are taking it.  I've gotten a couple return txts from my baby, almost 18 today, so I take that as a good thing.  They have had a rough time of it, since my ugly divorce from their (insert extremely derogatory description) father.  Soooo...

I've always dreamed of going off in an RV too.  I always seem to perk up and sleep better and everything when I'm away from home, so if you'll all have me, I'm in!!

Oh and I know everyone doesn't know me so well, but I'm seeing my BS friday to go over "things", it's a 3 hour drive...(anybody else hear "three hour cruise"...I'm Gilligan!) anyway I'd love to have any and all come along, what better way to get to know ya'll??!!  

Peace 

sas-schatzi

leahlee-- welcome stay a while, takes a bit to get everyone straight. it's a good place to be.

GG so wish there was something that could fix that damn back, chronic pain is such a drain. BTW loved the elephant story, That one elephant was pretty damn smart. May be not a team player, but definitely smart.

ginger jump on in.

Nancy how's it going? Are you getting caught up on sleep

Fuzzy and all, I'm in florida have room for a bus rv and probably a couple more.  A30x15 in ground pool screened that is finally back to being balanced. Rv or not, having any of you visit would do you AND me wonders. Their is nothing like a visit to renew  energies and make me get the house in order.LOL

Fuzzy good choice sweetie, i was serious about the phone calls.

Rider sounds like you are getting comfortable

Gracie glad you are here 

ridergirl

First pamidronate infusion today and so far feel ok. Apparently next month they just hook me up and send me home and i take the iv out when its done. Met with the social worker while i was there today and she seems to feel i will qualify for disability benefits when i stop working so thats awesome news. Kinda funny tho shes only been working with cancer patients for a month so i had to explain a lot of stuff to her but she seems really nice so all in all went good. Just came in was sitting outside but the mosquitos drove me in

Anonymous

Plastic sugeon appointment today. We talked about Plan B. Seems like the left breast (cancer side) isn't healing that good...not enough blood circulation to the skin. He gave me another week of antibiotics. Oct 3 I go back and find out what's next. So far washing the dcar with surgical soap and neosporin hasn't done a thing. Its all about the circulation.

Where's the RV? I need to get out of here! I have to fight with myself to keep out of the dark. How much more canone take????

dunesleeper

Ridergirl, I'm glad your infusion went well. I hope it stays that way. And yes, it is true, as best I understand it, that stage 4 is a guaranteed yes for disability. Just make sure to get your application in as soon as you stop work.

Veggy, I'm sorry your skin is having circulation problems. That is my main motivator to keep me from smoking. It is supposed to interfere with healing, and my exchange surgery is Tuesday. Of course, I can't afford to smoke either. lol. I still miss them, though, and I didn't even love smoking.

Fuzzy, I don't know, of course, what is going through your daughter's mind, but I have noticed some "kids" seem to need to make themselves mad at their parents when they leave the nest, even when the idea is theirs and they are excited about it. I'm thinking the emotional distancing makes the parting easier for them. I hope she is not too proud to make her apology quickly and help your heart to heal.

The pre-op was pretty uneventful, although I didn't have the best venipuncturist in the world. It wasn't so bad, though. Now I'm set for the surgery.

I have to read 2 more chapters for school in the morning, so I will have to log off here. My eyes are already trying to close. I doubt I'll get more than a couple pages read. lol

FireKracker

Veggy---im comin up toward the end of sept...if you are feelin ok i would love to see you...even if its for just a hugggg.My GD is gonna baptize the baby i think sept.23...im comin a few days before that....She always askes me for you....and if we can meet maybe we can plan the trip for real!!!!!!

Hello everyone!!!!!

Fuzzy-most kids are selfish,self centered,think we owe our lives to them,would love us to just agree with whatever they think,want and say...all ages!!!!!!Focus on that trip....imagine that!!!

ridergirl

Dunes thanks for your best wishes. It always nice to be able to share the good stuff too. The nurse i had today was wonderful got the iv started in one go and actually asked me if it was ok to use that arm for BP or had i had surgery. I was very pleasanntly suprised as i know some of you ladies with LE worries have to fight over it.



Veggy when the load seems like too much remember there are lots of us here willing to help you carry it. You do not have to bear any of it alone. Love and hugs

thefuzzylemon

Rider...you're so sweet.

There's a lot going on with everyone and I am with you all the way. So glad the infusion went well. That's wonderful! Veggy, and everyone, you have a place here too...incase you feel like wandering!! Wi is pretty but Leahlee has Michigan....way way better! Dang girl....you're a hoot!! I'm singing that song!!! Wahahaaahaaa!!

You're right! She pushed me out to get her "freedom"...which is crap because she had nothing but freedom. But, I spent 10 hours painting today and I can thank her for that. Looks pretty good too! LOL Got half a mind to paint her room BC PINK!!! IGNORE ME NOW YOUNG'UN!

OhVeggy. You have such a giant load. Nancy, how are you...are you taking care of yourself? Yes, I've heard stage 4 is disability APPROVED. SAS, I'm fighting with my phone...its hard to explain.

Oh man...I have a pooch insisting I play with him by bumping my hand and licking my face!! LOL really hard to type!! Wow.

I'm on the bus! Ready to get the party started. And, I do need a party...we all need a good time. When my head hits the pillow tonight, I will think of each of you...thank God we're together.

Anonymous

I am so stinking tired of this BC crap. I'm tired of being uncomfortable, the pain, the disfigurement, being exhausted, sleeping on the sofa, lack of alcohol (not that I drink a lot), acting normal and lack of interest. I forgot what I am supposed to be interested in.  I think my painkiller is kicking in. Finally some relief.

Thanks everyone. 

Gingerbrew

Fuzzy, what everyone said about teens distancing themselves when they are preparing to leave to totally spot on!     

Also when my mom was declining I was angry with HER! Because she would be leaving.   Talk about everything coming around is so true.  

 Me I have some sort of bad sleep disabi;lity. I go to the University of Washington sleep clinic next monday to finally try to get some idea what goes on in my brain!   I have night mares, the ones where I try to get up and run  but I fall down and really hurt myself. I also have night terrors and I scream, I don't know what htose are about, I do not remember content of them and have had them my entire life. My poor husband I am surprised he actually sleeps with me. Then to make this even more perfect I have delayed sleep syndrome. My clock is on a prolonged schedule, I have  something like a 28  or longer built in day. It tends to rotate forward until I am up all night and then on forward to where for a while I am on days again. 

I hope the Docs there have some sort of an answer to help me. I know the sleep schedule is the most difficult to treat of circadian issues, but I am hoping they have something new. I love early morning, it is so pretty outside and the light is so clear and clean. So now you all know my craziness, and it is crazy. My uncle jumped through a second floor window in his sleep. My poor 9 year old granddaughter has the same night terrors I have. She was relieved to know I also had the same problem.  

I'll let you know how it goes.

Ginger 

  

thefuzzylemon

Holy crap Ginger!!! Glad you're getting that checked out. That's some scary shit!! Like, I'm completely terrified for you. My Princess Pre Madonna had night terrors as a child. I had to get locks installed way up high so she wouldn't walk out of the house. Shed tear up the kitchen and bathroom pretty good. I wrote an entire children's story about a little child who caught the demons in his dream...kinda wild and it might get published someday... its fiction of course...as you know, its more like a seizure. She had daytime seizures too. Oh, she's just tearing me apart. She's 18 now...do I get to give her a whooping?

Veggy...please keep talking it out. It fucking sucks and I want to help so bad. Even if its just to listen I'm here. I crawl into a cave every morning (can't frigging sleep til then) and its "my little place"....no shit allowed. Crazy, right? This morning, its me and you babe. There's water, and a fire that flickers, and no agony at all...join me!

Nancy, your heart must hurt...and as big as it is it must feel so heavy. You didn't do anything wrong and its sometimes easy to fall into blame...you did everything you could. Big hugs to you...big bear hugs.

I almost posted JBabys cell phone number on here...incase anyone would have wanted to send her a text for me....a copout, I know. Its been three days and the longest I have ever gone without hearing from her. I've thought a lot about what this damn disease did to her and I can't stomach it. And now what its done to us. I'll just text her. I'll let it out. Then maybe some peace will come.

Sleep sweet everyone.

thefuzzylemon

Update....I sent the text. Told her I'm hurt, I'm not ready to talk to her, a view of what I'm seeing and that I love her unconditionally.

Really don't feel good right now.

Gingerbrew

Yes, the sleep specialist I am going to see is a neurologist. I have always known my brain was wired a little differently. I also have ADD as well as opthomoplegic migraine, which is so close to a seizure in symptoms. Long ago before my migraine was diagnosed I was given mysoline for epilepsy but it turned out it was this strange migraine. I never had pain with the migraine for many many years.  How different we all are in our sameness. 

Ginger 

dogeyed

LEAH & RIDER, I'm getting to remember your two names better, but I have NO IDEA what I just read one page ago.  Smile.  VEGGY, I hate it that you're going back thru cancer all over again, how wearying.  GINGER, gosh, your sleep problems are terrible!  I had a brief period of night terrors, and as a teen I slept late, and a family friend was visiting my folks, and suddenly I started screaming and screaming, and it really disturbed that lady!  Mom and Dad were as cool as cucumbers becuz they'd been hearing it for a while.  And of course I have no memory of it whatsoever!

FUZZY, I do feel your pain and confusion over your issues, and I worry about how desperate you are with your emotions.  But it's okay, of course, to feel, to freak out, to mope and pout.  I am tops when it comes to pouting.  I shut down and feel wretched over not cleaning my house, barring my folks from coming over anymore, worrying over something 30 years ago, etc.  It's a clog in my brain, I do believe, a mental clog.  I'm all clogged up.  But when I think of you, my owne true sister, we walk together thru flowery fields, dappled sunlight under trees, all is peace and feather soft with you. 

Folks, I watched a program on TV last night about some beautiful horses called Gypsy Vanners, I believe, they breed them mostly in England, but also parts of the U.S.  A little bigger than a pony, the stallions are almost regular sized, they're a patchwork of black and white or brown and white, gorgeous long manes, Cydesdale-like hair on their lower legs.  It was magic watching them run in groups of four or five thru big pastures.  Always, GG

Gingerbrew

GG you can find lots on the Gypsy Vanners on youtube.   I prefer Fresians myself but these do have it for flowing beauty.  Thanks for the photo. 

Ginger 

crog234

Hi all. I haven't been here in awhile. Somehow this group got deleted from my favorites!!! I knew something was wrong as this forum never has a day go by that someone is not posting here. Glad I finally went and checked.



I have missed so much goings on. I read back a few pages but can't keep who said what straight in my head so I am going to just send out HUGS to whoever needs them and to everyone else too!!!!



Glad to be back...



Cindy

MamaV

Sorry I've been away - crazy goings on with work and family.  I've just spent the last hour catching up and like GG said, I can't even remember it all... so this is for all of you ...

Veggy and Rider I think - Sorry this is fresh and new (or again).

Everyone with family problems - I hear ya sista! 

I always read but cannot respond if I run out of time, but you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

I have had a stupid couple of days - ruined my favorite white blouse with red nail polish, smashed my toe (one of the one's that the nail came off from chemo and is growing in crazy so it hurts), had a bird crap on my car (just on the window where I look to the side view mirror so I get to see if every 5 fricken seconds), my stomach still feels like crap b/c I had to change my thyroid meds last week, the new thyroid meds also gave me an enormous (ok exaggeration) blister on my lip, my son finally broke up with his girlfriend last night (she's not ready to have such strong feelings for a boy???), I had to discuss with an employee a sexual harassment charge, and blah blah blah.  Stupid, stupid, stupid.  Wow - that felt so good to get out!

NOW - I'm leaving work early today - getting my teeth cleaned (I love that) and then playing golf with my husband and then NOT going back to work until next Tuesday!  YES BABY!

Hugs all!