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Loveroflife

Found this and wanted to share. #2 is not easy for me.

Have I told you yet? You ladies are amazing and wise. Time to get to work here too.

Smaarty

for shep and lover, here's the jeans that were missing. Just see the jeans!

This is what I worked on Saturday at a workshop. It's call one block wonder. Going to do more sewing on it today. None of these are sewn together yet.

Haven't forgotten the blueberry muffin recipe. They turned out very heavy, I put too much cereal in them. I would have liked them to be a little sweeter next time. So next week I'll try again then post the recipe for you.

Happy hump day.

Anonymous

Smaarty!!!!!

I was reading this on my tablet.......first thing I see in your post is those bee-uuuu-ti-ful blue jeans. I scroll down and just the first line of text underneath comes into view......"This is what I worked on Saturday...... Going to do more "

LOL - I always have admired your work 😜

(your other "project" is a feast for the eyes as well)

susan3

lover, great sayings.......I could add a few more right now but they wouldn't be appropriate...lol

Brother called to get dog back. I said she is not even remotely trained yet. Going potty isn't the problem, bring a puppy is. Into and on you've furniture tables and every thing, underfoot, biting, chewing ...regular puppy exhausting stuff. My brother said he doesn't care, mom is driving him nuts asking for the dog back. Broke her arm cause of this puppy, I am trying to prevent further harm to mom. Brother doesn't care, doesn't want to listen to mom anymore. I told him no, not safe for mom yet. Things went south really quickly from there. He has such an angry mean side. I am out of his life again. And the wheel continues. Counseling tomorrow yeah. I might give the dog away now, so my brother can't show up here and take it. So so bad for mom. Way to rambunctious for her right now.

Anonymous

Mags, I'm sorry about your mouth/teeth pain. It sounds awful and stinks you were told to put off the dental work.

Susan, thank you for the nice thoughts. I really like what you said, "not to expect, but to accept." I'm sorry about the exchange with your brother. I just don't get mean people!!

Loverly, The baby laugh made me smile! It's so helpful to me to have all of you to talk to. My captive audience!! Oh, and #2 on that list is not easy for me either.

Smaarty, Nice pics...both of them!

Jazzy, It was my therapist that actually said to me that I cannot get everything from one person. I do agree with this. I have my friend I go dancing with, a friend that likes movies, my older friend, etc. It's that common ground thing binding us together and I know that there is no one friend to meet all my social (interests) and emotional needs. These days when I imagine this long time friend, she is sitting with her fingers in her ears saying "la la la." If she doesn't want to hear it, she's just going to block it out. And you're right...in one text she told me I'm mad all the time and it's unhealthy. I told to stop judging me and telling me how to feel, and she told me I was being defensive. From here on out, I'm just going to refuse to get into things via text. She's constantly reading tones into my text, and when I respond to something tries to shut me down. The friendship may continue, but it's definitely changed. Like you, I think, I now really want to spend time with people that I have real connections with and not waste my time talking about fake stuff. Thanks for listening and your input! I hope all goes well when your friend visits.

Sweet dreams, everyone. Thanks for listening.

susan3

wildtulip , me too. Gonna work with my counselor tomorrow to remove toxic people from my life. I actually googled, don't laugh, will I go to hell if I walk away from family members....lots of hits!!! Who knew. Came across a site Luke ( something or other). I saved it. Had many many questions posed. Not one I could answer with a positive nice answer. Wow, it put things into perspective. This puppy has been such an eye opener for me. I have realized my health is not as good as I thought. I really can't train a pup. Don't have enough energy anymore. So the question is, where do I need to extend my energy...easy answer, with those who love me and care about me. Now, put it into action. Go me...go for the peace:).

Nighty nigh

Holeinone

Susan, you always crack me up. Who googles that? Of course I do not believe in Heaven or Hell, but I understand how helpful it is for the majority of folks. I just was not raised that way. I told a 4-5th grader a few years back, when I worked at the school, that the devil was a thing of the past, no longer exists. I was mortified at myself, none of my buisness what his family is teaching him.

Sorry I have been MIA for so long. The baby photos are precious.

So much has happen here, I was not able to keep up.

Mags, not sure if I told you how very sorry I am you joined the other side. It just stinks. I had kyroplasty on 2 vertebraes one week ago. Everytime I have a test or scan there is a bunch of crap to deal with, physically & emotionally. My expectations of getting back to a semi-normal life is slipping away. Very little energy, when I do push myself, I become very winded or dizzy.

Waving hello to all, the newbies, Jwoo, CHEVY.......

HOOTIE Hoo to you know who. Think of you often.....

PhylisswhomightbeintheFBI.........keep on truckin

susan3

holeinone, sooooooo glad to,see your post. So sorry you are pooped. There myself now. Not happy about it. You think you can push yourself and then you are heaving to breath. Not fun.. Got myself into " reformer" Pilates classes. Look it up in yoga studios . Something I switched to. Only 2 classes so far, so jury is still out on if it will help or not, but I am not struggling to breath.

You made me happy to see you here...take care my friend

susan3

what happened to our 20 questions thread

Loveroflife

I am happy to see you here too, HiHo, but sad you are struggling.

Susan, I can't believe you google that...hahaha. I think Ms. Ducky has forgotten. For awhile I thought I inadvertently took it out of my favorites. I vote for rehoming Marley. Shoot, I might end up inhell.

WildT, hope DD is better.

Ms. S, I love the whatever you call it. So bright and cheerful.

I have spent nearly two hours trying to help DD set up her wifi printer. Nada It worked at home with her MacBook. Oh well. She can contact technical support tomorrow because this IT person can't do it from far away. Good learning experience for her. I need to cut the cord. I need to cut the cord. I need to cut the cord. Got to shower and go to bed cuz tomorrow has its own challenges. Nite nite

JunieB

WildT - I volunteer in the admin. office of our local Men's & Women's homeless shelter. I do data entry of the volunteer applications and other forms in an Excel spreadsheet, some filing, and some other odds and ends tasks. Been doing this for 3.5 years, but starting to feel like it's time to do something else.

Mags - Glad to hear you had a great time with your family. Sorry you're having problems with your teeth and jaw.

I saw my rheumatologist today and when I told her the arthritis pain in my finger joints (mainly my right thumb) was making it difficult for me to do my knitting, she said "I can do an injection for that." I hestitated, but then decided to go ahead and let her inject my thumb joint. I was really expecting it to hurt, since finger joints are so small, but she numbed it really well and used the smallest needle and it was over in a few seconds. She did an excellent job.

Loverly - I'm sure it's so hard for you to cut the cord, especially since you love your DD so much. But you are not abandoning her, only letting her spread & test her wings a bit. She'll always be your little girl inside.

Susan - So sad to hear you are not able to continue training Marley. How are you going to go about re-homing her? Any prospects for a good, loving, safe home? At least you'll have the knowledge that you saved her from a horrible fate if she'd stayed where she was.

Sleepy time for me now too. Goodnight to all.

Jazzygirl

Susan- now that is awesome, googling "will I go to hell if I walk away from my family?" Well, I think not. Think of it also as creating "healthy space". Sometimes we just need family in small doses. Friends too. Anything that takes away from our well being should be reduced or eliminated.

Wildtulip- how is your sick child doing? Is he or she better?

Hol- good to hear from you and know things are not easy for you. Send you love and hugs.

Loverly- I am pretty good with all things computer, but forget wireless network set up. Got a computer guy that does that.

Sassy- sending you a PM now.

Jazzygirl

Anonymous

My DD is still running a fever on and off, but what's really concerning is her cough. Her oxygen saturation is fine, but she has a history of coughing so hard that she wears out & then it settles in her lungs. So, today I started inhaled meds (nebulizer)...a steroid and another to open her airways. School starts Monday, so need to get her healthy!!

Susan, I understand the heartbreak of family distance. I have several aunts near me that haven't even acknowledged my cancer, and my dad walked out of my life. After my surgery in June he wanted to come visit. I told him he could visit the kids, but I was not going to brush everything under the rug and if he expected my engage with me we first needed to have conversations. He, again, decided to say "I'll stay away then." I had to set boundaries for my health and I decided that if my dad couldn't work with me to improve the relationship, then I was better off without him. Definitely go for peace!!

Junie, That's awesome...I have a passion for working with the homeless and although I don't right now, I have in the past. I'm sure your are appreciated!

Loverly, Be gentle on yourself..you will always want to do what you can to help your DD.

Off to call Dr about DD and tend to kids.

I hope for a no/less pain day for everyone.

susan3

wildtulip, hope your daughter is feeling better today.

I'm going to call my primary too. Can't get rid of this congestion/ cough. Will be 2 weeks tomorrow.

Jazz, lover, you will be glad to hear that (Googlehell)) said I wouldn't be going there....lol. But after counseling today....I might be committed. Should I fess up if keep my googling to myself

Yes, I have a home that wants her. I have her at doggy day camp today in case I get an unexpected visit from you know who. I am going to send her to boot camp training before giving her to theses people. It's a couple that I'll be getting married soon. I would like to keep her, especially after being trained, but it's a connection to my brother and I have to cut those . Gotta go to work

sas-schatzi

On a mission BBL HUgs Reposting this from another thread

A few seconds ago sas-schatzi wrote:

Folks I think John's link should be posted around in the threads you frequent.

1.Reason is most here have sleep problems.

2. It is a naturally occurring in the body

3. we need to use any thing that gives us an edge.

My personal experience with it is I used it for several years after BC @ the 10mg level along with Ativan. I had horrible insomnia. My ER+ path report said unfavorable outcome in two places. Always wondered why I haven't met'sd yet. Now 7 1/2 years.

I keep wondering if there was "something" I was doing that was helping?

Recent research is keying in on other things other than standard chemo drugs we need to keep these on our radar and make the decision whether they are reasonable to add to our regimen.

We all know it's still a crapshoot. I find that word the most disgusting word in the dictionary. So, this is an emphatic statement.

John reposting on my usual threads. Thanks for all the research you do.

18 hours ago JohnSmith wrote:

New article: Pre-clinical models reveal that Melatonin reduced proliferation of breast cancer stem cells in ER+ tumors.
https://blog.cirm.ca.gov/2016/08/24/sleep-inducing-hormone-puts-breast-cancer-cells-to-rest

TAGS: CSCs, transcription factor OCT4, encoded by the POU5F1 gene, mammospheres, Bisphenol A (BPA), MCF-7 cells

sas-schatzi

Jazzy, I got it, now I just need to get my butt in gear and mail. That's the part I drag my heals on. I have a tulip bowl that is cobalt. It has a name and pattern so it's officially collectible. BUT I would have to relook up the name. It would be subtle, yet I think pretty on the center of your patio table. Casting a low but visible glow with a votive. I'll post a pic. ........On the ADD and communication. I always was the one that was willing to focus and state the problems, which generally pissed others off that were either of an opposing view or a boss. You got invited to do eulogies. I got "invited to meetings" when folks wanted trouble areas to be discussed. I finally caught on and chose carefully when I would chase the windmill b/c the same inviters were happy to have me take on the windmill, but were silent in the debates(chase)

Shep, LOL, deep very deep. Like cow cakes...... I decided to unfollow, but not defriend all those idiots on bf. It was very liberating. I had already done some. But now going to do more.

Rory, HI welcome here. Yes, pretending to be normal is exhausting. I adore the small group close friend scenario. But no one whose known me in my past life would believe that. I loved it when my counselor dx'd me as ADD/ADHD and his explanation. Made so much sense to my whole life. But I was 59. Would have been much more useful at a younger time. How old were you when dx'd. Since we have decided to say all is normal within any abnormality. When you got a "Label" for the new normal, how did it impact your life? My short suit is small talk at big parties, unless the party is my own. It also would have made a huge difference in school. ADD'ers just don't focus on what doesn't interest them. That was me to a tee.

Tulip, just leave her alone for awhile and see if she comes around. So, many all over the boards have described similar friends with all kinds of different resolutions. I had two that had to be cut out of my life after a very similar story as yours. Then they wanted back in. I chose to not let that happen.

sas-schatzi

CHEVY WHERE ARE YOU?????????????????

sas-schatzi

Susie, Sorry your feeling the chemo chit...........I like the phrase "We are all meant to be Here"

Jazzygirl

Wildtulip- I hope your DD is feeling better soon. School starting up quickly now.

Susan- sometimes we just need someone like a therapist to say "it's okay to not talk to your family, or limit it, etc." I have a sister who is trying to make me feel warm and fuzzy about a visit with a former SIL who has always been ugly with me. I told my sister she needs to go find her Norman Rockwell moments on her own time. LOL!

Sassy- the bowl sounds like of cool?

sensitivehrt

so very behind on this great thread. Smaarty as you can see no wild haircut for me. It started to fall out on day 11 so I shaved it, and this is day 14. Haven't been up much for posting are lurking. Ended up with slight mouth infection and am on antibiotics. Finally feeling better. Hope to lurk on all the post I've missed tomorrow, not sure if I'll get a chance to respond. Then my sister is taking me out of town for the night. Much love to you all!

sas-schatzi

Sensi, hair loss sucks, but it grows back. Not about the ads on TV. NO Clue. But mine came back in an unruly inconsistent curly. Then went dead straight after-------a time. No clue what the time was. Frankly, I preferred the curly. I was prepared for the loss from my twin, she said when your head starts to hurt cut it all off.

DH Greg and I got out the electric shears. It was a together thing, b/c I warned him what sister Sue had said. We shaved me. It was interesting to see myself bald. Then I chose scarves versus wigs. Sister Sue had sent her wigs. In Florida, too hot. I chose scarves. Ironically, I kept the scraves from the 60-70's

In the Bc world, I forget what organization that allowed for wigs and scarves. I was at a BC place that allowed two wigs and several scarves. I did my 60-70's thing and they brought in all 4 people. to watch what I could do with scarves.. It was a hoot. They were youngers. They asked where I learned how to do it. I said with great shaded delight "The sixties".

Anonymous

This is second time up during the night with DD. She's getting worse, now has 103 temp. I just gave her meds and she's doing a neb. I'm thinking it's turned into bronchitis or pneumonia. Only 4 more hours and I call call and get her into Dr.

sas-schatzi

This probably sounds terrible, but we had such fun with head wraps and scarves in the 60 &70's .....miss them, they were so creative depending on what you were wearing.

sas-schatzi

Tulip, The info I have to go on is that the DD gas a preexisting condition, that now you are dealing with an exacerbation, You know the child, You have lived it for years. You know when to activate EMS and when to wait for the morning call to the doc. SO, sorry, with each event you have to do so many evaluations of what you see.. Kiddo allergies , seriously suck

Well missed the temp, What did you do?

susan3

wild ahhhh, hope you can get something to make your daughter feel better. Scary with temps. Body working hard to kill that virus. Hang in there

Sensi, hope you are feeling ok about the hair loss. It's is real tough for so many. I actually am an odd duck. Kinda enjoyed it. Got a lot more help from people cause there was a visible sign. Kinda enjoyed that time. Also I like looking for the rainbows .

Have a blessed day all

Jazzygirl

Wildtulip- concerned to hear about DD's worsening condition and that temp is high. I hope you are at the doctor this morning and getting her the help she needs. Keep us posted.

Anonymous

I have an appointment for my DD, but not till late this afternoon. She's ok for now.. Stinks we couldn't get in and get meds started sooner, but she's not at the point of needing ER. If we couldn't get in to a Dr today, I'd be taking her to urgent care. Sas, she was a 1 lb baby and had a trach until age 2, so I am used to this respiratory stuff. It started as a cold/cough with low grade fever at beginning of week, and I know with a sudden fever spike late yesterday that it's an indicator of a secondary infection. We have a pulse oxcimeter (measures oxygen level), and her levels have dropped throughout the week, but she's not at the point of needing O2. Thankfully I have what I need to monitor her!

Sensi, I went through chemo last year, and it is a different experience for everyone. I think loosing the head hair was harder on my kids and others then it was for me. I also used a lot of scarves, and knit hats..more comfortable.

Sending everyone good thoughts and hugs!

Loveroflife

WildT, awww the poor child. Please do keep us updated when you get a chance. In the meantime, sending up prayers for you and DD.

Sensi, nice shaped head.

Wren44

Sensi, You can also have fun with scarves. A member here had a red bandana with dreads. Be sure to wear a sun hat outdoors. Head sunburns hurt.